ONEKIDSMOM's SparkPeople Blog ONEKIDSMOM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Do NOT get cocky! Cocky, according to my little Webster's is "jauntily conceited or overbearing; self-confident in an aggressive or swaggering way". Not much good there! And maybe a little over-blown as a term, but it made sense to me when I wrote my Beck response card. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I wrote it to combat the tendency that I have (maybe you do, too) to think that because the number on the scale looks friendly... Wed, 22 Mar 2017 07:32:58 EST Keeping promises to ourselves I've often said the most powerful thing you can do to take charge of your life and fuel happiness and success is to keep a promise to yourself. Intuitively, you know this to be true. Be honest... you've felt it... that <em>590</em> boost! <BR> <BR> But don't we all make a whole bunch of conflicting promises to ourselves? Well, yes, we kinda do. We're like the guy in the ancient FedEx commercial, "I can do that! I can do that! I can do that! ... How am I gonna do that?" <BR> <BR> And... Tue, 21 Mar 2017 07:53:50 EST Gotta love Monday! I've said this several times in blogs of the past... I love Mondays. Mondays are like a free <em>249</em> every week. Routines kick in, as my work week starts on Monday, too. So I get up, get dressed, make the bed, pack the bag, brew the quarter caff, and sit down to Spark while the oats simmer. Then I write my pep talk, and get out the door for the fresh new work week. <BR> <BR> Of course with the transition to retirement, that's going to change... but Monday is still Monday, the <e... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 07:37:04 EST Sunrise running - ahhhh! It had been three weeks since I last went for a run. All that illness intervened, and I was determined to fully recover. Thursday was my first day with no headaches and no pills to suppress them. Friday I did my first strength training. I never gave up the walking on work days and tried to walk on the treadmill on non-workdays to get my 10,000 steps. <BR> <BR> This morning the Galloway published group run was at 7:45 a.m., and as I drove to the lake, I was treated to the sun peeking over... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 14:35:11 EST Marching with the Madness Oh, yes, it is that time of year, when those of us who are fond of a particular sport go a bit crazy as 64 teams shrink themselves down to the "final four". I don't fill out a bracket every year, and I certainly don't handicap 'em like my son does. Nor do I bet / gamble on the results... but it adds some interest to track our favorites! <em>299</em> <BR> <BR> There are now 32 teams remaining. Of those 32, 23 are teams I predicted would make it this far; 9 I picked have already been e... Sat, 18 Mar 2017 09:53:58 EST Happy St. Patrick's Day I never thought I was Irish... <em>137</em> and was not raised Catholic, so that didn't resonate, either... but as kids we were taught the traditions... wear green to avoid getting pinched, etc. I guess it's pretty much turned into a drinking holiday here in the US. <em>439</em> Since I don't drink... well, that leaves me out again... not Irish and don't drink! <BR> <BR> But wait... turns out (from the DNA test), I have 8% Irish in me! That changes the landscape a bit (might explain... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 07:53:16 EST No free lunch Yesterday after work I was half-listening to the TV while some ad blared about "free" this or that. Yeah, free... for only $29.95 a month. <BR> <BR> When I was young I encountered an acronym in a science fiction novel... I think it was Robert Heinlein, but I may be misremembering where I first encountered "TANSTAAFL". It became so popular with my brother and I that we had t-shirts sprayed with the letters. What's it stand for? "There ain't no such thing as a free lunch"! <BR> <BR> And... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 07:49:26 EST Lack of drama Both a comment on yesterday's blog "lack of drama helps", and a blog from a friend who has just been through and now emerging from a patch of drama in her own life, where she didn't handle it as well as she would like got me thinking about the times of success and the relapses over the course of YEARS, nay, DECADES, in my life. <BR> <BR> The relapses generally WERE associated with drama of one sort or another... disruption of a precarious self-care routine by "life happened" events. How man... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 07:42:20 EST Not much to say... this is a "lather, rinse, repeat" day, or alternatively, a "one foot in front of the other, one day at a time" day! <BR> <BR> * The bag is packed. Remember to eat what's in it, and not some random "junk" that might magically appear in your path! <BR> <BR> * Remember to go to recess. It's good for body, mind, and spirit! Go gently if necessary, but go! <BR> <BR> * Remember to breathe, prioritize, and delegate! <BR> <BR> Now let's all get out there and live the best Tuesday March 14, 201... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 07:50:52 EST An encouraging letter to self (This is the Spark Coach challenge of the day, to write yourself an encouraging letter! I'm thinking that today, I'll take coach up on it.) <BR> <BR> Dear Me, <BR> <BR> I know you tend to second-guess everything, so this is me reminding you that you're fine! True, training hasn't been what you'd like it to be, but illness and injury are NOT just excuses, no matter what the Polly Perfectionist slice of your personality might want to tell you! And finishing a race with a PR is not the be-a... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 07:58:03 EST As the cabbage soup simmers Sunday is the classic soup making day, for me. I chop up what's available, simmer and stir and let it sit on low for quite some time, filling the house with scrumptious aromas. <BR> <BR> Yes, I am feeling better today, not that I didn't have a bit of a slow start, nor that I'm running "full speed ahead" but I'm trying to have today be closer to a "normal" weekend day. Laundry is in progress. Will probably go to grocery shop later. And the end goal is to get to bed on time, new time... ... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 12:28:04 EST Twelve hours of sleep? Chicken Soup Saturday! I posted my status this morning that I was glad it was a weekend. I am. Because I'm still not "myself"... I'm done with the antibiotics, but still woke up with splitting head this morning. Had breakfast and a headache pill, ended up putting myself back to bed. <BR> <BR> When I got up again, it was lunch time already. So made myself chicken soup. Finally got dressed. Only within the past hour have I taken ten minutes of "gentle recess" on the treadmill. I have not been out running fo... Sat, 11 Mar 2017 19:20:31 EST Today's pep talk Just short today: <BR> <BR> * The bag is packed. Remember to eat what's in it, not any old random junk that might show up in the workplace! (It's Friday, that means resisting the contractor treats in the break room!) <BR> <BR> * Remember to go to recess. Gently, if needed, but get away from that desk and move. It's good for body, brain, and spirit! <BR> <BR> * Remember to breathe, prioritize, and delegate. <BR> <BR> OK, gang, I think that should do it... armor on for this one and only... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 07:56:08 EST Mental Trash Mental trash needs to be cleared out regularly, just like emptying the garbage from our homes and offices. The physical trash we put out is the debris of living... kitchen trash, wrappings, waste, etc., household trash, used tissues, paper towels, disposable cleaning stuff... empty containers that aren't recyclable (those that are go in a different stream). <BR> <BR> Is mental trash like that? The debris of thoughts and events in our lives, decisions made, feelings that have popped up. Be... Thu, 9 Mar 2017 08:00:58 EST Reveries on dia de la donna I never even knew this holiday existed until 1987, I think it was. I was working in Italy, on a temporary assignment. I went to work, and found flowers on my desk... in fact, every woman in the factory had flowers... secretaries, cleaning women and kitchen staff were pretty much the roles those other women had. Yet each and every one was honored with blossoms. <BR> <BR> Only more recently have I heard it announced in the media here in the US... I'd been oblivious up to that point! Anyway... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 07:49:55 EST Bonus blog - if I never crossed another event finish line... Would I care? Well, I might have some nostalgic wistful feelings... BUT... to be honest... I don't need any more bibs and medals. I have nothing to prove to myself or to others. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I still anticipate enjoying being active, but let's be honest... I've met several of my heroes... I even touched Sister Madonna Buder... got a photo op with Leanda Cave... <BR> <img src="http://photosa... Tue, 7 Mar 2017 18:26:01 EST Braced for the return to work Slept with strange programmer dreams last night... but well rested at normal get-up time, and the body wasn't complaining loudly, so I'm in the normal pre-work routine. <BR> <BR> The wind really howled around the house yesterday, and it looks to be pretty windy today, too... thus the "braced". One of the things I've mused about as a "tiny" person... is how easily the wind can push me around... I truly do have to brace myself to cross the street and walk down the block. When I weighed in ... Tue, 7 Mar 2017 07:32:05 EST Cats teach you things Unexpected lesson of the day: I'm napping on the couch, and Rubia walks over the SmartTV remote, turning on a feature called "Extra". Did not know my TV would put Weather Bug up in a corner of the screen if you did that. <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> As I get older, I am not the first person to jump on new tech. Don't want to waste my time re-learning how to do something in new tech that I was proficient at in old tech. However, this can lead to my not noticing that something I might find *... Mon, 6 Mar 2017 16:38:23 EST Steady as she goes I am two days into a seven day course of antibiotics for the infection. Not sure if I can see it working or not, because the virus (the other thing the clinic identified "going on" with me)... is still going through its own course. And since my immune system is fighting a two-front war, is it any great surprise that I tire quickly? I managed a short trip through the grocery store to restock my freggies, proving that little fact. <em>341</em> But, victory: my fridge is once again stock... Sun, 5 Mar 2017 14:01:16 EST No leprechauns for me this year! This would not be a good place to take my virus. It's a photo of runners lining up for the Leprechaun Chase last year. Last year, I went to the race, got hugged by a young man who had a cough and I got sick afterwards. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This year I wish to exempt all these people from a similar fate by going there "sick". Instead, I'm home, streaming Star Trek - The Next Generation on Netflix,... Sat, 4 Mar 2017 15:10:55 EST The Friday report This morning I had my 3 months later blood draw scheduled, but as lousy as I've been feeling the past couple of weeks, I was tempted to cancel. Another of my "recurring themes" is my own weirdness about "going to doctors". <BR> <BR> Most of my youth and young adulthood I spent avoiding going to doctors... only went when legally mandated and not exempted by the state I was in for religious reasons. <BR> <BR> Even today, ten years after my first full non-pregnant physical, I still strugg... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 20:43:04 EST Made it through yesterday... let's start on today! I am determined to be pleased with a dismal NSV this week. I 'fessed up that I hadn't been feeling well. Often, when I don't feel well, my first go to, to feel better... involves food... unless of course this issue is stomach upset. <BR> <BR> Sometimes, eating in response to "not feeling good" leads to feeling even worse! <BR> <BR> So, making it through the past week or so without turning to food while not feeling good, I'm going to count as victory! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> For tho... Thu, 2 Mar 2017 08:02:27 EST Another slog through it day... I haven't been feeling 100% since ... well, for a couple of weeks. Some days have been better than others, but there have been lingering aches & pains... enough to make me think about others who deal with chronic pain on a daily basis. Because MOST of the time I don't... I might have some morning stiff joints but they usually warm up and are fine by the time I get myself to work and get distracted. <BR> <BR> Despite this, I got two runs in last week... a short <em>311</em> and a long ... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 06:48:16 EST One foot in front of the other Sometimes when you don't feel the "oomph" you just have to fall back on habits and let them carry you through. <BR> <BR> * The bag is packed. It has healthy lunch and morning snack to nourish your body through this work day. <BR> <BR> * Those recess walks are in the schedule for a reason. Respect and take them! <BR> <BR> * Breathe, prioritize, delegate! <BR> <BR> And let's go live the best we can in the condition we're in. Chances are, once we get started, we'll be fine... habits are s... Tue, 28 Feb 2017 08:01:59 EST 28 years ago today 28 years ago today, some Spark folks weren't even born. Many on my list of "kindred spirits" were a whole lot younger. Some of us even remember the times when we were told not to trust anyone over 30, and are now over twice that ourselves. <BR> <BR> But 28 years ago today, I was a desperate woman, who did not believe in herself or her ability to lose weight. Trapped in a religion that "did not go to doctors" I was scared of all the programs that insisted you have "permission from your doc... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 07:43:06 EST Ahhhh! Sunday! It felt COLD to me, even though my Garmin reported it was 43* F when we started the long and slow group run this afternoon at 2 p.m. Mainly it felt cold during stretches when we faced West, where the wind originated. Only 8 mph (the wind, not our pace!)... but it was enough to put a decided chill onto us. Coach paused at the cars after loop one of the lake to put on a jacket. Our four loops added to 9.33 miles. <BR> <BR> The really good news is that three weekends in a row, I have made i... Sun, 26 Feb 2017 18:54:56 EST I remained a relatively anonymous blogger until... August 2012. At that point I was blown away by the first time I got a popular blog award. I was surprised. It was heady and disconcerting at the same time. I wrote about the experience of being featured the next day: <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031677 </link> <BR> <BR> I have no clue what it was that made THAT one (The Mud Run Story: <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030690 </link> ) somethi... Sat, 25 Feb 2017 14:07:24 EST Weather day... but not just weather Truth to tell, I've not been feeling well this week. It probably started, in retrospect, on Sunday or Monday... by Monday night it was what turned into the sick day on Tuesday... and even feeling better and going back to work, I've felt bloated and gassy. My voice has sounded "congested" to my co-workers, although I don't feel stuffy. I *do* feel head-achy, though. <BR> <BR> Still, that didn't stop me from savoring the Wednesday wonderful weather (record high temp in the afternoon of 76* ... Fri, 24 Feb 2017 10:10:36 EST RIP little SPAT No matter how much denial I tried to muster, the little Spark Activity Tracker went dark yesterday, as announced. No more "Glow Getter" awards. Having to adjust to FitBit synch alone, which doesn't do nearly as good a job, but at least I have it. <BR> <BR> Spark was nice and gave me an Amazon coupon to help offset the cost of a new tracker, but to be honest, that little thing on my shoe or clipped to my waistband... it's going to take getting used to its absence. <BR> <BR> <img src="http... Thu, 23 Feb 2017 08:01:47 EST Recurring themes One thing that all of the digging through past blogs has done was reveal several recurring themes, and guess what? They are the same ones I see in fellow Sparkers' ponderings, posts, questions, and blogs. <BR> <BR> Things like musings over body image and how I perceived my size at various point in the journey... how hard it was to shed the self-image of "fat", how easy it was to have it recur in odd ways at various times. <BR> <BR> Things like "finish line syndrome" whenever I accomplished... Wed, 22 Feb 2017 08:00:20 EST In the Beginning Blog 10 - training for the first 5K! Truth in advertising, it wasn't REALLY my first 5K, but it was the first 5K since the weight loss... and the first in 18 years... so I figured I'd toss some statistics out there: <BR> <BR> The target 5K was going to be on November 6, 2010, a year and a day after the Fort Hood shooting. The organizers saw it as a half marathon, but there was an associated 5K, and I knew I would not be fit for a half marathon, so I set my sights on being ready for a 5K. <BR> <BR> Dutifully, I found a Couch t... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 20:19:42 EST Snoozing the day away Nothing worse than being sick. Yuck, yuck, yuck. Classically, for me, weather has been super nice, but where was I? Today it was sacked out on the couch, being poked at by curious felines, while the 3, count 'em, 3 sets of sleepwear went through the wash and dry cycles. <BR> <BR> It was a chicken soup day. The news happened to mention that this warm weather we've been having has brought on early pollen counts... so the allergies could be playing a part. <BR> <BR> Hoping that an early ... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 18:39:56 EST In the Beginning Blog 9 - The Search for Home I left off the review of the journey in May of 2010, as I was on the "search for home weight". I had joined a 28 day Spark fitness Challenge in January that year, as I mentioned in the In The Beginning Blog 8 (a long one with LOTS of links to past blogs): <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311250 </link> <BR> <BR> In the process, I had started here at the Start of the Spark Challenge, December 2009: <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.spark... Sun, 19 Feb 2017 09:08:08 EST And sometimes Rebels run... After all that tantrum tossing this week, after "Mom" put the Rebel "in charge", the Rebel did exactly what mom