OSULAWGIRL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OSULAWGIRL OSULAWGIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My nightmare is real. My son thinks I'm fat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6314006 Say what you want about six year olds, they are unabashedly HONEST. <BR> <BR> My youngest son loves Dinosaurs, Pokémon, Cheese and his Mommy. He is snuggly, and bright and funny, and we like to play games before bedtime. In one such game, which we have dubbed "Mommy Puppet," my son likes to make my lips move and make me say things he thinks are funny. (Typically, this involves him making it look like I am making fart noises, or saying the word "fart." He's a six year-old boy, so bodily f... Fri, 10 Feb 2017 14:39:55 EST 40 pounds. 40 weeks. 40th Birthday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256957 In exactly 40 weeks, I turn 40 years old, and I am officially the heaviest I have been since meeting my husband (not counting pregnancies). While I have the most loving, supportive husband in the world, who swears he doesn't notice the weight gain, I just don't feel like myself. It's time to reign it in, get control of my bad habits, and get back on track. <BR> <BR> I'm not making excuses for the weight gain. It just hasn't been a priority for me. I made a lot of poor choices over a long... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 13:53:12 EST You run slow? YOU ARE AWESOME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935079 Yesterday, I stumbled upon an article in the NYTimes about traditionally fast marathoners decrying the so-called "plodders" who have taken up running, and for whom it takes more than 5 and a half hours to finish a marathon. They complain that these "overweight, bucket-list wannabes" are ruining their sport. <BR> <BR> For a few minutes after reading this article, I felt pretty darn bad about myself. I finished my first marathon in January, and it took me 7 hours. I had food poisoning and h... Wed, 27 May 2015 10:29:48 EST Should I or Shouldn't I? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906413 I am traveling to Walt Disney World next January to participate in the WDW Marathon Weekend. My little brother and I ran the marathon this past January, (our first marathon!) and he is determined to do the "Dopey Challenge" next year. That's 4 races, 4 days in a row. 5K, 10K, half and full marathon. He'd like me to do it with him, but I keep waffling. <BR> <BR> No matter what, I am going down with my husband, parents, best friend and my 2 little boys to have fun, cheer on my brother, and... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 12:13:22 EST It's official! I'm a size 12! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886253 I love being a size 12. I know I'm still well above my "healthy" BMI range, but I don't care. I love my curves, and when I'm in a 12, I feel pretty fantastic. <BR> <BR> I've been fretting lately a lot about the scale not moving down for me. I've lost a few pounds, but not nearly what I would have liked to lose by now. I've always been a slow loser, but it feels agonizingly slow this time around. And it's been messing with my head. <BR> <BR> For example, last week, I ran a 5K in 35 min... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 12:45:01 EST How NOT to think of Elephants. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867971 A fellow blogger today wrote something profound, and it has helped me better understand a struggle I've been having. <BR> <BR> Anniesadventure wrote: "Find the positive in our goals. Find the feel-good part of the goal and think about it often. Try to state our goals in a positive way. Make each goal a "do" instead of "thou shalt not." <BR> <BR> I would like to second this sentiment. <BR> <BR> I think the hardest part of changing any behavior is getting out of your own head. I've heard... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 14:32:35 EST GEEZ, Running faster is HARD. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865186 I am a s-l-o-w runner. Runner is really a little generous...I am a slow "shuffler." But I had made peace with it. (12:30-13 minutes per mile is average for me, and on really long runs, I get even slower...14 or 15 minutes for anything over a half-marathon distance.) <BR> <BR> I have never tried to run fast, and I choose races that are forgiving and allow me to shuffle along and be a happy little tortoise. My goal has always been to increase distance - and I got really good at it! In f... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 11:22:14 EST The MIRACLE of Toe-socks. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860964 I am a runner. Since the beginning of my running adventures, I had resigned myself to the fact that I would forever have to put up with weird, pointy callouses on the fourth toes of both my feet. See, those little piggies like to creep underneath my third toes and play hidey-hole. On a short, dry run, this is no big thing. I've gotten used to it, really, as has my poor long-suffering pedicurist. However, I complain enough about my FOURTH TOE (!) so often, that my sister has actually nick... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 11:45:11 EST I must have lost my mind. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860177 Two weeks ago I ran the Disney marathon. I never thought, in my previous 37 years on earth, that I would do something so stupid. I didn't think I would do it until the day I decided to do it. That day was my baby brother's 30th birthday. Here's a picture of us the day before the race: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1011289140.