OMSOME's SparkPeople Blog OMSOME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My monthly report This has been a difficult month for me. My mother passed away. On top of that my therapist decided to go private and my clinic have not found anyone to replace her yet. I am trying to be strong and take one day at a time. <BR> <BR> I have been diligent with my fitness routine, I am doing at least 30 minutes of cardio everyday and I recently joined the YMCA. I feel very excited about my workout program. I am very happy with my decision. I now look at working out as something fun. I am start... Sat, 1 Oct 2011 13:39:44 EST I am not perfect. My weight has been fluctuating between 174 and 176 lbs for the last week. I know it is normal, I should not worry about this and keep doing what I am doing. I gain weight mostly around my belly, the problem of being an anxious person. So I measured my waist and I am not gaining weight around my belly, in fact, is slowly decreasing. I know I should not obsess about this. However, my need to be perfect is haunting me. The nirvana fallacy attacks me everyday and sometimes stops me from doing a... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 15:09:16 EST Finally home I hate this city. I do not want to be here in ten years from now. This place has nothing to offer me. I did not plan to move here. <BR> <BR> We came back because my father-in-law was dying. I spent all my savings with an unplanned change of plans and then I got stuck here. <BR> <BR> I had two weeks to pack, sell or donate the things we could not keep. At least I did not have to worry about my travel arrangements as my secretary was taking care of that, I thought. I was wrong, we have two... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 14:21:23 EST Run, girl run Giving up was so much easier. <BR> When did I start quitting on myself? <BR> I can not remember exactly when this downward spiral of self-destruction started but now I know what caused it. Everyday I fight to love myself for who I am and stop the depression from taking control of my thoughts, my life. <BR> <BR> Run, girl run. I was pushing myself to run. The finish line seemed to be so far away but I could see it. Part of me was trying to sabotage myself once again by convincing me tha... Tue, 9 Aug 2011 12:06:01 EST