OLIVIANIGHT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OLIVIANIGHT OLIVIANIGHT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Beautiful (and strong) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670550 My Aunty sent me a photo from my belly dance class at Girl's camp last August. And here it is: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1874454668.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now, my first reaction was EWW! SHINY!!! <BR> But then I looked again. At that moment I had around 15 girls and 10 women staring at me (one of the things I hate most), but I'm still smiling, and my posture is really open. I look like a confident person. <BR> <BR> On even closer inspection I can see some of hard k... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 14:30:27 EST Why I will never have a six pack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650072 I love strength training. Swinging kettlebells around is one of my favourite forms of exercise, and once I get a set of dumbbells in my hands I'm away. But I hate training my core. If I were only allowed to have peanut butter after 5 minutes of core work, I would most likely never eat it again. <BR> I've tried sit-ups, crunches, ab wheels, planks, pilates, leg raises..you name it. And I hate every single one of them. A blogilates video actually reduced me to tears not once, but twice. <BR>... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 15:19:25 EST Love your body challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640218 I've started a Love Your Body challenge on a site of an awesome lady I follow, Molly Galbraith. <BR> <BR> Before I get going, I have some questions to answer: <BR> <BR> 1. How do you feel when you think about how your body looks? 2 <BR> (1 = absolutely terrible, 10 = freaking awesome) <BR> <BR> 2. How often do you think about things you’d like to change on your body? 2 <BR> (1 = constantly, 10 = never) <BR> <BR> 3. How often do you look in the mirror and think, “I look really awesome!”?... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 09:09:30 EST Reward #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639638 I finally managed a good eating day (having baking as my main stress-reliever is not entirely working for me), so I bought my first reward song on itunes - Love me again by John Newman. <BR> I love this song, it never fails to get me dancing! Tue, 4 Mar 2014 15:23:16 EST Bonus scheme http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636770 Every day I eat clean this week, I'm going to buy myself a new song on itunes. Just a small reward for a small goal that will help me take more baby steps in the right direction. Sat, 1 Mar 2014 09:57:19 EST I am not okay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632582 Comfort food consumed in the last hour: <BR> 1 pita bread, buttered <BR> 1 packet of instant noodles <BR> 1 iced fairy cake <BR> 10 slices of rocky road <BR> <BR> Feelings made better: 0 Mon, 24 Feb 2014 13:49:58 EST Old tactics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629407 At the moment it feels like food is the only area of my life over which I have any control whatsoever. In that case, some people restrict their calories to within a 5-calorie range, or spend hours calculating how much exercise they have to do to burn off exactly the calories they've eaten, to the point of an under-eating disorder. But not me. Me, I think "I'm going to eat 20 cookies/6 spoons of peanut butter/an extra slice of toast/a whole bar of chocolate because I can and NOBODY CAN STOP ME... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 16:22:03 EST What happened?? Oh yeah, sleep. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628476 It is remarkable what a difference a bit of sleep can make. <BR> I was unpacking my lunch today and it just kept on coming - apple, pear, babybel, snap peas, hummus. 'why do I have so much left?' I thought, 'normally I'm down to half a portion of casserole and an apple'. <BR> Then I remembered that I went to bed half an hour earlier last night. Just half an hour, nothing major, but that was still enough to stop me being ravenously hungry from the second I woke up, and nomming my entire lunc... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 15:41:12 EST Board http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625428 So here's my inspiration board. Not a major work of art or anything, but I'm still proud of it. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1152952366.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There are some quotes that jumped out at me in fitness magazines: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l428945360.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My motto for the year: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2113939457.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Some quotes that have inspired me: <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 10:21:45 EST Guilty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617995 I just did a massive (for me) grocery shop because I got a voucher for £15 off when you spend £60 or more, and now I can't stop feeling guilty. That voice in my head is going "SIXTY POUNDS!?!? That's more than TWICE your MAXIMUM weekly budget!", which it is. £25 is a very expensive grocery shop for me. <BR> But honestly, I'm tired of shopping at the discount place where the best method is to turn up with a vague idea of what you might want, and hope they've got something that matches up. I de... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 15:57:23 EST Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613180 Wow, everything is happening this Summer. <BR> My bestie best friend is visiting from China, and I won't have seen him for almost two years at that point. <BR> It will be ten years since I left high school and our group of friends (as was) is having a reunion. I've kept in touch with a couple of them, but most them I haven't seen at all during those 10 years. <BR> Then in August we're having a trip to New Zealand to visit some almost-family (they've done more for us than some family members ... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 15:57:47 EST Sleeeeep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610762 So I jolted awake at exactly 1 o'clock this morning, and realised I could smell smoke. After running round the flat and touching everything that could possibly be on fire (and a few things that really couldn't) to make sure they were cold, I got back into bed. <BR> <BR> But I could still smell smoke. So I got up and looked out the window to check whether one of the bins outside had been set on fire. All the bins were lined up as normal, no smoke, no blackened globs of melted plastic on the f... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 02:21:03 EST Oh, salsa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599172 When I got home from salsa tonight, my Fitbit reckoned I had 952 calories to eat. It's now 10pm (past my bedtime, so this will be brief) and I still have 347 to go. I just can't eat that much in one go! <BR> <BR> This is all because I went to salsa class with 7,000 odd steps, and came home with 17,500 odd steps. That I was not expecting. So here's me at rather a large calorie deficit - around 800 calories. <BR> <BR> I imagine I'll be quite hungry tomorrow... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 17:08:33 EST Salsa good. Purse bad. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594952 I doubled today's step count in one hour of salsa. One of the multitudinous reasons I love salsa dancing so much. <BR> <BR> However, today I ended the class absolutely STARVING. The plan was to go to Subway and grab one of their low fat options before heading to salsa (they're in the same building), which was fine until I opened my bag and saw that my purse wasn't in it. Everyone must know that sinking feeling. The one that translates roughly as "if it's not here, where the heck IS it??". I... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 16:23:39 EST New shoes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593739 Look at them! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l788964671.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1693485588.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Aren't they gorgeous. AND reduced from £100 to £50. I just had to. I can't wait til Thursday when I get to try them out running for the first time. <BR> <BR> Isn't it funny how putting nice shoes on can improve your mood so very much. Tue, 14 Jan 2014 15:48:44 EST Run...and also alphabetise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590285 So I went running instead of resting. My foot felt so much better when I woke up that I momentarily entertained the thought that it might have got better overnight. Wishful thinking, of course. <BR> <BR> I am in such a funny mood today. When the people at work were asked to say something nice about me, the vast majority said "she bakes good"; I do it so often it seems to have become a character trait. But today I got out a cookie mix my Mum bought me for Christmas, and then put it away agai... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 13:05:59 EST Run/rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589402 Oof my foot hurts today! Why the heck does plantar fasciitis take so long to naff off?? <BR> So now there's a big debate in my head: do I run tomorrow or do I rest? <BR> <BR> I would go to the gym, so it wouldn't be too hard on my foot. <BR> <BR> But it hasn't hurt this much since I first injured it. <BR> <BR> But I'm afraid that if I miss one day I'll miss more and more. I'm still halfway through building up my distance and stamina from scratch; I can't face the thought of having to star... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:12:47 EST Fuel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585869 Dear mind, <BR> <BR> remember that one time you got really angry and made me just go for a run without eating anything? Remember how you gloated about anger being such an efficient fuel, saying maybe if I got angry instead of stuffing my face I would be thin by now. And then remember how five minutes in my legs nearly gave way and I had to stop, go home, and eat something. Most importantly, do you remember getting home at last and eating a banana, just a banana, and thinking how phenomenally... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 16:18:18 EST New me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584512 Don't worry, this is not yet another "new year, new me!" thing. No, today I actually discovered that the new me appeared ages ago. <BR> <BR> Last year was so bad it knocked me every which way until I didn't know who I was any more. Since then, everything I've done has been to help me get back to normality, to who I was before, to the 'real me'. But during my walk to work this morning, the following thought suddenly popped into my head: <BR> <BR> I will never ever be the same person I was be... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 15:19:29 EST Measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582942 I knew I wouldn't like what the tape measure told me. But there's nothing like reality smacking you across the face for a bit of motivation. So as of this morning, here are my measurements. <BR> <BR> Neck: 34 cm <BR> Below bust: 84 cm <BR> Upper arm: 32 cm <BR> Wrist: 16.4 cm <BR> Waist: 83 cm <BR> Hips: 109 cm <BR> Thigh: 64.5 cm <BR> Calf: 40.5 cm <BR> <BR> Aside from my wrist, every single one of those numbers is at least half a centimetre bigger than at my last measure-in. And my wrist ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 12:17:46 EST Tapes and scales http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582051 I just realised I have fallen back into very, very old ways. The ways of the scale. All I measure is the number in that wee digital box, and somehow that has come to define my worth again. Er...WHEN THE HECK DID THAT HAPPEN??? <BR> <BR> As soon as I figure out where my tape measure has got to I am measuring the heck out of myself. Well, maybe not as soon as I find it, as it's the end of the day now. But tomorrow morning prepare to be measured, body! I suspect I won't like the numbers I get,... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 15:59:15 EST My love life (or lack thereof) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580702 Toward the end of last year I had a big stress about maybe going out with a guy from work. Turns out that was for nothing as he said "we'll maybe do something on Saturday", I said "sure" and then Saturday rolled round and I didn't hear one word from him. <BR> So that was a no. <BR> <BR> I went to the last salsa night of 2013 and ended up getting another guy's number. I told him I was busy that weekend, but maybe we could meet up the weekend after. We texted a bit in the interim. Then it got... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 12:01:10 EST Strength will rise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579177 A good friend shared this with me a couple of days ago: <BR> http://www.metaboliceffect.com/new-year-<BR>resolutions/ <BR> <BR> As I've decided not to do resolutions, I thought it would be good to help me to still have some kind of direction for my year. <BR> <BR> I freely admit that most of the names in the 'people I admire' bit were fictional characters, but there was also my Grandma, and Molly Galbraith from Girls Gone Strong. The one thing all of them had in common (aside from all bei... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 09:57:14 EST Happy jar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577496 Anyone who's been reading my blogs for a while will know that 2013 was absolutely hideous for me. I lost family, friends, a boyfriend, my health, and all my job security. It was the worst year of my entire life so far. <BR> <BR> BUT back in January an amazingly lovely friend suggested setting up a Happy Jar; every time something good happens you write it down and put it in the jar, so at the end of the year you can look over them and remember all the good times and tiny little moments that y... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 08:19:38 EST You really don't have to read this, I'm just processing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565504 I've heard it said that the state of your bedroom is a reflection of your mental state. If that's true then I fear for my sanity! <BR> <BR> So today I'm going to spend some time sorting out my bombsite of a room, and also trying to process some of the things that have happened over the last year and a bit. Starting with something that never fails to make me raging angry: the ex. <BR> <BR> A lot of that anger comes from feeling that I wasted 18 months of my life on a sexist pig with a God ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 09:34:49 EST Free time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561257 So guess who just got signed off work for a week. I'll give you a hint; she looks and sounds a lot like me. <BR> <BR> I went to see my nice doctor and it was good, I was smiling, she said I should still go see the counsellor when an appointment finally appears but it looked like I was doing good with helping myself. Then she asked me how work was going, and I burst into tears. And then I couldn't stop for an awkwardly long time. You know what I really hate? My voice when I'm crying and try t... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 12:00:35 EST New anti-bingeing process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555196 I've finally found a way to stop shoving food into my mouth even when I'm not hungry for it! It's very simple; as soon as I binge on something, I have to throw it away. <BR> That includes 'good' and 'bad' food, healthy and unhealthy, marshmallows, cake, bananas, Greek yoghurt, peanuts, anything AT ALL that I binge on. <BR> <BR> Bingeing (for me) counts as:- <BR> - eating more than I planned or wanted to <BR> - eating something when I know I'm not hungry <BR> - eating anything without weighi... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 15:41:49 EST New perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553560 On the way home from yet another night out last night (what is happening to me?) I got to thinking about this new guy. Who, by the way, is definitely not just after a friendship. He IS leaving the country in about 2 weeks and not coming back for 2 months...or maybe ever. Yet another reason to push him away and not bother. <BR> <BR> But thinking about it, this guy liking me feels like the first good thing to happen to me in about 15 months. After reaching a place where I seriously believed I ... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 16:30:21 EST Love is in the air http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552645 Or at the very least a date is on the cards. <BR> <BR> There is a guy at work, he was there on that wonderful Friday last week when I went out with some work people. He was also there this Monday when I went to see my friend's band play. Both times we got talking, and it was nice in an "AAAAH I'm still such a mess, I can't deal with this, but I really want to be able to!!" kind of way. <BR> <BR> We will be doing something tomorrow at some point (yes, that's as specific as I can get. I'm gue... Fri, 29 Nov 2013 08:26:41 EST Strapped up (again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550863 It was all going so well. My foot really liked being strapped up; by the weekend I hardly got any plantar fascia twinges at all, and I was so looking forward to getting the straps off and starting to build up my running distance again. <BR> <BR> But then we got to Monday, Thai boxing day. That was also going so well. I did a modified warmup that didn't involve jumping but still got me as warm as I needed to be. We got the pads out and I gave it my all (still not bouncing on my sore foot) for... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 16:14:55 EST Me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548186 I'm going to test my powers of condension (yeah, that's a word now) to explain just how amazing last night was. <BR> <BR> In just over a year I've lost my two remaining grandparents, two very, very good friends, a boyfriend, my job security, and any happiness or satisfaction I may have got from my work. I also gained an iron deficiency. I was so exhausted in every way I ended up going to the doctors and crying when she asked me how I was doing. I felt lighter afterwards. <BR> <BR> I was re... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 05:30:00 EST Funny-sounding injury http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546838 I don't really like telling people what's wrong with my foot; it's one of those words that I just can't take seriously. Like flan. <BR> <BR> Anyway I have plantar fasciitis (giggle), caused by walking round all day on my flat feet a few weeks ago, and then running, salsa-ing and Thai boxing so much it couldn't recover. <BR> <BR> So this is my foot now: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1258836777.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sexy. But it's only for a week, during which time I'm t... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 10:43:21 EST Rainbow food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545390 I was preparing my breakfast and dinner at the same time this morning, and they looked so beautiful I just had to get photos of them: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1354393764.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l662120517.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Look at those colours. Look at them! And they tasted exactly as good as they looked. Tue, 19 Nov 2013 16:04:15 EST Moving on? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543553 I encountered my ex today, for the first time in several months. I may have been a little ruder than was entirely necessary. Like, texting on my phone and refusing to look at him the whole time he was talking to me and only giving monosyllabic answers type rude. It's not like me at all, but I'm still so, so angry at the things he said about me when we broke up. <BR> <BR> On the way home my flatmate said I need to move on like he's moved on. She "wasn't sure she should tell me" that he's got... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 15:15:34 EST Is it me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542766 One of my friends was recently dumped by her boyfriend. During the break up he told her women should be seen and not heard, and sex is for a man's pleasure and women can just deal with it. And she keeps texting him, and I keep yelling at her to stop giving him the time of day, never mind sending chatty text messages. <BR> <BR> Then there's my cousin who is currently on a date. With a guy who's opening message was "want to have sex?". But my cousin ignored that and he messaged her asking to ... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 15:05:11 EST Your isolated is my restful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540966 My manager is really very kind. She knows about the issues I'm having at the moment and I have her promise that if it all gets too much for me (as it did last week when I ended up crying at my desk with a tension headache) then I just have to let her know and she will sort everything so I can go home immediately. The Reception phone line is transferred upstairs in the afternoon so I don't have to answer it, as that was a big factor in the whole crying-at-my-desk thing. She told me to take w... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 10:10:01 EST Not working http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537034 So, since deciding to get back on track and throwing all my 'bad' food away I've actually gained another 5lbs. Turns out you can still get fat even if it's healthy food you can't stop shoving down your throat. <BR> <BR> I just don't understand. I know I need to stop, I want to stop, I know I'm just comfort eating and I know it's because I'm lonely, and I'm trying to connect with my friends a bit more. But still I just can't stop stuffing my face even when I'm already full. What am I suppose... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 03:30:32 EST Positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533493 Everything's gone a bit awful at the moment, and I've noticed that I'm losing the positive outlook I built up this time last year on SP. Which is actually the opposite of what needs to happen when everything goes awful. <BR> <BR> So, this is me attempting to turn myself around with a list of good things that have also happened recently: <BR> I had an amazing weekend away, which I paid for myself even after a 5-week month. <BR> My shoulders are starting to look really toned. <BR> I ran 5.5K i... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 02:00:45 EST Starting...now. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523312 I have been sliding, slowly but oh so very surely, back to The Way Things Were. And I have 6 rediscovered lbs to show for it. <BR> <BR> But right now, this very second I am digging my heels in, turning right round and starting that long uphill struggle again. Because I deserve that view at the top and I am so much better than the sludge of fat at the bottom. <BR> <BR> I just threw my unhealthy food in the bin. It's a waste but I should never have bought it in the first place. Tomorrow I wil... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 15:53:22 EST Side effects (TMI warning) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516215 And another reason I would rather not take iron tablets. Le side effects. <BR> <BR> I'm...backed up, shall we say. But of course I still get hungry so I've still been eating which has just added to the...stoppage. And now I'm apparently backed up all the way to my stomach and starting to feel sick quite regularly, on top of the sensation that there's a small boulder in my digestive system. <BR> <BR> All with the added bonus of not being able to wear my jeans because I feel like a sausage a... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 15:27:21 EST Waaaay out of my comfort zone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512316 The most basic of basic research (Google) will tell you that two foods with very high iron content are liver and molluscs. <BR> <BR> Which made my heart sink to somewhere around the centre of the Earth. I never ever eat any kind of offal, for the same reason I can't eat anything that is is still alive-shaped. One downside to an incredibly active imagination. <BR> <BR> I have actually tried molluscs twice. The first time was mussels - they smelled absolutely divine, but when it came to eati... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 12:47:47 EST Parkrun stats 12.10.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511455 Weather - sunny buy freezing <BR> Lapped by - 38 <BR> Number of marks overtaken - 17 <BR> Number of times I considered walking - At least 5 <BR> Number of times walking - 3 <BR> Time - 36:17 <BR> PB - Nope, but it's 1:26 faster than last week AND means I met my October goal of finishing in under 37 minutes! WOO HOOOOOOO! <BR> Now to get back to my pb time (and hopefully beat it) Sat, 12 Oct 2013 11:03:33 EST Iron will http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509123 The results of my blood test came back and it turns out I have an iron deficiency. <BR> I've no idea how, as my eating hasn't changed since over a year ago when I found SP and started eating real food. My food is still the same but my iron level is dropping. Strange. <BR> <BR> But now I'm angry. Because, without even bothering to discuss it, the doctor (not the nice one I saw the other day) has prescribed me iron tablets. I HATE the the whole mentality of "there's something wrong - throw p... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 16:16:16 EST *cue a play on the word 'October'* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506059 I've heard so many of these - Rocktober, Ocsober, Stoptober. <BR> If I were October I would be getting very miffed right now that nobody bothered to use my proper name. But then I never have liked nicknames. <BR> <BR> Anyway. Last month was a bit meh in every respect. This was partly due to my (no longer) mysterious exhaustion, but I reckon a big part of it was the fact that I didn't set any goals. I just sort of drifted along because I had nowhere to be and all the time in the world to ge... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 14:13:19 EST Parkrun stats 05.10.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505048 Weather: Dull and drizzly <BR> Lapped by - 29 <BR> Number of marks overtaken - 14 <BR> Number of times I considered walking - Many <BR> Number of times walking - 4 <BR> Time - 37:43 <BR> PB - Nope, but I am still proud of it. <BR> <BR> I'm almost disregarding today's time, because even if it had taken me an hour I would still be so proud of myself. From the moment my eyes blearily opened this morning I started trying to talk myself out of running. I'm too tired, I'm getting a cold, my legs a... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 09:08:42 EST Not just a tired person http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503263 I saw a lovely, lovely doctor this time. She actually listened to me and didn't make me feel like there were a hundred other things she would rather be doing. <BR> <BR> This morning I went for a blood test, just to rule out anemia, vitamin deficiencies etc but Lovely Doctor believes my mysterious exhaustion is emotional tiredness. After everything that's happened over the last year it does make sense. <BR> <BR> So I have a number in my bag that I'm to call to arrange some counselling sessi... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 08:37:21 EST Parkrun stats 28.09.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498432 Weather: Gorgeously sunny <BR> Lapped by - 42 <BR> Number of marks overtaken - 9 (including 2 on the finish straight that I am incredibly proud of!) <BR> Number of times I considered walking - 5 <BR> Number of times walking - 3 (curse you, hills) <BR> Time - 37:27 <BR> PB - Nope, but getting better! Sat, 28 Sep 2013 10:43:44 EST Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493543 I was right - the pizza was exactly as disappointing as the KFC. It was dry and really not as flavourful as I remembered, and for several hours afterwards I felt like I had rocks in my stomach. <BR> When when when when WHEN will I learn that junk food is just not worth it?? Well, not the savoury stuff anyway. The last craving I gave in to was a McDonalds milkshake and that was worth every single gorgeous calorie. Mmm. <BR> <BR> This morning I had an ice cream cookie sandwich for my breakfast... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 08:24:57 EST Torture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491687 Have I ever described the torturous route I have to walk from the station after parkrun? <BR> <BR> First of all I get off the train and there's a coffee and cake stand to my left and a bagel place to my right. I leave the station and pass my favourite chip shop then a Greggs bakery, and there's also a pizza place on the other side of the road. <BR> I come to a crossroads and on the four corners I see and smell: <BR> A noodle bar <BR> KFC <BR> McDonalds <BR> Pizza Hut <BR> <BR> All eating pl... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 06:43:53 EST Pizza http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491254 I've been having pizza cravings most days for the last few weeks. I was just walking down the frozen aisle in the supermarket and sloooowed right down to gaze longingly at the pizzas. It's getting ridiculous. <BR> <BR> So, stuff it - I'm going to have pizza! <BR> <BR> But I'm going to have it tomorrow, after walking to Parkrun, jogging 5K, and walking home again. And neither Pizza Hut nor Dominos will deliver to my area (Lazy. It's only a 10-minute walk) so I will have to walk there and ... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 15:22:28 EST