PINK-SOLDIER's SparkPeople Blog PINK-SOLDIER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Food Free Nights Begin 9-1-15 I have been bad at night, stress and family problems have derailed me so much I have been binge eating almost every night this summer. I decided to begin again, September seems like a good month, it's warm like summer and I feel motivated enough to stick with it this time. <BR> <BR> Day 1 accomplishments: <BR> I increased my water intake, I start slow and am going for 32 oz. per day. <em>91</em> <BR> I worked out for 45 minutes. <em>314</em> <em>324</em> <BR> I did not eat myself t... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 11:54:31 EST Blog #5...Emotional/Verbal abuse, living day to day My neighbors dump food on our lawn and a retention pond near our home. They have harassed my family for years. It has been way to much on top of everything else. My husband refuses to support me when I tell him of this and even say abusive things to me over them. <BR> <BR> The food they dump is a lot, it attracts rodents, seagulls, and ducks...which relive themselves around the sidewalk and there is quite a bit of excrement. My husband tells me to fight my own little battle, he is not on... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 20:56:38 EST Addressing my situation/verbal & emotional abuse blog#4 Just wanted to say <em>524</em> to everyone who commented on my blogs about this last year. I took a break from writing about it. I do not want to be a whiner, a complainer, I am just someone who is trying to heal a painful part of my life. From this pain, I have been known to eat, I have admitted to it before. I started this year fairly well, but still have the nighttime easting problem. I don't think I care enough, I am not committed enough, I can't change. I will not give up. I st... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 21:06:00 EST Emotional/Verbal abuse against me blog #3 Writing these blogs is a way for me to get out my husband's odd and unusual behavior against me, which has resulted in me, just plain not being good to my self in a healthy way. I need to eat a healthier diet, more balanced and get back into my regular exercise program. I know I should not play a victim role, but I did let him, my husband make me feel this way, I am getting over it everyday. <BR> <BR> Saw my counselor today, good session, I didn't feel bad at all. Sometimes I do feel sh... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 19:25:28 EST Emotional/Verbal abuse against me Blog#2 <em>304</em> to everyone who commented on my last blog. This is going to be a daily event for me until I get this out of my system. I have been so isolated and letting it out is a good thing. I am not an unforgiving person, it is not about that, it is about helping me, and maybe helping you or someone you know who is going through this. Living in an abusive situation can lead to anything I suppose, to escape the pain, one might indulge in food, alcohol, drugs, gambling, probably other t... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 20:53:12 EST New Series of Blogs on emotional/verbal abuse against me. #1 Day after day I spend a lot of time alone, and at night the same pattern continues...eating myself to sleep. It's time for me to get distressing events, situations out of me, my mind, my spirit, for I have a wounded spirit, I am a broken hearted lady. <em>51</em> <BR> <BR> Over the years I have talked to about 5 different Pastors, seen counselors, still seeing these people, but one fundamental thing does not change., how my husband treats me, it's awful.. <BR> <BR> Some of these blogs m... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 19:37:49 EST Blog #1 New Beginnings to stop sweets For the stop your sweet craving team, you need to write 3 blogs a week, Here is my first one. <BR> <BR> How will I <em>227</em> eating at night <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> Going to try some new things, tonight is the first try, I am in the experimental stages. <BR> <BR> Changes during the day include adding more water. I have always had trouble drinking water. <BR> <BR> My new rule, make sure to have drank at least 2 glasses of water by 2 pm. and hopefully 4 or more as the day goes by. ... Wed, 7 May 2014 17:10:59 EST Making a Change for the Better and Leaving the Baggage Behind. Joined the Sweets Team again <em>38</em> <em>38</em> <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> I have quit it a few times before, never accomplishing anything. <em>40</em> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> No time like the present to really give it my all again. <BR> <BR> One of the real problems that keeps me from losing weight is Peanut Butter M & M's, it has become a severe addiction and source of comfort, what an awful thing to do to me. <em>245</em> I have really been out of control for years. <BR> ... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 19:15:41 EST Diet Pills, My Driver's License and Donuts (EE/Healing-entry3) I've been going on a sentimental journey re-tracing my early bad eating habits, my roots, actually my root of all evil. <em>227</em> <em>473</em> <em>18</em> After writing my last blog, I find myself a chubby pre-teen, solution, buying diet pills, they would sell them to kids back in 1977, no problem. I did take them without my parents knowledge, and also ate less because of them. I also started to take a nap, probably because I was exhausted from not having the proper fuel in my ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 10:48:37 EST Emotional Eating Healing, entry 2: Clearing the Childhood Cobwebs So I have realized my bad eating habits began as a child, I have to ask myself why. Well, first I had to have money to buy my candy, my parents gave it to me, not knowing I would not use that money wisely and buy sweets, they just thought they were being nice. But something was not right within me, I was eating those treats to make me feel better, because I did not feel good about myself. The instant gratification of a treat, covered deeper problems that a child may not know how to handle... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 10:40:59 EST Starting a series of blogs for a complete healing of my Emotional Eating <em>249</em> <BR> I have come to a realization that I need to unload things about my whole life, I have been a member of Spark People for five years, learned alot, fought cancer <em>390</em> and won. <em>208</em> <em>32</em> but my weight has increased. I started here at 148, my weight has gone up <em>49</em> and down. <em>55</em> Unfortunately it has not sticked, I now weigh 155 and have been stuck here forever, it creeped up and won't go down. I exercise alot, last 3 days... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 13:45:06 EST THINK PINK FOR OCTOBER! <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>390</em> INGA <em>390</em> Sat, 13 Oct 2012 18:35:46 EST Falling into a New Me - Autumn 2012 It's time for me to get serious. <em>32</em> <em>128</em> <em>15</em> <BR> I have not been able to stay away from sweets, especially at night. <em>102</em> <em>494</em> <em>495</em> <em>475</em> <em>31</em> It has been a real problem for me, for years. I have used this as a coping mechanism through my breast cancer <em>390</em> It has got me through problems with my marriage, things my kids did to upset me, mean things people do or say, it is always here and there is... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 19:06:09 EST Lent it Go...Letting it go for Lent ~day one As a Christian I began my lenten journey today. I am on a spiritual journey as well as a personal one. I have not been eating well, filling myself up with all the wrong foods to fuel my body... BIG mistake. I also have emotional baggage that I am releasing, alot of clutter in the home, all my bad habits are on the table now. I commit to improvement this first day of lent. I attended Church and it felt good to refresh myself on a spiritual level. I am tracking my food and planning my me... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 16:50:18 EST 2011 Year in Review As a whole 2011 was a good one. Worst part was my dear Mom in law Genie passed, 88 years young, she lived a very full life and was not sick until the end. My dog Sadie, who was about 13 also passed, such a dear and faithful companion to our family. Loss is never easy, but we can't let it stop us, we must go on and live in the spirit of the loved one we were so generously allowed to spend time with. Life is to be lived and we must do so, no matter what. You can't let illness stop you eit... