ONTHEPATH2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ONTHEPATH2 ONTHEPATH2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ It was a dark and stormy night..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6427858 Anyone remember reading that in Charles Schultz' Peanuts? We have had more than a week of gray, cold, gloomy, rainy days. I know it's fall and to be expected, but I really don't like it. Poor Mr Tucker has been listlessly lounging on the couch dreamingly looking out the window with sad dog eyes. <BR> <BR> When I got home yesterday the rain was more of a mist than rain. It wasn't quite as cold. I decided to heck with it we were going out for a walk! So I put on the rain jacket and out... Fri, 3 Nov 2017 15:40:23 EST Holy crap! It finally happened! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6427208 Today is November! Since I recommitted on this journey I have been trying to be more mindful of my eating. Not only what I eat - but when I eat and why. I don't always eat because I'm hungry! Sometimes I eat because the clock says it is noon and that is lunch hour and hungry or not - I eat my lunch. Other times it is because there is something tempting in my house - like last night - that bowl of candy for the trick or treaters - yep, two pieces found their way into my mouth. I tried to... Wed, 1 Nov 2017 15:13:14 EST Celebration and more motivation! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6426551 So October was an up and down month - but in the end progress was made. My eating was not spot on. There were times of eating out when I didn't make the best choices and then there was the kids Halloween party at my office, however, I managed not to slide too far off the path and to get right back on track with my next meals. I even had a four day road trip with a friend in which there was a bag of Twizzlers in the car! Eeeks! <BR> <BR> However, I made sure to stay on track with my exerc... Mon, 30 Oct 2017 17:24:57 EST Sometimes you plan and then..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6424301 I went on a road trip last weekend. It was me and a friend driving north to check out the colors a day before we attended a three day conference. Normally I don't do well with road trips. I fall to the car snacks. I make poor choices when eating out. I don't get in my exercise. I wanted this time to be different. <BR> <BR> I packed some apples, almonds and protein bars for the car. I brought some workout clothes to use the hotel workout room. I brought my swim suit to get some laps o... Mon, 23 Oct 2017 16:37:37 EST Where did THAT voice come from? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422733 Last week was the Endless Shrimp slide, but I quickly got back on my feet and back to my plotted course. I found that even after that crazy 5 pound overnight gain, I came down a little over a pound. Yee Ha! It felt sooooo good to see that smaller number on the scale. <BR> <BR> What did I learn. Everything has its price, including cheddar bay biscuits and endless shrimp - and I am not talking the money price - I am talking the REAL cost. Those shrimp and the five pounds they added woke u... Wed, 18 Oct 2017 13:46:54 EST Stop it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6420463 I had a challenging weekend with Pulaski Days and Polish food plates everywhere! However, I held my own. I did have one of the Polish plates for lunch on Friday and another on Sunday. I must say that the first I did not enjoy that much but the second one was awesome. Dang, I miss my Polish grandma's cooking! I have not quite mastered it. <BR> <BR> So my weigh in was on Monday and I was a bit nervous because I ate more calories than normal - twice! However, I also really pushed myself a... Wed, 11 Oct 2017 15:09:02 EST The Big Black Dog and Pulaski Days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6418707 The big, black dog and Pulaski Days - does it get any better? <BR> <BR> Last night I went to one of those have a glass of wine and paint things. This one was called Paint your Pet. This is the first time I have done one of those things. I was a little apprehensive as I have little artistic talent, but my friend convinced me to go. I must say this non-artist was a little stressed at first, but it quickly became fun. <BR> <BR> So here is my big, black dog a/k/a Tucker <BR> <img src="http... Fri, 6 Oct 2017 11:45:32 EST I don't wanna? One less prescription? and Progress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6418422 I have been trying to be better about getting in my exercise. I used to have an exercise buddy and we would go to the Y together. That was the best! However, she had some health issues and can no longer work out at the Y. Having someone waiting for me at the Y to work out helped keep me on track so many times when "I don't wanna". <BR> <BR> Enter my big black dog. He has become my new walking partner. He is a big, clumsy dog - a newfoundland, lab, retriever mix I got at the animal shel... Thu, 5 Oct 2017 15:42:16 EST It was a challenge..