PATIB13's SparkPeople Blog PATIB13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Disappointed but not defeated I gotta admit I am a little disappointed step forward two steps back....literally. I lost a lb last week and this week I almost gained 2. I know part of this has to do with the date on the calendar but still it is so disappointing. <BR> I have been running and doing soooo much better with my eating and I can feel a difference in myself. I guess I should take my measurements and see how that is fairing, then at least I could use that as a gage when the scale is not cooperating... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 12:22:28 EST Tough Day Wow today was a tough day...not necessarily in the weight loss area but in the work area which usually leads to ruining the diet area. Thankfully I can say I did not turn to the know the Pepsi drink, what were you thinking? I did though have some chips at lunch but I am ok with that choice because I stopped, I did not eat the whole bag, I didn't even eat half of what I would have normally eaten and I did not have a pepsi! <BR> <BR> The little victories, they add up. Went to th... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 19:10:26 EST HI So it's been a while since I have been on here. I've missed it. Miss my friends, miss feeling like I am doing something to make myself feel better. I figure that it is time. The hecticness of summer is over and life has started to settle down a little. <BR> <BR> We had so many beginnings and ending this summer. Met my husbands biological family on his paternal side, took a road trip to Port Orchard and visited his biological paternal grandparents he hadn't seen since he was like 6 years... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 15:23:05 EST Thoughts Every once in a while I feel like I just need to get my thoughts out there. I am happy to report that my husband has started going to a personal trainer, so I hope that will start him in the right direction. Maybe that will help us both. <BR> <BR> I was a little bummed today, I was too tired this morning to get up and go work out, sleep was not the best last night. Then I hoped to go after work and that was sidelined but other plans, so I thought I can go on Tuesday morning, but then I am... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 01:42:45 EST How May ended... Well, I did not make my goal for May <em>39</em> . I don't think I was able to make any of my goals a reality. <BR> <BR> 1- 1. To be under 220 by the end of May (at my last weigh in I was 223.5) <BR> ~~~ Did not get under 220, wow who would have thought I would not be able to lose 3 lbs. <BR> <BR> 2.To get up and do boot camp 2-3 times a week, this requires me to get up and go to the 6am class. <BR> ~~~ I was doing well with going to boot camp and then my soon got sick the 3rd week of May... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 19:53:48 EST May So I haven't had a chance to stop and write, but I thought I would take a moment to put my goals down in black and white...ok really more like just black. One evening while commiserating with my hubby over the state of my/our body I decided that I needed a goal. I wanted something to shoot for so here are my goals: <BR> <BR> 1. To be under 220 by the end of May (at my last weigh in I was 223.5) <BR> 2. To get up and do boot camp 2-3 times a week, this requires me to get up and go to the 6a... Wed, 9 May 2012 19:25:21 EST Spring dash 2012 Done! So excited and proud of myself. The official times are not posted yet but my husband said I came in at 1 hr and 12 mins. I would have loved to have done closer to an hr but since I really have only been training for a 5k and not 5 miles I am pretty happy with it. I was at 35 mins at 3.2 miles and then I slowed down. The best part was that I did not have a headache or leg pains or was not feeling like I was going to be sick. Yipee!!!! <em>104</em> That is major for me. <BR> <BR> I fel... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 00:18:20 EST Night before Spring Dash Alright so I am feeling a little nervous about tomorrow for some odd reason. It's not like I have never done Spring Dash before. I think I am kind of worried about trying to run it. Last year I pretty much was set on walking the majority of it. I have not gotten through my 8 week training yet so I have to use tomorrow as one of my training days. My husband thankfully will be going along with me pushing our little guy in the stroller. The fun part is that my little guy will be doing his ... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 00:59:15 EST stepping out I am stepping out of my comfort zone, connecting with people I don't know and it has been nice. I am not one to join chat groups and I am not friends with just anyone on facebook. I am generally kind of private, but I have really enjoyed making new friends on spark people, spark friends are awesome...they are going through the same struggles you are, they are wanting the same things you are, they understand and the encourage. <BR> <BR> I have connected with some really amazing people who... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 02:20:57 EST Week 6...finally over Wow, it took me two weeks to complete week 6 of my 8 wk training. I could not believe when all of a sudden after day 1 of week 6 I could not run, I could barely walk without limping. My legs hurt so bad. I could not do anything for a little more than a week. Finally on Thurs. this week I got day 2 done and I completed day 3 today. Legs feel good. <BR> <BR> I almost lost hope during that time. I felt somewhat defeated, like "of course this would happen when you had a loss of weight and ... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 01:57:02 EST Long week Wow, it was kind of a long week and I have had a heck of a time getting all my workouts in. I am in Week 5 of the 8 wk training plan and today I did day 2 of that week and it is Saturday!! The best part of that is that I did it at 9:15 pm so now I will have to do day 3 tomorrow and then hopefully I can get week 6 on track. <BR> <BR> I am feeling a little discouraged right now only because I feel like I should be doing better by now. I really need to start seeing some kind of change so I ... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 02:07:17 EST Week 5 So I just finished week 4 of the 8 week 5k training, it's not like I have never done a 5k before...I have, I have done a few of them but each time winter hits I slow down what I am doing. I like having "rules" something I commit to, when I have some accountability it helps me to want to complete the task. I know that I should do it for myself but I have always done better when I have to complete something. I liked getting gold stars in school and I still like getting gold stars when I comp... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 00:30:46 EST 1st time So I have never actually blogged before, don't really think anyone cares about what I think or say. But maybe getting some of my thoughts & concerns or my victories out will make them more real. Maybe it is a way to get moving in the right direction. I know one thing I can't stay where I am anymore. I have to get back to where I was happy. I don't want to be skinny, I want to feel good about myself, I want to wear my cute clothes I want to know that when my son is a little older he won't... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 16:05:32 EST