PIXIEMOMMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PIXIEMOMMA PIXIEMOMMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Food is a DRUG http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4724034 Well Here I am Mad as H E double hockey sticks at myself <em>29</em> , I hate it when I am my own worse enemy. I hate when I let numbers control me <em>192</em> !! <BR> <BR> I worked so hard this last week. Exercised EVERY DAY swimming and aqua classes. This is a new concept for me to get up and Move is just not in me..I was exhausted. I ached, but I kept going <em>104</em> . It was going to better me!! I controlled my urges and ate in my ranges without any real difficulty. <BR> <BR> A... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 20:05:45 EST Exercise Pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4696885 I have a tread mill. I have been trying to walk it in the evenings for a half hour <em>315</em> . The pain in my knees is unbelievable. The swelling afterwards is crazy. I know I was very hard on them as a gymnast in school. <BR> SO I have the solution!! I have signed up for aqua aerobics and aqua zumba classes <em>237</em> . I believe I need to get some <em>15</em> weight off these joints first. Then I could go back to my treadmill . So here is to me getting up to MOVE IT, MOVE IT!!!! Sun, 22 Jan 2012 13:03:18 EST Tears of Joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4695838 Well I am down another 2.2 this week. That is a wonderful accoplishment. Tears of joy for now being below 200 lbs. Who would have know such a little step could create such a big emotional reaction. Sat, 21 Jan 2012 21:01:09 EST 1st week success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4679589 Well down 5.8 in my firts week. <em>104</em> Good 1st week lose. The foos control has been tough this week but doing IT!! Sat, 14 Jan 2012 04:47:36 EST Here I go Again NOT on my Own.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4669692 One of my Favorite songs "Here I go Again on My Own"....Well not this time!!! I know if I just put my hand out The spark people are here to push me, to cheer me, to challenge me. I just to to ask and stay involved. I did this one 3 yrs ago for 54 lbs and Have to do this again. My health is worse than a 70 year old. I have life to live and and Granddaughters to mentor and LOVE. <BR> This is NOT going to be easy...But I have the tools I need and the ability to use them. Mon, 9 Jan 2012 20:14:50 EST Not liking me.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336805 I have always been pretty determined. Except in my middle age I seem to be losing that quality in myself, particularly about myself!! <BR> I know I need to get this weight off. I know I hate my health. I know I hate the way I look <em>24</em> . I disgust myself everyday when I get dressed <em>46</em> . <BR> Yet food controls me <em>18</em> .. Recipes, ingredients, the comfort no no's call me daily. The ability to over eat <em>15</em> everything I touch is a new component I have noticed... ... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 08:59:47 EST Down 1 size http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4202694 WOOHOO <em>104</em> down 1 pant size and a shirt size. This is 11 pounds <em>205</em> since I came back to SP and 24 lbs <em>208</em> since I started back on this journey.. Things are a little off schedule for completion but I have not been consistent with activity. I wil keep trying <em>9</em> Sun, 1 May 2011 16:21:45 EST How Disappointing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4153493 <em>46</em> How utterly disappointing this week is... I have been diligent about my 10 minute challenge. Even exceeding it some days <em>198</em> . But I shall not give up the goal is the same. The Prize is same. I shall pay more attention. I shall review successful weeks to incorporate more of what seemed to work. <BR> I can and will do this <em>104</em> Sat, 9 Apr 2011 11:06:56 EST New Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4139145 Doing my usual sunday routine. Prepping and cooking my Veggies for the week. <em>284</em> <em>291</em> <em>69</em> . Washing and chopping my Fruits <em>491</em> <em>265</em> <em>488</em> <em>45</em> . Very excited about trying to keep up my 10 activity challange. I actually walked to the gas station and back today. Only a mile round trip. BUT if I can continue and better my time <em>244</em> I will have made great progress.... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 16:46:18 EST Fantabulously Blessed Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4136082 I can not Thanks SP enough for such a great tool that helps America <em>205</em> . <BR> I can not Thank my Done Girls enough for my done girl of the day recognition. You make me wanna succeed. You enhance my mind, my success and most of all you brighten my heart <em>220</em> . I had 3 people yesterday also notice my change. I had found it minimal but they had found Me Brightening. I am blessed to be surround by so many who cheer my health on. <em>223</em> Thank you I love ya all. Sat, 2 Apr 2011 07:51:58 EST 10% Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4122151 I am over 1/2 way to my 10% goal of 20 lbs. I am making steady progress which is a good thing <em>9</em> .... <BR> I have detoxified the kitchen and pantry (finally). <em>253</em> <BR> The journey has started off very positive for the most part. I know the hows and the whats. I shall keep on trucking!! <em>252</em> Sun, 27 Mar 2011 19:09:34 EST Oh POOH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4108287 Well last week was an emotionally depressing wreck at work. Felt like a whipped pup most of the week. <BR> We had a pot luck for the March birthdays. I thought I did well since all of the food except mine was really not healthy. So I only had tablespoons of things to at least try them. <BR> Then the week went haywire. I ate a box, yes BAD ME... I ate a whole box of cookies last week. I went out for corned beef and cabbage Twice... <BR> So I am not shocked surprised or depressed by my weig... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 19:28:24 EST 1 month, 10 lbs DONE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4085817 <em>104</em> 4 weeks and 10 lbs DONE, Gone, <em>253</em> . I am so pleased. I really pleased with this week 2.2. I never expected it after the week I had. I baked and had cookies with the granddaughters, <em>334</em> last weekend. Had breakfast with friends last weekend. Met my daughter for lunch and had pizza one day. Met friends for corned beef and cabbage with drinks last night <em>220</em> . I was ready and OK with a .2 week. <BR> Well I came out on top. Portion control with good c... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 09:00:22 EST Week 2 :~)) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4048802 Well I was so ready to give in a couple times this week. I have craved <em>39</em> . I have cried <em>46</em> . <BR> Ultimately I told myself I don't like not seeing my feet. <em>306</em> that's my chant. I have done it before <em>104</em> . I will do it again <em>105</em> . Sat, 26 Feb 2011 08:15:50 EST 1 week in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4030676 Feeling mad and depressed. Hating my first weigh in. I know I should be Happy, I lost .2!! wooo. Just not feeling it. Guess I made to big a deal of losing 1 lb a week. <BR> OK enough of the Pity PartY!!! <em>306</em> This is a new week I will try at least 1 new recipe. Smile <em>30</em> Sat, 19 Feb 2011 16:53:07 EST Try Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4011442 I lost 54 lbs when I was here last time <em>30</em> . Well I stopped logging and visiting . Then I started turning into a log. <em>39</em> . Now here I am a year later. I have gained every bit of it back. I can't put on my sock and shoes. God save my toe nails I have to pay to have them done <em>40</em> . I can't look at myself in the mirror. I have given myself 68 weeks to lose 40 lbs. This is a VERY do able goal. If I stay focused and ture to myself <em>104</em> . So let the Party begin... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 09:17:40 EST 1 Year Already http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2192537 WOW 1 yr already!! 