PATIENTSAM's SparkPeople Blog PATIENTSAM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A different me Yesterday I was thinking on my weight loss journey. Although it has been a constant battle for me my whole life, I feel like I'm making progress. I'm down 122 lbs from my highest, although it did not happen overnight. <BR> <BR> I am seeing so many changes in me. I walk, walk, walk like crazy. This year alone I have logged about 1100 miles. That is huge for me. It is so ingrained in me now, whereas before I was doing well if I walked that much in 10 years. Walking is just a part of me now an... Tue, 16 Aug 2016 12:36:36 EST Sugar 2 Well, this after noon is turning to be into more of a challenge. I want something to nosh on, like a cracker or something. I allowed myself to have half of a banana, but it's not cutting it. But I'm going to fight this and not give in. Too much is at stake Mon, 6 Jun 2016 17:44:32 EST Sugar I just joined a challenge to beat sugar cravings. I've been off of sugar for about 5 days now and don't really crave it or miss it. I decided to do this because of issues I've been having with my body...digestive stuff I believe. Hoping this will help. I've also eliminated dairy and gluten Sun, 5 Jun 2016 14:14:10 EST vacation i just got back from a mini vacation. I planned my menus ahead of time as best as I could. I brought along my Shaklee smoothie mix and milk for breakfast and lunch. I like to make milk cubes so the smoothies are really cold and slushy without losing extra flavor. I brought a ton of vegetables with. I brought chicken breasts. And fruit. All good things!! <BR> When we arrived at our destination, I was thrown for a loop. The fridge there was a very small dorm fridge. So the freezer was basically... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 12:04:20 EST deep dish pizza A few days ago my husband suggested we have deep dish pizza for dinner. We have found a frozen one that is not too bad. My initial reaction was no way. I can't afford to eat that. But the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to have some. <BR> So I decided to figure out how it could be included in my meal plan. Typically when I eat pizza, I have a hard time stopping at just one serving. The little pizza we had said it serves 8 and I usually eat half!! YIKES!! <BR> But I really wanted t... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 12:21:17 EST Bathroom scale I think God is giving me a sign that I need to quit using my scale. I let it affect me way too much. Anyway, these last several weeks, when I weigh myself, I have noticed my scale to be a bit wacko. I have a habit of weighing myself more than once (just to make sure the scale isn't lying!) and lately it can vary as much as 10 lbs! in just a few seconds. So now I have no idea if the lower number is right (I doubt it), the upper number is more of a fact (I sure hope not...) or if is somewhere i... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 09:18:49 EST one of those days...sigh These past few days I have been doing very well on my plan. This morning I just want to bake, which I will not be doing! <BR> So much going on in my life, but I will be strong. <BR> I need to find a job and have not really worked outside of the home much for the last 30 years. <BR> We have some kind of animal living in our wall and we need to call someone to get it out...big expense... <BR> Our water is not working so I am unable to drink my water. Water main break on the next street. ugh...... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 14:25:04 EST dining out Well, last night we did end up going out to eat. Just as I had planned for, my husband did order that appetizer-bloomin onion. Yes, I know the thing is not in the least bit healthy, (although my husband tried to counter that being an onion and all) but I wanted to have some. So I did. Not sure if not having the sauce with it is a saving point or not, but I don't like the sauce anyway and hopefully saved a few calories by not eating it. I had planned on being able to eat the onion. ... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 12:27:50 EST Out to eat My husband has decided he wants to go out to eat tonight again. He is very partial to steak and wants to go to his favorite restaurant. He wants me to be excited about this place too, but I am not a steak fan in the least. They have chicken items on the menu, but I HATE going out to eat and ordering a "grilled chicken breast"!! Give me a break! I can make that myself at home and for a whole lot cheaper than what you get charged when you go out. <BR> <BR> I looked ahead at the menu and have ... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 12:49:26 EST Major frustration Today started off as a good day. I am a walker, and do enjoy being able to walk outside. It has been such a cold and snowy winter here, (like so many places!) that I have not had a chance to walk outside since December! So I was very happy to take advantage of the warmer day and head out for a walk outside , as opposed to walking on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> It felt so good to be outside again!! Granted, there were still several slippery spots, but I just took my time on those areas. I was a... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 20:29:35 EST walking I have been walking for exercise for 10.5 years now. I have walked well over half way around the world and am on my way home!! <BR> These last few days I have been having a hard time getting going on my walks. Maybe it is because I am tired of walking inside and am anxious to walk outside again. I have been walking on the treadmill for 3 months now. I didn't think I would use a treadmill as much as I have, but this winter I have been very thankful to have it. (we kind of inherited it when we ... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:47:34 EST getting back on track is so hard I am so very frustrated. I was doing so well before I got hit with the nasty flu bug. I was not myself for about 5 days and didn't really feel like eating much. <BR> When I finally felt like myself again, I did not jump right back into my healthy habits. Stuff just happens. <BR> Then on Monday, my sister-in-law called very distressed. She wanted us to come and get my niece and nephew and take them for a few days. Things at their house were just in an uproar. Sometimes I would just like to b... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 17:17:20 EST Anyone ever try to eat the kitchen sink?? :) I know it is just an expression, but I really hate those days when that is exactly what I feel like the kitchen sink! Today is one of those days. I just can't seem to get satisfied. It does not help that we are going out to eat tonight to a place I know nothing about. I always try to plan ahead so I make wise choices, but that is not an option tonight. :( <BR> <BR> I was so proud of myself yesterday for a bit. I went to the store and a display right when you walk in the store was... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 13:30:00 EST flu bug Well, it happened. I woke up in the middle of the night on Thursday and just knew something was not right with my stomach :( :( My husband had the flu two days before and I tried so hard to be extra careful. Clean, clean, clean. Sanitize, sanitize, sanitize. Wash hands, wash sheets. Wore myself out I guess! <BR> Anyway, I did get some kind of bug. My stomach was not happy. So Friday I spent much of the day on the couch doing much of nothing. Fortunately, my stomach did no more revolting, b... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 15:08:26 EST February 21 Well, I am happy to say my husband is much improved. Unfortunately, he still did not feel up to going out today, so we delayed our trip to visit with our children again. We will try for next week. In a way, it may have worked out best for us to go next week because one of our sons would not have been able to be there. I was ok with it all this morning, but as the day wore on, I was a little sad we could not have gone. <BR> <BR> But I did not let it get to my diet!! I instead went down to my... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 18:58:51 EST worn out Yesterday went well for me for both exercise and my food intake. I was a bit high on my sodium intake, but I know now what I need to do to adjust that. <BR> <BR> I walked for over and hour and a half, shoveled snow and rode my bike for 25 minutes. <BR> <BR> Last night, my husband got sick. Not fun. I ended up sleeping in our guest room in hopes that I can avoid getting what he has. He had some issues last night and that had me up for at least an hour and a half. He woke up early this morni... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 15:39:41 EST trying to stay focused today Well , this was not a good weekend for me. I think it started on Valentine's day with going out to eat. I was prepared to be able to eat something a little more special than what I would usually order, but ended up getting a a chicken breast and broccoli. So when I got home, I began my little pity party again and ate without sitting at the table. I think I didn't go too crazy. <BR> <BR> Then Saturday we went to the Auto Show. Again, I was prepared with my food and brought a healthy lunch al... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 15:57:44 EST Valentine's Day Our plan for the day totally changed. We were supposed to go see our two oldest children and do some errands in that area, but the plans fell through. So my husband decided he wants to take me out for Valentine's Day. He is really so sweet. He really would spoil me rotten if I let him. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, whenever he wants to go out to eat lately, it just brings me to tears. I know there are ways to eat healthy while dining out, but I feel like I am just getting back on the right path ... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 11:17:38 EST still feeling happy I am so proud of myself. I have managed to eat all of my food at the table for three days now. That is a big thing for me! It is just so easy to put food in my mouth while I stand and cook. Yesterday I even baked some blueberry muffins and made myself sit in order to sample part of one. Huge victory for me!! <BR> <BR> Also, my friends came to visit today. It was just so nice being able to see them again and catch up on things. I served a healthy lunch of soup and salad and blueberry muffins.... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 17:43:22 EST feeling excited Today I am quite excited. My husband and I recently moved and tomorrow, two very dear friends are coming to visit! One of them was a woman I walked with 5 days a week, through rain, snow, sunshine, heat, thunderstorms, you name it, we were out walking. I think we walked together for at least 5 years. I miss our walks and talks soooo much! Yes, I still walk, but it sure is nicer when you have someone to walk with! <BR> <BR> Then Friday, I get to visit with our two oldest children. I have not ... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 14:49:16 EST feeling a bit more happy Today was a rough day. I just was not handling some issues very well. So I caved in and ate few things I should not have. <BR> But then I came to check on things on sparkpeople. I wished I would have come earlier today. All those kind comments and notes of encouragement are helping me to take a step back and see that I don't need to take my troubles out on food. <BR> Thanks everyone <em>41</em> <BR> Tomorrow will be a better day! Sun, 9 Feb 2014 20:02:55 EST sewing room Well, today I have decided I am going to focus on getting my new sewing room all organized. I have not done any sewing since Christmas Day! That is way too long! But I don't want to start pulling stuff out yet until I know that when I am finished with it, it will have a place to return to. I want to have a room where I can find what I want when I need it! This is the first time in a very, very long time that all my sewing stuff can be in the same place! <BR> <BR> In saying all of this, this... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 10:44:16 EST sigh... I don't know what is wrong with me. I just got a new sewing room built just for me. You think I would be jumping up and down with joy. I love to sew, if you haven't noticed from my pictures. <BR> <BR> I am doing well on my weight loss again, but again, I am just blah <BR> <BR> Tonight we are taking my niece and nephew out for dinner. I am not too thrilled about it because we will most likely go for pizza. Can I be strong enough to resist when I am feeling so blue?? I thought about just taki... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 12:13:10 EST exercise minutes Ok, sorry sparkpeople, but this is just bugging me! How can someone track 840 minutes on the first day of February??? I thought we could only track 120 a day. Also, how does one track over 3840 fitness minutes in the month of January when you could only have3720?? Sorry, I get a bit competitive in my exercise minutes... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 12:55:12 EST reality check Yesterday, as I was preparing to go out shopping with my husband for the day, I had to decide what I would wear. I chose a pair of jeans I had not worn in three weeks. Boy, not good. Tight indeed. I could still wear them, but not very comfortably. I then decided to look in the mirror without my shirt on and see just how bad it looked. Yes, that was a good decision, even though it made me sick. What have I done to myself?? I have been in denial and have let myself get way out of control. <BR> ... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 15:33:38 EST October, here we come! The day is off to a good start. I just added up my miles for the month of September and figured I walked 163 miles! I think that is my best ever. Woohoo! <BR> <BR> The eating thing is still so crazy for me. Just when I get going good, life comes along and throws me another curve ball. But I am not going to give up. I will achieve what I set out to do. I know I can do this!! Mon, 30 Sep 2013 11:32:04 EST Something just clicked Yesterday as I was getting ready to prepare dinner, I decided to try a new recipe. Then I began thinking about how much I love to bake and am missing being able to do much of that right now. We recently moved and I do not have the outlet to share what I bake anymore. So I am trying not to bake much because I just simply go nuts eating it when I do. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I thought, why not put all that baking energy into trying some new, healthy recipes?? I could spend hours in the kitchen prepa... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 10:30:20 EST 10 year anniversary I just realized today that it was 10 years ago that I began my walking journey. I started walking because of what was going on in the lives of my family and that was the only way I could think of to deal with all I was feeling. What was a hard time in my life brought me to the point to get out the door and walk. That was also 70 lbs ago.I still have more weight to lose because I keep dinking around with my food choices. But I am proud to say, my good habit of walking is here to stay. Maybe 1... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 19:05:10 EST Bug Attack!! While I was out walking today, and looking for golf balls as is my habit of late, I began being stalked by a rather large bug. It looked kind of like a fly, but about an inch long. Buzz, buzz, buzz by my head and all around me! I thought I got rid of it, but then it was there again, buzzing, buzzing, buzzing! Several times I thought I got rid of it, but then it would appear again! Finally, I figured out he must just be sitting on my back, where I could not reach him. <BR> <BR> What to do??... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 10:22:48 EST walking goal for 2013 I have finally decided on a goal for my walking for this year. My goal is to walk 1300 miles by December 31. I was originally going to try for 1100, but since I am already at 927 miles for the year, that would be too easy!!! <BR> <BR> Since I am setting an exercise goal, I will set a weight loss goal as well. I really need to focus on this part because this is what is hardest for me. So, my goal is to lose 26 lbs by Christmas. That will put me near my lowest weight since 2008, I can do this ... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 15:13:08 EST goal reached Today as I was out for my morning walk, I got to calculating in my head how many miles I had walked this week. I finally figured out that I had to be at or close to 40 miles. Woohoo! So I came home and added my walk to my fitness tracker. I was at 38.57 for the week. I knew since I was that close, I had to go for the 40 miles and that is just what I did! Sat, 7 Sep 2013 20:56:31 EST Off to a good start to what I hope will be a good day It is going to be a good day, I can just tell! First of all, my knee is feeling so much better. I was able to walk briskly again today and that motivated me to walk longer. Also, since I had the time and the desire to walk the entire golf course for a long time now, today I was able to accomplish that without getting hit by any balls! The course had several golfers on it, but I managed to work my way around them. <BR> Also, today is daycare day again! so I am going to get my sewing machine... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 10:13:30 EST AGGHHHH! My m-i-l is driving me CRAZZZZZYYYYYYY!!!!!!! Last night, I had just fallen asleep. when I heard a cabinet door banging. Then "I want \water!!" By the time I got to her, she had forgotten about the water and was looking for her purse. Mind you, it is now 10:45 p.m. and I would much rather be in bed!! After half an hour of getting her settled in bed. sleep was not for me. <BR> <BR> But a new day...yes the frustrations of my m-i-l are still here and not going anywhere. I am trying so hard to l... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 11:15:58 EST bad knee 5 years ago, I had surgery on my knee to remove a small bone fragment. It hurt like crazy before I had it done and even after. Through it all, I never gave up on my walking. <BR> This last month, my knee has been acting up again. I have recently moved, so I do not have a doctor. I am hoping this will just subside on its own. Last week, stairs were hard for me, especially going down. My bike seemed almost impossible at first, but I was determined to ride it. Sure, I only did 3 miles in 15 min... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 11:15:23 EST adult day care I am doing better today. Yesterday was soooooo hard. It was not pretty and I just lost it. My mother-in-law drove me to a place I don't want to be. So today, as I walked and talked to God, He gave me such peace. I came home and had a long talk with my husband about it. I suggested we look into daycare for his mom and he agreed it would be a good idea. So we will go to check out the place today. I hope that having her go even one day a week will give us a sense of sanity again. You see, my m-... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 10:58:02 EST empty nest Well, it is time for my two youngest to go back to college. This is going to be tough. My oldest two are getting a place of their own. So I will be at home with my husband and mother in law! We have just moved as well, so I need to find something to do! I have not located my yarn yet, and I don't have my sewing room set up yet either. My mother in law is driving me crazy already.! She is worse than a little child. She will be 97 in November. She has no memory, except what has happened over 7... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 22:19:09 EST stuck in a hole Well, our move is 99 percent complete. Sorry to say, my healthy eating habits have not moved with me. I feel like all II have been doing since we got here is eat! I feel so helpless. I am trying to get things in place in my kitchen because I do a lot of cooking and it is important for me to get it organized. I need to stop this nonsense and get back to eating the way I know I should. I feel sluggish and tired and I know that is not helping my attitude. I need to take it one minute at a t... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 12:41:28 EST july 4 Day 1 of moving begins tomorrow. Loading up the van with whatever will fit. Then off to buy a few new things for our new house. Picnic in there somewhere too and will do my best to make wise choices! Wed, 3 Jul 2013 20:27:10 EST Moving Ugh, I hate to move, I hate to pack, I hate the whole moving thing. Stress, stress, stress, makes me want to eat, eat, eat. If I can maintain my weight during this process, I will be very happy... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 13:10:59 EST still small voice I am not doing so well. Something got me started a few days ago to want to just keep emotional reaction to something my husband did. I saw it coming and felt helpless to stop it. I need to come up with a plan to deal with things in a better manner than eating. I can't and won't let this continue to derail my good habits. I just felt like I was starting to get a grip on things again and BAM! the devil got his foot in the door again. I am going to work on posting my goals again. <BR... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 11:12:01 EST Roller coaster I hate this roller coaster I am on. I felt so good yesterday and had such good attitude...about stuff in general. (Of course I was quilting, my passion and favorite hobby), but today I just feel blah and want to eat everything in sight! Not good. I have other work to get done today, so no time to sew. Sitting here on sp helps distract me for a little bit, but it is time to get busy. Man, how I hate this roller coaster... <em>24</em> Wed, 13 Mar 2013 11:07:41 EST Quilting day I love Tuesdays. Why? Therapy day!!!! I get to quilt all day, usually about 8 hours or so. I just love to quilt and I feel so good when I get a quilt made. I finished a top today...will quilt it next week. We have two new women coming to our quilting group, both of whom are new to quilting. One of them commented today that she was having FUN!! So cool... <BR> Another good thing about quilting day is that I eat less. I am so focused on my projects...who has time to eat??lol I think I should t... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 22:23:37 EST Going down... Yes! down 11.8 lbs!! Woohoo! Sun, 10 Mar 2013 16:25:07 EST control I feel like I am finally starting to gain some control again over what I eat. It feels so good! I want to maintain this control and remain excited about having it! Wed, 6 Mar 2013 20:22:25 EST happiness on the scale today Yeah, know, I should not get so attached to my scale, but I can't help but get excited when there is good news. As of this morning, I have lost 10.6 lbs since February 3! YES!!! Tue, 5 Mar 2013 07:16:45 EST good habits While I was walking today, I got to thinking about habits, good and bad. So as to dwell on the positive, I thought I would list my good habits! <BR> 1. Walk 6 times a week for 9.5 years now!!!...rain, snow or shine! <BR> 2. Drink lots of water-at least 12 cups or more a day <BR> 3. Eat plenty of fruits and vegetables <BR> 4. Strength train 3 times a week <BR> 5. Ride exercise bike every day <BR> 6. Eat lots of chicken!! <BR> <BR> Well, there may be more, but that is what I come up with now. ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 22:21:14 EST tracking 2 Well, the whole tracking thing started off good this week, but by wednesday, it fell apart. I had a big dinner at our church to cook for, and when I do these dinners, I run around like a chicken with my head chopped off and do not get to eat the way I normally do. I did not go crazy eating, but definitely not the way I would normally eat. Then our internet went on the fritz and I could not track today! UGH!! Well, tomorrow is a new day and I will be back here to track my food. I will do this ... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 20:17:04 EST tracking I have decided I need to start making goals for myself, one a week. So my goal for this week is to track everything I eat. I know this helps me stay on track. My problem is, I am eat too much while standing around, and then I don't pay as much attention to what goes in my mouth. So I need to work on that and write it all down. Here's to a good tracking week! Feel free to hold me accountable...PLEASE! Mon, 25 Feb 2013 07:28:44 EST Still pumped! YEAH!!!! the numbers on the scale are still going down! I know I should not weigh myself so much, but I just can't seem to help it. Mon, 18 Feb 2013 15:55:03 EST Making progress Well, I am finally feeling like I am getting somewhere. The numbers on the scale are going down! I have lost 6 lbs over the last two weeks! I have begun working out on my bowflex again. It feels good to walk past it and not have to say, "I need to start using that again!" Now I say, "It sure feels good to work out on my bowflex again!" I still walk at least 2-4 miles 6 days a week, and ride my recumbent bike for at least 25 minutes a day as well. I am proud to say that I have been able to ma... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 09:36:28 EST