POETLKNG2LOSE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=POETLKNG2LOSE POETLKNG2LOSE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Doctors Visit and Grade on Assignment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761038 Well i went to the doctor yesterday to get help for my bladder trouble. She prescribed Oxybutin and told me to cut back on my coffee. Ouch! I love my coffee. I can drink a whole pot of it myself. I will never cut it out completely cause then i would be a bear. I am down to 3 cups now instead of 6. Also she wants me to wear support hose or stockings. I have some but one one leg it cut into my leg under the knee. I got an A on my assignment for last week. I just turned in my photograph one toni... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 20:44:01 EST Doctors Scales and other things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758213 I am so mad at the huge difference between my scale and the doctors. Mine said 123.4 when i weighed on it now. According to the doctors scale I was weighed at 197 pounds! That was on the 29th of last month! If i was that heavy i would not even be able to fit into the clothes i can still wear yet. Of course some do not fit because i gained too much weight; but not that much! T%hat is why i never even look at it anymore. It just makes me mad. In my last class I did a brochure about SparkPeople.... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 11:10:42 EST Time To Catch Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757925 Well I am sorry that i have been a no show for months here. I can only say that I got lazy and distracted by my school work again. I have gained weight and i intend to try and change that. But first I have to line up my day so I do not spend so much time with class. It seems i am once more being taken over by it. And the house is in disarray again. My left leg is getting better now. Have been seeing a therapist for it. Went to a dental place in Oconto a few weeks back. Very bad experience the... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 23:21:37 EST Thanks For Prayers and Weight Gain And Philosophy Class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712285 I want to thank all of you on Sparks who prayed for my daughter before. It turned out to be just a muscle sprain and nothing more but it was a wake up call for her to lose weight. I have some serious losing to do yet. I cannot fit into my clothes from last year and my daughter says she is disappointed in me too. Lately I have been feeling depressed and have no ambition to really do anything. Now I am in Philosophy and it is much harder than my other classes were. I have to write a paper abou... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 18:06:51 EST Prayer Needed For My Daughter Jennifer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696496 Everyone on Sparks who knows Jennifer please keep her in prayer as she went to the emergency room today. She might have a possible blood clot in her left leg. She told me it was hurting her really bad before she called the doctor. I am so scared right now. This waiting is so hard not knowing. She has the cell phone and she will call when she can. Fri, 16 May 2014 15:17:44 EST Back Story and Authentiity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691407 Well the misunderstanding is cleared up now i think; the pastor talked to the lady and then she called me the net day. Jennifer finally got her room more organized and less messy. I am depressed cause i do not think i will be able to go to camp again cause of my hand and the pain in my back and leg. Something i look forward to is gone. I am learning how to be real and authentic in out bible study and be more open with others. In church Wednesday night i explained how i was a pacifist and woul... Fri, 9 May 2014 15:45:32 EST Procrastination My Biggest Enemy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685230 In the battle with my weight and with my whole life procrastination is my number 1 problem. I keep putting things off until it is too late or i have to do it. It is the number 1 reason i sometimes send in bill payments late cause i put if off and then forget where i stored the bills until the due date is past. I keep putting off going back to losing weight until tomorrow and here it is and i did not do anything yet. It is the reason i am not moving forward in my writing cause i do not spend t... Thu, 1 May 2014 20:15:35 EST Depressed Over Church Issue And My Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683423 I am depressed today because the issue with the lady from church still is not resolved, We sent her a card yesterday telling her that we were thinking and praying for her and we have not heard from her yet. We think another party from church who is very close to her influenced her, It is a sad state of affairs not to be able to go to church, I hope after the anniversary of his death that the lady starts to rethink everything that she said and realize it was just a misunderstanding between her... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 19:01:29 EST Trying To Write More http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681214 I have decided that it is time i hone my writing skills again in preparation for getting published in the future. I am in the process of writing a poem about me and my daughter. It is going slowly cause i want it to be from the heart and original. I have spent too much time playing games and not enough time writing and reading. Tomorrow i will start writing down what i eat as well and do some exercise. Sat, 26 Apr 2014 21:32:20 EST Misunderstandings and Spring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680536 First I would like to know what ever happened to out spring in Wisconsin? We get a day or 2 when it is warm and then it gets cold and even rainy or snow. I am so tired of the snow and even the rain. I long for warm weather again. Secondly, once more we will not be going to church on Sunday because of a misunderstanding between the woman who takes us to church most of the time and my daughter. She took my daughter down to see the doctor this morning because of the tick bite and said she wold b... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 21:18:30 EST Everything But The Kitchen Sink http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680422 I have too much to talk about to put it all in the title this time. On top of everything else now I have to replace the ceiling light in the kitchen now. The wire is frayed and the lights no longer come on. I have to have our pastor come and put it up after i get it from Walmart. I could have had it today if i had not forgotten my identification for my check book. Discover is after me to pay 600 or 700 a month and i cannot do it. We are working on cleaning the house yet and God told me that t... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 18:00:12 EST Another Month Of Therapy, Pain, and Typing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663857 Well i have another month of therapy then i will be done. I am in pain tonight from my leg and back. If therapy does not work i will have to go to see a chiropractor. Supposed to have more snow tomorrow. Bah! I hate the stuff! i want spring to come. It looks like i can finally type with the left hand and no pain so back to school i go after this. i will have a lot of catching up to do now. Thu, 3 Apr 2014 22:26:28 EST Gained Another 2 Pounds, Daughter, and Health Care http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662703 Well i guess i have to get serious about losing weight now. I gained another 2 pounds this week. My daughter says that i am to log my calories every day for 3 weeks until i lose 5 pounds. <BR> I have another month of therapy yet before they say i am good to go. I got my healthcare through the state now and i can get rides to my appointments with Logistics now. I got a ride scheduled for the 10th so i do not have to ask anyone anymore. I only had to ask someone for tomorrow cause it was too s... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 13:54:00 EST Tired Of This Crappy Weather and Next Week See Doctor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657413 I am tired of this crappy weather we are having here! Now we are supposed to get snow and rain again tonight and tomorrow! I have an appointment with the therapist tomorrow too. And i am going on the other van that goes on Thursdays. Hope I will not have to cancel again. I gained my pound back that i lost last week; hand is gradually getting stronger. Last 2 sessions i worked with Heidi's boss and he does not even work you for a full half hour. Next Tuesday I see the doctor to see my hand aga... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 23:10:04 EST Appointment Cancellation and Cold http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645447 I had to cancel my appointment for today because of my cold and my Thursday appointment has been changed from 11 am to 3 pm. Hoping this cold will get better by then. I am using Mucinex to break it up. Still getting cold flashes though. My daughter went on the van in my place today. Her cold is doing better than mine. I signed up for the healthcare online and will be getting Badger Care Plus like my daughter will in April. Now if only my wrist would heal and a job would come by. Been unusuall... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 14:32:12 EST Bad Cold and Therapy Sessions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643117 I am getting over a bad cold now that my daughter also has. I wanted to go to church tomorrow but not the way i feel. Hope it gets better by Tuesday when i go on the van again. Another party will be going on that does not like the other woman and I am hoping she will not be on after getting into trouble again. I have 2 more weeks of therapy sessions yet before i see the doctor again. What do you think of the new Spark Points? I liked the old format better. It was easier to get points. This n... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 19:42:11 EST Wrist, Weight, and Crazy Woman on Van http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640855 Well i was told by the therapist to sit by the couch with a pillow to do the one exercise with mt wrist. And I found out that it is much harder to get it to cooperate then when i sat by the table and was leaning over to do it. She gave me 2 new exercises to do and i see her tomorrow again. I gained another 2 pounds. i have to start getting more serious about losing weight. Though i really miss doing Turbo Jam! Jennifer had trouble with that one woman on the van yesterday. She fell down outsid... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 22:26:13 EST Update and Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634653 Well i am doing therapy now and the wrist is gradually getting stronger. Skin is back to normal now before it was like an alligators. Discover is still hounding me through emails now. I replied back today saying if they keep it up i will file bankruptcy on them. Want me to pay past due amount of 216 now. I gained almost 2 pounds last week i was at 115.4 now i am at 117.7. Got refunds but money will not ;last long when neither i nor Jenny get that much back. It seems that the one woman from t... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 19:19:23 EST Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627725 Seen doctor today and cast came off but now i have to do therapy to get my hand back in shape. i can type better with the cast off but hand is still swelled and i feel like an alligator with the skin peeling off. i am to have therapy twice a week for a month and then see him again in 6 weeks. My fingernails are longer on my left hand than on my right. I am so sick of this snow though. it is supposed to snow on Thursday and i have an appointment then. I don't want to go on the van for my Tuesd... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 21:21:40 EST Wrist, Bills and Other Issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622633 Well I have a feeling i will not get this off next week. It still is swollen and i cannot make a fist like he wants. Tried to get out of the appointment but he still wants to see me Tuesday. More expense for what? To tell me what i already know? Bah humbug! I will not use all the money to pay them off; they are too expensive. I paid off my chiropractor and the clinic that is enough. I need money to live on. Our pastor daughter's had her baby boy yesterday at 3 pm. He is a proud grandpa now. L... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 21:44:07 EST Good News Finally http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618900 I got a check from the accident insurance company today. It was for over 900 dollars! Hallelujah! <BR> Now i can pay off some of my bills and have something to live on. I will get over 1400 back in taxes too. Only won a dollar in the lottery the other day and no jobs around yet. What i am hoping is that Austin will get his. Got a ride to church for tomorrow too. And Discover has not been calling anymore either. Sat, 8 Feb 2014 19:21:09 EST Still No Luck and Lost another 3 Pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617390 Bought a scratch off bingo ticket today; nothing! Waiting after 10:30 to see about the Wisconsin lottery. Could not take out interest from IRA cause i am not old enough yet. Where am i going to get another 150 for the specialist? I got 56 from returning stuff at Walmart. Have not won any money from Dollar General sweepstakes yet. What do you do with a dog that keeps wanting to go out to look for her buddy? If she were a person i would say she is in love. Good news is I lost another 3 pounds a... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 23:17:36 EST Still Blue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613444 Did not get to church today and out of 4 lottery tickets i got nothing! Feel like God is leaving me on a wild goose chase or something. I am terrified of being homeless and losing our dog. I am not telling my sister-in-law cause she would say that then how can i afford to go to school. She does not understand cause she is not a Christian. Got to get all the paperwork in order to get Community Care from Bellin. They want to know about all the money i might have even stocks or bonds. What a pai... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 21:58:12 EST Better Business Bureau Church update and poems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612540 Well i filed a complaint against Discover today with the Better Business Bureau. I am getting tired of them calling me 3or 4 times a day. I refuse to talk to them since they will not listen to me. They expect me to pay 336 plus over a thousand on top of that yet since i am over the limit. Waiting to see if someone will call back to take us to church. Our regular ride does not trust the slippery roads and the other one is out of town. The party we are waiting on is iffy cause he never called ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 22:13:31 EST Warming Up And Bankruptcy Filing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609637 Well it is going to start warming up tomorrow and our pastor is taking us shopping. But i have creditors on my butt now. Discover Card wants me to pay them 336 dollars now! I cannot afford that and now they keep pestering me with phone calls which i ignore. The only option left for me is to file for bankruptcy and get rid of the debt i have. We are trying to clean house now so an inspector can inspect the house and see that it is not worth 60 thousand. The roof needs fixing, the wiring has to... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 21:35:58 EST Arm Sore. Another Bill and Church Service http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606518 My right arm is sore now cause i was shoveling with it cause Jenny is having leg issues again. Got the bill from the specialist this week already it is over 300 too. Don't know where i am going to come up with the money though. Good service today; guy from our church read from Ist Peter about trials and talked about his own hardships with us. After he asked about people coming up for prayer and i went up to the altar and a couple of others and was hugged by some people after. Need more servic... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 20:01:28 EST Family Update and Wrist and Church http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601740 Today i got a cast put on my wrist and it will be 4 weeks until i get it off. They took 2 x rays of it and said it was doing good. Got some pain in it tonight. He wants me to move my fingers more; hand is very swollen yet. Will cost me an arm and a leg when i am done. Already got a bill for over 300 from the clinic and had to pay 150 dollars up front. I am worried sick that i will go broke. I had a dream last night having to do with lions and people being uncovered. God told me this morning i... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 22:17:04 EST Bad Eating Habits Depression Yet and Church http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599486 Well i blew it today i had over 200 calories again. I did not log the other 3 days before today yet. I know i am eating too many high caloric snacks because i feel depressed yet. Being one armed does not help either. Weather has been nicer and i walked to the store today and yesterday. We did not plan out our meals very good this time and we ended up short So today we were eating macaroni and cheese and wieners for both meals. Very high in sodium today too. Miss being in church too but Jennif... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 22:20:33 EST Going Stir Crazy Inside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585560 Also I feel exteremely cooped up since I cannot even take my dog outside anymore. I am discovering how many things you need both hands for; like opening a door while holding a dog's leash with the other; then shutting the door behind you. We are thinking of tying a rope or something onto my clothes for me to be able to shut the door when she goes on the van on Friday; cause she will be gone for 4.5 to 5 hours and that will be too long for the dog to wait and i don't want to put her in the k... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 11:42:21 EST Weight Went Up Again and Poetry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585441 I weighed myself and i gained another pound; cannot do any exercise until my wrist heals. This writers group I am in cannot seem to understand that all poetry or wrting is not upbeat or happy. Poetry is about expressing your feelings and that includes feelings of sadness or anger worry and despair. Look at the poetry of Edgar Allan Poe and see how dark he wrote. Or even in the bible when David cried out to God he was not happy all the time. I cannot at this time write something i do not feel.... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 10:16:49 EST Hurt All Over And Adapting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584803 Well today my back hurts from being in bed too much yesterday. My right arm hurts from the fall too and using it more. My wrist is kind of sore as well and appointment been moved to the 21st since the weather is so bloody cold here. At least the van is going on Friday this week instead of tomorrow. I am slowly adapting to doing things differently without my other hand. Had to call the school and have class put on hold until my wrist is healed. It would take too long to type with just one ha... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 19:55:48 EST bad start to the new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581398 This morning while on my way to the dollar General I slipped and fell forward on black ice. When I fell I broke my left wrist. and had to crawl on my knees in some snow to raise myself up on the back of an RV that was sitting in a lot. When I got up; I noticed a car sitting on the corner and I wondered how long it had been there and if person saw the whole thing and simple refused to help. I might write it up in the paper and shame the person even though I don't know who it was. I see the ort... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 23:51:44 EST Out of Shape http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580178 Well I did Turbo Jam and Chalean Extreme and i am weaker! I am also not as fast at keeping up in Turbo either as i used to be. I felt it in my abs when i did the arm workout on the floor too. I have really let myself slide now i have a lot of work to do. It is supposed to get even colder next week here and the senior van might not even go then. I hate this weather! Thu, 2 Jan 2014 23:52:17 EST Goals For The New Year And An Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578761 Well sorry to say that i have let myself go back to unhealthy eating since i lost my job last year. I gained some of my weight back too. I now weigh 120 pounds; tomorrow i will weigh myself again. I had no ambition to do much of anything but eat and sleep before. i just did not care about anything anymore. That job was my niche and i thrived in it. I knew from the start almost that he did not like me. When i screwed up in the beginning and missed some work I was brutally honest with him and h... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 23:22:23 EST Trouble At Work andTrouble On The Van http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562941 Well that guy at work finally got his way. He got me fired yesterday because he reported that i was short again. Why is it that every time i work with him it happens and not with the other one? I knew in my gut that he was dishonest from the start of this whole mess. I told my manager on the phone that i found out that when he worked at a grocery store before that he stole stuff from the bakery on his lunch break and also stole money from the cash register. Why in heavens name did they not c... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 13:42:19 EST Trouble At Work andTrouble On The Van http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562940 Well that guy at work finally got his way. He got me fired yesterday because he reported that i was short again. Why is it that every time i work with him it happens and not with the other one? I knew in my gut that he was dishonest from the start of this whole mess. I told my manager on the phone that i found out that when he worked at a grocery store before that he stole stuff from the bakery on his lunch break and also stole money from the cash register. Why in heavens name did they not c... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 13:42:19 EST An Update For Everyone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553044 Well I thought I had better update everyone on what is going on in my life now. I know I have been MIA of late what with school and work. I have not heard anymore from the guy I work with sometimes about being short. Apparently the manager is keeping an eye on him. He still closes up too early though. A week ago he closed up at least 3 minutes before 10. The manager hired 2 new people; one already started and one is going to start soon. This means my hours will be cut back. Last week i worked... Fri, 29 Nov 2013 21:40:16 EST Vision For End Of BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538796 Last time i spoke of jumping like Jillian Michaels does but for me that goal is not attainable because of my knees. What I can envision is losing a couple inches in my legs arm or stomach by the end of the round. I can see myself starting <em>344</em> to look more lean or toned. i can see myself not being as saggy in the arms anymore. <em>362</em> But in order for it to happen i need to keep doing ST and use heavier weights for some exercises and i need to keep watching my snacks . I kn... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 00:22:14 EST Stupid Blog on Sparks and Essay and Work and BLC Admin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536832 Say did any of you come across that stupid blog or article put out by a woman on how to keep your man happy? It was kind of demeaning to women almost saying oh in order to keep your man you have to cook, bake, fix the bed, leave the toliet seat up and so on. But the one about letting him fix the car because you do not have a certain body part and he doesI found really insulting. And if the two of you are married or together you should let him have his fun with the guys even at a stripper clu... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 20:45:38 EST Bad Day Yesterday and Feeling Blue Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531044 By far I think last night ended up being one of the worst days at work. I struck out right off the bat cause I left the bathroom key for the mens bathroom inside and the one for women does not work. Next this woman had to recount the change i gave her in front of other customers. I felt totally mortified and embarrassed. Well the rest of the night seemed to go haywire then. Two different customers I gave the wrong change to and I used the wrong key for a customer who was using the food card. ... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 15:34:14 EST Dog Training and Extra Day of Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530199 Well we are finding out that our new dog Leah is a handful. She is a hound dog and likes to try and chase after squirrels. She also likes to try to greet every person, dog, or cat she sees. Next week we are getting an ID tag for her as well as a new dog bed and a two tones whistle. The dog thing we bought that is supposed to emit a high pitched sound does not work on her. She gets too excited and rears up on her legs too and becomes unmanageable at times. I got an extra day of work on Sunday ... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 16:22:06 EST Having a Bad Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525920 First the one who is filling as an interim manager until they get one called me today. He told me they were 17 dollars short due to a check not being put in the register. I was the one working last night and i must of given it back to her along with the receipt by mistake. And she never came back with it; I hope they found out who she was. I am still having problems with the checks and then when other customers are waiting in line i get nervous too. I am finding out that not all people are ho... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 20:22:59 EST Work and BLC Problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517892 Well I thought I had better blog about what is going on in my life now. I feel really stupid for screwing up at work and not paying closer attention to my work days on Tuesday. I had tunnel vision that night and was only focused on the 22nd when i had a mammogram scheduled. I guess i zoned out the other 2 days cause all I remember seeing is Tuesday not Thursday night or Friday from 8-4. Well the one in charge until they get a manager is Austin and he called me yesterday and said that I was su... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 16:42:19 EST First Day At New Job and Assignment Trouble and Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503621 Well the good news is that i worked my first day at Dollar General yesterday. I worked from 3 to 8 at night. They were training me on the cash register. I made some mistakes like using the wrong key for credit cards. Not knowing that i was to use the smaller scanner for items like lipsticks, not always pressing total or putting in the wrong amount for the cash received or forgetting to enter in my clerk number and password once. The biggest problems were with the keys and the scanning of item... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 15:25:48 EST my blc 23 before shots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493274 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l681732292.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1363879972.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1615292568.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1537763484.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As you can see i did not change much from the last time. i need to work on my arms I call them chicken wings and my abs and even legs on the inner thighs.. i know i will have to conserve my time more once i start ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 23:21:31 EST Getting Over Cold and New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488793 This week I am getting over a small cold from not wearing a cap since it is colder outside. I hate sneezing and sniffling.I will be beginning all over again after this week. i got a call last week about a job and it is in town here. Dollar General is opening up and the guy said he is setting up a schedule and would call me back in a week. I am a little bit scared since I have never worked in retail before and I just hope i can figure everything out. It has been a long time since i have worked... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 23:16:04 EST Lost a Pound,Money Problems and Writing an Editorial For My Writers Group http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482944 This week I lost a pound and am back down to 100 now. I had to go to the bank to get a money order today cause the Marinette County treasurer sent me a notice that my taxes were over due. I completely forgot to pay them! I cannot believe this; this menopause really sucks big time when I forget to pay my taxes and other bills on time. And I looked at my savings account and I only have a little over 5,000 left in it before I have to take out the last CD from the bank here; after that I will hav... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 17:27:02 EST Assignments Done and Rained On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478835 I got both assignments turned in this afternoon and I am glad about that. Now all i have to do is wait and see. I know i did the best that I possibly could. i know i need to relax and enjoy the ride so to speak. Still have to fill that application out yet. I went for a walk and got soaking wet on the way back home. I had to stop by someone who had a big porch and wait for it to slow down. I could not see hardly where i was going it was coming down so hard and it started to hail too. I just ke... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 17:37:00 EST A Life That Is Out Of Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475718 Today I seem to feel worse than yesterday. I have this depression hanging over me of late and I am spiraling out of control. It is affecting my eating in a bad way; like I eat because i want to try out a food or because `I am in a bad frame of mind like today;. Everything keeps going up in price and my money keeps disappearing. I never can keep the house clean for long. It gets dirty after a week and i get to the point where i do not care to do it because I got school work to do and it is ju... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:47:20 EST No Longer Underweight And Overeating and Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474939 I weighed myself a day early and found out I gained 3.2 pounds and am back at 101.4 now. I intend to stay in that range from now on. The trick is not to eat too much or exercise too much. Today I ate way too many calories and I was not even hungry I just ate cause I wanted too. I have to keep my eyes from consuming everything in sight just because I am bored or depressed. And exercise is another thing when it comes to my walking or Turbo Jam. I ended up doing 3 hours of exercise with walking ... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 19:22:33 EST