1 side of my head says its been that long and this is all you have accomplished, What is up with that!!!!!! <BR> THEN I say WOW 52 weeks have passed. I have lost 43 lbs!! That is a great accomplishment!!!!!!! This is a steady as you go pace. A wonderful learning experience has taken place. A training of foods, emotions and control. How each affects my decisions daily. What I do KNOW in a years time is <BR> <BR> I AM doing it! I CAN do it! I WILL do it!!! <BR> <em>205... Tue, 30 Jun 2009 13:46:38 EST Sabotage or Carbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2128702 I was told "maybe you self sabotage" today. I was thinking I have to avoid carbs!!! <BR> Either way I had a huge loss 2 weeks ago. It got me 3 lbs below 160. Happy dance going on for days so very proud of myself, finally!! <BR> BAM 2weeks in a row I gain and back over 160 I go!!! So I may very well have an aversion to getting below 160. Do I need to stay in some sort of comfort zone. I am not comfortable here. I do not know why I would want to stay here. Do I really self sabotage? <BR> Is c... Sat, 6 Jun 2009 17:00:39 EST Babies Babies Everywhere http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1908180 Well my granddaughter was born on Wednesday last week. Now my great nephew Alex has arrived. He was born Sunday evening. The babies are all here now. I must return to work. BLAHH!!!!!!!!!!! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/6/b965755646.jpg"> Tue, 24 Mar 2009 11:20:33 EST Granddaughter Has Arrived http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1891226 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/8/b380169156.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Johnnie Lynn was born at 3 am. 7lbs 3 oz and 20 in <BR> I think I am getting old. Up all night texting and talking on the phone. Not bad, but trying to keep up with the 6yr old and 2 yr old sister on no sleep. Oh I am glad I love my granddaughters!! Wed, 18 Mar 2009 14:31:16 EST points left http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1864435 Trying to back on track this week. Got my filling foods in. Now I still have 3.5 points left and I am full. Maybe by bed time I can get a snack in to use um up. Mon, 9 Mar 2009 19:51:50 EST points left http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1864434 Trying to back on track this week. Got my filling foods in. Now I still have 3.5 points left and I am full. Maybe by bed time I can get a snack in to use um up. Mon, 9 Mar 2009 19:51:50 EST Missing WW Meetings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1860916 We I have finally missed a WW meeting after 36 weeks of them. I had to take a class in couldn't make it. I stayed in my points for the 2 week. I did it with some bad meals in there. We had numerous lunch meetings during the 2 weeks. I did my best by not having supper or smaller meals to make up for the bad one. <BR> Well I have gained 2 lbs. imagine that 1 lb for each week. <BR> I have validated my theory of meetings being a necessity for my to be accountable. <BR> Well this week is a new be... Sun, 8 Mar 2009 17:16:23 EST Cats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1839600 Cats I love my cats. They are so independant just like me. All they require is wet food at 4:30 a.m. and a full bowl of crunchies for all day. There happy. <BR> George gives me a hug when I get home. Toezer allows me to give him a pat in my lap. <BR> Just posted pictures of my BIG boys check um out!! <em>240</em> Sun, 1 Mar 2009 11:44:33 EST What an ugly day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1838049 I had a business day breakfast meeting, 8 hr 6 sigma/lean training class and Lunch brought in. <BR> I am within plan both WW and SP. I just feel like it has been yucky because the choices today don't seem good. I am not accustom to this kind of eating any more. I am glad it all added up right. I was worried it wouldn't. Actually I am shocked to be truthful. <BR> I have reviewed it making sure I have not reported incorrect amounts. It seems to be what it is. <BR> So good for me today I did ... Sat, 28 Feb 2009 18:32:57 EST Food Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1826967 I feel so happy about making better food choices. WW momentum is really got me filling up on much better foods. <BR> <BR> Problem I am eating to many better and filling foods. Problem yes, I am not getting my SP calories each day. I am meeting my WW points but generally have 150- 200 calories a day left. <BR> <BR> I thin I will start looking at my breakfast or lunch for some different options that will keep me in my WW points but fill my SP calories. Tue, 24 Feb 2009 19:58:52 EST Don't wanna Play http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1822797 This monday is blah. I just don't wanna play this healthy lifestyle thing today. I am having a very hard time talking myself out of over eating. I can't eat bad I have myself surround with fruits, veggies and high fiber snack her at work. BUT I sure could eat it all!!! <BR> Oh