ONTHEPATH2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ONTHEPATH2 ONTHEPATH2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ This is a test..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917042 I am going on vacation. I am stressed. The before vacation stuff, work, home, commitments..... is pushing me towards the edge. How to get it ALL done before I go? I still have to pack, figure out what I am bringing (summer things for warm weather which are still packed away from winter), take the dog to the kennel, water the plants, all that stuff you do..... and finish my day at work.... Can you feel it? All that weight, frantic, hectic energy..... EEEEEEEKS! <BR> <BR> So..... I decid... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 14:56:09 EST Hungry, hungry, hungry! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916374 Ever have one of those days where you wake up hungry? Well I am having one. I ate normally yesterday, had a balanced, good dinner - I shouldn't be hungry - but when the alarm went off, my stomach was rumbling! I got ready for work, ate my breakfast - but am still hungry. It was as if I never ate! So, my rumbling stomach has me obsessing over food! I tried a light snack and had a handful of almonds - but now I am hungrier! <BR> <BR> I need to get busy and let it go of this thought or I ... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 11:23:37 EST And I'm a rock star! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913968 A month ago I signed up to participate in the Gazelle Girl Half Marathon and 5k. Our office is one of the sponsors of this event. I must admit I felt like I SHOULD participate. I wasn't sure I wanted to. When it came time to order our shirts - one of the younger, skinny girls in the office said she was ordering a size XL because the shirts ran small. YIKES! She is half my size. Luckily they offered plus sizing, so I went with the 2x. I was embarrassed. Everyone was getting small and ... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 13:58:53 EST Who? Me? Really? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907748 I just synced my fitbit with my virtual walk. Little did I know but...... <BR> <BR> I WALKED A HALF MARATHON on the PCT Monday. Yep, me! 13.6 miles worth of steps for the day... which for me was over 30,000 steps! <BR> <BR> I don't think I have EVER walked that many steps in a day since I have had the fitbit. <BR> <BR> I walked on the treadmill in the morning before work, outdoors on my lunch hour and took the dog for a really long walk after work. <BR> <BR> How cool is that? All th... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 13:39:18 EST Easter, the good and a little dirt... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907212 So yesterday I blogged about my virtual walk and Easter on the PCT. That was fun. Today, I am blogging about the real deal. <BR> <BR> I remember Easter as a kid... church, Easter outfit, Easter baskets, Easter dinner..... lot's of memories. This year I decided to do Easter a bit different. I told my family that the correct attire for Easter dinner was comfortable clothes that they could get dirty and to bring a pair of walking shoes. Hmmmm. I could hear the little thought bubbles over ... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 17:02:14 EST Easter on the Pacific Crest trail! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906403 This week I have completed 234.5 miles of the Pacific Crest Trail! I am now almost halfway through stage 8 (I-10 to Highway 18/Big Bear City). That is 8.7% complete in 31 days! Only 2,455 more miles to go! <BR> <BR> Day 24 hiking along..... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l642904774.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> There was this swarm of lady bugs! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l869439291.jpg"> <BR> <BR> camp for the night <BR> <BR> <img s... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 12:03:32 EST The other side..... and a NSV! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904192 After a full day at work, I decided to stop on the way home to get groceries for Easter dinner. I started pushing the cart towards the back of the store, only to see all the Easter candy in the center aisle. I went over by the candy and wanted to put my favorites in the cart. For a brief moment, I thought of my dear friend in the nursing facility. She won't be home for Easter. I started putting the grandkids favorites in the cart for their Easter baskets. Ohhhh, peanut butter eggs, whop... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 11:37:34 EST I hit my goal weight & change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903623 April fools. In fact, down right lie. <BR> <BR> When I started on this journey I thought by now I would be at my goal weight. I'm not. Not even close! <BR> <BR> However, after months of eye opening learning: <BR> <BR> 1. Tracking every morsel of my food eaten and seeing how out of balance my diet is. <BR> 2. Watching the ugly reality of the effects of morbid obesity on a dear friend. <BR> 3. Realizing that there is far more to this journey than calories in/calories out. <BR> 4. ... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 14:23:08 EST This week on the Pacific Crest Trail... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900628 I have been doing a virtual hike of the Pacific Crest Trail. As of Wednesday, I have completed 5.5% of the trail - or 148.1 miles. I seemed to have picked up the pace this week with my average being about 8 miles a day. <BR> <BR> On day 15, I completed Stage 4 and started Stage 5. This stretch has been beautiful. There were these colorful poppies. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l900213050.jpg"> <BR> and then we ran across these horseback riders - now that... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 11:40:37 EST Because I can...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899416 I entered the Gazelle Girl Half Marathon and 5K. It was an impulse decision. I work with a bunch of runners, they were all talking about it and I said, "Sure, I'll do it". <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1696395924.