ONEKIDSMOM's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ONEKIDSMOM ONEKIDSMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 4 of Getting Serious about over range eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862740 I have this image in my head of a stereotypical Jewish mama, chasing me (cast as a scrawny kid) down the block, shouting "Eat, eat!" I feel like I'm eating ALL DAY LONG. Oh, wait, that's because I pretty much am! Yesterday I finally succeeded in eating more than the recommended range by 500 calories! <BR> <BR> Which brings my running 7 day overage to 1208... still not enough to result in a gain on the scale today (my official reporting day). So... pulling up my response cards to trust th... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 07:56:01 EST Day 3 and Redefining slow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862108 I have to report failure in the goal to eat above the top of my range yesterday. I tried mightily, mind you, but that ten mile run, followed by meeting my son and walking from his house to the Pinnacle Bank Arena for the Husker Men's Basketball game, and back afterwards? The calories expended outmatched what I consumed by 264 calories. I patted myself on the back for making it INTO the range the synced tracker gave me, which required me to eat (yeah, like it was a hardship, these are reall... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 09:54:33 EST Day 2 of Getting Serious about over range eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861412 Friday was an optional (in my mind) 2 mile day. I opted to rest, because I am planning on today's long and slow going 10 miles. <BR> <BR> Since it was a "rest day", it was a lot easier to plan and achieve the eating over the Spark range. My rough goal is to be 500 calories over the top of the range... yesterday I achieve 492 over. Yes! Well done! <BR> <BR> Interestingly enough, I ate about 50 calories less than the day before, when I was only 303 over. This is the effect of the linked ... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 07:28:43 EST Day One of Getting Serious about over range eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860801 Yesterday was an experience, for sure. Things I observed: <BR> <BR> 1. Linked tracker adjusts itself as the day goes on and the Spark Activity Tracker syncs. I started out planning about 500 calories over the high end of the initial range, and added from there. By the end of the day, the net was 303 calories over the top of the range. Good job, woman. <BR> <BR> 2. I felt "fuller" than I normally do after each meal, particularly those I added the calories to. Almost uncomfortably so by... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 07:48:53 EST Planning to eat over range - yes, deliberately! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860073 Now that I've linked the trackers, I am seeing this pattern - on days when I don't have scheduled training, I am eating above the range that the tracker says, and on days when I have scheduled training, mostly in the range it says. <BR> <BR> Being me, I decided to "do the math": I wrote down from my Spark nutrition tracker what I had recorded for intake, and what the top of the range said for the day, each day, stuck them in a spreadsheet, did the over/under, and added the week. <BR> <BR... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 08:03:20 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 42 - Practice, Practice, Practice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859296 How does one learn to think like a thin, fit person? Same way one gets to Carnegie Hall! My single largest argument with Judith Beck's book, "The Beck Diet Solution: train your brain to think like a thin person" is one of vocabulary. <BR> <BR> In almost every chapter, she intones that doing whatever it is for that day, or in this case, in the final day... rinse and repeat... will make DIETING easier. I could go on a long rant about my feelings about the word "diet"... but most regular rea... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 07:41:50 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 41 - Make a new to-do list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858504 This is the day that Beck lets us loose from the training exercises to this extent: some of the tasks she'd been having us do daily drop off, and become "weekly, monthly, or as needed". <BR> <BR> Daily: <BR> * She still wants us eating a healthful diet. <BR> * She still wants us thinking about what we're eating before it goes in the mouth. <BR> * She still wants us sitting down to eat and eating slowly and mindfully, noticing each bite. <BR> * She still wants us eating only to mild fulln... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 08:00:12 EST Three topic blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858161 Topic 1: it's Beck weigh in report day for me... and I'm pleased to note that the scale *did* adjust itself. Last week I had an artificially high 120.9 on the scale, but seven day average at 116.3, and I was OK with that. I got myself back on track during the week, and began my experiment with linking the trackers. <BR> <BR> I don't have enough history with the linked trackers yet to give an informed opinion, but "so far, so fair" as they say. <BR> <BR> This morning, the point in time... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 18:39:52 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 40 - Enrich your life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857100 Day 40 is another topic that resonates with my personal philosophy of life, so it was not really a challenge for me. I think it harks back to my mother's attitude toward life: it doesn't matter what you weigh. You are an important human being right now, and you can reach for other goals, enjoy other kinds of activity right now... no need to wait. <BR> <BR> So she was a few pounds padded? Didn't stop HER from petitioning the city to block off the street on our hill and take us all sleddin... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 12:15:08 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 39 - Keep Up with Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856341 OMG, if I thought YESTERDAY was a light day... this one was a total "does not compute" for me. And then I went on a group run this morning, and it took me down memory lane... I was not always so in love with exercise. <BR> <BR> I got to the running store, where we were clumped around in the pre-dawn darkness. I mentioned that I wanted to go 6 miles, not 4 as on the plan. Turns out that the marathon runners were going 6 today, so that was perfect. They grouped us by pace... I claimed I wo... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 10:29:21 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 38 - Deal with a plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855574 Day 38 is a light one for me. Plateaus are something we all experience... for me it's not just when the weight stays the same... it's when it stays in a narrow range. Since I'm in maintenance, the goal is pretty much TO be on a plateau! But whether you're losing or maintaining, the message about plateaus from ME is the one I just wrote a new response card for, so plateau day is a good day to write about it. <BR> <BR> Beck has choices for when (not if) you encounter a plateau on your weigh... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 07:37:33 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 37 - Reduce Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855259 A few words about Week 6 as an overview. Week 6 is about refining the skills learned in weeks 1 - 5. I can see echoes of "give yourself credit" in the Believe It day 36. And I'm going to write a bit more about Day 36 before moving on to Day 37. <BR> <BR> Because I did not write a "Believe It!" response card for myself, I hereby offer up what Beck has as an example in the book. I will follow it with why I didn't change and write one for me... YET! <BR> <BR> "Believe it! <BR> <BR> I am l... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 19:26:45 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 36 - Believe it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854581 I'm now moving into the last week of the six-week program espoused in the book "The Beck Diet Solution: train your brain to think like a thin person". I haven't mapped days exactly, so it's taking me more than six weeks to blog my way through it, but it has been worth it to me to take the time to augment, tweak, and tailor to fit a program to ME. <BR> <BR> It's what we all need to do, with any program. Without fail there will be parts that are more helpful, that fit YOU, and parts that nee... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 21:00:37 EST The first training class - Lincoln Marathon and Half Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854081 There are many training classes starting up around town. You see, coming up on May 3rd is our town's prime running event, the Lincoln National Guard Marathon and Half Marathon. It's a BIG deal. And not just for those of us who run it. It's a party day throughout town, when people give up on the idea of getting out of their neighborhood without waiting in line. They come outside and play their boom boxes, pass out tissues or smarties, and generally join in the fun. <BR> <BR> Last year I ... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 07:44:03 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 35 - Get Ready to Weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853282 Yesterday was actually my weigh in day, but given my behavior on Saturday and Sunday, it's an appropriate topic to write about. Preparing for what the scale might say when I KNOW I've been over-doing the food, and under-doing the exercise, i.e. I've had a cave weekend in more than one sense... I caved to the temptations/impulses, and I hid from the world. <BR> <BR> Bottom line, the scale is STILL just a GPS, telling me where I am at a given point in time. In fact, I was secretly happy I we... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 07:55:25 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 34 and the Rebel Within http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852445 Day 34 of the Beck Diet Solution is Solve Problems. <BR> <BR> I have a recurring problem. I argue with absolutes. For four days I blogged about "eliminate emotional eating"... in depth, and from my experience. But the whole time I was having issues with the word "Eliminate" as it relates to almost anything. It sounds so absolute, so perfectionist. <BR> <BR> My issue is that everybody chooses to eat in response to emotion at times. One of the statements Beck makes (page 227, it's in lar... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 08:09:18 EST Eliminate Emotional eating part four: anti-craving behavioral techniques http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850837 The past three blogs I dealt with my mainstay for strong emotions: actually facing them, feeling them, and working through them. <BR> <BR> A few people commented about the value of working out/exercise as a coping mechanism, and I want to second that motion (pun intended). Exercise while working through emotions can be a great benefit... think punching out your anger with a kick-boxing workout... or running with tears streaming down your face while you remember a loved one who passed, takin... