PORTIAWILLIS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PORTIAWILLIS PORTIAWILLIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768822 Yesterday was a crazy day. Had a headache all day. Think might have been from my blood sugar being low. Was also hungry all day. I ate but not nearly as much as normal. Did get in 25 minutes of walking but skipped the ball exercises d/t headache. Staying on track is really hard when you feel so bad. Was at the high end of my calorie range than decided that pecan pie would cure anything wrong with me. Well it did get rid of the headache but then I was discouraged for my lack of discipline. Jus... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 15:09:33 EST 30/30 day challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767707 Today I started a 30day challenge to study the bible for 30 minutes for the next 30 days. As I listened to the first video Joyce Meyer was talking about the necessity to be disciplined, to see success with any area of our lives. She recommends that we study some area that we are challenged with right now and see how Jesus will come to our rescue. I thought how appropriate this is as I start back with Spark People and try to change some of my bad habits and lose weight. I have decided to stud... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 22:52:06 EST Why http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765136 Well not such a good day eating wise but great other ways. Spent time with The Lord early this morning, got to spend time with my grandson tonight and his mother. Had a lot of good laughs. Tomorrow is another day and I except today's results with a smile and know that I will do better tomorrow <BR> <BR> . <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l884425658.jpg"> Fri, 22 Aug 2014 20:19:56 EST Here I am again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764542 Things went from bad to worse with my weight sense the last post. Not sure why. Not really important. I'm back and plan on staying. <BR> <BR> AS A MAN THINKETH IN HIS HEART, SO IS HE; THEREFORE, ALL OF MY THOUGHTS ARE POSITIVE. <BR> I TAKE GOOD CARE OF MY BODY <BR> I EAT RIGHT <BR> I LOOK GOOD <BR> I FEEL GOOD <BR> I WEIGH WHAT GOD WANTS ME TO WEIGH <BR> LET ME GRASP GOD'S LOVE THAT I MIGHT BE FILLED THROUGH ALL MY BEING WITH THE FULLNESS OF HIS SPIRIT <BR> <BR> <BR> T <img src="http://... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 21:56:11 EST God help me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691975 Today is just another day. A day that I can choose to make a good day or a bad depending on my attitude. Started this blog off with a really negative attitude. Thank God that I read what I was writing before I posted it. Today I choose to look at the world and myself with a positive attitude. I am healthy, my bills are paid, I have a beautiful new granddaughter and who cares if I ate a piece of cheese pizza as I was telling myself how awful I am. It stops here. I am grateful for the many bles... Sat, 10 May 2014 13:15:30 EST Time to get back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638893 Well not sure what really happened. Was going along so well. Was eating right, exercising and for the most part in a good state of mind. Lost weight last week and suddenly found my self eating everything I shouldn't be eating. No exercise the last 3 days and today just slept all day on the couch. At least I did something positive today and read some inspirational words that truly opened my mind to what I was doing. I was setting myself up for failure because I let my mind roam around and star... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 19:21:02 EST Review of January's goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614472 1. Lose 1lb a week---lost total of 8lbs <BR> 2. Eat 2 servings of vegetables daily--- managed to do about 2/3 of the time <BR> 3. Strength training 2 times / week---NONE <BR> <BR> 2 out of 3 not bad. Still disappointed in myself for not even trying except for once. Guess what they say about making sure you enjoy the exercises you pick is true. I really don't like to lift weights. Got to change that attitude about weights because the walking is not changing the shape of my body. Legs look lik... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 22:20:27 EST Sinful cookie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604818 Just left Chili's restaurant. Boy did I lose it tonight. I just quit counting calories when I reach 1800. They have a new desert that is absolute sin on a plate. Wish I could say I regreat eating it but my moma told me not to tell lies. I loved every bite I took. Back to work tomorrow. Fri, 24 Jan 2014 22:45:22 EST Down and out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599520 Not a good day for many reasons but guess I need to remember that things don't always go as planned but God has a greater plan for our life than we do. Lost a 4 month old child today, my favorite patient went to surgery to get a new heart and things didn't go well. Was in surgery 19 hours than had to have more surgery later today. My heart aches for his family. When I think of how I would feel if it were one of my grandchildren I realize just how blessed I am to have healthy children and gr... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 22:56:29 EST Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597469 Had a bad couple of days but back at it today. Had a very cold walk today but managed to last for 62minutes. Helped make up for the 2 days I didn't get my steps in. It is strange how much different everything looks in the winter. I have walked this same trail so many times, yet today it seemed so lost and lonely. I only saw one other person the whole hour. The squirrels and deer were in hiding and only saw a few blackbirds flying overhead. It was kind of neat though because when I stopped and... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 22:00:43 EST Trying to remember http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594903 Haven't blogged sense my Friday night splurge but you will be glad to know that until yesterday I was back on track. Got sick yesterday so only got in 5000 or so steps. Left work early and just couldn't eat the rest of the day. Than last night I was so hungry but nothing and I mean nothing tasted good. Than low and behold I noticed that forgotten bag of chips left over from the kids. Yes I broke down and ate a few. Really was just a few. I estimated 2 ounces. Drank 32 oz glass of H2O and went... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 15:33:37 EST Paying the price http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590660 Well last night I went to Chili's with my daughter and a friend. My friend and I split a California Flatbread and Blackberry Margaritas. We had a wonderful time and I enjoyed every minute of the food, drink, and companionship. <BR> <BR> Things I did right <BR> 1. Tracked everything I ate <BR> 2. Stayed within my calorie range <BR> 3. Drank 9 glasses of water <BR> 4. Got in over 13,000 steps by hiking for 3 hours at my favorite park <BR> 5. Had my 2 servings of veggies <BR> <BR> Things I co... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 21:13:13 EST Hoping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588649 Oh well another day of not reaching my 10,000 steps. No exercise except for 20 minutes walking in a circle in my living room. Needless to say that didn't last long. Could not find my walking video. Had the case and pulled it out to do the 4 mile walk when low and behold the walking video was gone and in its place a dumb movie. Moral of this story don't wait till the last minute to get in your exercise. Now for the positive from today <BR> <BR> water 8 glasses <BR> vegetables one but plan an... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 22:33:58 EST another day down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586158 A great day today. No hunger, no craving for sweets, stayed on track, and even managed not to eat from stress today. Several really sick children at work today with very upset families. <BR> <BR> water 8 glasses <BR> 2 servings of vegetables <BR> under calorie goal for the day <BR> No processed foods <BR> step goal attained <BR> fit and firm 10 min done <BR> <BR> only thing I regret about today is that I have not got in my daily lunch walk. Weather just to cold and just choose not to walk i... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 21:15:10 EST Crazy me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584999 Wrote a blog last night but went missing somewhere. Oh well I know I did it. <BR> <BR> water 8 glasses <BR> 2 servings of vegetables <BR> on track with calories <BR> fit and firm 10minutes done <BR> cooked and packed my food for tomorrow <BR> <BR> Mostly a good day without hunger. Did have a diet coke though. Much easier to stay on track when you are prepared. Now to get in the habit of coming home and cooking !!! <em>224</em> Mon, 6 Jan 2014 22:27:22 EST Jan 4th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582447 water 8 glasses <BR> no vegetables <BR> stayed within my calorie range <BR> no alcohol- really wanted a olive garden chocolate marshmallow martini but did resist that <BR> no exercise today - really tired and just decided not to <BR> <BR> Well as you can see didn't manage to stay on track for more that 2 days but the difference this time is, I am <BR> 1. Planning this weeks meals ahead of time. <BR> 2. Forgiving myself for not being perfect <BR> 3. Tracking everything I ate today. <BR> <BR... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 22:59:18 EST January 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580035 Water 10 glasses <BR> 2 servings of vegetables <BR> No bread today <BR> <BR> I have decided to lower my carb intake. My sweet tooth has gone crazy and the more I eat the more I want. Time for a intervention. No concentrated sweets. Will allow myself fresh fruit if really craving something sweet. <BR> <BR> Bad news for today, broke down and had a diet coke at dinner. Oh well maybe tomorrow I can do without. Can't expect to give up everything at once. <BR> <BR> All in all I feel pretty good ... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 21:35:46 EST New Year new goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578654 Decided to restart my program with spark. Evidently what I have been doing is not working so will go back to the basics. I am going to start with small steps and try to be very consistent. If that works for others it will work for me. The one thing I do know is I am tired of never meeting my goals. So I am going to set 3 goals and monitor them for 3 months than reevaluate where I am. <BR> <BR> 1. lose 1lb per week <BR> 2. eat 2 vegetables daily <BR> 3. strength train 2x's per week Wed, 1 Jan 2014 22:02:41 EST The Lord gives, He takes and He will restore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565845 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l745367745.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2024252677.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l845620540.jpg">My heart was heavy today as I started my hike at Radnor. It has been a rough couple of weeks. As my friends know I started work at Vanderbilt Pediatric Critical Care unit several months ago and I really love this job but it can be very emotionally challenging. We have lost several patients rece... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 16:40:34 EST 12/03/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556131 Hello Friends, <BR> As is often the case for me my intentions are good but just don't follow through. I have been walking every day and taking pictures but just can't seem to find the time to journal like I want to. Oh well feeling guilty doesn't do any good so have decided to just journal or blog whenever I can. With that said I have some pictures to post. Here they are. most are taken on Vanderbilt's campus <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l827697213.jpg"> <BR> ... