PALESEPT's SparkPeople Blog

Same Weight For 1.5 Months:(

Wed, 16 Jun 2010 11:29:05 EST

I mean it. My weight will go up or down a single pound, but on the whole, it's stayed at 109 lbs. I'm trying so hard to get to 105 lbs. As the cliche says, I'm "so close, yet so far away"! I do weigh in tomorrow, but I have a feeling that I'm up in weight this week... not good at all. It's my TOM, so it's to be expected, but still. I just know that I will be thoroughly distraught when I see the number. I should weigh more often. I used to weigh several times a day...

I nee...

Haven't Really Been Counting Calories:(

Sat, 8 May 2010 15:46:32 EST

... but I should! It's bizarre. I've lost weight recently (I'm at 109 lbs. now) and it seems my caloric intake has gone up on the nutrition page. I don't know why. My exercise has not been totally consistent since I'm working now, so maybe I should lower that number on the fitness page. Who knows. But anyway, does anyone thing 1,540-1,890 cals for someone my weight (0h yes, and I'm 5'4") is just a little too high?

My mom thinks I'm sick. She's been having me drink Boosts. I...

I'm All Tingly!

Tue, 13 Apr 2010 18:48:24 EST

Hi!

It's Spring, and it's so cold here! I think we had a high temp of 55 degrees fahrenheight (sp?) today. The heater came back on. I sure hope it's supposed to be warmer later in the week.

I've officially been at my new job for two weeks. I really hope this job is a good fit and that people like me there. I'm pretty quiet so not many people know me yet. Just one or two people. I hope I get a little less shy and branch out and that people don't dislike me.
...

New Job! Less Exercise?

Thu, 1 Apr 2010 18:44:14 EST

Hi!

Guess what? I finally got a new job! It's in the receiving room, opening boxes and doing stocking. From what I can tell, there's a lot of walking involved. I've only been working there three days, and today is my day off. I am working the morning shift, 6 a.m. til noon. The three days that I have worked so far have tired me out, which is not terribly good because I help my mom babysit for the remainder of the day so I need to be on my toes!

The job may be phy...

Gaining, Gaining:(

Tue, 23 Mar 2010 10:27:38 EST

Hi!

I don't know what's come over me. I normally weigh myself every day or every other day, but lately I've been slacking off. It's been over a week since I stepped on the scale, so the weight on my ticker was an estimate. It was WRONG! Way off. By 1.4 lbs. :( I'm actually 112.4 lbs. now. So I gained 1.4 lbs. in a week. What's wrong with me? Maybe it was the pigging out that I did this morning. Maybe something else. I don't know. Everything seems to be going wrong!
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Don't Even Know Where To Ask

Mon, 22 Mar 2010 15:58:09 EST

Hi!

For those who don't know, a little while ago I won a $20 gift certificate on the Spark Wheel. Yay! So, with it I got two fitness DVD's from the spark store. One is a strength training one, and the other one is cardio. I think I received them a week ago. I've been doing the strength training one with no problem. Just stuck it in the DVD player and went to town. Today I was all excited to try the "Cardio Blast" DVD. I put it in the player and... it gave me some kind of e...

Guess I'm A Binge- Eater Now?

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 12:55:44 EST

Hi all,

It doesn't have to be that way. I can stop it. I just don't know how. Can you help me? Someone out there? I know someone is going through this.

See the thing is, I'm normally pretty strict about my eating schedule, and I suppose things have gotten out of control in the last month or so. It all started with the peanut butter. It's just no good for me. Seems like it makes me crave other sweet things (am I crazy?). I don't want to go on a weight-gaining spre...

Medications and Weight Gain

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 16:21:49 EST

Hi!

I just started taking this medication Neurontin, and upon doing a little research I found that one of the side effects is weight gain. Has anyone else taken this medication and had this happen? I just started taking it today and really don't want this to occur. I've already gained enough this month. No more, thank you.

I was also on Seroquel a while back and OH BOY did I gain weight:( I gained 50 lbs. in a short period of time. It's the reason that I came back he...

