OVERWORKEDJANET's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OVERWORKEDJANET OVERWORKEDJANET's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Travel planning and getting on with our new life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304256 We've decided that before the wall gets built... <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> We're visiting a few Canadian National Parks this year by taking a bus tour with DH's DB and SIL. I think it's fitting to visit on the 150th anniversary of some of my Spark friends' homeland and hope to enjoy the national pride as well as beautiful scenery! <BR> <em>636</em> <BR> We've hit most of the major parks in the US including Alaska and Hawaii, some multiple times, and many of the smaller ones. I've always ... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 07:29:50 EST OJ's driving school http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6303256 Yep, you guessed it. <BR> The man got behind the wheel after almost 2 years. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> I took him to the local high school, shut the car off, traded places and said "Drive". <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> His driving was just like it was before he got ill. <BR> Scary. <BR> Slow. <BR> Real-Old-People-SLOW <BR> Did I say scary? <BR> <BR> I haven't let him drive me anywhere for about 4 years since he fell asleep behind the wheel on a major highway in the middle of the day! I'll giv... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 18:04:35 EST 39 years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302395 39 years ago there was 28 inches of snow on the ground. The world in our small metropolis had shut down and we both worked the day and night before. Me in the hospital covering the shifts of about 10 people, him working with agencies to get people to the hospital. I hiked to work and was passed by a doctor on skis! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a9bd9322-280a-4a46-a686-0360a63d586a.bmp"> <BR> We wed anyway with a few people in attendance and the kind minister suggested... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 08:35:17 EST Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301802 I am using my old computer this morning as it heats up something powerful and keeps my lap warm! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Just about the only thing I'll miss when I crack open the new one which is almost prepared. <BR> <BR> Yesterday my MD very nicely described the surgery he wanted to perform on my knee. It seems I have several tears which have damaged it and have kept it swollen for months. Perhaps when I fell and tore my shoulder I did in my knee too. I'm such an athlete! I'm not in pai... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 07:54:16 EST This new computer stuff is time consuming! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301511 On one hand, I'm enjoying a cool lap, an extremely long-lived battery and wow, a touch screen if I want to use it. The keyboard is a bit "old eye" friendly. <BR> Copying and renewing my desktop, favorites and restoring programs? <BR> Not so much. <BR> <BR> So for now my witty self is cursing out bytes and my mouse has been the object of extreme squeezing. <BR> <BR> Hmmm, no time for snacking! <BR> <em>334</em> Thu, 19 Jan 2017 18:40:53 EST This does not compute... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300473 The motherboard on my current laptop is sketchy at best. Occasionally the whole thing blanks off and the lonely blinking light on my "caps lock" key tells me I'm in trouble. <BR> I decided to spring for a new, solid state laptop which should keep my lap cool in the heat of suffering the advertisement hoard that follows me wherever I go. <BR> I also decided I could transfer the data from one to the other. <BR> I can. <BR> I chafe at the amount of time my prolific collections of pictures has t... Wed, 18 Jan 2017 07:16:10 EST Old sayings and lurking in the shadows. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299870 Some are author known, and others unknown: <BR> <BR> "Beating a dead horse won't get you anywhere" <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> My scale and kitchen have been thoroughly brought to their knees and nothing changed. <BR> <BR> "Blessed is he that expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed." Benjamin Franklin <BR> <em>407</em> <BR> My weekly tirade to DH has produced the expected results. Same day compliance and 6 days of not. I'm learning to not be disappointed. For the first time I... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 09:41:25 EST Fighting negativity, staying slightly above water and finding treasures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297841 Ok America, it's a done deal so let's see what happens. Change can be good and the wheel is in motion. I've avoided calling my dear cuz as I'm tired of the whining and statements of doom. Get out and get involved in your local government instead of crying at the kitchen table! <BR> "Nuff said about that! <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> I've had so many good days then poof!, pesky chicken and waffles appeared on my plate while I wallowed in a moment of self pity. It seems every Friday I lay into DH... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 08:58:28 EST Happiness is... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296623 Sunshine and 55 degrees on January 12 in the Northeast. <BR> <BR> Being able to stop eating at bedtime. <BR> <BR> DH's weight on the scale at the doctors. One, he's up to 167 and two, it means our scale weighs us 3 pounds heavier than I think! <BR> <BR> Searching for vacations that will take more than 4 days and involve activities, no matter how tame. <BR> <BR> Seeing the light in a grandchild's eyes when I make the "gonna getcha" pose. <BR> <BR> Watching the man who was wheelchair bound... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 10:26:10 EST Day 3 of behaving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6295143 It probably has something to do with extreme dental work but I am going to call it my good brain instead. <BR> <BR> Root canal yesterday and build-up and crown today. I wish old dental work never failed. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I've gotten over my frantic inner feeling that had me searching for food. I'll see if this continues Tue, 10 Jan 2017 07:51:00 EST Day one of doing better about eating, trying to rock the pool again and feeling my snow workout. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293658 I reset the clock and the calendar this morning. <BR> Yesterday was improved and I had no fits of franticly searching for "something" to eat! On the flip side, perhaps I ate all that could be eaten and there was no junk left. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Perhaps it was total exhaustion from shoveling snow. There was a lull in the flakes midday and I thought it was winding down. Not. Had I waited the storm out, I could have used my snow blower. Instead I had two workouts of an hour apiece. My ni... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 07:03:13 EST Shoutout to OKM - my Search continues. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293054 Taken from ONEKIDSMOM's blog today for the word, Search: <BR> "to examine closely and carefully; test and try; probe [to search one's conscience] 4 to look through (writings, records, etc.) to establish certain facts" <BR> <BR> Since I've been on Spark, I've maintained a 20 pound weight loss with a. occasional 10 pound dip. I lost enough weight to be able to do many of the things I loved, then I hit a comfort zone. <BR> <BR> ESTABLISH CERTAIN FACTS <BR> I've found some of my triggers. <BR... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 08:13:17 EST NSV-acting like a 10 month old http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291365 NSV <BR> I've envied my granddaughter's ability to pick up her toys with her feet while she's playing. She's been a bit lazy and has preferred to perform this skill than try to sit up or roll over to grasp them. <BR> <BR> Today while finishing my workout, I got a bit lazy too. I was pushing the large ball against the wall with my feet, counting down the seconds and completed my set. <BR> I picked the ball up with my feet and passed it into my hands. <BR> <BR> Huh. <BR> Pass back, repeat. ... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 18:44:05 EST Aww, nuts! Pondering nature. Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6290164 Trying to see if I am being inspired to health or simply repeating history, I re-read some old blogs of mine this morning. I've pasted the guts of one from November 13, 2013 that tells me I'm stuck in a loop. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> ...were I a monkey in a tree I'd be swinging all day from branch to branch burning a bunch of calories searching for the fruit. If I were a lion in the plains I'd be zooming at a million calories a second chasing a gazelle I might miss. Turn me into a deer and ... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 08:05:38 EST A day late but done and another reason to keep the pillow around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6289276 My trash contains items that were poison. <BR> Mrs. Smith's cherry pie minus a piece <BR> Cheese; half the container <BR> Empty bag of chips; unfortunately became empty last night as I hadn't completed my purge <BR> Ditto on the turkey pepperoni container <BR> <BR> I had what I thought was a serious discussion with DH about his and my eating habits. Please help me not eat the things I shouldn't, I said. I want to be healthy. <BR> I thought he got it. <BR> Then thinking he was funny, he used... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 07:48:22 EST You say you want a resolution, revolution, revelation... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6288462 Resolution: the act of determining <BR> Revolution: a fundamental change in the way of thinking about or visualizing something <BR> Revelation:an enlightening or astonishing disclosure <BR> (thank you Webster's on-line) <BR> <BR> I was enlightened to my behaviors in a most astonishing way and am determined to make a fundamental change in the way I think and act about food. <BR> <BR> We went to a wonderful dinner with in-laws last night which saw both of us make spectacular selections...u... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 08:49:17 EST Ending the year with a kitchen purge. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6287838 I thought 2016 would go away with; "Janet, you done good." <BR> And I have. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Someone has not learned and it's going to cost him big time. <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> Yesterday I had to call the MD. <BR> "Glucoses are a little screwy again, can I try X, Y or Z to get my DH in control? I'm not sure why he's suddenly off." <BR> Go for it, was the reply. <BR> <BR> I drive DH to PT and notice he's looking out the window and his jaw is twitching. <BR> "Whatcha eating?" I a... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 08:07:31 EST Enjoying life for the last two days of 2016 and beyond. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6287378 Fortunately for me, the sun rose brightly this morning. Now on to enjoying life for the last 2 days of 2016. <BR> <BR> Thanks to all of you for supporting me. I needed it and always will. <BR> Ever the optimistic pessimist, I planned funerals and vacations in the beginning of the year and happily shelved the funeral plans! Now that DH can grasp things he jokes about the discussions of bagpipers and suit vs dress uniform. <BR> <BR> I found that profound grief and anxiety brought me down to... Fri, 30 Dec 2016 08:46:42 EST Planning for 2017 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6286873 Ack! 2017! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> I remember watching outgoing President Eisenhower on our black and white TV. <BR> Should I go any further or just lay down now? <BR> <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> Now that THAT's out of my system it's time for my annual pull-up-the-big-girl-panties talk to myself with an audience. <BR> <BR> I end 2016 still around 20 pounds lower than my Spark starting weight in 2009. <BR> Does that qualify me to be a Maintainer? <BR> I have yo-yo'd down to 200.3lbs and bac... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 08:20:43 EST Thousands of words in two photos. Christmas is for kids. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6286596 Who can resist a superhero? <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a79fb7e4-614f-4c6e-88d5-89c26ce5de12.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Although the picture catches me in the worst pose I've had in a long time, it's not me who is the focus. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e0055620-1658-46ed-9253-b7fc5be7852d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Things were so disjointed this Christmas I forgot my camera! Wed, 28 Dec 2016 17:28:08 EST Coming clean with bad snacks. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6286120 OK, I'll fess up. <BR> <em>15</em> <BR> Recently I've logged days of snacking, not consecutive days, to find out how bad, really is all this picking and bad choosing? <BR> It's not great quantities after all. <BR> I've eaten good, calorie efficient meals. <BR> <BR> I found my emotional and silent sneaking was adding up to 500-1000 calories on those bad days! Shot my healthy meals all full of holes. <BR> <BR> What's a Jersey girl going to do to fix this? <BR> <BR> Fugidabout it! <BR> ... Tue, 27 Dec 2016 18:56:46 EST Stealth and lurking those with success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6285854 Yes, Sparkers, you know who you are! <BR> I've been working on refining my foods and lurking in the shadows into friends' nutrition trackers to see their secrets! <BR> <em>18</em> <BR> The secret is... <BR> <em>774</em> <BR> It's not easy! <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I am glad you've let me in to see what you eat on good days AND not-so-good. <BR> <BR> It makes me feel better, yet I realize I've lived in a bit of a fantasy world. I track, I add and find I have a rather large "sna... Tue, 27 Dec 2016 07:47:38 EST Meat the morning after. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6285472 My SIL is a chef of family renown. <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> He produced a plethora of offerings, hosting Christmas dinner for his side of the family and the two of us totaling 15 adults. <BR> Sausage. Hot and mild Italian in large chunks. <BR> Chicken picatta. With little tasty capers. <BR> Meatballs. <BR> Lasagna <BR> Gravy (sauce) from scratch <BR> Broccoli rabe <BR> Salad. <BR> <BR> I behaved, for a bit. I could live on broccoli rabe and helped myself to what I had hoped would be my mai... Mon, 26 Dec 2016 09:36:35 EST Christmases past http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6285141 A lit candle encircled with plastic holly on the coffee table. An open bible with a red ribbon. <BR> A bowl of mixed nuts in shells, another of nonpareil candies that we tried to eat the white sprinkles off before chewing the piece. <BR> We sang "Happy Birthday" to baby Jesus after opening our presents. <BR> That was my early childhood-ack! in the '50's and 60's. <BR> For a family of agnostics we had the right idea. <BR> <BR> Today I reflect on the reason for the season. <BR> <BR> May your... Sun, 25 Dec 2016 09:06:31 EST Life doesn't go away because it's Christmas. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6284878 It's an odd Christmas this year. DD2 went to the UK with her DH for Christmas and DD1, with children, is changing up how they celebrate the holiday. Family drama has them not speaking to each other . We're in a holding pattern with DD2 who has made her life tough and refuses to name her illness. DD1 has a bit of resentment towards me as well for not standing my ground 24/7. I challenge her to be a mom for 36 years and then tell me how it feels. Things change and although it's not what I wante... Sat, 24 Dec 2016 12:22:05 EST Bonus blog- the bee's knees! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6284271 Helloooo healthier-than-I-thought knees! <BR> The x-rays showed minimal arthritis which means it hasn't gotten worse in 10 years! <BR> Woohoo! <BR> The MD was quite impressed by my demonstration of squats and bending. Tee hee hee. <BR> <BR> However I may have damaged something in my right knee which is affecting the kneecap, hence the pain and swelling. Perhaps I did something when I fell and tore my shoulder and it's just now surfacing. Sports injury? <BR> MRI scheduled and told to continu... Thu, 22 Dec 2016 18:25:57 EST Back into busy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6284107 Busy, busy. <BR> Right back into the swing of things. DH and his PT had long talks about what he wants to accomplish next. I heard him say he'd like to be able to drive again so I can be "free" for a while. Now if only I could get him to feel the same way about his injections... <BR> <BR> I see the MD today for my knees. I still rock my exercises but no running and jumping jacks in the pool for now. I can squat-lift with the best of them, rise from chairs without holding onto anything. Getti... Thu, 22 Dec 2016 08:29:41 EST Return to reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6283644 Ack! <BR> It's 15 degrees outside this morning! <BR> Where are my ocean sounds, warm breezes? <BR> <BR> I had to laugh at some reality and revelations last night. Although the airline does not offer 1st class, due to DH's need for assistance, we were seated in row 1. It gave him an audience of several crew members who he tried to charm during the flight. <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> He forgets he's no longer that sexy young dude...so the responses to his flirting were large smiles of "Ok Gran... Wed, 21 Dec 2016 07:44:04 EST More serenity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6282828 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/792ec474-a693-45ed-b1f8-b685fc385952.JPG"> <BR> Sunrise yesterday. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4b18303e-1056-4e99-b393-cc3709183b71.JPG"> <BR> A big dog enjoying the surf. This puppy looked for, and rode some good waves. <BR> Today the fog blankets the entire view but it seems like we were blanketed in a gold mist! <BR> <BR> Happy Monday! Mon, 19 Dec 2016 08:41:34 EST Enjoying life. My current pursuit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6281987 I can't begin to describe my comfort in traveling yesterday. DH was comfortable and energetic. All of the staff at both airports and the airline were wonderful and he enjoyed the experience. <BR> One of my rewards for having lunch salad and dinner salad at fast food venues was a rare glass of wine on my balcony. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a3679bb8-fbbf-4c16-9163-570310c5cc2c.JPG"> <BR> <BR> This morning it's coffee and... <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeop... Sat, 17 Dec 2016 07:41:42 EST Enjoying a bit of life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6281376 My happy for today was DH taking a shower on his own, with me on standby, for the first time in a year and a half! He doesn't understand the quality of the milestone but that's ok.. <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> Tomorrow is a huge deal as we will be traveling to warmer places for 4 days and a day ahead of the expected snowfall I WON"T be shoveling! <BR> <BR> First plane ride for DH since becoming disabled and the airline is very accommodating. That makes it easy for me. <BR> <em>41</em> <B... Thu, 15 Dec 2016 16:44:09 EST The common cold and happiness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6280765 My current goal is 31 days of happiness (enjoying life), I'm giving it a good try... <BR> <BR> Happiness (ick) is: <BR> <BR> Using tissue boxes decorated with themed pictures from "Finding Dory" and having my 33 yo DD steal the box because it's cute. <BR> <BR> Saying "This is getting better" for the 11th consecutive day. <BR> <BR> Getting sympathy from people while they lean back from my presence even though I know I am no longer contagious. <BR> <BR> Laughing at the absurdity of blowing... Wed, 14 Dec 2016 08:07:10 EST Happiness is.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6279797 Sleeping for 7 hours straight on an incline of pillows. <BR> <BR> A 3 year old GS who wears superhero capes and not much else. <BR> <BR> Feeling just crummy enough to turn down snacks. <BR> <BR> A 6 year old GS who proclaims he is an expert at chess. <BR> <BR> Having Santa Claus wave and point at me from his fire truck ride around town. <BR> <BR> A 9 month old GD who lights up when I smile across a room full of strangers (cousins). <BR> <BR> Waking to rain instead of snow! <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 12 Dec 2016 08:00:56 EST The happy, long anticipated family Christmas gathering http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6279188 We are 34 strong now. A few were missing due to work schedules or illness. I managed to sit it out and have totally lost my voice. This also meant I could leave early and not have to clean up! A good ploy for not eating things while cleaning. Note who is standing up on the left between several of his pretty nieces! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d44a7cc9-92cc-40d5-a19c-64e8a1c185c8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We also had a visit from some of Santa's scout deer. <BR> <img src="htt... Sat, 10 Dec 2016 21:26:48 EST Good intentions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6278866 I will coast, as DH said, on exercise for yesterday. Not only did I drive over 100 miles, I broke land speed records. It was wearing. <BR> <em>527</em> <BR> After his first MD appointment, like any good New Jersey driver drives on the turnpike with 30 miles and 20 minutes on the clock, I got him to the dentist. <BR> <em>226</em> <BR> We mapped out a new plan which will save $$$. Odd to have conversations on the cost of repair and longevity. I thought I'd reserved those thoughts for c... Sat, 10 Dec 2016 06:13:03 EST Keeping moving and not letting the cold (as in sick) win. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6278430 Can you feel good when you feel crummy? <BR> <em>527</em> <BR> I think I can, I think I can! <BR> On day one of this cold I exercised at the gym and increased my bike time as well. Tissues were handy as well a germicide to wash down everything I touched. I am a good gym person. <BR> <em>43</em> <BR> Day two of the crud and I was only motivated to go to the store to get tissues, medicine, etc,. Unfortunately something fell into the cart whilst I felt sorry for myself. It not longer e... Fri, 9 Dec 2016 07:10:07 EST Finding inspiration in the blogisphere. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6277473 I've read my SP friends blogs this morning and have found a whole heck of a lot of inspiration, comfort and common sense. <BR> <BR> I AM beautiful. <BR> PJDANIELS reminded me to take time to see ME. I also have simply slapped myself together, day after day, to get on with life. I've forgotten to look into the mirror and see me. <BR> <BR> My inner Dolly Parton on moderation? <BR> MNT_KITTEN is living my angst with almost hitting a goal then loosing it to whatever is holding us back. We almo... Wed, 7 Dec 2016 06:53:49 EST A family milestone done and more to come! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6276781 What a family affair. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c403e2a8-b72e-431a-ab23-83b90886b038.jpg"> <BR> Lucas got to pour the holy water on his sister's head and Ben got to wipe her down! All the while Caroline giggled at the deacon. <BR> Caroline looked the doll that she is. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a664dda7-7682-472d-bbbf-537568eba350.jpg"> <BR> Ben loved Pop Pop's tie with Snoopy and all the Peanuts gang. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sp... Mon, 5 Dec 2016 16:36:57 EST Almost another year gone and piling up some good things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6276069 It's December 4 already, for cryin' out loud! What happened to 2016? <BR> For those of you who are in my age group, remember reading "1984" in the '60's and thinking OMG, that's so far into the future, Big Brother and all that and what will it be like? <BR> That book was titled for 32 YEARS ago! <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> I wonder if someone wrote a sequel, 1985, depicting what did and didn't happen that Orwell predicted. <BR> <BR> Sweet Caroline gets her christening today. <BR> I have my ... Sun, 4 Dec 2016 07:38:20 EST Still scratching my head over cardiology visit. Empathy and absolution. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275195 For multiple reasons I've seen the same cardiologist every 6-12 months since I was 30. Obviously it's all stuff I can live with and live well. <BR> For the past 16 years I've heard the same thing. Keep your weight in control; loose a few pounds; do me a favor and loose 20 pounds in 6 months; you know, you should loose a few pounds. <BR> I think I gained 70 in those 16 years. I've struggled and managed to remove 20. I've been stuck. He's witnessed it because I'm there like clockwork.He's also... Fri, 2 Dec 2016 07:39:24 EST Bonus blog on my December goal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6274439 Short and sweet. <BR> I am here and so are all of you. <BR> A year ago my DD1 was struggling to keep the bun in the oven. <BR> DH was struggling to stay on the planet. <BR> I was struggling to keep it all together. <BR> <BR> This month I celebrate my granddaughter who will grow up strong and healthy. <BR> I will celebrate being annoyed by the most interesting man in my life. <BR> I will celebrate my forced retirement with abandon. <BR> I will continue to work out 3-4 days a week even if I do... Wed, 30 Nov 2016 18:03:42 EST Every morning I feel on the verge of breakthrough. Then I break. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6274196 Yesterday I drank my morning cup and pondered how wonderful my day would be. <BR> Thought profound thoughts. I'd be in control. You can't control the things around you, only your response to them! <BR> I had an epic fail late in the day. <BR> <BR> I ventured out in my robe and fuzzy slippers to assess the damage. My squashed recycle bin bounced back into shape and I refilled it with the items knocked out buy the bus. <BR> Score! <BR> I though I'd recover control but DH woke a bit fuzzy for t... Wed, 30 Nov 2016 07:45:57 EST Deep thoughts and brushing off flies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6273702 As a kid I could sit for hours on this bridge and think all day, occasionally brushing off the biting flies. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0cd67d56-38e1-4f29-93d4-561f73cfc44c.JPG"> <BR> In my adult years this would be a place to think when things weren't going well and I was caring for my parents. Take my coffee, watch the sunrise and brush off the flies. <BR> <BR> Cue Ottis Redding- "Sittin' on the dock of the bay. Wastin' time" <BR> <BR> I'm in my home thinking so... Tue, 29 Nov 2016 07:38:30 EST Thankfulness, family and friends. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6272274 I am thankful. I have few pictures but many memories. <BR> One of them is sitting in my glider, holding a very snuggly and babbling Caroline, while her mom sang songs for Ben who was dancing in his Paw Patrol undies. <BR> Another is listening to DH talk to Lucas about the checkers game they were playing. And laughing. Interacting. <BR> The food was great, I didn't overeat and the company was priceless. Oh, and someone showed her technical DNA; taking over the controls for DH's recliner! <BR... Sat, 26 Nov 2016 07:37:01 EST Musings on kitchen victories. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6271021 My cranberry/jalapeno/orange relish is cooling and it's 6am. It has less sugar than last year, a bit more fresh-squeezed orange juice and the addition of cloves. I end up eating it because most of my family doesn't like cranberries. Might as well make it diet friendly. <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> One kitchen victory (and it wasn't mine) was the conversation "yelled" through walls last night after dinner. <BR> "I didn't eat any of the rolls. I was staring at the bag but left it alone" <BR> "Good ... Wed, 23 Nov 2016 06:47:42 EST Taking DH on a plane. Whoa, boy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6269770 I reached for some normality in my abnormal world. <BR> <BR> me- We are going on vacation. I need my sunshine and a cousin visit. <BR> him- Ok <BR> me- We fly to Orlando then I'll drive to the coast. 70 miles. Can you handle the day? <BR> him- I think so. <BR> me- We have an ocean view, pool, hot tub, beach and restaurant. <BR> him- Good, it has a TV? <BR> me- sigh...... <BR> me- Is there anything you'd like to do? <BR> him- Be with you. <BR> <BR> I should be flattered. <BR> At least... Sun, 20 Nov 2016 11:07:01 EST Pictures of the vultures; for the inquisitive. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6269492 I counted about 80 tonight and listened to the branches cracking on the trees. <BR> It is simply awesome. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/67aff918-b199-47e9-b4d3-43c9c694f8a7.jpg"> <BR> It's dark when they roost so it's hard to get a good photo. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/14b8a307-ba4e-4504-85b5-6581ad208d91.jpg"> <BR> They took over 3 tall pine trees as well as the oak tree, something I didn't think they'd take over. I think the air must be go... Sat, 19 Nov 2016 18:22:30 EST Circling buzzards! Nature observation heralding season change. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6268294 Nothing wrong here it's the usual winter travel of the local vultures (turkey buzzards). <BR> Recently I saw a flock of about 40 at a deer carcass. They appeared to be lined up in a loose group, waiting their turn at the buffet while 3 or 4 feasted. These flying beasts glide overhead - about 10 feet up- silent except for the slight "whoosh" of their wings. My valiant, long-gone, dachshund would bristle and growl trying to protect me. I figured he'd only be a snack. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> ... Thu, 17 Nov 2016 07:44:24 EST Starting my Rx for courage. Long http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6266637 This blog is from me to myself but you're welcome to come along to the self-therapy. <BR> <BR> I'm not quite sure how to wrap my arms around my own issues. I considered myself very grounded, a solid performer and a reasonable person. I have caved in to my eating habits of the past and the scale has crept back up 8 pounds in the past 2 months. On the other hand I have become a beast in the gym and have strengthen anything that needs it and then some. Control in one area of my life and not in ... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 09:03:03 EST Beautiful sky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6266007 I thought my neighbor's motion light was stuck on. <BR> The light coming around the edge of the curtains and also into the skylight was intense. <BR> Nope. A perfectly clear night and a very bright moon casting shadows under the leafless trees. <BR> <BR> It sounds all poetic except I woke up at 2am and can't sleep! <BR> <BR> Oh, well. <BR> <em>334</em> Sun, 13 Nov 2016 03:48:57 EST