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 17:14:57 EST 11/26/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551022 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1982539783.jpg"> <BR> As I was walking today on the campus of Vanderbilt University I was reminded how everything can change in just a few days. Last week,during one of my walks ,this campus was bustling with college students and the trees still had most of their leaves. Today almost no one but me was walking the campus trails and very few trees still had their leaves. The wind was blowing and the skies so grey and dreary, but I was determin... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 21:10:22 EST Sunday's walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549200 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l384764498.jpg"> <BR> Boy was it cold today walking around the lake at Long Hunter Park but was still a great day. <BR> I love walking when the air is crisp and the sun is shinning. I have seen this lake in so many beautiful settings. There is always something new to see. As I walk I talk with Jesus about all my many blessings and also my doubts and fears. I see his glory every time in the beautiful nature that surrounds me. Today my heart wa... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 15:57:49 EST Todays walk 11/11/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538400 Had a wonderful walk today at Two Rivers Park. It was a non weight loss victory. I have walked this same trail many times in the past and had to stop several times as I climbed the hills. Today I didn't have to stop at all and was not even short of breath. I did feel the burn in my thighs as I walked. I did 4.6 miles total. Took some great pictures but can't get them to down load. Oh well maybe next time. Mon, 11 Nov 2013 15:42:03 EST Nov 5th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533098 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1965761800.jpg"> <BR> Took this picture as I did my walk today at Long Hunter Park. It never fails to amaze me how this lake changes every time I walk the trail. Each season has it's own beauty but my favorite time is in the fall. Not sure why but something about the colors and the leaves falling reminds me that everything passes with time. Our GOD is so awesome. Tue, 5 Nov 2013 16:11:23 EST Stats for the week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531411 Wow I could hardly believe my eyes when I got my e-mail with my weekly report. I love my spark tracker. It has really motivated me to be more consistent with my walking plan. My goal was to walk at least 10,000 steps 5 days a week. Feels wonderful to be able to see that printed out and to see my success especially sense I was feeling so defeated because I failed to eat on plan this week. Now instead of complaining about failing once again I can be proud of what I accomplished. That is a gre... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 22:45:16 EST lost spark tracker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524949 Whew did I luck out. Thought I had lost my tracker last night. I was at my granddaughters basketball game than went out to Chili's restaurant (yes another margarita). When I got home the tracker was gone. I noticed it right away and called the restaurant and there it was. Just got it back tonight. Haven't got my 10,000 steps in today but that is ok. My goal is 5 days out of seven so am still streaking. Yesterday I walked 3 trails at Radnor Lake Park without any problem. It was a beautiful day... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 21:01:07 EST Up date http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519609 Well it has been almost 2 weeks wearing my heart monitor. I get to send it back on Wednesday. I see the cardiologist Nov the 4th. Today I walked some steep hills without any unusual shortness of breath. That was a great feeling of accomplishment. I want the monitor to record anything outside the normal before I send it back so I intend to go back to Radnor Lake tomorrow and do some hiking. I hope that nothing happens. I would really be embarrassed to be carried off that hill again. Wish me ... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 17:41:16 EST day one for the spark tracker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510191 Love the new tracker. Fits snugly on my shoe and don't have to worry about losing when going to the restroom. It appears to count my steps much more accurately. I am 5'1" tall and don't think my regular pedometer measured my distances correctly. Some people are worried that it doesn't track their exercises but I mostly walk for mine anyway. For all of you that commented on my last blog, thank you so much for your comments. I walked over 12,000 steps today without any problems. YEA!!!!!!! Thu, 10 Oct 2013 21:05:09 EST Cardiac Cath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509246 Well just got home from the hospital this afternoon. I had to be carried off one of my favorite hiking trails Monday afternoon. As I climbed the trail I became very short of breath. Tried resting but heartrate was still so fast that I could not count it. Decided to call for help from the rangers. When they got to me neither of them could count my pulse or get a blood pressure. They started me on oxygen while waiting for the rescue team to get there. From their I was taken to Vanderbilt ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 19:52:42 EST Starting again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501858 I guess that not