POETLKNG2LOSE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=POETLKNG2LOSE POETLKNG2LOSE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Learning Curve, Stomach, and New Exercise Video from Library http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256566 Well I am learning a lot in this class about the brain and memory. I am learning that I am clueless when it comes to mentally turning shapes around to match each other. I also am learning that I am very disorganized when it comes to shopping. I have decided to write the items on my list in the order that they have then in the stores i go to. I have Walmart and Aldis figured out; but not the Dollar Store or our local grocery store yet or Dollar General. <BR> <BR> My stomach has been a problem... Mon, 24 Oct 2016 20:13:51 EST Opted Out, Heartburn, and Quiz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6251977 I just found the challenges I was in too much and opted to get out of them. I already went through them and I was not really following the rules for the sweet challenge as far as only having 1- 2 sugar servings. I like my chocolate and candy now and then. I also like flavored yogurt. I have things under control more now and that is all that counts. I am trying to keep my protein in range while not going over my calorie limit. <BR> <BR> Dealing with heartburn again today. I have been taking ... Sat, 15 Oct 2016 13:20:03 EST Day 12, 3 Pounds Gone, and TnT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6250704 Well it is day 12 and we learned about artificial sweeteners and were encouraged to drink more water. i drank 11 glasses today. I lost 3 pounds this week too. On Friday i go in for an MRI on my lower back again. They want to recheck something to make sure it is not cancer or something. I did my first TnT today and had to do 20 minutes of cardio for a warm up. I did Jessica Smith and Sparks. Going to bring water and apples to the Ladies Meeting tomorrow night. No coffee or sweets for us. Wed, 12 Oct 2016 23:28:20 EST Day 11, Perkins Menu, and Class and Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6250080 Well I guessed I miscounted before yesterday should have been day 10 instead of nine. Today they want us to get enough chromium in our diets. I do because i ate broccoli tonight made with garlic! Yum! Also made fried mushrooms as well and fish taco wraps. I had 4 servings of sugar instead of two but I am in range and protein is good. I can not always get fiber in range though.I plan to do another walking workout to Leslie again. In the 5 day one she really makes you work by incorporating stre... Tue, 11 Oct 2016 20:08:24 EST Day Nine, Quiz and Eye Surgery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6249535 Well it is day nine of the challenge and now they want us to think of a way we can reward ourselves for going a long time without any sweets. All I could think of was a new top or something. But I know I probably will not last that long cause I am not really into it like some are. I think that variety and moderation is the key. I also think that when you go totally cold turkey like that you will end up binging in the end. For some it would not bother them but for me i am different. <BR> <BR... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 20:23:47 EST Day Eight and Protein, Class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6248935 Well today is day eight but I will not get full points again seeing I have more than 1-2 servings of sugar and I did not substitute something else for the sweet stuff. Yet today i am dong better in protein than yesterday, Yesterday I was under and went over in calories to make it up. Today my calories are good and so is my protein. <BR> <BR> I will have to do finish the studying for quiz after church. I had no time this afternoon cause i had to observe my daughter making a bed with hospital... Sun, 9 Oct 2016 18:04:41 EST Day Seven and Good Abs Workout and Quiz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6248348 Well it is day 7 of the challenge and i cannot do part of it today. I ran out of protein bars and I am not throwing away or giving away my Nips. They want us to clean out our cupboards. It is enough that I journal and try to get more fruit and veggies in; especially on days when i do TnT. Then I try to eat cleaner. I cannot afford to make my own protein bars either like I seen on a clean eating site. Ingredients were too expensive. I always say moderation is the key. <BR> <BR> For TnT today... Sat, 8 Oct 2016 13:34:18 EST Lawn Mower Trouble, Day 7, IBS, and School http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247917 Well now the stupid throttle on the lawn mower broke off! If it isn't one thing it is another! I cannot afford another one now either. As it is it is day 7 of the Sweet Tooth Challenge and I ate snacks that were not that healthy. I had a piece of angel food cake with whipped topping. Probably because I was upset. In day 7 we are supposed to come up with plans to avoid eating sweets at certain situations like at work or functions. My problem is eating at church potlucks and Ladies Meetings. T... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 15:33:55 EST Day Six Of the Challenge and BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247332 It is day 6 of the Sweet Tooth Challenge and I am doing pretty good. I only had one Nips candy and one chocolate yesterday. Otherwise I had angel food cake with strawberries and whipped topping. You cannot totally escape sugar in foods. And I cannot totally go for clean eating cause my daughter is supposed to eat simple and complex carbohydrates according to what her doctor said. I figured out a way to get full points for the whole grains by having one of my snacks 2 slices 12 grain bread w... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 11:28:43 EST Day Five of Sweet Tooth Challenge and Doctor Visit and Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246854 Well it is the fifth day and today we learned about hidden sugars in foods. We had to talk about how many grams of sugar we found in foods. It seems 4 grams = 4 teaspoons of sugar and regular soda has 40 grams in or 10 teaspoons of sugar! I found 3 grams in peanut butter and 8 in my Nips and according to a chart in the Hidden Sugars article I am only supposed to have 20 or 21 grams of sugar a day. We are having angel food cake for supper with strawberries and whipped topping. Which we all kno... Wed, 5 Oct 2016 15:19:57 EST Day Four of the Sweet Tooth Challenge, LCW and specialist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246403 Well I did buy some chocolate and candy today. But I did not overdo it with either. I ate one a half pieces of turtle candy and only 2 pieces of licorice bites. So I am doing pretty good with controlling my sugar intake. I took a quiz about sugar and only got 5 right out of 10. <BR> <BR> In the Last Chance Workout this week we have to total up all our fitness minutes for the last 3 weeks and then divide y 3 fro an average. If we beat our average by 14 minutes we get 5 bonus points. If we be... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 19:11:22 EST Three Challenges Plus BLC and Class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245666 Well I have joined three new challenges this week. One is the Sweet Tooth Challenge to get control over eating sweets. I struggle sometimes eating too much chocolate or candy. Donuts and other stuff is no problem cause we do not buy them usually. <BR> <BR> I also joined the Realistic Resolutions Challenges where we learn to build healthy habits. I need to keep logging my food and exercise or I might slack off. I need to see where i gained weight by not eating right or not drinking enough wat... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 11:31:16 EST Shopping. Emergency Room and Movie Night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6244404 Well I went shopping but it did not go as planned. Because within a half hour I started getting this terrible headache that started in my sinuses and then went in the back of my neck and between my shoulders. I barely managed to shop at Walmart and the Dollar Tree. A kind passenger there let me borrow her phone to call my doctor's office. After them asking me questions I found out I had to wait to get in until 2:40. I knew I would never make it to wait that long. So I just told them I was goi... Fri, 30 Sep 2016 22:46:52 EST Obey God Rather Than Man http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6242049 It is better to obey God <BR> Follow His staff and rod <BR> Than to obey man <BR> Better to take a stand <BR> <BR> Than to sit on the fence <BR> Reside in His presence <BR> Than to cave in to fear <BR> Instead keep God near <BR> <BR> Trust in Him to provide <BR> In Him we must abide <BR> Listen to His voice <BR> Then make the choice <BR> <BR> What He says we will do <BR> For He is true <BR> We can count on Him <BR> Through Him we will win <BR> <BR> People might think we're lazy <BR> Or ev... Mon, 26 Sep 2016 10:10:46 EST IBS and WEC and the State http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6241808 Well I had a bad day today due to my IBS. I lost 2 meals and 2 snacks today and my calories are lower. I see the gastroenterologist on Friday. He might have to put me on Robinol what she is on. It has been happening a lot lately. I go on the van on Thursday again seeing that the Tuesday van driver will not be back until October 4th. <BR> <BR> I have been organizing the house this weekend because of the WEC or weekend challenge. Although I should do that more often but I tend to let it go wh... Sun, 25 Sep 2016 22:13:24 EST Favorite Songs and WEC for Week Three http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240324 The prompt for next month's writer's prompt is to write about why a song is your favorite. I have many hymns, songs, choruses, and praise songs I like. I decided to use the song I first heard in my friend's church after I was let down by my former pastor. It is called, Cover Me, by Mark Congdon. The chorus goes like this, Peace of God, cover me, cover me, <BR> cover me, cover me, Through the storm cover me. In the verses it talks about our safety is found in Him. Our security and peace is fou... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 20:16:39 EST I Will Not Give In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240293 I Will Not Give In <BR> <BR> I will not give in to my feelings and eat <BR> I will not be dragged down and beat <BR> My body belongs to Him <BR> To destroy it is a sin <BR> <BR> I will not give in to despair <BR> Because I know He cares <BR> I will not give in to depression <BR> Let food become an obsession <BR> <BR> I will not use food to comfort me <BR> When i walk on the sea <BR> Jesus will reach out <BR> He will hear my shout <BR> <BR> I will not give in to rage <BR> Like a tiger in a... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 18:49:00 EST When Will It End? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239941 Sometimes when it rains it pours. It is bad enough that the house is falling apart with the carpet and mold in the roof. It is bad enough that my class will end and I am unsure of the future. But now I think in a few months we might have to leave the church. The pastor keeps preaching on being fruitful and productive and active. He talks about finding out your purpose and being used. Yet he will not use us because of his doctrine. He should practice what he preaches. Now i feel like my friend... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 00:20:39 EST LCW, My Dog, My Class, and Other Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239228 Well the WEC is over and I made all my points for it a full 30,000! Now it is Last Chance Workout Day and we try and rack up as many minutes as we can for exercise today. But the captain in charge is making it more interesting. She is making us hike through parts of Israel. You can rack up as much as 90 minutes and end up by a beach in Israel. I already have 60 minutes in and only need 30 more. I did 20 this afternoon and 40 this morning. <BR> <BR> My daughter and a friend had to take our do... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 18:02:43 EST Day Four Of WEC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238645 I am on day four and doing good. I have been staying in my calorie range. I have been drinking all my water and exercising for 30 minutes or more every day. Today i walked a little and I ran for 3 minutes. My left hip is a little sore now. But it felt good. I have not done it for years. I did not even know I could do it yet. I am going at a slower pace but I am still moving! I have not had any problems today losing my meals. <BR> <BR> Today my daughter and I used a new formula for split end... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 18:01:54 EST Day Three of WEC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237948 It is day three and I am doing pretty good. I have not given in and done any emotional eating. I am trying to use prayer or other things instead to decrease stress. And stressful is the way it has been with trying to be a leader in a group. Having to work with different personalities and deal with one who is a know it all and cannot understand what I am telling him. It is at the end now and I am finding out that one did not give any references for her part. This does not look good because we ... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 14:36:14 EST Fiber is not Working http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237446 Well I lost two meals today. My breakfast and lunch I do not think the fiber is working. I had a half of a glass with 2 tablespoons in and about 12 ounces of water drank with the meal. I finished drinking it within 5 minutes. Within 5-10 minutes later I had to go to the bathroom.My daughter thinks I should cut my carbs down instead. Now I have to figure out what snacks I am going to have to make up for it. Sat, 17 Sep 2016 15:03:44 EST BLC and Gratitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237306 Today I am working on not doing any emotional eating at all. I am sticking to my 2-3 snacks. I am up to 4 tablespoons of fiber in my water now, It gets very thick too. Yesterday I ate air popped popcorn to help my food stay in me. I am planning on getting all my Bingo card filled for WEC and getting 30,000 points! <BR> <BR> I have joined the 30 Day Small Challenges and I am on day 17 of writing down 3 things you are grateful for. I wrote I am thankful to God for loving me. I am thankful for... Sat, 17 Sep 2016 09:50:30 EST New Week in BLC and the Carpet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237114 This week in our WEC challenge we have to come up with mini goals. <BR> I have chosen to only eat 2-3 snacks and only if I am hungry or low in calories. Today I was low cause I lost my breakfast. <BR> The mini goal for fitness is to do another TnT tonight. It will be a higher impact one from Chalean that has cardio in it and uses combination ST exercises. <BR> I have chosen to try and lose another 1-2 pounds this week. I think it is doable if I keep logging everything and work hard at it. <... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 22:13:59 EST No Longer a Slave http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236585 No longer a slave to wrath <BR> It will not be in my path <BR> No longer a slave to rage <BR> I will not live in a cage <BR> <BR> No longer a slave to bitterness <BR> In Christ I have found forgiveness <BR> A slave no more I am free <BR> For now He lives in me. <BR> <BR> Laura Strnad 9-15-2016 Thu, 15 Sep 2016 23:09:46 EST School and Stress Busting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236484 Well will the story never end? One party tries and tells me he has done the right part but the title of his slide says it all. He did th wrong part and I had to copy and paste off the whole steps or parts the professor wanted us to do to prove it to him. Sigh! <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I had to fork over money for another rug shampooer today too. The old one died and the dog peed in my daughters room last night, So it was a must! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I need to do some of the stress rele... Thu, 15 Sep 2016 20:07:24 EST Stress and Ice Cream http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235463 Stressed out over the members on the team who do not want to communicate via phone or email very well. The one just contacted me via the group today. The other one never responded at all. It is a two way street and in order to get a good grade we all need to cooperate. I confess I ate more ice cream today. Though I was in range because two of my meals were low. <BR> <BR> I need to start work on my interview essay and get it done early and relax. Then i need to find that short story and edit... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 23:22:29 EST Friends Here, My Hernia, and Church and Poetry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6234908 I thank God for my friends here on Sparks who keep me going. Even when I want to give up because of health problems. Now I have been diagnosed with a hiatal hernia. I can no longer drink strong coffee because it gives me severe heart burn. I have been struggling with it for days now. The pills I am on now do not do anything for it at all. <BR> <BR> We are rather sad and hurt by the church where we go now. The people there are wonderful but the pastor keeps his distance and refuses to let us... Mon, 12 Sep 2016 23:37:43 EST In Honor Of Those Who Died http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6234086 9-11 <BR> Not just a number anymore <BR> But tragedy from shore to shore <BR> Lord, I hear the people's cries <BR> Reaching up to the skies <BR> <BR> Little children in the street <BR> The sound of running feet <BR> A smell of fire in the air <BR> People crying everywhere <BR> <BR> Loved ones trapped inside <BR> With nowhere to hide <BR> When the buildings fall down <BR> And tumble to the ground <BR> <BR> Men go rushing in to save <BR> People from a a fiery grave <BR> And some never come... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 15:19:16 EST Eating and My Interview, Exercise, and Writing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6232414 Well I definitely did not overeat today. In fact I lost both my breakfast and lunch today. and I had fiber in my water this morning besides I could not because I had to take my Zantec pill at noon. So now all I have in my system area an apple, one bar, wheat bread with 2 tablespoons of peanut butter and 1 of grape jelly and coffee with 1 of creamer in. I will try to add more fiber to my water for lunch and see how that works for supper. But I will still be low. Tonight is Ladies meeting at ch... Thu, 8 Sep 2016 17:36:46 EST Interview and Assignments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231778 I got the call back from the superintendent and an interview is set up tomorrow at 2. I am on pins and needles now. Wondering if all the grade school students will be watching me or if I will get lost on my way to see him. I finished writing up the questions and just have to print it off now. I am still waiting to hear from the captain of my team. Trying not to stuff my face with food. I will be glad when it is done. <BR> <BR> I also will be glad to get this Powerpoint done. The last person... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 14:49:41 EST Bad News Times Two! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231667 Well the first bad news is got in an email was that my college wanted me to verify my income and status in order to keep receiving aid. It seems there was a screw up in my Fafsa papers. I had to go online and state that I did not live with my parents and resign it. Now i have to verify all my information and send it to them via the school link. <BR> <BR> Second piece of bad news is that I found out after weighing on my new scale that my old one was inaccurate! I weighed on it and it said I ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 11:14:57 EST Spark page setup and other problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6228650 I posted before about Sparks changing their page formatting. The worst part is trying to get another picture on the page. I have a lot of problems cropping it. I just think they should of left it alone. It was easier to change your Spark page then. <BR> <BR> I have to go to the hospital tomorrow and give a urine sample.It seems my bladder pills are not working and i am having problems again. <BR> <BR> I just wish everyone in church would concentrate on unity and not trying to conform ever... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 22:27:16 EST BLC 32 Our Dog, and Health Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6228560 Well BLC starts next week and I am in the Powerful Prism Panthers team. It is one of the better teams for ones who are at or near their goal weight. Though the last two weeks my scale has not been working even with new batteries in it. With all my other expenses now a new scale added to it, ugh! Going by the doctors one minus what they say i am I gained 3 pounds the week before. Always afraid to weigh myself by the GNC scale afraid it would match. I know I am not around 200 cause my friend is... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 18:47:30 EST Discover, and my nonexistent diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6221101 I have been in a funk these last few days. On Monday someone from the court called and told me they were forwarding the information to the attorney's office. She suggested I should talk to them. Ha! Fat chance they will listen! Been there done that! Now today they were trying to get a hold of me by phone. I did not pick up. What part of broke do they not understand? So now my eating is out of hand again. Is it any wonder I do not hear from God when I have lost my self control. Only good new... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 20:12:26 EST Pain and Other News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6219281 Well I am in pain today in my back and right leg. Yesterday and Sunday afternoon my right knee hurt because of going up and down for a song in church. We had to stand up and either sing Praise ye the Lord or Hallelujah and then sit down while the other people sang. Well next time both of us will just have to sit it out. Had to get our dog a smaller collar since she lost so much weight. She still is not eating right. My daughter did not get the job at Kmart. She had an interview at Acer today ... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 21:08:47 EST Update on Dog and Daughter and Discover http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216169 Well our dog is gaining her strength back now and getting better. She is able to go for a longer walk now and get up on my daughters bed. My daughter went for an interview today at Kmart. Next week she goes for an interview at Acer Flooring in Peshtigo. It is a full time position at Kmart but farther away then the other one. Acer would be a harder job working with wood. I go for my last therapy today. I received my back belt yesterday. <BR> <BR> I sent off all the information on my financia... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 12:41:57 EST Still Hurting and Our Dog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6214540 Well my back is still hurting me and this is my last week of therapy. I saw the nurse practitioner at the pain place today. We decided on doing a steroid shot for my back and using a back belt. Although it might be pushed back because they want an MRI of my back before he does it and the insurance company has to okay it. <BR> <BR> Also my foot is still hurting. I will see about buying something for my shoes tomorrow, On the van there will be around 4 or 5 of us going tomorrow, One of them mi... Mon, 8 Aug 2016 20:42:00 EST Hurting Body Parts and Alcoholics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6211158 My back hurts tonight and now my right foot hurts again. I think it is plantar fascitis again. It went away for a long time but now it is back. My back is affecting my left leg too tonight. And our poor dog was sick today. She threw up her food and had the diarrhea and now she is very weak. My daughter is recovering from her surgery tonight. <BR> <BR> I have to put up with some people on the van who I would label as drunks or alcoholics. It seems all the driver and a few others talk about i... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 19:42:30 EST The New Spark Page Format and Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6210272 I do not really like the way Sparkpeople reformatted the Spark pages. I like it better the old way than the way it is now. You were able to get a full picture on the page now you have to cut it down. Also I had forgotten to post a link to a poem I got from somewhere else and it was deleted. I only did that because I was not able to come up with one on my own. For the most part I am not impressed with the new format. <BR> <BR> My life has not been going as it should either. Sometimes I have ... Mon, 1 Aug 2016 10:14:06 EST Dreams and My Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6210057 Well I am reading a book about dreamers by Joy Haney a Pentecostal author. It is fictional but has some very deep thoughts in it. It is causing me to think over my life and my dreams and goals. Oh yes I still want to write and be published! I still want to make an impact on the youth in our world. Oh how they need Jesus in their lives! He has shown me through college what is out there and opened my eyes. But yet I seem to be troubled on every side by family and hardship. I almost want to give... Sun, 31 Jul 2016 23:55:39 EST Feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206566 Feelings <BR> <BR> Feelings come and feelings go <BR> Some highs and some lows <BR> To the mountain heights <BR> Or sliding down flights <BR> <BR> Over the gloomy land of depression <BR> Filled with oppression <BR> Through the raging