well I will keep plugging along. I can and will make myself do this. Mon, 23 Feb 2009 13:38:00 EST Danced 4.8 Miles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1820686 I bought a Omron HJ112 pedometer this week. It is the most accurate one I have ever owned. It lives up to all the consumer reports. I does steps miles calories and aerobic steps. <BR> I wore it out last night. It is amazing to know all the dancing I do added up to 4.8 miles until midnight. Then it resets and I danced another. .95 after midnight. <BR> How fun is this to know. <em>218</em> <em>104</em> <em>218</em> <em>104</em> <em>218</em> <em>104</em> Sun, 22 Feb 2009 19:41:58 EST Feeling Self Destructive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1807101 I have worked very hard to break 160 lbs. I spent 23 weeks of up and down never getting there. <BR> I am finally on the downward slide. 29 lbs will get me to my goal. WooHoo RIGHT. <BR> Then why all week have I have all these huge urges. Urges to buy or bake brownies. Urges to tackle the chinese buffet. Urges to eat a 16 oz porterhouse medium rare with a baked potato swimming in whipped BUTTER and sour cream!!! <BR> I have given in to NONE. It has been such a very hard week and it is onl... Tue, 17 Feb 2009 18:43:09 EST 200 was the beginning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1799856 I stepped upon the freight scale 1 day to turn on the light. My eye caught the digital read out. 200, 200 lbs, of hello no that can't be. I can't weigh 200 lbs. I am 5 foot tall.That is as big around as I am tall. <BR> Wait a minute think about this. You have bought larger and bigger and bigger and larger for the last 2 years. It was only 2 years. 2 years since my trip to San Antonio. I was only 150 and bought an all new waredrobe in Large. Yes large I was not happy with that 2 years ago. T... Sun, 15 Feb 2009 10:20:42 EST 23 Weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1797866 The last 23 weeks have been horrendous, depressing, tiring and very OLD. I just want to leave the 160's. <BR> Well tenacity and determination have prevailed. I am down 1.2 lbs this morning at weigh in. FINALLY I have broken 160!!! <em>104</em> <em>9</em> <BR> 159.4 is Not much below 160 but to say I am 159 is so exciting, exillerating, motivating!! <BR> I shall dive forward on my journey to health with continued fervor. <BR> Thanks for the support, push, kick in the wazoo. You all make ... Sat, 14 Feb 2009 10:38:23 EST Winter Wonderland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1698978 Well the great storm and chill has arrived. It is 10 degrees finally. The wind is blowing 13 MPH with gusts of 28 presently. The wind chill is -8. This is only to get worse through out the day and into Friday. The temp in the house is finally 65 after waking up to 58. <BR> <BR> I attempted to shovel myself out. The snow fall was officially 5 inches. I have 7.25 of snow on the deck rail and the steps are 11 inches deep. The drift in front of the stairs is 17.75 inches deep. Of coarse this ... Wed, 14 Jan 2009 14:05:24 EST Happy Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1681877 Wow I go to weight watchers this morning in a crappy mood. I haven't slept well this week. I haven't ate well. I didn't eat to much or bad stuff just not in the mood to fix it to eat it. So I have ate a lot of cans of spinach, asparagus, a steamed head of cauliflower and a lot of lovely Clementines <em>474</em> . My only proteins this week was 2 foil packs of tuna2 extra lean ground pork patties. I know not near enough. But I am down 2.6 yes that is 2.6 lbs <em>9</em> . I have been doing the ... Sat, 10 Jan 2009 12:21:03 EST Emotional Eater http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1634092 I never labeled myself an emotional eater. I have very little emotion let alone allow it to control my eating. I just plain love food and overeat to obsession sometimes. <BR> <BR> Well My ex mother in law took very ill this last week She had a liver transplant 14 yrs ago. She has always had bouts of fever that come and go in 48 hrs no none causes. Well this time she did not snapp out of it. She was life flighted to Chicago University medical Sunday night. <BR> She is stable and they are sti... Tue, 30 Dec 2008 19:43:07 EST Fitting Exercise in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1597836 I found the best way to fit exercise in. <BR> We drink so much water (64-80 oz). I know I