POMATOJUICE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=POMATOJUICE POMATOJUICE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Short, but picture-heavy!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763227 I have that really brutal sore throat again. You know, I didn't used to get sick after cons, but I swear I've come down with something after every one of my recent ones!!! <BR> <BR> This will be short, since I'm posting from my phone. I'm doing it this way, since this is where all my pictures are! I really hope to take some time later this week to get back on my regular food/exercise schedule& catch up in SPARK <BR> <BR> Until then, here's a look at....... Some of my looks last weekend! ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:58:50 EST Minor setback, maybe? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757416 There's always an adjustment period for me when I come home from being away for 4+ days. It takes a while to get back into my regular eating habits, you know? <BR> <BR> The scale was up by over 10lbs when I got home, though. That's just how sore I was. I know that there was no way under the sun I could have gained that much, so I'm not stressing about it TOO much. It's just frustrating seeing numbers that high again, even if they aren't "real," you know? <BR> <BR> Here's a short recap of... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 09:23:46 EST It's about to get hectic! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753006 I'm still working hard. I know I'll never be perfect, but I have to try to be the best "me" I am capable of. My calorie counts have been great the last few days. I won't lie. It hasn't been easy. The first day I decided to buckle down hard and NOT LET MYSELF GO OVER, my stomach was bothering me all day long. It kept aching and grumbling and growling, even when I was eating my meals. I just kept chugging water that day, and the day after it was a little better. I swear, getting past th... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 14:49:55 EST Slow slow progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751197 I'm trying to keep positive, because there is a lot I am doing right. I still struggle to keep my calories in check, though. I think I've figured a little something out, though. There's like.. a switch in my brain that makes me overeat. If I happen to overeat to the point where I'm stuffed, the switch turns on and I just want to keep eating to the point of being stuffed. This seems to only apply to the days where I don't feel like eating ALL THE THINGS, though. On the days where I'm jus... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 16:07:23 EST My new workout schedule is kicking my butt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748874 I've been down there three times now, but it feels like more! This place is definitely one of those places where you get what you put in. I know that I'm getting a good workout there, pushing myself to match the instructor. There are others there who just kind of sway back and forth the whole time. Maybe it's the limit of what they are able to do. I don't judge. I do feel like it's been worth my time to go down there, though. <BR> <BR> There are plenty of things I like about these REFI... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 11:02:06 EST My first workout at REFIT (And a long rant about my brother's evil Ex) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744812 I spent all morning yesterday doing outside type stuff. I hauled tree branches, dug out some landscaping features that were slowly getting buried, etcetc. I worked really hard, sweat a ton, got dirty, and damned near got heatstroke. Because OMFG 90 degree weather! :( <BR> <BR> I knew I wasn't going to get on the bike, but I couldn't decide about trying out that fitness class. I mean, on one hand, I felt like I burned a lot and sustained an elevated heart rate for quite a while trying to ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:33:24 EST Shake it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743615 This morning I found myself tweeting about how I was struggling not to get demoralized with last week's lack of weight loss. I didn't lose anything, because while my averages are below maintenance, they are not quite low enough, and I ate too much when my brother visted. This is to be expected! <BR> <BR> What I didn't expect was a friend to pop in that early and offer all sorts of suggestions. I kept saying "no, that won't work," to pretty much everything she said. I had to stop a minu... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 17:57:58 EST Short Saturday Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741983 I'm one of those people that likes to weigh every day. I like to see the little fluctuations and know that say, eating popcorn with cheese salt one day (but staying in range) might cause my weight to go up a little bit due to the extra sodium. I like learning about what has a direct effect on my weight. Most of the little fluctuations are water, and I've learned not to stress about that. Sometimes, after a strenuous workout, I'll retain extra water. While my rational brain knows THAT is ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 09:26:04 EST It's raining! NOOOOOOO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739459 Confession, guys! I didn't work out yesterday. I didn't work out today. Why? I'm painting the house!!!!!!! XD Well, not all of it. Just the south east wall for now. <BR> <BR> Sunday was supposed to be my day off from exercise, but I just got antsy sitting around the house, so I grabbed a paint scraper and went crazy on one side of the house. We haven't painted the house since we moved in, and it really needs it. We plan to hire real painters to handle everything, but we can't affor... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 14:58:09 EST Hanging in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737270 I haven't been making progress as quickly as I like, but I suppose that's the same for everybody! I am so impatient sometimes! <BR> <BR> Now that it's Saturday (and my rest day is Sunday), I can safely say that I completed my workout goal for the week! I did not skip a day. I got 45 min in on the bike Mon-Sat! Hooray! I did it! I also got some strength training in 2-3 days this week. Just some band work, nothing special, but a little bit extra is good, yeah? <BR> <BR> I still have all... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 11:34:20 EST Teeny Tiny Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735899 I know it's only been four days, but I haven't missed any exercise yet. In fact, after this blog I'm going to have some breakfast and then get on the bike. Yesterday was my birthday and I did, in fact, get my exercise in. <BR> <BR> I didn't do very well with food, but I actually made an effort instead of giving in as soon as I knew things were going to be over. I had a healthy breakfast, got my exercise in, and had lunch. Lunch wasn't very healthy, but I stayed within ranges. I was reall... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 08:56:19 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734396 Baby steps, right? I've realized that things have spiraled way out of control with my food, and I'm not sure I can regain that control. I'm in a place right now where I'm really doubting my ability to get back on track and lose any more weight, like ever! <BR> <BR> So, I'm trying to think of ways to go back to basics in a way that I will be able to succeed. It's tough, because I had great success the year before last, and then maintain/struggled for a year. IT's like.. I know exactly wha... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 08:53:43 EST Another short update. Happy 4th!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731834 I swear, I've been seeing more of Mom3 in the past few months than I usually do in 6! It's nice, because she's a wonderful person. She's so supportive of everything I do and doesn't judge. We go shopping together, laze around in the pool, and have all sorts of fun! We also eat way too much. I almost dread the trips because it feels like I haven't been able to control myself around food lately. <BR> <BR> We did BETTER this time around, but I still wasn't able to stay in ranges. I'm back... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 09:36:37 EST Small update! (OR SO SHE THINKS) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726303 Yeah, I never know how long these are going to end up! Sometimes when I think they're going to be really long, they are pretty short! <BR> <BR> The visit with my MIL went well. She and I ended up painting the master bedroom. It was a huge undertaking. I thought it might be something fast& fun to do over the weekend, but it was way more work than I thought it was going to be. We got it done, though, and the bedroom looks great! It feels like a whole new room once some of the stains/scra... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 10:57:08 EST Another post from the bike!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719814 And you know what that means! Typos& other errors everywhere, strange things left by autocorrect, & a really short entry! <BR> <BR> Let's be honest here. I've been moderately afraid of life since my surgery. The fear of lymphedema is doing that to me I guess. The surgeon said I was low risk because she only removed two nodes, but it still scares the crap out of me. Especially how cardio seemed to make my incision site swell up like crazy. <BR> <BR> The last two days, calories have been... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 11:13:02 EST Food Pushers (My first serious All-health themed post in a long time!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716004 I have a weakness. My own personal kryptonite, as it were. Except, I know for a fact that it's not unique to me. My weakness is food. Pretty much any food. Just about any food ever imagined, cooked, grown, harvested, pickled, frozen, etc. I love me some food. Most of my weight struggles revolve around the concept of moderation. You cannot eat ALL THE THINGS, even if you want to. There's only so much you can eat in one day, and the amount you actually SHOULD eat in one day is so, so m... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 19:49:29 EST I've been working really hard lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712363 There hasn't been a day over 1750 cal in a week. I'm really proud of that. Even though my desired range is 1300-1500, I'm really proud that things are back in control and consistently under maintenance. I have less than 1lb of surgery weight left. I really hope to keep this momentum. <BR> <BR> I definitely overate today. That tablespoon of cookie butter seemed like a really good idea, so I thought I'd have a second. After that, I felt totally gross. going to end the day at 1609, thoug... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 21:37:43 EST Cleared for exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711265 Doc says it's ok to work out again, but that it will probably continue to be painful to do so for a while. Ok then! Tomorrow, I'll get the bike done. Not happening today, though. My day is packed with all sorts of dumb, time-consuming adult errands. Right now, I'm sitting at the tire place, waiting for new tires. Yeah, those kind of errands -..- <BR> <BR> Anyway, still doing well with calorie counts. I'm not going to go any further in depth about the doc visit, though. My stuff stil... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 11:20:46 EST Making progress. Surgery news, diet news, no bad news? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710403 I can't be sure, but I think activity levels are having something to do with the swelling going on here. Today is Weds, so this is the start of Week 4 of healing. I still haven't had my 2-week follow up with the doc yet. There are just so many things wrong with our healthcare system, seriously. <BR> <BR> Because I've had to wait so long, and it's so freaking impossible to see a doctor when you want to, I've been consulting Dr Google to try to figure out what's going on. I'm 99% certain t... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 09:53:09 EST Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706977 My incision is pretty much healed. I'm not sure the stitches underneath have dissolved, because there are still lumpy bumps across the area. I'm still quite swollen, and I still have daily pain down my arm. <BR> <BR> I should have had a follow up visit this week, but they decided to schedule me for next Thurs, so I have to wait almost a whole week yet to get any info from the doctor about when I can start exercising again, how much longer I can expect all this swelling, and whether or not ... Fri, 30 May 2014 17:53:37 EST Nope, scratch that. I feel like crap. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701369 The last two days felt pretty great. I didn't need my painkillers, and I felt like I could get stuff done instead of sitting on the couch, quilting, and feeling useless. The worst part is feeling like you can do stuff and then finding out you can't. That's today, apparently. I can't drink coffee! I just spill it on my desk repeatedly!! I feel like I should give up on today, yo! I am sore all over& feel like I got hit by a truck. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did 45min-ish on the bike. I set ... Fri, 23 May 2014 09:54:58 EST Finally starting to feel normal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699944 I woke up today in pain, but that was because NUGGET decided I needed to wake up, and the best way to do this was to pounce repeatedly on my incision. That cat.. I swear :( <BR> <BR> After that subsided, though, I realized I wasn't dizzy or groggy or anything like I had been for the past week! Hooray! I haven't been taking many pain pills the past few days. I don't think I really need them anymore, but the wound really starts throbbing late afternoon, so I take one of the good ones before... Wed, 21 May 2014 11:10:15 EST Day 1 I hope? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699117 I tried one of the tips on that motivational list and gave myself a few days to get psyched up about starting again, but I don't think it worked :P <BR> <BR> That being said, I'm starting out today with good food counts. Breakfast was a Brown Cow yogurt (170 cal, but OMFG so good) and a coffee. (+Bailey's creamer 70cal) <BR> <BR> As soon as the creamer is gone.... I won't be purchasing it again. I love it too much, and I need to get back into not drinking my calories. <BR> <BR> I'm not s... Tue, 20 May 2014 10:14:41 EST Obeisity caused my hospital visit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696607 Got your attention? It grabbed mine when I started researching things about my condition and what went down in surgery this week. <BR> <BR> First off... I'm home, I'm ok, and everything went well. The surgeon removed my defective lymph node. Conveniently, her scalpel "slipped" and "accidentally" took off the mole I told her about. I said it might possibly get in the way of the incision, and I would be really excited if something bad happened to the mole :P It is gone! Now I don't have ... Fri, 16 May 2014 19:46:08 EST Doctor Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691834 I'm sorry I haven't managed to blog more, but things have been pretty busy around here lately, and my healthy habits have fallen on the wayside. <BR> <BR> The contractors are finally getting the new windows in. It was quoted as a 2 day install, so of course.. it is not! They got all the windows in, but there was some problem with the stainer& the trim, so they have to come back another day to install the trim and make it all look nice and finished. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, it means that I... Sat, 10 May 2014 10:10:35 EST Sorting out fall plans, working on costumes, etc http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685633 This is a quiet week for me. No appointments, no out-of-the-house commitments, etc. I'm re-reading Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles to prepare for the new book coming out in October. Honestly, I'm afraid it's going to be awful, but you better believe I'm pre-ordering the hardback from Amazon so I have it on release. I'm just that kind of dork. <BR> <BR> I did get a call back from the doc referring me to a surgeon, so I am going to get a consult on getting this lymph node removed. It's not... Fri, 2 May 2014 09:55:51 EST Stuff! Costume stuff, medical stuff, diet stuff. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681143 I'm feeling totally uncreative with my blog titles today. <BR> <BR> I know I haven't blogged in a while, but I needed some time to think about what I wanted to say, and who I was going to talk to and all that. I didn't want to talk to my parents about the medical stuff until at least all my initial tests were done, because I was freaking out enough on my own. I didn't need them worrying about me, too, especially since they are so far away and our family isn't like.. set to "super close" in... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 19:00:40 EST Hello, April! Why is it 40 degrees out in Texas today?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672777 Seriously. I woke up freezing and had to turn my heat on. All the trees are green, so I took this as a sign that the weather was going to stabilize and stop being so crazy. <BR> <BR> Things are still going about the same for me on the weight loss front. I'm maintaining, eating at maintenance levels, etcetc. I'm consistently missing one or two workouts a week, which puts me at maintenance levels of exercise, too! I've mostly just been skipping Saturdays. My normal workout schedule is... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 11:39:53 EST Small update! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668933 I got my cape fabric in today. I would recommend Batiks.com to anyone that wants to order fabric online and finds a pattern they like on there! They shipped sooooo fast! I ordered it on the 4th, and it was in my mailbox by the 9th! They shipped from VA to Tx and it got here in 5 days! Holy cow!! I mean, they used priority mail, so you know that part is going to be fast, but they must have cut and packed it the same day I ordered it or something. I couldn't believe how quickly it made it... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 10:30:18 EST Finding the time vs Making a schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666342 I'm one of those people that hates deadlines, procrastinates really badly, and doesn't like to commit to things right away. I have a feeling that a lot of us are like that! Maybe not as bad as me, but it's gotta be in us all at least a little bit. <BR> <BR> As a childfree housewife, I find myself with a lot of time on my hands... from time to time. I won't say it's always like that, but when I don't really have to do anything on a deadline, it's both awesome and awful! <BR> <BR> When t... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 09:49:40 EST Late night blog! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663836 I know I just blogged yesterday. It's crazy! Remember when I used to be this active all the time??? <BR> <BR> I just wanted to put a few things down "on paper," so to speak, while I was still thinking about them. <BR> <BR> I hate exercise. I really do. I feel it totally takes a huge chunk out of my day, even though workout+shower is only about an hour and a half AT MOST. Two years in, and I still hate it, and still wish I didn't have to do it. <BR> <BR> HOWEVER. <BR> <BR> I do recogn... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 21:41:39 EST Is this what maintenance feels like? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662569 Another month of no progress at all, but I've put a halt to the gain, I think. I've had my fair share of slipups, and I continue to struggle with food, but I am still doing my best. My best now is not what my best was last year, that is for certain. There is a certain degree of quality that comes with "your best," and the quality is not what it was before :P <BR> <BR> Still, I haven't totally given up. <BR> <BR> It's all quite fluid and rather slippery. What I didn't have control over... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 11:16:48 EST Still making progress, despite my flaws! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653846 It's going pretty well, all things considered. I slipped and had two days back to back, but made sure I drank a lot of water, so I'm still seeing a little bit of progress. I've dropped a few of the stubborn pounds I was whining about last month, and I'm starting to feel a teensy bit better about myself. <BR> <BR> I'm back to craving fresh stuff more than processed, which makes food choices a lot easier. The tough part is cutting out the bulk of the processed food long enough to start crav... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 10:58:48 EST First real progress in months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650798 I kind of don't even want to blog about this, because I feel like I'll jinx it. For me, progress is shrouded in superstition! The scale is moving downward. It's gone down little by little for the last 4 days. I'm totally afraid to talk about it, because it seems like whenever I have a string of good days and get excited, I have a bad day! <BR> <BR> So, I'm hoping I don't have a bad day today :D <BR> <BR> It's been really hard getting back on track. I'm not there yet. I'm still eating ... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 13:11:33 EST MAH TEETH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646889 I didn't take very good care of my teeth when I was little. I don't know why. I'm sure my parents must have taught me how to brush, but they never really got on me about it, and I never really did it unless my mouth felt really gross. Through Highschool and College, I didn't take care of them all that well. I brushed occasionally throughout the week, but not daily. My mom's side of the family has genetically BAD teeth, too, so I wasn't really helping myself out! <BR> <BR> I realized I n... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 11:13:28 EST Post con catchup! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645347 I don't have any other planned conventions until August, so that's plenty of time to buckle down and work on me, if I can find the motivation. <BR> <BR> The Heart of Texas comic con was pretty cool! To be honest, I really wasn't expecting much, so it wasn't that hard to exceed my expectations. I'm a little disappointed that I didn't see a single familiar face there, though. What the heck?? I thought for certain some of my old local friends from college would go. <BR> <BR> The turnout wa... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:30:53 EST The eternal struggle with food! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636828 I'm doing better with my calories. Things are slowly going back down to weight loss ranges for me. Not yet, but they are getting there. Today is the start of a new month! Maybe this month will be better than last. <BR> <BR> I started to clean up my calories last week, and kept everything under 2k since weds. That's not very long, but I hope to keep the streak going. I've been eating in maintenance ranges and working very hard. I've managed to go much longer before overeating, which ... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 10:56:41 EST The pre-con nightmares have started! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634429 As many of you know, I always get a little nervous before each convention. I start getting weird dreams anywhere from a week to a few months before a con, and it's almost always costume related. <BR> <BR> It's usually just the usual nervous stuff, like "Oh no! Nothing is done and I'm at the con and have nothing to wear!" or "I finished everything and forgot half the outfit at home, 2hrs away, and can't possibly go back and get it!" <BR> <BR> Last night's stress nightmare was about the sam... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 14:00:38 EST A bad morning doesn't always mean a bad day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632614 I am actually a blogging from my exercise bike right now because this is important and something I need to remind myself of often. <BR> <BR> Today started out with a small oatmeal& went downhill from there. I was feeling down on myself and was convinced that a workout just wasn't going to happen today. I decided to be a moody recluse, play a bunch of warcraft, and eat the truffles I just remembered I had. Before lunch, I'd managed a small oatmeal, 8 truffles, and 1/2 servings of pop chips... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 14:27:52 EST Easing into.... maintenance? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631485 It's not where I want to be, but at least I'm not actively gaining? <BR> <BR> I'm still having a lot of struggles with food choice. I know better, but if you watched me eat throughout the day, it's like I don't even care. I'm not sure what to do to get that single-minded determination back, but I'm plodding along. <BR> <BR> It's not even really that I've been eating a ton of junk food. I make sure I don't bring it into the house. I say that, but I did buy some godiva truffles the other ... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 10:18:20 EST Another short blog! (I think? I never know how these turn out by the end!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627262 Even though the house has been a nice, comfortable temperature during all these weather fluxuations, I've totally been in an oatmeal mood! <BR> <BR> My favorites are the Quaker real medleys cups. The apple& walnut and peach versions are awesome! They are also pushing 300 cal each, though, which makes me sad because I normally don't budget that much for breakfast. They don't keep me full enough to make me NOT want an afternoon snack, though, so it's not really worth it. I mean, maybe if I... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 10:44:49 EST Small update, big news!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5624670 I haven't blogged in a few days, and it's because I haven't really made any progress. Each day is a struggle to get my calories in range. I don't know why I lost my self control! I was doing a little better every day, but yesterday was valentine's, and The Husband wanted to make some special stuff for me. He warned me ahead of time that it would not be diet friendly, so I saved up as many calories as I could throughout the day, but it was hopeless! lol <BR> <BR> We ordered out from our f... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:42:50 EST Back from my convention! Need to decompress... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620361 I'm pretty exhausted. I think I'd be less worn out if I didn't have to drive, but you can't always mooch rides to everything off other people! The drive down on Friday became terrifying about halfway through. This has been a strange winter in Texas, and I had to deal with ice on roads and bridges!! <BR> <BR> There was freezing rain, a good 4+ accidents, and all sorts of crazy stuff going on around me. It was pretty scary, but I made it. It was also freezing, and I had layers EVERYWHERE.... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 11:51:28 EST Short update, older photo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613875 Nothing has really changed around here with me. I keep hoping that any day now, it'll be "THAT DAY" when everything finally starts clicking. <BR> <BR> Since making the fat bombs, it's been MUCH MUCH easier to get my macronutrient ratios correct. Unfortunately, it's been much much more difficult to keep calories low. I'm finding myself hungry all the time again. I don't know if it's because of the workouts, the weird hormonal stuff going on, or the reduced protein. If I keep my protein... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 10:36:42 EST One more week, and I'm done with this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611972 Not done with EVERYTHING, just this. <BR> <BR> I had such great success the first time I did Atkins!! I don't know why I'm trying like 10x as hard and not getting anywhere! <BR> <BR> I have one more week of this. In that week, I plan to use up as much of the wacky low carb specialty stuff I bought and prepare to move on to my usual low calorie/moderation route. Why? Because I am so frustrated I could pull my hair out! <BR> <BR> Last three days- scale goes up! What the hey hey? My s... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 10:38:52 EST Thank you, Spark cheerleaders! (long and silly picture post) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608484 Thanks for cheering me on, guys! I woke up feeling all despondent and crap. It was one of those "What's the point??" mornings for some reason. You guys cheered me on, though, and I got on my bike and got the workout in. After I finished feeling gross& had my shower, I was able to take a little "me time" and have a coffee on the couch. Sitting down felt AMAZING and suddenly I was no longer all bummed out. <BR> <BR> Funny how exercise does that, huh? Endorphins and all that jazz. Don'... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 18:39:09 EST Hey, it's Monday! Start of week 4 of scale hokey pokey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607285 It takes one pound off, it put adds one pound on, it adds another pound on, and I shake it all about..... you get the idea. My scale is a bastard of the highest caliber. <BR> <BR> I'm working with my keto calc numbers, and I can't tell a whole lot yet, but I THINK maybe I'm making progress? <BR> <BR> The scale dropped a little bit, but after gaining for almost a week straight and ending up just one pound shy of where I started three weeks ago, I don't really know what's going on anymore. ... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 14:53:00 EST I hate numbers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603843 I have never been good with them. If you start talking statistics, it's like my brain blanks out. I suddenly cannot follow the conversation anymore. It is a foreign language! <BR> <BR> ...Some people are really good with foreign languages, though. I have to wonder if those people are also good with numbers. Maybe the two are related! <BR> <BR> ANYWAY... <BR> <BR> This is a numbers blog. I hate everything about numbers. They are a necessary evil, though. I was plodding through the ... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 22:16:10 EST Still at it. Yup. Some random costume pictures inside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602220 This is an unexciting entry! I just felt like it'd been a few days and while I'm not necessarily seeing the kind of progress I'd like (any), I'm still at it. <BR> <BR> I have two jars of cookie butter, a jar of biscoff spread, a package of biscoff cookies, two packs of imported hi chew, and two trader joe's candy bars leftover from the holidays, and I haven't touched any of that crap. I haven't even been tempted. I love Mom3, but most of that was left at the house by her as a Christmas pr... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 10:55:16 EST Week 3! In which I am impatient, and get tired of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599844 I'm still at it! Despite how frustrating the experience has been this time around :( I'm sticking with this no matter what until Ushicon, then if things are still this aggravating, I'm going to re-evaluate my freaking life, you know? WHO ARE WE? WHAT ARE WE DOING HERE? etcetc <BR> <BR> "It" FINALLY stopped on Sunday. Hooray! I started a new month of birth control pills, so I hope it doesn't decide to be irregular and start up again, yo! I don't need that!! I'm glad it finally stopped... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:42:09 EST