PINK-SOLDIER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PINK%2DSOLDIER PINK-SOLDIER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Blog #5...Emotional/Verbal abuse, living day to day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872074 My neighbors dump food on our lawn and a retention pond near our home. They have harassed my family for years. It has been way to much on top of everything else. My husband refuses to support me when I tell him of this and even say abusive things to me over them. <BR> <BR> The food they dump is a lot, it attracts rodents, seagulls, and ducks...which relive themselves around the sidewalk and there is quite a bit of excrement. My husband tells me to fight my own little battle, he is not on... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 20:56:38 EST Addressing my situation/verbal & emotional abuse blog#4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869645 Just wanted to say <em>524</em> to everyone who commented on my blogs about this last year. I took a break from writing about it. I do not want to be a whiner, a complainer, I am just someone who is trying to heal a painful part of my life. From this pain, I have been known to eat, I have admitted to it before. I started this year fairly well, but still have the nighttime easting problem. I don't think I care enough, I am not committed enough, I can't change. I will not give up. I st... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 21:06:00 EST Emotional/Verbal abuse against me blog #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812159 Writing these blogs is a way for me to get out my husband's odd and unusual behavior against me, which has resulted in me, just plain not being good to my self in a healthy way. I need to eat a healthier diet, more balanced and get back into my regular exercise program. I know I should not play a victim role, but I did let him, my husband make me feel this way, I am getting over it everyday. <BR> <BR> Saw my counselor today, good session, I didn't feel bad at all. Sometimes I do feel sh... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 19:25:28 EST Emotional/Verbal abuse against me Blog#2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810922 <em>304</em> to everyone who commented on my last blog. This is going to be a daily event for me until I get this out of my system. I have been so isolated and letting it out is a good thing. I am not an unforgiving person, it is not about that, it is about helping me, and maybe helping you or someone you know who is going through this. Living in an abusive situation can lead to anything I suppose, to escape the pain, one might indulge in food, alcohol, drugs, gambling, probably other t... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 20:53:12 EST New Series of Blogs on emotional/verbal abuse against me. #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810230 Day after day I spend a lot of time alone, and at night the same pattern continues...eating myself to sleep. It's time for me to get distressing events, situations out of me, my mind, my spirit, for I have a wounded spirit, I am a broken hearted lady. <em>51</em> <BR> <BR> Over the years I have talked to about 5 different Pastors, seen counselors, still seeing these people, but one fundamental thing does not change., how my husband treats me, it's awful.. <BR> <BR> Some of these blogs m... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 19:37:49 EST Blog #1 New Beginnings to stop sweets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689959 For the stop your sweet craving team, you need to write 3 blogs a week, Here is my first one. <BR> <BR> How will I <em>227</em> eating at night <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> Going to try some new things, tonight is the first try, I am in the experimental stages. <BR> <BR> Changes during the day include adding more water. I have always had trouble drinking water. <BR> <BR> My new rule, make sure to have drank at least 2 glasses of water by 2 pm. and hopefully 4 or more as the day goes by. ... Wed, 7 May 2014 17:10:59 EST Diet Pills, My Driver's License and Donuts (EE/Healing-entry3) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269588 I've been going on a sentimental journey re-tracing my early bad eating habits, my roots, actually my root of all evil. <em>227</em> <em>473</em> <em>18</em> After writing my last blog, I find myself a chubby pre-teen, solution, buying diet pills, they would sell them to kids back in 1977, no problem. I did take them without my parents knowledge, and also ate less because of them. I also started to take a nap, probably because I was exhausted from not having the proper fuel in my ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 10:48:37 EST Emotional Eating Healing, entry 2: Clearing the Childhood Cobwebs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256047 So I have realized my bad eating habits began as a child, I have to ask myself why. Well, first I had to have money to buy my candy, my parents gave it to me, not knowing I would not use that money wisely and buy sweets, they just thought they were being nice. But something was not right within me, I was eating those treats to make me feel better, because I did not feel good about myself. The instant gratification of a treat, covered deeper problems that a child may not know how to handle... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 10:40:59 EST Starting a series of blogs for a complete healing of my Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252670 <em>249</em> <BR> I have come to a realization that I need to unload things about my whole life, I have been a member of Spark People for five years, learned alot, fought cancer <em>390</em> and won. <em>208</em> <em>32</em> but my weight has increased. I started here at 148, my weight has gone up <em>49</em> and down. <em>55</em> Unfortunately it has not sticked, I now weigh 155 and have been stuck here forever, it creeped up and won't go down. I exercise alot, last 3 days... