PATTYR81's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PATTYR81 PATTYR81's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ NSVs Galore and it's only 8 a.m.!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733771 Some bad life drama is going on around me, but I am focusing on my positives. <em>224</em> Enough time to whine and vent blog later! <BR> <BR> Today I've had at least 4 NSVs (non scale victories) and it's only 8 a.m.!!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> So it's Monday and I pop awake at 4:45 a.m. thinking DH is gonna be late to work. <em>18</em> He is EXTREMELY punctual about work and commitments. If he isn't 30 min before start time, he considers himself late. Then he is a GRUMPY BEAR the w... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:40:28 EST Teeny But Effective Motivation (Pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730516 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2147125759.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wearing dd#2's college softball work out clothes (and her hand-me-down-team-trainer shoes) for my morning walk! <BR> <BR> Haven't walked in MONTHS!, so am proud today is Day 2. Yesterday, walked lap around park (20 min) and jogged 100 steps. Today same route, but jogged 175 steps!!! <BR> <BR> Makes my MIND feel like a 20 yr old athlete, even tho my body is WAYYYYYY lagging in this department!! <em>334</em> <... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:15:30 EST Random Victories - 1H 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726296 At work this is the time of year where we have to self evaluate and write our accomplishments for the 1st half of the year. It is always a tough thing for me to do. <em>100</em> Why? Because I'm NEVER perfect!!! <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> In the spirit of 'continuous improvement', I've decided to try to make it fun by brainstorming all my activities and finding the 'good' in each one. I'm also doing it for my personal accomplishments. It's really HARD not to criticize myself for not doi... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 10:52:14 EST Food Reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720593 It's a blog 2-fer today! <BR> <BR> Wanted to separate my <em>104</em> <em>224</em> stuff from my <em>2</em> <em>29</em> <em>28</em> <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday's food plan was going well, but somehow my brain got overconfident and 'forgot' what happens when I overeat and when I eat sugar! <em>230</em> <em>227</em> <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> In the afternoon talking with DH and dd's, I mindlessly shoveled in cashew nuts (haven't been eating nuts for a week or ... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 11:21:42 EST Horse Riding! (pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720557 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1392764450.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> REALLY???? <BR> <BR> ME???? <BR> <BR> AFTER 20 YEARS???? <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> At my ~300 lb self, I was always afraid I would hurt the horse. <em>24</em> I wouldn't even ride in horse drawn carriages pulled by draft horses! <BR> <BR> Another NSV (non scale victory) and goal met! <em>104</em> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> Wed, 18 Jun 2014 10:38:22 EST 5 Day Pouch Test - So What Did I Learn??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717791 Key Learnings for me: <BR> <BR> - I wasn't starvingly, uncomfortably hungry <BR> <BR> - I didn't have to be 'perfect' on the plan for it to work (I was 90%) It wasn't an 'all or nothing' experience. <BR> <BR> - My pouch still 'works'. I didn't 'break it'. (which I feared) <BR> <BR> - I didn't realize how often I was eating junk carbs and how much at a time I was scarfing <BR> <BR> - Eating 'just one' or 'just one bite' of junk carbs sets me off on that slippery slope to constant grazing... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 11:17:58 EST Victories: Both NSV and Scale - YAY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716406 Today is day 4 of my 5 day pouch test. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to report that yesterday my energy was up and I actually got out and walked 30 min! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Followed the plan for the most part. However, being out & about shopping and softball practice (YAY activity instead of couch potato!) led to ff meals for lunch & dinner <em>230</em> <BR> <BR> 90% of my choices were ok (lunch: 3/4 small cheeseburger patty; dinner: 1/3 small cheeseburger patty). The other 10% was tha... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 10:26:16 EST Shopping!!! (Pic) and Long Lost (Deliberately Hidden) 'Before WLS' pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715780 I bought a new bathing suit!!!! AND for the first time since my honeymoon, I'm not embarrassed (ok a little) to be photographed in it! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1890472715.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Was browsing thru my gallery....Yikes! I didn't realize how big I was! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l244950360.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Who else has new pics to share???? <BR> <BR> Happy Day! <BR> <BR> <em>437<... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 12:44:13 EST 5 Day Pouch Test http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715720 Lately I've been struggling with binging, eating more and more junk carbs (often to the point where tummy rebels <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Scale was up 8 lbs from my lowest weight <em>24</em> <em>24</em> <em>24</em> and steadily creeping up, up, up .... <BR> <BR> So I scoured the boards for ideas. Chose to try the 5 day pouch test. <BR> <BR> Below is an excerpt from CLYNNTHOMAS' 3-27-14 blog that gives a nice overview: <BR> <BR> "For those of you not familiar with the 5DPT - it... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 11:34:07 EST Feeling A Bit Slapped Around Today :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711298 I was feeling pretty good after I wrote about my Yappers - got some of them corralled, handled and out of my life (for the moment) <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Some of them included: <BR> <BR> -Sending graduation card (and check) to my dc's (dear cousin) daughter. <em>242</em> Soooo proud of her!!! <BR> -Sending sympathy cards to dh's stepmother who lost her son and to family of dh's life-long neighbor and mother-figure. <BR> -Paying bills <em>224</em> <BR> -Misc house cleaning tasks <BR>... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 12:08:23 EST Surrounded by Yapping Chihuauas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708945 It seems like every time I take some time out for 'Me Time', the number of my 'Yapping Chihuauas' (To - Do Items) increases dramatically and their yapping decibel intensity goes up 10-fold. <em>530</em> <BR> <BR> This past week was SOOO action packed, that I didn't know where to turn or which yapper to beat down first. So what did I do??? Several times I opted out and hid from them, hunkered down in my room web-surfing on work and personal sites. Not getting anything meaningful done - ju... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 13:01:36 EST Slug vs. Hamster - Animal Alter-Egos Are Battling.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705154 Spent the weekend spectating at dd#3 softball tournament. <em>60</em> <em>132</em> (I realize this is a tennis ball icon, but I like the color so I pretend it's a softball! :) <BR> <BR> DD#2 is home from college for the summer <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> DD#1 will be moving home from college in July. She's graduating with her 2nd Bachelors degree and has been accepted into 1 of 2 Master's programs (will hear from the other one in June) Anyway, both schools are excellent and HERE, so whi... Wed, 28 May 2014 11:06:11 EST Non-Eventful Friday - Just The Way I Like It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702048 Fridays are a 'mixed bag' of stuff for me. <em>36</em> <BR> <BR> It's the end of the work week and usually a very easy day with a lot of co-workers taking off <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Sometimes, I'm one of them! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> It's also the day my house is TRASHED and laundry PILED UP despite my best daily effort to tame that beast. <em>542</em> <em>530</em> <BR> <BR> Most weeks, it's also 'therapy day' where I and my ever-understanding and patient therapist rip off... Sat, 24 May 2014 10:42:11 EST Slid Down a Smallish Chute http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701445 Yesterday no ladder climbing - instead hit a chute and started sliding..... <BR> <BR> <BR> I am a numbers person. I like numbers. They give definite information. Definite information puts my mind 'at ease'. <BR> <BR> <em>207</em> <BR> <BR> My trouble is, I tend to go overboard (!) about numbers and measurements sometimes <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> These days I've managed to avoid obsessing about scale numbers. But when I started playing with Tracker, my 'numbers fascination' (comp... Fri, 23 May 2014 11:44:22 EST Toddling Up Those Ladders! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700653 Sometimes I'm amazed just how much baby steps add up and lead to toddling steps! <em>183</em> <BR> <BR> As I reviewed yesterday in my mind, I got a clear vision of the game 'Chutes and Ladders'. Thankfully, it was a ladder climbing day <em>224</em> No looooong ladders, tho, just those little step ladder size ones. <BR> <BR> After I blogged about what I've been eating, I trolled around SP and landed on the food tracker. Hmmm. Decided to play around with it and enter what I had for... Thu, 22 May 2014 10:06:20 EST Doing Something Different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700039 Yesterday went better eating-wise. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I guess there IS something to the strategy of planning defined snacks and meals rather than grazing, nibbling and relying on my tummy to tell me if it's hungry or not. What A Concept! <em>58</em> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Followed my eating plan for the day and went upstairs after dinner instead of hanging around the family room/kitchen area. Was feeling pretty good about the day when dh got home ~ 9 pm. Dang! He wanted me t... Wed, 21 May 2014 13:20:43 EST Better, But Still Stumbling and Bumbling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699206 Yesterday was a better day food-wise. No junk! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I was SOOOO tired (food hang over?) so I decided to have a quick nap <em>102</em> . 'Quick' extended to 2 hours! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Was good about having my vitamins, calcium and protein drink <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Soothed myself in the evening sipping HOT decaf, sf tea <em>106</em> <BR> <BR> Fell off the wagon (actually I should say 'into the bag') at 9 pm when I spied dh's beef jerky in the truck. ... Tue, 20 May 2014 12:30:13 EST Grief-work, Binge Eating and Getting Back On Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698420 I've been pretty 'silent' on SP for the past few months. Lurking, reading, with occasional comments. No real posts. Why???? I've been actively avoiding thinking about 'stuff' and keeping myself skimming thru life being busy, busy, busy so I don;t HAVE to think. <BR> <BR> I've been doing some heavy-lifting work with my trusty therapist and finally faced the fact that I have to do the work to get thru this 'stuff'. No one is gonna do it and hand me a clean silver platter. My first step i... Mon, 19 May 2014 12:04:34 EST Unstuck - Backstory and Forging Ahead! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667375 I ran out of time yesterday and didn't get to blog WHY my tax experience this year was such a hurdle. It's been WAYYYYYY bigger and more complicated than just the run of the mill IRS dread. <BR> <BR> Getting my taxes out of my life released a HUGE boulder <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> The weight of that task looming above me had me just like a deer in the headlights <em>40</em> Plus when I FINALLY made it to the tax place appt., there was a guy waiting that SOOOOO reminded me of my dad. Ev... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 12:23:09 EST Finally Unstuck! Taxes Done! YAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666687 I don't know many people that think doing their taxes is fun. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> I certainly don't. For me, it's right up there with my annual & semi annual dr & dentist appts! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I go to a professional tax prep company. For 20 years, we sent our taxes to a CPA friend. Then he retired. So stubborn me decided I could do it myself. <em>58</em> Ya I did get it done using a the same professional company online tool--- took MONTHS, stress, frustration and yes,... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 16:26:14 EST 'Blog-Worthy' Writing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664169 I've noticed that I've felt my only 'blog-worthy' writing is when I'm feeling upbeat and positive. Yes, writing upbeat blogs is a good thing. <em>224</em> I guess it's due to my upbringing where it was expected to be positive, optimistic and not dwell (or most times even think about or consider) on any 'bad' stuff. <BR> <BR> But what do I do when I'm feeling 'less than upbeat'??? I read blogs of people writing about their struggles and relate. <em>40</em> And most times, offer encourag... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 10:01:57 EST Stumbled But Not Down For The Count! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652110 Today I'm off on another trip to see dd#2 play college softball. I'm flying out on the early plane. Missed her game on ESPN yesterday <em>18</em> DRAT! dd#1 is also flying in to meet us and we'll have a big girl's weekend <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I'm SO EXCITED, yet overwhelmed. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I've got TONS of work to do both for my job and at home. I always like to get everything 'tidy' before I go away. Not gonna happen this time. <em>2</em> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 06:23:08 EST My Caffeine Paradox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650631 It's no secret that I LOVE coffee!!! HOT skinny mochas and vanilla lattes make my mouth Happy, Happy, HAPPY! ! <em>106</em> <em>106</em> <em>106</em> <BR> <BR> My issue here is figuring out the 'right' amount of caffeine to include in my life these days. To some people, it may seem like such a small and trivial item in the grand scheme of things, but to me, it's KEY to getting and staying in a 'stable' place mentally. When I'm in that happy spot, my physical struggles lessen. <e... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 09:51:58 EST Just Get Started! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649850 I'm still struggling with eating and weight gain. <em>29</em> <BR> <BR> Saturday was 'good' day, eating to plan, shopped and got 2 pairs of denim capri pants at Walmart (Lee Rider Slender Fit size 12) They fit PERFECTLY. I'm still trying to get my head around 'Slender Fit'??? ME????! <em>40</em> It's probably all clever marketing :) <BR> My mind still thinks 'Chubby' and my hand always starts at the 2x rack even tho I wear a medium now. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Sat nite went to dd#... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 11:00:53 EST Mouth Wants vs. Brain Logic = YIKES! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646817 My mind is a peculiar thing sometimes. Ok, well, most times <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> In the food/drink/activity arena, it attempts to apply the same logic to different situations and get the same result. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Or more often, it distorts said logic to fit the wants of my mouth and emotional brain. <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> I am struggling with a 6-8 lb weight gain that is threatening to keep trending up. <BR> <BR> For months I was hovering between 184 and 187. When I... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 09:29:33 EST Creeping Weight Gain Finally Got My Attention! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645272 About a month ago, my weight was at an all time low of 184. That's 112 lbs from my hw of 296 <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I was feeling pretty good about my routines and actually had fleeting thoughts (worries?) of becoming a bit anexoric & actually losing too much weight. Many days I HAD to MAKE myself eat. Weird, right?? <BR> <BR> So how did I end up 8 lbs heavier??? Connecting the dots, I realized a few things were going on at the same time that wore on my emotional state. <em>39</em> ... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 10:53:47 EST Light Bulb Moment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644561 After I whined in my last blog, I was kinda drifing around not really doing much with my mind pretty much fogged over. <em>527</em> <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> As I read some SP blogs, it came to me that my worst binging, downward behavioral spirals occur after something happens with my late dad's affairs. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I haven't really cried- I seem to take my sadness out by eating. <em>4</em> 54 years of habits are HARD to break! <BR> <BR> Last Friday, I got a huge packe... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 14:29:35 EST Venting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644485 Woke up sluggish, tired and scale is up 8 lbs from my lowest weight since I started traveling! <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> Not sleeping well, weird dreams with my dad, mom and aunt in them. They are now all in heaven, so I like seeing them, but I keep waking up in the nite and then think about the dreams. Is this what grief is???? <BR> <BR> Day time, I'm tired, so I drink coffee to clear the cobwebs. Also craving (and eating!) carbs and sweets! REALLY???! <BR> <BR> The last time I made time ... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 13:13:01 EST Off on Another Weekend Adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635801 I'm heading out this a.m. on 2 hr drive to airport- flying to visit dd#2 in New Mexico for softball tournament. It's POURING and STORMING! YIKES! It's 3 am and I'm trying to wake up so I can drive safely. The things we do for our kids! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> OK, I'm not gonna lie, I'm also doing it for me. I REALLY miss my chicks away in college! If my visits help them to feel secure and grounded so they can focus on school and their college experience, then I'm THERE. <BR> <BR> My mantr... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 07:07:36 EST A 'Feeling Adventure' Weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635064 Reading SP blogs and posts helps crystalize all those thoughts and feelings swirling around in my brain. <em>223</em> <BR> <BR> I just got back from a 5 day weekend in Palm Springs. Celebrated our 25th anniversary and watched dd#2 play in big college softball tournament. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Rented a 2014 Azara car for the trip. Splurged on 4 star hotel, had a few nice restaurant meals, 80 degree weather... Ahhhh. Bliss. Except that I binged most of the weekend <em>29</em> <BR>... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 08:55:42 EST Valentine's Day Feast! (pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623996 27 yrs ago, DH & I celebrated our 1st Valentine's Day with him cooking me steak and lobster. (Remember the tanks of live lobsters at Safeway???) <BR> <BR> This year, I'm cooking HIM steak and lobster! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l813248446.jpg"> <BR> <BR> At least I'm PLANNING on cooking, but knowing the fisherman/hunter in him, he'll take over the bbq and cooking pot! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I'll be quite content to eat his heavenly creations and clean... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 13:11:21 EST Carb Fest Week! :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623867 For me, I do best when I concentrate in small time increments. Usually days, sometimes hours. Also food routine helps me. I eat my 'usual' meal and then can move on. New foods tend to trigger me back to eating big. <BR> <BR> My weakness is carbs - seeded bread and all crackers. I just have to keep them out of my house or I'll eat them until I want to throw up. <em>18</em> Last weekend I made the mistake of giving in to my dd#3's grocery shopping. This week, I scarfed seeded, buttered toas... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 10:50:16 EST Asthma DOESN'T Go Away with Weight Loss????! WTF!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615779 What The Franklin (my def of 'WTF') <em>334</em> is up with THAT?! <BR> <BR> Since I began my WLS journey thru gastric bypass surgery in Dec 2011, I've lost 112 lbs. <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I'm very grateful about wearing smaller sizes, being able to move more, looking better, feeling better. MOST of all, I'm proudest of being healthier and getting off most of my co-morbidity meds: blood pressure, high cholesterol, GERD and I thought, asthma. <BR> <BR> After watching ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 10:21:08 EST Pizza Hangover Part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610024 Yesterday's pizza hangover continued all day <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Another lesson learned is to LEAVE leftover pizza at the restaurant!!! I picked at it all day- only eating the cheese and giving the doggies the bread part, but STILL! <em>234</em> Plus I caved in to cravings and finished the last few graham crackers with butter. Yikes!!! Luckily, I didn't get sick, but waaaayyyy tooo close! <BR> <BR> The gray, gloomy weather didn't help, and I felt draggy all day. <BR> <BR> Some posit... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 09:37:15 EST Pizza Hangover! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609115 Last nite we went to dd#3 softball fundraiser at the local pizza joint. <BR> <BR> I haven't had pizza in MONTHS, so I prepared well for the 'dangerous adventure' by eating well early in the day and having a protein drink before we went so I wouldn't be STARVING. <BR> <BR> Those strategies worked ok in that I didn't eat pizza until tummy complained. I planned on one small piece and ended up eating 2 small slices, most of a piece of cheese bread and some bites of chicken wings. <BR> <BR> H... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 11:30:59 EST Random Shopping Delight! (Pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604179 Wednesday nite we had a power outage. Somebody hit a pole. Nobody was hurt, but half our town went dark for hours. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Went outside and looked at stars <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway, woke up to computer modem failure. Dead, dead, DEAD!!! <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> So at o'dark hundred, I texted my boss and co-worker to let them know I wasn't AWOL. <BR> <BR> I actually had to read a BOOK as I sipped my HOT, skinny mocha and woke up <em>106</em> <em>149</em> ... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 09:14:06 EST An OK Something is Better Than a Perfect Nothing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601047 This thought came to me as I'm sipping my HOT, skinny mocha <em>106</em> , reading SP blogs and wondering what I have to contribute today. <BR> <BR> For the longest time, I just thought 'Nope. Got Nothing.' <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Sigh. some days are like that. I'm a sponge rather than a rainbow <em>437</em> Lately, I'm almost all sponge. <BR> <BR> Then <em>54</em> <BR> <BR> DD#2 went back to college last week. As she was packing, she handed me a pair of jeans that didn'... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 09:33:50 EST Do ONE Thing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599850 I am a FABULOUS planner! <em>387</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> My daily to-do lists are AWESOME in their scope and length! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> SOOOOOOO many things that NEEED doing RIGHT NOW! <em>206</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> This weekend as I was getting over a nasty cold (that DH STILL is hacking around with), I looked at my 100% messy house wondering WHERE in the heck to start when I heard my Dear Aunt's voice in my head: 'Soooooo What! Just do ONE thing.' <BR> <BR> I decided each... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:47:35 EST Gluten Free is Actually Pretty Good!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592195 DD#1 is gluten-sensitive and has adopted a gluten free diet. I was a bit skeptical hearing about all the stuff she was doing, but when she came home for Christmas, she looked <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> Clear, bright eyes, beautiful skin and hair - and best of all: she got her ENERGY back!! <em>530</em> <BR> <BR> So for the past few weeks, I've been learning how to shop, cook and eat gluten free. Not that much different for me as I forgo carbs as best I can and focus on protein. I was s... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 10:44:23 EST Feelings Causing New (to me) Behaviors These Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588136 After being on vaca for the past 19 days, I've had a hard time getting going and getting back into my work routine every day this week. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> This difficulty has triggered my guilt and negative self talk mode ('You r soooo lazy!! Get Going!! What's WRONG with you???? You SHOULD have remembered/know this stuff!!!) <BR> <BR> I guess I expected myself to jump back into work at full throttle and having to catch up on what's been happening, getting whack-a-mole work items don... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 13:27:22 EST I Need a Size 10 Foot Applied to a Strategic Place :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585624 After 19 vaca days, I went back to work yesterday. <em>224</em> AND <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I can't seem to get motivated for work. <BR> <BR> On vaca it was common for me to get up at 4 a.m. with DH and start my day. Yesterday and today I had to PRY myself out of bed at 7:15 to take DD#3 to school. Just wanted to be cozy in bed admiring my new paint job and cocooning with DD#1, both doggies and Kitty. I call it our 'Pack Bonding Moment'. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> When I finally get... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 12:40:01 EST My New Year Bedroom Makeover (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584460 After going thru a horrible and draining past 6 months and being on vaca for the past 19 days, my energy is re-charged for the New Year. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Feeling the urgency of going back to work routine today, this weekend was a flurry of home improvement activities for me. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Sat I re-caulked my shower. Doesn't SOUND exciting, but to me, I LOVE a white shower. Getting rid of the impossible to scrub/bleach off black speckled silicone and replacing it with ... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 14:29:55 EST My Non-Meat Protein Staples http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584384 I posted this on a thread and thougt I'd copy here so I wouldn't have to re-create my list. <BR> <BR> My non-meat protein staples are: <BR> <BR> Premier Protein rtd protein drink, chocolate 30 g protein, 160 cal (Costco) <BR> Dannon lite & fit Greek yogurt 12g protein, 80 cal <BR> NF cottage cheese 13g protein, 80 cal <BR> Jarlsberg Lite reduced fat swiss cheese 7g protein, 50 cal <BR> Cheese sticks - ones that are 6-7 g protein & 50-80 cal per stick <BR> NF refried beans 6 g protein, 10... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 13:34:31 EST Getting My Head Around the 2014 Me (pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580619 Here I am starting 2014: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l754001985.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've lost 110 lbs, am 5' 8 1/2" at 186 lbs, wear size 12 jeans and med/small tops. <BR> <BR> Wow. Not that long ago I was 296 lbs, wore skin tight 24W jeans and 3x tops. <BR> <BR> Right now the only words I have are that I'm truly thankful I've come this far. I haven't figured out my path yet for 2014, but for right now, That's Ok. <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <em>2... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 11:01:22 EST Holiday Revamping (Kitty Pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576742 This year, celebrating Christmas was 'different'. 'Better' in some ways and 'worse' in others. <BR> <BR> Sad changes: My favorite Christmas-loving aunt passed 11/13 last year, Dad passed 11/20 this year & we had to put 5 month Tinker Kitty down 12/20 after an agonizing nite and day of constant seizures <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Happy/Sad Changes: All my dd chicks are home sans boyfriends. Now I DO like/love their choices, but it was nice having just the 5 of us back in the nest. Probably f... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 13:33:03 EST Things That Make Me Smile in Tough Times - Cute Kitty Pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568688 I'm valiantly trying to positively participate in Christmas festivities this year. <BR> <BR> It's tough, tough, TOUGH! Losing my dad Nov 20 and marking the 1 yr date of my dear aunt's passing Nov 13 and now Kitty having a bout of seizures last nite is REALLY smacking me down. <em>24</em> Thought we'd have to put him down this a.m., but he seems better and is out for the count sleeping all wrapped around in warm towels. We'll see how today goes.... <BR> <BR> Spent most of yesterday in be... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 12:31:57 EST Just Kinda Watching These Days~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566412 Usually I am the driving force for holiday celebrations. Early in our marriage (25 yrs in Feb!!), dh & I agreed to host holiday events at our house and end the dilemma and drama of whose house we were going to visit when. <BR> <BR> That meant planning, cleaning, shopping, cleaning, cooking, cleaning, decorating, cleaning. You get the picture <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> After my GB surgery in Oct 2012, I was still in full holiday mode. My Worst. Dumping. Episode. Ever. on Thanksgiving got my ... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 10:27:09 EST Good Day- YAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558368 I guess I should be more specific about which carbs are my sore point because I DO eat SOME carbs. For me, carbs in general are not a black or white choice- it's just those pesky snacky things and some that to others are perfectly healthy choices, but when I eat them, I GORGE and BINGE <em>18</em> . THOSE are the carbs I'm cutting out of my life. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to report that yesterday I managed to go carb-free (as I define for myself above). <em>224</em> <em>224</em> <em>224<... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 12:12:26 EST Going Carb-less: Trying Again Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557534 Altho my natural tendency is to beat myself up for not being perfect, I've decided to focus on what I DID achieve and positively build upon that teeny-tiny success. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I made it to lunch carb-less <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Self-assessing what happened, I figured out my downfall started with my beef-soup that I made for dinner the day before. <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> Now normally my soups are almost exclusively protein and beans and green veggies. This beef soup started... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 10:53:53 EST Those Pesky, Sneaky Carbs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556722 I've learned that there are some 'healthy' foods that just are NOT healthy for me <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I eat them compulsively until they are gone or until I throw up. Sometimes both. <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> Wheat Thins, Cheez its (OK not so healthy here) and other cracker, chip, popcorn snacky type foods. Pasta is especially tempting. <BR> <BR> Just discovered that sf Cool Whip falls in this category for me. <BR> <BR> Bagels are on their way to this list. Last nite after beef soup di... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 10:53:09 EST