And So The Week Begins!:(

Sun, 17 Jan 2010 04:46:57 EST

...it's about 4:30 a.m., and this Sunday is not starting out well. Either I had a little too much coffee or I didn't have enough to eat yet (I have a snack of sorts before working out), but I have heartburn and feel like crap. Granted, I was sick to begin with (I have a cold/bronchitis), but now I really don't feel well. Heck, I even woke up later than usual. I'm freaking out just a little about it! Ick.

Bootcamp will have to be postponed until later. I think today's the card...

Results After Week 1 of Bootcamp

Mon, 11 Jan 2010 06:54:25 EST

Hi!

I just wanted to post what's been going on during/after the week that I've been doing the Spark Your Body Bootcamp! It's been a little over one week now, and I've done almost all the workouts except for, I think, one of them (I joined a day late).

Just did my measurements and, to my dismay, I'm the same/bigger all over. Not much has changed. this makes me very angry! 15 Must be all of the eating I've been doing. Gotta cut my calories and get back to ...

Workout "Do Over"!

Sun, 10 Jan 2010 06:53:34 EST

It's about 6:40 a.m. here, and I actually was up starting my work out about 2.5 hours ago (yeah... I start my workout at 4 a.m. Anyone else out there do that?) It's my usual time. Made my coffee around 3:30 a.m. Crazy insomnia lady. That's me.

My workout, honestly, was pretty darned crappy. This morning, I lazily decided to skip today's Spark Your Body Bootcamp workout ("oooooh... it's too long, and I'm too TIRED... :( ) BOO! I thought, "it's okay, I'm allowed to take ONE ...

Bootcamp: Day 5!

Thu, 7 Jan 2010 09:11:06 EST

Here I am on Day 5 of the bootcamp, and going strong! Did the 10-minute video and the bonus video as well. Also went a little crazy on the cardio this morning! O0ops!
Too much caffeine, I suppose! Here's what I did after the training video for the bootcamp:

45 mins dancing
25 mins jump rope (I'm a regular jumping bean!)
15 mins kickboxing

I counted playing the Nintendo Wii and such as well in my tracker. I played for over 3 hours this morning! No kids...

Day 3 Spark Your Body Bootcamp!

Tue, 5 Jan 2010 06:49:37 EST

Hi!
I completed today's challenge for Day 3 of the bootcamp! It's actually my first day! I joined the bootcamp two days late :( My mistake. I thought I absolutely had to have a stability ball, but then yesterday I read that the workouts can be modified if you do not have all of the equipment.

Today's workout video was 8 minutes and you were supposed to have a stability ball and dumb bells, but I just have the dumb bells (mine are 5 lbs. Is that heavy enough? They were ...

Up A Pound And Found The Scale...

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 17:15:29 EST

Hello!
Happy New Year to all! 421

Couldn't go to my dietitian today due to early morning snow, but weighed-in on my digital scale at home. My mom brought it out. So I weighed myself (clothes on) and I was up a pound from last week. I'm 116 lbs. now BOO! Must have been all that holiday crap my mom had me have. Good thing most of it is gone now. Now it's time to survive New Year's Eve! One more holiday to go.

So... while my mom was upstairs getting...

Calorie Burning Questions!

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 07:35:18 EST

Hi!
I have been subscribed to a thread on the boards where everyone posts how many calories they've burned while working out. Every day or so I post my "calories burned" for the day on there and notice they are abysmally lower than everyone else's. How do people consistently burn 1500 cals per day? Is it just through exercise, or are they counting other things like housework and stuff? Mine tend to be somewhere between 300-700 something. Seems like it should be higher, doesn't it? ...

The Weight Struggle!

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 18:05:26 EST

Hi everyone!
Happy Holidays!
I haven't written a blog in a while, so I figured I would. Went to the dietitian today and weighed about the same as last week. Okay, so I gained 6 ounces (4/10ths of a pound!) this week. FREAKED OUT. I'm not supposed to be gaining, I'm supposing to be losing! According to me anyway.

Here's the thing. My dietitian wants me to get to about 121-125 pounds roundabouts (she said so! I asked her today.) My parens want me to get to 125 AT THE ...