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6413964 A daily challenge on one of my spark teams was to blog - so here it is! I really wasn't planning on it, but it has been a while. I'm always up for a challenge. <BR> <BR> What's going on? Well, I got my new fitbit - so I have some new numbers to obsess over! Was surprised to see how much my steps had dropped off from when I last had my fitbit. Starting with the 10,000 per day goal this month. So far so good - except yesterday! <BR> <BR> I got home from work and changed my clothes to hea... Fri, 22 Sep 2017 16:33:09 EST Camping, bridge walk, hiking and getting slightly lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6410863 Well the camping trip has come and gone. It was interesting. I managed 3 nights in the tent! I must admit, my family laughed a bit when I rolled out my little rug to put in my tent! Here I am! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6c2a0e3b-e726-42e4-a8af-f85504a41a44.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The first night it was 40 degrees and I must admit my nose was cold! The second night was better and then there was the third night - when the wind kicked up, the side of the tent slapped me ... Wed, 13 Sep 2017 16:43:32 EST Barb's going camping..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6406186 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/efbd7ce8-46c9-4e48-8add-845275c4394e.png"> <BR> <BR> I am going camping for the holiday weekend. Yikes! I am not a camper. My idea of fun does not involve sleeping outdoors in a tent. However, I am doing it this weekend for three nights! My kids, grandkids and I are headed north. We will be spending Saturday on Mackinaw Island (eee gads - think mackinaw island fudge), Sunday in St. Ignace and Monday walking the Mackinac Bridge. The gran... Thu, 31 Aug 2017 14:58:50 EST Turn that frown..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405843 Upside down? <BR> <BR> Today is my birthday. I walked into the office and the receptionist said Happy Birthday! I said thanks and headed through the kitchen to my office. While walking through the kitchen I noticed there were no birthday treats on the counter. Everyone gets birthday treats! Well, everyone except me. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8d999859-5c14-4562-928c-ff95cdcbf7e5.png"> <BR> <BR> I got to my office and there were three cards waiting to be ope... Wed, 30 Aug 2017 17:18:36 EST On the Road Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6403546 On the road again - and which road to take? <BR> <BR> Tonight is my last night home, tomorrow I hit the road and travel north to the site for our women's retreat. I can't wait! I always feel so uplifted when I leave. However - there are some downsides. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fa373b58-f2f3-4a36-a46b-682904e24842.jpg"> <BR> The challenges: <BR> <BR> My son has his Special Olympics regional softball tournament on Saturday - here in my home town. It is s... Thu, 24 Aug 2017 16:22:30 EST Dream a little dream http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402794 Well, Monday was weigh in day for me. I must say when I stepped on the scale I was thinking - please be kind Mr Scale. I had my share of challenges this week - office party, visiting the fairgrounds with the grandkids, and humidity which made me not want to get out and walk much. I must say, I was mindful through it all. I tried to control my portion sizes, but not to deny myself the things I really wanted. Yep, I ate the caramel sea salt cheese cake at the office party. I was tempted b... Tue, 22 Aug 2017 15:47:11 EST The dreaded office parties...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401388 These events always seem to hold lots of free food which is not necessarily healthy and alcoholic drinks - both of which are FREE. Yikes. Not the safest place for someone who is trying to count calories and stay on track with their nutrition. Not to mention they take up the entire evening - which leave little time for exercise! <BR> <BR> So yesterday was the summer staff office party. It rained during the lunch hour and was incredibly humid out so there was no walk for me. There was no ... Fri, 18 Aug 2017 16:49:57 EST A forlorn big black rescue dog..... and weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400969 A few years back, right before the Christmas holiday, I decided maybe I should get a dog. I started looking at dogs on Petfinder. One day it happened - there was this big black dog. The site said it was a newfoundland/lab/retriever mix. The shelter named him Clyde. They also said on his posting - must inquire within 7 days. I had visions of this poor guy being on death row. <BR> <BR> I went to the shelter to visit the dog. I actually took a day off work to do so. I thought I was going ... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 12:33:26 EST My wild and vivid imagination...and the future http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400627 When I was a small child my elderly next door neighbor, who was an editor for our newspaper, told my mom that I had a wild and vivid imagination. He said that was a great trait for someone who wanted to be a writer. <BR> <BR> My wild and vivid imagination has led me to some interesting places in life! <BR> <BR> Let me share some of the things that float through my mind while on this journey to better health: <BR> <BR> 1. I see myself hiking a section of the North Country Trail - not ju... Wed, 16 Aug 2017 15:54:52 EST Free Food!