giving up is better than worrying about how many times I restart. Tue, 1 Oct 2013 21:34:05 EST Day 12 of 30 days to fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366884 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/2/l226939737.jpg">Wow I can't believe it has only been 12 days sense I started this program. When I started I was hungry all the time, had no energy,severely depressed about not being able to stay focused and eating healthy, but the harder I tried to follow the spark plan the more of a failure I felt. I had been within calorie range for 3 months and only lost 4lbs. I was exercising regularly but still eating to many sweets and high fat foods ... Fri, 24 May 2013 16:29:18 EST Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361547 Today has been a strange day. Calories down but no hunger most of the day. Managed to get in my 30 minutes of walking late this afternoon. The wind was blowing and made for a nice walk. Still have my grandson as his mother is in the hospital so my routine is off. Really wanting something sweet. Not hungry just wanting something sweet so bad I can taste it. Oh well that's why I hit my spark page. I know that if I start I won't stop. Thank God for the Spark site. Helping me to get heal... Sun, 19 May 2013 21:38:55 EST Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360373 You ask for them and here they are. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1796461328.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/7/l370824019.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is the real me. No bodysuit. I wear one every where , even exercising. <BR> Weight 178 <BR> Height 5' 1" Sat, 18 May 2013 16:32:38 EST Day 5 of 30 Days to Fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359606 OMG I feel amazing. No more headaches, no nausea or reflux, and most of all no hunger. I can't believe how good I feel. Even my asthma is much better. I have not had an asthma attack sense I stopped eating bread. My cravings for sweets is almost gone. I have decreased the physical symptoms from my addiction to sugar and diet colas, now if I can learn to control the mental addiction I am on my way to a healthier lifestyle. <BR> <BR> I want to thank everyone for the support I have received. ... Fri, 17 May 2013 18:53:06 EST Day 3 of 30 days to Fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358006 Well have been on my program for 3 days and am doing good. Not easy but doing. Most of my problem is with my insulin reaction to cutting out the sugar. Until I get my low blood sugar back to normal I have severe headaches and the shakes. Over the worst of it now. My focus has been just to get used to eating smaller amounts, no processed foods, removing the gluten from my diet and no sugar. Next week I am hoping to add exercise back on a daily basis. Thought it best to wait on that till my ... Wed, 15 May 2013 23:10:38 EST New start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354510 Once again I fell off the wagon. Heard a saying somewhere this week which went something like this <BR> Fall 7 times and get up 8 <BR> It was a spark moment for me. Doesn't really matter how many times I fall if i just don't give up. So hear I am once again with a hope of better results. Sun, 12 May 2013 22:57:42 EST Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312843 Just a thought or two today on Perspective. I was at Long Hunter Lake walking and started thinking about the many different looks this trail has had in the last 15 years sense I started walking here. This is the trail head. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1111058608.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here is a picture of the lake today <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1316999974.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Hear is a picture of it a few days ago <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 16:31:31 EST April Fools Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307995 Today is a beautiful day. Hope everyone had a great Easter. I weighed and measured today. My weight was down 4lbs and not sure about my measurements because I reset everything when I started back tracking a couple of weeks ago. <BR> Today is the 1st day of the month and I wanted to do something special and remembered the Never Quit Pledge I read last week. I decided to put it here and on my mirror so that I can see it everyday. Hope everyone enjoys it as much as I did. <BR> <BR> THE NEVER... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 19:59:58 EST Thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302437 Well a week has gone by and I am still here. Decided to focus on a couple of things instead of trying to do to much this first week. Things I accomplished <BR> 1. Sparked each day <BR> 2. Had 8 glasses of water everyday. <BR> 3. Journaled everyday. <BR> 4. Daily bible study done. <BR> 5. Did some kind of exercise 7 out of 8 days. <BR> <BR> Well what a surprise I actually did quit a bit. Funny didn't seem like I was really accomplishing much. Guess I should do this more often. Hope everyone ... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 20:08:11 EST Getting ready for the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296788 Well have managed to spark for 4 days. Not ate perfect but at least tracked what I ate. Managed to do some kind of exercise each day. These are good things. Trying to keep my head up and be positive. Looking forward to getting out for a walk this weekend by myself. I love having the grandchildren with me but I focus better without the distraction. When I get depressed the best thing for me to do is hike and commune with God. Sat, 23 Mar 2013 00:14:14 EST Stones river greenway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292790 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1708994452.