PEBBLES1313's SparkPeople Blog PEBBLES1313's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Back at it.. Today, I'm back in the routine of life.. summer has ended and the real world awaits. It's my first day back and I started this morning with a workout. I'm feeling great so far this morning! <BR> <BR> This summer has been extremely stressful. It started off with my darling daughter getting ill and requiring surgery.. finding out my ex was secretly trying to build a court case against me for months while smiling to my face and acting like everything was fine.. setting me up is more likely ... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 06:54:36 EST I'm going to keep coming back lol :) I've always considered it interesting that when one wakes in the morning, there is no telling where they day may take you before you lay your head to sleep again. <BR> <BR> I was on track, focused on healthier living not just for me, but my darling daughter also. I am a single mom and feel a team approach to becoming healthier is best for us. I will own my challenges. There have been several times I lead us consistently and there have been times I got side tracked, but I keep coming back ... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 09:00:47 EST Days 8, 9, 10, and 11 haha Took a few days off the routine to just love my daughter... focus on life.. and now back to get back on track. The last few days I have had some good choices, some not so good... the lemonade shakeup at the carnival was probably not so good for my body.. but the giggles from my girl as I puckered at how sour it was was priceless to my heart... rode the scrambler so many times I lost count... her squeals of delight making me laugh till my tummy hurt.. :) Sometimes it's nice to toss the calor... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 18:31:12 EST Day Seven Today I'm not talking about my food choices or how much I exercised. Today, I'm remembering a darling little boy with a big smile, eyes that shined, and an impish little look that said "well, you knew I'd have to give it a try." I am a teacher, a "special" teacher ~ meaning I not a regular classroom teacher. I teach elementary school Spanish. But, this little boy, was a student in my room for 25 minutes every day for the school year. Last Wednesday, he was in a horrific accident. He unb... Wed, 30 May 2012 23:46:56 EST Day Six (Tuesday, May 29, 2012) Today was kind of a blah day... I didn't feel like getting my cardio in during the morning.. I was pretty tired, but had not slept well the night before. I did make ok food choices.. I did give into the pizza last night, but limited it, savored it and had budgeted calories for it. Hey, I'll be honest.. if never having pizza or the oh so bad for you foods was the trade off, I simply wouldn't do it. lol :) But, I did make good choices to allow for the trade off. I also did my ST, which makes... Wed, 30 May 2012 13:07:15 EST Day Five (Monday, May 28, 2012) Had a great day and feel awesome about it! <em>224</em> Pushed myself to go a little harder with this workout than I have been, mostly because I felt I could and felt like trying it! I've been mixing things up with different types of exercise, but one staple of my routine has been my exercise bike about every other day. I had worked myself up to 45 minutes at a certain speed, but noticed today I was able to go faster and thought my endurance was better, so decided to try to go longer. I... Tue, 29 May 2012 01:12:09 EST Day Four (Sunday May 27, 2012) I really have to make a better habit of doing this around bed time lol :) I had quite a bit of stress yesterday when I awoke, so I used it to my advantage. I rocked my workout, and even made up my strength training I should have done the day before but didn't since my lil' girl was ill. I know ST is important.. and actually really like doing it, but for some reason, I put it off and am not as routine about it. That's one goal of mine: to make ST more of a routine. I'm smiling each time I... Mon, 28 May 2012 11:55:05 EST Day Three (Saturday, May 26, 2012) Had an ok eating day. Had to meet out for dinner. Looked ahead and checked out the menu, made some good choices and budgeted my calories, but did splurge a tiny bit. Did get in my basic workout but would have liked to have done more. So, an ok kind of day. Sun, 27 May 2012 16:39:28 EST Day Two (Friday May 25, 2012) :) So, I forgot to blog last night haha :) Did well on my eating.. stuck to the program.. but the exercise I lacked.. lol :) I just spent a day playing with my daughter inside due to the heat, and thought we'd go for a nice long walk in the late afternoon. However, with just one mile down, she was more than ready to come home as it was still realllllly hot. Decided to tweak our times a bit so we go for our walks in the morning instead, before it heats up or do inside walking at a nearby mall. Sat, 26 May 2012 13:22:31 EST Day one I work as an elementary school teacher and the end of the school year is stressful and busy to say the least. I have been relearning good habits in exercise and diet since March, but the last week and a half to two weeks have just been insane. I actually was just so ill on Tuesday from exhaustion, I came home early and just slept and ate till Wednesday, went in on Wednesday just as long as I had to and came home to rest again. I had tossed my program out the window during this time as I wa... Thu, 24 May 2012 15:33:40 EST The way life is supposed to be... Today was the kind of day my daughter and I should have been enjoying together all along. Got up early this morning.. went for a 13 mile ride on the stationary