OUT-OF-ASHES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OUT%2DOF%2DASHES OUT-OF-ASHES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ September Slothfulness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482613 Hello again my friends. Hi. <BR> <BR> I had gone away and then I came back for a day....and then I left AGAIN! <BR> <BR> What's up with that???? <BR> <BR> I have nothing to blame it on by my own atrocious laziness. I was doing amazing and so I stopped losing and just decided that I was ready to start maintaining already. I feel pretty good about that decision still and I have no regrets on the matter. <BR> <BR> So what have I been doing with my bad self you may ask?? I've been eating what... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 11:04:32 EST Jumbled June http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387803 I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> LOL I took a brief hiatus. Still lost some poundage and inches, which is good. I am gearing up for my 8k race on the 22nd. That will certainly prove to be challenging. I haven't been running as much so we shall see how it goes. <BR> <BR> I never once thought the day would come that I would be told that I was skinny. Well guess what folks? That day has come! Boy am I amazed...and baffled...and unspeakably shy. A part of me knows that my body has changed dramatic... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 09:11:07 EST Active April http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320824 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2037704196.jpg"> <BR> Okay so it's almost the middle of April and I just realized I never gave a status report on March or my gave my goals for April. So here goes... <BR> <BR> March Totals <BR> I lost another 8.5 pounds (that brings me to 175 and beats my 5 pound goal) <BR> I did 2,235 pushups out of my 2,400 pushup goal <BR> I did 4,470 crunches out of my 4,800 crunch goal <BR> I reached 110.5 miles <BR> <BR> April Goals <BR> I'm keeping... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 12:36:19 EST March Mayhem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285393 First an update: <BR> February Totals <BR> I lost 8.5 pounds which surpassed my 5 pound goal <BR> I surpassed my pushup goal of 1,000 (1,316) <BR> I surpassed my sit up goal of 2,500 (2,632) <BR> I reached 95.07 miles <BR> <BR> What can I say, February was fabulous. <BR> <BR> Now it is March. I don't quite have a mileage goal yet but I have been able to run two 10k distances so far and I want to do at least one more. The very last one will count towards the virtual race I have planned at th... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 14:37:21 EST Fired Up February! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234982 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l719021634.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just some quick motivation for the weekend. <BR> <BR> I need to give an update on how things are going. For the month of February I have a couple of things going to keep moving forward. You know me, I never want to get too comfortable. Otherwise I will get bored and that scale won't budge! <BR> <BR> February Goals Update: <BR> Miles Run 4.43/50 <BR> Push Ups 65/1,000 <BR> Sit Ups/Crunches 130/2,500 <BR> Better Sl... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 21:56:13 EST One Full Year of Changes-1 Year Sparkversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221426 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l181376475.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <em>503</em> <BR> <BR> I'm so excited to announce that today is my one year anniversary on SparkPeople! <BR> <BR> I have made so many small changes over the last 12 months and I weighed in and measured today to see what it all has amounted to, let me just say that I am shocked! <... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 10:21:54 EST Day 345-My 11th Month Break Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186179 I had a small setback with the weight loss in the month of December. It's hard to admit that considering how well I've done in the past and how far I've come. My goal wasn't a lofty one, it was only to lose 5 pounds but I ended up gaining 10+ pounds instead! (I don't really know yet where I fall because I am waiting until tomorrow to officially weigh in). <BR> <BR> I believe it was partly hormone related and partly because of poor eating choices. I didn't even know I could gain so much in O... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 13:02:17 EST Day 333 Survival Mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172708 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l569873865.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Okay, so thankfully we aren't walking around like this. I mean, how embarrassing! lol <BR> With today supposedly being the end of the world (though it didn't happen...Y2K anyone?) I've been thinking...FRESH START FOR EVERYONE!!!!! <BR> <BR> I mean think about it! If the world ended for the Mayans, a new day is upon us. A whole new world. A new era if you will. <BR> <BR> So what are you going to do with your bran... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 08:32:46 EST Day 325-I Kicked Obesity To The Curb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165483 I have finally done it. I have broken free from the chains of obesity. I awoke this morning without hope that I had lost any weight (for the 3rd week in a row) and stepped on the scale. To my utter amazement it read 189.5. I did a little happy dance. What a victory! <BR> <BR> It's strange the mixture of emotions that come to mind.... <BR> I'm proud of my accomplishment, but... <BR> Worried that it's not enough, and... <BR> Annoyed that it took me so long, I'm also... <BR> Anxious that I have... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 13:06:34 EST 312-10 Month Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151670 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1068733874.jpg"> <BR> <BR> November has been a HUGE crazy sleepless month! <BR> I have lost a total of 60 pounds now. Sixty is a lot of weight and I feel pretty good about that. <BR> <BR> Running has been good for the most part. Considering how I was when I first started, I've seen a world of difference. I can run 5 kilometers consistently without stopping three days a week. Never thought I could do it without short walking breaks througho... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 12:48:21 EST 270-9 Months! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104920 Halfway through October? What?!! You know what that means....today is my sparkiversary! 9th to be exact. When I first started, I set some pretty lofty goals for myself (for instance, I was going to be at 160 by now) LOL yeah right! When it became evident that this process was going to be more difficult than I had hoped, I readjusted those goals and made them more achievable. With my adjusted goals in mind, I had wanted to lose 60 pounds by now (that didn't quite happen as I am 3 pounds away, ... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 12:12:54 EST 248-All Good Things Come To Those Who Wait http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078324 I stepped on the scale this morning and did a double take.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l116172581.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I DID IT!!!!! <BR> I can't believe it, I'm in ONEderland. I still can't seem to process it fully. I have come so far and have worked so hard. I just can't believe it. It feels like a gift. I started this journey knowing full well that it would take a while before I got to this point and I committed myself to getting here, but I still can't bel... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 11:35:26 EST 240-8 Months and Still Going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068567 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l406407535.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think this quote defines me right now. As I've said before, bad things happen and some days you make bad decisions but they cannot define you and you should not let them dictate the outcome of your journey. You are the teller of your own story, you alone are responsible for your actions. This month went by so fast! I won't tell you about what I didn't do right last month, instead I'll share what I'm excited about... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 00:03:19 EST 235-Places People! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058959 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l871326043.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ever hear of the phrase, "go to your happy place"? <BR> That has been my motto. Like everyone else I struggle through life at times. But when my attitude turns sour, I stop myself and ask these questions: <BR> <BR> Where is your focus right now? Where is your heart? If you are constantly drudging up old battles and fixating on the wounds and scars that stemmed from them, you will never heal. <BR> <BR> Can you th... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 11:07:11 EST Day 229-9/8/12 I Ran My First 5K!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050508 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l925477513.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What an experience! Why didn't I do this sooner?!!! Today I ran the annual Boots and Boas 5K in support of a charity for battered women. This was my first official 5K! I was too scared to even mention it to you all in the past weeks (in case I backed out) and I surprised myself and patted myself on the back for going through with it. I was EXTREMELY nervous last night about the race today. I thought I would miss my... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 01:32:07 EST 226-Testing Your Resolve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045603 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l688203128.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Proof that I had a healthy breakfast! <em>211</em> <BR> Now I need to figure out lunch! <BR> <BR> I have recently come to a standstill in my motivation. I want to do things the right way and I want to be at a certain place right now, but I am really having a hard go at it. I'm not staying on track as I should and I find that it's taking more effort than I have in me at this time. <BR> <BR> Maybe I'm just lazy... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 13:24:12 EST 213-Seven Changes in Seven Months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5028065 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l322227248.jpg"> <BR> <BR> On Monday I celebrated seven months on spark and I am having a difficult time accepting that it has been that long. Where does the time fly? It has been a very nice summer so far and at times it is hard to tack down just what has changed for me over the past several months. So here's what I got... <BR> <BR> 1) I have lost 48 pounds <BR> <BR> 2) I am down 4 jeans sizes <BR> <BR> 3) I have gone from doing absolute... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 14:49:24 EST 198-Neighbors Night Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5006347 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l395622016.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Last night was filled will fun and excitement for the kids and nervous banter for the adults. While the children ran around on the street throwing water balloons and aiming their nerf guns, all of the adults were meeting each other for the first time. There are a lot of new people that just moved into the neighborhood in the last 3 years. I only knew 2 or 3 of my neighbors before this get together and now I am happ... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 09:38:52 EST 193-Gotta have Faith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4999406 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l936221011.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Last week was ended in a funk, this week was started in a funk. Since then I have reevaluated and made a plan of where to go from here. You see I have started gaining weight....for no logical reason. I couldn't figure out where I went wrong. I was eating in range and working my butt off burning calories. Last week I should have lost 2 pounds and instead I gained 2...bringing my total gain to 5. <BR> <BR> I realize... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 11:02:23 EST 184-Past the 6 Month Mark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4986362 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l396381022.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well ladies and gents, I have made it. I am still alive, still kickin. I am amazed with my fortitude. How I can go day in and day out knowing that I will do something that will make me sweat ON PURPOSE. I cannot believe I have kept it up for half a year. I knew I was stubborn but not THAT stubborn. LOL. <BR> <BR> When I first started, I imagined where I would be when I got to this point. I gave myself 2 options (n... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 13:01:56 EST 168-Follow Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4967074 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l652793622.jpg"> <BR> In the last blog I had but one goal for this week...feel the fear and do it anyway. So how have I stacked up so far you may ask? <BR> Sunday <BR> 3mi run, ZWOW #15, 1,538 Calories <BR> Monday <BR> 1.63mi run, NMTZ, ZWOW #21, 1,311 Calories <BR> Tuesday <BR> .58mi run, BFBM, 4mi on the Elliptical, 1,279 Calories <BR> Wednesday <BR> 1.91mi run, NMTZ, 1,841 Calories (high but still within range) <BR> <BR> So far so good. ... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 11:37:35 EST 164-Work it Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4960211 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l745185580.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We all have intentions of living a healthy and active lifestyle, but when it comes down to it, when we start to think about exactly what it takes, our human nature tends to lean towards couch-potatoness and postponements. We want to do it, but it's so hard! It takes a monumental game changer to get your act together. It takes heart. <BR> <BR> The mind does not contain the catalyst for change because 9 times out of... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 08:40:50 EST Day 162-Happy Happy Joy Joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4957789 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l941103823.jpg"> <BR> Rubber Ducky you're the one. You make bathtime lots of fun! Rubber ducky, I'm awfully fond of you! Woh Woh Be Doh! <BR> <BR> Thank you Autumnbrz for getting that stuck in my head! <BR> <BR> Oh Mighty Rubber Duckies, how do I love thee? Let me count the ways... <BR> <BR> I created a spark team and it brings me much joy. No longer will our Killian tribe be in a buried thread. It is boldly out there and visible to the wo... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 10:26:26 EST Day 161-Tardiness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4956428 So all is well with the exception of one thing. As of late, I have been playing catch up ALL THE TIME!!! I think I might just have too much on my plate. I don't like it. It is tarnishing my otherwise pleasant disposition. Here are the things that I need to work on: <BR> <BR> Ashley's List of Lameness <BR> 1) I can't keep up with all my Spark Friends of Joy! All you guys have lovely blogs and such that I want to read but can't when I am at home (I don't have internet, and my phone's data is s... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 12:06:32 EST Day 151: My Happy Little Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942029 I am sad that my lovely vacation has come to an end. Tomorrow is back to reality for me. I had a wonderful week of solitude and exercise and then on Friday I took off with an old school friend to Stillwater, MN. We stayed at a quiet little Inn for a few nights and during the day we visited the shops in Stillwater and noshed on some yummy eats. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l401206732.jpg"> <BR> Caprese and Garlic Chicken Flatbread from MaraMi <BR> <BR> <img ... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 17:15:02 EST 365 Day Assignment #8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4941982 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l363314573.jpg"> Mon, 25 Jun 2012 16:35:09 EST 365 Day Assignment #7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4937041 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l399061562.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Challenge aside, I am super excited because I have had several NSVs in this past week alone! My newish pants are loose on me so I went to Target to just see if I could find jeans that would fit me and I thought I would search for deals one size smaller, size 16, WHAT?! I haven't been in a 16 since high school! I looked but I couldn't find anything in the style I liked. So I moved on and looked at the shorts (I HATE... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 00:26:54 EST Day 145: Believe It Or Not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4933173 I'm coming to the realization just how much I have let myself go. I can't believe it. Today I officially marked my 40 pound weight loss and instead of being incandescently happy with my achievement, I find that I cannot connect myself with the scenario. It was someone else who had 40+ pounds to lose. Not me. I find that I don't want to own up to it. If someone asks "how much weight have you lost?" I can't honestly say that I would proudly reply "40 pounds!" I can't because of what that 40 po... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 12:54:24 EST Day 140-I so want to try this! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4926330 I just saw an ad for something similar to this and I think this a good goal to work towards. (I am too heavy to do it now, but someday!) <BR> <BR> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7TalnV6b<BR>1g <BR> <BR> Also, a coworker of mine who is TINY just loves taking Bikram yoga classes. She says they are amazing! So when I get even more confident and much smaller this will also be a class I will be looking forward to! <BR> <BR> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=maV2InOTs<BR>Oc Thu, 14 Jun 2012 12:46:24 EST 365 Day Assignment #6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4925379 Give Thanks! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l151451613.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wow now my legs are killing me! I've had too many jobs and too many surgeries, lol! But I sure am thankful for all of them, plus what a great opportunity to get fit! <BR> <BR> Up next, Assignment #7: What is your favorite "Non-Workout" Workout? <BR> <BR> Challenge aside, I have not been very productive today. I did day 3 of week 2 Ripped in 30 this morning. JM makes me want to cry. I am so... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 20:43:53 EST 365 Day Assignment #5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4923965 Today is a day to recognize creativity from within. Don’t look at magazines, cook books or TV shows for ideas or inspiration. Create something today that is only inspired by you. Using your creativity is a way to relax and express yourself. Don’t limit yourself on this assignment you can create or make absolutely anything!  <BR> <BR> I drew a little, it's just nice to get the creative juices flowing! I also added some glitter, because...well why not? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sp... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 21:59:35 EST 365 Day Assignment #4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4922400 Assignment #4 <BR> <BR> You decided to participate in the 365 day challenge because you want a change and to reach your goal! Sometimes we can’t reach our goal without the help of others! Helping others also makes us feel so much better about ourselves and helps us fix our problems. Asking for help is also important. For this assignment I want you to practice helping others. Do something for someone else to help them out. Maybe your mom left a load in the dryer, fold it for her. Maybe your f... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 22:09:28 EST 365 Day Assignment #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4920687 Assignment #3: Did this! Not that! What did you do different today? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l79639110.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Next up on 365 Day, Assignment #4: <BR> "You decided to participate in the 365 day challenge because you want a change and to reach your goal! Sometimes we can’t reach our goal without the help of others! Helping others also makes us feel so much better about ourselves and helps us fix our problems. Asking for help is also important. Fo... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 21:24:25 EST 365 Day Assignment #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4919484 Assignment #2 Take a picture of one thing you changed in the past two days of the challenge, something small and post it to your blog. <BR> <BR> My small change was that I cleaned out my purse...lol <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l743534711.