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 07:33:39 EST Eliminate Emotional eating part three: But HOW do I sit with this emotion? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850063 I realized after writing last night's blog that I mentioned deciding to sit with an emotion, but I didn't much talk about emotions that are SO intense that "sitting" doesn't seem like enough. So I'll spend a few words on some specific emotions, and how I "sit" (or otherwise process) through them. <BR> <BR> Sadness and sorrow: for me, I sometimes indulge these with a book or movie that plays into the feeling, and frees the tears. Bring the tissues. Leave the cannoli. Apologies for The ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 07:41:23 EST Eliminate Emotional eating part two: now that you've caught it, what are you going to do with it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849822 There's this old cartoon of Marmaduke, the great Dane. In it, you see a driver who has rolled down the window of his compact car, saying to the big dog, "OK, now that you've caught it, what are you going to DO with it?" <BR> <BR> You've done step one: you have identified an emotion that you are feeling. You know it's making you want to eat. What can you DO about the emotion OTHER than eat? <BR> <BR> Beck's item 1 on her anti-craving strategies still applies: label it. Give it a name. ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 21:43:58 EST Eliminate Emotional eating part one: realize that you HAVE emotions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848949 Sounds really, really basic, but I'm dead serious here. Some of us have a history of suppressing our emotions to the point that they all appear to us as HUNGER. <BR> <BR> I was one of those. I was in such deep denial particularly of emotions like anger, resentment, sorrow, irritation, anxiety, the blues... anything "negative"... that the way I discovered I was having an emotional episode was by finding myself "in the food"... at the bottom of the ice cream carton or empty chips bag, or sta... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 20:50:22 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 33 - Eliminate Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848338 I fully expect to blog on this day for several days, as I'm kind of short on time this morning, and this is one of my hot button topics. I've long believed that most commercial and self-help groups dance around emotional eating. Beck, with cognitive behavior therapy in her tool bag might have one of the better chances of dealing with it effectively. <BR> <BR> As a life-long emotional eater it always disappointed me when I would go to a diet group and discover they gave it only lip service.... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 08:01:05 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 32 - Prepare for Travel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847378 Funny thing about travel. As with most things in my pre-recovery life as a compulsive overeater, travel used to be all about the food. And not always in a good way. Sometimes, yes, special treats you could only get at your destination. But also junk food, "road trip", drive-thru, candy, chips, soda... really horrible eating that nowadays just makes me cringe. How could I EAT that stuff? How could I even IMAGINE it satisfied me? It didn't and I kept eating more. <BR> <BR> How different... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 07:36:36 EST The Beck Diet Solution two-fer Days 30 and 31 Eating out and alcohol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845726 For those who come in to the middle of the series, this is my own working through a book's exercises. The book is The Beck Diet Solution - Train your brain to think like a thin person. It is a seven week program of exercises and planning, based on cognitive behavior therapy methodology, as applied to "dieting" (although I don't like that word). I'm in the fifth week of the program, and today present my experience with Day 30 and 31, since 31 is sort of a no-brainer for me. <BR> <BR> Day 3... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 14:49:17 EST Bonus blog: A Beck Diet Solution two-fer to catch up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844779 Day 28 is another iteration of "Get Ready to Weigh in". I really loved Gaye's blog about her experience in that regard yesterday: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843681 </link> <BR> <BR> It truly does reflect the mental preparation and the importance of staying the course. I'm here to highlight that it doesn't matter WHERE you are in your journey... just starting out, somewhere in the middle, or in maintenance dancing with the bottom of the ... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 13:30:54 EST Getting into the Lincoln Half Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844653 This is a bit of an adventure story. You see, I consider the Lincoln National Guard Marathon / Half Marathon my "home race". It gets harder to get into each year. It's a very popular race. This year, they are limiting the total runners to 12,500. The first 12,000 slots are "first come first serve". This year, the remaining 500 slots are by lottery, the entries to the lottery supporting Project Purple for pancreatic cancer research. You buy the entries (as many as you like) for $10 apie... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 11:31:28 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 27 - Master the Seven Question Technique http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843616 I'm going to take you on a side trip, back to junior high school and my algebra class. Do not turn away just because you hated math. This really is about the Beck Diet Solution, and specifically about the 7 question technique! <BR> <BR> I had a teacher who insisted you "show your work". My brother had a hard time showing his work (yes, MOBYCARP). I suspect that those who consider the 7 question technique "heavy lifting" have one of two problems with using it to deal with sabotaging thoug... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 08:00:49 EST First Run 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843116 "Sleep fast" said MOBYCARP when he described what I would be doing last night and this morning. In fact I was pretty keyed up after that magical night run, but after a hot shower, and the evening pre-bedtime rituals, had no trouble falling right to sleep when the head hit the pillow! And when the alarm rang in the morning... no problems getting up to take the pill, but went back to bed for three snooze cycles. <BR> <BR> My daily ritual weigh in said 114, which is my bottom of range screa... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 17:59:40 EST Last Run 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842531 The crazies who run in our town have some great support organizations, and the race director that puts this one on is the same gal who brings us the Double Half Mary. This was the third annual Last Run/First Run pair of runs... I'll not call them races as they are not "officially" timed. But they are organized and celebrated, nonetheless. <BR> <BR> The venue for this one providing warmth, bathrooms, and post-race beer and pretzels last night (it will be beer and cinnamon rolls this morning... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 07:42:58 EST Bonus blog: by special request - what thin feels like http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842079 I had a Spark mail asking me to write a full blog to answer what I put in a comment back to my own blog "I was blind and now I see?" <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841050 </link> <BR> <BR> The requestor was suggesting that not everyone who read the original blog would necessarily read down in the comments to where I'd responded to WATERMELLEN's comment question "How does thin feel?" <BR> <BR> And of course since I have a whole blo... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 15:11:13 EST The pebbles in the jar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841874 Some Spark folks (and others) use a pebble jar to represent pounds lost. Not me. Mine represent days lived! <BR> <BR> The first photo here is my jar from last New Year's, Day 1 of 2014. The second, and also today showing in the background of my Spark Page, is today's jar, overflowing. It barely fits the 365 pebbles representing days of a year. I included it in the blog post, too, since I often change my page background! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 10:29:36 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 26 - Recognize Thinking Mistakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841528 In today's Beck exercise, we are to take yesterday's list of Sabotaging thoughts that we identified <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840837 </link> and classify them into what kind of thinking mistake they represent. <BR> <BR> The thinking mistakes are: <BR> 1) All or nothing thinking. <BR> 2) Negative fortune telling. <BR> 3) Overly positive fortune telling. <BR> 4) Emotional reasoning. <BR> 5) Mind reading. <BR> 6) Self-deluding thinking. <BR> ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 20:53:09 EST I was blind and now I see? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841050 I offer up an analogy. I first wrote something very similar to this in a Spark Goodie note I sent to someone yesterday, and I figure it's a good thing to share with the rest of my Spark friends and readers. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was musing over the old saying about "nothing tastes as good as thin feels." I never used to GET it. OF COURSE things tasted better than thin felt... otherwise I'd BE thin! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I realized that until the past five years, I had NEVER in my adult ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 07:31:02 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 25 - Identify Sabotaging thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840837 The short intro - working my way through the book, The Beck Diet Solution: train your brain to think like a thin person by Judith S. Beck, Ph.D. Several other Spark folks are also working their way through this or other of the Beck program books/workbooks. It's a six week program, and I'm at day 25. <BR> <BR> Today's exercise is to begin identifying the sabotaging thoughts that lead us to eat off plan. We are to write them down as we have them for now, whenever we're tempted to eat off pl... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 20:58:56 EST Preparing for cold weather running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840381 I bought myself some new gear yesterday and walked around the house breaking these trail shoes in, even went for an outdoor walk later in the afternoon, just to see how warm they might be in action: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1624753048.