PATTYKLAVER's SparkPeople Blog PATTYKLAVER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Great Point! I was reading some blogs this morning and one hit home with me. It was comparing ourselves to a car. It was stated to "keep your paint job pretty, it makes you feel better while you're driving around". (Indygirl) It made so much sense to me. <BR> <BR> In the hustle and bustle of everyday life, I often put me on the bottom of my to-do list. Why? I don't know - habit, guilt, whatever. Why should I, though? I'm important! I should keep myself up for me, for my family, to be able to d... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 08:44:47 EST Tracker Problems Sure - just because I said yesterday that I was going to pay more attention to my tracker report, my tracker went on the fritz. It updated a little after 9 am. Then, at about 6 pm, it would light up, but it was lighting up red. I posted on the technical message board, but never got a response. So, I thought I'd try changing the battery. After I did, the light was green again, but it looked like it lost all my steps for the day. At the end of the night the site registered that I had a li... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 15:21:22 EST Review of Last Week 8.18.14 I was reminded again that I can't do hard, physical work for very long. After spending 5 straight hours on Mom's flooded basement, I couldn't move. My knee is still reminding me. <BR> <BR> I learned that I really should stay out of casinos. I don't have good luck and I can find many other things to spend my money on - like Helena. <BR> <BR> I went over my Spark Tracker Report. <BR> This Week Last Week Difference <BR> steps: 89660 ... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 09:36:04 EST Suggestions Needed <img src=""> <BR> <BR> How do I quit spending so much money on someone like this? Sherry was talking to Helena and she gave mom this expression: Like I really believe you, Mom! Sun, 17 Aug 2014 10:45:40 EST Other Blogs' Lessons I've been reading more blogs lately. You all sure have helped me as I see myself in a bit that I've read. I got reminders this week on setting goals, ranging from cleaning the house to reminding me to do more for me and stepping away from people that I just don't get along with. <BR> <BR> It dawned on me this morning that I've slept pretty good this week. I think it's from being reflective, reading about others, and trying to apply lessons learned to my life. Thanks to all of you who do... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 10:30:53 EST Reflections I'm in a reflective mood lately. Summer is almost over. My Helena is out of town for a few months. My Sarah and my Sherry are in different locations. Mom is struggling and the short-term memory seems to get shorter and shorter with each passing day. Another crossroad seems to be looming in front of me. <BR> <BR> Put the suspenders on and pull up the boots. Not only find something new to do BUT DO IT! <em>521</em> Fri, 15 Aug 2014 06:42:50 EST Laughter With the passing of Robin Williams, I am reminded of the healing powers of laughter. As television showed clips of Robin in various interviews, I was again amazed how he had the ability to talk about anything and make it funny. I had to laugh again at what he said. Oh, how I wish I had that ability. <BR> <BR> I got thinking about the last time that I really, really laughed. It was before Helena was born. A few of us had gone to one of the metroparks around the area. My great-nephew and... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 10:35:59 EST Ouch! Many times I start doing something without thinking about how long it will take or how I will feel afterwards. I did it again yesterday. When I headed to Mom's yesterday to start cleaning the flooded basement, I knew a few things. I wore old clothes. I stopped at the Dollar Tree store and bought a cheap mop, some moisture absorber, etc. BUT, I didn't think to bring my back brace. I didn't take many breaks. I did stop after about 5 hours. <BR> <BR> Thank goodness I did have some help.... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 10:42:47 EST Weather-Related Work It rained like crazy yesterday. I had trouble driving to babysit. I had even more trouble driving home - the roads were flooded in many spots. I got a call from my brother. His basement was flooding. Never having experience with that, he had no clue what to do. Guess he was hoping that I had a better answer than to pick up what he could, wait until it went down, and then start cleaning. <BR> <BR> My brother lives two doors down from Mom. It didn't take a rocket scientist to figure o... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 09:15:23 EST Reports - Starting to Pay More Attention I have a Spark Tracker and love it. I do get a weekly summary report. Up until now, I did skim over them and keep them. I got thinking this morning. Am I getting the most I can get out of this report and the others available to me on SP? I don't think so. Today, I am making a promise to myself to look at these reports carefully once a week. Really look and really compare. Let's see how much they can motivate me, especially now since I feel my motivation needs to be worked on. <BR> <B... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 08:40:19 EST Good Deed Gave me Thoughts on a Purpose People that know me, know that when someone mentions that something needs/should be done, that I tend to be the one to do it. It seems that my family especially knows this. A few days back, I started getting emails about Mom possibly wanting another cat. Some suggested places to go. I just so happened to stumble upon a local shelter that was having an adoption event close to my house. There were two cats on the web site that were a little older, neutered, declawed, and up-to-date on shot... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 18:23:58 EST Casino Time Mom was after me for awhile to go to the casino in Windsor for awhile. So, I told her I'd go with her yesterday. My sister also went with us. The deal is really pretty good. For $8.00, a bus takes us across the border and back. The casino gives us $15.00 Canadian to gamble. We hang around each other or go our own way as we want to. We do meet at a certain time and eat. <BR> <BR> Some movie was shooting in downtown Detroit yesterday. It did take us FOREVER to cross the border. Usual... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 10:22:04 EST Kick Time I know that there are things I want to do. <BR> I know that there are things I have to do. <BR> I know my motivation isn't what it should be lately. <BR> I know I need a kick. <BR> I know I will pay big bucks for someone to do this. <BR> I know I could use the big bucks on other things, so I will take any and all suggestions. <BR> I know, I know...just do it! Thu, 7 Aug 2014 06:29:22 EST Unplanned Doctor Run About five weeks ago, when I woke up one morning, I had a red rash on the left side of my face. It was a little tender and it spread a bit as the day went on. I didn't think too much of it; I remembered bumping it on a shelf and thought that had something to do with it. <BR> <BR> When I went for a check-up the next morning, the doctor looked at it and told me I had a staph infection. No clue how I got it. Antibiotics cleared it up in three days and I had a reason to clean the house wel... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 09:31:57 EST Can I do It? Another night where I was up by 4:30...this is a bit old! But today I figured I'd just go ahead and get up and start the day. I've gotten Mom's bills paid. Some paperwork had been completed. Now...will my energy last all day? Tue, 5 Aug 2014 07:29:08 EST I'm Going Back to Bed! Have you ever started your day wrong? I sure did this morning! I woke up an hour later than I wanted to. My two alarms meant nothing. I got my coffee going and wanted to clean off some blueberries. I went to grab the colander and my nest of bowls came crashing to the kitchen floor, breaking my only Pyrex mixing bowl into a hundred pieces. Of course, I cut myself cleaning that up. I put my retainer and water into a glass to clean it. Instead of putting the cleaning tablet into the glas... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 10:08:48 EST Nice but not Productive Sunday I went to church this morning, visited with Mom and went to my great-nieces's graduation party today. It was a beautiful day and the party was outside. Nice to sit and relax with family and friends. But, I somehow feel a bit guilty. I didn't get the things done this weekend that I really needed to do. Tomorrow is another day, another beginning of a week. Time to get cracking. Sun, 3 Aug 2014 21:06:44 EST Unexpected Change of Plans I got up yesterday with the full intentions of cleaning my house and my mom's house. Then came a call to help someone out. Okay...yes I can do that. When I got to my Mom's, I found out that someone was supposed to pick her up and take her to get her hair cut, to the store, etc. That had fallen through. Okay...yes I can do that. <BR> <BR> My youngest niece (and my Goddaughter) is starting college in September. I'm really proud of her: she struggled at first in school, but ended up be... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 08:58:05 EST Oh, The Plans I have Made! I decided I will visit Sarah sometime in August. I will also be going up to my sister's cottage this month. Sherry will be visited in September. Now to firm up the plans... <BR> <BR> I broke down and bought a member + guest membership at The Henry Ford Museum/Greenfield Village. No to pick the first day to go! It's been about 2 years since I've been there, and I'm overdue. <BR> <BR> Tackle the condo! Now there's a project! I intended on starting early this morning and it's 10 am. Tim... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 10:00:53 EST Okay! Now to Plan! I re-read my blogs from the last couple weeks. My daughter was right. I am a little depressed now that my daughters and granddaughter aren't here. I realized the need to do, to plan, to organize: it's the "need for something to do, something to love, something to look forward to". <BR> <BR> So...while I am babysitting today, I will take my notebooks. I will list the things I want to do and plan for in the next few days. I will do this - definitely. By this time tomorrow, I will have ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 09:00:12 EST Realization I have been so tired since Sherry and Helena left (two weeks ago tomorrow). I've been feeling like I need to clean, to organize, to find new things to do. I have a feeling of restlessness and general malaise. It's not like me and I know I need to be kick-started. <BR> <BR> This morning, I found out that a dear Spark Friend, Irene (DIDMIS) is back in the hospital. She had fallen about a month ago. The doctors said she broke a vertebrae. They didn't want to operate - citing that they thou... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 08:49:21 EST Today's Mission I want to stop at the library and the recreation department today. I'd like to see if I can conjure up something new, different, and inexpensive to do. I guess I'm a little restless and need to diversify. Tue, 29 Jul 2014 09:17:09 EST Knitting & Crocheting I know the basic stitches of knitting and crocheting. I can make the standards: scarves, blankets. I pick up yarn on sale at stores and when I find it at garage sales. There is a huge overflowing tote on my closet shelf. I have signed up for 3 on-line classes. IT'S TIME TO TAKE THE CLASSES! Use up that yarn! Make some gifts! Make some money to take those trips I want to take. Keep me on my toes. Keep asking if I've done it yet. <BR> <BR> Mon, 28 Jul 2014 10:41:39 EST July 27, 2014 When glancing at the day, it first appears to be just an ordinary Sunday. But look again. A few things have happened in Roseville, MI to prove it otherwise. <BR> <BR> 1. I completed labeling and putting into photo albums 3 boxes of pictures. They've been collecting since last April. I threatened to start this project months ago. I can give myself a big <em>244</em> for finally buckling down and doing it this past week. <BR> <BR> 2. There is a container way up high in the laundry... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 18:20:08 EST Middle of the Night Thinking Last night was another night where I was up in the middle of the night, unable to fall back asleep. Many nights like this, I turn to the computer to get my mind off of whatever is looping through it. I know I have lacked a little motivation, a lot of energy, and don't have clear goals at the moment. I logged onto Spark People and started reading. Three articles made sense to me. I wrote down the key points and printed them out for me to concentrate on. <BR> <BR> 12 Ways to Stay Motiva... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 08:52:18 EST Ambition?!? Where are you going?!? I woke up feeling a little ambitious this morning. Got some laundry almost done, went through some drawers, cleaned some cupboards, then....where did it go? I must find it! Off I go! Fri, 25 Jul 2014 09:52:22 EST Picture Project Now that I have actually begun to straighten out the pictures that I have, I found that it has been easier than I thought it would be. Such is many of the projects that I put off - this just re-affirms that I need to just plunge head-first into projects that I am putting off. Sometimes I believe that I put more effort into thinking about projects than I do actually doing them. <BR> <BR> When my girls were younger, my mother-in-law was one who always had a camera handy. I have so many mem... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 08:34:14 EST Slowly I Do... I'm slowly starting to do some of the projects that I have been putting off for so long now. I actually started organizing my pictures and getting them in order in albums. I still have to decide which ones I will be putting into my first ever scrapbook, but I am headed in that direction. <BR> <BR> I found a consignment shop that I can take some things from around the house to. I have a couple small bags ready. I set a goal to at least take these bags there on Friday. <BR> <BR> I've been... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:17:27 EST Motivation Finally Found I lost my motivation a few months back. I looked high and low. I never did find it in the places I looked. Must have been the wrong places! I won't look there again! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I went to the doctor and didn't like that the scale hadn't moved. From there, I went to the post office to turn in my papers for a passport. Within 6 weeks, I should have it. <em>244</em> Then I can go to Halifax and check in on my baby and granddaughter. I will get to meet face to face a dear... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 07:38:00 EST Questioning Myself I went to bed early last night and thought I slept okay. But I am still dragging today. Not sure what's going on with me. But I am giving it up for the night, hoping I sleep good and hoping tomorrow is better. Mon, 21 Jul 2014 21:26:27 EST On One Hand... On one hand, I started my "organize pictures" project this morning. I actually got in about three and a half hours and a bit accomplished. On the other hand, I started at 3 am. By the time I got to church, I was yawning my head off and fighting to stay away. <BR> <BR> Just ate lunch hoping it would give me a bit of energy. Maybe...maybe not. I am not a lay down for a nap kind of person, however. I have such trouble sleeping at times that I don't want me to get any more out of rhythm.... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 13:38:35 EST Planning the Week The house is still too quiet. The to-do list is still about two miles long. Organizing and cleaning now can be a priority. So, today I will take time out to plan the week, the month, etc. Start moving step at a time, even if it's just a baby step. <em>521</em> Sat, 19 Jul 2014 08:54:18 EST Staying Busy I still feel a bit like I am in a fog. I am doing pretty good at staying busy. There are still times when the tears come whether I want them to or not. It will eventually get better - just not today. <BR> <BR> I know that my girls are all home safe and sound. I just feel like I am no longer "at home". It's too quiet here. The TV is on for background noise; I don't know what's on. Fri, 18 Jul 2014 16:37:49 EST Dang Brick Wall I know exactly where that dang brick wall it. Most of the time I avoid it at all costs. Not today. Not only did I run full force into it, it fell on me. Here I am, with bricks all over the place, laying here stunned. Sherry and Helena had to leave to go back to Nova Scotia for a few months. Yes, I knew it was coming. Yes, it's only for a few months. Yes, I know I will be visiting. Yes, I am sad. <BR> <BR> So, I will pick up the bricks off me. I will sell them to the little pig that... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 14:34:02 EST My New Favorite Exercise Growing up in Detroit with sisters that are 5 and 10 years older than me, there was always music on in my house. Most of the time, it was Motown music. The rest of the time, it was Top 40. My brother (who is 5 years younger than me - I guess there's a lot to be said for the "rhythm method" in my family) worked at a record store that sold new and used music. It also had local talent play at the store. I was 1 of the first to hear Kid Rock, Prince Eminem, etc. I appreciate the old and the ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 11:31:20 EST It's Hard to Let Others Do What They Need to Do Sherry and Helena will be going back to Nova Scotia for a few months on Thursday. I know it's something that Sherry needs to do. I know they will be fine there with Daryl. I know it will give me the chance to catch up on the things I need to do around here. I know. <BR> <BR> But my heart says no - don't do it. <BR> <BR> So, I have to keep my chin up. I have to keep busy. I have to tighten my belt and come up with the money to go out there. I'm shooting for September. I will look a... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 11:28:48 EST Help with Decision from Unexpected Source I notice a pattern in me. I get bored at times. Then I start adding things to do and committing myself to way too many things. The stress levels go up. I get more forgetful. I get aggravated with myself for doing it to myself again. This is where I am at again. How many times does this make it? <BR> <BR> The person with an answer is literally right under my nose. I am sitting here typing one-handed holding Helena. She told me today that I have to slow down and smell the baby. Look ... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 12:47:44 EST Wonderful Morning Visit Helena and I were up and moving about 8 am this morning. Sherry fed her while I got my morning cup of coffee and breakfast in me. Then Sherry laid back down for awhile. <BR> <BR> Helena was wide awake and moving! I pulled the bassinet into the living room and laid her down in it. We had a wonderful talk for about an hour. She stretched and kicked and punched and just listened to everything I said - well, at least she pretended to. <BR> <BR> I am so glad I got a camcorder about 4 days... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 10:53:01 EST Two Weeks Old Today <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My Helena is two weeks old today. Momma doesn't feel too good today, so I got to hold and spoil her all day. At two weeks, I didn't think that a baby would understand what she was doing, but I'd swear that she does. She gives me this somewhat fake cry for me to get her up and then gives me a beautiful smile. <BR> <BR> Aunty Sarah sent this adorable little dress from Alabama. She picked the perfect color of bl... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 20:01:00 EST Content <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I woke up fairly early this morning and got a little bit of housework done. Right now, it's Sherry take a shower time. So here I sit at the computer, holding my newest miracle, content. We talked a little. I told her that I need to start looking for just the right ornament to get her for Christmas. I did that for my girls: every year I would get them each one that reminded me of what they were doing or where t... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 10:16:56 EST Staph Infection?!? I remember bending over Sunday to do something. As I got up, I bumped the side of my face on a shelf. I didn't thing much of it. By Monday afternoon, the spot I bumped was a little tender. By Monday evening, that side of my face was red like a sunburn. <BR> <BR> I went to the doctor yesterday morning, still not thinking much of it. He noticed it and said it was possible that I had a staph infection and gave me antibiotics. He knows that Helena is with me as Sherry is a patient of his.... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 09:56:49 EST It's Still Amazing <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have two daughters. I know how they grow up too fast. But this beautiful granddaughter of mine, Helena, is just amazing. She got aggravated this morning when I was holding her. She wanted to sit up so she could see Momma. Before I know it, she'll be all grown up. Tue, 8 Jul 2014 14:05:17 EST It's Still Amazing <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have two daughters. I know how they grow up too fast. But this beautiful granddaughter of mine, Helena, is just amazing. She got aggravated this morning when I was holding her. She wanted to sit up so she could see Momma. Before I know it, she'll be all grown up. Tue, 8 Jul 2014 14:05:13 EST I'm not starting the work week well. I slept okay last night, but still woke up a bit. Starting the day off this morning has just left me feeling a bit stressed. I find that I have overbooked myself AGAIN. I don't remember where I put some things, so I must start hunting. Same old mess that I get myself into. <BR> <BR> I thought that after the baby was born, things might get into more of a routine. Not! Although Sarah, Randy and Daryl have all gone home, I find that what little routine I had before has not returned. I ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:10:25 EST Down Day I'm a little down today. The week really wasn't all that smooth. I had to take Sarah to the airport. It was past the time where she really needed to go back to work. Today we take Helena's daddy to the airport. He's due to go back to work also. Sherry is really bumming. She's so close to both of them. It's kinda rubbing off on me. <BR> <BR> My esteem needs a boost. Time to find something new and exciting to look forward to. <BR> Sun, 6 Jul 2014 13:52:53 EST Sister Still Pushing Buttons My oldest sister is 10 years older than me. The first five years of her life, she was the only grandchild and lived with my parents and grandparents. That means 4 people to give her all the attention. <BR> <BR> When I lived in Alabama, Barb and Mom did quite a few things together. When I returned, naturally I spent time with Mom. <BR> <BR> Barb started commenting that I was trying to take over. (?!? - I thought I was spending time with Mom.) Then, whenever Mom needed help with someth... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 10:30:14 EST Happy Birthday My Helena has an American momma and a Canadian daddy. She is American born. July 1 is Canada Day and July 4 is Independence Day in the US. Living in Detroit, I am on the only land spot that is north of Canada. Windsor, Ontario is south of me. The two cities have celebrated together all week for years. Many years, the fireworks over the Detroit River were a joint effort between the two cities. <BR> <BR> Helena is one week old today. (As of 9:24 pm). So, I get to say Happy Birthday ... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 15:29:31 EST Reminiscing Yesterday was spent working around Helena. We took turns taking care of her. I got to give her a sponge bath. Sherry had to run an errand with her and I wisely spent the time on me, cleaning and running errands. <BR> <BR> This took me back to when my girls were little. I spent a lot of time with them doing a lot of different things. I learned to be child-like again and loved it. I wish I could be in that mode all the time. I do have a chance now to do it again. I will have my third c... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 09:21:36 EST The Year is Half Over The first six months have flown by this year. I can't say that I have accomplished very much, especially when it comes to me and my goals. I must work on goals for the next six months and find the motivation to accomplish them. Where I will find the motivation is to be determined...any and all suggestions are welcome. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I have accomplished a couple things. <BR> 1. Mom is healthier. Plans have been made and the wheels are turning to get her into an assis... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 09:41:45 EST Bumps in the Road When Helena was released from the hospital on Sunday, her biiruben count was 9. She had a check-up yesterday and it had gone up to 16. Not TOO major, but back to the hospital she went to go under the lights. Things have come a long way. When my Sarah had jaundice, gauze was taped on her eyes. Helena had what looked like to be a sleeping mask - so she was Sleeping Beauty for 24 hours. She's back home now, sleeping away. Now to get Momma caught up a little on her sleep! <BR> <BR> Someth... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 20:48:02 EST