PACIFIC_PEARL's SparkPeople Blog PACIFIC_PEARL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 2013 is looking fabulous.. It is day 4 of my long awaited holiday. I have finally had the chance to spend precious time on myself, and this time the whole family have come aboard for the ride. <BR> <BR> I am married with two teenage sons and an eleven year old daughter. In the past my weight loss has always been all about me. I would eat completely differently from the rest of my family and exercise alone. Not this time. <BR> <BR> I have put my foot down and told them all enough is enough! We have all been eating ter... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 06:50:14 EST Even when you don't feel like it... It's been a very hectic week, what with sending my two teenage sons to Australia for a wedding this weekend. Hence, I haven't been to the gym all week until today. <BR> <BR> I'm actually on holiday at the moment, kind of. I'm sure I'm doing more now than when I'm working! So I'm very proud of the fact that I squeezed in a 6am Powerfit class between making packed lunches, taking hubby to work, putting the trash out, and getting my daughter off to school. <BR> <BR> I am not one to lift weigh... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 19:18:57 EST On cloud nine, but keeping my feet firmly planted on the ground... I am at goal.... <BR> <BR> I am at goal. <BR> <BR> I don't think I'll ever get sick of saying that. It's a wonderful feeling, and almost seems unreal. It's funny because when I actually saw the numbers on the scale (79 kilos or 174 pounds), I didn't jump up and down or do a little dance in my bathroom! It's not that I ever thought for one minute I would not get to goal. I knew I would get to goal, it was just a matter of time. <BR> <BR> I smiled, and clenched my fists with a sense of trium... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 18:16:02 EST They've been ripping us off.... As I inch closer and closer to goal, and finally get that this is a lifestyle, not a diet, I can't help but wish that I'd figured this out years ago. It would have saved me a fortune! Preying on the desperation of the overweight is a billion dollar industry. A cruel cycle of empty promises that assure us "quick and easy", but always leave us disappointed, frustrated and frantically searching for the seemingly magical, somewhat elusive "secret." <BR> <BR> The good news is... there is no "sec... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 06:10:30 EST I sometimes think of pinching myself... Somewhere along the way on my journey I have been redefined. Transformed. <BR> <BR> I am the woman who LOVES going to the gym, easily does two classes back to back, and isn't afraid to be right up at the front. <BR> <BR> I have sculpted shoulders, toned arms and the beginnings of a six-pack. <BR> <BR> I am smaller now than when I was in high school. <BR> <BR> I enjoy eating well and don't give a damn what others think about it. <BR> <BR> I love what I see in the mirror, and that I'm wea... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 04:19:56 EST The wobbly bits. Most of us have been there, you've lost quite a bit of weight, you feel different, you look different, and it shows. You've already had a few compliments. You're feeling pretty good about yourself and then you notice. There's still a pouch of fat around your tummy, your thighs still wobble like jelly, and sure enough, there's still evidence of a muffin top around your hips, and that stubborn unsightly flab around your lower back and upper arms. Argh! It's enough to make you throw in the towel... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 22:22:55 EST Selective hearing. Between the miserable weather, a family funeral and a two day Health and Safety workshop for work, I haven't been able to do any planned exercise for the past few days. I must admit I get a lot of physical activity in my busy day anyway, but it's just not the same, and I miss the gym. To make up for it, I have been extra vigilant with my food, and am pleased to report that it has paid off! I weighed myself this morning to find another kilo has bitten the dust! I'm down to 85 kilos now, which... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 22:26:29 EST Whether you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right. A workmate asked me the other day, do you ever think to yourself "oh sod this, I'm just going to stuff myself silly with junk food and be done with it?" <BR> <BR> I had to pause and think. I realised the truth is the thought does sometimes cross my mind, but not before I'd already answered, "no, after a while you really don't miss it." <BR> <BR> "I wish I had your willpower," she replied. Oh how I hate that word. I've said it before and I'll say it again, willpower is fickle. An emotional ... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 06:32:31 EST I refuse to fit in. I am so close to my goal now I can almost taste it! Only 7 more kilos to go, although I want to lose a couple more just to give myself a little leeway, or room to play, whilst still being at goal and under the 80 kilo mark. So let's just say 7 more kilos to goal, and anything more is a bonus. <BR> <BR> I'm wearing clothes I'd never thought I'd ever fit into again, and receiving compliments left, right and centre. It's not all a bed of roses though, and I find myself needing a reminder that t... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 00:32:37 EST Weight is managed not cured. Weight is managed not cured. <BR> <BR> I love this line and use it often. It reminds me that my new lifestyle must be just that. My lifestyle - my way of life, not a fad diet that eventually comes to an end, with the return of bad habits and any weight lost. For this reason my lifestyle must be one I can maintain and enjoy at the same time. <BR> <BR> Regular planned exercise is imperative. It absolutely must happen. I have to admit I felt self conscious about exercising at first, and my fit... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 04:50:04 EST I lost a bag of sugar! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I work in a bakery (of all places), and this is what a 25 kilo bag of sugar looks like. It represents how much weight I've already lost - and counting. I carried one from the rear storeroom to the baking area the other day, and I could hardly believe that this is how much extra weight I used to carry around with me all the time. No wonder I was always tired! My poor joints! <BR> <BR> The bag at work has a bright o... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 01:42:36 EST Some days you just can't wait for it be over... It seems ironic that my last blog was about willpower and it's unreliabilty, because these past two days I've been experiencing just that. The unreliability of willpower, or more accurately, the sorry lack of it. <BR> <BR> It's almost TTOM (that time of the month), and my limited food intake over the past few months has done no favors for my bowel regularity. Sorry, I know, TMI. (Too much information). Consequently I'm feeling a little bloated and grumpy, and on top of it all under attack fr... Sun, 27 May 2012 00:32:09 EST Strategy not willpower. I am a firm believer in strategy, not willpower. Willpower is fickle, an emotional fuel that depends on the weather and what you ate for dinner. <BR> <BR> Strategy is setting yourself up for success, and makes making good choices the easy choice, even long after your willpower has all but disappeared. Strategy means planning ahead. Failure to plan is planning for failure. Know your weaknesses and the times you are vulnerable. Plan your exercise, have healthy food and snacks at hand. <BR> <... Sun, 20 May 2012 18:37:19 EST It is so disheartening.... It is so disheartening to see so many of my Sparkfriends become inactive. I can only hope they just haven't been able to or haven't had the time to go online, or perhaps they've found weight loss support elsewhere. One can only hope, but it's more than likely that they have fallen back into old habits and lost their way, just like I have done so many times before. <BR> <BR> It is a timely reminder of how easy it is to let this happen, and how important it is to stay in check, keep it real, a... Mon, 14 May 2012 06:06:18 EST Lunchtime interrogation. Why do people think they have the right to interrogate you if instead of stuffing your face with junk food, you're having something that looks even remotely healthy, as if you're some kind of freak? Eat your own lunch and mind your own business. <BR> <BR> "Do you always eat like that?" <BR> "Are you on a diet?" <BR> "Are you on a health farm?" <BR> "Look at what you're having!" <BR> <BR> I laughed it off, although I was somewhat annoyed. No, I'm not on a diet. Yes I have every intention of ... Wed, 9 May 2012 22:28:46 EST "You're losing weight, woman." "You're losing weight, woman," sang (yes, sang) my workmate today. It was the first comment I've received since I started on this journey. (Comments from hubby don't count, sorry dear. Lol!) <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong, we DON'T need comments from others to validate our success. I KNOW I was losing weight, I looked and felt different, and have noticed a huge change in the way my clothes fit, or don't. Still though, it's so nice when other people notice, but I know it's a double edged sword... Sat, 5 May 2012 01:01:09 EST Finally under 100kgs - Double digits baby! It's been almost two months, and I am finally under the 100kg mark! My vigilance with food and persistence with exercise has paid off! I am so damn proud of myself, and glad that I broke the vicious cycle of overeating to get to where I am now! Yes, I still have a long way to go yet, and yes, the goalposts have already been moved, but today I want to take a moment to celebrate my success and reflect on my journey so far. <BR> <BR> * I had reached the point where I could no longer do up the l... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 22:30:08 EST 15 kilos... GONE! I've updated my ticker to show my 15kg loss. Since I was last actively on SP I actually managed to gain all the weight I'd lost and then some. That "some" being another whopping 10 kilos! Yikes! <BR> <BR> I wanted this to show on my Sparkpage, not so much as to boast about it, but to actually OWN it. My weight has been up and down that many times in the past, I often don't know whether I'm coming or going! <BR> <BR> I haven't had any comments from people, which you would usually expect aft... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 01:34:35 EST Why make a bad situation worse? It's ironic, but all the reasons I used to overeat are now the very reasons I refuse to. <BR> <BR> There are things (or people, I should say) in my life that irritate the hell out of me right now, and for the time being at least, there's not much I can do about it, unless I want a criminal conviction. <BR> <BR> Add to this the fact that 99.9% of the time I was (and still am) sleep deprived and overworked, and you pretty much have a recipe for disaster. I lived on fast food, energy drinks an... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 23:24:01 EST Back on track... Today I took the time to sit down and track my food, every last morsel that passed my lips today, which has been pretty much how I've been eating for the past four weeks. <BR> <BR> I was delighted to find that I was right on target for all of my goals, except for coming in a little under for calories, but only a little, nothing a square of dark chocolate a day won't fix! <BR> <BR> It has only been four weeks, but I feel like I'm a world away from when I began! <BR> <BR> I am so glad to fi... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 04:34:50 EST Time to swallow my pride and come crawling back... It's been seven LONG months since my last blog entry with SP. Where do I begin? I reached a point where I was looking and feeling better, and then I think I got complacent, lazy even. The lead up to Christmas had those familiar voices echoing inside my head. I'll start again tomorrow or next week, but next week became next month and so on and so on. <BR> <BR> Christmas itself was a big crazy blur, I feel like I blinked and missed it! I worked hellish hours and didn't make ANY time for myself... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 02:06:19 EST When she's bad, she's REALLY bad! Holy hell have I been bad!! <BR> <BR> It happens to the best of us, I got caught up in the vicious cycle balancing a full time job with running a household, housework, family commitments etc. etc. making time for everything and everyone except myself. <BR> <BR> Skipping meals and getting hungry to the point where I then eat everything in sight, eating on the run, grabbing whatever I can stuff my face with, and always thinking "I'll start tomorrow." <BR> <BR> Tomorrow became the next week... Tue, 11 Oct 2011 22:35:56 EST Temptation knocks.... Temptation has been knocking, no banging, kicking and screaming at my door! <BR> <BR> A number of factors almost led to my downfall. I haven't "had" any time for planned exercise. The truth of course is, I haven't MADE time for planned exercise. We all HAVE time for planned exercise, we just need to MAKE it. <BR> <BR> In New Zealand they've just released KFC's "Double Downer". OMG! The controversy surrounding it's diabolical calorie content has led to massive widespread publicity. Not good... Thu, 12 May 2011 00:17:38 EST Yum-oh!! Who knew eating healthy could be so damn enjoyable! <BR> <BR> My latest discoveries, <BR> <BR> Cucumber and mint yoghurt dip - reminds me of tartare sauce - with grilled fish and a salad. Beats takeout! <BR> <BR> Fruit and seed crunch Ryvita (wholegrain rye crispbread). Brown sugar, a dash of honey and the natural sweetness of currants, yet only 5 grams of sugar a serve! Satisfies my sweet tooth without the guilt! <BR> <BR> I keep a block of good quality dark chocolate, so I can have a s... Sat, 7 May 2011 01:37:43 EST In for the long haul... It's been six weeks now since I decided enough is enough! <BR> <BR> It's amazing how time flies! I must be having fun! more likely though, I'm probably just too busy for my own good! <BR> <BR> I feel the need to stop, like a pit stop, and take a moment to refuel. Time to reflect, revisit goals, smell the roses and enjoy the view! <BR> <BR> Six weeks ago, I barely knew myself. I lived in old trackpants, baggy t-shirts and a "just got outta bed" hairdo. <BR> <BR> That seems like a LONG t... Thu, 5 May 2011 00:05:29 EST Back on track and lovin' it! Choo-choo!! The train is back on track people! Wow! I never thought I'd make it, but I finally did! I'm over a month into this journey in a new direction, and I'm finally under the 100kg mark! Yay me! <BR> <BR> I have to admit I haven't been online much during this time, as a working mother every minute is precious to me. But I HAVE been checking in, recording my progress, and looking around for inspiration, something there certainly is no shortage of around here! <BR> <BR> I finally feel ... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 01:24:08 EST Train wreck! Once again I went completely off the rails. I barely know myself anymore, and when I look in the mirror I hate what I see. You've heard the term "letting yourself go", well that's me. Big t-shirts, old trackpants, and half the time I can't even be bothered with my hair! Okay so beauty is only skin deep, and clothes don't make the man, or woman for that matter, but when you just don't care about your appearance anymore, it's usually a reflection of how you feel about yourself, and how much you... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 10:13:28 EST