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Also indulged in the ninja look, to protect my face more than it has been running in temperatures that might be 20 degrees warmer than Last Run 2014 will be done at: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkp... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 07:54:20 EST Bonus Blog: Just for JeanKnee... continuing the past couple of blogs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839979 Got the following questions from JEANKNEE on my Day 24 of Beck blog, and while she says I don't owe HER answers... they are making me think I didn't quite finish the thoughts I started in the other two blogs today... <BR> <BR> "So is there anything in particular that encourages you? Is it the analysis and getting to the facts? Being present in the moment? Focusing on today? Does encouragement come in a multitude of ways? <BR> <BR> I know...too many questions! ...and I know you owe me no res... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 16:03:52 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 24 - Deal with Discouragement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839891 All of the third week of Beck is about attitude, and dealing with the downers. Day 22 was dealing with disappointment, Day 23 with unfairness, Day 24 discouragement. <BR> <BR> What's the difference among them, I might ask? They are very closely related. Day 22 introduced the "Oh Well" response to disappointment. Day 23 continues its use in response to feelings of unfairness. Day 24 discusses ways and means to find encouragement. Beck offers up reading those response cards more often...... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 12:56:44 EST Retrospection on multiple cycles of loss and regain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839732 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l716642114.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is the graph of a previous cycle, from 2003 to early 2008. 2003 was the year I divorced. You can see a sharp downward slope beginning when I filed. I was at my highest weight in post-WW life pretty much right before the decision to end the marriage: anxiety gain, decision made, free to work on it! <BR> <BR> Note the "bottom" range after that sharp initial decline? Autumn: divorce court & becoming final.... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 08:20:11 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 23 - Counter the Unfairness Syndrome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839172 Day 23 is all about those feelings of "this isn't fair". It is focused on when we get those sabotaging thoughts that it's not fair that someone else seems to be able to eat something not on our plan and we can't. <BR> <BR> I may be deluding myself, but I believe my sense of "it's not fair" kind of goes the other way. Life is NOT fair. We all have different things to deal with, different abilities and background. I believe myself "unfairly blessed" in having a body that appears to have fo... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 07:46:49 EST More retrospective looks and the plan for back to Beck reporting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838891 2014 goes back 24 pages worth of blogs in summary view. 19 of those blogs ended up featured, including two "new" ones that hit whatever the threshold is between yesterday and today. I am humbled and honored that what I write (remember, I write for ME, to keep ME motivated)... is also resonating with others. Kindred spirits abound! <BR> <BR> I wrote as recently as last week looking at the six years of daily weigh ins before I find a missing calendar breaking the chain. Since then I'm been... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 16:12:35 EST Traditions and memories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838269 Cultural heritage. Religious tradition. Personal/familial memories. We all have them! <BR> <BR> Mine include the memory of a fresh orange in the toe of my Christmas stocking, every Christmas morning while we still got filled stockings from our parents. I keenly remember the smell as we peeled that orange. It was a special Christmas treat. I remember my mom talking about the years during WW II when she was a girl how fresh fruit was such a treat. <BR> <BR> You see, we live in the middl... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 08:29:17 EST Pondering Chickens and Eggs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837843 The age old question of which came first comes into play for me every time a combination of things happens: <BR> <BR> I slip-slide off program. I feel unwell. I climb back on program. I feel better. <BR> <BR> The question that I ponder is whether I was already feeling unwell and trying to make myself feel better with food, or whether the food is what led to me feeling unwell. Is the case of the last 36 hours, I'm leaning in the direction of the unwell came first. Tried to eat myself ... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 07:39:44 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 22 - Say Oh Well to Disappointment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836686 I love this strategy. It really is one of those things that clicked for me within the past few years... the acceptance that if I want to be trim and fit, this is the kind of life I have to live. I have to be vigilant. The level of that vigilance has been an ongoing revelation, and by now, it has become more of a "I'm in training... in training requires tough." <BR> <BR> It's the thing I was blogging about back when I got one of my "popular blog" awards. I called it "The Facts of Life" wh... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 07:38:59 EST This Beck day SHOULD be easy... is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836414 The Beck Diet Solution Day 21 - Get ready to Weigh in <BR> <BR> Seriously, what could be simpler? I've been a daily weigher for DECADES! I have the statistics to prove it. I hereby present another of my "state of the maintenance" graphs, but this one is different. In my sifting through the data, I went back beyond when I started this loss... I went all the way back to January 2009... I seem to be missing my 2008 calendar on which I had recorded weights. I think I was in a "bummed out" s... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 16:15:38 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 20 - Get Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836016 This has to be one of the most important lessons, and if you're still very enthusiastic about your eating plan or exercise program, you might not get a chance to practice it for a while. But I'd like to trumpet that this is a truth I stumbled on some years back... "There is no starting line". Seriously, how many "Day 1" blogs have I written since joining Spark? (Hint: the answer is NOT "1"). The sister truth is there is no finish line, either... that's what LIFESTYLE CHANGE means! <BR> <... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 19:46:14 EST Bonus blog: The Beck Diet Solution Day 19 - Stop Fooling Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835583 I did not have time to do this topic justice before work today, so you're getting a bonus blog to talk about the ways in which those of us who have "dieted" delude ourselves about what we should be able to eat and still consider it "OKAY". This is the day of the "It's NOT Okay" response card. <BR> <BR> In this day's lesson, Beck writes that most of these self-delusions begin with "It's Okay to eat this because..." and then she lists a whole collection: <BR> <BR> It's not a whole piece... <... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 20:45:07 EST Break from Beck... BOOKS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835293 I'll just do a quick assessment of yesterday, but I'm not going to count myself as having worked Day 19. Want to take today to continue to mull it over, and I have some other things I want to dump out here in the blog universe to organize. <BR> <BR> * I did read my response cards (all of them) at least twice. <BR> * I did eat sitting down and noticing each bite every time. <BR> * I did give myself credit for the good stuff I did... every time I was aware of it (awareness is a big part of th... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 08:05:21 EST The Beck Diet Solution Days 17 and 18 exercises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834808 I'm going to post the last two days together mainly because in my mind and practice of them, they blended together nicely. "The Beck Diet Solution" for folks who are coming in to the middle of the movie, is a book title, the author is Judith S. Beck, Ph.D. It is subtitled "train your brain to think like a thin person." It contains a series of experiments/exercises related to how we think about and relate to food and exercise. It is not a specific diet, but it can help those of us who have... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 08:04:37 EST Back to Beck - day 16 exercises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834280 I owe you two Beck blogs due to yesterday's trip down Christmas lane... <BR> <BR> Day 16 was "Prevent Unplanned Eating". By this it meant that day's exercise was to eat ONLY what was on the plan you wrote down the day before. The funny thing about these little challenges is they are PRACTICE in a safe environment for a skill that you use over and over again in losing and maintaining weight loss. <BR> <BR> Writing a plan (or pre-tracking in Spark) and then sticking with the plan (strengt... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 07:31:03 EST A giraffe named Raul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833749 My siblings will likely remember our sister's ceramic giraffe, that used to sit in her living room. He was about 3 feet tall, maybe a little taller, in a seated position, with a whimsical expression on his face. Her then-husband and father to her two girls named the giraffe Raul. The whole family thought that was a ridiculous name for a giraffe, and perhaps because it was so ridiculous, the name stuck. <BR> <BR> The girls loved that giraffe, and would play at riding him. Eventually his l... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 07:25:49 EST The Beck Diet Solution Day 15 and a visit with sister's nutritionist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833252 Day 15 in the Beck Diet Solution is about using that plan you wrote out on Day 14. It's about tracking, checking off, adding to, and doing it IMMEDIATELY after consuming whatever. <BR> <BR> I have lots of little tracking notebooks leftover from years past, when I was tracking offline... so to do the old-school Beck planning, I pulled one of these out. I had written down my plan Saturday evening, I made those two tweaks I mentioned Sunday morning (upped the size of my breakfast banana, and ... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 08:03:48 EST