PCOH051610's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PCOH051610 PCOH051610's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Another example of how the best gifts cannot be bought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674120 Hi, <BR> <BR> Gee, I'm not sure how this happened <em>211</em> but apparently I will be turning 48 this Saturday. I received my first "gift" last night when my brother sent me a rather long, chatty, e-mail and said he will try to call me over the weekend. The time zone thing is what gets us as he is in Australia and here I am on a rock in the mid-Atlantic! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I arrived to work this morning and one of my "break" ladies brought in a lovely bouquet of carnations (my favourite... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 08:04:49 EST What to do when you have the blues - let's share ideas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673424 Hi, <BR> <BR> So my question of the day is "what do you do when you have the blues"? I suffer with depression coupled with the oddest form of SAD and this month has been bad for the latter. I'm doing what I can but I have to really push myself. Luckily, I have a husband who is very supportive and three dogs who know nothing about mental illness. <BR> <BR> So here is what I try to do. I'm eating correctly and have been making sure to eat my fruits, veggies and protein. I figure anything tha... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 09:18:33 EST I'm seeing some progress (yay) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672286 Hi, <BR> <BR> Well, I joined WW on March 24th and I'm seeing progress. I haven't missed a day of tracking my meals (even though the days I was sick I barely ate anything). I still have a LONG way to go but the biggest change is that I'm not starved to death at night. <BR> <BR> My secret? I gave up my morning muffin from MacDonalds and traded it for a homemade peanut butter sandwich. I knew I wasn't going to take the time to eat at home so I came up with the sandwich idea. I've even got Joh... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 19:31:16 EST Feeling ugh! The doggies do not make good nurses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669606 Hi, <BR> <BR> My husband and I were unlucky enough to catch a nasty stomach virus which had us both feeling quite low yesterday. Seems to have passed ( <em>104</em> ) but we have the body aches now. I am not one for staying in bed so yesterday I was almost stir crazy. Decided to take the dogs out last night for a walk, albeit a shorter one than usual. <BR> <BR> Our weather is still quite chilly. It was + 2 degrees around suppertime last night and we were shocked at the number of people ... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 08:07:13 EST For anybody doing the Spring 5% Challenge - a helpful graphic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666425 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l552692170.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What is YOUR choice going to be??!?!?!?! Mon, 7 Apr 2014 10:56:39 EST This is it! I'm going to do it! No excuses! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664972 Hi, <BR> <BR> I'm in this great 5% Spring Challenge and I've made up my mind that "I'm going to just do it" <BR> <BR> Recording my food intake with WW is working out great. <BR> <BR> I am noticing the grey clouds forming deep within me but I'm fighting back. Yesterday, I was just going to give in but I showered and then had coffee with a friend. And, I also walked the dogs after supper for 2.7 km. <BR> <BR> Going into this challenge I am weighing in at 217.2. I started Weight Watchers o... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 11:18:14 EST Suffering in silence - inner battles that can't be measured http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658473 Hi, <BR> <BR> I was motivated to write this blog by my new SparkFriend, 19TCHS72. She commented on my openness about mental illness. For years, I hung my head in shame and hid my suffering in silence. I think that is what appealed to me the most about blogging here on Spark - I didn't know any of you so I wasn't afraid of being judged. <BR> <BR> Instead of being judgemental you have all been amazingly supportive. Some of you have contacted me through SparkMail, some have my personal e-mail,... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 09:45:07 EST Weather, food, my opinions on WW tracking, etc and a few pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657222 Hi! <BR> <BR> Here is a picture of the weather we had this morning <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l394267217.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I did get out this afternoon and walked with the fur kids for my thirty minutes but it was a bit nippy all the same. What is it they say about March going out like a lion? The two small dogs are scheduled for dental checkouts tomorrow (poor Maddy has already lost 14 of his teeth due to his first owner feeding him an all wet food diet) and Ginger has... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 17:43:12 EST Okay, don't get mad but I joined Weight Watchers online http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655987 Hi, <BR> <BR> I've written about my battle of not tracking my food with Spark so many times that I sound like a worn out tape recording! Many of you have written to me and expressed how they've done it and I think its wonderful that you've each found a method that works for you. <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I took the plunge and my Mom gave me her credit card to sign up for six months of Weight Watchers online. I had little success with WW before because the meetings were hor... