PATTYKLAVER's SparkPeople Blog PATTYKLAVER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Easter Sunday Mass My pregnant daughter, Sherry came back into town Wednesday night. She wanted to go to church with me today - partly because it is Easter and partly because she knew I wanted to show off my beautiful daughter. <BR> <BR> I go to St. Patrick's Episcopal Church. On Easter Sunday at an Episcopal mass, people bring bells. Every time an "hallelujah" is said, we ring the bells. We were sitting in the pew and the bells were ringing. My daughter grabbed my hand and put it on a spot on her belly... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 19:56:41 EST New Mantra I have to keep saying my new mantra: It is what it is. <BR> <BR> I can't change circumstances. I can deal with them better. <BR> I can't change others. I can change myself. <BR> <BR> The purpose of starting on Spark People was to improve myself, mentally and physically. I have to get back to the basics of that. <BR> <BR> I had been in the habit of taking quiet time to read, pray, and meditate. Life got in the way. It's time to get it out of the way. <BR> <BR> My baby and my Baby... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 08:27:30 EST Challenged I will admit it: I am over-extended, exhausted, and in dire need of a refill. Going and doing for Mom since September has caught up with me. I realize I need a break, some me time, a vacation. BUT...I can't see it happening. <BR> <BR> Mom has 4 children, 8 grandchildren, 8 great-grandchildren and a great-great-grandchild. Or so I was told. Oldest sister is MIA: she's mad that I have come back from Alabama and truly believes that I have "taken over". I just thought I was spending tim... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 08:35:28 EST Uh-Oh I realize I've been complacent lately. I looked at my goals and had to be honest with myself. I'm not working on them like I should. So...TODAY I WILL SET NEW GOALS. I WILL WORK ON THEM. I have a reason to work on them: the baby will be her at the end of June. I want this baby to have the best Grandma possible. I can do this! Mon, 7 Apr 2014 09:09:02 EST April 1, 1982 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I told everyone that my due date was April 1. Do you think they believed me? NOOO!!! <BR> First, I had to convince the husband that my water really did break. Then, I had to convince the nurses that this baby wanted to be born. 'Twas hard, but true. A beautiful 8 pound 1 ounce 20 1/2 inch baby girl joined us at 9:27 am. <BR> <BR> Sherry Alison doesn't look like me or her dad. She doesn't look like big sist... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 19:18:13 EST Under the Gun...Again! My daughter will be back here in 18 days... <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> the condo ready? Have I even started? Unless you count getting the carpets cleaned last Friday, heck no! Does this surprise me? Heck no! I swear that I am getting organized and on a schedule ALL THE TIME. I just can't get it together. I have spurts where I do better, I will admit that. But I can't get consistent. <BR> <BR> This time may be different. This time, a new baby will be involved. I actu... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 08:38:53 EST I Feel Like I'm In Limbo Mom's still the same. I'm still not getting any answers from anyone. Anew nurse got grumpy with me because I asked her how come Mom still has a headache. "If she doesn't tell the doctor, then nothing can be done!" What the... <BR> <BR> It's got me questioning myself. Am I being unreasonable? Am I coming across as a demanding, complaining person? Am I expecting too much by wanting answers and for Mom to get better? Am I not handling things right? Am I wrong for wanting life to slow d... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 08:09:59 EST The Signs Have Hit Me Over The Head This Morning I have been on the stress merry-go-round since October. I knew I was getting dizzy. My body reminded me the first of the year when I came down with shingles. Little noises kept going off in the back of my head. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, before church, I was approached by one of the priests who mentioned that we would have a meeting to plan the Easter Service after mass. ??? went through my head. I absolutely didn't remember us talking about it yet alone saying I would help. Not good.... <BR... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 09:23:07 EST C-Diff Questions The more I read and the more people I talk to, the more confused I am about C-Diff. When Mom was in the hospital in December, for check pains, she got bad diarrhea. They put her on antibiotics and sent her home. January wasn't bad, but her spirits her down. February brought cold weather, a bout with depression and the diarrhea stated again. I look mom to a doctor who said could be her diet, she didn't think if was the medicine, it would have to get better by itself. One week ... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 20:43:54 EST Hey, Dad: Happy St. Patrick's Day Hi, Dad. It's St. Patrick's Day. I think of you so much more today. I know that it's a favorite day of yours. I miss hugging you, hearing your voice, just being in your presence. I talk to you all the time. I know you hear me. I know how proud you are of the kids. <BR> <BR> Mike has a wonderful girlfriend finally. She meets my standards (which are pretty high for my nieces and nephews). Now we have to find one just like that for Joey. Out of the eight grandchildren, they are the on... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 09:49:50 EST Mixed Emotions Mom was moved from the horrible hospital to a really nice rehabilitation center last Friday. It still took a couple days for her "bathroom" problem to completely stop, but she was in better spirits immediately, I called her on Sunday and my sister was there. They were laughing so hard that I could hardly talk to them. <BR> <BR> On Tuesday, I came for lunch and Mom and I had a really nice lunch - just the two of us in her room. The rooms don't have phones in them, but you can bring your... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 21:00:31 EST Baby Z Fix <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sherry and I Skyped for two hours last night. I got to talk to my Baby Z and see how big that baby is getting - bigger that the picture already. She is now 6 months one week. We got to talk about all sorts of having baby stuff. Many of the things were those that moms learn the hard way and get to tell their girls the easy ways to get through it. <BR> <BR> Sherry said she didn't want everybody to come see th... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 02:39:07 EST What Happened to Me? I am a passive person by nature. I'm the third child - a middle child - one that's more of a peacemaker than anything. I don't do confrontations well - usually. <BR> <BR> When I got to the hospital Friday morning, Mom's IV bag was empty and the alarm was beeping. There was the order on her board to not give her anything by mouth as we were told she was to have a colonoscopy to rule out anything else being wrong. It took me four trips to the nurse's station and an hour to finally see the ... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 10:04:06 EST Mom Continued... After being with Mom every day for the past month, spending all day Monday and Tuesday mornings in the hospital with her and helping her out, the verdict finally came in. C-Diff: a highly contagious illness that older people tend to get after taking antibiotics for a period of time and/or being in a hospital or nursing facility. <BR> <BR> Mom got a chemical burn on her hands in November and was on two rounds of antibiotics. She had chest pains December 28 and was admitted to the hospital... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 07:38:01 EST Mom The story of my life lately: I feel as if I am getting somewhere, and Mom gets sick. So, I sat with her until 11 last night in the emergency room. I will be back again today and hope that a specialist will come in to start figuring out what's wrong. <BR> <BR> I'll be MIA for I am not sure how long. Wishing all well. Tue, 4 Mar 2014 08:04:21 EST Baby Steps I often read about how we need to take baby steps. If we do this, we will get where we need to go. I was in a reflective mood yesterday and wondered if I had actually made any improvements in myself. I believe that I should strive for that every day. <BR> <BR> I believe that I have taken baby steps and just hadn't thought about it. I've been a little more money-conscious. I've done a little bit for me lately. For a long time, I would start each morning with a long to-do list. I have l... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 09:42:27 EST March/Lenten Goals One of my first thoughts Saturday morning was "Thank goodness February is over!" Then I started thinking more as my coffee kicked in. It's March. Ash Wednesday is this Wednesday. What about March goals? What about what I am going to do/not do for lent? It took me until this afternoon, but I do have a list that I will be adding to: <BR> <BR> drink more water, eat more fruits and vegetables <BR> push a little harder on the exercise I get <BR> complain less <BR> visit people more - at lea... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 19:07:30 EST Feeling Like a Complainer My stove broke last week. So, I went shopping for a new one. I knew exactly what I wanted, what my price range was, etc. The salesman was lousy...wishy washy,not really listening to me. He did the normal "We don't have this one, but I can get you into this one for $150.00 more..." No, I don't need bells and whistles. I just need a cheaper stove that works. I didn't want to pay the $40 for delivery when I knew people that would come get it for me. The salesman said it would be up front... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 09:24:51 EST To Do List for Summer I was reading a blog this morning and it gave me an idea that I really needed. This person made a list of things to do this summer. So, I started my own list. It's things I want to do between now and October. I am striving to do as many as I can. I marked it on my calendar to look back and see what exactly I have done. <BR> Here's my List: <BR> paint <BR> organize and re-arrange condo <BR> plan and give the baby shower for my daughter <BR> Baseball games with family ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 08:56:54 EST Question Time Life has been crazy since way before Christmas. I feel that my list of things to do just keeps getting longer and longer. I can't say that I have finished much. There are things I have needed to start for awhile and haven't gotten to. I haven't been giving my best to what I have been doing. I am feeling bad about that. <BR> <BR>'s time to ask myself the tough questions. What are my aspirations? What is it that I find important? What do I want to do? What am I doing that I rea... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 10:12:43 EST Baby Shower Planning Okay - the pressure is on now! The baby shower for my youngest daughter is Saturday, May 3, 2014 at 2 pm. I've been buying and making presents for awhile now, so I'm good on that. I stopped today and started getting wrapping paper to wrap everything. <BR> <BR> Now the hard part begins. My oldest daughter, Sarah, and I get to plan it. What makes it difficult is that she lives in Alabama and I live in Michigan. Thank goodness for Pinterest and Shutterfly. All three of us have pinned th... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 18:48:39 EST A First For Me I have never bought a Sports Illustrated magazine. I never did see all the hype in the swimsuit issue, even when Justin Verlander's girlfriend was on the cover. Barbie is on the cover this year. Barbie and I were "born" the same year. I think I will buy a copy just for kicks and nostalgia. Although I realized that Barbie has very unrealistic proportions, I think it's great that a real person with unrealistic proportions hasn't been exploited. Wed, 12 Feb 2014 08:59:04 EST Seven Weeks I have seven weeks until my daughter gets back. That means I have to get this place and my life in order. You see, I am staying in her condo right now. She is pregnant and coming back from Nova Scotia to have this baby. It will be better to put her in the bigger of the bedrooms right now. But that means painting it and getting my collection of junk out of the closet and into the closet in the other bedroom. This should easily be a two-three week project considering I have things to do f... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 01:42:40 EST Best Friends Forever I have a very dear friend that I met through work 20 years ago. We've been through so much: marriages, divorces, deaths, births, moving, etc. We are Thelma and Louise. Sometimes I'm Thelma, sometimes I'm Louise - we never do keep it straight. She was very, very sick last year and I almost lost her. It was so hard to go through that. Many prayers were said and she did pull through. It's been a long, slow recovery for her. She had a tracheotomy and it's still sometimes difficult for he... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 09:50:21 EST Goal Time The past few days, I've been getting up, dressed and moving right away. I realize that I've gotten a few more things accomplished each day doing this. I used to be in the habit of doing this and had slowly gotten out of that habit - especially in the winter. <BR> <BR> So, realizing that I'm accomplishing a little more, I want to keep it up. My youngest daughter has gone back to Nova Scotia for a little while to get things together. She will be back to have the baby. I want to have a few... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 11:55:32 EST I Want a Re-do! I had high hopes for starting the year out with new goals - new things to do and strive for. January got off to a rocky start - beginning the year sick is not fun. My health has been up and down all month. So...I shot for February to set goals - to start anew. Nope - not happening. I have a cold now. I spent Saturday on the couch with a really stiff and hurting neck and back. Sunday, I made it to church. On the way home, I hit a HUGE pothole, compliments of the lovely Michigan weather... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 12:53:18 EST Take Stock Time Again I still have the migraine that settled in a couple days ago. My shingles are acting up again. To be honest, I have to admit that I feel that I've been pulled in quite a few directions lately. I've let myself worry about things and tried to fix everything. I should know that I can't do that. I'm not Wonder Woman - as much as I would like to be. Why is that so hard for me to remember??? <BR> <BR> So, today, right here and right now, I am setting goals for myself. Take five. Decide what... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 10:55:38 EST Did It Again Life's been bumpy lately. I've overdone it and I've let things get to me. I woke up with a stress headache this morning and tried to ignore it.'s gotten worse. A pain pill and a wet washcloth on my forehead haven't helped. I am throwing in the towel and going to bed. Tomorrow is another day. The world won't come to an end if I don't do anything else today. I really wish that the projects and work that I have to do would do themselves or go away, but I know better. As many tim... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 20:07:34 EST I'm Blessed <img src=""> <BR> My daughters are very close and love each other tremendously. I know they will do anything for each other. Sarah lives in Alabama while Sherry lives in Nova Scotia. They always talk, always write, always send each other little surprises in the mail. They bail each other out. They surprise each other with visits. I could go on and on and on...I am the luckiest mom in the world. Tue, 21 Jan 2014 16:12:59 EST Oh, Baby! What an Experience! My youngest daughter is pregnant. At the end of each month, Sherry has put on the same outfit, stood in front of a wall, lifted her shirt off her belly, and someone would take a picture of her changing body. <BR> <BR> Last night, I took some shots for the 4 month picture. We looked at them and Sherry commented that she thought the baby looked bigger in her 3 month picture. She said that she couldn't really say that she felt the baby move. I bent down and started talking to "Baby Z": a n... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 21:21:09 EST Attitude I've had a miserable attitude all week. Not feeling well, cold weather and other assorted problems got me down. I know better than to let that happen, but it does on occasion. <BR> <BR> I finally got out of the house last night - the first time in about two weeks. The weather still wasn't cooperating. It was snowing and cold and the roads were miserable. But I got out. More importantly, I was able to get my daughter and bring her home. She had been staying with my niece all week bec... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 11:49:15 EST Working On Things I am actually starting to feel better - well, at least I have high hopes! Getting tired of not feeling well and being around people that don't feel well. Hospitals are not on my list of favorite places to be. I give a BIG SHOUT OUT AND APPLAUSE to all the people who work in the medical field; especially to nurses and nurse's aids who are in the hospitals, nursing homes and physical therapy facilities. <BR> <BR> It's January 7 and it seems that everyone on SP who lives in the US and Cana... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 12:38:35 EST Frustrated I looked forward to the new year. I had the usual reasons - a new start, new attitude, etc. I ended the year with Mom in the hospital and me with a migraine. The new year started with me getting the shingles and the flu. I am still NOT feeling well. I have no energy, no desire to do anything. So much for my grand intentions. <BR> <BR> I should know better. I do too much and push myself. Then my body fights back when it's had enough. The bad part about getting older is that it take... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 18:05:01 EST Happy New Year and Birthday to Me - NOT! On New Year's Eve, when changing for bed, I noticed a red spot on my stomach just under my bra line. I suspected it was a reaction to a new body wash I was using. When sleeping, I kept waking up as I developed a migraine. When I got up in the morning, the headache had subsided a little bit, but it's still "there". My stomach had some more red spots that continued to my right side and onto my back. By the end of the day, they were uncomfortable a bit. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my birthda... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 11:37:56 EST You Think It'd Be Quicker I called my Mom yesterday afternoon to find out she had been having chest pains since Friday night. She's already been diagnosed with atrial fibrillation from having Rheumatic Fever as a child and she's 83. Considering this, I took her into the emergency room. <BR> <BR> We got there about 3:30. An EKG was done right away and blood work was taken. Then the waiting began: for the EKG results, for the blood work results, for pain medicine, for food, for the doctor, for a CAT scan, for the... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 18:40:57 EST Still Trying I'm still trying to shake off the feeling of Christmas blues. It always hits me, but it usually doesn't last this long. There have been many changes in my life this year. Maybe I just haven't got a grip on them yet. Maybe I'm concentrating on others too much and not enough on me. I need to take time out for me - to sit and sum up the year, decide where I want to go, set new goals. Resolutions for the new year are definitely in order. <BR> <BR> One bright note is that I did go to the ... Thu, 19 Dec 2013 10:19:38 EST Christmas Spirit Okay - it's time. I need to get into the Christmas spirit. I haven't yet this year. It's probably because I've been so busy and a little worried about loved ones. But, it's time. Go look at lights. Spend more time with family. Play games and look at pictures with them. Go look at lights. Something! Time to do it! Tue, 17 Dec 2013 09:16:41 EST Reports Someone blogged about reviewing reports. I sat and thought about it and realized I hadn't done it in awhile. So, I ran my reports. It was eye-opening. Some things I'm consistent with, such as calories. There were a few items that I've gone down on in the last few month, such as activity, calories burned and steps incorporated. Not good! No wonder I feel a little difference in my body. Time to consciously step it up a notch. Time to pay more attention. Time to look at my reports week... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 09:14:14 EST Time Management I think I'm finally getting better at managing my time. I actually started doing what I've been threatening to do for awhile. I got my kitchen timer out. I set it for 15-30 minutes and see how much I can get accomplished. I then decide whether to continue working on that project or to start on another. Sometimes I stop the project until later in the day and then go back to it. Sometimes I wait until the next day to work on it. <BR> <BR> I feel like do this keeps my mind a little fres... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 20:35:52 EST Two More Days This week has been non-stop. I feel like I have very little steam left, yet there are two more jam packed days before I can stop and rest a little. I have gotten better about setting timers for myself at home. I'm not spending too much time doing what I have to do around here. I can take five minutes and get a couple things done. It's outside the home that has me feeling frazzled. I must practice the word "no" and the art of delegating. <BR> <BR> I'm looking forward to next week - my... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 07:34:05 EST Christmas Spirit Usually, the Christmas Spirit doesn't join me until almost Christmas Day. This year, it's different. I suspect that it's because I've been more involved with church and I've been taking an "Exploring Your Spiritual Journey" class as well as reading some good books. As I sat in church yesterday, I really paid attention. It was the first Sunday of Advent. I was reminded that it is a season of renewal - a season to reflect. Everything seemed to click more. I felt good afterwards. <BR> <... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 08:05:45 EST Falling into Place My getting ready for the holidays is falling into place. I started by saying that I would have Thanksgiving at my house. This got me cleaning at the beginning of the week. I surprised myself by taking out about 12 tall kitchen garbage bags of garbage. I got rid of papers and stuff that I just didn't need anymore. <BR> <BR> I started to decorate for Christmas yesterday. I have high hopes of getting a lot more done today. I need to wrap the presents I have already bought and take stock o... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 09:16:16 EST What Helps Me So Much I can finally say that I am in the habit of journaling. I write my goal of the day in one journal, my thoughts for the day in another, and an overview on the day before and what I want to concentrate on another journal. It's good to be able to see if I can actually accomplish what I set out to do, to see what I accomplished the day before, and to just jot down a few things that are on my mind. It's very therapeutic for me. <BR> <BR> What is more therapeutic for me is reading everyone's bl... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 08:37:18 EST DO NOT TOUCH THIS BUTTON I have a very small anger button that I thought was well hidden. I also have two family members that love drama and attention. One of their favorite things to do is to stir the family pot. They both stirred the pot yesterday AND found my button. It's been a very long time since someone has found that button. <BR> <BR> After sleeping it off, I find that I am still a little unsettled this morning. In a small respect, I feel bad that I spoke my mind. In a bigger respect, I realized some t... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 10:12:34 EST Sleeplessness It's 4:30 am and I've been up for the last three hours. My plate has been so full lately that my mind doesn't want to shut down. I'm getting sensitive to little things that people say, and that's just not like me. Someone commented about my weight - not a flattering remark and one that's really got me paranoid. I don't even want to step on the scale for fear that this person is right. As hard as I've tried throughout the years, my body image has never been right. People whose weight has... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 04:30:26 EST A Week To Remember Last Monday, I went to the airport to pick up my youngest daughter, Sherry. Who did I see coming out of the airport first? It was my oldest daughter, Sarah! They came in together to visit. What a wonderful surprise! We had enough time to come back to the condo and drop off the suitcases and then their dad came to pick them up to spend time with each other. They got home late and we were all tired by that time, so we went to bed. <BR> <BR> Tuesday morning, Sherry told me she had a prese... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 08:41:04 EST Apology I need to apologize to my teams for not posting as much this week. I expected my youngest daughter to come to town and she surprised me by bringing her sister. It's always a whirlwind of activities when they are here. When we went to have lunch with my Mom, we found that both her hands were severely infected. We took her to the doctor who promptly told us to take her to the hospital. That was totally unexpected and definitely made us shift gears. She's back home now, but both hands are ... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 11:37:34 EST Sunshine Sometimes you must bring the sunshine with you. I will get my sunshine today and bring it with me all week! <em>244</em> Mon, 4 Nov 2013 10:08:37 EST Life is Perplexing All year, I worked on a schedule. I wanted one that had enough activities to keep me somewhat busy, but not enough that kept me going like crazy. I finally made commitments to do things I wanted to do. But life has taken my wishes and turned them against me. Things come up unexpectedly that take me away from what I wanted to do. But they are things that I must do. If I could only take my new responsibilities and fit them into the schedule that I would feel comfortable with....maybe then... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 08:39:55 EST 11 Years Ago When I met my husband 16 years ago, he had a dog named Camer (Cam for short). She quickly won my heart. Of all the dogs I have every seen, she had the most facial expressions of any of them. She rolled her eyes when something silly was said with the best of us. She was my constant companion and confidant. <BR> <BR> About 12 years ago, I noticed some changes. Cam was drinking more water and going outside more. It wasn't a great change, but it was something I noticed. When I would ask... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 09:48:05 EST