PANDAS10's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PANDAS10 PANDAS10's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Winter Ramblings; Baby News and such (w/pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263263 What an insane winter. <BR> <BR> In January, my grandma became very ill and I helped take care of her at home until she passed... I'm so grateful for hospice. I'm so grateful that her suffering was minimal. She and I were great friends; I miss her terribly... and I know she wanted nothing more than to meet her new grandbaby. <BR> <BR> Last week, we had 17 inches of snow dumped on us in less than 2 days.. Thanks Q! <BR> Apparently, there have only been 4 times in 90 years that we have ha... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 11:06:08 EST New Year, New Baby, New Rules! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184137 Christmas was definitely an exciting time... We told both of our families about our pregnancy (this was their big Christmas gift) and everyone was certainly surprised, but exceedingly excited!!! I think it is the best gift I could ever give. <BR> We did have a bit of a scare with some bleeding a few days before Christmas, but everything is perfect - ultrasound should a feisty, healthy baby with a heart rate of 170 and I haven't had any further issues. <BR> <BR> I will be 13 weeks along tom... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 14:56:58 EST The Biggest and (probably) Best News of the Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163527 Well, my Spark Friends, I haven't been on much in the last 2 weeks because of training with my new job and still working/transitioning out of my old job... I get out of training at 5p and come home and work from home till 10p and hope to get a good night's sleep. <BR> <BR> Fortunately, I am in the home stretch - I only have one more day (Saturday) to help with training my replacement, then I can focus on my new job and try to get back to normal. <BR> <BR> BUT, normal won't really be the no... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 18:21:34 EST Motivating move... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130623 Well, for as conflicted and difficult as making the decision was... I did indeed submit my letter of resignation to my boss (the president/COO) at 6pm yesterday. <BR> After the last 4 years of my life, I firmly believe that there is a divine plan that we just sometimes have to take a leap of faith. <BR> Everything in the last 6 months has been leading up to this - shoot, I even switched over to my husband's health insurance in October (not active until January)... had I not done so, health ... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 14:19:22 EST 16 Goals for Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108348 Being an avid Kansas State football fan, of course I adore Coach Bill Snyder. He is so humble; he doesn't make excuses; and just keeps pressing forward - he embodies all the traditional values that society has tossed by the way-side. Now that Kansas State is ranked at #3 in the BCS, it is a testament to Coach Snyder's "16 Goals for Success". <BR> When I first saw this list, I thought it was incredible! These principles don't just apply to football... they apply to everything! I saw a very ... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 11:49:21 EST I Did Not Deserve to Lose 3lbs This Week. (w/pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087916 Don't get me wrong... I'm SOOOO VERY GLAD that the scale showed a loss; that I am SO CLOSE to my goals for the year (1. Get under 300lbs; 2. 60lbs gone @297). <BR> I will take all that I can get. <BR> But that doesn't mean that I deserved or earned a big loss this week. I have been PMSing; stressed and anxious with work - corporate came to our office this week; overtired with barely a break; feeling hungry and binge-y. I haven't really tracked food this week because it has been such an off ... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 13:02:39 EST Strange Week; Staying Strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029300 This week... <BR> <BR> I had an administrator meeting at our corporate office in Wichita on Wednesday and Thursday. I really don't think I care to ever stay at the Hyatt Regency again - it's too "upscale" for me... and they didn't even have a fridge in the room (at least I can count on that at Super 8 or Comfort Inn). We went out for dinner/drinks on Wednesday night... I don't drink, so I partook in some light appetizers and a chicken sandwich with creamy spinach/artichokes - I tried to ... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 12:25:49 EST Highly Significant, Most Important Non-Scale Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013487 Could it be? The day that I'd never thought I'd see? <BR> That I've been waiting for since early 2008? <BR> <BR> My blood pressure. <BR> <BR> It's normal... <BR> <BR> ...And I haven't taken any blood pressure meds since August 8th. I just took my blood pressure just now, just to be sure I wasn't writing this blog prematurely: 127/82. <BR> <BR> Wow. Just. Wow. <BR> <BR> Since August of last year, I'd been gradually decreasing my dose of metoprolol after I went off of my birth control pil... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 12:00:10 EST Gym Clothes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000147 I am not one who really cares what I look like when I go to the gym. I want to be comfortable... I'm not there to make a fashion statement, or make friends - I'm there to Get My Sweat On! <BR> <BR> Currently (and in the past), my gym clothes consist of knit capris or long knit pants - whatever I can find that fits that doesn't make me look like a complete bafoon and that moves well with my workouts; and any t-shirts that I don't care to wear daily to work (usually d/t a stain). And I only ... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 22:40:47 EST Stressed Beyond Belief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989807 ugh. <BR> <BR> I seriously have just felt like I need to crawl under a rock and die... <BR> <BR> The past 2 weeks have been probably one of the most stressful times I can recall in recent history. And it just seems to be coming from every direction. <BR> <BR> It all started out being work related... For those who don't know, I'm a registered nurse and I am the branch administrator for a company that does home health (shift work) for technology dependent children (vents, feeding tubes, oxy... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 21:03:23 EST Feel like I should Blog, but don't know what to say. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4971422 I showed a 4.6lb loss on Friday the 13th. Those big losses are few and far between, and often times unexpected... I don't particularly *like* losing so slowly, but I also know that the things I'm doing right now, I could and would keep doing forever. And that is what will make me successful in the long run. <BR> <BR> I know, after posting a few weeks ago that I'd like to see 300lbs for my birthday on August 28th, that I will have to adjust that goal. I think a more attainable goal would b... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 15:01:34 EST Crazy Week... Taking the Good with the Bad. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4947675 It has been an insane week, well... really the past 2 weeks have been crazy for me. We have had a staffing change in the office, and since I'm the boss, I've been working to get our new person up to speed - but she is great and a fast learner, so that makes it a bit easier... but I still have double the workload until she gets up and going. I've been on the road alot and have had several lunch meetings with employees. I've tried to stay on track with food, but honestly found it mentally exh... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 12:27:37 EST Does Anyone Else Feel Taller After Strength Training? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4932191 Seriously... <BR> <BR> I've started getting back into strength training this month... I've been doing my full body once a week to start. <BR> After finishing all my lifting, I feel like I'm taller - and I'm already 6ft tall to start with! <BR> <BR> I don't know if it is the endorphins/confidence that comes with lifting; or if it actually something physiological - like the muscles holding me up straighter? <BR> And I mean that I have this feeling like immediately after I finish up. <BR> <B... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 21:05:00 EST 30lbs Lost; 30 Changes Made; 30 Reasons to Keep Going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917739 Well, I finally hit the 30lb mark when I weighed in today. I didn't expect that losing 30lbs would take this long... but then, I really didn't actually expect that I'd lose 30lbs at all. <BR> <BR> So to celebrate, this blog is dedicated to the 30 changes that have come along and to 30 more reasons to keep going! Everything on this list is something that has tangible improvement and everything on it is reason to keep pushing ahead! <BR> <BR> 1. I feel great - both physically and mentally;... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 13:06:46 EST Criminalizing Name Calling Against Fat People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4908598 I found this article <BR> <link>thestir.cafemom.com/healthy_living/1<BR>38320/making_fat_jokes_could_become </link> <BR> <BR> About Britain wanting to make it illegal to disparage a person based on their body size. Personally, I don't agree with criminalizing name calling in and of itself. We'd all be in jail, if that were the case. <BR> However, I DO believe that bullying and discrimination against fat people is one of the last forms of "acceptable" or "tolerated" ways to hate. <BR> I'... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 10:48:46 EST Today IS a Better Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4893533 Because I completely wasted yesterday... letting my bad habits come back to bite me, and letting my emotions over rule everything. I didn't get anything accomplished except being angry. <BR> <BR> Which, that's not to say that there is never a reason for being that angry. But one has to decide if they want that anger to run their lives. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I ate 4 Skinny Cow bars (those things are to die for) and 2 Skinny cow dreamy clusters packs. Why? First, because they were in the hou... Tue, 22 May 2012 20:01:39 EST I'm Angry. I Want to Punch a Wall. I ate Skinny Cows instead. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891371 Disclaimer: this post is dealing with my irregular menstrual cycles... some people may find it to be TMI. <BR> <BR> Well, the long awaited appointment with the gynecologist was definitely not worth the wait. <BR> <BR> First, a few weeks ago, I had lab done and a transvaginal ultrasound... everything came back normal. I really struggled with keeping this appointment because I didn't believe that I would get any good answers. <BR> <BR> I was right. I should have cancelled it. I'd at least... Mon, 21 May 2012 13:25:19 EST Am I Weird for NOT wanting to be a runner? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887331 Lately, I've been contemplating what I can do to vary up my fitness routine... not because I have hit a plateau, but more out of boredom and of wanting to push my body further. <BR> <BR> I like walking on the treadmill because it keeps a consistant pace, because I can push my limits with the inclines and speeds. I like it because it gives me an accurate gauge of how far I'm walking and how fast I'm doing it. I like that it counts calories burned, although I know it isn't the most accurate m... Fri, 18 May 2012 13:45:51 EST What a Week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4877458 Well, last weekend we went to Kansas City for the Royals/Yankees game... it was good. The Royals beat the Yankees 5-1; who'd thought that could happen? <BR> I got to see my longtime friend Kim and her husband. We went out to eat and I did reasonably well... I tried to make sure we picked places that I could look up their nutrition info. We walked all around the baseball stadium - my friends had to keep stopping to rest but Mark and I could have went around the whole thing twice without thin... Fri, 11 May 2012 18:49:47 EST I Really Never Thought This Would Happen: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4866301 For the Month of April, I had 1,012 fitness minutes logged. <BR> <BR> Wowsers! <BR> <BR> I had hoped to get 1000 minutes in March, but fell very short of that goal and truly didn't believe that I would be able to hit the 1000 minute mark anytime soon, if ever. I really struggled in March and just figured that it would just be that way. <BR> <BR> For April, I had wanted to do 800 minutes and thought I would have trouble reaching that... Not only did I meet that, I went well above and I d... Fri, 4 May 2012 12:20:00 EST Not just Monday... It's Birthday Monday! (with pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4859864 Today my loving husband, Mark, turns 38. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l979824784.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ain't he cute!? lol <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> He does all sorts of wonderful things... Like help my dad take care of my grandpa's yard: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l122285216.jpg"> <BR> <BR> He also loves my cat, Tilly. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/3/l73998902.jpg"> <BR> <BR> He takes me to Kansas State Footba... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 18:53:55 EST ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855469 AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> fRUstrated beyond belief right now. <BR> <BR> It has nothing to do with my progress (which is actually really good right now) or my motivation or anything with me doing what I should do. <BR> <BR> Somedays the world just sucks. Fri, 27 Apr 2012 21:11:11 EST Spar Start Page Changes Part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855189 Ok.. so, about my blog and message board post yesterday. <BR> I can tell you that is the first time that I have ever just posted anything on here without really thinking through what I was saying or editing it... <BR> It was an honest to god gut reaction to seeing it. <BR> I was absolutely very upset by it. <BR> I know that to others this seems trivial at best. <BR> However, the fact of the matter is that binge eating disorder lives in my past. And one of the things that I know can and will ... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 16:25:26 EST Spark Start Page Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4853963 Seriously, I'm not very happy to log in to SparkPeople today and find that my main page after logging in has changed. <BR> <BR> I don't want Spark People to tell me in big bold numbers how many calories I have left; or how many fitness minutes; or how many pounds it thinks I have lost since setting my goals. <BR> <BR> I don't know about the rest of you, but I liked the graphic that showed on a sliding scale how many calories were left for the day.... it wasn't so overwhelming to see it that... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 21:14:16 EST O! M! G! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4837695 So, this morning I decided that I would go "closet shopping" .. ya know, just to see where I was sizewise and how close I was getting to pulling out some of my old, smaller sized stuff... <BR> <BR> Well, I tried on 2 tops in a 22/24... one I had never worn before and one that I hadn't worn since the summer of 2007. The top that I never worn before is an Avenue brand (if you're familiar with it) 3/4 length sleeves, polyester material. It's a more dressy style. I was able to get it on, get ... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 13:14:01 EST Liquid Diets: Why I did it and Why I won't do it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4834775 I've been considering writing this blog for well over a month now. Recently on the message boards, many people have been asking about "Body by Vi" or making general inquiries about liquid diets. I've even had some of my staff try to sell me some Body by Vi products as well. <BR> <BR> I'm certainly not writing this to get anyone to buy these products - on the contrary... I do not believe that "Body by Vi" is anything other than a pyramid scheme and if one was deadset on doing this they'd be... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 13:27:02 EST About my status update... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833198 I think my status update today comes across as being whiny, a bit cynical, and the beginning of a pity party. <BR> That's so not how I meant it to be. <BR> <BR> It seems that when you write your feelings out and then go back and re-read it, it helps clarify your thoughts... <BR> <BR> I am absolutely THRILLED to be in 330s; for me this is as exciting as onederland is for others.... I traditionally have had much difficulty getting down to and past the 330s (this is probably my 5th try... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 10:13:02 EST Down and out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827225 I have been struggling lately. With everything. <BR> Last week, I didn't track for a few days.... and I did have a mini-binge. <BR> <BR> I know exactly why, too. My head isn't in the game at all right now. And it's because I'm having *female* problems. <BR> <BR> Sorry if this is TMI; but I need to get it out. <BR> <BR> When you bleed more days than you don't... and don't see an end in sight... and have to constantly worry about having a mess and ruining clothes... It's hard to focus. <... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 14:33:57 EST Back from Vacation. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4804099 Hidy Ho! I'm back from Ohio! <BR> <BR> We left last Friday the 16th and returned this past Friday. It was largely an uneventful trip... which is good. I had my hand-me-down Garmin to help navigate us through the cities (first time using GPS on the road - I'm used to doing it the old fashioned way with MapQuest directions and an Atlas). The Garmin tallied our time on the road: 15hrs including about 36 minutes of stop time. We did that both going out and coming back. 14.5hrs in a car is a... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 14:26:12 EST Love/Hate relationship with Daylight Savings Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788746 I LOVE LOVE LOVE the fact that it is lighter later into the evening - this coupled with the warm weather has made for some highly enjoyable evening walks with my hubby. <BR> Yay! I love being outside! Out here in Kansas, we usually only have a handful of days per year that are just beautiful (not too hot, too cold, or too windy). <BR> <BR> I HATE the fact that I can't hardly drag my butt out of bed this week. I have intended to get to the gym every morning (except Monday) and have had my g... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 09:59:49 EST At least there's this... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4779141 My status today about being an emotional wreck... yea, I thrive on structure and routine, so when that gets messed up I have difficulty coping. This usually triggers a binge. And it did trigger a small one last night - I got a bag of Almond Joy Pieces and ate most of it. <BR> I feel kinda guilty today, but really it's ok... I do feel better today and feel like it is out of my system and I can move forward. <BR> <BR> Anyway, the part about being underpaid... my boss called me today (after I ... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 12:16:57 EST My March Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4766026 So far this year, the hubby and I have had a friendly competition going each month. <BR> In January, whoever went to the gym the most times won (I went 10 times and he went 7 times). In February, our goal was to each beat our January number by one trip... neither of us accomplished that goal - between the colds floating around the house and helping my parents move for 2 weekends in a row, it really made it difficult. <BR> So... for March, my personal goal for the month will be get 1000 fitn... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 20:32:22 EST Recovering this weekend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4746014 After the way this week went, I have taken a mental break away from tracking. If this says anything, I'm a morning person and am usually up by 7:30a on the weekends... I slept till 9:15a; and that is after going to bed early. I really think this congestion and related bouts of coughing, feeling overwhelmed at work, and my period have just worn me down. <BR> <BR> I'm still feeling a bit under the weather. I believe I have a sinus infection, but don't seem to have as much drainage at this po... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:01:42 EST Bad Day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4743152 Ugh... <BR> Yesterday I was gone for 12 hrs... I had to drive 3hrs one way to do a job fair in Liberal Kansas (out in no-man's land). <BR> I have been fighting this nasty congestion that the hubby passed on to me - definitely coughing up some crazy colors! <BR> And then, my very late period started and I've been having bad cramps and really heavy bleeding. <BR> <BR> I didn't even log into Spark People to spin the wheel :( First day that I've missed that all year. <BR> <BR> Needless to say,... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 10:18:00 EST Random Saturday Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4722281 Went shopping with the hubby today... of course, I realized why I usually go without him... He means well, but definitely doesn't help with my frustration of being in a crowd at the store. <BR> Did well couponing today - I got 6 cans of Hunt's tomato paste and 3 cans of Hunt's diced tomatoes for 29 cents each; 7 tubs of Heluva good sour cream dip for free (we'll donate these), 6 jars of Ragu pasta sauce for 85 cents each; and 17 packs of Schick razors for free; among other things. Definitely ... Sat, 4 Feb 2012 17:37:22 EST Goodbye to January http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4708682 January has been, overall, a great month. <BR> <BR> Usually the symptoms of seasonal affective disorder are upon by this point in winter, and so far, so good... I really feel content, able to sleep and able to wake up. <BR> <BR> Mostly recovered from the nasty cold I had 2 weeks ago; still some coughing, but it's sooo much better. <BR> <BR> I haven't weighed in 2 weeks (I usually weigh on Friday mornings) because I was sick on the 20th (I truly had no business trying to get my lungs worked... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 13:07:08 EST Skinny Cow is Evil http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4693780 So, I went grocery shopping this afternoon. <BR> A few weeks ago, I had gotten a coupon at checkout (one of the Catalina coupons) for a free Skinny Cow chocolate wafer bar or nut clusters. <BR> I figured I'd get one today - cuz ...if it's free, it's for me! Right? Right! <BR> <BR> I consumed my Skinny Cow Heavenly Crisp Milk Chocolate Wafer Candy Bar with my lunch, in all its 110 calorie goodness. <BR> <BR> OMGIWANTMORE! says my mouth/brain/irrational craving. <BR> <BR> Ahem. I have anothe... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 16:21:55 EST It's Wednesday? hmmm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4689734 Well, I am feeling a bit better. <BR> <BR> I am SO GLAD this has turned out to be a nasty chest cold. Today, my nosing is running all over the house... at least this stuff is moving out of my body now. :) <BR> <BR> I haven't left the house since Saturday - which is kind of depressing; and I need a shower (I hate getting the water when I'm sick). I think I will go in to the office tomorrow and try to be productive. I feel so fortunate to have a job that gives me the flexibility to work fr... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 18:41:49 EST What an uneventful weekend...now I'm sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4684365 Wowsers. I can't believe it's Monday already... <BR> <BR> Saturday, I spent a large portion of the afternoon/evening painting our bedroom. Almost done with the first coat - have to move the bed and the dresser to finish (our house is very small, so we didn't have the option to move furniture out of the room first). Would love to be done next weekend. The walls were a chocolate milk beige-y color with lots of dirt and marks.... now it is a clean, cool "Polished Limestone" (grey-green). It w... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 12:44:26 EST Feeling Great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4666503 I feel really good. I've been definitely sleeping better; generally more energetic; having a better time getting around; and being more productive. <BR> <BR> All that from one good week. One good week of consistent exercise; one good week of getting my calories under control. <BR> <BR> Perfect week? NOPE, far from it... in fact I'm sure there are people out there who would scrutinize my food tracker or what I *didn't* do for exercise and tell me that I haven't made enough changes. <BR> <BR... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 15:55:10 EST Interestingly enough... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660347 So far this winter, I have not had the issues that I typically have with Seasonal Affective Disorder symptoms. Not sure why, and I don't think that weight or diet have much to do with it. <BR> For the past several years, usually beginning in December and lasting through April, I have issues with mood, irritability, depression, and extreme difficulty staying awake in the evening or waking up before the sun is in full force. <BR> I referred to myself as being Solar Powered... haha... probabl... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 19:29:44 EST The New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4651193 As cliched as it is, I do want to use my time this year to get myself right: physically, mentally, emotionally, and financially. <BR> I gained 7lbs through the holidays; so it is what it is and we move on from there. <BR> <BR> Walked 2.94 miles today; burned 600 calories. Have planned out my meals and everything looks great. <BR> Tomorrow, I'll be on the road for work, so I will have to better about watching calories and try to just get up and get moving (difficult to do when you spend 4 h... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 12:41:50 EST What a Crazy Fall! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4548964 So, it's been almost a few months since I have been able to use SparkPeople consistently: first we moved into our new house (closing at the last minute too, so it was chaos), then I didn't have internet for a few weeks, and then my computer was on the fritz. In the meantime, I've done some good things and bad things for myself and it is time to pick up the pieces and move on. <BR> <BR> Of Course, if you've read my previous blogs, I was VERY anxious and apprehensive about my 30th birthday. ... Sun, 23 Oct 2011 10:07:37 EST Countdown: 30 days to 30 years.... day 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4436779 Oh what a week. <BR> We are NOT closing on our house today. The crappy thing about is that it has NOTHING to do with our ability to get a loan/own a home... it comes down to good old fashioned govt. bureaucracy...... <BR> Basically, there was a storm that rolled through last week and dumped some hail (not unusual for western Kansas storms), the hail was small penny to dime sized, but it dumped alot of it. The house we are buying has BRAND NEW vinyl siding (has only been up about 3-4 weeks).... Fri, 19 Aug 2011 13:00:30 EST Countdown: 30 days to 30 years.... day 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4427142 Mark and I had a long conversation today about birth control. <BR> I've had a hellacious period... as usual; has never mattered what kind of birth control or if I'm on it or off it, my periods are awful. <BR> <BR> But there were some real issues that we needed to talk about. I'm currently on Seasonale (extended cycle pill, ie no period for 3 months) and have been on it for probably 6 years; prior to that on Depo for 4 years. <BR> The fact of the matter is that because of my size, being on ... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 23:05:14 EST Countdown: 30 days to 30 years.... days ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4423105 Cramps... <BR> <BR> Need I say more? <BR> <BR> Midol and chocolate cookies may help. Fri, 12 Aug 2011 14:31:01 EST Countdown: 30 days to 30 years.... days 10,11,12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4420493 It's been a busy week at work; I knew the lull wouldn't last. But I've been confident about taking things as they come and crossing them off my list. <BR> I have been tracking everything I eat this week - I haven't been in range on calories at all, BUT I have been eating consistently, making good choices during meals, keeping portions under control and listening when my body says i'm full. I've averaged 2000 calories a day since Sunday. Which is good; must start somewhere. I can plainly se... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 10:05:35 EST Coutdown: 30 days to 30 years ... the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4414346 Days 7, 8, 9. <BR> Oh my. Days 7 and 8 were bad. I was stressed out and angry. I yelled at Mark... and then he said something very profound: Are you yelling at me or someone else? <BR> I really thought about that and the conclusion I came to was that I was yelling and angry at myself. That sparked a very emotional evening for me. I was finally able to put a voice to things that had gone on since childhood; to put a voice to my anger and contempt of myself and to realize that it was totally... Mon, 8 Aug 2011 12:12:45 EST Countdown: 30 days to 30 years.... day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4408690 Yesterday was day 6. It ended poorly. I don't know what was so wrong with me. Part of it was that I was SUPER BORED at work, and just didn't really care to expend the mental effort to find work to do. Things will pick up just as fast as they've slowed (these lulls are a rarity). I should have just taken the day off, as I have plenty of PTO. <BR> At any rate, I came home in a bad mood for no reason, and Mark then antagonized the situation by being such a boy about things LOL. <BR> But then... Fri, 5 Aug 2011 11:00:53 EST Countdown 30 days to 30 years: days 4 &5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4407232 (Yes I know today is day 6 LOL) <BR> The last two days have been ok. Mood is better; not feeling so anxious about my impending doom...I mean birthday LOL. <BR> Last night, Mark even said that he feels like my mood has leveled out and I seem happier. So; I'd say things are looking up. <BR> Tuesday morning, I woke up with a horrible pain in my shoulder - my muscle was just in knots... and lots of massage and ibuprofen barely touched it. Through last night, it hurt - so I did not do my swimmin... Thu, 4 Aug 2011 16:07:36 EST