My Progess Pics!!!

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 16:46:15 EST

Hi!
So it's been a long journey! I've lost 60 lbs., most of it during the past 6 months! I have progress pics for most of it (I didn't pose for pics when I was at my heaviest), but have photos for the last about 40 lbs. Wanna see them?

Here's me in May at 151 lbs. I was taking it of myself with my webcam, so it's not the best, but whatever!

This is me again, at 151 lbs. in front of the webc...

I've Been Sick!:(

Sat, 7 Nov 2009 14:49:53 EST

Hi!

I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately, but I've been sick. It started out with flu-like symptoms, and I was in bed for a while, now I've had this stupid cough for almost three weeks (yes, I went to the doctor last week! It's bronchitis and I'm currently on antibiotics). Now I have this horrible rib pain on my right side. It started just before I went to the doctor. She said it was from coughing... but my coughing has since subsided mostly, and the rib pain is still the...

Even SP Bumped Up My Calories?!?!?

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 07:43:50 EST

Hi Everyone reading this!

Recently, I lost a couple more pounds and when I logged it in on the weigh-in page, it came up with this little message to do something with my calories. To be honest, I was/am confused. Why, if I am at a LOWER weight, do I have to consume MORE calories? Seems backwards to me. I know... "google" it. Or, better yet, do an SP search. That will even get me a point! 30

So I looked a little bit later on, only to see that SP had bump...

I Know I Was Supposed To GAIN A Little, But...

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 07:37:20 EST

...I just can't bring myself to do it. When I went to the dietitian last Wednesday, I'd actually lost another pound. I'm kinda going around 119-120, but everyone else wants me to be around 124-125.

A large portion of me just wants to see the numbers tumble downward like the past. Really, I do... I don't like how I look or feel... nothing about me pleases me. I'd imagine nothing about me pleases other people either.

That's enough about that.

Pale

New Plan, New Weight Goal... UP!:\

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 08:21:52 EST

So for those of you who don't know, I have a LONG Eating Disorder history. Basically it started half a lifetime ago (16 years ago) with Anorexia and has continued to this day.

Now I have been to the same dietitian for the past, oh, eight years? She has seen me at my absolute *worst*, and would really like me not to go back there again.

In the past 4 months I have lost 50 lbs. I've gone from 171 lbs. to 120 lbs. so it's really 51 lbs, but whatever. Anyway, my diet...

Grr... So Close To My Second Goal!:(

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 08:11:25 EST

But I just can't get there! I have followed the directions of my dietitian and not tracked my calories so much, but I think I need to start doing it again!!!! Grrr! I've also been forced (my mom was there at the dietitian session... she had some concerns about my calorie intake and such:( ) to weigh in my clothes, in front of my mom. How frustrating! And my weight has been stuck at 123.0 lbs. for such a while (but that's *with* clothes on, my other weights that I had taken were in the buff...

"Too Thin"... I Think Not!

Thu, 6 Aug 2009 06:29:45 EST

Hi!

My mom was saying yesterday that I am "too thin". I'm 5'4" and about 126.5 lbs. That might seem like a nice weight, but wait until you see this picture of me, taken a couple of days ago:

Sorry if it's large, but I don't think I look like the weight that I am. I look much larger. My arms sag and my stomach is too big. I do strength training every other day, so I don't know what I'm doing wrong....

Beach Day Delight!

Mon, 3 Aug 2009 08:23:36 EST

Hi again!

Last Thursday, my family and I went to the beach! All the kiddies and everything! Well, I thought I would show off my pictures here because no one comments on my pics in my photo gallery:(

Here's me wearing my bathing suit *in public* for the first time since I was a teenager!!!:

Here's my 1 and a half year old niece Sophia and my twin!:

I Look Like A Leper!!!:(

Sun, 2 Aug 2009 07:15:26 EST

Hi!

