OVERWORKEDJANET's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OVERWORKEDJANET OVERWORKEDJANET's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Keeping active through my pool workouts. I have become exceedingly strong. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039866 I had to take ibuprofen at 2 am. Not for headaches which I am surely entitled to have. <BR> I bumped up my resistance fins and gear in the pool yesterday and all my muscles are either applauding or screaming. <BR> The Aqua Kinetics class I take as well as my personal water training involves fins of progressively larger sizes wrapped around ankles with Velcro. Things that look like gladiator helmets or scoops with slots are used for arm work; they are about the size of a soccer ball. Combine a... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 07:18:27 EST Watching him fade away and needing to "vent". http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039049 No one said life was easy. I didn't think it would be this hard. I've been down this road too many times, never this close. I can't say I don't know what to do. I don't want to do it but I have to. <BR> He's giving up, little by little. The latest scans show cysts on what's left of his pancreas; not a good sign. At the least it means more surgery. He's in bad pain and increased his reliance on pain meds which I fully agree. He's not eating, lost more weight and sleeps a lot. <BR> More scans M... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 12:53:35 EST Maintaining my focus. My latest challenge and I think I fell short by 4 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6038902 According to my ticker, I have 2 more days to maintain my focus. Friends, I think I lost it a few days ago. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> I will still count this as a victory as I have continued to make efforts to eat right in the face of disaster and doom and gloom. I don't look at my re-gained 6 pounds as an "oh, well". I count them as adjustment to my new status of unemployed and learning to eat at home. I am going to argue with them until they are gone. As a matter of fact we are arguing alr... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 07:41:07 EST Indulged in Thanksgiving diner. No regrets! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6038467 We managed smiles and fun yesterday. The grandkids and parents stopped by on the way to SILs family dinner-we alternate years. <BR> GS2 took all the toast from the plate. He is in the "It's all mine," stage. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/841c1b57-6bf8-4922-91ed-775c98cbc605.jpg"> <BR> GS1 snuggled with his aunt <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9a5222d0-2ece-4f9c-9762-d4fc258b814b.jpg"> <BR> Pop Pop oversaw it all from his throne. <BR> <img src="ht... Fri, 27 Nov 2015 07:20:19 EST You cannot substitute habaneros for jalapenos. Just puttin it out there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6037084 I made my infamous cranberry dressing this morning. I must have been Mayan or Aztec in another life or secretly have Latin roots as I need heat in my food (and I have chocolate in my soul!). <BR> <em>18</em> <BR> I forgot to buy the jalapeno I finely chop and add to the dressing. <BR> Cranberries, sugar, orange zest and juice, jalapeno and a touch of cilantro. <BR> <BR> Aha, I thought. I have all those habaneros (about 50) in the freezer. I placed one in a bag of cheesecloth, whacked it ... Tue, 24 Nov 2015 08:43:25 EST That time of year; thinking of loved ones. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6037019 Why do many loved ones seem to pass at holidays? <BR> Maybe they tried to hold on to celebrate one more time. <BR> Maybe they didn't want us to have bad memories on holidays. <BR> Maybe it gives us something extra to celebrate. <BR> <BR> Whatever the reason, here we are again. <BR> <BR> This year as I prepare for Thanksgiving I have thoughts for my MIL and marvel at the 10 years that flew by since. My niece's 40th BD this year on the same day. When did the toddler turn into a mother of te... Tue, 24 Nov 2015 05:29:17 EST Sparky milestones. Maintaining and logging in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036528 160 days of logging in. Even through the bad days this year with DH! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> I think my lifeline with you guys helped me feel "normal". I also put my best foot forward and have kept up at least 90 minutes of exercise a week. It's actually a lot more but I started tracking low thinking I'd not get anything in. My water sports are about 3 hours a week and then my walking is 40 minutes a shot, around 2 miles of solitude. <BR> <em>311</em> <BR> I am strong but still fluffy... Mon, 23 Nov 2015 07:08:13 EST In my spare time...trying not to eat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036196 Since I have a new grandchild on the way I realized I had to create some new baby afghans. Additionally my SIL's brother will be adding to the family tree and they need some home made lovin' too! <BR> Here are my first two. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e5c574b8-7e53-4b3e-a32e-1599e5595fff.jpg"> <BR> The colors are not quite right as the dark blue is actually royal purple. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/87d06899-54c0-48d8-9cb0-0317e5097827.jpg"> ... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 14:54:11 EST Call me Gypsy Rose. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6035194 It was cold this morning so I bundled up. I was determined to continue my exercise program to counteract the insane eating I have been doing. <BR> About 3/4 of a mile in I slid off my gloves. <BR> Ta dum! <BR> The nice cheerleader voice in my pocket told me I had reached one mile and about that time I unzipped my sweatshirt. <BR> Boom la boom! <BR> Less than a quarter mile later I ripped open my down vest. <BR> Badda boom. <BR> Mile 1.75 saw the removal of the sweatshirt to be tied around my... Fri, 20 Nov 2015 10:45:47 EST Got DH into the pool! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034046 This is why I left the job. To be his hands, feet and energy. I told him he had to get better so he can care for me when I get my shoulder fixed; and I'm really going to need that done. This was exhausting. <BR> He got a ride in and out of the pool on the lift chair, mighty handy! <BR> I was surprised how he never really relaxed. He withstood being in the pool for about 45 minutes, mostly sitting next to the warm jet but moved his legs a lot and I was able to get him to walk briefly around in... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 06:34:15 EST A picture is worth a thousand words. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033470 My two very adult children were in a fit of giggles. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/66c52618-7ad4-49b8-b9a9-d346ff3c3a6d.jpeg"> <BR> It did a world of good to be able to go where he wanted. We paid for it with a bad night but oh, I think it was worth it! Tue, 17 Nov 2015 05:10:33 EST Not enjoying my forced retirement. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6032368 I'm eating my way through every day. <BR> DH has been my biggest food trigger and I find myself hiding in the kitchen having a piece of this and a bite of that. <BR> Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. <BR> 4 of 5 days this week were MD related. We (including the ortho) were surprised to find his MRI showed no cord compression to explain the leg atrophy. He wants a different scan and suggested we scan his brain. Primary agreed. There is no reason they can see as to why he is weaker. His blood work is super. ... Sun, 15 Nov 2015 07:19:56 EST Looking into the family mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6030881 I sat across from my brother over breakfast, listening to his messy life. He'll be 60 next month, three kids in college and a messy divorce in progress. He just bought a small house, the "hotel" he called it, furnished with bits and pieces he's picked up, polished and painted. <BR> My life doesn't seem so bad in comparison. I still have love. <BR> <BR> I stared at the eyebrows I complain about in the mirror daily perched there on his face. Stray, white sticks poking above his hazel eyes, ju... Thu, 12 Nov 2015 09:28:43 EST Will be paying respects at the Veteran's Cemetery this morning. Thank you to those who serve. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6030254 Thank you for your service. Thank you for your sacrifice. <BR> <BR> I will be visiting Dad's grave this morning to honor him and give myself a few moments of reflection. If I am lucky, I will be there for the small service they have. It makes me feel proud and privileged. <BR> I'm meeting up with my brother whom I haven't seen in over a year. We only live 3 hours away from each other but both our lives have taken major blows. We need the solitude, together. <BR> <BR> I have my two regular "... Wed, 11 Nov 2015 06:22:06 EST Oh, to be a 5 year old. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029511 DD1 showed me a video. <BR> The image starts with GS1, elbows on the table and hands squashing his face. He is apparently answering his moms' question about the new baby. He is saying: <BR> "I changed my mind. I think I want to have a baby brother." <BR> She is standing next to him, ultrasound pictures in hand. <BR> "Read this to me" she says pointing to the picture. The technician had printed some words on the picture. <BR> GS1 slowly says: "I'm a girl!" His face screws up really tight. "I'... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 21:38:55 EST Reasons I continue to be a "Sparkperson". http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028761 Support. <BR> I have a team of friends who give me great ideas for nutrition. They let me know my choices are good or not so good and instead of chiding me for my mistakes they applaud my attempts to get back on track. <BR> They appreciate my recipes and share their own. <BR> Some of them read books and condense them into the ideas I can use when I don't have time to read the books myself (Beckers)! <BR> <BR> Empathy. <BR> Surprisingly at the end of the day many of our stories are similar. W... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 14:33:40 EST Finished my last day of work by working late. Keeping my up with my moniker. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6027954 A few well wishers, everyone concerned for our lives. It was a nice way to leave. <BR> My Medial Director insisted she would see me in 4-5 weeks The Admin Director wished me well saying she didn't know how she could go through what I have. <BR> An emergency cropped up and I stayed to help. Cleaned up what I could and left with the words of one of my new friends: "Do something for yourself!" <BR> <BR> I shall! <BR> Fri, 6 Nov 2015 21:31:52 EST A blog about nothing much. Getting older, cranky, plain tired? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6026994 My heads' been spinning the past few weeks and I started thinking strange things. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> DH watches reruns of reruns and theme songs bounce around in my head during the night. I complained to anyone who would listen that there were words to the M.A.S.H. theme. No one believed me. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> DD Googled and sure enough, the 1970 movie's theme was called "Suicide is painless". For 2 days she and I have been singing it to each other amid giggles of frustration.... Thu, 5 Nov 2015 05:30:43 EST Giving in to some new things and ideas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025797 I brought home all my personal goodies from work. Pictures, books and my Glinda the "Good Witch" magnet who has followed me for 25 years. She has been perched over my shoulder as a reminder that knowledge is power and must be used properly; and she's cool! <BR> <BR> Friday is my last day, I'm taking the 4 weeks of leave then deciding if I can return after DH goes through his next medical issues. <BR> <BR> Temporary handicap tag ordered. <BR> <BR> Lift chair purchased to be delivered Wednes... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 05:33:06 EST Blogging daily trying to talk myself into being content with my decisions. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025135 Watching the man try to walk to the loo at 2am decides it for me. His hesitations while using the walker, the stooped shoulders and sighs keep me up well past when he has gone back to sleep. By 2pm I chide him for sitting around all morning when he could be walking through the house to engage those weak muscles! <BR> I've got him eating more but he's also more dependent. <BR> When, in our 38 years, has he ever said "I think so" , "Maybe" and "Whatever you think' when asked important questions... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 06:05:39 EST Reminded to prepare a routine. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6024501 WATERMELLEN's blog yesterday reminded me I need to prepare a new routine for the next stage of my life. <BR> Being home on weekends has been a challenge for a while in the eating department especially since I need to entice DH to have food. The doctors encouraged me to let him have ANYTHING he would eat so now we have cakes, cookies, ice cream and cheeses. <BR> Easy access to the refrigerator, cabinets and kitchen in general has made me grumpy. <BR> <BR> I've worked all my life and have made... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 05:54:36 EST I still wish I could spell. Happy Halloween! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6024046 We all get it. Those flashes of thought that spell-check or your brain doesn't get. My status is misspelled but, I'm tired! <BR> <BR> The kids had several poems and songs for Halloween. I don't go for horror and guts. I like the cutsie stuff. <BR> <BR> Song from Girls Scouts or school: <BR> <BR> Hey Mr. Spider <BR> Want some apple cider? <BR> How 'bout a cookie or two (three, four). <BR> It might not be polite <BR> To treat a spider right <BR> He's a living thing and he's got feelings too!... Sat, 31 Oct 2015 07:11:27 EST Leaving work will move quickly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023841 The physicians I work for understood my dilemma. Everyone does. <BR> My boss said it best to another manager: Janet's life is a mess and I don't know how she can be standing, but she is. <BR> I don't have to pay back the time I used. It's mine to keep. <BR> They collectively wanted to know what they could do to help although we all know there is nothing. <BR> I was proud to say I didn't need the job for the funds. It was my vacation money, fun money, gift money. <BR> I'll be financially ok. ... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 18:49:45 EST Resigned to resignation. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023323 I told my bosses I must leave. It's a no-choice choice. <BR> <BR> I'd appreciate a leave of absence so I could come back to the job I originally hated that I learned to like. I will have to work some days for free as I was paid in advance of earning the days off when I was on Family Leave. <BR> I've made so many good changes and some still to go. However... <BR> <BR> DH saw the orthopedic surgeon today. After a lot of tsk, tsking he scheduled him for an MRI. The MD told him it was looking g... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 19:30:07 EST Contemplating a lot of things including early retirement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021846 The AARP magazine had a feature this month on caregivers. There was also an article in the NY Times on the same thing. Both described all the things we have talked about here when Spark friends discuss their woes and joys in caring for their family members. Money spent, time lost, lack of socialization, tolerating the new attitudes of the newly infirm are some of the adjustments both the giver and recipient must endure. <BR> <BR> I took months helping Dad care for Mom and later I took care o... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 05:34:28 EST My morning walk. Feeling "bloggy" these days. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021383 I first ran into the neighbor's dachshund. I scratched his neck and he was soaked! Long walk, I asked? No, fleas and an early bath. Now I have wet doggie flea fingers. <BR> <BR> Neighbors dismantled their display for the winter. Every year they place a mannequin onto a 4ft high growing pot and create a flowing ball gown of flowers. This year's was pink. I'll take a picture next year. <BR> <BR> Walked by a display made with a very shiny black Model T filled with skeletons. From sighting the ... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 09:47:44 EST A few recent pictures of my motley crew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021073 Father's Day before DH went really downhill. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/db42c9f9-bd96-4d05-9c11-36af5eff435c.jpg"> <BR> My monster garden in July <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d2906b6f-63ba-4f6b-97a9-e250e3579b79.jpg"> <BR> DH's Birthday <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a5357b59-6699-4201-b4c1-a7df64e114d8.jpg"> <BR> The mommy and Ben hiding the new baby <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/de6e948a-e529-... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 19:10:53 EST Took a ride. Fall pictures of my favorite canal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020506 Delaware-Raritan Canal. I can drive, bike or walk here and should do so more often. I took DH for a drive today. He sat in the car while I became an artist. Well, I captured Nature's art! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/26042884-bbfa-49cd-ad54-8f6889de61bc.jpg"> <BR> Monet anyone? <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/eec24aa2-4f24-44b9-ad96-3d88ece715cd.jpg"> <BR> I found enough colorful leaves to make my day. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople... Sat, 24 Oct 2015 18:45:02 EST No need for advice. Ruminating to capture my thoughts on my behaviors using those Becking principles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020249 Preventing unplanned eating, end overeating, stop fooling myself, say oh well to disappointment, identify sabotaging thoughts. <BR> <BR> I could feel it in the air. Sixth sense, witch prescience, mom intuition. Whatever it's called, it hit me. <BR> I stopped at the store to pick up the 97% lean organic ground stuff great for DH and his Instant Breakfast (IB) which is sometimes his meals. My nerves were suddenly shattered. I looked intently at ice cream, reached for the door and pulled back ... Sat, 24 Oct 2015 07:43:23 EST I've been reading and watching all these http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6019715 Mindful eating. <BR> I was reading the news, the weather and started Sparking while inhaling my breakfast, trying to be mindful of the tastes and textures. <BR> I've got a lot on my mind, sisters and brothers. <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> I briefly marveled at the fleeting taste of pecans, dutifully measured. The yogurt was tangy, as Greek 0% fat, unflavored should be. A hint of the 20 Craisins sprinkled in the mix. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> <BR> Somewhere between reading of Hurricane Patricia ... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 07:00:33 EST Maintaining my focus: 40 days left in my challenge. What a challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018580 Last night I focused on Mexican food. <BR> The night before it was a shrimp scampi I made. <BR> I've been maintaining my focus on a lot of other things for the past 50 days. <BR> <BR> DH gets my eagle eye. <BR> <BR> When I exercise I focus on how good it makes me feel., I wish I could do it more often! <BR> <BR> I have stopped focusing on the scale. I am not of a mind to knuckle down and get onto the next phase of eating right. It involves some tweaking of my current purchases, changes in... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 07:05:07 EST How to tell your family a secret without telling them. DD1's news while celebrating DH's birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017354 DD1 visited our house the other day after ultrasound #2 at 16 weeks. In front of DH and DD2 I asked the question- did you find out what it is? I don't care as long as it's healthy. <BR> <BR> DD1: No, the baby kept moving, crossing it's legs. Hard to get a god look. The tech said maybe parts are too swollen yet.( I never heard THAT one and I got it right away when reviewed the scans). Maybe I'll find out next time. <BR> <BR> Yesterday at my house two little boys wrestled in the room, spille... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 06:30:56 EST Reviewing a week of helpers and other things leading to some successs and revelation.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6016374 This morning I am alone in my chair with my cup and computer. No one fell asleep on the couch with the TV still on at 5 am. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> My new SIL stayed 3 days, DD2 stayed 4. We learned a few things this week in my house. <BR> Two adult men, no matter how able-bodied, will leave the same amount of dirty dishes in the sink as an army. <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> My SIL could eat the contents of my refrigerator in one sitting if I placed it in front of him. <BR> I bought "sweets" ... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 06:46:44 EST Slight changes making me have an easier time. Kids, still kids at any age. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015284 Having my children "Dad sit" has been helpful. He's been able to bond with the new SIL and learn all about "football" teams(soccer to many of us). SIL managed to bring out the "man game" and his patient tried to impress him by making his own trips to the fridge. <BR> The switchover to DD was fun to watch. Suddenly Dad eats almost everything handed to him but doesn't get up! She caught on quick. <BR> <BR> It's been wonderful for me. I've had a few days of little worry. Don't think it was easy... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 05:31:01 EST Marveling over advertising. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014143 "Have Peace of Mind." <BR> Why is this statement used for an add for a laxative? <BR> <BR> "Enjoy the go." <BR> Not all TP is the same. I agree. Enjoying a the aftermath of a BM? <BR> <BR> "When the moment is right" <BR> What do two people in claw-foot bathtubs holding hands mean? <BR> <BR> "Who here has had gas, bloating, constipation or occasional diarrhea?" <BR> Asked from the top of a crowded double decker bus...and people raise their hands? Let's see that in real life on a crowded ai... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 05:18:21 EST Deceit for a good cause. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6013276 I've been coerced into deceit. <BR> I had a good chat with the MD and we decided it's time to introduce anti-depressants although DH has been adamant about not being depressed. This one increases appetite. That's how I will introduce it. The MD ordered it under it's generic name so there's not name recognition! I am in collusion with good company. <BR> I asked DH to try this new medicine for a week to see if it helps him want to eat. If it doesn't work, he can stop it. <BR> <BR> I feel guilt... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 17:01:48 EST I keep telling him there's good days and bad days. It will be ok. Easier said than done. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6013012 I asked DH if he could meet me outside when I picked him up for doctor's visit. He was waiting at the end of the drive; no walker and got in car complaining of a workout using the step platform. He had just had PT. <BR> The doc had lots to say,. Non-compliant DH. Imagine that. <BR> As we left DH started complaining about his legs being weak. <BR> He stepped up the 4 inch rise into our no-steps-ranch and went down like a marionette who's strings had been cut. <BR> I marveled for a nanosecond... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 06:59:22 EST Being Nana shows differences in the times or it's my kid. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6012494 During my eldest child's first 18 months, the relationships we had with my mom and the world were "typical". Kid had a cold, I called Mom. Kid walked, I called Mom. My mom had brain surgery in 1981 which changed a whole lot of the relationship but I kept her included in every step and boo-boo. We made lots of phone calls and trips. I took and sent LOTs of pictures. <BR> Second kid? Same thing, less pictures. <BR> <BR> My younger DD called me a few days ago and said " I saw Ben had a fever of... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 06:34:58 EST Somnia, my latest vacation getaway. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6011962 Lately I have been taking mini-vacations in Somnia. <BR> It is a lovely place with many vistas, and surprisingly close to home; I hardly notice the travel. <BR> <BR> There is one place in Somnia where I gaze at the ceiling and marvel at the shadows created by the little mini-lights of phone chargers, alarm clocks and safety night lights. I roll over and cover my head with blankets, but those lights don't go away and fairly soon I am gazing at the shadows, again. <BR> <BR> In Somnia, I hear ... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 03:51:11 EST Eating tidbits; rewritting the "disappeared blog" by request. Not as good as the first. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6011200 I have found myself snacking lately in response to my stresses. It's not much, just tidbits. <BR> <BR> /ˈtidˌbit/ <BR> noun <BR> plural noun: tidbits <BR> a small piece of tasty food. <BR> synonyms: delicacy, dainty, snack, nibble, appetizer, hors d'oeuvre, goody, dipper, finger food <BR> <BR> delicacy: the only delicacy I have might be frozen shrimp. I could thaw several and eat them plain. The problem is they taste better in a butter based dish. I hate plain. <BR> <BR> dainty: there i... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 19:54:13 EST Not liking new Spark format. Now I'm grumpy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6010808 I had a wonderful, humorous blog prepared and needed to investigate a Beck principle from someone else's blog. <BR> <BR> Mine got wiped out. <BR> <BR> Boo! <BR> You missed a good one I will not try to recreate and now I'm grumpy. <BR> DOGLADY13 had a similar problem . <BR> <BR> If you are writing a blog it seems you cannot leave the page unless you create a new window and don't touch the original. <BR> <BR> Be warned Sparkers! <BR> <BR> I'll be less grumpy later. Wed, 7 Oct 2015 06:20:56 EST Mushroom sauce-Yikes, fat calories, but it can be converted to low-fat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6009528 I put this in Sparkrecipes to get an idea how to make this more healthy, next time! <BR> <BR> Mushroom based sauce for pasta, loaded with mushrooms. <BR> Minutes to Prepare: 10 <BR> Minutes to Cook: 15 <BR> Number of Servings: 8 <BR> Ingredients <BR> <BR> 1 cup pieces Shiitake Mushrooms <BR> 453 grams Portabella Mushrooms (2 cups) <BR> 5 tbsp chopped Shallots (1 whole) <BR> 1 clove Garlic <BR> .25 cup Parmesan Cheese, grated <BR> 1.5 cup Light Cream (coffee cream or table cream) <BR> 2... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 06:49:14 EST Score for Saturday. Got my coat and cooked something I haven't before. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6008943 I bought a winter ski jacket, similar to my "donated" one. Purple with pink trim, removable hood, removable liner-purple. It's 3 coats in one. New robe. 2 sizes smaller than the one I currently have. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I had to buy DH some clothes and got quite a shock. There were no men's size smalls at this sale and the clerk told me to go to the boys department for XL sizes. <BR> I found a thermal shirt and sweatpants in XL size which were ok. There was a fake fleece-lined jacket b... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 07:26:13 EST Planning a great day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6008384 I woke up planning to be upbeat. I will have a great day in spite of my current situations. I need a new winter coat. I left mine in our room when on vacation last spring and when the resort called, I asked them to give it to a charity. It was 2 sizes too big! So coat shopping I go this morning. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Life has again thrown more lemons my way and I decided I AM going to learn how to juggle them! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> Once I learn how to juggle the lemons I will progre... Sat, 3 Oct 2015 06:11:43 EST Sleep. We all know the value. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6007836 I must have finally become too exhausted to sleep lightly. <BR> I barely work up at one point, warm, wondering if I should remove my covers. I rolled over without looking at the clock. No potty trips, no DH waking me up on his potty trips. <BR> I woke up on my own with 7 hours of good sleep. <BR> Now let's see if the rest of my day goes as good! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Fri, 2 Oct 2015 06:59:45 EST What happened to September? What happened to time? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006598 Random thoughts. <BR> <BR> It seems it was August yesterday. <BR> It seems my first child was born yesterday; she's going on 36! <BR> The bride and groom in my wedding pictures from 1978 look like babies. <BR> I remember 1972 like it was yesterday (it was a particularly good year <em>211</em> ) . <BR> <BR> Dad's mom told me stories in detail, I was hanging on her every word, then my dad whispered, "That was back in 1920". <BR> <BR> I remember Dad's stories like they were my own. My broth... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 06:41:45 EST I can't make this stuff up. 24 hours in my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004892 All is well. I can't believe how crazy my life is and yet I love it, sortta. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Yesterday morning. <BR> Got up, got outta bed, dragged a comb across my head.... <em>335</em> <BR> Had to help/carry DH to the bed when he started to collapse from weakness in the morning. <BR> I took my walk and made one of my best times yet if I subtract my Cirque De Solei act. <BR> I met a very nice young lady who was going to pray for me at her mosque for falling after worrying about... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 11:13:13 EST Bonus blog. Falling for fall. Oops, not again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004463 I took my walk this morning. <BR> The voice in my pocket, courtesy of Samsung and a phone app, told me I was "Almost there, you're doing great" "Average speed 3.9 miles per hour" <BR> <BR> I had to walk around a car stopped in the intersection. The driver appeared to be sleeping or ill, her head pointing down and I could not see her face as she was wearing the head covering of her religion. I quickly got around the car and as I reached her window she looked up, gave me a huge smile and waved... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 13:30:21 EST Maintenance is better than gain. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6004284 The only plateau I want to be on is a 5 hour flight to red rocks, small cactus and blue sky. <BR> <em>535</em> <BR> The one I've been standing on was defined by my scale this morning. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> I won't complain as my new clothes fit fine. My older clothes are loose. All my shirts look 2 sizes too big. <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> I tried tracking my food but the tracker frustrates me with all the pop-ups and slow-downs. I've raised my pop-up blocker but still get the slow e... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 07:48:43 EST Watching the "Poke" with grandsons and other giggles. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003685 My teacher-daughter and son in law went to their first Parent Night at GS' school. I was beyond exhausted and was going to handle the 5 yr old and 2 yr old on my own. <BR> Can we watch TV? Oh, yes! <BR> The screen lit up with flashing lights, motorcycles, police cars and thousands of people with cellphone cameras. <BR> Pope Francis was getting ready to head into NYC. <BR> Both boys were transfixed on the TV screen. Little Ben kept yelling out "Cars, cars! Police cars! Fire trucks!" <BR> I n... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 06:22:13 EST