PIXIECUTE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PIXIECUTE PIXIECUTE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Hi there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880799 Phew!! this has been one crazy month! <BR> Birthday, Valentine's Day, TWO long work trips, in-laws visiting PLUS one of my best friend's bridal shower & bachelorette party weekend!! I am beyond exhausted. <BR> <BR> I did great with food last month, but this month has not been good. So many work trips and traveling resulted in a lot of poor (but delicious) food choices and not nearly as much walking exercise as I'd have liked (way too cold!). <BR> I am doing my best to walk our dog Bo every ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 22:08:56 EST Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861234 I've had a crappy week... work, family ... it's just all sucked. I've been trying to not let it get me down. I've stayed focused on my food and woke up early every day to walk my dog for 50 -55 mins. <BR> It's not the biggest calorie buster... barely breakfast... but it's something, right? <BR> <BR> Anyway.... the good news is I've stayed true to my healthy food choices... <BR> Still feel crappy though... but at least I didn't add crappy food binges to my list. <BR> <BR> Sorry this is a d... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 21:30:03 EST Planning Ahead... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858270 Today was a great prep day! I cut up a LOT of fruit and mixed it in a nice big bowl with honey lime dressing. <BR> It's fabulous and looks so enticing - I put some of it in little one cup containers to bring to work.... it'll be nice to grab & go in the mornings. <BR> My husband Mike doesn't eat a lot of fruit, but when it's prepped and ready to go he'll dig in. Makes me feel good that I'm helping him get his daily fruit allowance. <BR> <BR> I am DREADING February... it holds: my birthday, (... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 21:21:05 EST Home with a tummy ache :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857289 Mike took Bo (our boxer puppy) to dog training by himself cause I am homebound (close to the bathroom!) - I have no idea what I ate, but it did not sit well. <BR> On the plus side, I haven't had an afternoon with just me and Charlie in MONTHS! Charlie has been with me for over 10yrs! and he's the cutest little maltese dog. It's just nice to have a chill few hours (even if some of that was spent in the restroom haha). <BR> <BR> Food this weekend has been good, and today is no exception ... is... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 17:19:30 EST Dog Day at the Beach http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856542 We spent the morning and early afternoon running after our Boxer at the dog beach (his FIRST time at the beach) and it was so much fun! We were outside, enjoying the sun, and he was as happy as can be!! <BR> Great day! <BR> <BR> We also opted to eat back home rather than go eat burgers like we normally do when we are out w/ Bo :) High five to us. <BR> It's been 17 days of healthy eating - doing awesome so far (some days are harder than others, but we're still going strong). <BR> <BR> Toni... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 16:06:03 EST IT'S THE WEEKEND!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856102 So excited that it's finally the weekend!! This week was strange... each day seemed to last a long while, and the first half of the week was SUCH an uphill battle... but now I can't believe we ate healthy ALL week. Tomorrow is our cheat day (the weekend always calls for a little fun & "being bad") which means ONE indulgent meal, and I'm looking forward to it :) We're going to offset it by spending a good portion of our day moving outdoors (and by not going crazy with the calories). <BR> It... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 22:38:13 EST Thursday Night! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855365 Today was a great day with regards to food - lots of yumminess, lots of work stress but I was in control and didn't snack. PHEW!!! <BR> It's been an uphill battle ALL week, so having a day where I felt in control was much needed. <BR> <BR> We ended the night w/ chicken skewers, salad and Arabic rice (you add spices, pine nuts & almonds - SO good!). Deliciousness. <BR> That's been key all week - making interesting food that is always good to eat, not the same old bland choices. It's been th... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 21:59:22 EST Not feeling it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854438 Phew... this day has been rough. The need to snack is high. Nothing I eat is satisfying the urge. <BR> I had pistachios and two granola bars... ugh... not the brightest move... <BR> <BR> Now I've wasted calories and I'm not satisfied. I'm just an hour away from going home and I can have dinner (salmon, roasted potatoes and peas). <BR> I know I always eat my emotions... but it's so hard not to ... these first few weeks are always the hardest... <BR> If I'm still in this snacking mood after... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 16:43:36 EST Tiring Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853844 It was a little bit nutty today - dogs gave me a lot to do this morning (late start and too many to dos), and then had to take our Boxer to the vet mid-workday (turned out to be allergies, so not too bad) but that always makes the workday FLY by and ups the crazy. <BR> Unfortunately his allergies means we have to minimize his exposure until his irritation goes away... so no morning walks for us for the rest of the week. <BR> I'm going to have to find an alternate exercise method. <BR> <BR> F... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 21:38:37 EST Too Many Cherries! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852993 Despite eating healthy food today, I did overindulge in my mid-afternoon snack. <BR> I meant to eat half a bag of cherries, but ended up eating the whole thing. <BR> <BR> I didn't think much about it until Mike wanted some and I told him they were all gone! I defended myself saying that it's just fruit, and that it wasn't that big of a bag!! but in truth calories are calories, and I shouldn't overeat, no matter the food. <BR> Now I need to buy a new bag since he didn't get to have any. <BR> ... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 20:35:26 EST 2.13 miles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852538 I'm continuing my second week of walking Bo every morning. I really don't see a reason why I can't keep this up. I don't feel THAT tired when the alarm goes off, and Bo is just so happy it wakes me up ... plus it's relaxing. All good things. <BR> <BR> This morning I turned on a phone app to measure how many miles our leisurely walk comes out to... and in 50 mins we walked 2.13 miles. <BR> It's not great, but it's not bad either. It's 2 more miles than I normally get in every day, and it get... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 10:01:24 EST Sunday "I don't wanna" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852089 Phew! It's been 11 days of monitoring my food, making better choices and avoiding chocolate (except once a week)... today was a little rough because I know the road ahead and it's a long one! lol <BR> I know I'm not supposed to think about the WHOLE road, and just focus on each day/ meal... but some days it's harder than others. PLUS it makes me feel sad that I'll never again be able to eat a whole tray of cookies in one sitting haha... well, maybe on REALLY bad days I'll eat half a batch :)... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 19:31:02 EST Saturday Treats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851285 Today has been lovely - relaxing, spending time with the dogs and FINALLY got my Christmas thank you cards out (oopppss... at least they're out now. Better late than never, right?). <BR> <BR> We took our dog Bo to a new dog park and it was so much fun watching him run around. All the dog owners were super nice and we got some great chats in. It's not as good, from an exercise standpoint, for US compared to a walk around the neighborhood.... but it was great for him and we'll make up for it ... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 19:44:00 EST Friday Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850454 Even though it's Friday, the weekend is mere hours away, and work is going well... I'm feeling crappy! bloated, queasy and a headache to boot! <BR> <BR> Not sure why I've been feeling so bad for the past few days... it's exhausting! <BR> I didn't take my morning walk with Bo (he woke up at 3am & 6am and I was feeling particularly drained in the morning). . . but on the plus side I've stayed good with food... bringing healthy snacks (so I don't succumb to bad choices). I was in a rush this m... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 15:46:30 EST Dog Walks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849450 I've found my secret weapon for waking up early and his name is Bo!!! I've walked him every morning for 5 straight days and it's been FABULOUS! <BR> A full hour of exercise each day, before the day, work, or errands have a chance to ruin my motivation. <BR> <BR> Bo seemed to get MORE hyper right after, instead of calmer, but today we snuggled a little on the couch before I had to leave and it made all the difference. He calmed straight down and was a sleepy puppy when I left for the day. <BR... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 11:42:07 EST Day 2 of Morning Walks w/ Bo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848638 This morning I could have EASILY gone back to bed... but the idea of giving Bo his daily exercise was appealing (odd right?!). <BR> It was a nice walk - it was a just a touch of chill in the air and the ponds around our neighborhood were "steaming". It was quite pretty! <BR> <BR> Unfortunately these walks are making Bo MORE hyper! He refuses to eat his breakfast after the walk, and goes straight to the yard and refuses to come back in! Quite funny but gets a little frustrating when you HAVE... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 13:30:54 EST Quinoa Revenge!