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It was a mess as you can see. On the plus side I found a receipt that I needed to make a return. Yay! <BR> <BR> Next up 365 Day, Assignment #3: Did this! Not that! What did you do different today? <BR> <BR... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 22:21:10 EST 365 Day Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4918050 Because I'm a glutton for punishment, I have decided to add a new challenge to my list. Now all of the parameters haven't been hashed out yet but the general gist of this challenge is to reach your goal within 365 days. Doable right? <BR> <BR> I got this challenge this morning when I was creepin around tumblr and happened upon Undressed Skeleton's blog. She is a super inspiring gal, and her blog is chock full of advice and recipes. Check it out at http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/ <BR> If... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 17:35:09 EST Day 132: Happy National Running Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915291 Happy National Running Day! <BR> Believe you me, I took full advantage of this beautiful sunny 80° day! I even took a picture of myself commemorating the event. Here I am, all sweaty and smiling through the pain. Enjoy. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l816358883.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today I was pacing myself. I think I have shin splints, because it feels like someone is twisting my calf and shin so that they feel like a twisted rag. Also my hamstrings are still reco... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 20:04:05 EST Day 129-For the birds... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4908216 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l534043598.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This made me chuckle. I have been in a confused hazy fog all day, so I felt that this image was fitting. Last night I finally got to sleep at 11p (I was scheduled to be at work a half an hour earlier than usual, so I planned to be to work at 6am). I was deep asleep when my phone rang. CRAP! 1:45 in the morning and the office was calling. So I hauled my sad booty into work (the overnight gal had a family emergency) ... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 00:16:32 EST Day 120-My 4 Month SparkVersary!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895126 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l63773905.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today I am celebrating my 4 month SparkVersary! <BR> So this one day back in January, I saw a picture of one of my SparkFriends. It was her before and after, and I was intrigued. I tried to mimic everything that she had done so that I might see her results reflected in me. That was when I was led to Spark and I started my own special journey. Once I started though of course I couldn't stop. I am hopelessly addicted.... Wed, 23 May 2012 19:55:13 EST Day 119-Patience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892773 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l930895694.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a lot lately about how much is too much. My mom keeps me second guessing my exercise routine. She thinks that I shouldn't have to work out as long as I do to see results. I don't know. I look at what other people on here are doing and I feel like I should do more. Daily I get in 60-75 minutes on average of cardio and strength and I have also been taking more rest days than I had before. Like last... Tue, 22 May 2012 10:31:37 EST Day 114-We Are Strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4885669 Everything is going great as far as staying motivated and being consistent. I am on day 18 of the Eat to Live challenge and I have managed to stay in range consistently for those 18 days (so far). <BR> <BR> I am coming to the end of my Rookie 5K challenge, next friday I am going to race on the treadmill. I am still amazed at myself for doing it and even getting this far. For someone who would walk "the mile" in school (I am NOT a runner), this is extraordinary! I am still going at a "slow" ... Thu, 17 May 2012 11:57:13 EST Day 108-Consistency and Perseverance is all you need http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4877181 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l470726484.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've been looking at a lot of motivational tools lately, because I am getting to the point in my fit journey where I would normally throw in the towel. I'm not giving up this time. Yes, I am not seeing as much change in my body as I would like to see. Yes, I still have those "back boobs" that cause me to feel uncomfortable in tops, those lovely "butthighs" that make pants really hard to fit into, and "cankles" that... Fri, 11 May 2012 14:14:43 EST Day 104-Ambulavi, Vidi, Vici http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4871226 I walked, I saw, I conquered. Yeah, so I'm not Julius Caesar battling in the city of Zela and then summing it all up with Veni, Vidi, Vici (I came, I saw, I conquered), but I do feel like I set to do battle with myself and won. <BR> <BR> It was such a lovely spring day today. I went for a trail walk and also walked