PATTYKLAVER's SparkPeople Blog PATTYKLAVER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's Hard I've been seeing some improvements in my life: in what I want to do and not do. But I still am struggling. I feel that I am in a huge rut that no matter what I do I can't free myself. Suggestions are more than welcomed. Mon, 23 May 2016 10:37:12 EST It's Hard I've been seeing some improvements in my life: in what I want to do and not do. But I still am struggling. I feel that I am in a huge rut that no matter what I do I can't free myself. Suggestions are more than welcomed. Mon, 23 May 2016 10:37:08 EST Some Improvements I can actually say that I see a couple improvements in myself: <BR> My time management is getting better. I'm not getting carried away with things that aren't as important. My prioritizing is improving. <BR> I am getting better again at exercising, walking and drinking my water. <BR> I have learned to say to myself that it's time to quit for the day. <BR> Yes, I need to make more improvements: <BR> Make more time to do something I enjoy. <BR> Keep in touch with family and friends more. ... Thu, 12 May 2016 15:59:18 EST Good/Bad Doctor News My foot doctor told me to get an insert for my foot with the bunion to see of that helps. It took a couple days to get used to it, but it does help. <BR> <BR> My Knee and Hand Doctor told me my cartilage is wearing away especially in my thumbs. He gave me a prescription that worked good the first week and not my thumbs are back to hurting all the time. <BR> <BR> The back doctor was the hardest one. I went for an MRI and had to pay A $150 CO-PAY. I never had to before. But I was glad I... Tue, 3 May 2016 21:23:21 EST Whew! Sherry started a new job today. So she wanted to take Helena and go up north to see relatives and friends. I must REALLY be crazy to agree to it! We left Tuesday night about 8:15 and took turns driving. It's just about impossible to sleep in the back seat of a car that has a baby seat in it. <BR> <BR> Nothing has changed about being up in Detroit. Even Sherry noticed it; she commented how everything is dirty and that she felt torn in 100 different directions. I learned quickly that I... Mon, 2 May 2016 15:37:30 EST Something I haven't Done in a Long Time I got up early, helped get the girls off to work and school, then went for a walk. I haven't been out on a walk at 7 am in what seems like forever. When I got back, I spend an hour on the yard picking up weeds and trimming bushes. Then I got right to house work. This is how I used to be about 5 years ago. And it felt good to know that I accomplished somethingl <BR> <BR> Bonus: 19503 steps, 8.32 miles 2071 calories Thu, 21 Apr 2016 21:11:42 EST Wonderful Weekend I had a wonderful weekend. Today is Sarah's birthday and we all spent the weekend doing things together. <BR> <BR> Saturday we shopped and went to church together. <BR> <BR> Sunday, we went to a "Bloom' Arts and Crafts" festival at St. Bernard's Monastery in Cullman. It's a beautiful place with lots of big, old buildings with great workmanship. There were a lot of vendors there selling a bit of everything. Some of the high school band members played music the whole time we were there.... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 21:17:23 EST Doctor Visits Update I saw a podiatrist last Thursday. A bunion on my right foot is causing arthritis in my toes and pain radiating through the middle of my foot. An insert was suggested as the first course of treatment. If that doesn't work surgery is needed. <BR> <BR> Today I saw another orthopedist for my thumbs and my knees. All the years of jump-roping and waitressing have caught up with me. The cartilage has worn away and it looks like it's bone-on-bone. Over-the-counter medicines hadn't worked so I ... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 20:34:32 EST Slowly I Move... March was not the best of months for my family. Neither was February for that matter. Now it's April. The first is my Sherry's birthday. It was such a joy to be laying in bed with Sherry and Helena and to hear Helena just start singing "Happy Birthday" to her mom. <BR> <BR> It did lift the spirits. I'm slowly starting to make me a priority again. I'm getting pro-active and made the doctor appointments I had been putting off. I am starting to work on projects again. I found out that ... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 11:47:51 EST NOT in the Job Description!!! I know that as a Mom and Grandma, my job description is pretty detailed. But, after being with Helena yesterday and last night as she battled a cold and allergies, I was awakened to a surprise. In the back yard was a dead raccoon. I didn't think that getting it up was in my job description. But I knew I couldn't leave it there for Helena to see it or for another creature to get it. So there I was in my pajamas attempting to shovel it into the garbage can. That sucker was heavier than I ... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 16:58:58 EST Easter is over; time to find a new fun routine! Easter was a bit off-kilter: still reeling from a sudden death of someone very close to us. We are a bit off-kilter and need to heal a bit. <BR> <BR> It's time to start a new routine: something that interests us all, gives us our own space a creativity and times, and keeps our minds and bodies moving and doing and learning. Ideas are welcome. <BR> <BR> I hope everyone enjoyed the weekend. Mon, 28 Mar 2016 22:05:25 EST Life Keeps Throwing Fast Balls Another young family member passed yesterday morning. This one hurts, but at least I know that she had health problems all her life. She's not hurting anymore. I do grieve for the rest of us especially her two young children. <BR> <BR> This gives me a chance to sit and think about me and my life. What am I grateful for? What do I want to do with my life right now? It's a hard way to get me motivated, but that it has done. <BR> <BR> Hold tight to those dear to you....let them know ... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 13:51:18 EST Answered Prayer...... My youngest daughter, Sherry, mother to Helena, has had a ROUGH year. She never did seem to have much luck in the relationship department. Last Labor Day weekend, she met a terrific guy named Ben. He really loves both girls very much. He is an answer to my prayer to God to have someone good in her life. <BR> <BR> He had to leave us on Tuesday, March 8. God decided that he was done with his journey on earth. Considering he would be 26 in April, this was a very short journey. Although ... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 18:51:09 EST Self-Lecture Time I let myself be down all weekend. I woke up this morning and said "That's ENOUGH!" Took some time to go over some of my goals, read a few articles, and am starting to plan my strategy to look at life differently. <BR> <BR> The first thing I want to do is to print my list of daily goals. Put this list in a few places where I am sure to look at them more. Then I want to make a small chart of goals: one that I can check things off every day, write down where I'm struggling/succeeding, and... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 11:29:04 EST It CAN"T be a Friday! The extra day screwed me up. wasn't the extra day, but this wasn't a normal Friday. I had to meet up with separated husband who has land of mine that he's supposed to be selling to give me the money. (Way too long a story...!) All morning I let my stomach work itself into a dither. He tends to talk a lot about himself and not listen so much as to what others say. I worried if I would have to hit him over the head or something....well, I could've got him drunk, but then I'd have to take him to Guntersville... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 20:24:10 EST It's March Already?!? Goals... Two months down this year already! Wow! I have accomplished things the first two months that have been on my to-do list. I've lost 8 pounds. My paper work is under control - complete with finish my taxes and my daughter's taxes. I am slowly getting back into the habit of doing my exercises in the morning. I've actually read a pattern and knitted a dish cloth. <BR> <BR> Now to think about my next goals to accomplish. <BR> 1. I will be taking a class next week to learn how to make a hat... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 08:51:25 EST Tried Something New Finally I ordered a stair stepper and a video just to try to motivate myself to try a different type of exercise. I also needed some motivation to get back into the habit of exercising in the morning. <BR> <BR> This morning, I did it. I only did the beginner work-out and then followed it with some familiar exercises. I did work up a sweat - the first time in a long time that I did that! I might me onto something good. Thu, 25 Feb 2016 10:56:12 EST Surprised Myself It was a beautiful day today, lots of sunshine and a few fluffy clouds. Helena and I spent a lot of time outside. My fitbit registers 24,539 steps today - the most I think I have ever done. 9.74 miles and 2221 calories burned. Now if I could just get back into the habit of doing all my exercises every day... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 20:36:54 EST Slowly I set Goals...inch by inch I have been so slow at sitting down, writing some goals, and figuring out how I am going to accomplish them. I have been thinking about them a lot lately, so I have a good idea on what they are. Why is it so hard for me to plan? Why is it hard to tackle them? <BR> <BR> People around me have been important to me and I willingly do a lot for them. I did notice that this time, coming back from Michigan, I have been not so quick to jump and do Sherry's chores. I think this will help. For... Sat, 13 Feb 2016 11:15:36 EST Attention: Seniors Seniors: Hints on How to Liven Up Your Idle Hours to Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity: <BR> 1. At lunch time sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. <BR> 2. On all your check stubs write “For Marijuana”. <BR> 3. Skip down the street rather than walk and see how many looks you get. <BR> 4. Order a diet water whenever you go out to eat with a serious look on your face. <BR> 5. Sing along with all the music in public. <BR> 6. When the money comes ou... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 20:16:31 EST Rested and Ready To Accomplish I was really tired all weekend. Instead of doing what I usually do - and that's keep pushing myself - I actually listened to my body and rested. I woke up this morning definitely feeling recharged. <BR> <BR> I will spend some time this morning planning out my week. I need to get back into the habit of writing down everything I eat. I realized that I am doing what I did when my girls were toddlers: I find myself taking bites of what Helena is/isn't eating. The calories will add up too qu... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 09:00:51 EST Another State, Another Adjustment Period I came back to Alabama on Thursday. I am definitely feeling torn and a little discombublated. I enjoyed my time with my Mom. For the first time in the last 3 years someone actually told me that now they see what I have been doing for her and how good I do it. It was wonderful to finally have someone, anyone say that. I definitely felt that no one really knew how much I did. I did it for Mom of course and will continue to do so. But I often felt like others were not pitching in and abus... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 11:58:48 EST In the Burbs Not Much Longer - maybe I am hoping that Tuesday night or Wednesday morning I will be able to head back to Alabama and 3 of the most beautiful girls in the world. There's a couple possible reasons for having to postpone it however. <BR> <BR> I went to the doctor yesterday. On a good note I have lost 8.2 pounds in the last 3 weeks. On an iffy note: I've had intestinal problems so I got blood drawn and had to take a stool sample to the hospital. The stool sample seems to be normal. But it will be Tuesday before... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 16:11:23 EST Still in the 'Burbs I'm tired of the day-to-day drama. But I realize what the culprit(s) is and I know what to do about it. It's a matter of avoiding certain situations and to let go of things I can't control. <BR> <BR> My moving around is somewhat limited. I'm committed to Mom for a few hour block in the middle of the day. It's hard to start and stop things. But I have been getting in my 10000 steps most days (I think there were 2 where I didn't - I was driving one of them and sitting in the hospital... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 10:55:32 EST "Burbs" Update Same old...same old...everything stayed the same. My exercise has taken a beating. My stress level has gone through the roof this time though. I am not sure why. Maybe it's that I have been away from the drama so long that I am getting used to living a somewhat normal life. <BR> <BR> I have been reminded that I need to come up on my terms and not on theirs. Bring my earplugs and don't listen to the petty hurtful comments. It's sad to know that certain family members are people that I... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 09:51:01 EST Back in the 'Burbs I got drafted AGAIN. I had to leave warm Alabama where I watch my adorable Helena to come up to Detroit to take care of Mom and one of my nieces. <BR> <BR> My niece has been going to Mom's 3 days a week to get her cleaned up and dressed for the day. She helps her with whatever she needs. My 2nd oldest sister came on Tuesdays and spent the whole day with Mom. She went to Florida with her husband. <BR> <BR> My niece had to have surgery Thursday and will be out of commission for at least... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 12:15:23 EST Discouraging Doctor Visit I went to the doctor to get refills on my prescriptions before I have to go to Michigan for a couple weeks to take care of Mom. I stepped on the scale and got quite a shock. I am heavier than I have been in awhile. I know the holidays have just ended. There was more wine consumed than normal. So...cut out the wine, exercise more, eat better and see what happens next time at the doctor's office. Ouch! Sat, 9 Jan 2016 13:33:11 EST New Beginnings, 2016 I hope that everyone had a great holiday season. I know I did, but now I am ready to move on and get 2016 started. <BR> <BR> My numbers were up last week. I didn't think I did anything special, but was still glad that they increased. Steps: 100783/71421, miles 39.96/28.28, calories burned 13488/11875. One goal of mine this month is to seek various work outs to see if I like any better and to see if I can shake things up a bit. <BR> <BR> This is my year to organize. How many times hav... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 14:02:56 EST I Can Tell it's the Holidays I compared my numbers from last week to the week before. I sure can see where there was the holiday rush to get things done and then the relax mode that I went in to. I'm glad I looked at them. It motivates me to get moving a little more today. Tue, 29 Dec 2015 13:31:58 EST Aced Christmas Helena turned 18 months old yesterday. Everything I got her she absolutely LOVED. She squealed with glee upon opening each present. She's still playing with everything. I don't remember my girls staying occupied that long. It made me feel so good. I realized that I know her very well to be able to pick out things that she enjoys so much. <BR> <BR> I truly realize how many miracles and blessings I have in my life. Thank you, God! Mon, 28 Dec 2015 14:35:43 EST Charlie Brown Christmas Every Year, not matter what our age and where we are (even if we are apart), my brother and I watch all the cartoon Christmas specials. It's just a tradition with us. We love the Charlie Brown Christmas and Rudolph the most. <BR> <BR> I always remember Charlie bring back this tree that looked as if it would die at any minute. Linus stepped in and, only as a child can, explained the meaning of Christmas. It was magnificent. I remember how the tree looked when they were done decorating. <... Thu, 17 Dec 2015 21:28:53 EST Progress Report I am getting back on track as far as my exercise and walking habits. I got more steps in last week than the week before. I've been spending time outdoors again and had forgotten how good that makes me feel. Now to find some trails.... <BR> <BR> I've come to terms with some family members and have learned to walk away from some things: no blame, some regrets and sadness, but feeling mentally healthier. Mom is doing somewhat better and I am grateful that she has people around her all the t... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 12:09:36 EST Better and Worse at Some Things I got out of some of my habits. So, I have been working on getting back into them. On some things I am better; on others, it's the same or worse. <BR> <BR> I am eating less processed foods. I am more conscious of the sodium and the sugar in things. I am now a label-reader. Thank you, my baby Sherry. <BR> <BR> I used to exercise first thing every morning. With the coming of Helena, that changed. I am working on getting back into that habit. Not quite there yet, but close. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 4 Dec 2015 12:15:24 EST This Time of Year I... I hit a bump in the road and get a little depressed. I know it comes the same time every year. I hate myself for letting it come. But I have learned a little about making it go away. <BR> <BR> First, I recognize that it will happen and when it gets here. If I don't admit to something, I can't change it. <BR> <BR> Second, I make plans. I re-evaluate. I give my time and/or money to those who desperately need it. I do little things for people that don't expect it. I find new things for... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 13:26:38 EST Celebrate Your Unique Talent November 24 is Celebrate Your Unique Talent Day. Even if we don't think about it or admit it, we all DO have a unique talent. Each and every one of us has the unique talent of wanting to improve ourselves and we took the first step by joining Spark People. <BR> <BR> So, on November 24, and every day this week, and every day until forever, remember: YOU ARE SPECIAL. YOU HAVE A UNIQUE TALENT. I LOVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE, NOT WHAT YOU THINK YOU LOOK LIKE. <BR> <BR> No matter if you are... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 17:30:25 EST "Crazy Busy with Emotions Added" Recipe We accepted an offer on Mom's house. <em>244</em> That means she'll have more means to stay in the assisted living place that she's finally accustomed to. But, I always said there are three sides to every story. The second side is that we will no longer be able to "go back home" that's been the home to the family for 61 years. It's definitely nostalgic...all the memories we shared - most of them happy. <BR> <BR> The third side of the story is that the house and garage must be emptie... Tue, 10 Nov 2015 17:15:33 EST Confusion between Months and Years Sherry called me on her was home from work and getting Helena from daycare. She told me that she was at the 4 way stop and that she desperately needed me to meet her outside because she needed help with Helena. <BR> <BR> I threw on my shoes and hoodie and went outside. They pulled into the driveway and I opened Helena's door. Then I stood there and laughed and laughed. I was no help at all for the first few minutes. <BR> <BR> Today Helena is 16 months old. As every child, she is a spon... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 21:36:04 EST Can't Say I have Dull Moments Helena was home with me yesterday with a runny nose. I put her on her tricycle with her new baby doll to take a tour of the house. We got to the back door to find two deer standing in the middle of the yard just looking at us. She thought that was so cool! She keeps looking for them to come back. <BR> <BR> She at the lovely age of I week shy of her 16 month birthday. Her interests mostly are seeing what she can climb and what's in this cupboard here? Coming up with things to keep her ... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 22:17:59 EST Gumby Has Been Stretched Way Too Far I feel like Gumby - stretched a million ways and in a million directions. I have no energy, no desire, etc. Hitting bottom was uncomfortable and I am slowly trying to mend and start climbing back up. <BR> <BR> There have been lots of sicknesses in Alabama and in Michigan. The same bad apples have stirred the pot as much as they think they could. At least one has realized that I don't back down and I know what I am talking about. It still took the wind out of my sails and I haven't gott... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 22:56:52 EST Long but Satisfying Week Sherry had to spend long hours at work this week. Which,in turn, means that Grandma and Helena are buddies longer. I slept with her two nights in a row because Sherry had to work late. I didn't have to last night and kept waking up missing her. <BR> <BR> We all went to an Oktoberfest on Redstone Arsenal today and had a great time. Helena's little face was lit up like a Christmas tree when we went on the merry-go-round. It didn't matter that it was a German band playing in the tent. Sh... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 20:52:51 EST 9/15/15 Week in Review My baby niece and old Goddaughter turned 20 today. I told her we wouldn't talk about age. I felt that I had to act grown-up when I turned that age - I wasn't a teenager anymore. I know now that it's good to act like a kid at times; it keeps me young. <BR> <BR> When I was 18, the legal drinking age in Michigan was 18. I was still in high school and did see where that could be a problem. When I turned 20, Michigan changed the legal age to 21. So, for 8 months, I wasn't legal. I got to... Tue, 15 Sep 2015 22:32:32 EST Difficult Time Lately I know the last month has been very stressful. My routine (or what little I had) has gone out of the window. I am afraid my health may be suffering but am not sure what is going on. I wonder if anyone else has run into this problem. <BR> <BR> I do take medication for ADD. I know that if I get interrupted or am stressed, it's easy for me to forget things and get even more stressed. I get anxious at times and do take something at night for that. <BR> <BR> Lately, my daughter has told m... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 17:22:27 EST 9/7/2015 Week in Review Somehow my Tracker got signals mixed up with the site. It's showing 0 for the week before last. I know my numbers are down because I spent the week chasing after Helena and helping Sherry get the house ready for friends coming in town. The breezed in Saturday morning, slept most of the time, and left early this morning. Needless to say,Sherry was disappointed. Hoping to get back into a routine tomorrow. Mon, 7 Sep 2015 14:46:48 EST 9/7/2015 Week in Review Somehow my Tracker got signals mixed up with the site. It's showing 0 for the week before last. I know my numbers are down because I spent the week chasing after Helena and helping Sherry get the house ready for friends coming in town. The breezed in Saturday morning, slept most of the time, and left early this morning. Needless to say,Sherry was disappointed. Hoping to get back into a routine tomorrow. Mon, 7 Sep 2015 14:46:45 EST Still Could Grumble The week has been crazy. I started out sick. My computer is on the fritz. Helena cut her finger on my watch Tuesday and we made another hospital run. They debated on a stitch, but it is right where her right pointer finger meets her nail. The nail would have to come off. So..Nix that one. I've been running around putting band aids on it only to step on them and have them stick to my sock within 2 minutes. She's a Whodini in practice and she's darn good. And she's old enough now to ta... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 00:22:56 EST I could pick grumbling under my breath or wahwahwahwahwah In addition to not feeling well at all, I had someone totally take advantage of me and not think I really was sick, and my computer gave me fits. I know I got my steps in today and it's showing I got 1 in. <BR> <BR> So, like cartoons, I am alternating grumbling under my breath so no one can understand me and using the voices of the adults in the Charlie Brown shows: trumpets, no words, just wahwahwahwahwah. One day I will download off my phone the Charlie Brown Christmas Tree that I foun... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 22:06:57 EST What a Way to SpendThe Last Unofficial Week of Summer I finally got on an additional medicine for my hypothyroidism. I felt like it was kicking in and helping me not feel so fatigued. And...the person who stays home and plays with Helena all day has a summer cold. BAM (I feel like Emeril when I do that) ABSOLUTELY FEELING LOUSY. So, I haven't done much but lay around. I am not wanting to see my spark report for next week. Sat, 29 Aug 2015 21:24:19 EST 8/25/2015 Last week's review Disappointed in myself is all I can say. It was a different sort of week. Helena's schedule seems to be changing almost as much as her mouth is right now. She's getting so many teeth that we don't know if she's coming or going. Her sleep pattern is off. She is in need of a little more attention and comfort. <BR> <BR> It didn't help that Sarah went up to Michigan, grabbed a lot of Sherry's stuff, and drove down with it and their Dad. So they spent the weekend frantically getting stuff... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 21:49:34 EST It's Great to Have a Good Doctor Now that I'm in Alabama again, I get to go back to doctors that I believe are great. Two of the doctors that did surgery on my back are here. My gynecologist that did my surgeries is here. <BR> <BR> The doctor that diagnosed my hypothyroidism is here. He's the one I just went to for my check-up. My pap came back normal, as did my 3-D mammogram (it does make a difference!). The bone density test showed my hips were weak spots. But he went over my blood work thoroughly with me and deci... Fri, 21 Aug 2015 16:13:43 EST 8/17/2015 Week in Review My numbers were a little down from the week before. But I was very tired one day and didn't get many steps in. But, I had an off day one day and I got to keep Helena busy while the girls painted. <BR> steps: 113296 / 122144 minutes: 1762 / 1844 calories: 4473 / 4674 <BR> miles: 4834 / 4930 <BR> <BR> Hoping this week is a little more productive. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 17 Aug 2015 19:34:43 EST