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 22:48:53 EST National Breast Cancer Awareness Month As a 3 time survivor of this disease, I dedicate myself this entire month to spread the word about the importance of getting mammograms as your dr. recommends as well as conducting regular breast self-exams on a monthly basis. Each day I am truly thankful for my survivorship, and through each blog I write this month I celebrate that gift of life. Spark People has been an amazing part of my journey back to health and even a support system during my 3rd battle from which I have been healthy f... Sun, 2 Oct 2011 00:40:46 EST Mother's Day with my boys <img src="">I always enjoy Mother's day, and being with my children is my favorite thing, such a special time. <img src="">Sean is 24 and Steven is 13. I also have a daughter Sara, age 23 she was out and about that day, but I got a nice phone call from her, what a lucky mom I am. <img src="">Later that day, me, hubby and Steven had... Sat, 21 May 2011 21:18:35 EST Hello SparkFriends! Hello to all my SparkFriends! <em>223</em> I have been exercising like crazy and miss chatting with you all on the threads, my life has been out of hand and I am sorry if I have not been there for any of my friends. I have had so many personal issues to deal with and running my youngest around to activities, it's been hard to be here, but you are always in my thoughts and prayers. <em>252</em> <em>458</em> In order to get through the tough times that I face continually with family members a... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 10:56:05 EST Happy New Year Wishing all my Spark friends a very happy 2011. Thanks for supporting me on my journey this year. It is my hope to continue down the road of good health, stay cancer free and make better choices for myself. I remember all about 2010, the good, the bad, the ugly night-time eating habits. As I ring in the new year, I put away those habits that side-lined my healthy lifestyle in the past. <em>235</em> 2011! <em>409</em> <em>412</em> <em>408</em> <BR> <em>8</em> Inga <em>8</em> Fri, 31 Dec 2010 19:12:01 EST Gettin' on the Stationary Bike I have always tried to turn problems into possibilities, make lemonade from lemons so to speak. In my last blog I cleansed myself by sharing my burden with others, yes that horrible night time eating. I have to work harder than ever to give it up, last 2 nights were fine. I also need to exercise so I am proud to report that I got on the bike the last 2 days, 40 min. each time. So I have 80 fitness minutes under my belt this week, I hope to keep this routine going 5 days a week. When I ma... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 18:04:33 EST Problems with Nightime binges due to Emotional causes <img src="">This picture represents an eating episode from earlier this year, March 2010. I am sad to say this pattern is continui9ng, has been off and on for about 6 years now, since I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Even years before that I have comforted myself with food. I have been depressed lately, my health always under scrutiny with ongoing medical tests due to chronic pain issues from my 3 bouts with cancer. I really need s... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 13:49:28 EST NFL is in the PINK for Breast Cancer Awareness During October, the NFL is showing it's PINK, to raise awareness about breast cancer and how important early detection is. As a survivor myself, I am proud to see this disease recognized by the sport of football, and it's reminder to all of us that breast cancer can be beat. I'm sure there are many football wives who have faced bc, My favorite football player, Brett Favre, is the husband of a breast cancer survivor, Deanna. Her book is a great read for anyone who has the disease or support... Sun, 17 Oct 2010 20:13:51 EST A Tribute to my friend Donna, MRSFIXIT, you were TOUGH! A wonderful lady I met here on Spark People has lost her fight with breast cancer. Her name was Donna, screen name MRSFIXIT. She was a courageous warrior in the fight against this disease that can take over your whole body, it raged inside her, spreading to her liver. But despite the cruel spread of cancer, the light of hope never dimmed in her mind. Her spirit was happy, alive, hopeful she fought as tough as she could and never gave up. Her body became tired and as she left her husband a... Wed, 13 Oct 2010 09:36:51 EST The Clutter in my house is weighing me down. I had a garage sale last weekend, and donated items to various organizations this past week. I plan to get rid of more. To bless someone elses's life with what I don't need. I looked at myself this morning as I got out of the shower, yes I am thin, at my goal weight, but not really fit, my stomach is flabby, arms un-toned, I wonder why? I have been at my goal weight for quite sometime now, yes I have had my share of health ups and downs, surgeries, but I should be able to commit to a regul... Sat, 25 Sep 2010 13:33:50 EST I'm gonna miss summer...assorted pictures of me on the beach. A few pictures of me having fun in the sun. I love hot, humid and sunny