PORTHOS75's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PORTHOS75 PORTHOS75's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The double-edged sword of initial weight loss. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751751 One thing I've noticed about starting the journey to healthier living is that the scale tends to be your best friend during the initial few weeks. Having just returned to this site and journey a week ago, my recent weigh-in has granted me some insight. <BR> <BR> You see, when you are substantially overweight, your body burns a lot of calories just to sustain itself. And perhaps it's the shock of suddenly being fed fewer, and usually higher calorie food, but it seems like the first few weigh-... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 15:40:53 EST Food & Eating & Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749976 Even though I, like most people, do like food that is horrible for you, I actually (usually) prefer eating a little better. Nights like tonight are a reminder. <BR> <BR> But backing up a little - I had today off of work so I slept in....no breakfast. Great, that gives me a calorie cushion! It was a co-worker's last day at the office though, so I got a text to meet them at Olive Garden to celebrate, or mourn, depending on the viewpoint I suppose. <BR> <BR> I tried to be good...only having t... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 22:24:45 EST I keep forgetting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748372 I keep forgetting that this is an EVERY DAY battle. I do well for a few months, then stop tracking daily. Then at all. Then the old eating habits kick back in, laziness becomes easier, and eventually I end up back at my starting point. <BR> <BR> I keep forgetting how much better I feel when I'm making the right choices. <BR> <BR> I keep forgetting how much my physical state affects my mental one. When the weight is back on, my brain just doesn't seem as "snappy." Which is a detriment in my ... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 16:35:50 EST Been a while.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343360 This year. Man, this year. It's been crazy. <BR> <BR> My job deals with tax and accounting software, so it's no surprised that January-April15 is CRAZY. This year, more so than ever. Things went badly. Very badly. <BR> <BR> Our software was a mess, trying to support it was a mess, customers were mad and leaving us in droves. <BR> <BR> But we made it. April 15th came, and we were celebratory and happy. <BR> <BR> April 16th, half of the company got laid off. <BR> <BR> Luckily, I wasn't one... Thu, 2 May 2013 14:23:00 EST Slow, but steady apparently! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194582 I haven't blogged in a while, oh well. <BR> <BR> After the business trip I had a rough patch getting back into the swing of things, but I'm now down 27 pounds total since November 10th when I started all this jazz. I consider that a win. <BR> <BR> Now for the bad news. Things at my job have exploded and I've been working 10-12 hours days pretty consistently. It may sound like an excuse but I think it is going to prohibit me from getting to the gym for a while. By the time I get home at nigh... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 09:22:34 EST Business trips and diets don't play well. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172013 I had to go out of town for work for the past several day. <BR> <BR> The biggest problem with this has been that every meal was a restaurant meal. I tried to make good choices but in some places (since I had no say as to where we went) it was difficult. Plus I had a beer with dinner more often than not, since my boss and I both love us some beer. <BR> <BR> Sunday night I was planning on cheating, as we were going to an awesome rib and BBQ joint, but that ended up actually being one of my lo... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 12:01:56 EST Very bad, no good, pretty horrible choices weekend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161660 After being stuck at the same weight (but still losing inches, I think) for 3+ weeks, I finally saw the scale go down on Friday....by almost 5 pounds. <BR> <BR> Of course I blew that all out of the water by going to a party Friday night at midnight and having what felt like 30 beers. It was probably more like 10 or so (plus a handful of vodka shots), but it left me feeling incredibly bad Saturday morning, after I woke myself up from 3 or less hours of sleep and drug my carcass to work for a ... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 00:21:50 EST Oops I did it again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155474 Yep, made it to my gym night again. So far I've stayed pretty consistent. Tonight was harder than usual, I only did about half the weight stuff I normally do. <BR> <BR> I never thought I'd consider doing a vigorous 45 minutes at the gym to be slacking off, considering I probably have spent less than an average of 1 hour at the gym per year of my life at this point. <BR> <BR> I may be developing willpower? Today at work they brought us donuts for dealing with all the crazy super-stress in th... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 01:38:19 EST Back to the gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5154209 After a good part of a week not going to the gym due to illness and stress, I went back tonight. And I hit it HARD! It was awesome. <BR> <BR> 33 minutes on the bike, 30 minutes of really hard lifting. I did like 300 reps totally in that 30 minutes, and more weight than I've been using in the past, so progress is being made! <BR> <BR> I ate more calories than I wanted (should have checked how many calories were in a chicken burrito, a lot more than expected!) but I stayed within my limit so ... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 01:20:38 EST Yeah, so my body is weird. As I'm sure all ours are... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153760 After a week of staying under my calorie cap, and working out 4+ hours a week, and gaining 5 pounds back, I was a little frustrated. Not horribly, because I figure it easily could have been muscle or water weight (as I have been drinking LOTS of water and lifting weights as part of my workouts), but a little frustrated nonetheless. <BR> <BR> On Thursday, my girlfriend's parents took us to a fancy steakhouse, and I decided to have a "cheat day" and have some delicious steak and potatoes and r... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 17:04:02 EST My head is being a pain in my butt. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147867 I have had an AlmostMigraine for the last 24 hours or so....like a migraine is trying to come on but won't commit. <BR> <BR> Tonight at the gym, while I was on the bike, it starting trying to grow into a full fledged brainkiller. I had to stop after 15 minutes, but I was able to still do some work on the weights without it killing my head so I still got a decent amount of time in. <BR> <BR> I've hit my first cliff in the weight loss, one of those periods of time where no matter what you do ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 00:58:23 EST These entries are all kinda sounding the same, but... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144708 At least it's a way to keep myself accountable. <BR> <BR> My cough has subsided quite a bit and I didn't feel like I was going to pass out every time I stood up or moved too much...... <BR> <BR> So I went ahead and hit the gym. It's getting substantially easier to pull a full 30 minutes on the bike, I did a different program on it this time (interval training) that kicked my butt but in a good way. It also seemed to go a little quicker which was a plus. <BR> <BR> Then I spent 20 minutes ro... Sat, 24 Nov 2012 00:53:39 EST Thanksgiving is no match for me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144364 So I managed to keep my calories under target on Thanksgiving, and that included a slice of pumpkin pie, a cookie, and a little bit of ice cream. And I woke up today .6 pounds lighter, so a total of 14 pounds down since I started this up again. Not bad for a gluttonous holiday. <BR> <BR> I've worked out 3 night this week so far and burned a bunch of calories that way, I think I'll go again tonight, assuming my health cooperates. I haven't been feeling great for a the last week or so, especia... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 15:47:16 EST Rough night for cardio...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5141068 Well, last night I did 35 minutes on the bike without much of a problem. <BR> <BR> Tonight I decided to try something different, so I hopped on an elliptical thingy. <BR> <BR> I don't like the elliptical thingy. I felt motion sick after a few minutes, and maybe it's because I'm so heavy, but it REALLY hurt. Not a good "wee, I'm working out and burning calories!" kind of hurt, but more like a "getting tortured for being a heretic during the crusades" kind of pain. I had to quit after 5-7 mi... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 02:03:34 EST Still not feeling well, but I threw caution to the wind... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5139940 and went to the gym anyway. <BR> <BR> I ate more calories today than I have since I started. I'm still within my Spark-appointed calorie range (which I feel is a bit high, but we'll see) and I also worked out harder than I have yet. <BR> <BR> In spite of feeling a bit under the weather still, I did 35 minutes on the bike (keeping it about 15 mph and 16 mph more commonly) followed by 30 minutes or so of very strenuous work on the weight machines. <BR> <BR> Part of the reason I did go highe... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 01:20:52 EST It's throwing off my groove... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5138569 After working out consistently for a week I've had to miss my last two planned workouts, my body has decided that being very sick would be more fun. My lungs are feeling pretty ragged, got a nasty cough, and lots of congestion and exhaustion. It's crappy timing because I'm just starting to get into the swing of being motivated, and now there's this huge roadblock. Hopefully it doesn't last long. Sat, 17 Nov 2012 17:23:57 EST Another successful workout night... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5136999 Spent darn near an hour at the gym tonight, working the whole time. I just wish my life wasn't such so that I can only work out right before or even when I should really be going to bed....oh well. <BR> <BR> I can already feel the progress. Saturday, my first workout in a couple years at least, I did like 15 minutes of cardio and immediately felt like I was going to die, literally could not do any more. Went in, rode a bike for 15 minutes, went home and laid down. <BR> <BR> 5 days and 3 wor... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 01:13:35 EST Serious workout tonight, and now there's some serious consequences. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5134691 I definitely have to take a night off from working out tomorrow. I did a very vigorous 50 minutes+ tonight, 17 on the bike (was going for 15 but decided to go ahead and push until I hit 4 miles) followed by 35 minutes frantically going from machine to machine doing abs, shoulders, triceps, and some more leg work. <BR> <BR> Yep, I'm hurting. Tomorrow is going to be rough, but I am happy that each workout is getting easier than the last. <BR> <BR> Now, as for the serious consequences... <BR> ... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 01:28:47 EST Gym night! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133488 Headed over to the new gym at 9:30 tonight. Saturday was my first night doing any real exercise for years and it about killed me, after a couple minutes on the treadmill on "Rolling Hills" my heart rate was 180 (about as high as it can get at my age without being scary, at least according to the little chart on the bike) and I really had to mentally push myself to make the last 5 minutes without giving up. <BR> <BR> Strangely, tonight was much easier. Did 15 minutes no problem, max heart ra... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 00:50:58 EST Gym stuff... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5131641 Yesterday I went and joined a gym. I've never had much luck at gyms, but I don't have my own stationary bike anymore. It's one of those things that got left behind in the divorce that I wish hadn't been lost.... <BR> <BR> The gym is one of those 24 Hour a day places, nothing fancy, but they have some cardio equipment and basic weights and weight machines, enough to do what I need to for now. <BR> <BR> It's also a mile or maybe less from my house, so between that and it never being closed I ... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 14:35:58 EST Here I go again.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130629 4 or 5 years ago I lost over 100 pounds with the help of this site, and was 60 pounds away from my ultimate goal. <BR> <BR> Then I got lazy, quit counting calories, quit working out, and slowly but on about 50-60 of that 100+ again. <BR> <BR> I came back here, lost 20 or 30 pounds....got lazy again. Got back up to about 350-360, Came back here, lost 20-30 pounds again.....and the cycle repeats. <BR> <BR> Last year in September I came back...for a few days, and couldn't stay consistent. <B... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 14:27:08 EST FatAss Friday #6 (repost from www.porthos.me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4348803 Starting weight: 365 <BR> Last week's weight: 344.6 <BR> Current weight: 342.6 <BR> 2 pounds lost this week <BR> 22.4 pounds lost total <BR> I was actually incredibly surprised when I stepped on the scale a few minutes ago and saw I was down another 2 pounds. <BR> <BR> You see, this week I sort of gave up. Not specifically on the weight loss, just on life in general. As tends to happen when I'm neglectful and not on my medications, I have been sinking into a pretty deep depression where I f... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 07:50:33 EST FatAss Friday #5 (repost from www.porthos.me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336018 Starting weight: 365 <BR> Last week's weight: 348.2 <BR> Current weight: 344.6 <BR> 3.6 pounds lost this week <BR> 20.4 pounds lost total. <BR> <BR> I won't lie, it's been a rough couple weeks and it's some kind of miracle that I actually lost weight. <BR> <BR> Last weekend I threw all sense to the wind and ate a bunch of ice cream and cookies and candy (oh my!), for no better reason than "it was there." That reason is why some people climb mountains, but I just use it to get fatter. <BR> ... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 20:05:27 EST FatAss Friday #4 (Repost from www.porthos.me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4319792 Starting weight: 365 <BR> Last week's weight: 346.6 <BR> Current weight: 348.2 <BR> 1.6 pounds gained this week <BR> 16.8 pounds lost total <BR> <BR> Alright, so the weight went up a little this week. <BR> <BR> I don't have any way to prove it, and maybe it's just some weak rationalization, but I am hoping the gain is because of adding muscle faster than losing fat, or something. I did go over my calorie limit twice, but both times it was by a couple hundred calories and it was never from e... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 10:38:48 EST Small victories..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4313710 Someone was giving away free pizza in the lunchroom at work today. <BR> <BR> I love pizza. <BR> <BR> I didn't have any. <BR> <BR> It's just one tiny little victory, but the way I figure it, willpower is like a muscle that needs to be exercised sometimes too. <BR> <BR> Now I just need to gather enough willpower to go to the gym tonight. I didn't get enough sleep last night, I'm still recovering from a massive ear/nose/throat/lung infection, and I basically just feel like trash right now. A... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 16:36:06 EST FatAss Friday (repost from www.porthos.me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4305690 Starting weight: 365 <BR> Last week's weight: 354.6 <BR> Current weight: 346.6 <BR> 8 pounds lost this week <BR> 18.4 pounds lost total. <BR> <BR> Although 8 pounds lost in a week sounds pretty impressive, it's not much of a victory this week. I've never had to work so little to lose like that. All I had to do was get incredibly sick. <BR> <BR> Last Sunday I went to bed with a slight tickle in my throat. Monday morning that tickle had turned into a cough and a sore throat. Nothing horrible,... Fri, 17 Jun 2011 21:09:31 EST FatAss Friday (repost from my other blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4290035 Starting weight: 365 <BR> Last weeks weight: 362 <BR> Current weight: 354.6 <BR> 7.4 pounds lost this week! <BR> 10.4 pounds lost total! <BR> I missed two planned workouts this week. Last Friday because my kids were over for the weekend (I had forgotten about that when originally planning my workout schedule,) and Monday because I was out sick from work with a huge migraine, and migraines and working out go together about as well as a cat that has been slathered in bacon gets along with a rab... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 12:32:13 EST I don't want to be dramatic here, but, "ouch?" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4289077 Tuesday at the gym was legs, abs, biceps, and back night. <BR> <BR> Everything went well except for the legs. I've always had super-strong legs (probably from carrying my weight around for decades,) and I was excited to have a set where I could actually out-lift my friends. <BR> <BR> I over-did it, doing 3 sets of 20 exercises that targeted the calf specifically. So, here I am two days later with my calves feeling like rubber bands that are stretched to just the tiniest amount of pressure s... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 23:55:42 EST Weekly recap, May 31- June 7: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4285405 I feel incredibly good about myself and how I've performed this week. <BR> <BR> Since last Tuesday I've spend about 5 or 6 hours working my arse off in the gym, and stayed well below my calorie goal every day except for one, and that one I was only off by about 200 calories - which given the amount of time I've spent working out and the number of calories that burned, I don't feel too badly about. <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed in at around 11 pounds less than last Tuesday, and I had to g... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 11:32:27 EST Friday (repost from my other blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4274993 It's been a productive first week. Of course the pounds always seem to fly off those first few days as you shed water weight and the body starts to change metabolism and all that happy crap, but I'm not surprised to see the weight dropping in spite of the weight lifting, since at my current weight I probably burn close to my daily calorie intake between the couple hours at the gym each visit and the walking I've been doing. <BR> <BR> I had some issues with Tuesday's workout. The guys I go to... Fri, 3 Jun 2011 14:01:20 EST Maybe it will stick this time... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273007 For the last week I've been trying this again.....for the 10th time or so. But this time I feel like it's going to stick. I actually feel like I *want* do do it now, instead of just feeling like I *should* do it. <BR> <BR> I've been walking a lot, going to the gym with three friends from work (so the gym is actually kinda fun) and tracking my calories again. <BR> <BR> I re-input my current weight (365) with a goal to lose to 225 by my birthday on May 7 of next year. So I need to stay around... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 16:10:40 EST Being sick sucks... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4008528 In addition to the return of the migraine I just shook a couple days ago, I also have either some kind of sinus infection or severe cold or possibly bronchitis going on. Breathing is harder than normal, nose is stuffy and runny at intervals, and my throat is burning. <BR> <BR> It's not fun. <BR> <BR> At least a large dose of Fioricet took away the worst of the migraine, hence I'm actually at my computer. <BR> <BR> This has been a bad week. I worked more hours in a day last week than I've a... Fri, 11 Feb 2011 01:24:04 EST One week in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4001229 Here I am, about a week in to trying this again. <BR> <BR> According to the scale this morning, I'm down 7 or 8 pounds from last week, so I'll count that as a win. <BR> Especially since I haven't done nearly as good as I could have. I didn't track the last few days, I took the kids out to eat some things I shouldn't have instead of going grocery shopping, and have been laid out with a migraine since Sunday afternoon, so haven't had any physical activity at all since Sunday. <BR> <BR> The m... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 13:51:34 EST Foolishness is reliving the mistakes of the past... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3985799 The past being yesterday, in this case. <BR> <BR> These 14 hour days at work are going to kill me. I need to start packing a lunch too, eating out is not helping. <BR> <BR> Too many calories again, and I'm trying to get up the initiative to go play Wii or something for 30 minutes before bed just to have SOME kind of activity. <BR> <BR> I have friends at work that are putting in these kinds of hours 7 days a week right now, getting 80 hours of overtime a paycheck....I don't know how they do... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 00:01:20 EST Oops... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3982744 So, that big post on December 3rd about how I was back? Yeah, ignore that one. <BR> <BR> I don't know why I didn't go ahead and start then, other than the fact that I'm a horrible procrastinator and have the willpower of a hypo-manic kitten. <BR> <BR> I have been trying the last few days. I got myself a Nintendo Wii (almost for free, thanks to a gift card from work) and even though it's not the best exercise in the world, I figure it's something I'll actually do, so I've been putting in 40-... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 01:18:31 EST Gonna try this again.