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now I am not being mean to myself, I am being realistic. I do not run like a gazelle. I am short. I have short legs. I am obese, not lean. I have a knee replacement. When I run, the animal that comes to mind is a dairy cow - a... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 11:51:05 EST The window, investments, retirement and fear.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898236 I have a friend who is quite healthy. He eats right, works out on a regular basis, and carries his weight within normal range. One of the phrases he constantly uses about his healthy lifestyle is that he is saving for his retirement. He says it would be a shame to retire, have money in his retirement plan, but not have taken the steps he could to maintain his health to enjoy it. Sometimes I really don't like him - because he has common sense and conviction - and I wish I had that! <BR> <... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 14:48:32 EST 100 Miles!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896461 Well, this is day 14 of my virtual hike. I wasn't going to blog about it today but as I was reviewing my walk I noticed that I accomplished a milestone.... My first 100 miles on the trail!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l505683148.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The hikers found this strange manmade hole in the wall..... not sure what it was for <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l234339801.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There have been many posts of beautiful ... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 11:38:06 EST I wanna be..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895885 Yesterday I wanted to be a skinny girl looking good in a bathing suit. <BR> <BR> Today I want to be a trail angel. <BR> <BR> I am doing a virtual walk of the Pacific Crest Trail. This is my second week on the trail. The site I am using has a visual journal of photos and written notes by hikers along the way. <BR> <BR> Here's what happened this week: <BR> <BR> Day 8 (March 13) I walked 9.6 miles. Not much happening along the trail, pretty quiet and peaceful out here! <BR> <BR> <img sr... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 11:51:27 EST I tried on bathing suits..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895387 I was bummed. I am nowhere near my goal weight like I thought I would be a year ago at this time. I don't have the body I thought I would have but then I realized: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2060130051.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1429093793.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l634985670.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l44636002.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I d... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 16:50:36 EST Virtual never felt so good..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891715 I have synced my fitbit to catch up my virtual hike of the PCT. On day 3 there was this beautiful butterfly along the trail <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1696306964.jpg"> <BR> Day 4 brought views of Lake Morena which is the base for Stage 2! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1722915987.jpg"> <BR> At the camp at stage 2 there was a welcome party going on with grilled burgers1 I bet those hikers were glad to see burgers instead of their free... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 11:47:36 EST I have arrived - leg 3!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889918 On May 1, 2014 I started a virtual walk. I left my home in Grand Rapids Michigan and set out to visit a friend who lives in Phoenix Arizona. I arrived in Phoenix on January 19, 2015. 1,870 miles walked! <BR> <BR> From Phoenix I decided to head to Campo, CA to the trail head of the Pacific Crest Trail. Having read the book Wild, it sounded like a journey I wanted to make. On March 6, I arrived at the trailhead - 361 miles walked from Phoenix which brought my walking total to 2,231 miles!... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 14:15:49 EST Stuff you carry on this journey.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888251 This journey can get rough at times. Sometimes I can visualize myself looking up this huge mountain feeling very small and intimidated. Other times I have to cross over fast moving streams and I stand on the bank looking at the other side, afraid I will lose my footing and be swept downstream, fearful to take that first step. I get paralyzed by the "what if's". <BR> <BR> Sounds silly - to be so afraid of what hasn't even happened - or may never enough to not take that first step? <BR> <... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 16:33:52 EST Embrace your surroundings! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886401 I live in Michigan. It is cold. People are heading south for warm weather getaways. Me, I headed north with a friend. It just seems so much easier to embrace the cold than to complain about it everyday! <BR> <BR> We were planning on hiking in to see some of the frozen waterfalls. Funny how you live somewhere your whole life and just don't take the time to do that stuff! So this was the year. <BR> <BR> We started our weekend staying in Mackinaw City - which is at the tip of the middle f... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 18:01:28 EST the way it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879370 I am tired. I am frustrated. I am cold. I am sick of all this below zero weather. I feel lazy. I have no energy. I need help today. Sooo throwing out this simple prayer: <BR> <BR> Dear God, Please remove my desire to binge eat today. <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 11:55:40 EST the way it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879369 I am tired. I am frustrated. I am cold. I am sick of all this below zero weather. I feel lazy. I have no energy. I need help today. Sooo throwing out this simple prayer: <BR> <BR> Dear God, Please remove my desire to binge eat today. <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 11:55:40 EST Really? dang ads http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878711 I get it that SP probably gets funding for having ads on their site - but really, in two places I have Jets deep dish pizza duos complete with photos popping up? What happened to healthy food ads? <BR> <BR> Please go away. I didn't come here for temptations - there are enough of them in the real world! Thu, 19 Feb 2015 11:08:46 EST Pass the magic fairy dust please... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878251 I fell asleep on the couch last night while watching tv. I transplanted myself to my bed only to discover that my dear son (who has down syndrome) decided to be helpful and made my bed. While doing so, he moved my furniture. I noticed my nightstand was not where it usually is. I went to turn on the alarm and noticed the radio station had been changed - so I changed it back and went to bed. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to morning. I could see the brightness of the sun outside. Wow, I thought t... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 16:33:50 EST Fat Tuesday, paczki and mardi gras beads http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877547 I remember asking my Polish grandma why they called it Fat Tuesday - after all, a day can't be fat! I don't know that I quite understood her answer about the upcoming Lenten season and fasting - and people indulging because they needed to eat enough to carry them through the 40 days of the Lenten season. <BR> <BR> I do remember the paczki. For those who have no idea what I am talking about paczki are a Polish pastry much like jelly filled donuts. Grandma and I walked to the neighborhood ... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 15:53:42 EST Wild ride.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876832 Sometimes life can be a wild ride. Things happen we do not expect. Usually when we least expect them. That is my life right now! <BR> <BR> My son's housemate committed suicide this weekend. It has been a rough couple days. I am praying for him, his family, his housemates and friends and sending warm loving thoughts their way. <BR> <BR> Balance in my life is a bit precarious right now - however, it is nothing like what his family is dealing with. My plans have all changed due to my son... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 14:51:52 EST Barb is back.... thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875107 Jane Doe is gone and Barb is back. It feels good to be me! Yippee! <BR> <BR> I got home, ate supper and I looked at the total steps on the fitbit. I thought about this journey. I really didn't want to do much more than sit on the couch and watch tv. I looked at the clock and decided I was going to hop on the treadmill and walk 60 minutes. 60 minutes. <BR> <BR> When I started that treadmill, 60 minutes sounded like forever. I put on my granddaughter's favorite radio station and starte... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 12:27:34 EST Flip, flop and Jane Doe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874493 Yesterday I was pumped. I woke up and I felt good. I was ready to tackle ANYTHING and I had no doubts I would overcome whatever obstacles were in my way. I think my words were "beaming bright" (on that gray day). <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Flip, flop. <BR> <BR> Today the sun is shining and there are blue skies! WooHoo! I couldn't get my butt out of bed. I hit the snooze three times. <em>102</em> I cut my morning walk short. I don't wanna. Everything feels like mountain climbing. ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 11:40:40 EST The things you leave along the trail.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873273 Now I'm going to date myself - remember watching those western movies of wagon trains heading out west? <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l935103032.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The pioneers packed their wagons with tools, grain, linens, some even brought grandma's fine china - for their new homes out west. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l158635869.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ahhh, but the terrain changed and there were mountains, deserts. Their mules and horses s... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 14:48:08 EST Spring Training, lies, denial and discipline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872613 Today we kicked off our spring training program at work. Those participating got an insulated glass for all that water we will be drinking! We get points for exercise, eating freggies, drinking water and bonus points for trying some new form of exercise for 30 minutes - which gives me yet another reason to stay on my path! <BR> <BR> I am hoping to get the max points each day (8 for water, 6 for freggies and 30 for exercise). This week my plan is to try snowshoeing - which will give me 30 ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 15:27:41 EST ground hog day, the rut, the box..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870739 Ever see that movie Ground Hog Day where every day is the same day, over and over and over? Ever get stuck in a rut or inside the box feeling like everything is always the same and never changes? Ever try to get out? <BR> <BR> Push! Real hard! You CAN get free! There is so much more out there! <BR> <BR> So, just this one time, do something new. Something you haven't done before - or something you haven't done in a long time. Try it! Break the routine, take a different way home from ... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 14:31:16 EST Really? Balanced equations? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869492 I thought all I had to worry about was calories in, calories burned. As long as calories burned were more than those calories in the result would be weight loss. How simple is that? <BR> <BR> Wait - that is an equation. Remember balanced equations in math class or chemistry? UGH! All those variables they'd put in there and maintaining balance? What a challenge! If it didn't balance, it didn't work! <BR> <BR> I know that for this girl balance is an essential part of my journey - and I... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 16:05:42 EST Mountain climbing..