PATTYJ48's SparkPeople Blog PATTYJ48's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Now is my Time After a long battle with dementia, my mother passed away last Sunday with my brothers and I by her side. We are thankful that she no longer hurts and is at peace. <BR> <BR> So now it is time for me to take care of myself. I have realized that these past 2-3 years I have neglected myself to help take care of her. I have returned to drinking soda and making poor food choices. I have also stopped exercising. What has it done to me? I am at my heaviest at 266 pounds, feel tired, ache and a... Sat, 25 Feb 2017 11:20:38 EST Circle of Life What a time it has been the last couple of weeks. My mom has been dealing with Dementia the past 7 years and Monday we had to put her into Hospice. My heart is breaking as I type this but I know that it is what she needs. We want to keep her pain free and let her pass with dignity. I shall treasure the times she and I spent together these past 7 years as I learned patience and understanding along with things about my mother I never knew before. <BR> <BR> I have the knowledge that she k... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 12:45:37 EST I Feel Good First of all thank you to all the Sparkers who gave me good words of encouragement and support on my last Blog. <BR> <BR> The first three days of changing my diet were pretty rough. I am sure it was a huge sugar withdrawal that I was going through. I am proud to say I have been soda free for 4 days and do not even miss it. I didn't realize until now how much I was in the grip of the sugar and caffeine in Coke a Cola. When I actually put what I was drinking I was astounded by how many was... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 13:47:13 EST Cannot Avoid the Truth Any Longer I had an early morning doctor's appointment and cannot hide what is happening. I am diabetic and she is giving me one more chance to get my A1C under control....or I will be on insulin. I was on the right track a couple years ago and then my mom needed help (she has dementia)...I have put everyone else before myself but will no longer be doing that. If I cannot help myself to become healthy, I won't be able to help anyone else. <BR> <BR> Today I pledge to walk the path of self care and ... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 09:04:23 EST SUMMER CAMP - BLC 31 The Biggest Loser Challenge (also known as the BLC) is a 15 week challenge that was INSPIRED by, but not based on the TV show of the same name. We have been around for 9+ years encouraging HEALTHY weight loss and fitness by helping you on your journey towards your goals. During the busy summer months, we have a Summer Camp round which runs for 8 weeks. <BR> <BR> What is it YOU need to reach your goals? Do you need lots of SUPPORT, to be CHALLENGED, to focus on NUTRITION, EXERCISE, or some c... Wed, 11 May 2016 09:40:07 EST BLC (BIGGEST LOSER CHALLENGE) IS REGISTERING NOW! BLC (BIGGEST LOSER CHALLENGE) IS REGISTERING NOW! <BR> <BR> The Biggest Loser Challenge (also known as the BLC) is a 15 week challenge that was INSPIRED by, but not based on the TV show of the same name. We have been around for 9+ years encouraging HEALTHY weight loss and fitness by helping you on your journey towards your goals. During the busy summer months, we have a Summer Camp round which runs for 8 weeks. <BR> <BR> What is it YOU need to reach your goals? Do you need lots of SUPPORT... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 11:00:08 EST Living a Healthier Lifestyle Agreement <BR> Knowing the importance of living a healthy lifestyle, I agree to the following: <BR> <BR> 1. 20 minutes a day at least 5 x a week of cardio and 15 minutes of additional exercise. <BR> 2. Strength training at least 3 x a week. <BR> 3. Walk between 6,000-8,000 steps daily. <BR> 4. Spend 10 minutes logging my food and fitness. <BR> 5. Plan and prepare all food for the week. Have everything ready to grab in the morning. <BR> 6. Drink at least 64 oz of water daily. <BR> 7. Avoid alcohol a... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 16:24:45 EST Reality Looking You In the Face Yesterday I had a followup appointment at the doctor's office. Because my A1C is still above 7, my metformin has been increased to 2,000 milligrams a day. This doctor took the time to explain to me what would happen if I do not change my eating habits, start exercising again and take care of myself. I DO NOT want to become insulin dependent. <BR> <BR> Today I am changing my eating habits and will get in at least 30 minutes of cardio exercise today. She has given me until March to lower... Thu, 10 Dec 2015 10:21:27 EST What a Difference a Heath Coach Makes I haven't been on in a while because I have been concentrating on myself. At work we now have a wellness center for the employees. One of the perks to this wellness center is a free health coach. I signed up and met with Heather last week. We set up a plan for me to get back to exercise and a more healthy diet. I have a follow up appointment with her next week. <BR> <BR> During our appointment she suggested I have them test my hormone levels. So Wednesday I was back in to see the nur... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 10:42:25 EST Taking a Look At Myself This past week, I have been taking a long hard look at myself. What started this introspection was a confrontation with an emotional acquaintance last Friday. She accused me of not liking her and specifically picking her out to not like. This was a complete shock to me as I did not realize that because she annoys me it translated to her that I didn't like her. <BR> <BR> I have always tried to be a friendly, welcoming person but over the years I must have stopped being able to hide how I f... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 16:11:57 EST Getting It All Figured Out I have been spending the past month figuring out the following: <BR> <BR> 1. Remembering to take my blood sugar test in the morning and trying to pick the right spot in my finger to lance. You have tiny blood vessels in your finger and twice I have hit one of those which hurts. <BR> <BR> 2. Remembering to record the number from the sugar test and when I take my first pill and when I take my second pill. <BR> <BR> 3. Remembering to take the blood sugar pill. I forgot to take one this m... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 09:41:18 EST Take Care of Yourself I haven't been on in over a week because I have been dealing with doctor and dentist appointments and am now going to be seeing my doctor next week. I had blood work completed last week and I know that I will be seeing the doctor next week because the diagnosis is diabetes. She will be putting me on medication and I will be changing my eating and exercise habits to hopefully change things around. When I went to the dentist recently, I found I have periodontal disease which goes hand in han... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 13:02:27 EST 100 Days of Weight Loss--Day 2 So today was about being interested or committed. If you are interested in living a healthier lifestyle, you are easily swayed to get off track. However, if you are committed you will do it any way, no matter what. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I would have to say that I was interested. Even after I had posted what changed I would be making, I easily let myself eat unhealthy fried food with the excuse I was working at the fish fry. Now I did only drink water and could have easily drank soda inst... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 19:57:38 EST 100 Days of Weight Loss--Day 1 Weight--268 <BR> <BR> Breakfast--1 whole wheat thin round, 1 TBS peanutbutter, 1 cup 1% milk <BR> <BR> Day 1 of Book: <BR> <BR> I used to be that way... <BR> <BR> This section of the book talks about changing your way of thinking. Starting today I will eliminate the belief that things always go a certain way or that I will never stay with my goals. When doubts creep back in I will say: <BR> <BR> I used to be that way, but now I'm different! <BR> <BR> I will look at my old negative pat... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 10:26:07 EST 100 Days of Weight Loss It has been said that there is no time like the present to start something. I am taking today as my present and am starting 100 Days of Weight Loss. A friend recommended this book to me. So today I start out at 265 pounds which is the largest I have every weighed. My feet hurt, I feel miserable, my clothes do not fit so I have had to buy bigger pants and shirts and I am always tired. <BR> <BR> Starting today: <BR> <BR> 1. 5 servings of fruits and veggies every day <BR> 2. lean protein... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 16:42:38 EST Spring 5% Challenge Will Be Starting Soon At the beginning of January, I joined a Winter 5% Challenge. It was very fun and I learned a lot from the challenge. We will be starting the Spring 5% Challenge in a few weeks. If you are interested in joining the challenge, click on the link below to join. Last challenge I was on the Starfish team and hope to be on it again. However, I would be happy to be on any of the teams. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ndividual.asp?gid=64746 </link> <BR> <BR> What ... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 13:40:58 EST Winter 5% Challenge Exercise Commitment My Exercise Commitment will be: <BR> <BR> Cardio <BR> Walk 30 minutes Monday through Sunday <BR> <BR> Strength Training <BR> 30 minutes Mon, Wed, Friday <BR> <BR> Toning <BR> 30 minutes Tues, Thurs & Sat <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 2 Jan 2015 23:19:20 EST Starting Over Again I am sitting at home as the snow is falling and am wondering how I got to this point again. Almost 2 years ago I had lost 30 pounds only to gain it and 10 more pounds back. I could beat myself up about it, but I think it is more important to figure out why I am back to square one. <BR> <BR> 1. I know that my current lifestyle of inactivity and poor food choices and keeping me from being healthy. I know I should avoid sugar and that I need to fuel my body with great food choices. Poor ea... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 18:01:21 EST Start of the New BLC Wednesday is weigh in day for the 26th round of the BLC. This round I am with the Blue Lion Trackers who have an open tracker policy. What goes in your smacker goes in the tracker. I know this will help me as I have been making poor food choice for a long time now. <BR> <BR> Plan: <BR> <BR> 1. Bring lunch and health snacks to work <BR> 2. Get out and walk at lunch to get at least 10,000 steps in <BR> 3. Bring clothes to go to Y after work to work out <BR> 4. Plan meals--a friend on... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 16:38:17 EST Worried I just needed a place to vent this morning. My DH is working on a house that his sister is building along a river. The river was up high this past weekend because of all the rain. He was out there all day yesterday putting in her plumbing because they had just set the foundation last week. He never came home last night and I am worried about him. His other sister has a house next door that is their "summer home" and I am guessing he worked late and stayed there. I woke up at 2 am this m... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 06:49:23 EST BLC 26 Registration is Now Open!!!! Are you ready to do something for YOU this fall? <em>128</em> It's TIME! The Registration Team for BLC 26 is NOW OPEN! Follow the LINK below to save your spot! We have LOTS of different teams that provide SUPPORT, ENCOURAGEMENT and if necessary, that KICK in the behind to get you moving towards your goals! <BR> <BR> Make sure that you JOIN the team, then follow the STEPS that will get you REGISTERED! <BR> <BR> Make sure that you follow the link and join the team before it goes PRIVATE... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 15:09:19 EST Good Things Eventually Happen This week is my last week at a job I have been at for 11 years. On Friday I start my new job that I am so looking forward to. I was feeling a bit nostalgic and questioning was I making a good decision or not. I went upstairs to talk to a friend who informed me that when my boss decided to post for my position, she upgraded the requirements which means my old position is now at a much higher pay scale than when I was working here. At first this bummed me out that she never went to the trou... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 11:45:42 EST My Plans during BLC Break So sad to see this round of the BLC end. I was on a great team, the Sunset Stingrays. This is our last week and one of the challenges is to make a plan on how to maintain or continue to lose during the break. I plan to continue to lose as follows: <BR> <BR> 1. Track all food consumed (the good, the bad and the ugly) <BR> 2. Stop drinking soda and get back to drinking just water <BR> 3. Get back on a regular fitness routine. NO EXCUSES!! <BR> <BR> I had a couple NSV's this round. Whi... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 17:34:14 EST Why do I let people push my buttons? I can't get a hold of my DH right now to talk to him because he is on a job at work, so I am turning to my blog so I can get this guilt and anger out of my system. <BR> <BR> About 5 years ago I reconnected with my brothers that I hadn't seen in over 30 years. I went so far as to pick one up from St. Louis MO and bring him back to Northwest Indiana. I felt that I was honoring our mother because this is something she would have done. My DH and I helped him get settled with giving him furnit... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 20:30:08 EST Friday, June 13, 2014--WHY??????? Ok it has been over a month since I have written a blog on SparkPeople or really looked at myself. Today was a wake up call because I got a glimpse of myself in a window while walking back to work from lunch. I did not like what I saw in the window and I am not writing this so that everyone will feel sorry for me but am writing it because I need to admit to myself that I need to do something and stick to it. I have let myself gain back the weight I lost last year. WHY???? <BR> <BR> T... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 15:01:36 EST Life is Good To go to the Y or not go to the Y this morning was the question. I am on a now 5 day streak of going to the Y but this morning I was tempted not to go and wait until later. REALLY?????? I know that never works out. Well I checked my text messages on my phone and there was one from my daughter. She wants to take me out for margaritas tonight to celebrate Mother's Day. That made me realize that if I didn't go to the Y before work, I wouldn't be getting there. So I put my clothes on and g... Wed, 7 May 2014 09:55:35 EST BLC25 Fitness Test <em>320</em> 40 pushups modified <BR> <em>402</em> 20 crunches <BR> 1 mile walk 17.41 min <BR> 3 minute step up on 12 inch step pulse--136 <BR> <BR> I can do better!!! <em>104</em> Sun, 4 May 2014 14:39:05 EST Friday, May 2--A new beginning I have joined the BLC25 challenge and am also doing the BTS2 challenge. For BLC one of our challenges this weekend is to set our 12 week goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Stop the madness--Last year I had lost 30 pound by the summer and then somehow just gave up on exercise and eating clean. I am determined to use these 12 weeks to get back on track. <BR> 2. Get back to exercising every day in the morning before work--I use to go every morning when the Y opened. Then I injured myself in August and used... Fri, 2 May 2014 15:17:06 EST April 9, 2014--Left Out From a very early age, we have all learned that some people will only play with certain people, eat lunch with the same people or just prefer certain people. I am not like that. I like to meet different people and take the time to get know people. I can honestly say that I have never met someone I didn't like because of who they are. Some time you may not care for what other people do, say or look like, but they are still a person with feelings. <BR> <BR> The reason I am writing about t... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 13:57:57 EST Sunday, March 16, 2014--Get Out of the Danger Zone I am up early today and have the need for some self reflection as to where my healthy lifestyle journey is going. <BR> <BR> In the past 6 months, I have taken a bad detour from my journey. I have allowed sugar and soda back into my diet and have not been exercising like I should. I know that the reason for this is stress and boredom. I have been going through a very stressful time with family and work. There have been a lot of changes in my office and I have become very bored with my job... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 09:00:43 EST Join Beyond the Scales Quarter 2--10 week challenge If you are interested in joining a challenge that will help you with accountability and support, check out Beyond the Scales which will begin April 7th and run through June 16th. This challenge will run for 10 weeks. Below is a link to the registration page: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ndividual.asp?gid=62659 </link> <BR> <BR> BTS Motto : <BR> <BR> BEYOND THE SCALE : <BR> <BR> We are a team of members that will learn how to live this health journey tog... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 19:06:39 EST Monday, February 3, 2014--Weight Loss Goals I just read my friend Steph-anee's blog on her plan to lose weight this year. She had a specific date that she wants to lose the weight for (a trip to Florida). This has inspired me to set out my own goals: <BR> <BR> February 3--Current weight 233.6 <BR> March 3--228 <BR> April 3--223 <BR> May 3--218 <BR> June 3--213 <BR> July 3--208 <BR> August 3--203 <BR> September 3--198--Onederland <BR> October 3--193 <BR> November 3--188 <BR> December 3--185 (only 35 pounds from goal weight) <BR> <B... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 06:20:50 EST Tuesday--January 21, 2014--Another Wakeup Call A year ago I started on my journey to a healthier me. I have been able to keep off 15 of the pounds I lost during the past year. Today I was on facebook looking at photos that people had tagged me in. YIKES!!!! I cannot believe how out of control I was and how much weight I had gained. Looking back on these photos has made me more determined than ever to become healthy. Tomorrow I will be turning 52 and do not want to continue living life as a morbidly obese woman. This is my plan of a... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 15:34:58 EST Friday--January 17, 2014--I am back on track Many good things have happened today: <BR> <BR> 1. I found my lost fitbit in my purse and have named it Fitbit Freddie so that maybe I will be more responsible with him. <BR> 2. I did 60 minutes of cardio at the Y this morning. <BR> 3. Breakfast was oatmeal (plain) with a gala apple chopped and walnuts--Yum. <BR> 4. I was really craving 5 guys burgers at lunch time but went for a chicken salad with ranch dressing and a large glass of water for 560 calories. <BR> 5. I went to Kohls to pu... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 17:03:15 EST Monday--January 6, 2014--Beginning the Journey Again Today we started BTS and I weighed in at 236.8. I have gained back almost 20 pounds that I lost last year, but I am not going to dwell on it but am going to press forward and try to reach my goal this year and stay on track. <BR> <BR> I just joined weight watchers on line and look forward to getting back on track. Below is a copy of what I am having for lunch: chicken breast marinated in italian dressing with yellow and green zucchini: <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 6 Jan 2014 13:50:14 EST Friday, January 3, 2014--Getting Back on Track BTS--Beyond the Scales begins this Monday and now is a great time to set my goals for this 10 week challenge. During the break between BCL23 and the beginning of BTS, I have fallen off of my exercise habits and healthy eating. My body has been yelling at me in more ways than one about the big mistake I have made in going rogue. <BR> <BR> This is how I plan to get back on track: <BR> <BR> 1. Tonight--clean out the pantry, refrigerator and all the cabinets in the house. Get rid of poor ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 12:54:03 EST Tuesday, December 17, 2013--I am invisible I have always been treated as if I am invisible, yet if there is a problem to be solved or something that needs to be done, they come and find me. <BR> <BR> Today is exceptionally hard. My boss came in today and told me the only reason she came in is because IT is having their pot luck and she wanted to go to that. Now IT Is the department that is moving into our area once Financial Aid moves. Our department is just the 2 of us and it sucks that they invited her and not me or she simply f... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 10:36:59 EST Tuesday, December 10, 2013--Tuesday Blues Today I am back to feeling pretty blue. It all started yesterday. We had an office Christmas party after work. My DH was going to meet me there but I arrived early and couldn't make myself go into the party room. I haven't felt like this since my father died about 6 years ago. I finally made myself go in and we enjoyed the evening. <BR> <BR> Then today I was in painting class. The Professor had critiqued our paintings last Thursday and I made the changes she suggested. I thought my pa... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 17:19:30 EST Friday, November 22, 2013--Feeling Better Today Good morning Sparkers!!! I am feeling much better today, although I have a sinus headache. I believe the Zumba class helped me a lot. I also found out that my two person department has been welcomed into another larger department that will be moving into our space in January. Opportunities to actually interact with other people. Yes. <BR> <BR> Thank you for everyone who gave me advice and support with my blues yesterday. Great suggestions and I will be calling my buddies this weekend ... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 07:13:38 EST Thursday, November 21, 2013--Is it me, or is it hormones???? For some reason lately, I have been feeling pretty blue. It has become so bad that I will tear up at the drop of a hat. I don't know if it is partly the weather or the time of year. Maybe it is hormones and I am beginning to go through the change of life. <BR> <BR> I have become highly sensitive again which I do not like. I am taking a lot of things personally that I probably shouldn't both at work and elsewhere. I think this all started at the beginning of September. I know that part ... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 10:32:31 EST Sunday, November 10, 2013--I am strong Today has been difficult day. It started out as usual with working out, going to religious ed to teach, but after religious ed I received a call from my brother. He lives with my mom who has dementia and is slowly getting worse. He called to let me know that my mother had stopped taking her medication about 4 months ago, became lost an hour away from home while driving to the next town, and hit a pedestrian back in September with her car. To say I was completely at a loss as to how to res... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 18:09:29 EST October 30, 2013--Discovering Yourself I have been taking an oil painting class and our last assignment was to create an abstract self-portrait. At first I was going to paint something that was very busy and complicated. My professor convinced me to simplify the painting. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I posted it on facebook, I asked my friends what they saw of me in the painting. One of my teammates said : *I* see YOU breaking free of any barriers holding you ... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 09:12:15 EST October 21, 2013--Stress Eating Today is my 24th anniversary with my DH Stan. He is my rock and love and I was looking forward to spending our anniversary together tonight. He gives me a kiss this morning and we wish each other a happy anniversary and head on out to work. <BR> <BR> THE WORK DAY <BR> <BR> It is a busy time of year where I work and there is a lot for me to do. I am in my grove getting things accomplished, when I get an email from an accountant I have working on a not-for-profit organization's taxes. I ... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 18:19:35 EST October 15, 2013--Diabetes is Not Funny I had to close my office door today because the office workers out front were cracking jokes about Diabetes. Being diagnosed border-line diabetic and having friends and family member who are diabetic, I did not find jokes about feet turning black and being cut off funny. I let them know when I closed my door that I am diabetic and did not appreciate their jokes about the disease. <BR> <BR> Which brings me around to obesity. I am also considered obese and realize that it is a disease tha... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 10:22:15 EST Thursday--October 10, 2013--Stay Young My Friend This is from an email a dear friend sent me: <BR> <BR> We all need to read this one over and over until it becomes part of whom we are. <BR> <BR> HOW TO STAY YOUNG <BR> <BR> 1. Try everything twice. On one woman's tombstone she said she wanted this epitaph: "Tried everything twice. Loved it both times!" <BR> <BR> 2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down. <BR> (Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!) <BR> <BR> 3. Keep learning: Learn more about the computer... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 15:19:21 EST Tuesday--October 8, 2013--BLC 23 Is what you make it This is the second week of the BLC 23 and I thought it would be good to reflect back on when I started BLC 21 and what has kept me doing the BLC. <BR> <BR> When I first started BLC21, I was really determined to lose weight. However, I was not prepared for all the work I would need to do to change my lifestyle. I really thought our captain was a tyrant with a whip requiring me to do challenges, track everything, chat on the page, sparkfriend the whole team and then also join facebook. Was ... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 11:36:57 EST Sunday, October 6, 2013--So Glad to Be Home What a week I have had. I have been to Charleston, SC, Myrtle Beach, SC and then Lake Grove, NY. I have flown on 5 different planes this week and am so glad to be home back in good old Indiana. <BR> <BR> What I learned on this trip is that I could find ways to get my exercise in. I had so much fun walking on the beach in South Carolina and then walking around the airports to get my walking in. I was in complete control of what I ate and drank. However, I did indulge in 2 glasses of Pi... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 20:24:26 EST Thursday, September 26, 2013--Obstacles and Strengths Our TNT challenge has a part where we need to list some obstacles and strengths we will have on this 12 week journey. <BR> <BR> Obstacles <BR> 1. A tailgate party on Saturday <BR> 2. Going to a work conference out of town and then to my sister's house <BR> 3. Thanksgiving <BR> 4. Stress eating <BR> <BR> Strengths <BR> 1. I am strong enough to say no to things I should not eat. <BR> 2. I know how to plan to take food I can eat to the tailgate party and will get extra walking in while th... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 22:56:47 EST Tuesday, September 24, 2013--Gonna Make A Change This morning as I was working out at the Y, Michael Jackson's song Man in the Mirror came on and it is all about making a change to make the world better. However, this song spoke to me about making a change in my life to make my life better. What changes will I make: <BR> <BR> 1. Commit--Fully commit to becoming a healthier me. I have been taking detours off of my path to a healthier me. Sometimes it is eating what I shouldn't eat or being too lazy to work out. I know that I will nee... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 09:30:59 EST Monday, September 23, 2013--Get Ready for BLC23 Received the challenge for the week starting this Wednesday. Getting ready to get back to eating healthy and getting my fitness on. <BR> <BR> Are you ready? Mon, 23 Sep 2013 17:06:09 EST