My family and I went to the beach on Thursday (the nieces and everyone, except for my dad). We had so much fun! My younger sister rented a beach house about an hour from where I live, so we went to visit her and spend some much-needed time out in the sun! I don't think I've been in the ocean since I was about 20 years old:( It was so much fun! And my mom was out there more than I was. My 4 year old niece was a little afraid of the water, though:) It took her 4 hours to ge...

My Measurements!!!

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 08:21:16 EST

I've shrunk again!

I just measured myself 5 days ago, and I've shrunk in almost all areas! I don't know if it's a fluke or what:) I've gone down about a half inch in every area except for my neck and upper arm. Yet all I see is fat, fat, fat. I'm not sure how much weight I've lost during that time. Maybe two pounds? Not enough. I was kinda stuck at 129.5 lbs. for 3 days. I know, not exactly a plateau, but long enough for me!
Oh, I got a new game for my Nintendo Wii yes...

Tripping Over My Words!!!

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 07:33:49 EST

Hello?

Something's up with me! I'm sitting here singing and talking to people, and I keep tripping over my words. Even my typing is terrible today. It's usually somewhat bad, but not this bad. Maybe I'm just doing too many things at one time? I did take my "brain meds" this morning, though there's nothing for this particular affliction, hehe:) It's made for some amusing singing though. I'm getting a giggle!

Well, that's all I have. My typing is annoying!:(
...

Some Things Change...:)

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:31:52 EST

I just took my measurements for the first time since July 4th. Some things changed, while others did not...? Weird.:) I'm a weird person though. At least I consider myself so. Anyway, here's what's changed and what's not:

Weight: 135.5 down from 138 lbs.
Waist: 26.5 in down from 27.5 in
Hips: 37 in (same)
Neck: 12 in down from 12.5 in
Thigh: 23 in (same)
Calf: 13 in (same)
Upper Arm: 11 in (same)
Waist to hip ratio: .73 (never measured before...

Went To Dietitian Yesterday!

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 08:40:16 EST

Hi!

Apparently I've lost 11 lbs. in 5 weeks! I don't know why I don't keep better track of these things. I thought it was going to be more like 6 or 7 pounds lost. Her weight (she doesn't account for clothes! So upset :( ) said 138 at 1 p.m. while my ancient (digital) scale said 137 first thing in the morning, and my Wii Fit scale said something like 136 a little while later.

She did say what people on here have been telling me though (I'm hard-headed... :( ), to on...

"My Goals" Wants Me Underweight?

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 08:02:35 EST

Hi!

I was fiddling around with some things on the site yesterday because it has been pointed out to be (more than once...) that my calorie intake is too low. I was changing my Goal Weight and Target Date or whatever it's called, and Sparkpeople actually recommended that I get to 105 lbs.! I'm 5'4", so that puts me at a BMI of 18.0, which means Underweight. Part of me wants to go back to that, but a little part of me knows that that will just send me back to the hospital for the ...

Second Try!!! Watch Please!!!

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 13:07:06 EST

My first Video Blog! Hopefully it will upload this time! Love, Pale!

My Scale Also Makes Me Ill:(

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 05:25:48 EST

Haha:)

I tried weighing myself at a different time today... no good. Going back to my "first thing in the morning" weigh-ins. BUT! I will try to limit it to once a day. I'm saying TRY because it will be hard... the temptation is definitely there. I'm already planning to weigh myself again today. Who the heck knows why? I know it won't be good. I know it won't make me happy. It won't be "good enough"... it never is. I have two scales, and one is always different from the ot...

New Medication Makes Me Ill!:(

Thu, 9 Jul 2009 17:44:20 EST

Hi!

I started a new medication for anxiety I guess about 2 months ago. Ever since then, I've had *extremely* horrible gag reflexes. I gag on pretty much anything... sometimes food, water, toothpaste, sometimes just randomly. It's a daily battle. It can't be good for me. Just everything makes me feel ill while I'm injesting it or whatever. I see my doctor next week so it's not too far away, but I did e-mail my therapist because she knows a lot about that kind of stuff. No dice...

Cutting Back On Weigh-ins!

Thu, 9 Jul 2009 15:02:53 EST

Hi!