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is my grandson on our walk today. We had a wonderful day exploring in Murfreesboro, Tn. We actually walked the path around the old fort Rosecrans site from the civil war era. I loved watching him as he explored the area. He loves anything to do with animals and nature. Here is another picture of him on the fort trail. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1523756956.jpg"> Tue, 19 Mar 2013 19:09:04 EST Trying to get back sparking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291780 Well once again I have let life get the better of me. I am back where I started at. Gained all the weight back and looks like I have gained more fat and lost more muscle. Something I have learned from this is the real necessity for my success will be to spark each and every day. When I stopped doing that I just let everything get out of control, my thoughts, my exercise, my self esteem, my life. Well today is a new day and tomorrow will be better. Mon, 18 Mar 2013 23:20:36 EST being kind to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212188 Just did my spark coach daily work. Coach Nicole ask the question of how would you treat a friend if she was have a bad day or even a week. It was the perfect day for that lesson. I have spent the day beating myself up for all the things I haven't done this week. She suggested that I write a blog to myself about the things I have done positively. That is something I usually am not very good at but as I looked back over the last few days I realized I have accomplished a lot. I spent the weeken... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 21:51:17 EST Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207913 Have had a couple of tough days. Lots going on in the family and the weather is awful. Poured rain for 3 days. Managed to walk Sunday but was so damp and wet caused me to have an asthma attack so I decided to hold off for a few days. House full so not easy to do a video. Just not up for someone watching me struggle through Zumba yet. No money so not able to drive to the gym. Ok, so today I must find a way to exercise. No excused just get up and do it. Tue, 15 Jan 2013 07:52:43 EST Hiking today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197523 What a wonderful day today. Temp was in the 40's and the sun was shinning as my friend and I Hiked in a local park in Nashville called Radnar Lake. We hiked for about 90 minutes and it totaled approximately 4.5 miles. My friend Amy is young and very athletic. She runs on a regular basis while I on the other hand sound like a freight train claiming the hills. I was embarrassed when an older gentleman passed me and looked at me like he thought I was having a heart attach. I warned Amy that I mi... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 19:09:47 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190457 On January 4 ,1977 at about 8 am my beautiful daughter was born. I had a c-section. I just got a quick look at her before they took her to the nursery. Shortly after being taken to the recovery room I crashed and nearly died. I usually don't think very much about that, but for some reason today It has been on my mind a lot. What would have happened to my 3 children if I had not lived. A year after Ginny was born my mother had a stroke and spent the rest of her life and invalid. 3 years later ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 18:22:10 EST A New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184634 The New Year is here and already I am having trouble with my fitness goals. I have been sick for 3 days now so no exercise. The old me would have just said"i new you couldn't do it" and that would have been the end of my attempt to lose weight. The new me knows that I don't have to give up just because I am not perfect. Always before I would beat myself up and than eat everything I shouldn't have. Well I have ate some foods I should have left alone but I haven't given up. I have done spark co... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 19:39:57 EST Day 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179093 Last night I felt so guilty about not exercising this week that I decided to go to the gym and walk on the treadmill. I had planned on doing 1 hour to help make up for being lazy but that didn't work out like I planned. About 20 minutes into my walking I almost quit. I was so bored and if I must admit it the incline part of it was killing me. I had set it to cardio which got my heartrate up to 135 but to get it there it had the incline to 9 and I thought I was going to die. It did go down aft... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 18:38:38 EST Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176986 Have let myself down a little the last 3 days. Have not done my walks and no 10 minutes the last 2 days. Tim is home and just can't exercise when he is home. He has also been at me to eat saying "it's Christmas enjoy yourself." Haven't got to the place that I want to exercise in front of him. It has been very cold and rainy so I choose not to do my exercising. I am taking responsibility for not exercising, it was my choice not to do it in front of him. Thank God he goes back to work tomorrow ... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 19:24:34 EST day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5174675 Today is day 5 with Spark Coach and I must say I am a little surprised at the content so far. It's good but not much more than what I have read on line without their help. I will continue it for the 3 months that I paid for and hope that it will pick up a little. I am still in the basics and they are what they are. I know for sure that you have to really get them or the results will not be permanent. Now for the positive I have done each days lesson. I think that starting during the holidays ... Sun, 23 Dec 2012 20:12:24 EST