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400246 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/bcc63cb4-b636-468e-bc51-a295474c33a8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I swear, our office constantly has food for the taking. Yep, free food! Today it was half sandwiches from Panera Bread, bags of chips, pickles, portions of Jimmy John's subs AND Panera cookies! Left over food from various meetings - which goes in the refrigerator usually accompanied by a email that says leftovers in the kitchen free for the taking. Sometimes it is leftover party food, or... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 15:59:34 EST The weekend.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6399757 So what did Barb do this weekend? Well... Saturday it was housework. Yuck. I hate doing housework. I'd so rather be outside! However I got up and started on that laundry and cleaning the bathrooms. I noticed the kitchen floor really looked like it could use a deep cleaning - not just running that Swiffer around the middle of the room! As I made trips from upstairs to downstairs over and over again putting things back in their right places I spied the girts I had purchased for our women... Mon, 14 Aug 2017 11:47:34 EST First five days...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398741 Today is day 5 of my journey to a healthier me. How's it going? <BR> <BR> The first two days were pretty good - healthy meals, a walk with the dog, all my water in, the next three were challenges! I had three road trips to Detroit back to back to back. Two were late afternoon trips to attend night outdoor concerts, the third was to an afternoon baseball game. <BR> <BR> The first challenging day went like this.... I brought my breakfast to work - I usually eat it at my desk. However, the... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 17:00:18 EST Start at the very beginning...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397075 Well, I went to the informative meeting/class regarding the medically supervised weight loss program. Most of the people there are completing the program as a requirement of their insurance company before bariatric surgery. I was surprised to see over 50 people in the room. I was also surprised to see some very young girls (maybe 14-15) with their parents. <BR> <BR> The program sounded great. First you meet with the team of weight loss people - a dietician, an exercise person, a counse... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 12:32:26 EST Always have a plan B, C, D....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395619 Well, I just got off the phone with my health insurance provider. I found out that there is no provision in our plan for bariatric surgery (which I really don't care) or weight loss programs of any type. I have the feeling this is going to make the weight loss program I was going to start financially impossible for me. OK - I shouldn't say financially impossible - but it would make it difficult and cause me to create some credit card debt which I do not want to do. I am going to the meeti... Thu, 3 Aug 2017 15:32:32 EST Ummm.... it's August? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395166 Yep, I read some of those blogs! Yippee! August! New month! Fresh start! New goals! I'm struggling to regain those feelings. <BR> <BR> Instead, I'm scratching my head, shaking it back and forth saying "Really August?" The 8th month of the year? We are over halfway done with this year and I really don't even want to talk about how I'm doing on reaching those goals. The agony of defeat. <BR> <BR> Saturday I meet with the staff and doctor regarding a weight loss program. To be honest,... Wed, 2 Aug 2017 14:43:06 EST Sliding down the mountain......a shining star.... a decision....and more stars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393180 I have not been here for a bit. I'd like to say I was here in spirit - but I wasn't. <BR> <BR> My healthy eating and physical activity ceased. Excuses - I had many. My daughter's house fire, her recent surgeries, stress at work, a two week vacation, it was too hot, it was raining, I didn't wanna. During this time, Mr Scale reflected my lack of participation in forward movement on my path. I not only slipped off the trail, but started that slide down the mountainside. <BR> <BR> So my ... Fri, 28 Jul 2017 16:03:44 EST Sometimes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370637 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/49745aca-2cf5-45b5-bdac-ab19d020b252.jpg"> You get a warning....like when you get off the paved path and into the woods only to get poison ivy......or when you are making the never ending climb to the cheap seats and reality of you physical condition slaps you in the face. Warning heeded! Making better choices! Thank you for the warning signs in life!!! More later.... Sun, 4 Jun 2017 09:20:25 