am in the bathroom at least 6 times during an 8 our work day. I do what I call the bathroom challenge. Each trip to the bathroom take 1 extra minute to do 1 exercise. <BR> 1 set of 10 wall push ups <BR> 1 set of 10 wall squats <BR> 1 set of 10 seated knee lifts <BR> 1 set of 10 seated leg extentions <BR> Then during my 2, 10 minut breaks I walk my warehouse and inspect it. I kill 2 birds with 1 stone. <B... Fri, 5 Dec 2008 20:00:26 EST What a week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1497447 Well my parents have been here for 10 days. Lets say the theme of the visit was comfort foods. Every day was things I have been moderating very closely or complete cut out.. <BR> We have eaten at the French crepe restaurant. Mom has never been there in all the years they used to live here. She didn't even know it existed. <BR> We have been to the local diner-hometown, huge portion, comfort food for less than $7 a plate. They could eat at the diner every day at least 1 meal because you can t... Mon, 6 Oct 2008 11:14:38 EST Well ain't life grand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1470531 Depressing week up +2.2 but it was my own fault. A very depressed week. Our hours have been cut at work we generally are working 32 hrs a week. <BR> My room mate moved out without any notice and owing me back rent. <BR> I don't tolerate people real well so finding another room mate is pretty well not gonna happen. So I really need to find a 15 hr a week 2nd job. This small community and economy makes that pretty slim. <BR> <BR> SO I Ate A frozen pizza wednesday night for supper. A triple ... Sun, 21 Sep 2008 09:58:33 EST WOW 10% Learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1457863 I thought this was gonna take until christmas. <BR> <BR> 1 lb at a time, it seemed OK on weigh in day. The amount never seemed to make me happy through the week though. I just kept trying hoping for something bigger. Always knowing slow and steady is the best way. <BR> <BR> It is very funny what we allow into our minds. I have come to a huge thought. Our minds do not do it to us. What, our minds do not play tricks! NO we allow these thought to wonder aimlessly through our minds. We do not... Sun, 14 Sep 2008 09:57:57 EST WooHoo Weigh In week 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1404557 Wow!! All I was pushing for was to lose the 3 lbs I had gained last week at the amusement park. Can you believe it ***7.2*** <em>9</em> . What a motivator to keep at it. <BR> I could not be more ispired by myself. <BR> <BR> We truely are the controllers of our own destiny. I have used this montra all week. Guess the proofs in NOT eating the pudding, <em>246</em> !! Sat, 16 Aug 2008 13:15:16 EST Say Yea !! Weigh in Week 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1360321 Oh yea, I was so ready to give up today and tackle the pizza house! <em>15</em> <BR> Well weigh in was TAH DAH drum roll please <BR> -2.6 <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> yes that is down another 2.6 !!!!!!!!!!! Total 7 in a month <BR> I guess its working and I'll stick around awhile. <BR> <BR> The only change was adding the jumping jack challenge and bathroom challenge to my routine. WOW movement is the ticket. <BR> <BR> As I breathe better and weather gets better I will move more more. I ... Sat, 26 Jul 2008 10:46:12 EST George Carlin's Views on Aging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1331092 We must be healthy and fit to make journey to all these claims! <BR> <BR> <BR> George Carlin's Views on Aging <BR> <BR> Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions. <BR> <BR> 'How old are you?' 'I'm four and a half!' You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key <BR> <BR> You get into your teens, now they... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:12:18 EST Weigh In WK 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1329634 Well how disappointing this day has been. <BR> I have kept my journal tight. Kept my points at or below requirements. Some days way below because I am full of 0 point items. I never use my extra 35. I started dating Richard Simmons Daily!! Even if it was 15-20 minutes its a start. <BR> Now to see a -0.4. Please what the ____. <BR> Now guilt has hit <em>51</em> because I came home and ate 2/3rds of a frozen pizza-12 pts, then pudding and a bunch of 0 pt veggies. Now I am miserable and hate ... Sat, 12 Jul 2008 19:37:18 EST