bike.. then, got her up, dressed and out the door for an all day trip to "the nature center" where we hiked through the forest, then went out in canoes on the lake.. then more hiking. :) I'm loving the change in mentality for both of us... out and experiencing life together! Betting we both sleep really good tonight too! :) <em>102<... Sat, 12 May 2012 18:13:57 EST I can do it all by myself... lol ok, so this is totally nonfitness or diet related, but is instead about learning I am more than I ever thought I was. I grew up Southern. Ladies do not handle screwdrivers or fix things :) lolol... that's what men are for. *giggles and rolls my eyes* That mentality just made life harder on me in the long run. So, now I'm a single (divorced) mom trying to tackle the world and have had some struggles along the way, although I'm determined. A few months back, my darling daughter (who is ve... Sun, 6 May 2012 23:09:55 EST week in review I had an extremely busy week this week. Likely the most stressful in a very long time, although it was good stress. Had the cable man out to fix something that's been a problem for years, lol...he was here for 6 hours in and out of the house.. not like I was going to workout with company and by the time he left, I had to go to bed. Had new furniture delivered, but had to clean house and move out the old furniture in order to make room for the delivery.. which turned into one of those long -... Sat, 5 May 2012 12:40:51 EST But.. it's "me" time.. Today I'm acknowledging a change in mindset.. I've been getting up an hour earlier than my daughter for months now so I could squeeze my workout in while I could focus on me. I have found I like this waking up routine which took the place of my old habit of coffee and surfing the web. Yesterday, she woke up unusually early at the time I'm usually beginning my workout. I felt cheated. But this is myyyyy time. lolol... I tried to push through and even encourage her to join me.. she thought ... Tue, 1 May 2012 07:38:51 EST Someone's cheating... (and it isn't me..) lol Me: Steps on scale... sees the number.. glares at the scale.. steps off.. steps back on.. glares at it again... quietly whispers "traitor!" :) <BR> <BR> I KNOW I'm getting results, following the program, not cheating... well, ok, I did cheat a little.. I admit I stepped on the scale once or twice (or four times) between weekly weigh ins... and know it's consistently been showing a loss of a couple pounds. But, today, it shows I gained like 6 pounds overnight! lol :) No, I didn't eat a ton... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 08:07:20 EST Icky Day.... Worked out pretty hard yesterday.. woke up this morning achy, not feeling good.. went through with my workout but it was hard. I was sweating much more than usual (at a moderate to low intensity, sweat was literally falling like rain) and just didn't feel into it. I ended up cutting it a little short feeling something was just not right. Went into work, but by lunch time, everyone was stopping me asking if I was ill or telling me I looked sick. I wanted to curl in a little ball and just l... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:37:23 EST Every choice has a consequence... oh, naughty naughty me.. I say sitting here giggling. The last couple weeks, I have gotten really into managing my exercise and eating well. I crave that morning workout and have made great choices with my "diet" (not a diet, I mean eating healthy). But... lol.. last night, a friend was really depressed.. so I sat up late talking to him, knowing I had to get up super early. I got about 4 hours sleep before I had to take my darling daughter to her tae kwan do class.. of course, we woke up ... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 22:19:47 EST Getting there... :) The scale is moving again! YAY! To date, I've lost 10 lbs officially today since I started Sparks again..lost a pants' size ... I also rode my furthest on my bike!! :) and I gained a level here in SP... a great start to the day. I still have a long way to go, but today is a great motivator and I love feeling the success and sense of accomplishment. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> PS I wanted to add... I keep an empty butter bowl on my dresser so when I look at it, I think in my mind.. I've lost... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 07:36:13 EST HOOORAY to saggy pants! Today I put on my usual clothes for work... but a shirt and pants I haven't worn in a couple weeks. As soon as I put them on, I felt like I was swimming in them, but thought nooo it's just my perspective.. then going out the door, my daughter commented that I needed to pull my pants up lolol she said with every step they were drooping lol... just went to the bathroom and realized I had pulled my pants down without unbuttoning or unzipping them (and decided to just pull them back up too! lol)... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 13:16:44 EST Running late... but had to get that workout in... lol I was loving my snooze button this morning in my sleep.. woke up thinking I'd slept in too much to get that morning workout in, and had to laugh at myself.. it was almost like I was having withdrawal.. managed to squeeze it in... and feeling good about it.. now just to run through the rest of the morning and get to work on time :) lol... Me: "Sorry boss for being late, I just had to get my workout done!" :) Mon, 16 Apr 2012 07:41:11 EST Found a baby in the road .... I was on a roll yesterday. Had a killer workout in the morning. Made good food choices all day. Even came home at the end of the day to start the Pala challenge with my darling daughter. We had decided day one was walking for an hour. <BR> <BR> While we were walking, we came up on a "major" road.. I live in an extremely small town. But, as we approached the road, there was more traffic than usual. This truck came up, slammed on it's breaks, skidded, the driver flung open the door an... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 11:27:18 EST Beat myself again!! YAY and Pala challenge Alright, I'll admit I have a bit of a competitive edge to me... I had started this morning's workout hoping to at least hit what I did yesterday as far as mi / hr since it was a new "record" for me! Somewhere along the way, I messed up on my math and thought I was behind, so I pushed myself harder... and blew through my own "record"... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Also, part of what has gotten me motivated to make this change is my darling daughter who has learned unhealthy eating habits and ac... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 07:20:24 EST I should have had the ooey gooey pie.... lol So today was a case of good day, good day, bad day. lol :P I got up early and had a great workout. Did great on not snacking from boredom. At lunch, I went in the cafeteria and there was this ooey gooey pie they had set out for us teachers. I was soooo tempted. My mouth watered.. my stomach growled audibly. Determined to keep my good day, I groaned and walked past the pie. However, I stayed hungry the rest of the day. Did I mention I reallllly wanted the pie? lol... Needed to do grocer... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 18:33:25 EST Breaking goals! in a good way! :) I woke up this morning, after having taken a week off from bicycling, hoping I might be able to reach the same distance in the same time as I had before my vacation. Seems the time off really helped! A few minutes into my ride, I could tell my stamina was much improved from where it had been even last week! I set a goal for myself to increase from a 7 mi / 30 min to an 8 mi / 30 min ride, which is pretty big for me :) lol... not only did I hit the 8, but kept right on trucking... not a lot ... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 07:26:53 EST Meeting myself somewhere in the middle :) I'm dedicated to becoming healthier as a lifestyle change, not as a temporary fix. :) In doing so, I'm struggling a bit with balancing my workouts and making healthier eating choices with life. Last week, I made some errors with my diet (which were a great learning experience!) and worked out about half as much as I'd like. I also saw the results from a half attempt! lolol... the scale hasn't budged, but my pants are falling off me! lol.. Had a weekend getaway this past weekend.. and my fav... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 08:18:09 EST A Blah kind of day... Day started off good, got in my morning workout.. I usually try to do half hour in the morning and half hour at night.. plus other activities as I'm able. This morning's workout was odd.. more achy crampy than I'm used to, but drank extra water, breathed deep, and pushed through it. Had a stressful day with a friend who was in a bad mood and said some upsetting things. Was really tired and took a nap hoping I'd feel better, but woke with chills / fever and an upset tummy. Decided to just ... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 22:29:41 EST May I mow the lawn... please? lol Ok, so I'm weird.. I love mowing the lawn, always have.. It's so immediately gratifying... I have a rather large lawn, front and back, divided into sections, lots of obstacles (bushes, playground equipment, etc). As a single mom, if I don't mow it or pay someone to, it doesn't get mowed lol :) Also as a single mom, I hate to toss that money away I would pay someone to do it unless it's just one of those times I simply can't get to it and it looks like a jungle. I have thought for years abo... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 16:38:04 EST Warning about eating out! lol :) Ok.. so, this is a process... today I fell flat on my face haha... Had a hectic day.. no time to stop and eat at home.. ended up eating out in another town.. at Cracker Barrel... knowing I shouldn't, but deciding to splurge on breakfast and then behave myself the rest of the day (and week) lol... I just had to have the smokehouse breakfast.. omgggg... so I get home later and try to plug in the data to see what damage I had done... noooo don't look! :) Three things jumped out at me.. first, ... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 00:15:07 EST This time it's for me.. Ok, so 3 years ago, I was here... determined to get healthier. Started at 190, (how I wish i was 190 now lol).. and ended up hitting around 170. But, I wasn't doing all this work for myself.. I had gotten in a new relationship.. and as sometimes happened.. when it went bad, it went very bad. I just gave up. <BR> <BR> Over time, I gained more weight, stopped caring to look in the mirror, and decided I would just "be happy" with me.. but, I had to reflect on the fact I wasn't happy with m... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 23:32:10 EST Back on track... ;~) Well, I've really struggled I guess to be honest, for the last couple weeks... trying to stick to the workout plan... I could make excuses, but I won't.. I had a difficult time handling time management well. However, I'm hoping I'm back on track now.. I did watch my eating during that time and try to be as active as possible, but I just didn't stick to my plan.. I was thrilled that I did well and worked out last night, and am now at 20lbs lost!!! I'll try not to kick myself too hard that I ... Sun, 12 Apr 2009 15:39:58 EST 3/4 to go... YAY! I wanted to take a time out to journal for myself, it seems to make me feel better. I am so happy that I've finally made it 1/4 of the way there! :) It took me a little longer than I hoped and less than I had feared, so all in all, I'm really happy about it! This past month has been more difficult than the first two months to stay on a healthy program.. it's nearing the end of the school year, and as a teacher, there are so many things I'm trying to squeeze in that it's making focusing on... Wed, 1 Apr 2009 18:19:29 EST Motivation and Goals... I just felt the desire to journal today about my goals and motivation right now... When I started, I was, well, I can't say overwhelmed about my total goal.. but it did seem like a really big one.. I mean, to say I hope to lose 60-70 lbs is alot! LOL... but, I just dedicated myself to looking at a smaller picture.. do what I can between now and June and then reevaluate... I started on Jan 18 with a total change of mind, and it's now Mar. 22... <BR> <BR> I am within .5 lbs.. haha of being ... Sun, 22 Mar 2009 13:28:58 EST Yay!!! Back on track! :) OK, so after two days of YUCK.. LOL.. not working out, not eating right, and feeling REALLY tired... I'm back on track.. still felt a little ill till around lunch, by this afternoon, I was actually hungry again!! and, felt good enough to go back to my tae bo and about to go do some strength training!! I weighed this morning, and it didn't seem there was much change plus or minus, so maybe I just am coasting? My real weigh in day on Monday will tell the truth, I'm sure haha.. *fingers crossed... Fri, 20 Mar 2009 21:08:02 EST Perfect Days and Bad days... I'm writing this while so wishing I could go to sleep.. I usually only write my accomplishments... but I thought I'd vent a bit today.. Up until last night.. I was doing really great with my eating.. and had finally found my first day of really great balance where I was at the low end of my ranges, but had everything within range... I was sooo happy.. I've also been doing great exercising since I started back in jan! I've been so proud of my commitment to it! :) Last night, though, I just f... Thu, 19 Mar 2009 18:32:56 EST 2 Month Celebration!! :) <em>109</em> Today is my two month anniversary of beginning my weight loss journey. I am so very happy that I have made the changes I have in my life. The changes are ones that I feel I can sustain and lead to better health in addition to losing weight.. :) I've reviewed my progress thus far, and wow! :) Although I would just love for the weight to absolutely fall off, I have to list my accomplishments and cheer them! :) <BR> <BR> 1. I've lost 16 lbs (although I had hoped it would... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 06:56:33 EST A weekend "off" and not much damage.. lol.. Ok, so I was nervous about this past weekend... I've been dedicated to working out and eating right since the middle of Jan... but, this weekend, I had family coming in and staying with me.. not conducive to exercise or good eating.. LOL...I was nervous about what my first "several days" off the plan would do to all that I had accomplished so far... exercising was out, but I was busy with all the cooking / cleaning that comes with having company.. and although the food wasn't quite my health... Mon, 9 Mar 2009 09:57:22 EST Is it cheating when.... ? LOL So, early last week, I stepped on the scales and weighed 190.5, a 1.5 lb loss from the week before, but I didn't log it, because it wasn't my logging day... then, without being too personal, haha.. I was retaining more food than usual and could feel how bloated I was... on my usual weigh in day, I was up to 194 (ugh!) but I didn't log it, because I knew it was due to the personal issue... so, that has been resolved, and I get on the scales today..189.. and I ran in here to log it.. haha... I... Fri, 6 Mar 2009 07:00:31 EST Round numbers haha.. today I'm in a contemplative mood about round numbers... you know, 140, 150, 160, 170... I've spent all week staring moodily at my scale, unhappy that I'm not breaking through that next round number... of course, I'm ever so close to it.. so it challenges me to cross over into the next low 10 lb bracket... why does that round number irk me more than crossing over the actual 10lbs of weight loss (that wasn't a round number) ? Shouldn't 192 (12 lbs lost) be a happy number? And yet, I... Sun, 1 Mar 2009 10:27:08 EST 2 weeks on Sparks :) A little over 1 month of my new life! :) Ok, so on my weight loss journey, as of today, I have lost about 10 lbs.. the scale is saying 11 right now, but I don't count it except 2 lbs or more of loss because of the day to day fluctuations.. I'm still extremely motivated, and feel that this is my year to get "me" back. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely happy with my life.. but the me in the mirror doesn't match the me inside. I've set goals, but they are not that big to me... knowing at the end of every day that I've eaten well, an... Sat, 21 Feb 2009 09:04:50 EST List of excuses.. Goodbye! Ok, this is my list of excuses to which I am now saying goodbye! <BR> 1) I don't have the time!!! I'm a single mom of a beautiful 5 year old... I work full time as a teacher and take classes online. I had a difficult time juggling my angel when it came to finding time to workout... I hated to pick her up from daycare and drop her off at another while I go to the gym!! I couldn't leave her home alone or with some sitter while I ran around the neighborhood... and to get a space of time wh... Sat, 14 Feb 2009 11:31:49 EST