hoped for... she stepped up. <BR> <BR> She did things a little differently (packed the bag differently, had a Subway sandwich for lunch), but she looked at the donuts in the break room on Friday and said, "Naaaw, not my food." She won the battle of the grocery store, this morning. And she laced up her running shoes afterward and went on her 8 mile group run/walk/run, Galloway sty... Sat, 18 Feb 2017 15:05:58 EST Rebels overcome barriers Rebels don't have smooth paths. They have obstacles to overcome. They have mountains to climb, barriers to progress. <BR> <BR> I thought I had experienced a few, or at least the vestiges of them... but in fact, the real pioneers were forging the path a couple of decades before I saw those remaining vestiges. <BR> <BR> For example: when I started studying Computer Science in the Engineering Department of the University of Nebraska, the women's rooms were only re-labeled men's rooms. I sa... Fri, 17 Feb 2017 07:22:03 EST The Rebel is in the house... and she's in charge! OK, Spark-a-roonies, I did it. I put my inner Rebel in charge of my day yesterday. I am now turning over not just yesterday but the rest of my life, the redesign, into her hands. See, the thing is, that inner Rebel is me. So is my former fat self. So is the athlete within. <BR> <BR> But when the Rebel kicks, it is because something is not right. It is because I am NOT living in accord with my heart's desire. Or something is troubling me that I am ignoring and not properly assimilating... Thu, 16 Feb 2017 07:27:28 EST Saved by an old blog? This idea has been kicking around in my head for several days, even while standing aside and watching myself continue to self-sabotage, and this morning I dug back in my archives to find this one. I wrote it way back on November 6, 2013... I wasn't quite done with the rebel behavior even then... but it was the beginning of getting back on track in what I have called my "worst year of maintenance". I'm skipping several chapters of "In the Beginning" to get to this point when I wrote that blo... Wed, 15 Feb 2017 07:29:19 EST Bonus blog - treat yourself I decided that I would handle my being troubled by Valentine's Day ads this way: bought my own Valentine flowers. They were on sale. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> An appropriate celebration, I'm thinking. When I saw the orange colored roses, it made me think of Mom. And me. We both shared an affinity for coral to orange hues in flowers. I know there's some kind of symbolic meaning in the colors of roses.... Sun, 12 Feb 2017 14:07:50 EST CupboardS full of mugs After posting photo after photo of my morning mugs, I got a comment from someone that she imagined I had a whole cupboard full of them... well, not quite, although they would fill a whole cupboard by themselves. Instead, the mugs are spread across several cupboards. Here's the one where right now I have four Spark Mugs: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And the one where Darth and my "elegant" Prairie Life mug (... Sun, 12 Feb 2017 08:19:40 EST Adventures around the lake Yesterday was the best weather day all year (so far)... the high temperature yesterday afternoon was 71* F! Today was almost as warm... over 60* F for our Galloway group run/walk/run at 2 p.m. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had asked for "soft footing" for my first run with the coach since my last Fall, and we settled on my nearby lake (photo is from last October, I didn't pause to take pictures today). T... Sat, 11 Feb 2017 20:20:32 EST Adventures with a misbehaving thermostat Yesterday afternoon when I got home, I noticed in passing that my thermostat was 3 degrees F above where it normally sits at that programmed time of day. I adjusted it to what I set it at when I'm home, and didn't think any more about it. <BR> <BR> Until as I was on the treadmill, I noticed that the heat was on practically continuously. It was getting really warm in here! So, I figured, go bump it down, already. Trotted myself to the living room, looked at it, and said "Yikes!" It was 8... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 07:29:54 EST Choose your battles Trying to change EVERYTHING in your life all at once is a recipe for one of our new President's favorite terms: "disaster". He overuses that word, and many times inappropriately, BUT, most of us who have tried to make too drastic a change in our habits "all at once" have experienced the kind of inner resistance that can spell that word. We wear ourselves out trying to lift a load we were not prepared for. <BR> <BR> That's why the Spark philosophy of setting a few small change goals at a t... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 07:56:04 EST Just a Tuesday Running short on time, so this is just my normal little pep talk. I've been writing a LOT lately, and I'm sure some of you will welcome a SHORT one! <BR> <BR> * The bag is packed. It's full of things you love and that nourish you. You know it's going to be a big "food day" at work, but this is your food, that is not. <BR> <BR> * Remember to go to recess. The mental and physical removal of self from the cubicle is a GOOD thing! <BR> <BR> * Remember to breathe, prioritize, and delegate. ... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 07:52:27 EST Lessons in Sports... Super Bowl Metaphor... <em>281</em> What if the New England Patriots had reacted to their early set-backs in last nights' game the way many of us do when we "blow it" and regain weight? We would have seen a far different outcome. <BR> <BR> But did Brady beat himself up for having his pass intercepted and stop throwing passes? <BR> <BR> Heck, no! He put what were probably sabotaging thoughts aside, went out, regrouped with his team, changed his strategy a bit, and they got the job done. <BR> <BR> What about... Mon, 6 Feb 2017 07:32:08 EST In the Beginning Blog 8 - in which I prepare for maintenance I hark back to this blog, from December 2009, in which I rejoice approaching the original goals I had "tossed out there" in May. <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2644482 </link> <BR> <BR> I was proud of that ribbon... I had surprised myself, and I was already thinking about maintenance. <BR> <BR> As it turned out, my son's unit went ahead and deployed in the aftermath of the Fort Hood shooting... there was debate but in the end the men and wo... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 14:46:24 EST Am I ready to write this yet? Seriously, I made about three starts at writing this blog yesterday, and pressed "delete" each time! <BR> <BR> I've alluded to having had some "off the rails" days, and on Friday I started making a list of the underlying things that have been "weighing" on me. When I start writing them down, it freaks me out to be sharing some of them. But there it is. They are part of the picture of what I have to combat as a maintainer who is a recovering compulsive / emotional eater. <BR> <BR> Toppi... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 10:45:35 EST The biggest lie I tell myself: in Beck terms that would be called a sabotaging thought The all time winner in my case is this whopper: "I don't care." <BR> <BR> Because in the end, of course that's a total falsehood. It's a lie I tell myself when I really want that chocolate muffin or whatever indulgence I'm about to stuff myself with! <BR> <BR> I'm not saying I never have an indulgence, here and there... but days (such as I've had four times in the past week and a half) when I keep going back for "one more" of whatever I'm trying to plug an emotional hole with... well, t... Fri, 3 Feb 2017 08:00:44 EST The other side of the Darth mug Yep, I'm back to the Darth Vader mug today. Someone asked to see it, and I posted a photo on the status... here's the other side of its lip: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Of course for the full effect, you'd have to take your coffee black, and I don't. They had these in my HyVee store when the first "new" Star Wars movie came out a little over a year ago, and my son has been a Darth Vader fan since childhood... Fri, 3 Feb 2017 07:27:59 EST Bonus blog - a couple of loose ends associated with 2009 Hark back to the In the Beginning Blog 7, and you'll notice the reference to my surgery to correct a problem with my parathyroid gland. The symptom of a malfunctioning parathyroid is that your body does not absorb calcium properly. You can take all kinds of supplements and eat a boatload of dairy, but to be indelicate, it doesn't make it to your bones... you just pee it all out! <BR> <BR> And, the first symptom that I was diagnosed with even before the high levels of calcium hanging out in... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 20:00:48 EST Writing a blog can be an emotional workout Every time I bring back the memories to write about the Autumn of 2009, it's hard. BUT, it truly was a turning point in how seriously I take my health and preparedness for whatever life might toss my way, and if it in some way helps others sort through whatever THEY are facing, it is worth it. <BR> <BR> What I found while writing yesterday's "In the Beginning Blog 7" was my stomach clenching up, the way it did during the events, and bringing back the memory of how, four years ago, when his ... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 07:19:33 EST