weather. I am so happy when I have my days at the beach, it's a place where I have so much fun! <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> These pictures were taken in Longboat Key, Florida. Ju... Sun, 19 Sep 2010 18:32:02 EST Sparked by THE SPARK! I have finished all the chapters in The Spark! <em>305</em> As a result of reading it, I plan on recommitting myself to the spark principles. I have strayed a little, and now it's time to get on a fresh new attitude as I progress even further into my healthy lifestyle. I am at my goal weight and I have been for a while, but my diet, water consumption and commitment to regular exercise has not been consistent. I have to do something about it, so I have decided to re-do Fast Break, the 28 ... Tue, 7 Sep 2010 18:34:37 EST My son as the Cowardly Lion, a great memory! <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src="">Some photos from my son's school play The Wizard of Oz, which he performed in, May of 2010. He... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 20:34:49 EST Happy Birthday Mom, you look marvelous at 70! <img src="">Celebrating My Mom Diane's Birthday today she is 70! I think she looks great! She has led a healthy life as I learned many things from her. She has always stressed the fruits and vegetables. She walks every evening, weather permitting, and has done yoga for years. I remember her being active when I was a kid, she took fitness classes and encouraged me to be involved in sports. My mom is also a breast cancer survivor sinc... Tue, 15 Jun 2010 19:33:12 EST Can you see the real me? <img src="">A few picture's of Steven and I on Mother's Day 2010. I was so happy to be healthy and there to enjoy the day with my family. Steven is my youngest child and we have a very special relationship. He has been by my side, praying and supporting me the 3 times I have faced breast cancer. <img src="">Being a mom and wearing a wig can be challenging, you don't ever want your ch... Sat, 29 May 2010 17:39:03 EST I liked my SP Birthday card, it made me think... I haven't wrote a blog in a while and I wanted to acknowledge the inspiring and meaningful Birthday greeting I received from Spark People. <em>44</em> <em>252</em> <em>107</em> My Birthday, 2/28 is past now but the words on my card, which I printed so to read often, remind me of all the possibilities in my life. A new year has begun for me, I am planning on doing just what that quote on the birthday card read. "Don't just count your years, make your years count" - Ernest Meyers. I hope ... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 16:38:37 EST It doesn't matter what you've done, you can still come home to SP! We all make mistakes, and if you are parents we know our kids makes mistakes too. The best we can do is learn from them, be aware of how the mistake happened and do better next time. Knowing their is someone who loves you and accepts you, will help you accept the mistakes you have made and move on. Kids who leave home, may return after finding out it's not that easy living and paying for everything on their own. With weight loss and healthy habits we can make mistakes too, we can run aw... Thu, 25 Feb 2010 09:59:20 EST My Little Rattie of the Month for February! <em>252</em> what a fun place to get fit and healthy! I was so happy to find out my precious little doggie, Sadie is the "Rat Terrier of the Month" on my Rattie Team! I feel proud and honored. She has been my companion <em>338</em> and walking partner for years! <em>313</em> She is the <em>285</em> dog ever!!! I am just so thankful to have had such an <em>345</em> member of my family in my little pooch Sadie Mae, yes she has a middle name! Sadie has helped me chart many miles walking ... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 11:14:29 EST My 2 year Spark Anniversary Today is my 2 year Spark Anniversary, and I am not doing the best right now. I haven't had a good appetite lately and I am experiencing some pain due to a prescription I am taking to prevent breast cancer reoccurrence. I had chemo for my 3rd bout with breast cancer over 10 months ago, but some of the side effects are still lingering. I am trying to adapt to life after beating breast cancer and having 9 surgeries (12 combined) My body has handled it as best as it can. When I joined Spark ... Sun, 24 Jan 2010 08:56:18 EST I've come along way since my last chemo treatment! <img src=""> This is me on 3-3-09. I am happy to say I am getting better everyday! I thought I looked like a pink-soldier in this picture taken by my very sweet nurse Geri. I finally got brave