EST my daily five... and da funk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6369471 Today I really don't want to think about a daily five - which means I must really must NEED to think about it. I really would rather not write anything. I actually kind of hate my body right now. <BR> <BR> So here they are: <BR> <BR> 1. I'm grateful for my lungs. I have never seen them - but they manage to filter in the air I need and do all those wonderful things that lungs do. I have been blessed to have healthy lungs even though I did subject them to smoking for a few years of my ... Thu, 1 Jun 2017 11:55:43 EST The daily five and more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6368700 So my daily five are: <BR> <BR> 1. I love my back. I don't think about my back much. I can't really see it unless I have a rearview mirror! However this weekend when stretching and crawling around weeding my garden, I felt some tinges of pain in my back. I hobbled back into the house to take my shower and while enjoying the hot water dropped the shower gel. When I bent over to pick it up I felt this pulling and popping sensation - not good. I could barely move! It was hard to sleep, ... Tue, 30 May 2017 17:33:37 EST The daily five http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6366573 How long does one keep doing a daily five? How creative can one be with coming up with five different things? Is it ok to keep have the same things appear on the list? I'm sure people are sick of reading my daily five...... <BR> <BR> So here's the deal..... how long will I keep doing a daily five? As long as it takes for me to find acceptance of my body right now, not the body I would like to have - but the body I have. How creative can I be? Not very. Is it ok to have the same things... Thu, 25 May 2017 16:47:55 EST Daily 5 and grrrrrr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365705 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a5a0a2ab-f699-4b36-b8e4-d709b28d19b1.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Body to mind "Beyoncé wasn't built in a day." <BR> <BR> Today has been one of THOSE days. The kind where my mind is running all over just being a bully- not to others - to me! I've been working real hard trying to reel it in and give myself positive affirmations. Ugh. <BR> <BR> So here are my daily 5: <BR> <BR> 1. My feet. Reality - my feet haven't been feeling very good. I'm not su... Tue, 23 May 2017 17:12:45 EST Daily five and other stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365265 The five things I love about my body: <BR> <BR> 1. I love my heart - my physical heart because it is beating away in my chest - and my HEART which at times is probably a little too big and gets hurt - but always seems to recover. <BR> <BR> 2. My facial wrinkles - I have those mostly around my eyes and mouth - mainly because I smile a lot! I wouldn't trade a smooth face for those smiles ever! <BR> <BR> 3. My body is strong. Really it is. I know I can't bench press much weight but, i... Mon, 22 May 2017 16:52:12 EST Daily 5 ... taking a different path http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362759 So today I am thankful for these things on my body: <BR> <BR> 1. My nose. Yep, another thing I really can't say I like - its too big, too long, too lots of things - but it functions! It brings me all those yummy smells - and some yucky ones too AND it holds my glasses on my face so I can see! Loving it a little more now! <BR> <BR> 2. My neck. Critical me - its too short, too wide - but it swivels my head from side to side. Can't imagine only being able to see what is directly in fron... Tue, 16 May 2017 16:32:05 EST Daily Five and one of THOSE photos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362305 The Daily Five: <BR> <BR> 1. I am grateful for my smile! I know, my teeth are less than perfect and for years I didn't want to smile. I went to a few different dentists, orthodontists and even oral surgeons to discuss correcting my bite and straightening my teeth - but with no dental insurance, needing surgery on my jaw which wouldn't be covered by my health insurance, the bottom line was more than I was willing to spend! My choppers aren't real pretty - but they get the job done! I hav... Mon, 15 May 2017 14:57:27 EST Death threats...... and my daily 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359825 Let' see - it started with a wellness program on stress management. The company ordered Jimmy John's subs and sandwiches for the lunch. The comments from our healthy bunch - "What an oxymoron - wellness and Jimmy John's". Oh boy. Really? It could be worse! <BR> <BR> Then after lunch it happened. This large white box arrived. It was from "Cops and Donuts". It was heavy. I lifted the lid and there inside were these large cookies - lots of them. Peanut butter, chocolate with frosting,... Tue, 9 May 2017 16:31:59 EST The Daily Five and.