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 08:35:16 EST Are you thinking about quitting Spark? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655283 Hi, <BR> <BR> Before I continue on, NO, I'm not about to quit Spark but I can why people do. Sometimes, it seems we are all waiting for the stars of our universe to align and come together before we a) start something, b) continue on with it or c) give up <BR> <BR> Sound familiar? I bet it does. You won't believe the excuses I've been using NOT TO TRACK. Some are quite laughable (and you know me, I love to share so please chuckle along with me) <BR> <BR> 1. I'd have to eat perfectly all of... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 10:54:13 EST Would you lose weight for money? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652204 Hi, <BR> <BR> I know the blog title is a bit weird, but I'm being serious here. Would you lose weight for money? I guess, what I'm asking is - would you make more of an attempt or be more motivated to stick with a weight loss program if money was a used as a reward? <BR> <BR> Why am I asking this? Well, I'm in the rather unique situation where I've used my Airmiles to buy three tickets across Canada for a dear friend. Those miles are going to expire next year and I only used 1/5 of what I ... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 08:46:06 EST How can you set up a budget if you don't know how much money you make? Why tracking is important! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649724 Hi, <BR> <BR> Have you ever felt you are so caught up in the process that you lose sight of the end goal? That is where I am again (this seems to be a reoccurring theme in my life <em>211</em> )I KNOW that it is the little things that add up to big things but right now I'm doing it all arse-backwards. PLAIN AND SIMPLE - I AM NOT TRACKING MY FOOD! <BR> <BR> Tracking my fitness has become a routine (wow, how did that happen?) even though my fitness at this time consists solely of walking.... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 08:52:45 EST Backyard Picnic - in -6 degree weather (picture) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646030 Hi, <BR> <BR> If you know anything at all about me, it is that I love my dogs and I try my best to "entertain" them and keep them busy. Yesterday, we walked a trail that we hadn't been on since last fall. I like it there but all dogs have to be kept on leash so it is not ideal as we like ours to run around and play as they want. Anything, to change things up, that is where we ended up yesterday. People were out on the pond skating, the squirrels were busy, the dogs were pulling on their leas... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 09:16:47 EST Needed a jock strap for a Pomeranian! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644341 Hi, <BR> <BR> Big heaps of thank you hugs are being sent to all of you who responded to my March 7h blog entitled "Not a Pity Party but a Reality Check" <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <em>247</em> <em>304</em> <em>247</em> <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> Saturday I weighed myself and found I had gained two pounds since last week. Ok, I have accepted that and am moving along. <BR> <BR> I walked both Saturday and Sunday. I'm not sure if the actual walking does me AS good as the laughing I d... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 10:39:04 EST ~~~~Not a pity party but a reality check~~~~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642330 Hi! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling off (my depression goes and comes and with a healthy dose of SAD tossed into the mix for effect) again but I'm getting better at self-reflection which in turns help when the bottom drops out of the proverbial bucket. I know people often compare their depressive episodes in terms of ebbs and flows as if there is a tide involved. I've always referred to mine as going in more of a circular pattern. As I travel through the months of the year I find my depression is eit... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 16:46:41 EST What happens when my dogs write a blog....SparkDog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633573 Hi, <BR> <BR> Dis is Maddy and I'm Mommy's favourite boy dog. Dis is me <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l345450580.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have two sisters. Dis is Louisa but I call her DingDong <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2048370692.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Did is my other sister, Ginger. I call her Dingaling <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1639445143.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We are a HUGE part of our Mommy's exercis... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 15:35:01 EST Have you ever wondered where they've gone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628979 Hi, <BR> <BR> I did something completely liberating over the past few days. I went over and re-read every single comment and note attached with goodies that I've received since joining Spark in August 2010. A lot of memories were brought to the forefront but then I went ahead and deleted all of them. <BR> <BR> Why? Because for one thing I tend to get overwhelmed quite easily and I would like to be able to acknowledge comments and goodies. If I had too many I quickly lost touch of who I res... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 08:24:09 EST Can YOU allow yourself to be happy? My battle with depression and happiness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625697 Hi, <BR> <BR> As many of you know I've been living with depression since childhood or about 45+ years. I spent my teens and twenties wondering "why me" and my thirties just wondering "why". Since turning 40, my thoughts have been "why not me" and that has turned my life around. <BR> <BR> Happiness was always elusive or dreaded. Dreaded because the happiness always came with that little voice in the back of my head that whispered, "you'll pay for this" the next time the wave of depression hi... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 16:53:35 EST A Valentine for the lonely, the grieving, the ones that are overlooked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5624113 Hi, <BR> <BR> I know Valentine's Day comes with many expectations, many of which, are made worse by the media and consumerism. I'm a believer that "love" doesn't need it's own special day and by trying to force it into one day leaves a lot of people feeling anything but loved. <BR> <BR> One of my TeddyBear teammates recently lost his beloved wife. I have been thinking about him all day which got me thinking about how we much we take our loved ones for granted. Some people have absolutely n... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 16:08:46 EST Dear Spark Friends - How Do I Love Thee? Let me Count the Ways http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621997 Hi, <BR> <BR> To borrow from Elizabeth Barrett Browning's "How Do I Love Thee? Let me count the ways..." <BR> <BR> I love thee in ways I cannot speak of or write of because words and thoughts don't quite come close to how much you all mean to me. We are scattered across this great world of ours and each of you, in whatever role you play, are as just as important to me as that bloody weigh scale. Actually, I take that back. You are far more important than that smug weigh scale who likes to ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 07:41:15 EST Need Help with Journal Writing - suggestions? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620322 Hi, <BR> <BR> I know, and have known, for years the power of journaling but I just can't seem to do it consistently. Jeepers, sounds like a lot of the things I do or don't do, doesn't it? <BR> <BR> Last year, I started (and maintained for four months) the little art of writing down one thing at bedtime that I was thankful for that particular day. I was going to throw the whole works in the garbage yesterday because I was mad that I hadn't kept it up. But, really, what good would that do? I... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 11:26:17 EST I'm so excited - I can "bearly" contain myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618589 Hi, <BR> <BR> Hands up if you believe things happen for a reason? <em>524</em> Something happened to me this week that is so downright awesome that I've deliberated even sharing with you guys. Not that I didn't want to share but I didn't want to get excited for nothing and have it all fall flat. <BR> <BR> The long and short of it is, I met a woman while walking the hounds who happens to be a registered dietician who is not openly practising while she raises her three sons. She offered t... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 11:54:09 EST Have you ever wanted to wanted to slap your therapist? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614740 Hi, <BR> <BR> As many of you know I've been seeing a psychologist and/or psychiatrist since becoming a young teenager. Unfortunately, I have learned a few things about how your actions and words are taken totally out of context and then give you something else to worry about. <BR> <BR> Had another appointment with my psychiatrist yesterday and left feeling worse then when I went it. Funny thing is I only think of a response afterwards. So here is the deal. She asks how I am. (I had asked Jo... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 08:23:52 EST My week of "ugh" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611397 Hi, <BR> <BR> Suffice it to say I've had better weeks but the good news is that I'm coming around. After two emergency visits, a CT scan, two telephone calls with my psychiatrist, a telephone call with John's cousin who is an MD, another telephone call with said cousin's father who has 50+ years of practicing psychiatry under his belt and a visit with my own doctor there is no clear diagnosis. <BR> <BR> Yes, I went cold turkey off of an antidepressant but I was at the lowest dose. If it wa... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 17:18:21 EST Worse headache of my life - cutting out Wellbutrin cold turkey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606473 Hi, <BR> <BR> I went to a walk in clinic last Monday because I had a headache for a week or more. There I was diagnosed with a sinus infection and was given a prescription. Ever day this past week a headache would develop over time and I was so dizzy. Talked to my pharmacist who suggested I stop the medication for those two reasons and also because I ended up with a yeast infection (ugh) <BR> <BR> While walking the dogs yesterday I became really sick really quickly. I was like somebody drun... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 19:08:57 EST Dog Days of Winter (Lots of Pictures of my doggies and maybe one or two or me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602093 Hi, <BR> <BR> Ah, the snow is gently starting to fall which is right about schedule for the storm forecasted to blow over our island today, overnight and into tomorrow. Just in case I don't get out to our usual spot to walk I'm going to share some random pictures I've been taking. <BR> <BR> This was our back patio on Saturday past - see Louis up in the right corner <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l580036681.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Maddy the Snow King <BR> <img src="... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 09:11:35 EST My dogs are so not normal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601019 Hi, <BR> <BR> Over the weekend I managed to develop quite the uncomfortable and painful sinus headache that simply would not go away. By Sunday night I was dipping into the painkillers and still had trouble getting to sleep. Yesterday went to a walk in clinic to be told I have an infection. No kidding Sherlock.....my whole face felt very tender around my nose/cheek area, back to my ears. So, I'm on the mend.......whee! <BR> <BR> It was such a nice day yesterday with temperature hovering aro... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 09:03:58 EST All this talk about time zones got me thinking and I want to know something..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597267 Hi, <BR> <BR> If you don't know much about me, let me tell you that I'm a proud Newfoundlander. The majority of my SparkFriends are American and have no idea where I live. Now, that isn't meant to be ignorant or rude. But let's be honest, most of us don't know a heck of a lot about the places our SparkFriends live and, what we do know, is often from stereotypes perpetrated by the media. <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong, I'm as guilty as the rest! Like as soon as I mention I live in Newfoundlan... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 17:30:08 EST What would you do if the Zombies attacked......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595618 Hi, <BR> <BR> I was motivated to write this after reading GINILEE4's blog about motivation, or lack thereof! <BR> <BR> Last year I adopted an attitude about Christmas that floored those closest to me. After years of being a perfectionist and one who fell into a coma as soon as Christmas dinner was cleaned up I decided that I'd had enough. I came up with three categories for my Christmas to-do list. The first was "It Won't Be Christmas Without", the second was "This Would Be Really Nice to ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 08:43:19 EST Thank you - my pity party is over for now! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593320 Hi, <BR> <BR> Gee, all I had to do is mention quitting and you all came out of the woodwork! Not that I'm complaining about that!!!! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> After I wrote that blog I instantly wanted to delete it because it just didn't sound like me but then I left it up because it was written based on how I felt at that particular time. It was a honest blog as that is something I truly value. No pussyfooting around here! <BR> <BR> So, I'm feeling better today! I left work yesterday and ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 09:28:33 EST Have you ever just wanted to quit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592187 Hi, <BR> <BR> I'm so overwhelmed by Spark right now. Well, to be truthful it's not Spark itself but my own inactivity. I am actually debating deleting all of my friends and letting you guys choose me. That sounds selfish, doesn't it? It's just that I like to have a smaller number of friends and keep up with them rather than be overwhelmed by a bunch of friends with whom I have little or no interaction. <BR> <BR> I actually found myself daydreaming about joining Weight Watchers but if I'm c... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 10:34:31 EST Day 3 of work being cancelled! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585818 Hi, <BR> <BR> Due to our province's ongoing power shortage, all educational facilities are closed until Thursday. We've actually had it pretty good where I'm living but parts of the island are without power and now, due to a quick thaw, are facing water troubles. <BR> <BR> I only work from Monday to Thursday anyway so this is going to be a really short week for me! Yay! I've been getting out everyday with the dogs but it turned really mild over night and is now nearing freezing again. I to... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 15:16:46 EST Getting ready to start the 5% Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583143 Hi, <BR> <BR> I'm getting myself in gear to start the 5% Challenge. I'm not sure yet what team I will be on but I've always enjoyed the people I meet on these challenges. <BR> <BR> We've been asked to do several tasks ahead of time so this is my homework so to speak. <BR> <BR> For fitness, I'm going to re-charge my FitBit! I find using that is very motivational and like how I'm able to "see" how quickly individual steps add up. <BR> <BR> For nutrition, I'm going to continue planning out ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 15:17:41 EST How cold is it? (Pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579893 Hi! <BR> <BR> How cold is it you ask? Well let's just say that's mighty nippy out. Since we are an island (in the North-Atlantic, mind you) we have to manufacture our own power which is all fine and good until the temperature dips low. There is a province wide rotating blackout system ongoing where we get our power for thirty minutes and then the load shifts. Actually, we've only lost it twice since 4 p.m. - thankfully. <BR> <BR> The powers that be (no pun intended) have requested Newfoun... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 19:21:26 EST Fast Forward to New Year's Eve 2014 - what will you see? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578139 Hi, <BR> <BR> Happy New Year! I've always had a love-hate relationship with New Year's Eve. When John and I were first dating I had bought a strapless black velour dress, velour high heels (this was the late 80's!) and a pair of black stockings that had a seam up the back of each leg. I was so excited to be going to my very first NYE dinner/dance! A few days just before NYE, we were leaving my parent's house on a bitterly cold, windy night. John held both doors open and closed them with a l... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 15:24:59 EST Tracking but not measuring - how it is going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576793 Hi, <BR> <BR> Well, today is my third day for just tracking my food without measuring it, etc.. <BR> <BR> I'm not finding stressful and three days is half-way to my longest streak of ever tracking my food on Spark. Yes, I know it will be hard once I start weighing and measuring to ensure proper portions but I'm not getting overwhelmed with that right now. <BR> <BR> Just by looking at what I ate yesterday made me realize I'm short on fruit so today I ate some grapes. One wee step in the ri... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 14:21:49 EST Detest tracking! I've reached a decision that might help you as well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5574779 Hi, <BR> <BR> Sitting here in my living room with the smell of baked pork chops and potatoes wafting through the air. New recipe - not sure where I found it but we are a bit tired of turkey so we opted for "the other white meat" <BR> <BR> Gosh, we were out early this morning digging our way into a feral cat feeding area. It's long story but suffice it to say a very sad one. We've been working on this for a year now and today my husband volunteered to go with us to dig a trail in through the... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 16:03:53 EST Snow, snow and more snow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573853 Hi, <BR> <BR> Yes, we've had more snow in December than I can ever remember but I don't mind it at all. I mean, it's something I can't change so I try to embrace it and think positive. <BR> <BR> We walked the dogs for another hour today. LouLou usually carries a stick and races around like a mad dog. Maddy has learned to duck to the ground when he sees Louisa approaching so it's quite funny to watch. Big Lou racing so fast that when she tries to stop she almost goes "arse over teakettle" (s... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 14:20:33 EST Thank you! (Pictures too!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573059 Hi! <BR> <BR> Thanks to all who took the the time to read my "venting" blog about my mom and our weird relationship. Somebody asked how old she is (74) so I have to get it through my thick skull that a) it's her problem, b) people like me despite what she says, c) she is my mom but she doesn't have to be my best friend and d) I can't change her <BR> <BR> It's snowing again here! I really don't mind it all and the dogs love getting out n all kinds of weather so we are having fun. I still hav... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 12:57:43 EST Hi! Why do the holidays bring out the worst in us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572142 Happy Boxing Day, <BR> <BR> I'm so glad that stores are not allowed to be open here on Boxing Day so that most non-essential workers get a second day off. If I had to near a store right now I think I would curl up and die. I'm sure some of you are planning on hitting the malls for great sales today but I'm just content curled up with one of my dogs asleep on my lap. (It's Ginger at the moment) <BR> <BR> Santa was good to all of us again this year. I received some earrings and a hair straigh... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 10:14:31 EST A little bit of everything a.k.a. Susan's rambles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565439 Hi, <BR> <BR> Well, I have to say a big thank you to those who read my blog last week about the amount of junk food I somehow managed to eat in one day! It wasn't pretty but a lot of you told me I was brave for being so honest. <BR> <BR> So, for those who don't know what garlic fingers are. I'm not really sure because I only eat them while at a certain pizza place but I think (you know this is not going to end well when I don't even know the ingredients!) it's cheese, real bacon and garlic... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 08:05:56 EST Mastering the Basics - Day 2 (Ashamed of what I ate yesterday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561916 Wow! Thanks for all of your wonderful support. Yes, I know I NEED to eat breakfast and I'm glad so many of you care about me enough to tell me so.......well, if you thought that was bad just wait until I tell you what I ate yesterday......... <BR> <BR> WARNING - it's not for the faint of heart and it certainly wasn't one of my finest moments but since I'm being honest here goes................ <BR> <BR> McDonald's coffee <BR> McDonald's fruit and fibre muffin <BR> <BR> Garlic fingers <BR> ... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 08:15:18 EST Mastering the Basics - Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561116 Hi, <BR> <BR> Today, I am going to write down everything what I eat on my iPhone. That way, I avoid wondering what paper to use, what pen to use, how to write it down, if my writing is nice, etc. Anybody else relate to this? I often make the task worse by over-thinking! So today, I am just going to write it (err, type) down. No measurements, no trying to be good, no thought.....just a completely honest record of what goes in my mouth. <BR> <BR> In case you are wondering - today it has only ... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 08:31:50 EST Oops - me and my big "mouth" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560427 Hi, <BR> <BR> Well, I've gone and done it now! Apparently in a complete moment of insanity I have started a Spark Team! What's even scarier is that some of you have actually encouraged me by joining! What did I ever do for you guys to do this to me?!? <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Okay, so I have accepted the fact I can't exactly bow out (either gracefully or otherwise) so I guess I have a formed a Spark Team and have to be accountable. Maybe that's not such a bad thing, after all? <BR> <BR> Wha... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 10:48:13 EST Take a long hard look at myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555028 Hi, <BR> <BR> So, I went clothes shopping a few days ago with a close friend with the aim of finding something I could wear to my employer's Christmas social. Four months ago I had planned on being very close to 200 pounds right about now but no, I'm right around 220. AND, everything I tried on with impossible. Either it was too big, too small, too see-through, too- casual, too-sparkly, etc. I had a top bought but my friend vetoed it by saying I needed some colour (it was a sheer ivory top w... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 12:03:55 EST Random Pictures - I bet you will laugh! xo Susan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550495 Hi, <BR> <BR> One of my dear SparkFriends (JAXMOMMY) mentioned in one of her blogs that she was feeling depressed and wondered if it had anything to do with her empathy to others feeling the same way. I know exactly what she meant and so I've decided to post a blog full of pictures that I'm sure will have you smiling and/or laughing. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1188735020.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l649375685.jpg"> <... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 07:54:25 EST The sun is shining! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549807 Hi, <BR> <BR> I'm feeling much better than I have been over the past week or so <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> to all of you who reached out and responded to my blogs about depression and the stigma often attached. It is very inspiring to know that I actually motivate some people. <BR> <BR> Saturday, I was really in a low spot. I was so uptight that it actually hurt to take a deep breath so in desperation I grabbed a scrap of paper and wrote down the things I thought were bothe... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 10:02:04 EST No longer keeping silent! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547484 Hi, <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> to all of you who responded to my blog about "what depression looks like". I think I lead some of you astray into thinking I am currently horribly depressed. Thankfully, that isn't the case. I wrote that blog because several of you have bravely stepped forward and admitted you've been suffering in silence. By keeping silent we are perpetrating the myth that depression (and other forms of mental illness) shouldn't be talked about. When we fully accept depression... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 07:51:39 EST What depression looks like - pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544447 Hi, <BR> <BR> Chances are if you are reading this right now you are either a very faithful SparkFriend or you are depressed, know somebody who is or you are curious to know what depression looks like. <BR> <BR> We often read what depression feels like. Here are just a few of my favourite images of depression as a whole. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l512173388.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l547696586.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <im... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 15:16:02 EST When a scratch becomes more than just a scratch. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541199 Hi, <BR> <BR> Since we were both off on Monday for Remembrance Day, John took the dogs for their daily afternoon walk in the woods. It seems somebody had put out fox traps and baited them with moose rib bones. Oh course, these were discovered by Louisa so John had to reach down and gently extract the bones from her mouth. Somehow, he received a small scratch on one of his knuckles. Nothing serious, no blood and he didn't give it a second thought. <BR> <BR> Later on that night he said he fel... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 15:19:14 EST