ONTHEPATH2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ONTHEPATH2 ONTHEPATH2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 31: and Mr Scale says... Let's ROCK July! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953992 Well, I dusted off Mr Scale (wouldn't want those dust particles adding to my weight!). I turned him on. I put one foot on, then the other and closed my eyes until I heard that little beeping sound he makes when he has come to a number. The number was 196.4. I got my little chart out and recorded the number. I paused and thought. <BR> <BR> Part of me was upset. The first of the year I weighed 198.2. That's a 1.8 weight loss for 6 months! Hardly stellar. Really Barb? That's about eq... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 14:58:06 EST Reset: Day 30 Naked hiking and goodbye June! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953448 I am tired today. I am struggling with wanting to eat today. I am not hungry. I just want to eat. Everything sounds yummy. Even things I don't really like! Today is testing my willpower! Not to mention I have spent a lot of my day in meetings or at my desk. Not many steps at work. No morning walk before work. No walk on my lunch hour - it's been raining outside. <BR> <BR> Tonight is my friend in the nursing home's birthday. I will be visiting her tonight and spending most of my af... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 16:40:11 EST Reset: Day 27-28 shopping fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952807 Saturday I took my older two granddaughters to an outlet mall which is about a two hour drive from our town. My daughter decided to join us. We had lots of fun going from store to store, For lunch we went to a nearby place which is known for their large portions of food..... as in a one pound of bacon BLT or a one pound hamburger... you get the idea - food overkill. <BR> <BR> I got there and all that bacon looked soooooo good. They also serve breakfast. I thought about an omelet - but ... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 13:43:54 EST Reset day 26: The stability ball, a baseball game and a little boy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951400 WooHoo! Today I won 50 spark goodie points on the bonus spin wheel. I gave myself a stability ball. <em>322</em> <BR> <BR> Yep, a stability ball. Why? Because I don't have one. Because I like the sound of stability on this journey. Because I need to work on my core.... physically AND mentally. Because stability and balance go hand in hand and I have a tendency to get off balance and obsess about things. <em>319</em> <BR> <BR> Geez, now that I think about it. Maybe I will go... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 15:10:39 EST Reset: Days 22 & 23 Maybe I should quit... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950266 I hit a patch of discouragement, but I stuck it out. Luckily it was short lived. Monday my son had a double header softball game scheduled. We had storms move through. The games were cancelled and he was disappointed. This is the second week in a row his games were cancelled due to rain. So to cheer him up, we decided to go shopping for a batting helmet. The team equipment is lacking! While out we stopped and ate at a neighborhood Mexican restaurant. I had this great chicken and rice... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 11:51:35 EST Reset: Days 19, 20, 21 discouraged rockstar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949251 Friday was a busy day. Stayed on track with my food, managed +10,000 steps. Did lots of veggie prep for our picnic on Saturday. <BR> <BR> Saturday was our picnic. I picked up my friend from the nursing home and took her out for the afternoon. It was a bit tricky getting the wheelchair loaded up - but now I am a pro with it! It was good to have her out with us and see her smiling and laughing. <BR> <BR> Our food choices were burgers, brats or hotdogs. I opted for a brat. Worst choice ... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 15:11:29 EST Reset Day 17 & 18: the new norm - sweat & frizz http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947264 Yesterday I didn't blog. I planned on doing it in the evening, but time slipped away from me. Anyhow, it was a pretty good day. I walked at noon and dang, it was humid! I came back with frizzy hair and sweating like crazy! I'm one of those people who sweat... lots. Good thing I had baby wipes and a change of clothes to freshen up. <BR> <BR> After work I quickly ate supper and took Mr Tucker for a walk. It was lightly misting when we left. We got about a mile and a half in and the s... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 14:13:19 EST Reset: Day 16 No, I won't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946171 I managed to squeak in a walk last night with Tucker between rain storms! It was wet, humid and yucky out but we got in about a mile an a half walk. I was happy - and so was he! <BR> <BR> So after work I am planning a walk with the dog and then off to visit my friend in the nursing facility. I sent her a text to let her know I was coming up and asked if there was anything I could bring her. <BR> <BR> Much to my dismay, she said yes - Werther's sugar free caramels, a diet Pepsi and a diet... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 14:56:42 EST Reset: Day 15 Be patient.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5945602 When you change - you just do stuff differently and things change...right? It should be simple. You just do it different! <BR> <BR> Ahhh, but then stuff gets difficult and sometimes you have to do it the old way... but that is wrong, right? <BR> <BR> Are you totally confused? Me too. <BR> <BR> So I decided to quit this whole concept of diet. This whole scale focused thing had to go. I decided I would not step on a scale until day 30. I would just do the next right thing in front of ... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 13:58:14 EST Reset: Day 14 happy birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944908 Well, it's raining again today - steady rain, but not pouring. Yesterday I ended up with 75 minutes on the treadmill - or 5 miles. Unfortunately the rest of my day didn't involve tons of steps. My total for the day was around 16000+ I haven't synced the fitbit yet so I don't have an actual number. Not bad for a rainy day. <BR> <BR> Today we are celebrating my granddaughter's 13th birthday. She picked the meal, cake and ice cream... so it will be chicken enchiladas. I am going to slim ... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 11:23:38 EST Reset: Day 13 the little dog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944410 Today is day 99 on my virtual walk - tomorrow will mark 100 days on the trail! I did manage 10 miles yesterday - it sort of happened as unplanned! I walked on the treadmill after work and then the weather cleared for a bit. More rain was in the forecast for the weekend so I thought I better seize the opportunity and take Tucker for a walk. I thought I'd just do our little trek in the neighborhood but as we were walking, someone's little dog that was out without a leash crossed the street ... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 10:21:27 EST Reset: Day 12 The High Sierras http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943995 Yesterday I met a friend I hadn't seen in a bit for dinner and to catch up. We went to a little Greek diner. I explored the menu. My tummy wasn't quite itself so I didn't want to have anything to exciting - and then I saw they had a 24 hour breakfast selection. I opted for an omelet with spinach, mushrooms and feta cheese. I asked them to use two eggs instead of the three they normally use. I felt ok with my choice and I don't think it put me over on my calories for the day - but then a... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 11:53:10 EST Reset: Day 11 just one more step..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943526 I was tired yesterday. I went to bed too late the night before and was dragging all day. Top that off with a dinner of chicken noodle soup, a piece of baguette, conversation with a dear friend.... I got home and wanted to curl up on the couch and watch some mindless tv. Who am I kidding? Once I turned on the tv, I was going to put my feet up and nap until bedtime! <BR> <BR> I sat on the couch and started going through my mail. The dog sat staring at me, softly whining. I pretended I co... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 14:06:53 EST Reset: Day 10 Yawn..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942981 Last night I walked the dog, got home and snuck up to the hospital to visit my friend. She is feeling much better and is hoping to be released to the nursing facility in the next couple days. They didn't have a bed for her there yesterday. We sat and chatted for too long! It was about 10pm when I left her room, but it was good to see her in good spirits and making plans for future things. <BR> <BR> Her doctor put her on a liquid diet for two meals per day and a third meal of solid food. ... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 14:01:09 EST Reset: Day 9 This IS your life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942444 Ah hah! Light bulb on! Moment of awakening! <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and was having my daily chat with that girl in the mirror. Yesterday she was stuck in the mud and having a hard time. I worked real hard to pull her out, I even called in some reinforcements! I think it worked. I DID get her to move! <BR> <BR> So this morning, I was telling her that she was doing great. She did a great job telling people what she NEEDED to move forward and asking for their help. She did a g... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 16:26:22 EST Reset: Day 8 Stubborn mule stuck in the mud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941859 Somedays are just like this. I am not sure if I lack motivation, am lazy or what. All I know is my feet are stuck in the mud. I have been trashing around with the things I SHOULD be doing only to find myself more stuck in the mud. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/45f1a1b7-f415-420b-9e6c-8222a8e5ba6a.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a little weary - probably from all that thrashing with those things I SHOULD be doing but am not. The silly part is when I get stuck in ... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 15:44:59 EST Reset: Day 7 Adapting and steep slopes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941244 There were not enough hours in the day yesterday to blog, but I did manage to log in and touch base with my spark page. The streak continues, the spark is still glowing! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got up early, got on the treadmill and walked a mile. Then it was off to various stores - groceries, lawn/yard stuff, treat for friend in hospital. <BR> <BR> Got home and changed into my yard work clothes. My daughter and granddaughters came over to help me tackle my little landscaping project in th... Sun, 7 Jun 2015 15:28:11 EST Reset: Day 5 Slippery slopes, national donut day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940215 Who knew? Today is national donut day. <BR> <BR> I got to work only to be greeted by 5 boxes of donuts in our kitchen. Yep 5 boxes each containing a dozen of donuts of various types. Each one was calling my name - well, maybe not those filled ones - but all the other ones were! Hi Barb! Pick me! Pick me!!! <BR> <BR> I quickly walked through the kitchen got to my office and settled in. I glanced over and what did I notice? A photo of me and some friends in Europe about 5 years ago. ... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 11:43:27 EST Reset: Day 4 Oh Boy! and an ugly reality check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939721 I got up this morning and had the most awful cramps. I thought perhaps as my day went on they would go away, but instead I found myself in the bathroom more than at my desk this morning! so much for breakfast - my stomach was saying DO NOT PUT ANYTHING IN HERE! I tried sipping some vitamin water, but it did nothing. By noon time, things started returning to normal. I didn't eat my lunch I brought. or any of my fruits fearing they would cause a return of the yuckiness. Instead I opted fo... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 15:51:42 EST Reset: Day 3 Where I'm at http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939169 I finished updating my virtual walk. Phew, was I behind! Today is day 90 on the Pacific Crest Trail! I am in Stage 18 - out in the desert. As of yesterday I have walked 637.3 miles! I have 2,052.2 more miles to go. By the end of next week I hope to have that number of miles to go under 2,000! <BR> <BR> As you can see the path is a bit hilly and rocky! Not the easiest traveling! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e4151c9b-4a8f-4179-af3d-fb9ecceaa176.jpg"> <BR> ... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 16:59:36 EST Reset: Day 2 and those pesky mean girl voices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938577 So again today I hit the snooze. I thought to myself Barb, you should get up and get on that treadmill, but I stayed in bed. Maybe that is where I needed to be. I am NOT a morning person. Doing things in the morning comes hard for me. I could walk on the treadmill during late night tv, but early in the morning is such a chore! So who says I need to do it in the morning? As long as I do it? So, I stayed in bed. Tinge of guilt, the voices started - "you're screwing up already" "you NE... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 15:59:54 EST It's June!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937946 So it's June. I thought at this point I'd be down about 30 lbs from where I started in January. That didn't happen. <BR> <BR> I've reflected a long time on my journey so far. I was feeling pretty weary. My goals seemed unreachable. I thought about logging off spark people for good. The motivational stories of people's success made me feel like more of a failure.... like I would NEVER have a story. <BR> <BR> Well, it's June. I'm still here! I haven't set some crazy goals for June. I... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 14:49:52 EST Building a campfire, kindling those sparks and igniting the big ol log! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936353 Ever build a campfire? Once those little twigs and starter materials you throw in there burn out you hope there was enough heat to catch those big ol' logs on fire. Sometimes the bark is glowing a bit but they never really catch. Sometimes there is a little pocket of bright burning embers and you fan them hoping they ignite the logs. <BR> <BR> I feel like one of those big ol' logs... just waiting to catch the fire. Ignite Barb, ignite! <BR> <BR> I have been around spark for about 4 yea... Fri, 29 May 2015 15:39:29 EST Updates..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928745 Oh boy - so at the docs Wednesday she told me she didn't want to order any testing at this point - that there are numerous reasons for these types of symptoms. We are starting with a BRAT diet (banana's, rice, applesauce and toast) with water. I can add bland, chicken breast to that - but no heavy seasonings. No fresh fruits, no fresh veggies, no whole grains .... all the stuff I SHOULD eat I can't eat right now. Plain ol' toast and white rice is pretty boring! So far, not seeing the res... Fri, 15 May 2015 16:35:37 EST Long enough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927565 Last night after work, I got home, ate a quick supper, walked 15 minutes on the treadmill, did a little strength training and feel onto the couch absolutely exhausted. <BR> <BR> While on the couch I started checking my facebook feed and saw where a dear friend from high school posted about having some serious medical issues, indicating it had been a month of CT scans, MRI's and other tests - leading to surgery tomorrow morning. It sounded like a serious prognosis. I haven't talked with her... Wed, 13 May 2015 14:03:51 EST Today's challenge..