PBAILEY06's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PBAILEY06 PBAILEY06's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I needed a pick me up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834542 Work has not been fun this week. I chaired a meeting yesterday that was supposed to go really well as I had good news for people and it didn't go well at all. Then I walked in and had someone chew me out this morning because she feels I've been stepping on toes when it comes to the groups we both communicate with. <BR> <BR> So on lunch I needed some internet destressing. Found hopeforpaws.org. They post videos of their rescues with before and after shots. If you are an animal lover, c... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 17:18:34 EST Having a hard time lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833878 I've been hurting again. I think I angered my SI joint last week and it was more inflamed than usual. I've been having trouble sleeping because of the pain. I did take some of my major pain killers, but they just treat the pain, not the inflammation. I've been resting it and need to work on using ice/heat to see if I can't get it under control. I've also been taking my muscle relaxants to deal with the spasms, but those increase my hunger. <BR> <BR> Today is a coffee day. As I'm gettin... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 11:37:46 EST Getting a grill for christmas :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830830 My MIL is getting me a grill for Christmas. I've been wanting one for years, but my husband kept putting it off because he couldn't decide what type he wanted. I just wanted a traditional charcoal grill, didn't need to be anything fancy. And I am finally getting one. <BR> <BR> I live in the south, so I'll be able to use it 9-10 months out of the year, although I'm sure I'll use it mostly in the Spring/Summer when it is lighter out later. By the time I get home now, its dark. But if I pr... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 11:29:03 EST Slipped a bit, but pushing back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829808 Thanksgiving really did me in, I stopped tracking and stopped exercising. I only gained back 1.5 lbs, so I know I can get back on track. But its frustrating to go through this again. I know I'm making progress but sometimes it does feel like two steps forward, one step back. <BR> <BR> Over thanksgiving holiday, I started baking again. I forgot how much I enjoyed it. So I'm trying to take some of my recipes and make them healthier, even if it means using wheat flour instead of white. ... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 17:08:05 EST Noticing small habits sticking :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826401 Sometimes I'll only pack a protein for lunch and go to the cafeteria to buy veggies to round it out. This used to be a struggle as I would look at the French fries and hear them calling my name. <BR> <BR> It felt really good to be in the check out line today with my mixed veggies and greens, and realize that French fries didn't even pop into my mind. <BR> <BR> Its nice to notice when small changes have become habit and that I don't really have to think about them anymore. Tue, 2 Dec 2014 12:20:50 EST Inbetween challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820186 5% Fall Challenge is over. I was so close. I lost 4.6%. But I'm not complaining, I'm happy to be losing, especially since not sticking with my program for the Summer. <BR> <BR> So now waiting for Winter Challenge. I'm keeping my plan about the same, so I should be able to continue to lose weight between challenges. Of course, having the holiday right there doesn't help. I'm not too worried about foods, but am really worried about exercise. I am off starting tomorrow and all the way th... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 15:00:22 EST Was wrong on challenge end-date http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814309 woo hoo, I thought the 5% Fall challenge ended this past weekend, but it doesn't end until next weekend. So I have another week to reach for my goal. I've been bouncing around in the 190s, I just really want to get into the 180s. <BR> <BR> The weekend was rough, they always are. That is when I try to catch up on everything, so I don't have time for exercise, although I am active with cleaning and errands. We went out to a Chinese buffet one night, but I like this one because they do ha... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 14:44:02 EST Lapse, accountability and moving on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809996 I lapsed. Because I lapsed, I will likely not meet my goal weight loss for Nov. 8th. But I am holding myself accountable and looking at why I lapsed. Mostly, it was due to stress. That is still my main trigger that sets me back. But that is an improvement, it used to be stress, anger, sadness, happiness, joint pain, being bored, etc. . . <BR> <BR> So I got out and walked this morning and did some thinking. Just because I may not meet my goal, doesn't mean I can't push through this wee... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 12:31:30 EST Final week push http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808142 I'm not expecting a weight loss for my weigh in tomorrow. In fact, based on my week, I wouldn't be surprised to be a bit up. <BR> <BR> Fall challenge ends on Nov. 8th. So next week will be my final push. I WILL stay within my calorie goal and exercise goals. <BR> <BR> Looking at the past week or week and a half . . . stress and temptation got to me. Both are triggers I'm working on. With stress, my husband and I have agreed that Tuesdays are my night for me. It is the one night a we... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 12:21:23 EST Stressed for time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807488 So I know I recently posted on another blog about this same issue, saying I'm hopeful it will all come together. But I need to vent. <BR> <BR> I can't find the time to do everything. I'm lucky, my work is structured so that I can do some strength training during my lunch hour. I avoid cardio since I don't have access to a shower, but I can do some videos. But home is driving me crazy. By the time I get home, cook dinner, eat, help my son with his homework, get him ready for bed and then... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 10:32:11 EST New pants today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805935 Since my son and I were both feeling better, and home from work/school, I finally got to my goodwill shop. I have two pairs of pants that needed to be replaced, and I love shopping at my goodwill because I'm still on my weight loss journey, so don't want to spend a ton on clothing. When I went down my first size, I donated all my too big clothes to them. <BR> <BR> Ended up buying the same pant size (12). I was hoping to have moved to a 10, but I knew the 12s I was wearing were a little wo... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 20:24:40 EST Feeling better today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802135 Today is a better day. I still had a crazy morning but I'm wearing an outfit that looks much better on me since I've lost the weight. So that is a pick me up. And it is a beautiful fall day outside, so it will be a great day for taking a walk. My walks are partially for exercise, but also a huge stress relief for me. It gives me a chance to think about where I am, what I am doing and where I want to be. A lot of times I come back from my walk and answer e-mails that I had thought about.... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 12:24:18 EST I gotta keep pushing through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801512 I'm struggling. All the positive signs are there, my clothes fit better, I'm sleeping better, my joints are starting to feel better. <BR> <BR> But I'm tired. This is a very busy time for my husband, he is a professor and also a musician, so he is out of the house most evenings and weekends. So I find it difficult to take care of everything myself. We don't live near family, so no help on that front. <BR> <BR> My son is doing well in school, but he resists reading/phonics. He doesn't fe... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 12:31:03 EST Slipping a little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798038 I didn't stay within my calorie goal this past weekend. Mostly it was stress. My mother-in-law was here and that is never a good time. I did do cardio most days, so I didn't completely fall off the wagon. Yesterday was the exception but I wasn't feeling well, so took a day off. <BR> <BR> But I'm back on board this morning. I didn't go so far out of my goals as to cause a lot of problems, and I tracked everything, so I know where I stand. Today is pretty cold outside, and I didn't bring... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 11:36:35 EST Hanging in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793400 This weekend was another off weekend because I had tons of stuff to do and didn't plan time for exercise. However, I was still active. Friday my son's class went to the pumpkin patch, so there was a lot of walking going on. Saturday and Sunday I did a ton of serious cleaning. My mother-in-law is coming this week; we have the stereotypical passive-aggressive relationship. So while my house will never be clean enough for her, the cleaner I can get it, the less snide comments I'll have to h... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 12:20:08 EST October http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790343 Still feeling good and maintaining my motivation. There are a lot of factors with this. First, I'm hurting less. I think I finally hit that point where the physical therapy is making a difference. Also, I'm determined to follow through on my commitment to the Tiger Monarchs for the 5% Fall challenge. Life got in the way for the summer challenge, so I really want to keep everything going for myself and my team this challenge. Third, I joined Spark Coach. Honestly I wasn't sure about it ... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 10:48:31 EST Sticking with it and adding AM yoga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786059 I've been working hard on keeping my motivation up and not letting daily stress throw me off course. I know its only been a week and a half since I recommitted myself to being healthy, but I feel better about it this time around. I've made some changes to help me. I have my goals posted at work as well as using the goal board on Spark. I've also been tracking my streaks for logging in, tracking foods, walking, strength training and my PT. Its helped me see I can do it. <BR> <BR> I've ju... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 10:37:48 EST SMART goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784673 I started my Spark Coach trial session last week and decided to extend it today. The video topic today was on SMART goals. So I went through my personal goal list and added dates, which I didn't have before. I used the 5% challenge weight loss/time frame as a planning guide and plotted out how long it will be to meet each step in my weight loss journey to my ultimate goal of having a BMI less than 25. In some ways it was intimidating due to the time frames, but in other ways it felt good... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 10:33:18 EST Gardening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783672 Whew. Got two of my raised beds and one flower bed cleaned out today and ready for Fall planting. I have one other raised bed to get to, but the tomato plants there are still producing, so I'll wait on it. That one has a cover, so I will use it for winter planting. I'm not positive if I'm going to use one bed or two for fall planting. I need to do some planning. <BR> <BR> I'm exhausted. When I was first getting ready to do this, I didn't think I would count it as exercise, but let me... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 19:41:47 EST Reflecting back, its been a good week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782948 On Monday I gave myself another kick in the tukus about getting back on track. So far my motivation is good, but it usually is the first week. The weekend is usually a different story, but I think I've built a good foundation during the week that I can take on the weekend. <BR> <BR> I've been walking every day, doing videos for strength training and getting back in the habit of doing my physical therapy at night. Yesterday I had a flare up of my back pain, so did walk but skipped the stre... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 11:56:29 EST Health Insurance Health Pledge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781780 My health insurance is through my husband's company. The new thing they are doing is giving a gift card incentive to have a biometric screening, and then do an online assessment. When the assessment is over, it asks you to take a pledge to take ownership of your health, including logging your exercise on their website, completing an online wellness course and having at least one telephone discussion with a Disease Management coach. I know its just a gift card now but think its likely it wi... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 16:34:48 EST This has to be a wake up call http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772623 So I was very sick last night, food poisoning. Warning to all, reheat those leftovers fully! <BR> <BR> So there I am, sick as can be, and I catch a good look at myself in the mirror. The pale drained complexion did nothing for me, and I just stood there and looked at myself. I've heard other people talk about being honest with yourself in front of the mirror, but I never did that. Wow, I did not like what I saw. <BR> <BR> I dress well for my body and use different clothes to "hide" my... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 12:25:55 EST Back on the horse, wagon, whatever it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766765 Got off track again. Why? The usual. Busy, stress, easier to grab something unhealthy. All the usual reasons. <BR> <BR> So what am I going to do different this time? Well, there are some things I've changed and I'm sticking with, such a menu planning and having healthy breakfasts. I haven't been so good about moving, but I did start some of the sparkpeople videos for sitting exercises. That way I won't anger my SI joint, I hope. <BR> <BR> Tonight is grocery shopping night and I need... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 13:54:07 EST Crazy day on Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763647 So I'm driving to work on Tuesday, and as I go along an overpass connecting two very busy highways, I do a doubletake. "Did I really see a kitten there?" So I drive on and think about it. Is there someone I can call? I don't know the local non-emergency number for the police and I don't know animal control's number. The radio is on and the weather report said that with the heat index its going to be over 100 degrees. <BR> <BR> So I pull off and circle back around. Yes, I do see a kitte... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 14:45:41 EST Weight not down, but other signs good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762145 So I am disappointed, I did not meet my goal of 5% weight loss for the summer challenge. But, I am seeing other positive signs and making healthy changes: <BR> <BR> I am continuing to meal plan and cook healthy foods. This has helped me stay away from processed foods and try new things. <BR> <BR> My pants are fitting better, which makes me feel better. I also think I am sleeping better. No signs of more energy yet but that may improve as I'm able to add in more exercise. Unfortunatel... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 12:52:26 EST Those evil oreos! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760194 I have these in my house because they are my son's favorites right now and he gets them as a treat. Usually I'm good about staying away from them because I don't really like them all that much. But for some reason last night and the night before they called to me and I didn't resist. <BR> <BR> I was tired and craving something sweet, and I didn't have anything else to reach for. So I'm going to make sure I pick up some sweet but healthy snacks for me this weekend. <BR> <BR> I'm glad it... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 10:14:36 EST So far so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758858 Okay, I know I'm in my "honeymoon period" of my plan, that start time where you are highly motivated and sticking with the plan no matter what. But really, I'm feeling good about the changes I'm making. <BR> <BR> Am I doing everything 100%? No. Time management at home is difficult for me. By the time I get home, I have to start dinner immediately, then there is eating, clean up, homework/bath for my son, getting him to bed, then working on getting everything ready for the next morning. ... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 10:13:39 EST Being Effective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757559 So last week I took a class at work called "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People." At the end we had to say what step we were going to start with. I said I was going to start with prioritizing, but that isn't the full story. <BR> <BR> Step 1 is being proactive, taking responsibility for my actions. That is where I really need to start. Yes, there are factors outside of my control, but there are many things I can either control or influence that I need to work on. For example, I hate ... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 12:34:50 EST I hate insurance companies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754500 So out of the blue, my insurance company decided they want to do a full case assessment to see if I need another SI joint injection, which means I could get it done, but there is a chance they won't cover it. So I cancelled it. I'm still going to take the time off work. I'm also going to meet with the doctor to discuss options, including better pain management. As soon as I cancelled the procedure, I did go back on my antiinflammatories. So I am feeling better today. My big meds were ca... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 15:27:16 EST Endless circle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752825 I feel like I'm in an endless circle. I start doing better, then the pain comes back and I go back to my bad habits. I should have listed that as a trigger when I first started the summer challenge. <BR> <BR> I'm disappointed that I won't be successful with the summer 5% challenge. I have to say, the support I received from the team was amazing. I feel like I let them down and myself. <BR> <BR> Even though it doesn't show in my weight, I have started some really good habits this summer.... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 10:16:48 EST Can't seem to get moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750402 2 of the medicines I'm on right now cause fatigue. I don't want to do anything but sleep, but I have to work, so I sit at my desk and power through. However, I notice I'm snacking more this week. I stepped on the scale and weight was up. I'm hoping it is more due to sodium, when I feel like this I crave salty snacks. I've been sticking with sunflower seeds, but they add up calorie and salt wise. <BR> <BR> Movement also is difficult because there seems to be a small line between slight p... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 13:16:05 EST Scheduled an apt. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748159 I really didn't want to, but I scheduled an appointment for another SI Joint injection. The last time, I started having some pain again within 2 weeks. But I need to go through this again before we can start looking at other options. My plan this time is to push the physical therapy as far as I am allowed to see if I can avoid further injections. <BR> <BR> I'm frustrated and tired of being in pain. Sometimes I feel its just the way it is, and nothing will ever get rid of the pain. But a... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 10:49:18 EST doing a little better today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745122 No back spasms, just a little pain left over. I didn't do a lot of walking around work today, but when I did I took the stairs and no elevators. I'm a little worried about my weigh in this weekend. I gave into some temptation while flat on my back this past weekend. <BR> <BR> Monday night my son and I did some shopping and picked up a new bed for the dog. And yes, the big chicken can't figure out it is hers and won't eat her. So she sleeps next to it instead of on it. No the sharpest k... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 16:57:01 EST Starting back slowly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744337 Been gone for the past few days, my back started spasming on Thursday, so I was pretty much out of commission for the weekend. Today I started walking a little, only 15 minutes but its a start. I'm worried this is a sign that I will have to have another SI Joint Injection. The annoying thing is I have to take off work for two days and be sedated for the injection. And last time it only helped for about 10 days before the pain started again. But I need to have at least three before my ort... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 15:33:29 EST Feeling optomistic today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738718 I had a good weekend. Today is a little stressful at work, but nothing too crazy. My weight isn't coming off as much as I would like, but I'm okay with it right now. <BR> <BR> I was frustrated. When I first joined spark I lost 20#s pretty quickly. This time around it is going a lot slower. But, that first time I was really strict: I ate 1500 calories (not 1510, not 1490: 1500). And looking back, it wasn't sustainable for me, as evidenced by gaining it all back. <BR> <BR> This time I... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 14:45:38 EST two year spark anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735385 So its been two years since I joined spark. <BR> <BR> Although I did not achieve all my goals, I am healthier now than I was then. <BR> <BR> My weight is a little lower. <BR> I very rarely drink diet soda, water is my standard drink now. <BR> I became more active, then slowed with my injury but am improving once again. <BR> I make a lot better choices with foods. <BR> I've gotten back into gardening. <BR> I have a much better support group now with my spark friends. <BR> <BR> Looking bac... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 13:50:53 EST Zombie mode today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735250 So my back started acting up yesterday, and I ended up having to take a muscle relaxant for spasms. I only took part of one because they hit me hard, but I'm still in zombie mode today. Good thing is that zombies can still walk, or shuffle. <BR> <BR> Tonight is my night to do the exercise bike again. We have a recumbent bike in hopes that it will give me more support for my back. But honestly, with the way I feel, I don't know if I'll get on it. I'll make sure I do my walking so I get m... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 10:27:48 EST And up and down again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733917 It was a bit of a crazy week and weekend. I visited my sister and her family. it is a very different dynamic than mine, so didn't make the best choices diet-wise. The good thing is they don't have a fenced in back yard, so many dog walks. Unfortunately I can't record my steps because I forgot my fitbit there. Oh well, I'll just have to make sure I keep track of my minutes. <BR> <BR> My weight is up again, which I'm not totally surprised about considering the weekend. However, it is up ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 15:20:41 EST Feeling good today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727113 So last night was my cooking night. I cook every night, but one night a week I get to do a more complicated meal. I tried to make Saag Paneer last night (Indian spinach and cheese dish) but my paneer didn't turn out. So I used chicken and it was really tasty. <BR> <BR> Today is Friday <em>30</em> Tomorrow is my son's birthday party, so we are having fun planning for that. The weather isn't great but I can go over and walk in the hospital. <BR> <BR> I'm actually looking forward to my ... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 12:06:12 EST Better prepared today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725600 Today we are having a birthday party at work. Every month my department gets cake to celebrate everyone who is having a birthday that month. <BR> <BR> I planned a small piece into my plan today, so I know I can have it. Plus I am having a nice salad before the party to help fill me up and resist the temptation to go back for more. <BR> <BR> I'm a little behind on my steps today. I usually do a 15 minute morning walk but we had a great thing at work today. A local television station here... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 11:59:02 EST Ugh, I just overate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724910 And one of my weaknesses: free food. So did I avoid the free food and eat the measured out lunch I brought with me to work? No, I ate the free pizza, and I ate too much. <BR> <BR> Did this put me over my calories for the day? No, but I will have to change my dinner plans for something lower calorie to make up for it. <BR> <BR> I'm just annoyed with myself. I know free food in one of my weaknesses, and today I couldn't resist. But on the plus side, I didn't go back for seconds. Also,... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 13:22:07 EST 5% summer challenge helped this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724022 I was worried about the challenge starting on the weekend, I'm not good about tracking and paying attention on the weekends, my family takes too much of my attention. <BR> <BR> But knowing I had to meet my goals for my team really helped a lot. I made sure I drank my water, tracked my food and got my exercise in. Granted, my poor dog was confused that our exercise walks took place at night, after my son was in bed, but I got the time and steps in. Besides, with the summer heat here in the... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 10:37:02 EST 5% summer challenge: Triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721314 My biggest trigger foods are cheese and free food. <BR> <BR> I love cheese, I could eat it with every meal and every snack. I deal with this by only purchasing pre-sliced or shredded cheese so I can add it to foods but am less likely to eat it plain. If I purchase a block of cheese, I can sit there and slice off pieces and eat the whole thing in one night. My mom used to do this too, so its a comfort thing. <BR> <BR> If there is free food, I want to eat it. I think this comes from times... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 10:42:36 EST 5% summer challenge: Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721303 Part of the 5% summer challenge is to post my motivation so I can come back and look at it again as a reminder. Putting it down in a post makes it more solid. <BR> <BR> Motivation is a hard one for me because it changes, waxes and wanes. <BR> <BR> I started this journey about 6 months after my friend died, leaving behind her husband and young children. I want to live to see my son grow up. At that time, I also started a new position at work, so it was a positive time to make changes. <BR... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 10:33:20 EST Not letting stress get me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716452 Had a stressful meeting at work yesterday, which made me want something sweet and chocolate. Had some water, went for a quick walk and got busy to where I forgot about the craving. <BR> <BR> Messed up on my flex spending reimbursement account. I submitted items that were inappropriate and although I notified them, they were paid. Now I have to refund them $2800. Definitely a stressor. Instead of going crazy, I had my planned morning snack and came on spark to do some reading until I cal... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 11:23:56 EST Had fun last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715718 So I cooked my vegetable korma and roti bread last night. It was nice to do some cooking again. It came out pretty good. I've noticed my flavors are never as sharp as when we get Indian food in a restaurant but maybe that will come with experience. <BR> <BR> But, all that cooking time took away from my steps. I ended up walking the dog after 9 pm. At first my son came with me, but he decided it was too dark and scary. So I took him back but continued my own walk. We scared some deer... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 11:33:40 EST 23000 steps?? & cooking tonight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714952 I received a friend request on fitbit, this new friend averages 23000 steps per day!! <BR> <BR> When pedometers first starting becoming popular, I was on a site for tracking and the top trackers there always got 20000+ steps per day. Turns out they lived in New Zealand where everyone walked everywhere. So maybe this person lives like that too. I haven't had a chance to look at their fitbit profile yet. <BR> <BR> I think they will be good motivation, if they can do it, eventually I can ... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 11:54:17 EST gained it all back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711990 I know why, I know what to do, I know all the excuses I let myself get away with. <BR> <BR> today my husband and I weighed ourselves. He was a lot happier with his weight than I was with mine. But he still wasn't jumping for joy. We have both been allowing ourselves to slip into bad habits. <BR> <BR> I joined sparkpeople just under two years ago. My close friend had died that year leaving behind her husband and young children. My mother died when she was only 50. I want to be around a... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 10:02:15 EST Having trouble staying steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698334 I'm doing ups and downs with my foods and activity. I'll do well for a few days, and then find an excuse (I'm tired, its raining etc) to ignore my good habits. The end result is I'm not losing weight, but I'm not gaining either. <BR> <BR> I've been stressed, which is one of my biggest challenges. I even realized yesterday that I ran out of one of my medications and forgot to refill it. I think it was only a few days, but I can't be sure. Thankfully it isn't one that can have nasty side ... Mon, 19 May 2014 10:46:36 EST Last night was a binge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694782 I had a lousy day at work and went for the mexican food I was craving. Did I do the better choice of the chicken with no cheese or heavy sauce? No! I went all out: chips, cheese dip, polanos and rice and beans. I've been craving mexican for a while and let my bad day at work be my excuse. <BR> <BR> Good points: <BR> 1. I only ate 1/2 my entree. <BR> 2. I logged everything instead of ignoring it. <BR> 3. I overate one day. Not every day. <BR> 4. We did take out, so no excuse for ge... Wed, 14 May 2014 09:56:57 EST