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My brother and I, while being 7 years apart, have always been close. And COMPETETIVE. When I started running, he started... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 10:25:16 EST I can't believe I DID IT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855721 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1279694632.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That is ME! And I just finished a MARATHON! I do NOT look like a person who runs marathons. I look like what I am - a mother of 2 who likes food and wine. But through running, I have learned that I am stronger than I thought I was. I cannot believe I did it! <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> About 5 years ago, I had this brilliant idea to start running. This, despite the fact that I HATED running. Honestly,... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:07:05 EST Where did THAT come from?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712141 I turn 37 in a few months. Birthdays don't usually bother me - I actually enjoy indulging in a little selfishness. But this year feels different. Because I have very recently noticed something about my body. It is AGING. <BR> <BR> Yes, I realize I've been aging this whole time, but don't you think there are certain times when your body lurches forward a little? Just to scare the crap out of you? Like, about 2 years ago when I found my first gray hair, and then 3 days later I found a ... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 13:35:22 EST In nine days I will do the hardest thing I've ever done. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335193 This Indianapolis 500 Festival Mini-Marathon is in 9 days, and I am signed up to run it. For the uninitiated, it's a half-marathon - 13.1 miles. I have never run 13.1 miles in my life. I have run 11.5 miles in a training run and I didn't die (so that's a good sign, right?) but I'm still anxious. <BR> <BR> I have been training for this race for 6 months. 6 months ago I couldn't run 1.5 miles. Now I can run 11.5. I have amazed myself already. Even if I can't finish the race, even if I h... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 10:59:35 EST Runners are weirdos. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231943 I left a comment on a community page today entitled "What keeps you motivated to run?" Then, during my run today, I decided I had a lot more to say on the subject. <BR> <BR> See, a year ago, I would have BLOWN right past that comment page. I was a NON-runner. I did not run, and I did not understand people who did run. Weirdos. <BR> <BR> A year ago, I thought running was about the best way to torture someone. I would see the occasional psychotic out in 20 degree weather in the snow in he... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 15:41:48 EST WORST. DAY. EVER. and it's only noon...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228671 I am having the WORST DAY EVER. <BR> First, I am on a cleanse to fit into a stupid dress this Saturday, and it's making me cranky. <BR> Second, my 2-year old has decided that the best way to spend his mornings is to stand in the middle of the kitchen and scream. <BR> Third, I had a big fight with my husband this morning, because apparently it's MY fault the 2-year old won't stop screaming, and I'm a lazy worthless piece of crap, and he does everything. <BR> And after my REALLY fun morning, I ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 11:46:52 EST I bought the dress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185839 I'm going to a formal fancy-dress party in 30 days. On New Years' Eve, I treated myself to a little shopping, knowing that the cocktail dresses would be on sale, and I found one that ROCKS. It's strapless, tight, short and gorgeous. I love it - it shows off all my good parts (curves!) and all my flaws (too many curves!). <BR> <BR> Even if I don't lose any weight before the party, I still feel pretty fantastic in the dress. It fits (if a little snugly) and I can wear it with confidence no... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 10:39:28 EST Third time's a charm, right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5146916 So, about 8 years ago, I lost 50 pounds on WeightWatchers and got to my goal weight of 135. I got pregnant, and put back on all 50 pounds with my first little boy. Then I joined Sparkpeople and lost 50 pounds again. Then I got pregnant again with my second little boy and gained it all back. 2 years after my second baby, I was back up to almost my highest weight. I had to start over...AGAIN! <BR> <BR> The first 2 times I lost weight, I have very distinct memories of several things...th... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 10:10:12 EST ACK! I have to wear a formal dress in 79 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5136540 FANCY! I get to go to a fancy dress party! I get to dress up in a gorgeous dress, put my hair up, and put on my sparkliest bling. This is exciting! But I am scared to death! <BR> <BR> Basically, I have 11 weeks to feel more comfortable in my skin. I realize, with 40 pounds to lose to get to my goal, that I don't have enough time to lose it all. I'm optimistic, but I'm not crazy. <BR> <BR> But I think I do have time to get to a point in my weight loss where I can wear a smaller size dr... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 16:11:35 EST I can't believe I am doing this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5134301 I signed up today to run a half-marathon. I joined the "13.1 - because I'm only half crazy" team, I have a training schedule, and a buddy. Now all that's left to do...is run. <BR> <BR> I actually feel really fantastic about it. I have done the C25K plan, and I can "run" a 5k in under 40 minutes. (Yay me!) I know for most people that seems really slow, but for ME, it's AWESOME! :) I was so proud when I did that! I found myself looking FORWARD to running. SO WEIRD. When I was in high... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 17:27:12 EST Open letter to my children: I am not a short-order cook! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5132704 Hello My Darlings, <BR> This is your Mother - the woman who loves you, who carried you for 9 months each, gained 35 pounds during each pregnancy and went through 28 hours and 26 hours of labor with you, respectively. While I love you unconditionally, and will always do my best to make you happy, I cannot continue to play "Mommy's Deli" every evening. <BR> <BR> Mommy works full time. Mommy has to do your laundry and help you with homework. Mommy has to fit in a workout and eat healthy food... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 12:15:10 EST Assignment: Time Wasting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013267 SparkCoach challenged us to write about how we tend to waste time, and how we could better use that time. <BR> <BR> I do spend time at night drinking wine, sitting on the couch with my husband and watching television while playing "words with friends" and checking email and facebook. But during the day, I really don't waste much time. I'm a full-time attorney from 8-5, then I'm Mommy from 5-9. I run around multitasking - playing with my kids, doing laundry, cooking dinner, cleaning up th... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:46:57 EST Do you have any idea how much FOOD you can eat if you don't drink WINE?!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921375 Okay, I really like wine...(see previous posts)...so I tend to underestimate how much I Really drink. A couple weeks ago I started actually measuring it out. 5 oz glass...write it down....5 oz glass...write it down...boy, do those empty calories add up fast. So, I started limiting drinking to 2 nights a week...and... <BR> <BR> I cannot BELIEVE how much I get to eat!!!! Look at all this food: <BR> <BR> Breakfast - YOGURT PARFAIT AND COFFEE <BR> Regular Coffee, <BR> Ancient Grains Granol... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 10:10:14 EST Me? A runner? HA! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887410 I'd like to run a half-marathon. I never thought I would utter those words. <BR> <BR> Ever since I can remember, I have HATED running. <BR> <BR> I was the girl in gym class who could only run for 30 seconds before giving up with her face bright red. Remember? You were worried for her - she looked like she might keel over. (My nickname is 'the deranged tomato') I walked the entire mile for the Presidential Fitness Test and came in dead last, after everyone else had already finished their... Fri, 18 May 2012 14:39:11 EST Stop avoiding the gym...check. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4736515 I have a complicated relationship with the gym. <BR> <BR> It's a nice place, because my husband children aren't there to interrupt my workout. I can put on my headphones, tune out the world and focus on me. I can really think on a treadmill or elliptical at the gym. It's also nice because my gym is only 1 mile from my house. It's a really nice gym, too, with a pool and a sauna, fancy mahogany wood lockers, good classes, full set of strength training machines and weights and plenty of c... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 10:22:07 EST Two days, no wine. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4730490 So far, so good. The last two days I have successfully avoided imbibing ANY empty wine calories, even though my husband sat on the couch next to me drinking his pungent IPA last night. <BR> <BR> What I find is that it's not that hard not to drink. Far less hard than I thought it would be. I guess I'm relieved at that. It's just a matter of remembering why I made the commitment. And now that I've done it, I have even more reasons to continue cutting back. <BR> <BR> First, I have been a ... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 11:17:11 EST Alright, it's time for that "come to Jesus" moment. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726919 I have been lying to myself and all of you. I know it. God knows it. The SCALE knows it. <BR> <BR> Here is the honest truth. I LOVE WINE. And I lie about my consumption constantly. <BR> <BR> I have been back on track for the last 6 weeks, and I am super-proud of myself for making great choices about food and getting back to being very active. These are all good things, and I feel stronger and better because of them. But the scale has been hesitant to show any progress for me. <BR> ... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 11:04:55 EST I have a plan. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4711818 I feel really good today. I spent a lot of time yesterday clearing out the crisper in my fridge and using all the fresh veggies to make meals to bring to work with me this week. I made the SP Crustless Quiche recipe (AWESOME, by the way), and vegetarian taco soup and a crock-pot bulghur and veggie casserole (YUM). And here's what surprised me - I had a REALLY GOOD TIME doing all of that, and I'm really looking forward to eating all that yummy food that's great for me! It was fun cutting u... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 09:32:26 EST Little Choices, 50 pounds. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700902 I have been reading a book this week - "Eat Your Way to Happiness" by Elizabeth Sommer. Yesterday I read a line that really spoke to me - it's roughly, "Every time you put something in your mouth, you are making a choice about whether or not to care for yourself." I wish I could have that tattooed on my right hand. <BR> <BR> Like most people who are struggling with weight, I don't always make good choices. After making a series of decidedly BAD choices, I usually decide to just stop payin... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 11:04:02 EST Just Breathe, right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4693625 I apologize in advance for the tone of this blog entry. I typically am a very positive person, but right now I am completely frustrated. I have been down this road so many times now, and it gets harder every time. And the repetition of failure has engnedered a very snarky mean-girl voice in my head who knows I can't do anything, and we'll be right back here in JAnuary of next year in exactly the same place. <BR> <BR> Here's the thing, I absolutely know how to do this. I know exactly what... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 14:52:32 EST Vegas, baby! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3900009 Several years ago when I first met my goal, my husband took me to Las Vegas to celebrate my 30th birthday. I remember it being one of the best vacations of my life, even though I don't gamble at all! I felt good about myself and in control of my eating, so even wearing a swimsuit at the pool wasn't stressful. <BR> <BR> Now, I am well over my goal weight again. Part of this is due to a recent pregnancy - I have a beautiful 2 month-old baby boy. However, even before I got pregnant I had sl... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 11:03:36 EST COSTA RICA http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1601416 I leave with my husband on a trip to Costa Rica on February 18th. I would really like to be in great shape by then, and able to hike volcanoes and zipline through the rainforest without feeling too self-conscious. I know that only the monkeys will see my big butt hanging out on the zip-line, but I'd really rather be thinking about the beauty of the surroundings rather than my protruding posterior. <BR> <BR> I also would like to feel really confident on the beach. I know I only have 9 wee... Mon, 8 Dec 2008 12:55:54 EST BALANCE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1398733 I just had an epiphany. I am no longer jealous of very skinny people. This is because I finally met one and had a chance to watch her habits closely - what she eats, and how she tortures herself. She is so unhealthy, and so unhappy, and I certainly do NOT want to do that to myself. I have heard of famous actresses (Victoria Beckham, etc.) that have very restrictive diets and very strict exercise regimens. It always sounded hard to me, but I thought they must be so healthy and happy it wo... Wed, 13 Aug 2008 11:32:57 EST 4.3 miles! I ran 4.3 miles! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1354004 Let me begin like this- I am NOT a runner. I have NEVER been a runner. I used to dream of being one of those thin girls running around the park with her big dog in tow, looking like the act of running several miles at a time was nearly effortless, and entirely enjoyable. But when I would run, I looked and felt MISERABLE. <BR> <BR> To my credit, I have never given up on my dream. I've taken year-long breaks where I don't even own running shoes. But I always go out and buy new ones eventu... Wed, 23 Jul 2008 12:16:01 EST Wine...my sweet seductress and sabotuer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1204941 Okay. I reviewed my nutrition tracker, and I have found a culprit. Something I have nearly every day that is FULL of empty calories. Pinot. <BR> <BR> To me, there is no better way to reward myself than sitting down after my son goes to bed and having a nice glass of wine (or two). Plus, I have had to watch "Ratatouille" every day for the last 3 weeks, and wine plays a heavy role in that kids' movie. It puts the wine on my mind. I sit there watching these cartoon characters imbibing, an... Tue, 13 May 2008 10:25:08 EST Basal Metabolic Rate - who knew? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1157078 Today I read a message board post that talked about Basal Metabolic Rate. (BMR) This is the best thing I could have read today. I have been STRUGGLING to find my happy place - eating enough so I don't starve my body, and still losing weight. I know all about BMI, but that just tells you where you are, not how to get where you want to be! so today I calculated my BMR, and figured out how I should really be eating and WHY! <BR> <BR> BMR for my height and weight - 1465 <BR> Goal for calories... Mon, 21 Apr 2008 12:15:43 EST