seas <BR> Of poor little me's <BR> <BR> Up and down never ending <BR> Crooked and ever bending <BR> Feelings cannot be trusted <BR> Like wind or dust <BR> <BR> They are ever changing <BR> Twisting and rearranging <BR> My life into a mess <BR> Leaving less and... Mon, 25 Jul 2016 17:47:38 EST End of Summer BLC Round and Feeling the Blues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205025 Well it is the last week of BLC for this round and then it starts up later next month again. I am thinking I need to go on a new team. I need more support and communication, I will probably go on a team that I was on before. I like to converse more and talk about other things that are bothering me. Like having to sit next to the woman from the van at church. Feeling self-conscious besides her until I remembered something that our associate pastor said awhile back. He told us to stop worrying... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 19:03:20 EST Time To Renew My Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189135 After pigging out tonight at the picnic I think it is time to look over my goals. Time to get a hold of myself and admit I have a problem. It seems like my alter ego or the sinful selfish side of me wants to eat whatever I want with no restrictions.Before we got there I had a plan to watch what I ate and log everything. Well after we got there it went out of the window.Like I had to have a taste of almost everything. And one helping was not enough I had to go back for more. The when I got hom... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 23:44:38 EST Pain Pills http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172762 Also forgot to say I am on 2 pain pills Percoset and morphine. It really blocks me up too. I went once today and tried eating whole can of beets to help. Now I am in pain again and have to take them so I can sleep. I cannot seem to win. My daughter says I should talk to the surgeon about it. Pain seems to have gotten worse for a while it was mild not tonight. Sun, 29 May 2016 23:47:33 EST Urinary Problem and Vitamins and Health Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172524 I forgot to update everyone on my other problem I had with my bladder infections. I am in the last week of this coffee and kugel thing the urinary specialist recommended. It is not working the burning sensation is coming back and I still have some accidents. On top of that I find it very hard to stay awake in the morning just on decaffeinated coffee. So now I just have 1 cup of regular instant coffee and the rest decaf. I am due to see him again on the 10th and I will tell him then. <BR> <B... Sun, 29 May 2016 15:19:49 EST My life So Far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172164 Well I am sorry I have not posted anything in a while. I was busy finishing up with my class the last few weeks. This week was an in between week and I got caught up on some housework. Needless to say i am disgruntled with my shoulder surgery seeing that I was told that the rotator cuff never healed and separated from the shoulder. There is nothing they can do either. And I will have some movement but not what it once was. Meaning that my shoulder will never be back to normal and I will not b... Sat, 28 May 2016 22:59:56 EST A prayer Answered and More to Go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150291 Well God answered my prayer about being used in our new church. I will be writing a poem for the Ladies Banquet that is coming up on May 13th. I am praying a lady we know from the other church gets her refund pretty soon. She had talked to Jennifer about setting up her computer. My daughter told her she would do it for free but the woman said she would pay her 50 dollars. That money would cover both of us for the banquet is 15 dollars a person at the Riverside Club. It has been raining here s... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 21:25:44 EST Updates on Prayers and Health and Spring Cleaning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6127398 Well it has been a while since I posted a blog. My prayers about the furnace were answered. The state approved us for a new furnace a few weeks ago. Also over a week ago our septic system backed up again and the pastor from church had another guy come out and look at it. He fixed it and the church paid for it. They guy said just to use 1 ply toilet paper not two ply. He said he did not see any tree roots like the other gut said. The other one wanted to use a camera to look down there and talk... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 12:39:24 EST Persistence in Prayer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6101158 I have learned to be persistent in prier for what I need. I prayed that God would soften the heart of the woman in energy assistance and allow us to finally get help. Because last week our furnace went out on us and the guy who came said that the things were plugged up on it. He turned it back and got it started again but it was only a temporary fix. I received money for heat but I have to wait for the furnace. It has to go through the state. I am praying that God will keep it going until we ... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 10:20:15 EST