PAT3ONTHEBACK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PAT3ONTHEBACK PAT3ONTHEBACK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ And if I happen to lose weight . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247203 Where did the last year and a half go? Funny I can pick up where I left off. Nothing changes! Well, some things. I spent many months in 2012 listening to some subliminal learning tapes. I had read the book by David Kessler, The End to Overeating, and knew that my brain was getting hit subliminally practically constantly by the food industry. They were yelling at me to eat their food! So I decided to counter-act those "eat me" messages with some healthy subliminal learning of my own. I... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 01:01:14 EST breakfast bypass http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4324776 I tried a black bean and egg white breakfast burrito at a restaurant Friday. While I really enjoyed the burrito, I could not help but feel that I missed breakfast and went straight to lunch! <BR> <BR> Trying to get more protein for breakfast without resorting to dairy and or meat. That leaves beans or whole grains or a protein shake of some sort. Never tried a protein shake . . . Sun, 26 Jun 2011 23:59:14 EST Cue: box of cookie dough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4317669 I encountered a cue for overeating last night when I spide some cookie dough which I bought from my daughter's fundraiser. That is the only product they sold for this fundraiser so I bought a lot since we don't like going door to door. <BR> <BR> I thought I would bake it for bake sales, but the bake sales are few and far between these days. <BR> <BR> So with my re-commitment to no-sugar, I was alarmed, shocked, amazed, that just seeing the cookie dough at the bottom of the freezer triggere... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 11:32:16 EST New workout! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4312086 It's called the anti-mosquito self-flagellation workout. You take off an article of clothing while out on a run/walk, and begin swinging it about your uncovered skin. Covered skin, too. They can get through t-shirts. Yes, you hit yourself with the T-shirt or track pants in my case, looking like a maniac but hopefully using more muscles AND at the same time, thwarting off the mosquitoes! <BR> <BR> I know I have to quit writing about mosquitoes but they are such monsters! <BR> <BR> Speaki... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 23:58:49 EST My planet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4306111 Each one of our cells is like a tiny plantet with thousands of processes running and millions of things to track. <BR> <BR> This was from a book about microbes, not diets or nutrition! <BR> <BR> Our fabulous cells need a little pampering from their universe--from us. How about a green pepper, little cell? I bet you would love a spoonful of garbanzo beans. Let me swallow down some crisp clear H2O with a side of salad greens and mix it all up with a walk through the park and a giggle with ... Sat, 18 Jun 2011 01:53:36 EST Shame on them! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4303802 3 steps forward, one step back. <BR> <BR> The two steps I managed to salvage today are that I got in an exercise session today after skipping all my aerobics (my interval combo of walking and running) over the last two weeks. I had been trying to see if I could make it past the woods in this one spot within the 30 second interval allotted to running. Today, I made it with time to spare. I consciously lengthened my stride BECAUSE I was trying to outrun the MOSQUITOES! Pesky little creatur... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 22:31:50 EST Use that fork on your veggies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4294695 I did not sleep well last night. Now I can add "motivational speakers" to my list of things to avoid if i want a good nights sleep. Yes, scary movies, surgery and now, motivational speakers must be cut out if I want some shut-eye. <BR> <BR> Kris Carr said she had to teach herself to sleep. I can't wait to get to that part. If I knew I had tumors which were inoperable, I would not have been getting much sleep either. She had over 24 tumors on her liver and lungs. I don't know how she l... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 00:05:49 EST Rules rule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4292986 I went to a seminar this morning and love love loved it! Kris Carr, cancer THRIVER, she says, as opposed to cancer survivor, gave a talk and then a panel of nutrition experts answered questions. <BR> <BR> Speaking of rules, at one point Kris Carr was working with an audience member, helping her to figure out why she was sabotaging her day with a vending machine. She had a mom issue; the audience member's mother was an alcoholic through her childhood. <BR> <BR> Kris asked her to find a pic... Sun, 12 Jun 2011 04:58:26 EST "Cave to the crave" is still making me mad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4291186 Well, I have cooled off about the food industry only because I am having fun with making rules for my windows. <BR> <BR> There is a small window of time where our brains can issue an order to halt a habit. My habit I am trying to halt is my reach for more food when i already have had enough. Usually it involves sugar. The window of time is soon after getting in the situation where you will soon want the food, but before you get the strong urges to take action and get the food. <BR> <BR... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 00:35:04 EST Unbelievable how they food industry has manipulated us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4288995 I didn't even realize it myself, but Dr. David A. Kessler, MD has pointed out in his book, "The End to Overeating" that the food industry has managed to hep us pull the wool over our eyes. <BR> <BR> It seems, that one time, not too terribly long ago, people used to eat meals simply to nourish their bodies. They didn't necessarily think that there needed to be a reward food; they didn't think that every instance of eating was a celebration. They certainly did not mark every concert or game ... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 23:03:13 EST Food Rehab http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4286769 Food Rehab is what Dr. David Kessler, MD calls our new way of looking at food. Instead of just guaging how attracted you are to a food, how much you want it, how much it would satisfy, how much it would take to get it, instead of that, we need to look at food the way the manufacturer looks at it. The food industry is very good at making food cravable, making it great, fantastic look at, wonderful to feel in your mouth, great end notes to make you want more, and very easy to remember that yo... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 23:33:01 EST Rules vs. Willpower http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4284577 More from the End of Overeating by Dr. David A. Kessler, M.D. <BR> <BR> Cue-urge-reward-habit. That is it in a nutshell, the process by which we get hooked on hyper-palliative foods. The cue is the stimulation--smell, look, even noises in the background or especially driving or walking by a certain place, a restaurant or store or place in the kitchen. The cue presents itself and gives us the urge to seek the reward. The urge is like an itch that needs to be satisfied. The urge is more p... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 00:36:02 EST Eating all the time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4282209 More from the End of Overeating by Dr. David A. Kessler, M.D. <BR> <BR> Today i was struck with how easy easy easy it is to eat all day long, without taking a break. If I have a meeting, I might structure my meals around it, eating just before so I won't get hungry. But my efforts are foiled by someone taking it upon themselves to provide the group with a little snack in case someone missed their meal. So I have an opportunity to eat again, even though I don't need it. <BR> <BR> Of cours... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 00:41:53 EST Sooooo heavy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4278600 I have not felt this heavy in the last year and a half even though I do not weigh much more than I did over the last half a year. <BR> <BR> It should be motivating, but, it can easily be depressing and discouraging, can't it! <BR> <BR> The book on overeating, The End of Overeating: Taking Control of the Insatiable American Appetite, by former FDA commissioner and med dr., David Kessler, was very good at echoing everything I thought was true, but putting it in writing and really defining ju... Sun, 5 Jun 2011 14:42:49 EST Back at it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4269881 I need to get back on the reading, talking and tracking routine! <BR> <BR> The german-exchange student is back in Germany and it is almost time for my daughter to go there, so all the damage from a guest in the house is done! She was sweet and gracious and agreeable and caused absolutely NO damage, of course. The damage is what happened to my "nutrition plan." <BR> <BR> I wrecked it that first night by indulging in sweet german chocolate. Of course one or two or three lumps of chocolate ... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 12:01:23 EST German challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4181683 Tomorrow we pick up our German exchange high school student at O'Hare airport. And we somehow keep her happy for three weeks! <BR> <BR> i'm just a little teeny tiny bit nervous about what we will eat (read: so anxious I can't figure out even one meal let alone 63) <BR> <BR> Sixty-three!?!?!?!?!?!? 21 days times 3 meals per day, yup 63. <BR> <BR> OK, I'm getting a grip, but I do fear that my sugar hiatus will draw to a close over Easter for starters, and then when she is here. We will wa... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 12:51:39 EST My Anti-Sugar High http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4180616 I didn't know it would be so hard to get 5 fruits and veggies! I really have to think about it and plan them in. I think that I am still counting things as one serving when maybe they are supposed to be two. Like the huge Delicious Apple was probably two servings? Oh yeah, 1/2 cup is one serving of fruit. Raw veggies you need one cup per serving, but cooked it is 1/2 cup like the fruit. OK, I guess I got my 5 F&V today. <BR> <BR> I love being away from sugar since I am suddenly free fr... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 00:07:07 EST Still on Brown Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4177947 I got to read more about "brown fat" at bodyecology.com. Brown fat burns fat and turns it into heat. Other fat cells store fat instead of burning it. <BR> <BR> I learned a lot! <BR> --more brown fat is found in lean young individuals rather than older obese individuals, or, people with more brown fat are not as obese as people with not so much. <BR> --women seem to be more able to increase the size and mass of brown fat. <BR> --brown fat was more often found in people who were not using be... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 22:00:11 EST The skinny on brown fat: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4175842 This is what I got out of an article from sciencedaily.com, in an April 07, 2010 issue. <BR> <BR> Brown fat is found in baby mammals, and also in adults' necks. It burns fats instead of storing them. It is used by our bodies to safely heat us up when it is cold. And as the adult is kept at lower temperatures, the body makes more and more brown fat. <BR> <BR> So we could take advantage of the brown fat's unique fat burning by reducing the ambient temperature. They say that in the future... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 00:47:32 EST My challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4172950 Seeing my baby in her prom dress brought tears to my eyes, and I totally did not see them coming! <BR> <BR> I am doing a challenge a week. Here is how I am doing so far: <BR> <BR> *No sugar day! <BR> *Did not snack between meals, but one meal stretched out pretty long! <BR> *Got my five fruits and veggies: Pineapple X 3, Broccoli X 2 plus onion, green pepper, mushrooms to equal about 1. Also banana. <BR> *Read an article on weight loss. It was in the Tribune's Sunday section. One of ... Sun, 17 Apr 2011 22:48:22 EST "Just Eat It It Won't Matter You Can't Do This Anyway" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4170585 But alas, I had NO sugar today. <BR> <BR> The tendency to "Just Eat It It Won't Matter You Can't Do This Anyway" has stopped. Thanks for all the comments--I really got a lot out of them and especially like the "love" you sent me! Yes, this is a lifetime commitment, not just a challenge. Yes, no food is completely off limits. Taking just a corner from a dessert bar was a great idea and one I am sure I will use. <BR> <BR> I was so surprised yesterday to see that "Just Eat It It Won't M... Sat, 16 Apr 2011 20:33:46 EST Halting the Downward Spiral http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4169023 Bulls Game! My husband fell into some tickets and we got to go to our first ever pro basketball game. It was great . . . <BR> <BR> But, a lemon square (it was free!) somehow got in my mouth. <BR> <BR> Then, the next day I had a lunch meeting and there were small brownies. you guessed it, I ate one. <BR> <BR> So, that brings me to today. I had that wrecked-diet, impossible-to-make-this-work attitude. Really suck-y way to be. But I managed to avoid most sugar--just a little bit of some... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 23:49:20 EST It was so easy to be sugar free today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4162121 I was so busy today I barely had time to stop to eat. One of those days! It sure helped with kicking sugar. I had a slice of Panera whole grain bread and it probably had some sort of sweetener in it, but other than that, it has been a sugar-free day. <BR> <BR> Also, being busy kept me from snacking between meals. I had eggs (protein) and whole grain for breakfast, and that does wonders for slow-release of carbs which helps cut the cravings for sugar. Soup with whole grain (quinoa) and c... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 00:12:21 EST 7 mouthfuls of oatmeal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4158935 The family woke up to start their day. The day would consist of hoeing in the field for the main character of the book I am reading. But they didn't get breakfast that day. Only lunch and supper. All their meals were usually just grain with greens. Meat only rarely. There was a drought and the crops on their subsistence farm did very poorly, like most of the farms in Malawi in 2002. Within a month they would also lose lunch from their daily meals, and supper would consist of just 7 mou... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 19:22:10 EST My favorite Spark Article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4156902 Long day yesterday, with the HS choir as a chaperon. I have been over calories two days in a row now, mostly due to . . . . <BR> <BR> drumm roll please <BR> <BR> Yes, you guessed it, <BR> <BR> Sweets! <BR> <BR> And there was a large pizza and a hungry chaperon (me) and the two melded nicely. <BR> <BR> I oscillate from fantasizing about scones, sundaes and brownies to fantasizing about oatmeal, whole grain snacks and no sugar meals. <BR> <BR> Which will become my reality? There was a ... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 00:00:03 EST two more days to my fourth(?) foray into sugar-free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4152838 I listened to a talk on group therapy for cancer patients and how it is correlated with a longer life. I thought I should probably get involved in one, but realize I already am, right here! <BR> <BR> Have there been any studies on Spark to see if people get healthier with the social network it provides? Obviously it works--look at all the success stories! <BR> <BR> Monday is looming--when I want to be sugar free again. I am working on getting all my meals regular, with no snacking betwee... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 23:18:30 EST It's Going to Waste, Anyway. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4150825 I certainly did not give up on my colas today! I didnt' sleep so great last night and woke up early and didn't get a nap and had to drive tonight . . . . the excuses roll out so easy, like the Cokes out of their sleeve. I think I will use up the rest of the case, and not buy a new one, and see what happens. I hate to waste things. <BR> <BR> Who said it--on one of your blogs--they are all so great. The line went something like this: <BR> <em>343</em> <em>343</em> <em>343</em> <em>34... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 00:58:14 EST My War on Diet Cola http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4148285 No, no, no, I must have mis-typed the title. I am not going to admit that my little afternoon sodee-pop is something I should be at war with. <BR> <BR> [the nudge in my brain restlessly rolls over and says "Look at me!"] <BR> <BR> [the nudge in my brain is a bit of pressure at my temple which I attribute to brain cancer or an aneurysm "in the making" but I guess it is harmless] <BR> <BR> [the nudge in my brain is my body's way of getting my attention re-focused on health and what can go w... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 23:43:35 EST Sugar, my favorite enemy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4144245 What's not to like about sugar? <BR> <BR> Besides taste, and energy. (Well what else is there in life?) <BR> <BR> [Did she SAY that? Did she really just ask what is there besides taste and energy? Try sunrises and honest sweat. New dirt and clean sheets. Water on a hot day and tea on a cold one. A smile on a baby and a grin from a teen. Snuggling relief in a comfy bed or waking refreshed to yellow sunshine. Big muscles and proud parents. A baseline of high energy and mountain climb... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 13:07:33 EST insulin spikes--need to doodle it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4143084 I have no time left today to blog, but I so wanted to write about sugar and insulin spikes and why I DON'T LIKE THEM! But I got to read up on it a little, so hopefully I will be able to come back here and sort it out so I can believe it. <BR> <BR> First I have to see it in writing (don't try to tell me, I have to see it). Then I need to re-write it my own doodle-y way. Then I have to explain it to someone else (or me again!) and that makes it stick pretty well in my head. Tue, 5 Apr 2011 00:17:25 EST I want to go "no-sugar" again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4140137 Fear is a mighty force. <BR> <BR> Fear of failing makes me not want to try. <BR> <BR> Fear of having to keep at it makes me not want to do it right. <BR> <BR> Fear of eating the whole thing makes me not want to take one bite. <BR> <BR> Why don't i go no-sugar? I've done it before. My body would love it. I'm just afraid that it is so far off the beaten path that it won't work. I'll spend a day "there" and scamper back when the going gets tough. <BR> <BR> There are all these things I c... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 23:40:27 EST Popcorn for dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4137876 I know--not so great a choice because sure enough, I was hungry before bedtime. <BR> <BR> I got used to eating a certain amount (large amount) of popcorn when I go to a movie. Not too often, so that is good. Now I need to psyche myself up for eating less of it the next time. How do I do that? Especially with "free refills." Add to that my feeling of being cheated if I don't get a big tub. No butter, so that is another redeeming point. <BR> <BR> I am stumped. Except to just feel cheat... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 00:00:06 EST the "Diet Solution" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4135787 That was the name of a diet web site which my mom asked me to look at and see what I thought. I was impressed with what they promoted. It seemed a really healthy approach to nutrition. They offered a ton of books plus the fun part--a three-month long plan of menus and recipes. <BR> <BR> I was also impressed that I already knew much of the information at the Diet Solution from reading Feed Your Brain, Lose Your Belly by Dr. Larry McCleary and from what I learned from the Alli Diet Plan. I... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 00:10:25 EST Goal met http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4132419 It wasn't a goal really, but it was a picture I painted of myself in the future so that I would take care of myself now. <BR> <BR> It was about 5 years ago that I decided that I wanted to be a traveler when I was retired, and healthy enough to run around in port when the cruise ship docked. I still haven't taken a cruise--I'm too cheap. <BR> <BR> But I thought that I would be too interested in the destination to want to stop for lunch, and I would be munching nuts and dried fruit instead... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 17:52:22 EST going out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4123643 We start a little road trip today to look at a couple colleges my daughter is interested in. I always want to go a little crazy, not knowing the ingredients in every little thing I eat. But on the other hand, with DH looking over my shoulder every minute, I tend to have less desire to overeat or to eat empty calories. Mon, 28 Mar 2011 10:57:40 EST Dessert Time Means it's Time to Relax. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4121073 I didn't get to write last night--finally got my video in. "The Town" is what we watched, which was "not a bad movie," we decided. A little too violent for me to want to watch again. <BR> <BR> Did some entertaining yesterday and didn't serve any dessert except to put out the bars of dark chocolate and some dark chocolate-covered ginger. It was an early dinner, (finished at 4:00pm) so even though our metabolism probably could have supported a dessert, it didn't seem like a requisite part o... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 09:11:05 EST I'm OK. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4118863 Only 15 calories over today. I had 8 little 60% dark chocolate chips (40 cal) tonight so I wouldn't feel too choco-deprived, even though it put me 15 over on calories. Those were the only "empty" calories of the day, although there was quite a bit of fat in the potato soup I made. The fat in the soup is not quite empty calories, but if it hadn't been riding along with the potatoes it would have been empty. <BR> <BR> I was so happy to wear something nice again today--no frumpies again. My... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 00:13:32 EST Guilty Pleasures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4116646 MyNutrition was a hefty 300 calories over and I see that I could have been right on target if I had substituted fruit for the "empty calories." Is chocolate really empty?! <BR> <BR> I love chocolate, <BR> and i don't want to give it up, <BR> and I don't want to NOT like it <BR> so I don't want to do that Meridian Tapping because then <BR> I won't want it, <BR> and if I don't want it, then I won't eat it <BR> and if I don't eat it, then I won't get that surge of PLEASURE! <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 00:09:56 EST Smart and Lovely vs. Frumpy and Frivolous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4113341 Ask me what my biggest hang-up is right now. What do I spend most of my time stressing over? If I could change one thing what would it be? <BR> <BR> I would like to answer--in my perfect world-- that I would like to be more open with people, more pleasant, more kind, more thoughtful. <BR> <BR> But if you look at how I spend my time, the main self help I do is on weight loss and related issues. <BR> <BR> So I had this fun little technique to try out, a technique which promised big rewards... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 17:43:53 EST "Tapping"--my new magic trick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4111478 EFT. The new magic letters. <BR> <BR> I saw a friend in the gym who I haven't seen in a while and we exchanged the old "you look great" stuff upon which I revealed that I have lost weight all right--in fact I've lost the same 10-15 pounds three times in the last five years. Chuckles all around. <BR> <BR> I told the girls in the locker room I had a new strategy for weight loss. Chit chat slowed to silence from all corners. I immediately regretted my plan to disclose further. "What is i... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 23:35:45 EST Caffeine didn't really help. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4109014 I love hearing the thunder in the spring air--I just can't believe it is that time of the year already. I'm sure we are not out of the snow belt yet but nice to smell the fresh earth and see the buds and sprouts. <BR> <BR> I like to visit Dr. Mercola and his web page once in a while to see what health topics are coming up. He has some tapping method to break bad habits, which has piqued my interest. <BR> <BR> He also wrote about soda pop being so awful for us. I thought he was going to c... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 00:37:56 EST My Dad Never Gave Up on Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4103415 "My Dad never gave up on me." Said by a dear friend's son at their dad/husband's funeral. <BR> <BR> This son has posed more than a few challenges for my friend. Totaled car, confinement for depression and isolation, teenage disrespect and hostilities so thick my friend wanted to move out! <BR> <BR> The dad/husband also posed more than a few challenges for his family, succumbing to alcoholism-related diseases at a such a young age, 56, just last week. The memorial service was this morn... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 17:21:47 EST I guess this is about chocolate covered espresso beans :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4099854 I did much better at tracking my calories today; I actually counted out my waxed up coffee grounds. "Chocolate-covered espresso beans" is what they actually call them but when I chew them up it feels like coffee grounds encased in wax. <BR> <BR> I like them because <BR> 1) they are somewhat low in calories; 28 of them for 80 calories <BR> 2) they remind me of chewing on Excedrin. They kind of have an edge so that they feel like they are doing some work. Not just gooey-goodness, but har... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 23:18:37 EST Plan first, Eat later. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4097445 I rook a walk today--gorgeous day in Chicago-land. I couldn't push myself to run at all, but I enjoyed every minute of my outing, so I consider it a success. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, my calories for the day are OVER what I need them to be. Once again, I got caught holding the bag at the end of the day. <BR> <BR> I need to PLAN my calories first, THEN eat them. That way I won't go over. Because I definitely do NOT want to go OVER! <BR> <BR> When I know I have had enough calories, th... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 23:37:50 EST Scary drunk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4092277 I had a scary afternoon. A friend was drinking early today and caught me off guard that he was drunk. He is very strong and at one point he became angry. I was on the wrong side of the room to make an escape if I needed to. The thoughts going through my head as I finagled my way to the other side of him were anguishing! <BR> <BR> I was scared, of course, that something or someone would get broken or hurt. <BR> <BR> I was so sorry for him, that he was reduced to this blubbering lump of h... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 23:54:20 EST Instant Skinny, Instant Strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4083074 Don't ya wish! <BR> <BR> I wish that if I was eating raw green peppers with no dip, that I would be instantly at my goal weight. <BR> <BR> I wish that if I was exerting myself to go one more rep on the weights, that I would suddenly be able to jump on a pair of skis and zip down a black diamond without getting hurt. <BR> <BR> I wish that if I was eating my whole grain thin sandwich with lo-fat cheese and mustard, no mayo, that I would surprisingly be able to squeeze between the chair and t... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 00:09:43 EST 5 years since Cancer changed my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4080140 I know a whole lot more about cancer than I did before. <BR> <BR> Ditto surgery, meds, Doctor appointments, insurance. <BR> <BR> I now treasure my hair, always taking the time to "do something" with it. <BR> <BR> I now clean my skin with a scrubee to keep it healthy. I didn't pay attention to it until it started peeling after chemo. <BR> <BR> I look at the world grateful for the Earth and the seasons, grateful for the planets and the sun, grateful for the time to watch it spin, grateful ... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 21:45:58 EST Yippee I tracked again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4077785 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l517883171.jpg">I'm very happy that I tracked all my food today since it included a slice of cheesecake. If it was two days ago (when I hadn't made the commitment to track my foods again and be honest) I would have thought that my "diet" was completely trashed by that slice of chocolate-raspberry goodness. <BR> <BR> It turns out that, yes I was over calories, but I wasn't over on any of the other categories I track; not carbs, not protein n... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 23:59:35 EST Tracking and Sparking--Can't have one without the other. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4073279 Well. <BR> <BR> I tried to get back on track without actually tracking. <BR> <BR> Didn't work. <BR> <BR> I tried to get back on track with just tracking, but not "sparking." <BR> <BR> Didn't work. <BR> <BR> Now I will try to get back on track with tracking, sparking, and doing whatever it takes to KEEP ME HONEST. Because that is what really happens. I ignore fact and truth and try to lose weight . . . <BR> <BR> . . . by lying to myself <BR> <BR> One bite won't hurt? What about th... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 13:16:33 EST Keeping track of more than calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3851589 Every bite I log is so important. I leave myself a trail so that I can see where I am at and where I need to go. My trail of calories and fat grams and protein all leads me to my next choice. <BR> <BR> Just as important, I also need to look at my thoughts. I can't seem to remember one hurdle to the next just what got me over that hurdle the last time. I find it very helpful to look back at my blogs and see where I was and it invariably reminds me of a crucial thought or perspective. I n... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 00:17:35 EST