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 13:45:06 EST Lent it Go...Letting it go for Lent ~day one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4751765 As a Christian I began my lenten journey today. I am on a spiritual journey as well as a personal one. I have not been eating well, filling myself up with all the wrong foods to fuel my body... BIG mistake. I also have emotional baggage that I am releasing, alot of clutter in the home, all my bad habits are on the table now. I commit to improvement this first day of lent. I attended Church and it felt good to refresh myself on a spiritual level. I am tracking my food and planning my me... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 16:50:18 EST 2011 Year in Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4647363 As a whole 2011 was a good one. Worst part was my dear Mom in law Genie passed, 88 years young, she lived a very full life and was not sick until the end. My dog Sadie, who was about 13 also passed, such a dear and faithful companion to our family. Loss is never easy, but we can't let it stop us, we must go on and live in the spirit of the loved one we were so generously allowed to spend time with. Life is to be lived and we must do so, no matter what. You can't let illness stop you eit... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 22:48:53 EST Mother's Day with my boys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4247801 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l831089157.jpg">I always enjoy Mother's day, and being with my children is my favorite thing, such a special time. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l421896576.jpg">Sean is 24 and Steven is 13. I also have a daughter Sara, age 23 she was out and about that day, but I got a nice phone call from her, what a lucky mom I am. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l57138895.jpg">Later that day, me, hubby and Steven had... Sat, 21 May 2011 21:18:35 EST Problems with Nightime binges due to Emotional causes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3783170 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l753573860.jpg">This picture represents an eating episode from earlier this year, March 2010. I am sad to say this pattern is continui9ng, has been off and on for about 6 years now, since I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Even years before that I have comforted myself with food. I have been depressed lately, my health always under scrutiny with ongoing medical tests due to chronic pain issues from my 3 bouts with cancer. I really need s... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 13:49:28 EST NFL is in the PINK for Breast Cancer Awareness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3721650 During October, the NFL is showing it's PINK, to raise awareness about breast cancer and how important early detection is. As a survivor myself, I am proud to see this disease recognized by the sport of football, and it's reminder to all of us that breast cancer can be beat. I'm sure there are many football wives who have faced bc, My favorite football player, Brett Favre, is the husband of a breast cancer survivor, Deanna. Her book is a great read for anyone who has the disease or support... Sun, 17 Oct 2010 20:13:51 EST A Tribute to my friend Donna, MRSFIXIT, you were TOUGH! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3712326 A wonderful lady I met here on Spark People has lost her fight with breast cancer. Her name was Donna, screen name MRSFIXIT. She was a courageous warrior in the fight against this disease that can take over your whole body, it raged inside her, spreading to her liver. But despite the cruel spread of cancer, the light of hope never dimmed in her mind. Her spirit was happy, alive, hopeful she fought as tough as she could and never gave up. Her body became tired and as she left her husband a... Wed, 13 Oct 2010 09:36:51 EST The Clutter in my house is weighing me down. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3669624 I had a garage sale last weekend, and donated items to various organizations this past week. I plan to get rid of more. To bless someone elses's life with what I don't need. I looked at myself this morning as I got out of the shower, yes I am thin, at my goal weight, but not really fit, my stomach is flabby, arms un-toned, I wonder why? I have been at my goal weight for quite sometime now, yes I have had my share of health ups and downs, surgeries, but I should be able to commit to a regul... Sat, 25 Sep 2010 13:33:50 EST Sparked by THE SPARK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3616000 I have finished all the chapters in The Spark! <em>305</em> As a result of reading it, I plan on recommitting myself to the spark principles. I have strayed a little, and now it's time to get on a fresh new attitude as I progress even further into my healthy lifestyle. I am at my goal weight and I have been for a while, but my diet, water consumption and commitment to regular exercise has not been consistent. I have to do something about it, so I have decided to re-do Fast Break, the 28 ... Tue, 7 Sep 2010 18:34:37 EST My son as the Cowardly Lion, a great memory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3578181 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l193992934.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l319125840.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l110714048.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l537509429.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l999294282.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l172260010.jpg">Some photos from my son's school play The Wizard of Oz, which he performed in, May of 2010. He... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 20:34:49 EST Happy Birthday Mom, you look marvelous at 70! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3338039 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l992038192.jpg">Celebrating My Mom Diane's Birthday today she is 70! I think she looks great! She has led a healthy life as I learned many things from her. She has always stressed the fruits and vegetables. She walks every evening, weather permitting, and has done yoga for years. I remember her being active when I was a kid, she took fitness classes and encouraged me to be involved in sports. My mom is also a breast cancer survivor sinc... Tue, 15 Jun 2010 19:33:12 EST Can you see the real me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3280360 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l807954153.jpg">A few picture's of Steven and I on Mother's Day 2010. I was so happy to be healthy and there to enjoy the day with my family. Steven is my youngest child and we have a very special relationship. He has been by my side, praying and supporting me the 3 times I have faced breast cancer. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l114391416.jpg">Being a mom and wearing a wig can be challenging, you don't ever want your ch... Sat, 29 May 2010 17:39:03 EST I liked my SP Birthday card, it made me think... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3007675 I haven't wrote a blog in a while and I wanted to acknowledge the inspiring and meaningful Birthday greeting I received from Spark People. <em>44</em> <em>252</em> <em>107</em> My Birthday, 2/28 is past now but the words on my card, which I printed so to read often, remind me of all the possibilities in my life. A new year has begun for me, I am planning on doing just what that quote on the birthday card read. "Don't just count your years, make your years count" - Ernest Meyers. I hope ... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 16:38:37 EST It doesn't matter what you've done, you can still come home to SP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2926069 We all make mistakes, and if you are parents we know our kids makes mistakes too. The best we can do is learn from them, be aware of how the mistake happened and do better next time. Knowing their is someone who loves you and accepts you, will help you accept the mistakes you have made and move on. Kids who leave home, may return after finding out it's not that easy living and paying for everything on their own. With weight loss and healthy habits we can make mistakes too, we can run aw... Thu, 25 Feb 2010 09:59:20 EST My Little Rattie of the Month for February! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2830303 <em>252</em> what a fun place to get fit and healthy! I was so happy to find out my precious little doggie, Sadie is the "Rat Terrier of the Month" on my Rattie Team! I feel proud and honored. She has been my companion <em>338</em> and walking partner for years! <em>313</em> She is the <em>285</em> dog ever!!! I am just so thankful to have had such an <em>345</em> member of my family in my little pooch Sadie Mae, yes she has a middle name! Sadie has helped me chart many miles walking ... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 11:14:29 EST My 2 year Spark Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2788535 Today is my 2 year Spark Anniversary, and I am not doing the best right now. I haven't had a good appetite lately and I am experiencing some pain due to a prescription I am taking to prevent breast cancer reoccurrence. I had chemo for my 3rd bout with breast cancer over 10 months ago, but some of the side effects are still lingering. I am trying to adapt to life after beating breast cancer and having 9 surgeries (12 combined) My body has handled it as best as it can. When I joined Spark ... Sun, 24 Jan 2010 08:56:18 EST I've come along way since my last chemo treatment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2730745 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/8/b989345553.jpg"> This is me on 3-3-09. I am happy to say I am getting better everyday! I thought I looked like a pink-soldier in this picture taken by my very sweet nurse Geri. I finally got brave enough to share this with my spark friends. My hair is growing slowly, but it's growing, that's great news! <em>184</em> Inga <em>184</em> Mon, 11 Jan 2010 18:44:42 EST New Year, New Me, and a New Spark Name! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2698925 Goodbye CHI-TOWNGIRL, I have changed my name to PINK-SOLDIER. With the beginning of the new year I have thought about my purpose in life. As a 3 time breast cancer survivor I hope to share the message of HOPE that you can win this BATTLE. I fought the war and came out a champion. I am living a healthy life after cancer, believing it is gone for good. Spark People is helping me to live healthy after breast cancer, and as a spark person I hope to support and care for those who may be goin... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 15:19:26 EST Need a little Jump Start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2658963 With the new year coming I need a jump start. I have not exercised this month due to recovering from a minor surgery, lymphedema swelling issues and the business of the season. I am glad the new year is right around the corner. I am working on new plans and goals for myself . I have an exercise bike, juicer, small weights, some exercise/yoga/pilates DVD's, Spark People...all the tools I need to get back on track, firm up the flab and start the new year off right. I also hope to eat bette... Sun, 27 Dec 2009 13:55:22 EST Gained only 1 lb. on my vacation and lost it already! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2258705 I just got back from FLORIDA, where I spent 2 glorious weeks. I was accompanied by my Husband and youngest son. Our older son recently went to Sweden and chose to stay home and care for our dog. Our older daughter was busy with work and school, so she stayed home as well. The 3 of us had a grand time. Our first week at a beach and tennis resort on the gulf had plenty to eat. The restaurant has highly rated gourmet food, which we certainly enjoyed each evening. We feasted on Grouper, Tu... Sat, 25 Jul 2009 14:55:57 EST My Healthy Garden http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2105354 I spent the last week planting my garden. I planted flower seeds and annuals. My excitement is in the planting of my vegetables. I always enjoy growing my own. The taste of fresh grown veggies from my garden is very pleasing to my taste buds, and the rest of the family enjoys them too. I have planted red tomatoes, cherry tomatoes, yellow pear tomatoes, larger yellow tomatoes, orange bell and purple bell peppers, sweet banana peppers, japanese eggplant and all kinds of herbs. I have some... Fri, 29 May 2009 18:27:43 EST