enough to share this with my spark friends. My hair is growing slowly, but it's growing, that's great news! <em>184</em> Inga <em>184</em> Mon, 11 Jan 2010 18:44:42 EST New Year, New Me, and a New Spark Name! Goodbye CHI-TOWNGIRL, I have changed my name to PINK-SOLDIER. With the beginning of the new year I have thought about my purpose in life. As a 3 time breast cancer survivor I hope to share the message of HOPE that you can win this BATTLE. I fought the war and came out a champion. I am living a healthy life after cancer, believing it is gone for good. Spark People is helping me to live healthy after breast cancer, and as a spark person I hope to support and care for those who may be goin... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 15:19:26 EST Need a little Jump Start With the new year coming I need a jump start. I have not exercised this month due to recovering from a minor surgery, lymphedema swelling issues and the business of the season. I am glad the new year is right around the corner. I am working on new plans and goals for myself . I have an exercise bike, juicer, small weights, some exercise/yoga/pilates DVD's, Spark People...all the tools I need to get back on track, firm up the flab and start the new year off right. I also hope to eat bette... Sun, 27 Dec 2009 13:55:22 EST Wrapper's by the bed...when it was bad, but now it's better. I am so glad I am not cleaning up candy wrappers, empty bags of chips, beside my bed. You know, the remnants of my bed-time pleasure, EATING! My night time binges have really been under control again. I had success for many months and then wham, bam , thank you mam, I started eating at night again. I wondered, what am I doing to myself ??? I worked closely with my spark friends and teams. Together we developed a nightly check-in that helped me and anyone else who needed it, to steer awa... Sat, 14 Nov 2009 23:21:17 EST Positive Connections at SP! Spark People is such an awesome place. Coming here weighted down with extra pounds, emotional issues that stemmed from being a breast cancer survivor, and a shameful night-time binge eating problem, I knew I needed a change in my life. SP popped up on my computer screen just at the right time. I have met so many positive influences and have read countless articles that have helped me mature into a healthier person, mind, body and spirit. I am getting better everyday and the person I have... Fri, 13 Nov 2009 19:59:28 EST November- 100 spark points a day = 1 goodie a day to say thanks! As I start this month I hope to earn 100 spark points a day. With those points I plan on buying one special goodie each day, "a cornucopia" which will cost 100 points. My reason for this is to thank some really inspiring people that I have met as a Spark Person. November is a time of giving thanks and as we prepare to celebrate thanksgiving, I think of all the good things in my life. Spark People is one of those wonderful things in my life. The people who make up SP are such unique and c... Sun, 1 Nov 2009 21:14:31 EST Thanks to those who walk for a cure for breast cancer! As a 3x breast cancer survivor it touches my heart when I find out someone did a breast cancer walk. There are so many, and I along with many other women appreciate your blisters, pain and aching backs to walk in order to find a cure for this dreadful disease. My hope is that money earned in these events can help to prevent our daughter's, granddaughter's and those in future generations from dealing with the loss of a breast, losing their hair, going through painful surgeries, and cancer tr... Wed, 21 Oct 2009 21:57:43 EST Don't mess with a broken toe, REST! On October 1st I hurt my little toe bad. I had a Dr, apt that day for something totally unrelated, but asked her to check it out anyway. She said it was most likely fractured or broken, she wrapped my 2 smallest toes together and said take ibuprofen, ice it and rest. I could only were sandals, as it hurt to wear normal shoes. I took the pain medicine and started doing things again. I even took a few walks thinking it was better. Now I know I should have listened to the Dr., all that wal... Mon, 12 Oct 2009 10:47:29 EST Stress and trigger's that make me eat at night Over the last month I have seen myself fall back into some bad night-time eating binges. In september I had a terrible drive through fog, how did I cope? I was so shook up I ate myself to sleep. I had a medical test go bad, I ate at night again to soothe myself. I had a bad customer service experience and was treated ruder than ever before by a 20 something manager, who didn't have a clue how to respect people. Again, I took it out on myself and ate that night. My husband was grumpy and... Sat, 10 Oct 2009 10:18:58 EST Breast Cancer Awareness Month Today begins a month where we all need to be mindful of annual mammograms and the importance of monthly self-breast exams. Most women need a mammogram when they turn 40, but if you have a family history or your Dr. feels you need one earlier, don't pass it up, just get it done! I began my mammograms at 37, due to a family history of the disease. A mammogram at 40 revealed breast cancer. It was treated with 2 lumpectomies and radiation that year. Breast Cancer is highly treatable when dete... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 10:28:16 EST My Hubby's Healthy Birthday Today's is my Husband's 49th Birthday. He's got one more year until he is 50, so I hope to help him continue on the road of health. He has watched me as an active spark person, eating healthy, exercising and it has sparked his interest to be healthier, eat better and be concerned about his long term health. He bought us an elliptical trainer a while back and I am happy to see that it's not collecting dust, we both use it! He eats better too, yogurt, more fresh fruit, cereal, even high fibe... Thu, 10 Sep 2009 09:13:34 EST Happy Half Birthday to me! Today is my half Birthday, a silly thing to celebrate? No, not for me, this year I fought breast cancer hard, for the third time. I think I won, a scan in sept. will check me, to see if I am still cancer-free. During my last round of chemo I was very sick and so many days I laid in bed for 14 hours. I was hospitalized and it seemed like the worst of times. I was sick for my B-day in Feb, sick on Mother's day, so today since I am not sick, I am going to celebrate being 45 and a half years ol... Fri, 28 Aug 2009 10:31:21 EST The Climb... Sunday our family went to a beautiful state park in Michigan, Warren Dunes. We travel there several times every summer for the day to enjoy the lake, beach and sand dunes. As usual we climbed the largest dune there, "Tower Hill." Weight loss is also a climb, you try to eat right, exercise, working toward that end result, a healthy body weight. Everything in life worth something has some work involved in it. We are always climbing in life, reaching, stretching, stepping up to get that br... Wed, 12 Aug 2009 20:42:31 EST Gained only 1 lb. on my vacation and lost it already! I just got back from FLORIDA, where I spent 2 glorious weeks. I was accompanied by my Husband and youngest son. Our older son recently went to Sweden and chose to stay home and care for our dog. Our older daughter was busy with work and school, so she stayed home as well. The 3 of us had a grand time. Our first week at a beach and tennis resort on the gulf had plenty to eat. The restaurant has highly rated gourmet food, which we certainly enjoyed each evening. We feasted on Grouper, Tu... Sat, 25 Jul 2009 14:55:57 EST 123 There is a new me! Celebrating keeping my weight stable at 123. I have been eating healthy and started a little exercise. It has been almost 9 weeks since my breast reconstruction and I have sported around in a few swimsuits last month, filling them out well on top and looking slim in my tummy and thigh areas. I am where I am supposed to be. July 1st is a great day for me to say I am very happy with the new me I have become! Summer is here and my energy has returned. I feel good about myself and my current... Wed, 1 Jul 2009 21:04:41 EST 30,000 Spark Points, What have I learned from this? 30,000 pts. after being a spark person since january of 2008. What do these points mean to me? They mean time spent here at SP improving my health. During this year and 4 months or so I have worked on my well being. I have earned points for eating healthy, and some days not, but with practice my diet has evolved and is healthier now with an abundance of fruits and vegetables. I have earned points for household chores and exercise or sports activities, I now seem more inclined to do ... Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:14:58 EST Breast Cancer Awareness License Plate <img src="">Does your state have special license plates for different causes? I think the most important cause is to prevent breast cancer. In illinois we have a plate that says" Mammograms Save Lives". This is a fact for me, my life was saved by a mammogram which detected early stage breast cancer at age 40, in 2004. I purchased a special license plate promoting mammograms, with my nick name on it. It makes me proud to be a survivor a... Sat, 30 May 2009 21:50:22 EST