OTTAWABOUND's SparkPeople Blog OTTAWABOUND's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community No pizza = 2 pounds down! Week two of no pizza or takeout allowed and week two of dropping two pounds! <BR> <BR> We were busy and tired and it was easy to order in. Each night, we'd look at each other and each night, neither one of us wanted to cook dinner. And so we'd say--what about pizza? <BR> <BR> Cheapest and quickest takeout meal AND it was a bread and cheese delivery system. Then, a couple of weeks ago, when we went to put our recyclables out, we realized that we had eaten pizza for dinner 10 nights out of t... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 12:41:03 EST 288 or 307. The battle of the scales continue! WW weigh-in today and the scale read 307.5 while this morning's home scale weigh-in gave me 288 (just 20 pounds out from my Spark People low of 2010). <BR> <BR> I'm happy that one simple change - no ordering take-out - has helped the scale start going down again. Prepping food at night is a pain, and my honey isn't a left-overs type, but making the simple rule of no takeout has meant that one of us is more likely to cook and he's more likely to eat the same thing two nights in a row. <BR> ... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 13:13:33 EST The Brutal Truth = 3 lbs My WW weigh-in today saw a 3 pound gain from last week. <BR> <BR> The brutal truth is that I didn't track my food and I made some very unhealthy choices last week. Like thinking it would be safe to buy a box of Oreos for the house. All gone in one day. Eaten by me. There were many more choices like that, although none quite that unhealthy. <BR> <BR> The brutal truth is that if I eat the way I used to eat, I'll put on the pounds and get fatter. There is no way around it. <BR> <BR> The brut... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:51:26 EST My chest is now bigger than my gut! I glanced down this morning and realized that I could see my chest, but not my gut! <BR> <BR> It's a slow journey. Last week I put on a pound, this week I took it off. And I really wanted it to be a couple of pounds, so that I felt like I had made up for the gain. I wanted it through magical thinking. I had not tracked my food, I did get dinner from a box instead of preparing it myself a few times too often and that box of digestive cookies that was supposed to last for a few months lasted ... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 13:19:18 EST When Up is Down Yesterday's official weigh-in was not happy-making. I went up 0.8 of a pound. Here's why: <BR> <BR> I didn't track my food last week and I ate things absent mindedly. <BR> I haven't gone to the bathroom for 3 days. <BR> I'm wearing my fall clothes now, which are heavier than my summer clothes. <BR> <BR> I was prepared, I knew it was coming. But I still felt crappy afterwards. Even though I know it's all about the long haul, my short-term self was pissed and wanted to say "Screw this!" <BR>... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 08:48:03 EST Knee highs not rolling down! With a frost warning last night, I pulled out my autumn clothes bin. There were a bunch of knee highs to transition me from bare legs to full on nylons or leggings and socks...except that last year, they didn't work. I could get them on and they were fine. As long as I didn't move. <BR> <BR> That's right. After about half a block's walking, they'd start slowly rolling themselves down until they became anklets. Not the professional look required at work (where I was wearing long skirts, blous... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 12:56:34 EST A tale of two scales Scale number 1, the one I have at home, says I weigh 293 pounds. Or 25 pounds heavier than my best Spark weight back in 2010, when I discovered the joys of Sparking and dropped over 60 pounds. <BR> <BR> Scale number 2, the one that I get on every Tuesday at my workplace WW meeting, says that I weigh 311.4 pounds. <BR> <BR> Guess what? <BR> <BR> The scales' exact numbers don't matter. What does matter is the downward trend. What matters is: <BR> <BR> Needing to order a new swimsuit, beca... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 14:11:33 EST A healthy feast I'm really happy with my last week of exercise and eating. A month back, I read a great book by Chip and Dan Heath about making decisions and how to work around our tendencies to make unhealthy decisions. Here's how I got through a VERY busy and social week: <BR> <BR> Wednesday date night with my husband at one of the city's top restaurants - we walked there and back along the river. As soon as my food arrived, I divided it in half and put it in a takeaway container. I stayed away from the b... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 13:27:31 EST Damn you, pizza! Okay. Not really. I had pizza for dinner last night. I ate it pretty late. I stayed within my calories all week, including last night. And, blessed by the high sodium content of the pizza, I didn't have to get up and pee a couple of times during the night the way I usually do. <BR> <BR> But. <BR> <BR> This morning was my official weekly weigh-in and the scale didn't budge since last week's weigh-in. Which probably has everything to do with me keeping a few litres more of water in my system... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 13:33:11 EST YoYo beats NoYo+ I had a good scale week and dropped 5 pounds. Funny thing was that I did the same amount of exercise and ate the same calories as the week before, when I dropped less than 2 pounds, or the week where I dropped .2 of a pound! <BR> <BR> And really, it doesn't matter. In that this is not a RACE to goal. It's a lifestyle change that I'll have to stick closely to for the rest of my life - or the weight comes back on. <BR> <BR> When I entered my loss, my tracking chart came up. It shows a loss o... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 08:15:28 EST 6 month progress report How am I feeling? <BR> <BR> Healthy. Even with the remnant of a sprained ankle! I'm so much stronger than I was. Now I get up and down from even low chairs and couches quite easily. Actually bruised my husband because he isn't used to me popping up so quickly and I hit him with my head a week ago! <BR> <BR> I've gone from being able to swim for 15 minutes to being able to swim for an hour (maybe longer, but I don't have the time to find out). It built leg, back, core, and arm strength. Now ... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 10:44:21 EST How I lost 6 pounds over vacation week - eating out the whole time! I just weighed in after a week in Vancouver (foodie heaven) and after eating almost entirely in restaurants. I lost six pounds -- and I never felt deprived!!! Here is what I think contributed to some success: <BR> <BR> 1) I always kept an apple on me for whenever I felt my energy flagging (instead of popping into a bakery). <BR> 2) I made the decision that I would only eat ONE dessert the entire trip. So each time the waiter asked me if I wanted dessert, I looked at the menu and thought abo... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 14:02:04 EST 30 pound gain in 5 minutes! But 1.8 down this week Yes. I did gain 30 pounds in 5 minutes. All it took was stepping on my new, more accurate scale. I went from 298 pounds to 328 pounds in less than 5 minutes. Arghh! <BR> <BR> On the good side: <BR> -I get to celebrate going below 300 pounds again at some point in the next 3-4 months. <BR> -It prompted me to get serious about tracking food (although I'm using a point system, not calories). <BR> -Serious tracking resulted in a loss of 1.8 lb this week (and my new scale gives me an exact measu... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 10:31:33 EST Swimming away the pounds For the last 4 months I have been taking my 300 lb plus body to the pool. <BR> <BR> I didn't want to. I was horrified at the thought of putting on a swimsuit and getting into a pool -- I assumed that everyone would judge me. <BR> <BR> The first day I put on the swim suit and nervously walked out of the change room and over to the "kid" steps (I had checked to make sure that there was an alternative to getting in and out via a ladder) I weighed 328 pounds. <BR> <BR> Today, I weigh just ove... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 11:03:29 EST Wanted to binge--cut my hair off instead Okay--yesterday I was heading home, exhausted and my husband off on a business trip, and I wanted to binge eat. Why? Because I was tired and a bit lonely, and binge eating is one of the behaviours that "helps" me through those feelings. <BR> <BR> So, instead of binging, I stopped off at a hair salon and had a food of hair chopped off. Yeah, a bit drastic and it will be a couple of years before it's an option again. But it did get me out of the mood and I think it looks good--and it was certa... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 17:11:41 EST Down 40 pounds I have dropped 40 pounds since I joined Spark People. So why don't I feel quite as jubilant as I should? <BR> <BR> Hint. I joined in January 2010! And at one point I was down 80 pounds. <BR> <BR> After a year, I stopped Sparking and started putting on pounds as unhealthy habits came back. The tipping point was a change in my work situation, which put me within easy reach of all sorts of junk food and huge claims on my time, so that the routine I had used to eat healthy and move healthy was... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 14:26:23 EST Healthier I haven't been tracking my food and it seems I will have to, as I have not gone down in weight for two weeks. But I haven't gone up, either. <BR> <BR> Also--I've been getting much stronger, physically, from the swimming. Actually did two laps in the pool doing the Butterfly stroke. That was unimaginable to me a month ago. I've added five minutes to my swim, so now I am doing 35 minutes four times a week. And I feel good. <BR> <BR> I've noticed that I am much more sure-footed on the icky, sl... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 13:05:08 EST Swimming along I'm 5' 3" and I weigh 310 pounds. That's big. Big enough to put a lot of pressure on my joints when I walk or try to do a fitness class. <BR> <BR> And I sweat. A lot. Which I hate. <BR> <BR> For a couple of months, I kept seeing an ad on the bus for one of our local hotels, showing a beautiful swimming pool. Come join us, the ad said. Try us free for a week. One day, on impulse, I got off at the stop in front of the hotel with the pool. I went in to check it out. I'm not sure what kind of ... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 11:52:46 EST I forgot how awesome this feels I just reread a bunch of my old blogs and I was so sure that I knew what was what and that I wouldn't be faced with losing weight again. <BR> <BR> What I knew was right--change what I ate and how much I ate and work in some activities on a regular basis and the weight comes off and the body gets fitter. <BR> <BR> But I managed to talk myself out of doing it. I don't even remember how--probably got busy and tired and felt like there were better things to do with my time. <BR> <BR> Starti... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:07:14 EST Knee Highs fit--not rolling down to my ankles! Had a Spark moment yesterday! Much of my weight settles on my hips and legs (and upper arms)--so finding tights that are big enough for my hips and thighs but small enough for my waist is almost impossible. And in the past, knee highs, no matter how plus-sized, would simply give up the ghost of their grip around the tops of my calves and roll down to my ankles. <BR> <BR> BUT--seems like all my walking has changed the shape of my calves a bit! I now have enough of a narrowing before my knees... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 05:43:16 EST Not Snowbound this Winter--what a difference 70 lbs makes I was just thinking, as I watch the snow fall, that this is the first winter I've lived in Ottawa that I don't feel winterbound. And I owe that entirely to Spark (and my little pull-on ice grips). I did a 5 k walk home last night, and we detoured for 1.5 k to walk along the river and enjoy the dusk. Before, just getting the 4 blocks to the bus was almost unbearable. I'm still super-obese (official weight category), but I can move this body now! It has flexibility and it has strength and it is... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 06:23:15 EST Financial Health, too Last January, I decided to start on a journey of physical health and I'm quite happy with the results. By the end of the year, even with detour, I had lost 20% of my starting body weight (I need to lose almost 60% of the start weight of 348 pounds to reach a healthy BMI). This year, I decided to start on a journey of financial health. <BR> <BR> For the past 5 years I've been self employed. I was making about what I made back when I had a salary, but stability was sorely lacking. My husband h... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 16:54:04 EST When the scale goes up--don't go DOWN I was thinking about how the first couple of times I saw a gain, I hated it. I don't LOVE it these days, but it doesn't freak me out, either. It's just part of the process. <BR> <BR> So, if you are in your first month on Spark and maybe you've hit TOM water retention, or you had a big salt day the day before weigh-in, or you didn't manage to eat within the suggested range of your nutrition tracker--it's NOT the end of the world. I spent 14 weeks off Spark and chunked on 26 pounds. 13 of whi... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:28:04 EST Down to 276 AND I resisted the GIANT chocolate bar Happy week--did my weigh in today and I'm down another three pounds, so that I'm weighing in at 276, which is nicer than last Monday's total of 286. I'm sure it will slow down a bit for next week, but at least I can see reaching my previous Spark best in the not-too-distant future and then moving into new numbers again. I've really discovered that it doesn't feel nearly as victorious the second time around, although perhaps it should, upon reflection... <BR> <BR> So--I'm proud that I've met ... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 07:19:01 EST Down 1 Monday, 13 to go! So, now I figure I’m at 13 Mondays (after 14 away from Spark) and the first week back on Spark paid off really quickly with the scale going down 7 pounds. Although much of that was probably water loss because I’m <BR> <BR> a) Eating much less sodium as I’m not eating as much preprepared food <BR> b) Drinking 8 to 10 glasses of water a day which actually HELPS get rid of water weight, weirdly enough. <BR> <BR> Oh, don’t worry. I’m not deluding myself that the 23 pounds I put on over those 14... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 05:59:45 EST Back, Happy to be Here, and the Weight Gain is okay Just reread my last blog entry of more than 2 months ago. <BR> <BR> What the heck happened? Maybe the milestone of 100 pounds coming up scared me? Nope. I let myself forget my commitment to my health. <BR> <BR> I got sick. <BR> I got some major rush contracts. <BR> I had financial stress. <BR> It was my birthday. It was my husband's birthday. Then it was Christmas. <BR> <BR> AND I started the old refrain--I'll get back on Spark on Monday. So, 14 Mondays later I went from 263 (which was a ... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 12:16:36 EST WooHoo! 85 Pounds Gone! 85 pounds are gone. It only took 11 months and a whole bunch of changed habits. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> On January 8th, my BMI was 59.7. <BR> Today it is 45.5 <BR> Another 35 pounds (somewhere between 4 - 6 months away) I will slip below a 40 BMI and I will happily call myself obese, instead of morbidly obese (when I started, I was classified as super morbidly obese)! <BR> <BR> On January 8th I could not stand on one leg for more than 2 seconds without starting to fall. <BR> Today I can h... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 12:26:05 EST "NO S--" is Slowly Creeping In--Might be Why I'm losing again About a month back, I read a very slim volume about someone's weight loss journey and system. He said it could be summed up in one sentence with about 2 pages of explanations (but the book was maybe 80 pages, lots of examples of people using it and studies cited). <BR> <BR> "No snacks, no seconds, no sweets, except on days that start with an S" <BR> <BR> He dropped 50 pounds and has kept if off for years following this method. He also has Special days, like birthdays, major holidays, --but... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 12:01:59 EST I've Broken a Long Time Affair Okay--one week so far and no diet pop! I miss you morning and afternoon (but not so much at night). <BR> <BR> I started with Tab, back in the 70's and then graduated to diet coke and diet pepsi. I've pretty much had at least a can of one or the other every day for 30+ years. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'm in the middle of editing a book on osteoporosis and pop is NOT good for the bones, due to the phosphates. Plus, as much as we try to prete... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 13:50:28 EST First Time Wearing Heels in a Long Time! Last year at the Steel Toes & Stilettos Ball (a benefit for Habitat for Humanity) I wore flip flops, a stretch skirt and a stretch sweater. Because that was the best I could fit into in my wardrobe at 348 pounds. I had a good time but I was definitely aware that I wasn't up to the sartorial standards (most others were in ball gowns)! <BR> <BR> This year, I wore a sexy dress, stockings (because I found some that I could fit, thanks to dropping pounds) and heels! I haven't been able to wear he... Sun, 17 Oct 2010 12:56:15 EST The Taxi Driver Didn't Recognize Me Once a week, I walk down to Loblaws (about 2km), the bank, and the library. Then I take a taxi home. After 4 years in the same house using taxis a few times a week (we don't have a car), the drivers for the local company kind of know us. <BR> <BR> I got in the taxi and gave my address. The driver kept looking at me in the mirror. Finally, he said <BR> "Excuse me, but have you just moved there?" <BR> "No, we've been there four years." <BR> Then he keeps looking at me some more. At last he sa... Wed, 13 Oct 2010 15:56:07 EST "He Must like Large, Intelligent Women" Was the comment made by the mother of the friend who hosted us for Thanksgiving Dinner on Saturday! My husband is the 'he' in that comment. <BR> <BR> Well, good to know that my intelligence was shining through the layers... <BR> <BR> It's funny, I don't feel large. I feel light and lithe and lots of other lovely 'l' words. Now, this lady is known for being rather horrible (this was much nicer than anything she said about her children or grandchildren), but it did remind me that, yes, I am l... Tue, 12 Oct 2010 10:09:27 EST Survived Thanksgiving Dinner Yesterday--barely! Was invited to Thanksgiving dinner by a friend who is an amazing baker. <BR> <BR> I had my plan--eat my usual breakfast, eat a salad with some tuna before I headed out so that I wouldn't be tortured for the next few hours by the smell of baking and roasting. Couple of bottles of Lime Perrier, check! Gone for a bike ride today? Check! <BR> <BR> My strategy at the meal? Harm reduction! <BR> Eat the stuff I really liked (stuffing, turkey breast, gravy, mashed garlic turnips, apple salad) and ... Sun, 10 Oct 2010 08:48:09 EST 80 pounds in pictures When I started my Spark journey, the logical part of my brain knew it was simple: consume fewer calories than I used up and I would lose weight. It isn't rocket science. It really is that simple. <BR> <BR> BUT--my inner four-year-old had a whole other take on the situation. Give up Nutella? Give up eating whatever I want whenever I want it? No way! Nobody tells me what to do. Get lost! <BR> <BR> I made two commitments: track my calories--no matter how unhealthy an eating day--and exercise... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 11:35:52 EST Stop the Insanity! Sorry, Susan, for borrowing your tag line! <BR> <BR> Had lunch this weekend with a girlfriend who has a successful business, is a great person, has guys galore asking her out on dates, and who is a valued member of her sport's team. And she spent the entire lunch telling me what a failure she felt like because she had regained 30 pounds that she had lost (on a super restricted diet) last year! <BR> <BR> You know what? Millions of years of evolution tell us to stuff our faces. They tell us t... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 11:20:42 EST In the 260's--And I now fit in the seats at the Opera! I'm serious, I'm 4 pounds down since last week and I certainly have NOT eaten at a 14,000 calorie deficit for the week (actually, that would be me eating NO food all week). I'm no sure why this happened, could be fluid, could be finally releasing stuff I've been holding all summer (because I had only lost 4 pounds in the preceding SIX weeks). <BR> <BR> I really had started to feel like the 260's was not going to happen. So, despite the fact that I know that numbers are just one measure of su... Thu, 16 Sep 2010 09:34:33 EST What Losing 75 Lbs has Taught Me I have removed 75 pounds since January 8th. I tried to pick up a 75 pound bag of sand this weekend and could barely manage it. My poor knees, ankles, and feet! <BR> <BR> The first thing I learned: <BR> I CAN do this. <BR> <BR> Losing weight is no great mystery. Eat mostly healthy foods in healthy portions (and 'healthy' is not a stand-in word for huge) and, when I eat empty calories, eat them in very small portions and not very often. Be a little active. For me, that started with walking 5... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 09:42:23 EST Haagen-Dazs Won--Karen One I've really been struggling the last month. I've felt unmotivated to exercise (or, more than I usually do) and a whole lot of cravings that hadn't bothered me since January were back. Nothing snacky was safe in the house. <BR> <BR> No wonder my scale hasn't moved in a month. <BR> <BR> A super busy work schedule means a lot less time to spend on Spark and, because I'm not eating as well as I would like to or exercising to my weekly suggestion, I don't feel good when I enter my food/exercise... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 17:47:52 EST I Think I'm Skinnier than I am--pictures to prove it! So--my husband took this shot a couple of days ago: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think I look cute (and I haven't been able to wear this outfit for four years!) but I am doing the artful angles to minimize size. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This gives a better picture of my real size. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Miss Kitt... Fri, 27 Aug 2010 07:32:49 EST Weight Loss Slow Down is Okay I was reviewing my numbers and I see that I have slowed down quite a bit, when it comes to the pounds coming off. <BR> <BR> I dropped about 12 pounds a month for the first three months on Spark. Now I'm dropping 5-6 pounds per month. Miraculously, I'm now okay with that. I even had one month where I only dropped 4 pounds and I didn't feel like abandoning all my new habits and because of the old tape of, "What's the point?" <BR> <BR> It looks like, at this rate, it will take me another 2 ye... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 13:46:33 EST Cat Vaccuming and Oatmeal--ONE of these things is a good idea! Miss Kitty shortly after I tried to vacuum her--do you get the feeling she wishes she was the size of a tiger? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> A friend of mine noticed that a) Miss Kitty was shedding a lot in the heat and that b) she didn't stir when I vacuumed. So he mentioned that he used to have a cat that liked to be groomed with a vacuum and I should try it on Miss Kitty. It seemed like a good idea... <BR> <BR> It was not. And I ... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 11:09:14 EST My A** changed shape--with ergonomic consequences For the last 3-4 weeks, I've had a sore posterior after about an hour of sitting at my desk. It's been good in one way, because I get up and do a few leg raises and some wall push ups to get the blood flowing. <BR> <BR> And then I had a brainwave. A couple of years ago I had been bothered by my office chair cutting off my thighs, so I tilted the seat downwards. But now I've lost a fair bit off my hips and especially around the ummm, extra fatty bit, so I fill in my chair seat differently. ... Wed, 4 Aug 2010 14:26:59 EST Is Everybody Beautiful? (Re: Spark Article) Short answer--No. And I'm not talking about outside appearance, I'm talking about the internal self. <BR> <BR> Long answer follows. <BR> <BR> Physical beauty is part genetic gift from our ancestors, part self-care, and part social construct (interestingly, the single cross-cultural, cross-sex universal determinant of beauty is bilateral symmetry--which is a good indicator of healthy genes). Cultures where calories are hard to come by and the majority work with their bodies tend to beautify... Tue, 3 Aug 2010 12:37:35 EST Down 70 pounds Today marks exactly 29 weeks of Sparking. <BR> <BR> And it marks 70 pounds gone. <BR> <BR> Week 1 hips were 65 inches. Week 29 hips are 56.75 inches <BR> <BR> Week 1 upper arm was 23 inches. Week 29 upper arm is 18 inches <BR> <BR> Week 1 upper thigh was 37 inches. Week 29 upper thigh is 30.75 inches. <BR> <BR> Week 1 waist was 42 inches. Week 29 waist is 39 inches. <BR> <BR> Non-tangible "Measurements" include: <BR> <BR> Overtaking a 'normal' guy in his 20's (took me 3 blocks, but I ... Thu, 29 Jul 2010 12:47:50 EST Into the 270's--and Pasta Portioning Last night: <BR> Me: "Honey, how would you feel about cooking up some of that whole wheat pasta I bought?" <BR> In our house, D is the main evening cook. <BR> <BR> Him: "Sure, I love pasta--I've been missing it!" <BR> <BR> Me: "So, one portion is 50 grams of the dry pasta--here is what my portion looks like." as I hand over about 12 long sticks of fettucine. <BR> <BR> Him: "What?!? That's a portion--it's not even worth it!" <BR> <BR> Me: "Umm, honey--new healthy diet, remember? If the pla... Tue, 27 Jul 2010 10:51:26 EST Tim Bits Bad--Nutrition Tracker Good... I'm a good Canadian--I looooove Tim Bits (they are the donut holes, for those who live without the Double/Double, eh?). <BR> <BR> I was leafing through the paper yesterday and read a little article about the mighty TimBit--50 to 120 calories, depending on the variety. These things are tiny, the size of a round quarter and I used to buy then in the 20 pack size, then work my way through the box as I sat at my desk. <BR> <BR> AND I felt virtuous, because they were "tiny, so they couldn't be ... Thu, 22 Jul 2010 07:35:40 EST Pictures--Then & Now I don't have pictures from the start of Spark, because, well--why would I want any record of how I looked was my thought then. But after some time on Spark, and being really inspired by other people's photographs of the then/now variety, I started taking pictures every 10-15 pounds. <BR> <BR> This is what I looked like from the front: <BR> FEBRUARY & 330 LBS <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> JULY 13 & 282 LBS <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak... Thu, 15 Jul 2010 11:15:17 EST Changes are Working--I can cross my legs! I was having some problems with motivation, eating, and exercising during June. <BR> <BR> With some help from Spark friends, I realized that a big part of the problem was that summer had disrupted my routine. People gave me a lot of great suggestions and I'm using many of them. <BR> <BR> Cook the hot food in the morning and then microwave it later. Yup! That really helps keep the temperature down. <BR> <BR> Eat a bigger meal at lunch and a smaller one at night. This is brilliant. It fuels... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 11:41:39 EST Fat: Part Two (My previous blog and this one came from the discussion I had with my husband after we watched X-Weighted last night.) <BR> <BR> Why am I losing weight? <BR> <BR> In my twenties, I did it because I thought had to be thin to be worthy. Worthy of what? A spouse, a good job, a good life, self-respect... In the end, I achieved all those goals while still fat. <BR> <BR> In my thirties, I was starting to think that long-term health was a concern. But I honestly didn't care enough to do more tha... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 11:03:42 EST Fat--the Ultimate Crime Watching last night's episode of X-Weighted (which I enjoy because it is a much more realistic and positive show than Biggest Loser), I was dismayed by the self-loathing the mother felt toward herself because she was fat. At one point, she was shown hitting a bag and yelling, "I'm fat. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm stupid. It's not my fault." <BR> <BR> Yes. She was fat. Just like I'm fat--in fact, she started out a 100 lbs lighter than my heaviest point. <BR> <BR> No. She wasn't ugly. She had att... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 10:25:30 EST