I was just asking some questions here and on another site, about what time of day to weigh in. I got mixed replies. See, my thing is.. .I know I'm obsessed with the scale! I weigh myself several times per day. It's bad, and my dietitian tells me so... well, I really know it. So I'm going to try to cut down to once a day. I think it will be mid-morning (I haven't really settled on an exact time yet... we'll see tomorrow) because of various reasons. I just know that's whe...

Jumping To Conclusions

Tue, 7 Jul 2009 16:50:40 EST

I don't mean to do it! I honestly don't. But my foot feels funky, hurts, feels tingly. I don't know if I am just overreacting. I probably am. I DO have paranoia problems, hehe!

I'm already worrying about what if it's broken (don't know how that would've happened though!) and I have to wear a cast again like last time... I won't be able to weigh myself (GRRRR!) and won't know what to eat. My intake is already low, hence my joining the Undereaters team. Will I have to eat even ...

Bad Time Of It Lately:(

Sun, 5 Jul 2009 12:45:19 EST

I don't know what's wrong with me! I guess I've been exercising too much, or doing too much of the same exercises, but I think I hurt my left foot/ankle AGAIN. I broke it pretty badly (almost had to have surgery) about two years ago. It's pretty sore. I'm sorry, I don't mean to be a complainer. I'm trying to get away from that.

Another thing is... I think MAYBE it might be my new-ish medicine, but my gag reflex is really bad lately. I gag on everything. Sometimes food, tooth...

The Amazing Shrinking Woman!

Sat, 4 Jul 2009 09:40:53 EST

Hi!

I just took my measurements (dumbly enough, AFTER I had eaten and had two cups of water, but anyway...) and I'm shrinking! My last measurements were all taken on 06/25/09. Here are my measurements that have changed:

Waist: 27.5 in. down .5 in.
Thigh: 22 in. down 1 in.
Calf: 13 in. down .5 in.
Body Fat: 24.37% down from 25.7%

The other ones are the same. I know I'm supposed to do some of them just monthly, but someone mentioned measureme...

An Article I Read About Too Much Exercise!

Sat, 4 Jul 2009 07:59:58 EST

I found an article that is very fitting for me. Here's the link:

www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness
_articles.asp?id=508

It really says that you shouldn't be exercising EVERY SINGLE DAY to the point of exhaustion and pain. I do. I really feel like crap. Pretty much every day. I have scoliosis, and it seems like the increased exercise that I have been doing these past few months has made it feel REALLY horrible. I have to take some Ibuprofen ...

Update on Kasha, Or "Practice Pants":)

Wed, 1 Jul 2009 08:45:08 EST

*giggles* Sometimes I'm so silly, I make myself laugh!

For about the past week, my previously lost kitty Kasha has been coming to me every morning for a bowl (or two!) of yummy kitty food! I'm so excited! She comes to her name, or even to me opening the door, she gets so excited about the prospect of seeing her "Mama" and getting some attention. She deserves it! I love it when she licks her bowl clean and asks for more. She's always been a tiny cat and could definitely stan...

Afraid Of Regaining Lost Weight, Blog Prompt!

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 09:51:17 EST

Hello everyone!

So far I have lost 32 pounds in about 4 months. I think that's pretty good... However, my track record for keeping off weight I've lost is terrible. I tend to yo-yo. I lose a lot of weight, keep it off for oh, a month or three... and then gain it back times two. So you can see why I'm afraid of gaining back this weight that I've lost in the past four months. I've worked so hard!

I'm so close to where my dietitian wants me to maintain (at around 13...

So Proud Of My Niece!:)

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 07:12:27 EST

Yesterday we all went to the local state park's battle reenactment! At first, I wasn't going to go because my ears are really sensitive and they shoot blanks and the cannons (oh my GOSH were they LOUD!), but I had to go for my nieces!

The best part of the trip was the "Childrens' Drill", where they gave them all wooden rifles and cartridge containers and they pretended to load the guns and stuff. It was SO adorable! My niece is turning four years old next month. I think she w...

Setting A July Goal A Little Early!

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 09:12:56 EST

Hello!