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359349 Getting outside the box. This past weekend I pushed myself outside of my normal box. I went to an event where I knew very few people and was outside my comfort zone. Guess what? I had a great time. People were welcoming and I even joined in the bingo game AND won a prize. It's good to get out of that box once in a while! <BR> <BR> Sunday I took my dog for a long walk in the woods by the creek. We were greeted by trillium, blankets of blue wild flowers and a variety of birds including ... Mon, 8 May 2017 14:59:39 EST The Daily Five http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6358033 Starting to reconnect! It looks like I will have my computer back next Tuesday night. Yippee! <BR> <BR> So here are today's five things I love about my body: <BR> <BR> 1. I love my arms! OK, so I tell myself those bat wing things are really awful looking and could use some toning - but really - My arms are great. They lift things, reach things and best of all - wrap up those people I love in warm hugs. I can't imagine not being able to hug. Yep, I love my arms. They bring my joy. <B... Fri, 5 May 2017 11:58:20 EST Disconnected! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6357218 Oh boy. I feel very disconnected. Since my daughter's house fire, I have let her take my laptop - which leaves me with just my phone! It has been hard to spark! I must admit - I prefer to be on my computer than the app on the phone. So reality - I haven't been sparking much. I feel so disconnected from my teammates! <BR> <BR> So what's going on? Well, the weight has basically stayed the same, up and down the same three pounds depending on the day. The diet has improved a little, but ... Wed, 3 May 2017 15:37:21 EST 40 questions..... and answers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6339782 Borrowed from MISSDORKNESS, ONEKIDSMOM, POLSKARENIA, ADAKARA, et. al.: <BR> <BR> Learn 40 things about your friends and let them learn 40 things about you. <BR> <BR> 1. Do you like blue cheese? No, no, no! <BR> <BR> 2. Have you ever smoked cigarettes? Yes, but quit that habit 40 years ago! <BR> <BR> 3. Do you own a gun? No.... does a super soaker count as a gun? <BR> <BR> <BR> 4. What is your favorite sweet drink? Coke Zero I know its bad for me but it is still my fav. <BR> ... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 15:18:32 EST What on earth????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6336549 Where's Barb? What has she been up to? She hasn't been sparking much. I hope she is ok! <BR> <BR> Some days I feel like all I do is pick up broken pieces from the floor and try to assemble them into something... anything! My job is that of an office manager - so I get lots of broken pieces at work! <BR> <BR> I have a co-worker who was expecting twin boys. How exciting is that? First babies...twins...you get it. Last Monday I got the horrible news that she went into labor and gave bir... Tue, 21 Mar 2017 14:10:35 EST Help Ladies! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6327280 I am having a horrible time finding a sports bra that fits! Anyone else have these issues? <BR> <BR> I am in plus size clothing. A few of the stores in my area carry plus size workout clothing, but none of them carry plus size sports bras! <BR> <BR> An extra large doesn't cut it, it is just too small! <BR> <BR> I am so tired of seeing all these really cute sports bras that are size XS and Small, with nothing on the other end of the size spectrum. <BR> <BR> Does anyone have any sugge... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 14:59:28 EST Really it's March? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6323529 Today someone came in my office and jokingly said, hey it's March you need to change your calendar. I looked at the photograph of the snowy scene above the month of February and thought to myself yes, its time to change the calendar. I was pleased to be greeted by a photo of some bright and colorful sculpted flowers from a gallery nearby above the month of March. No more snowy scenes! <BR> <BR> Holy crap. It's March!!! Which invoked thoughts of two months gone.... what have I done? am I... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 16:31:55 EST Quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6322389 I haven't been sparking like I normally do. My son had influenza A and pneumonia. He came home from his group home and spent the week with me. I swear I have been following him around like a puppy with a bottle of Lysol, Chlorox, and doing lots of laundry! He has spent most of the week sleeping or lying on the couch. I have spent most of the week cleaning and disinfecting things! He is now up and moving, but still not quite back to his normal self. He still has a heavy cough. <BR> <BR... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 15:10:51 EST I'm so excited!!!!! Celebrations! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6317043 Are you singing that old Pointer Sisters song now? <BR> <BR> I have to start with the so excited part, I'll close with the celebration. So I had my annual physical yesterday. Last year at this time my doctor brought up the fact that I was in the obese II category. She made it clear that there were health issues related to obesity and closed her brief statement with "You are an adult. You know what you need to do" and quickly moved on to another thing. I swear I felt as if I was flogge... Thu, 16 Feb 2017 14:24:06 EST Alone on Valentines Day? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316100 I am single. Most of the time I am completely content with that, notice I said most of the time. There are times when all my friends are with their mates and I feel pretty alone. Feeling alone is usually self inflicted for me. I can be in a room full of people and feel alone. It usually has more to do with my personal space than actually being alone. Of course there is that little part of me that wants to blame my body size for being single. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up and put m... Tue, 14 Feb 2017 16:54:26 EST Free dinner and a box of donuts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315509 I love to wander. If I take a vacation I prefer to go by car. When I travel by car, I have a habit of making unplanned stops when I see something interesting along the way. Sometimes the unplanned stops turn out to be better than the destination! <BR> <BR> So here I am on this journey. Here too, I find myself wandering off the planed route. Experience has taught me that those wanderings have only kept me from my destination and have rarely been worth the side trips. <BR> <BR> Enter a f... Mon, 13 Feb 2017 14:41:27 EST What is success? My challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6314025 The question was raised in one of my Spark Teams "What does success mean to you?" <BR> <BR> Now, there was a time when I would say "reaching my goal weight" but today is not that day. I have been attempting to reach my goal weight for years. If my definition of success was reaching my goal weight - so far I have led a very unsuccessful life! What a depressing thought. <BR> <BR> Reality check time. Today, I define success differently. A successful day is one where I can go to bed at ni... Fri, 10 Feb 2017 15:16:02 EST My declaration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313438 I follow a group called Fellow Flowers. February 4 was Fellow Flower declaration day. This was my declaration. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/28beed75-6604-4cd8-9152-123774babdca.jpg"> <BR> <BR> For the last thirty five years of my life I have talked about it, skated around it, attempted it, thought about it, analyzed it, tried to find an easier softer way, felt overwhelmed by it........ <BR> <BR> It is time to Just do It! <BR> <BR> What is it? IT is to sto... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 12:24:59 EST Oh the games we play...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6312981 I had a rough week. There were temptations galore - bagels, cookies, two pizza parties, Super Bowl festivities and more. I managed to do pretty well with most of them either totally avoiding, careful planning or limiting the amounts of my splurges. I am really a bit scared to get on the scale! That number on the scale can make or break my day. I try not to let it - but it really gets in my head. I have to PUSH it out! <BR> <BR> Tonight I am meeting a good friend for dinner at Red Lobst... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 17:06:01 EST Holes, pits, and those places you don't really want to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307969 I just read CompuCathy's featured Blog "The Pit and the Path.... Revelation". <BR> <BR> I could so relate to her blog. I have found myself distracted and at the bottom of that pit many times. It reminded me of a story I have heard along the way which I am going to share for those of you who haven't heard it. I'm not sure where it originated, so I am going to tell the story in my words. <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> I walk down the street. <BR> There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. <BR> I fa... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 15:41:51 EST Feed me more!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305095 Some of you remember the old cartoons that showed the "good angel" whispering into the character's ear, followed by the "devil" whispering in the character's ear and the struggle the character faced of who to listen to. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5cdd00fa-968b-4c6e-b321-41da94083ade.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yep, that was me on my treadmill last night. I hadn't been on the treadmill since Friday. My weekend gatherings and getaways did not allow for any face time with the t... Wed, 25 Jan 2017 14:04:43 EST Uncomfortable spots and procrastination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304520 Ever procrastinate? Well 15 years ago at Christmas, I didn't call my sister to make plans for the holiday. The holiday was the only time we got together during the year. We are not close. She lives about an hours drive from my house. She is 14 years older than me. she moved out of the house when I was 5. Sometimes I feel like she is a stranger and I know some strangers better than my own sister. I hate that. <BR> <BR> So that one year I didn't make the call and neither did she. The... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 15:07:47 EST