PMBOURQUE's SparkPeople Blog PMBOURQUE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My breakthrough and finally AHA moment I want to open this blog saying that this is going to be a lengthy blog, for me, and a soul cleansing blog. I ask all of you who decide to stay and read on, to just bear with me through the entire blog because I really, really need to get this off my chest. I welcome good comments, but really don't need nor want any bad comments, criticizing comments, or just plain mean comments. I have had those thrown at me my whole life, and quite frankly, am really sick of getting beat up at every turn. I... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 05:46:22 EST Today is the first day of my new life i have been on Sparkpeople on and off since 2008. Today I am back for good, along with the support of my family and friends. Here is to the new me. I welcome any advice or help that anyone wants to offer and to friend me if you want to support me or receive my support. We are all on this journey together, so I say the more the merrier!! God Bless all of you and your families. <BR> <BR> Paul Sat, 6 Dec 2014 06:41:33 EST Finally taking a step to invest in myself Today I crossed a milestone. I actually invested in myself and bought a gym membership. This might not seem like much to most people, but to me it is big. I have been reviewing this over and over in my mind for the last 60 days. Why? Because of 2 things. First, it all started when I received a card in the mail from the local gym offering free membership sign ups. This is a 200.00 savings at this particular gym. The catch...2 year commitment. Second, the 2 year commitment. This is the third ti... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 16:58:20 EST Don't know where else to turn, so I am turning to my friends Hello to everyone, <BR> I have been on this program for the second time for over a year. In that year, I have gone up and down the first 10 pounds and can not get myself to get it in gear to track, journal, lose etc. I do not know why it is so hard for me to commit to this plan so I can get healthy. <BR> <BR> So I am going to be brutally honest here. I have at least 100 - 120 pounds to lose. My back, feet, knees etc are always killing me. I have trouble sleeping because of sleep apnea. My ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 14:08:46 EST When peace and quiet are really needed, go for a bike ride I am a BIG fan of peace and quiet. I love to get up at 5 in the morning to just putz around the house, read email, read blogs on Sparkpeople, etc etc etc. <BR> <BR> But today I just needed a little bit more. Because of the rain that we have been having, I have not been able to go on rides like I want to. But today turned out to be a great day, so I suited up, got the bike out and was gone. <BR> <BR> Two things happened today on my ride. I got the peace and quiet I was looking for, and I als... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 20:06:45 EST At that very moment I knew....and still did nothing I am not sure how many of you who are reading this can relate, but for me it was a pivotal moment when I knew I was getting too heavy. For years, as a guy, as I got heavier and heavier, I would just suck the gut in a little bit more each time I looked at myself in the mirror. <BR> <BR> Until one day. <BR> <BR> Until that one moment... <BR> <BR> As I was standing there, I could literally feel my belly bulge let go. It was like my muscles were finally saying enough! And then the REAL belly ... Thu, 10 May 2012 09:17:42 EST Hi, I'm Paul and I'm fat! Have you ever had the days where you wanted to just get up in front of a crowd of people, or outside in a yard or park, and just yell it out? Let me tell you. It is purifying. It is invigorating. Why on earth would I say that? Because for me, it is just making reality known. I have been this size for over 10 years now, and every time I look in the mirror, I think that some strange fat eating genie has come to take it all away, and I will back at my high school weight again. WRONG. Doesn't hap... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 17:07:35 EST Muffin Tops and Me When I first heard the term "Muffin Top", all I could think of was wonderfully delicious muffins, hot out of the oven, bigger than my head, and soooo delicious you could hardly stop at one. <BR> <BR> But then I heard the term "Muffin Top" for another reason, and it wasn't a good one. It was for the "overflow" that could not seem to fit into pants any longer. Waist lines that were bigger than the pants they were trying to fit into. <BR> <BR> When I first heard this term, I thought "what the... Fri, 9 Dec 2011 14:59:17 EST