I tried following my dietitian's directions for about 3 days and getting up to about 1000 calories... well, got a MAJOR tummy ache last night! So bad I actually cried! And I ended up GAINING 2 lbs.! 46

So, my goal by the end of July is to lose, I guess 8 lbs. That seems doable. I lost over 8 lbs. last month. That will take me to 133.5 lbs. I think... my math is so terrible. And I actually want to stick to doing strength training every OTHER day, r...

My Lost Kitty Kasha Has Been Found!

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 07:06:29 EST

Hi!

My kitty Kasha had been missing for about 3 weeks, but we've kinda found her! Problem is, she seems a LOT happier outside. She came up to my mom and I and my nieces while we were in the play yard and hung around for an hour or two! She even jumped into my lap and put her paws on my shoulder for me to pet her! She's *NEVER* done that before! She had always been kinda neurotic inside of the house, always keeping to herself, very skiddish. Outside, she was soaking up the lov...

Unintended

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 08:27:15 EST

Hello everyone!

I really don't know where to start here! Umm.. actually went up to my calorie range yesterday I think (forgot to put it in my sparkpeople food journal.. hard to do since dinner was a homemade meal with a lot of ingredients, and I'm really not quite sure what was in it. Mom made it), and LOST an amazing 1.5 lbs. 9 I checked on both my ancient scale, and my Wii Fit scale, and they both were around the same weight... 139.5 lbs.! Exciting! My dietitian wan...

Taking It Easy Today... Maybe:)?

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 08:32:25 EST

Okay, so yesterday and the day before I overdid it (again?) Even my mom said so. Coupled with my bad scoliosis, I ached like CRAP this morning. Badly needed some Ibuprofen before doing some light exercise. Only 20 minutes, unlike my normal hour in the morning. I think I did over an hour and a half of exercise yesterday, and 2 hours exercise the day before. Doing more and more kickboxing. Going to have to lower that down a notch today. Maybe even skip it...? To be honest, actually, I'm...

Burned 300 Calories Before 7:00 a.m.???:)

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 07:27:29 EST

Hi!

I just plugged my exercise into the fitness page on here (20 minutes kickboxing, 22 minutes Dance Bowling, which I count as "Wii Fit" high intensity, and about 10 minutes strength training, which doesn't come into account here). Anyway, I put in the kickboxing, and is it possible that it burns 217 calories in 20 minutes? It was quite intense... but that seems a little high to me. The rest of my intense dancing around only burned 97 or something like that calories. Maybe I s...

I Fit Into The Shirt I Wore The Day My First Niece Was Born!

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 15:44:10 EST

Hi!

Hey, I was trying on the clothes in my closet (haven't done that in a while, and have lost some weight, so I was curious). Well, it left me teary-eyed! Don't worry, I mean in a GOOD way! Sure, almost everything fit, especially the Mediums (?), but I was surprised to find this one shirt that I wore the day that my first niece was born, almost four years ago. I can't have any children of my own, so my nieces and nephew are just like my own children! And seeing the shirt that I wo...

Think I Wore Out My Pedometer!! Haha!

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 09:01:25 EST

I've been walking so much lately that I think I need a new battery in my pedometer! 20

For a while, I was consistently getting 8,000-13,500 steps per day, and then BANG! the past couple of days, it gets stuck at a certain number half way through the day, or is just really slow (like today I did cardio for 45 minutes, aerobics, and it only read 83 steps!) Think I should buy a new battery? Or do you think there's something really wrong with ME?:( I usually rack up about ...

60 Minutes Of Cardio Before 8:30 A.M?!?

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 08:54:37 EST

I'm a crazy lady! I have insomnia, or at best, fitful sleep... oh yeah that's right! Thanks for reminding me! I have an appt with my doc about changing my meds at 2 p.m. so maybe I'll sleep better...?

Anyway... I tend to wake up/give up around 3:30-5 a.m. and I typically feel really energized. Such was the case this morning. I also like to get my exercise in during the morning since I feel so energized. But a whole hour or more is just overkill. I did "Dance Bowling" like...