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848091 A few years ago I dated a douche who started jogging, losing weight, and talking about eating Quinoa and how elevated everything he did was compared to the normal person .... so naturally I have since hated everything related to him :) <BR> I did try quinoa back then but I must have prepared it incorrectly cause it was crunchy and bitter... and left me with an eye roll on his stupid habits. <BR> (I'm still bitter in case you didn't notice) <BR> <BR> YEARS have gone by and I've kept my grudg... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 22:11:01 EST MORNING person?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847474 Well, I wouldn't go THAT far! lol.... <BR> But this morning I put on the alarm for 6:50am (my dog Bo wakes me up once the alarm goes off, so no snoozing allowed... which is great). <BR> I put on my clothes before my brain had a chance to object and I took Bo for a 50 min brisk walk around the neighborhood!!! <BR> I wasn't even late for work (the advantages of living 15mins from work). <BR> <BR> Love that I've already done my exercise, given him his AND feel more awake and vibrant before it ... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 09:48:40 EST Monday is ... Dropping Your Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847099 Hormones are still raging, but I ate well all day, had fruit for snacks and ate reasonable portions. <BR> I came home and made a delicious bake.... grilled eggplant & zucchini with ground beef & tomato sauce... I put it together and put it on a baking sheet to place in the oven. <BR> My dog was sniffing in front of me and I was trying to avoid him while holding the baking sheet with one hand.... and it slipped and half the entire baked dish fell into the oven and floor!!!! SO frustrating!! <... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 22:12:09 EST End of Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846137 Today I was feeling VERY hormonal, I was very snippy with Mike, didn't go for my one hour walk with Bo, our dog (but that was more about the heat! it was in the 80s today!) and I had a short fuse on things in general... <BR> <BR> Good news is that I stuck with eating healthy ... so happy that all the delicious meals don't feel like an effort. The struggle was that I definitely felt like eating my feelings today (stupid hormones) but I didn't... so I'm relieved about that. One point me! <BR> ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 22:27:19 EST Sat Night Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845277 I'm happy to say that we've cooked many delicious meals so far in our healthy eating change and it's been very tasty and not heavy! (in a good way). <BR> Grilled chicken skewers w/ veggies, southwest chicken salad, BBQ chicken... <BR> It's all been yummy! I'm glad I don't feel deprived in the taste department. <BR> <BR> I caught up on "The Biggest Loser" on my DVR and I am SSSOoooooo excited for make-over week next week!! My favorite episode in the season BY FAR!! <BR> Walked our dog for a ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 00:40:18 EST Fruit Salad w/ Honey & Lime http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843791 So I just tried a YUMMY dressing for fruit salad! Normally I just eat the fruit as is, but a little honey (1/4 cup) with lime zest (2 tsp) and lime juice (1 tbls) was subtle enough to still enjoy the fruit fully but added a little something different to shake it up. <BR> Just wanted to share! <BR> http://www.cookingclassy.com/2014/06/hon<BR>ey-lime-rainbow-fruit-salad/ <BR> Fri, 2 Jan 2015 11:19:00 EST No sweets today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843306 I'm going to take SparkPeople's advice and not be black & white about my journey. I don't need to avoid ALL dessert, but I do need to pull the reigns and get back to eating healthy... I've literally had dessert every day since June! <BR> I did my groceries for the week and came up with some tasty options that are NOT cheesy casseroles, white sauce drenched pasta dishes etc... <BR> <BR> I'm in charge of both my husband and I's food intake and I want to be responsible with that "power". <BR> ... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 21:14:48 EST Good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842326 I had a productive day - tons of errands AND took my dog for a 50mins walk. <BR> Food wise, it was toned down from my norm and tomorrow it gets kicked up a notch. <BR> I budgeted for next month, and feel hopeful about my finances in 2015. Have to get that taken care of this coming year. <BR> <BR> My friend is coming over tomorrow and we're going to grill chicken skewers and veggies, served with yellow rice. Sounds yummy but light. I'm looking forward to a little cleansing. After our lunch we... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 21:39:03 EST Gal Pal Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841437 Well I spent the day with my friend! we had lunch, shopped, had wonderful conversations and had an overall great day. <BR> <BR> I only tried on one pair of pants and a nice top, but I felt like a balloon and so I didn't end up buying anything. It DID showcase how much I really need to lose weight because the last time I went to H&M I LOVED how my body looked in every dress - I only had to worry about whether the style was my taste, or if the style was what I liked. It was such a stark differ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 18:11:06 EST Outdoorsy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840940 I was able to walk our dog today for 45mins! it was a gorgeous day out and he loves them so much and it really helps with his energy level. <BR> THEN I met my friends (who are visiting) at a park and we had lunch and then walked around for half an hour or so... it was great being outdoors! <BR> It felt invigorating and is helping my mental state in getting back in gear. <BR> <BR> In terms of food I ate relatively well BUT I did have 4 NUTELLA rice krispies treats. They were delicious but I ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 23:52:24 EST Tight Jeans and a Long Road Ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839829 It's not fair to have spent so much time losing weight only to realize that it doesn't end there. <BR> It feels like you're going up hill... you FINALLY start seeing the scale move... then you get on a roll, you feel empowered, energized and it stops feeling like torture, and more like a routine! Then SUCCESS!! you reach your goal weight... you have cute clothes, some confidence and a "I've discovered the secret" strut in your step! <BR> After ALL this success, you can indulge in some ice-cr... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 11:12:11 EST Day 9! Goal in Mind! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800361 Sorry I've been absent from Spark, but work has been crazy. I am very happy to say I've STUCK TO MY GOALS! <BR> My work trip to NY was filled with temptation but I didn't succumb. I didn't snack, had fruit for breakfast, even went to the gym at the hotel!! <BR> Once I came back, I avoided the work treats (cinnamon buns, pumpkin cake, chocolate bars...). And it all paid off!! <BR> Nine days later I'm down 5lbs! It's mainly water weight, but it's still 5lbs and it looks better on the scale hah... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 12:15:21 EST FOUR DAYS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797071 Hi there, <BR> I made it through the weekend and ate healthy choices!! That's me being good for four days so far... <BR> We had to eat at a restaurant on Fri (electricity went out!!) but I avoided the fries and cheesy sandwiches and had salmon w/ vegetables instead. On Sat we grilled steaks, but I had salad instead of potatoes... I cooked healthy meals, ate the right portions and avoided desserts (it was a warm weekend and I REALLY wanted a milkshake or ice-cream treat!). <BR> On Sat I took ... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 21:29:42 EST Day 2 of Wise Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795842 Another day of choices... and today I'm doing great! <BR> I've mapped out the day's food, packed my snacks, avoided the work bagels, muffins, cookies... and had a healthy breakfast & lunch thus far. <BR> <BR> I took a sneak peak at the scale today and I've already dropped 2lbs in water weight this week. PHEW... I won't look again till the week is done, but it was nice to see. <BR> <BR> I'll be on a work trip to NY from Mon 10/13 - Wed 10/15... that's usually a terrible food trap for me... s... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 12:48:19 EST Day 1 of Clean Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795483 I actually took action today! I ate well all day and ended with a delicious steak salad with garlic butternut squash, red peppers, onions and avocado. <BR> I'm really proud of myself and AS ALWAYS I am reminded of how yummy healthy eating is! It pops with so much flavor and I love that I have more energy. <BR> I have a 4 month old Boxer puppy, and I practiced leash walking with him around the block (yay cooler weather!) and he even trotted a little bit :) Hopefully we can work up to a jog e... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 21:10:18 EST Wellness Fair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794907 At work today we had a Wellness Fair... good news is that my cholesterol, blood pressure and glucose levels are all good! Bad news is that my BMI is a little elevated and I need to lose about 10lbs to be in the "normal" zone. <BR> Not shocking.... I've gained about 18lbs since my wedding (4 months ago!) so I just need to lose it again haha. <BR> <BR> HERE WE GO AGAIN! <BR> <BR> I signed up for 10 "Barre" classes (using moves from Ballet etc...) and at the fair today I got a free class at "O... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 21:33:54 EST Healthy vs Not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780630 I have to admit... not worrying about preparing lunches ahead of time, packaging snacks, buying fresh ingredients or avoiding cheesy casseroles.... it's all a RELIEF! Slightly liberating even... but after a week or two... I started feeling sluggish... my pants felt tight... I felt bloated and slow...and even though the moment of chewing was satisfying, it quickly subsided and my energy along with it. <BR> <BR> I watched The Biggest Loser over the weekend and felt motivated again. Today I ate... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 23:03:07 EST Ooops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736939 Went out for sushi with friends, and I overate! The next day I had a routine check-up and the dr. scale had me clocked in at 158lbs!!!! I was 144lbs about 6 weeks ago!! Needless to say this will NOT fly!! I know that a few of those pounds are waterweight-related, but I've gained about 10lbs and that's not acceptable! <BR> <BR> I really have made this into a lifestyle change and all this snacking since the wedding has to stop. It's not even all that enjoyable anymore. I prefer the feeling of ... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 20:29:24 EST De-Bloating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729913 It's funny how eating badly for a week (or four) will truly affect your mood (and stomach). <BR> I already admitted that on my wedding day (June 7th. 2014) I didn't like what I looked like. I wasn't as long & lean as I wanted to be, I didn't feel drop-dead gorgeous and I didn't think I looked "wow". I looked normal. and I was underwhelmed with myself. <BR> Of course this leads to stupid counter-productive thoughts like "who cares what I eat, I look the same no matter what... " etc... and I ... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 14:27:12 EST MARRIED! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720970 Well it's been 2.5 months since my last blog.... and since then, I got married!! I had my wedding dress fitting on April 1st and even though I lost 25lbs, I didn't look the way I had wanted to. I ended up falling off the wagon, getting busy with work, errands and wedding mayhem.... but I managed to stay at my weight for the wedding. <BR> I didn't look the way I wanted, but I had a great day and I have some amazing memories I will cherish :) <BR> Losing 25lbs meant I could wear some cute sho... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 22:21:13 EST WEDDING DRESS FITTING DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662179 Well, I bought my wedding dress 6 months and 15lbs ago...I hadn't tried it since then (or even unzipped it from the bag)... so today it was officially my first wedding dress fitting! <BR> <BR> Good news: it zipped up all the way!!!!!!!!!! and totally fit!!!!!!!!!! <BR> Bad news: my boobs didn't lose any weight.....so to prevent a creation of back fat, we're going to let out just that part. SIGH... not my favorite thing to hear, but not terrible I suppose <BR> <BR> Good news II: the bra fit... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 22:54:25 EST Another Week DOWN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658959 Thankfully I continued to stay focused this week and ate very clean. I undid the calorific weekend at New York :) I even lost a pound this week :) <BR> Unfortunately I didn't go to the gym all week and I REALLY need to change that. I had JUST discovered strength training on 3/17 and it felt good! Too bad work got nutty... but I have to make time, no matter the schedule. <BR> <BR> I'm so glad it's Friday, I fully intend to relax and have a carefree weekend :) <BR> Tuesday is the infamous ... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 22:48:26 EST I'm back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657400 Hi everyone! Well apparently it's been 10 days since I last worked out... quite disappointing, but life has been very busy at work and the days just added up (CLEARLY!). <BR> I wish I could say that I off-set that with healthy & smart food decisions... but I didn't. <BR> There was a lot of all-day shoots, meetings and late nights which led to not so wise food choices. It was all topped off by a work trip to New York this past Sun- Mon where I ate an unheard amount of chocolate! (breakfast, sn... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 22:53:33 EST Muscle Awareness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650350 Yesterday I followed exercise tips on reps/ sets for each machine at the gym... and it worked! My arms are definitely feeling it today, and in EXACTLY the places I need them to "wake up"! It's motivating to keep going and hopefully SEE results in a couple of months. <BR> <BR> I sent the Irish Cream Brownies with Mike to work today (I baked them on Sat, when I found the St Patty's Day recipe online) ... and it completely helped cause they were DELICIOUS and could not stay in the house. My plu... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 22:28:40 EST PI DAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648056 I am SO so happy to report that I completely avoided our office event today: "Pi Day" ... they celebrated by bringing in a whole bunch of pies & desserts!! <BR> I contemplated bringing in my own treat to indulge in (so I could have a healthy option), but nothing was going to stop me feeling deprived .... so I just avoided the whole thing! lol I didn't even see what desserts they brought (even though I could hear a lot of "oohhs" & "aahs"). <BR> <BR> It's so tough to be good ... and I am f... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 22:58:35 EST Jumbalaya! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647323 What a delicious dinner! Mike treated me by cooking tonight... and it was healthy, spicy and comforting on this chilly day. Who knew you could have it all? lol <BR> I always thought comfort food had cheese & cream... but this was a YUMMY dinner and totally satisfying... PLUS I stayed within my caloric range for the day. Success :) <BR> <BR> Baking girl brought in crumb cake today and it looked SO good... major bonus points for me for avoiding that treat. Tomorrow is going to be rough AGAIN... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 22:39:25 EST Better Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646548 Thankfully today [and yesterday] I avoided sweet snacks. I did much better overall. Today I even made it to the gym AND talked to one of the trainers about a strength-training regiment (which I've needed!).... I feel empowered now that there's a solid plan! <BR> <BR> Hopefully it's the end of my feeling crappy and back to feeling motivated! Wed, 12 Mar 2014 22:50:11 EST A week later... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645803 Hhhmmm... it's been more than a week since I've blogged... and it's no coincidence! <BR> I haven't really been all that motivated this week. I've received a lot of compliments this week from people noticing my weight loss, but why does that actually result in me NOT wanting to work out or eat right?! <BR> <BR> My personal analysis is that I'm feeling unmotivated because my wedding dress fitting is April 1st... and even though I'm getting married on June 7th, and there's PLENTY of time to rea... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 23:54:04 EST Avoiding Stress Snacking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640859 Whenever I'm feeling overwhelmed or stressed, I feel the need to snack!! <BR> I've been feeling very hormonal these past few days and had dessert on Sat (half a molten chocolate cake w/ ice-cream), Sun (salted caramel Chex mix), Mon (slice of carrot cake & salted caramel Chex mix) AND Tues [key lime mini indulgence (in a little shot glass)]!! <BR> Today was a much needed detox day and it always sucks ... HOWEVER I begrudgingly ate fruit and avoided the variety of cupcakes at work... and the... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 22:28:06 EST PMS & Carrot Cake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638965 This was a WONDERFUL weekend filled with compliments, pictures that I actually LIKED of myself (FINALLY!) AND a dress-up occasion (where I wore a SHORT DRESS and felt pretty damn great in it!!) .... <BR> <BR> THEN PMS hit today and I feel so "blah" (and bloated, and stressed from work).... I indulged in a slice of carrot cake and caramel chex mix. I'm meeting a friend for dinner tomorrow but Wednesday I'll hit the gym hard. <BR> <BR> Oh well... at least it's just hormones. <BR> <BR> Mon, 3 Mar 2014 21:03:38 EST SKINNY SHELF!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635681 5yrs ago I was at my goal weight... I maintained it for about a year (before a boy got me depressed and I gained it all back)... in that one year, I purchase 4 pairs of size four jeans :) Mainly cause I was SO excited to be a size four! <BR> <BR> I haven't been able to fit in them in five years... <BR> <BR> This week I've been feeling unusually positive! I SEE some results in the mirror and clothes are looking looser... so I tried on a pair of those infamous jeans, tucked away on my "sk... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 23:36:03 EST Swimsuit?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634399 About 5yrs ago, at my thinnest, I bought a one-piece swimsuit I dubbed "magic"... it had black along the edges (very slimming), high cut on the thighs, a tropical look, it was all black & white (I'm working on transitioning into more color)... and I felt thin and comfortable in it!!! Sadly I never got to wear out in public!!! I just never went to the beach that year, and started gaining the weight back the following year. <BR> <BR> I tried it on last year and it was SUPER tight and barely fi... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 13:15:54 EST Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632323 Well my future in-laws stayed with us for 5 days (our very first overnight guests!!) and I have to say it wasn't nearly as bad as I was bracing for (in terms of food intake). <BR> <BR> I had to work 3 of those days (which helped with controlled breakfasts & lunches), and I stuck to my plan and cooked on three of those five days! We did have dessert with two of those dinners, but a little indulgence is okay ... AND went out for brunch, a lunch and a dinner (over the weekend... but I didn't h... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 09:39:17 EST NINE pounds to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630153 I can't believe I only have 9lbs to reach my goal weight! (LESS than 10lbs left). <BR> I received some gift cards (yay work & birthday!) ... and other bloggers on here have inspired me to treat myself and buy some new clothes and maybe beauty products :) Once I hit "5lbs left" I'm doing it!! Only 4 more pounds till a "ME" shopping adventure. <BR> It helped me avoid the bagels, muffins and pizza at work today! lol. <BR> I'm really looking forward to it :) I like that it'll be at a sustainabl... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 13:34:47 EST