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926929 I feel yucky. I have been feeling yucky for a few days now. My intestines and I are not working together! Without getting into the gross details but to help you know what I am dealing with - I feel pretty good for a while, then I eat something (anything) and about an hour later I am running to the bathroom. Once I am done with that trip or maybe two - I feel ok again. I say ok - but really I feel tired and dragged out. No fever, just rumbling stomach. Flu? Stress? Stomach bug of some... Tue, 12 May 2015 12:01:45 EST Ugh, I am ...... enough AND able...really, I AM!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924314 Did I ever say I am obsessed about numbers? Seems natural that I would be drawn to a career that involved numbers. And then, there are those personal numbers.... weight, size clothing, calories, time it takes to walk a mile, how many miles walked at one time, number of steps on the fitbit.... you get the picture. <BR> <BR> Well, after vacation, I was pleased to see the number on the scale moved in a downward direction... then I returned home and struggled with time management, stress, and ... Thu, 7 May 2015 13:43:52 EST This is when it could unravel....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923174 I got back from vacation Friday night. A week in Florida on Marco Island behind me. I was a bit worried about the week, however, I did AWESOME! <BR> <BR> My friend I went with wanted a place with a workout room when we booked this trip - so we are somewhat on the same page. I must admit, I only visited the workout room three times in the 6 days we were there - mainly on rainy days when I couldn't be outdoors walking. <BR> <BR> I got up early each day and headed down the beach. I walke... Tue, 5 May 2015 16:23:42 EST This is a test..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917042 I am going on vacation. I am stressed. The before vacation stuff, work, home, commitments..... is pushing me towards the edge. How to get it ALL done before I go? I still have to pack, figure out what I am bringing (summer things for warm weather which are still packed away from winter), take the dog to the kennel, water the plants, all that stuff you do..... and finish my day at work.... Can you feel it? All that weight, frantic, hectic energy..... EEEEEEEKS! <BR> <BR> So..... I decid... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 14:56:09 EST Hungry, hungry, hungry! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916374 Ever have one of those days where you wake up hungry? Well I am having one. I ate normally yesterday, had a balanced, good dinner - I shouldn't be hungry - but when the alarm went off, my stomach was rumbling! I got ready for work, ate my breakfast - but am still hungry. It was as if I never ate! So, my rumbling stomach has me obsessing over food! I tried a light snack and had a handful of almonds - but now I am hungrier! <BR> <BR> I need to get busy and let it go of this thought or I ... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 11:23:37 EST And I'm a rock star! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913968 A month ago I signed up to participate in the Gazelle Girl Half Marathon and 5k. Our office is one of the sponsors of this event. I must admit I felt like I SHOULD participate. I wasn't sure I wanted to. When it came time to order our shirts - one of the younger, skinny girls in the office said she was ordering a size XL because the shirts ran small. YIKES! She is half my size. Luckily they offered plus sizing, so I went with the 2x. I was embarrassed. Everyone was getting small and ... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 13:58:53 EST Who? Me? Really? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907748 I just synced my fitbit with my virtual walk. Little did I know but...... <BR> <BR> I WALKED A HALF MARATHON on the PCT Monday. Yep, me! 13.6 miles worth of steps for the day... which for me was over 30,000 steps! <BR> <BR> I don't think I have EVER walked that many steps in a day since I have had the fitbit. <BR> <BR> I walked on the treadmill in the morning before work, outdoors on my lunch hour and took the dog for a really long walk after work. <BR> <BR> How cool is that? All th... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 13:39:18 EST Easter, the good and a little dirt... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907212 So yesterday I blogged about my virtual walk and Easter on the PCT. That was fun. Today, I am blogging about the real deal. <BR> <BR> I remember Easter as a kid... church, Easter outfit, Easter baskets, Easter dinner..... lot's of memories. This year I decided to do Easter a bit different. I told my family that the correct attire for Easter dinner was comfortable clothes that they could get dirty and to bring a pair of walking shoes. Hmmmm. I could hear the little thought bubbles over ... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 17:02:14 EST Easter on the Pacific Crest trail! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906403 This week I have completed 234.5 miles of the Pacific Crest Trail! I am now almost halfway through stage 8 (I-10 to Highway 18/Big Bear City). That is 8.7% complete in 31 days! Only 2,455 more miles to go! <BR> <BR> Day 24 hiking along..... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l642904774.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> There was this swarm of lady bugs! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l869439291.jpg"> <BR> <BR> camp for the night <BR> <BR> <img s... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 12:03:32 EST The other side..... and a NSV! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904192 After a full day at work, I decided to stop on the way home to get groceries for Easter dinner. I started pushing the cart towards the back of the store, only to see all the Easter candy in the center aisle. I went over by the candy and wanted to put my favorites in the cart. For a brief moment, I thought of my dear friend in the nursing facility. She won't be home for Easter. I started putting the grandkids favorites in the cart for their Easter baskets. Ohhhh, peanut butter eggs, whop... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 11:37:34 EST I hit my goal weight & change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903623 April fools. In fact, down right lie. <BR> <BR> When I started on this journey I thought by now I would be at my goal weight. I'm not. Not even close! <BR> <BR> However, after months of eye opening learning: <BR> <BR> 1. Tracking every morsel of my food eaten and seeing how out of balance my diet is. <BR> 2. Watching the ugly reality of the effects of morbid obesity on a dear friend. <BR> 3. Realizing that there is far more to this journey than calories in/calories out. <BR> 4. ... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 14:23:08 EST This week on the Pacific Crest Trail... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900628 I have been doing a virtual hike of the Pacific Crest Trail. As of Wednesday, I have completed 5.5% of the trail - or 148.1 miles. I seemed to have picked up the pace this week with my average being about 8 miles a day. <BR> <BR> On day 15, I completed Stage 4 and started Stage 5. This stretch has been beautiful. There were these colorful poppies. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l900213050.jpg"> <BR> and then we ran across these horseback riders - now that... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 11:40:37 EST Because I can...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899416 I entered the Gazelle Girl Half Marathon and 5K. It was an impulse decision. I work with a bunch of runners, they were all talking about it and I said, "Sure, I'll do it". <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1696395924.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now I am not being mean to myself, I am being realistic. I do not run like a gazelle. I am short. I have short legs. I am obese, not lean. I have a knee replacement. When I run, the animal that comes to mind is a dairy cow - a... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 11:51:05 EST The window, investments, retirement and fear.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898236 I have a friend who is quite healthy. He eats right, works out on a regular basis, and carries his weight within normal range. One of the phrases he constantly uses about his healthy lifestyle is that he is saving for his retirement. He says it would be a shame to retire, have money in his retirement plan, but not have taken the steps he could to maintain his health to enjoy it. Sometimes I really don't like him - because he has common sense and conviction - and I wish I had that! <BR> <... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 14:48:32 EST 100 Miles!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896461 Well, this is day 14 of my virtual hike. I wasn't going to blog about it today but as I was reviewing my walk I noticed that I accomplished a milestone.... My first 100 miles on the trail!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l505683148.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The hikers found this strange manmade hole in the wall..... not sure what it was for <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l234339801.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There have been many posts of beautiful ... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 11:38:06 EST I wanna be..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895885 Yesterday I wanted to be a skinny girl looking good in a bathing suit. <BR> <BR> Today I want to be a trail angel. <BR> <BR> I am doing a virtual walk of the Pacific Crest Trail. This is my second week on the trail. The site I am using has a visual journal of photos and written notes by hikers along the way. <BR> <BR> Here's what happened this week: <BR> <BR> Day 8 (March 13) I walked 9.6 miles. Not much happening along the trail, pretty quiet and peaceful out here! <BR> <BR> <img sr... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 11:51:27 EST I tried on bathing suits..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895387 I was bummed. I am nowhere near my goal weight like I thought I would be a year ago at this time. I don't have the body I thought I would have but then I realized: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2060130051.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1429093793.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l634985670.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l44636002.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I d... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 16:50:36 EST Virtual never felt so good..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891715 I have synced my fitbit to catch up my virtual hike of the PCT. On day 3 there was this beautiful butterfly along the trail <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1696306964.jpg"> <BR> Day 4 brought views of Lake Morena which is the base for Stage 2! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1722915987.jpg"> <BR> At the camp at stage 2 there was a welcome party going on with grilled burgers1 I bet those hikers were glad to see burgers instead of their free... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 11:47:36 EST I have arrived - leg 3!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889918 On May 1, 2014 I started a virtual walk. I left my home in Grand Rapids Michigan and set out to visit a friend who lives in Phoenix Arizona. I arrived in Phoenix on January 19, 2015. 1,870 miles walked! <BR> <BR> From Phoenix I decided to head to Campo, CA to the trail head of the Pacific Crest Trail. Having read the book Wild, it sounded like a journey I wanted to make. On March 6, I arrived at the trailhead - 361 miles walked from Phoenix which brought my walking total to 2,231 miles!... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 14:15:49 EST Stuff you carry on this journey.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888251 This journey can get rough at times. Sometimes I can visualize myself looking up this huge mountain feeling very small and intimidated. Other times I have to cross over fast moving streams and I stand on the bank looking at the other side, afraid I will lose my footing and be swept downstream, fearful to take that first step. I get paralyzed by the "what if's". <BR> <BR> Sounds silly - to be so afraid of what hasn't even happened - or may never enough to not take that first step? <BR> <... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 16:33:52 EST Embrace your surroundings! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886401 I live in Michigan. It is cold. People are heading south for warm weather getaways. Me, I headed north with a friend. It just seems so much easier to embrace the cold than to complain about it everyday! <BR> <BR> We were planning on hiking in to see some of the frozen waterfalls. Funny how you live somewhere your whole life and just don't take the time to do that stuff! So this was the year. <BR> <BR> We started our weekend staying in Mackinaw City - which is at the tip of the middle f... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 18:01:28 EST the way it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879370 I am tired. I am frustrated. I am cold. I am sick of all this below zero weather. I feel lazy. I have no energy. I need help today. Sooo throwing out this simple prayer: <BR> <BR> Dear God, Please remove my desire to binge eat today. <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 11:55:40 EST the way it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879369 I am tired. I am frustrated. I am cold. I am sick of all this below zero weather. I feel lazy. I have no energy. I need help today. Sooo throwing out this simple prayer: <BR> <BR> Dear God, Please remove my desire to binge eat today. <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Feb 2015 11:55:40 EST Really? dang ads http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878711 I get it that SP probably gets funding for having ads on their site - but really, in two places I have Jets deep dish pizza duos complete with photos popping up? What happened to healthy food ads? <BR> <BR> Please go away. I didn't come here for temptations - there are enough of them in the real world! Thu, 19 Feb 2015 11:08:46 EST Pass the magic fairy dust please... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5878251 I fell asleep on the couch last night while watching tv. I transplanted myself to my bed only to discover that my dear son (who has down syndrome) decided to be helpful and made my bed. While doing so, he moved my furniture. I noticed my nightstand was not where it usually is. I went to turn on the alarm and noticed the radio station had been changed - so I changed it back and went to bed. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to morning. I could see the brightness of the sun outside. Wow, I thought t... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 16:33:50 EST