along the one of the lakes near my house. As I walked I snapped a couple pics for visual evidence. I really don't like to be in pictures. So for your viewing pleasure... <BR> <BR... Mon, 7 May 2012 20:46:30 EST Day 100-Thoughts Surrounding the Water Cooler http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864893 One hundred days on spark and I never realized that I have come so far. <BR> <BR> I went to the water cooler this afternoon to fill up my 32oz water bottle for the second time and was annoyed to find that no one had replaced the empty. As I was lifting its replacement into the slot I realized something: <BR> <BR> I can lift the big water bottle with out much of a struggle! <BR> <BR> When did that happen? When did I get so strong? I use to be the one who left just enough water in there so... Thu, 3 May 2012 14:28:59 EST Day 98-Updates on EVERYTHING I can think of :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4861132 So in my last blog I wrote with all honesty, holding nothing back. I was sarcastic, cutting, exaggerated, and yet truthful. Haven't you ever wanted to let loose on the world and let all that pent up crap out? I know I do! Depending on how bad the situation is, I might fly off the handle twice a week (just as long as nobody sees me). I internalize everything in the natural world, but I'm thankful that we have SP to let loose a little. Sorry if I get too personal, and sorry if I ramble! <BR> <... Tue, 1 May 2012 11:48:48 EST (insert buzzer sound here) WRONG! Do not pass go, do not collect $200! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4858318 Ugh, I feel like a terrible failure sometimes. <BR> I confess that I gave into my sweet tooth today. Go Me (sarcasm)! I told myself I wasn't gonna do it. I told myself that I was better than that. I told myself that I am planning my grocery list for this food challenge and I'm going to stick with it. I told myself that this is the week that I am not having ANY chocolate. I told myself a lot of things and none of them kept me from slipping up. I could just stab myself in the eye right now for ... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:09:17 EST Day 96-Healthy Recipe for Eat to Live http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4857611 This is my first recipe posting for the "Eat to Live" challenge <BR> <BR> Recipe that I found for Mexican Lasagna: <BR> <BR> 4 Whole Wheat Tortillas <BR> 1.25 cups Salsa <BR> 1.25 cups 2% Shredded Cheddar Cheese <BR> 1 cup Fat Free Re-fried Beans <BR> 8 oz (1/2 lb) 93% Lean Ground Beef <BR> 1/2 Packet Taco Seasoning <BR> 1 Tomato, chopped <BR> 1/2 Onion, chopped <BR> Cilantro (optional) <BR> Sour Cream (optional) <BR> <BR> Preheat oven to 350 <BR> 4 servings <BR> <BR> 1) Brown the ground... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 13:06:10 EST Day 94-Challenge you say! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4854871 So I came across this challenge that will start on Monday and goes until May 26th. It's the Eat to Live Food Challenge with the Bad Ass Rock Stars Team. I am going to try it out, I've never done a Food Challenge before so this is going to be interesting. <BR> <BR> You earn points each day by staying in your Calorie/Fat/Carb/Protein range on your Nutrition Tracker and for being consistent with it. You earn points by making a healthy recipe and blog about it, and for each Sparkrecipe you make ... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 12:28:40 EST Day 93-Wonder Twin Powers ACTIVATE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4853341 I have been frustrated by my scale as of late. It's like a stubborn mule! It sometimes causes me physical pain to step onto it and see all my efforts wasted, so I am rebelling. I am NOT going to weigh myself until next Monday and after that I won't weigh again until the Monday after that. I see more of a difference when I look in the mirror than when I look on my scale anyway. In fact, I am slowly learning that it is not about a number on the scale, rather it is about achieving total wellness... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 12:43:13 EST That kind of sucked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4850912 Follow-up: my walk/run was harder than expected. I had to throw in the towel after only 17 minutes. I got really sick to my stomach. I could not go any further. Kind of disappointed with myself and yet I know that I did the best that I could. I will try again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I like what Laurelei said on my previous post, "practice makes progress" so true, I'm trying not to let my failure at being perfect dictate how I go from here. <BR> <BR> I will keep on keepin' on. Wed, 25 Apr 2012 00:33:07 EST Day 91-Time flies when you are having fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849703 I can't believe I've been doing this for 3 months (I didn't even realize it until this morning). This last month literally FLEW by. <BR> <BR> I have been bouncing back and forth quite a bit with my weight since the beginning (gaining like 10 pounds back, oops), but that is the way I have always been, so it's to be expected. This month's highlights for me were in the start of the month when I got back in the saddle after breaking my toe and started running again on the treadmill. Also, the ad... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 11:07:05 EST