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3822425 It looks like I haven't used this site since March or April of 2009. At least I've lost 20 pounds since then without even trying. <BR> <BR> It's time to get back on the wagon and start tracking this stuff again. <BR> <BR> I had a gigantic burrito for breakfast. Seriously, this thing had lesser burritos in orbit around it. So I'm not going to bother putting today in. Gotta start tracking again tomorrow though. Fri, 3 Dec 2010 19:57:25 EST Daily Recap 04/04 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1943322 Today went prety well! I stayed under 1700 calories and spent 35 minutes on the bike, can't do much better than that. Sat, 4 Apr 2009 20:11:40 EST Daily Recap (3/19) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1895745 I figure, sure, I keep track of my calories and exercise on this site, but maybe if I commit to putting a little blog entry in, recapping every day, I'll think to myself that people are more likely to see it and therefore be more likely to behave myself so I can put good things in it. :) <BR> <BR> I thought I was going to be WAY over on my calories today...but it turns out I entered something incorrectly..when I put in my 8 pieces of california roll sushi for lunch the system apparently thou... Thu, 19 Mar 2009 23:05:26 EST Daily Recap (3/18) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1894772 Could have done better yesterday, but could have done much worse. <BR> <BR> We didn't work out, partly because I think we're going to do a Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Sunday afternoon, schedule, so Wednesday and Saturday will be our days off. <BR> <BR> I went a little over on calories again...I need to start looking up foods before I eat them rather than after...I'll think "This probably has 300-400 calories," eat it, then upon entering food later discover it probably had 500-600... Thu, 19 Mar 2009 16:29:24 EST Daily recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1889330 Did a full 20 minutes on the bike tonight, up from only 13 last night. Not quite so sore after either. Tomorrow will try for 25 maybe. <BR> <BR> Went a couple hundred calories over my allotment....not happy about that. Most of that was lunch. Oops. Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:19:28 EST The wagon and why I can not stay on it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1887219 Wow. <BR> <BR> So, at my heaviest, I was somewhere between 380-400 pounds. <BR> <BR> I lost down to 290, still had a long way to go but I sure felt a lot better! <BR> <BR> Then I let life overtake me and I started getting lazy and depressed, and didn't do the things I need to for a very long time. <BR> <BR> I haven't been on a scale for a while....then I had to go to the doctor the other day....and weighed in at 382 pounds....right back to where I started. <BR> <BR> It's a little depress... Tue, 17 Mar 2009 11:01:22 EST The tale of the boy, the wagon, and the too-bumpy road. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1334141 Seriously. I am the eggman, I am the walrus, I am the yo-yo, koo-koo-ka-joob. <BR> <BR> I went from 370? 380? Down to 290ish, back up to 330, down to 314, now back up to 350+. I'm oddly not that upset. I realize it's because I fell back into my old habits of not doing anything and not paying the least bit of attention to what I was shoveling in my mouth. <BR> <BR> There were contributing factors, sure. Stress, depression, pain, exhaustion...which leads to getting fatter, which leads t... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 19:56:18 EST I'm back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1037621 Well, I fell off the wagon for a while. <BR> <BR> I'm getting back on. I gained 20 pounds back in the last few months, so I'm kicking myself for that, but considering I'm still over 50 pounds less than my highest weight I suppose I can't kick too hard. <BR> <BR> On the plus side, I haven't had a cigarette for two weeks now, so there's some positive change. <BR> <BR> Other than that, not much going on. Tue, 26 Feb 2008 18:09:04 EST Dare I say it? Life is.....good? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=701098 So, thinks are actually going well. I'm so used to things NOT going well that this fact rather scares me. <BR> <BR> I love my job. Like, I actually look forward to being here most mornings. This is new. <BR> <BR> The meds I'm on seem to be helping both the migraines and the bipolar symptoms. Mentally, I feel better than I remember EVER feeling. My best friend recently commented that he found it odd that "my bipolar best friend is more mentally stable than I am." <BR> <BR> Perhaps most... Tue, 14 Aug 2007 16:47:21 EST My response to you, dear head, is thus..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=681689 So I developed a huge migraine on Sunday afternoon, which pursued me doggedly until, well, honestly I'm still suffering the aftereffects. <BR> <BR> Last night I thought I had it beat, so I settled in to do my workout - which of course I hadn't done for a few days due to my head feeling like the inside of an engine running without oil. <BR> <BR> I got about 6 minutes into my workout and promptly realized, as mortar shells exploded behind my eyes and white spots danced in my vision, that I w... Wed, 1 Aug 2007 15:28:18 EST Another day in paradise.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=658636 I still can't seem to break that 300lb barrier. My body is just rebelling. I probably need to do something different for exercise, for example dust the cobwebs off my bike and go for a ride a few days a week..but so far I haven't been able to motivate myself to do that. <BR> <BR> I've been pushing the workout a little harder. I do kind of a psuedo-circuit-training thing with my home gym - lower weight, lots of reps, one set right after the other until I'm panting and shaking and sweating... Tue, 17 Jul 2007 23:10:08 EST