PINKLIBRALADY's SparkPeople Blog PINKLIBRALADY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Back from Hibernation Hello All- <BR> <BR> It's been a LONG LONG time since I've even logged in. Right after my last blog post, I met my now fiance and we are getting married on September 7th! Not only have I gained new love, I've gained probably 2/3 of my weight back. It's amazing what happens when you're focused on someone else and if you let their "love you no matter what" attitude cause you to forget about your healthy goals. <BR> <BR> Well, my dress will be here sometime in June, and I think I will set up ... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 16:58:34 EST Re-visiting How Far I've Come I've slipped "off the wagon" the last couple weeks due to parties, friends and excuses, but here I am again. I missed the accountability. I wanted some motivation for my continued work to prove to me that my hard work did/does pay off. I realized I'm doing this so slowly, however, it's been staying off. I found a book where I scribbled down my measurements in July of 2010 when I had lost about 35lbs. I wish I had taken my measurements when I FIRST started this journey, but I can't go back. So... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 13:43:25 EST Time to Put it Out of My Mind I'm currently sitting in an "office" of sorts working my last two hours of my 40 hr week. Today I'm in a different part of the hospital and haven't been walking most of this 10 hr shift. I feel tired, sluggish and ready to go on home. <BR> <BR> I've realized that my weight is going to stay where it is for now. I'm going to continue to eat healthy and workout, but I can't be focused on a number. Today at work the girls wanted to order Mexican food, and I immediately thought "mmm, chile relle... Sun, 7 Aug 2011 21:07:50 EST Feeling Defeated Lately I have posted to message boards and blogged about how wonderfully happy I am to be having these near breakthrough moments with exercise, diet and emotional stability. Truth is, I am happy most of the time, but I'm struggling. My weight on SP says 210 because I DID reach that. Then suddenly my body decided to retain 8 pounds of water. Let me repeat that. **8 POUNDS!!!!** <BR> <BR> I was told by my fitness fiend friends not to worry and to push it a little harder, eat right, drink tons ... Fri, 5 Aug 2011 11:42:52 EST The Little Voice in My Head, The Little Feeling in My Heart How can I explain those two things? <BR> <BR> The Voice in My Head: She is often critical, overly so, of me and the things I do. Occasionally she says cruel things that are not necessary, helpful, or truthful. She can twist the truth and skew facts until I think something about myself or how I'm perceived that is totally untrue and unrealistic. My whole life, this voice has been the negative force that has kept me from believing in myself, chasing my dreams and goals, and being the healthy p... Tue, 2 Aug 2011 22:17:11 EST Nearing a Week Streak :) The Spark talks frequently about starting "streaks" and training your mind to look at things in a positive light. For example, when confronted with a challenge such as wanting to eat something unhealthy, rather than let negative thoughts about feeling weak or the potential "failing" fill our head, we should simply change the wording and think "I don't want to break this streak of healthy habits I've got going!" (Or whatever wording you would like). I believe that what this book has to say, sp... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 10:57:50 EST I have to be accountable and pick up the pieces Hey people, <BR> <BR> So, it's been six months since I've written (or logged in) and yes, I have lost weight, but there have been other things that are started to eat at me. I'm still working, and that's great, but the hours are unpredictable as well as my paychecks, so that's been causing stress. I dated someone I work with (bad idea) and it ended, so I am still healing. Lately I've been feeling like I can't get a grip on things. Everyone says that I look great, that I no longer appear to b... Mon, 4 Jul 2011 14:40:16 EST Searching for motivation and inspiration today Today I got up and hit the gym for the second day in a row. I did 35 minutes on the eliptical trainer and 8 minutes on the StairMaster (that is way harder than it looks). So, I did burn the calories and I've been eating fairly well. I have been training from 3:30-12:00 on my new job, and it's amazing how hungry I get between breaks. Still, I don't go and buy candy bars or large blended coffee drinks from the cafe. I have packed my lunches and try to fill up on water in between. <BR> <BR> De... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 15:53:57 EST Back to Being a Working Girl I am officially hired on at Salem Hospital as of January 3, 2011. I have been doing training for the last three days focusing primarily on the computer system. This feels so different. I'm used to days upon days of nothing to do and actually got rather bored. It's amazing how quickly you wish that free time was back, haha. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy to be working, but I'm sure a lot more tired than I used to be. AND I'm gaining weight at a rapid rate despite eating fairly well. Sitting ... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 12:28:56 EST A Fall Off the Wagon Hello all-- <BR> <BR> Well, I have not exercised in over a week, and my eating has not been perfect. I have no idea what happened. Actually, yes, I do. I really think I overworked myself, especially since I wasn't used to working out that hard or that often. Combine physical exhaustion with lack of sleep (though not lack of trying), and I just had no motivation. <BR> <BR> The good news is: I haven't gained anything! So, I don't see this last week as a failure. However, I didn't login to Sp... Wed, 18 Aug 2010 15:27:31 EST Is It Worth It? Hello, all my fellow Sparkers- <BR> <BR> Despite the title, this blog entry isn't about giving up. I feel more fully committed to this journey than I have ever before, but I am questioning my workout regime. I have now increased my cardio to six days a week, with strength training three days per week. I did this to just push myself and burn as many calories as possible, BUT I don't know if it's increasing my weight loss. <BR> <BR> Originally losing my 30lbs between March-May, I merely chang... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 12:14:51 EST My Sunday Today the roommate and I decided that our house needed a deep clean. It was time to do the sweeping, mopping, scrubbing, sanitizing that has been put off for months. I got the bathroom...I'm the only one who ever cleans that room anyway, so what's new? We have slightly rusty water, so a lovely orange film builds up all over the bathtub and shower tiles. Yuck. I slipped on my pink rubber gloves and sprayed it down with foamy, strong smelling rust remover and began to scrub away. Cardio for tod... Sun, 8 Aug 2010 18:27:32 EST My Opinion on "Cheating" I began reading a message board on "cheat days" or "cheat meals" and how so many people felt that it was such an awful idea. I think it's more the mentality that you've convinced yourself you're "cheating" which is bad. The concept of cheating means you're playing a game or doing something for a certain length of time, rather than making a lifestyle change. Our healthy changes are supposed to be permanent, and therefore are subject to modification in order to make them truly liveable. <BR> ... Sat, 7 Aug 2010 17:02:29 EST Spiru-Tein! I just ordered 20 packets of Spiru-Tein protein powder. All different flavors, and I'm so excited. I spent $30, but who cares? I should be spending money on my health. I got them from if anyone would like to take a look at their selection :-) Fri, 6 Aug 2010 13:49:25 EST And the plateau is finally conquered... For the last two/three weeks I was exercising and eating the best that I could, but for some reason, the weight wasn't coming off like it had earlier. Needless to say I was DEPRESSED and frustrated. We've all been there and suddenly think "Well, what the hell is the point of killing myself in the gym and giving up so many foods if I'm not losing weight?!" Logically we know that it will just take time. The weight didn't jump on our bodies in two weeks, and we can't expect to lose it that fast,... Fri, 6 Aug 2010 13:17:28 EST