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868785 I have never climbed mountain. I did ride up the little train to the top of Pike's Peak though. I got to enjoy that beautiful view from the top without having to do any of the work to get there. I even have photos to say I was at Pike's Peak to prove I was there. <BR> <BR> What I didn't get that those people who got to the top on foot got..... that sense of accomplishment - you know, the kind from putting in the hard work and time - and then getting to reap the reward. Instead I got to... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 15:56:30 EST Divine Intervention http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867832 I was concerned about Sunday with a Board Meeting scheduled in a nearby town for most of the day and a superbowl party following that at a friends in a different nearby town. <BR> <BR> The weather forecast for Sunday included a winter advisory. I usually am not intimidated by those and will drive through most weather, not to mention our local weather people tend to push the panic button. Regardless, I allowed myself an extra half hour travel time. <BR> <BR> When I got up Sunday I could t... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 11:33:14 EST It's coming.... one of THOSE days.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866016 Super Bowl Sunday. <BR> <BR> I have a board meeting to attend that morning at 9am. It is in another town 1.5 hours from home - so I will be getting up early, getting ready and driving - followed by the meeting which will run past the lunch hour and until about 2-3pm. Hopefully we will wrap up early because people will want to get home for the game. <BR> <BR> Top that off with another hour drive to a nearby city to a friend's Super Bowl Party - sitting, watching the game, food - most of w... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 15:39:58 EST Help please??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863707 I don't even want to say this - but I need to. I don't like veggies. <BR> <BR> I grew up in a meat and potato household - meat & potato every night with a side of green beans or corn. We were not big on vegetables. Maybe peas and carrots would work their way in there or cauliflower with cream sauce but that was rare. I can't say any of those veggies blew me away. I'd eat them because I had to, but once I moved out and didn't have to, I didn't - at all. <BR> <BR> My grocery cart rarel... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 11:12:56 EST Put the oxygen mask on yourself first..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863113 If you've been on a plane, you've heard it... put the oxygen mask on yourself first. <BR> <BR> It sounds selfish - until you take a minute to think about it and rationalize it and convince yourself that it is not a selfish act, but a smart one. <BR> <BR> We all have people in our lives who rely on us - our children, our spouses, significant others, elderly parents, friends, co-workers, employers, our pets - the list goes on and on and on, heck, then there are the things - the housework, t... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 16:26:55 EST In the blender....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860961 Whirl, whirl, whirl..... <BR> <BR> Ever feel like you are in the blender? That's me today. My head is spinning. I want a million things. I just want them. One of them is being healthier. Gee that sounds pretty simple - just eat those food groups in proper portions and move a bit each day. How complicated is that? <BR> <BR> Obviously for this girl, it is complicated. Perhaps it isn't complicated. Perhaps I make it complicated. Yep, it's really pretty simple but I am pretty complex... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 11:42:46 EST What worked, what didn't..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858622 Yesterday I fell to the twizzlers in the kitchen at work. I was going to have one - sound familiar - well I did. Then sat and obsessed about another for fifteen minutes, drank another glass of water and had #2. Obsessed about another, drank about half a glass of water and decided to just have 2 more to make a complete serving for tracking purposes - or so my thought process told me. Thing I know - if I have one it will NOT be enough. Moderation is not a word in my vocabulary - unless it ... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 10:31:01 EST MLK Day - I have a dream... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857811 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1597264665.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is one of my favorite Martin Luther King quotes. Thought I would share it with you. <BR> <BR> Those words apply to more than just civil rights. How true, nothing like apathy to suck the life out of something! <BR> <BR> I started thinking about how that happens on my healthy living journey. When I start looking the other way and don't do what is right - which takes me from my goal, erodes my confidence ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 10:43:07 EST Accomplished! Sparkle, sparkle! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857026 Today I have reached level 18 in SP points. Yep, I have been around a while! I can't say I ever had level 18 as a goal - but it feels pretty good to know I have been persistent! <BR> <BR> Today I have reached my destination in my virtual walk. I started out on May 1 from Grand Rapids, MI and headed towards Phoenix to visit a friend. As I logged in my steps from yesterday, I found I had 3 miles to go to reach my friends house. So, I got on that treadmill and knocked out those 3 miles! <B... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 10:43:40 EST I wanted.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856300 Today was weigh in day for the 5% challenge. I really wanted to post a HUGE number for my weight loss. I wanted that weight to magically disappear. <BR> <BR> Reality? I posted a .8 weight loss. Not quite one pound. <BR> <BR> Normally this would have me feeling defeated. I would feel the week was a loss, that I fell short, that I let my team down. <BR> <BR> Reality? I feel strong and am ready to take on week 2. This past week has been a rollercoaster. I have learned some things abo... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 09:43:21 EST Wow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855729 Sometimes I feel like my blogs are a constant never ending whining about my struggles, my poor choices - well not today! <BR> <BR> Did you know that I - as in little ol' me - have an 11 week, 90 minute exercise streak going? Who knew? <BR> <BR> I also have an 11 day streak of drinking at least 8 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> I have a 5 day log in streak (I missed Sunday when I was out exploring beaches). <BR> <BR> I have tracked my food all week. All my food, not just what I felt like... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 11:28:44 EST Can I get your approval???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854387 I was reading some SP blogs and I read one about being hypocritical It sparked some thinking about my struggles the last few days. Yep, I thought I was done thinking about it and had moved on - but I think there was one more lesson in there for me. Funny how those things come up when sparked! <BR> <BR> Note to self: Barb, quit seeking approval! Approval from others or the scale does not make things that are wrong become right. <BR> <BR> After my weekend and Monday of poor choices, the ... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 15:15:24 EST Can I get your approval???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854386 I was reading some SP blogs and I read one about being hypocritical It sparked some thinking about my struggles the last few days. Yep, I thought I was done thinking about it and had moved on - but I think there was one more lesson in there for me. Funny how those things come up when sparked! <BR> <BR> Note to self: Barb, quit seeking approval! Approval from others or the scale does not make things that are wrong become right. <BR> <BR> After my weekend and Monday of poor choices, the ... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 15:15:24 EST The things I do.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853618 Sunday after our hike along the lake we stopped in a little restaurant/bakery that is on a farm. There is an orchard and they grow various fruits. The restaurant serves apple pies, deserts, etc, made from the fruits they grow and offers food from local farms and businesses. After all that hiking on the ice and being out in the cold, I chose the burger. Just a plain burger, no condiments - and I splurged adding a slice of cheese. This was my first food of the day other than a couple bites... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 15:06:27 EST Gasp! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852759 It's no longer a question of "Can I do it?". It's a question of "Do I WANT to do it?" .... Brene Brown <BR> <BR> OK that one knocked the wind out. Another thing I would tack on is "Am I WILLING to do what it takes?" <BR> <BR> I know I can do all the things required to live a healthier lifestyle. I want to. I am not sure I am willing to make the changes required. I have doubts. Big doubts. <BR> <BR> I have started many good things for the wrong reasons. This I learned: if I didn'... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 14:14:56 EST Thief http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850497 Teddy Roosevelt said it "Comparison is the thief of joy". <BR> <BR> Sooooo, just for today I will not compare myself to you. I will not judge my success or failure based upon yours. I will not fall into a spiral of self pity because I don't measure up to you. <BR> <BR> Just for today, I will put forth my best effort. I will be joyful knowing that I did my best. Just for today, I will believe in ME! <BR> <BR> Dang - that is one tough thing for this girl to do!!! Fri, 9 Jan 2015 16:54:26 EST Housecleaning - be real! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849567 I like a clean house - but I don't like housecleaning. I hate spending time doing household chores when I could be doing fun things! However, some things, are necessary - like those household chores. <BR> <BR> I need to clean house on my spark page. I've been putting it off. I'm not very techie - so it is a challenge to me. I need to update the things on my page as may of them are just simply not where I am at or where I want to be! <BR> <BR> I need to clean out my Spark Teams, my Sp... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 14:15:41 EST Housecleaning - be real! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849566 I like a clean house - but I don't like housecleaning. I hate spending time doing household chores when I could be doing fun things! However, some things, are necessary - like those household chores. <BR> <BR> I need to clean house on my spark page. I've been putting it off. I'm not very techie - so it is a challenge to me. I need to update the things on my page as may of them are just simply not where I am at or where I want to be! <BR> <BR> I need to clean out my Spark Teams, my Sp... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 14:15:40 EST Walking Buddy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847868 I always wanted a walking buddy since my friend Linda (who was my walking buddy) became sick. Now Linda was a great walking buddy, but I must admit there were times we could talk each other out of going - it was too hot, too rainy..... yep it was! Well walking friends are hard to come by so <BR> I decided perhaps it was time to get a dog. <BR> <BR> I felt a bit guilty getting a dog because I work full time and the poor guy would be home all day alone - which sounds like the makings of a p... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 17:09:42 EST New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846619 Happy New Year everyone! This is my first SP blog this year! Unlike many of you with resolutions and new goals, I have decided this year to not do that. <BR> <BR> I have heard if you always do what you always did, you will always get what you always got. Well, for me that was broken resolutions and unmet goals. I don't want that again this year. So I am doing something different. <BR> <BR> OK - I DO have goals. My goal - to be healthier. Not a size 4, not 115 lbs, not to run a mar... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 12:02:36 EST