OHMEMEME's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OHMEMEME OHMEMEME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Point of No Return...balancing the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752803 DAILY WEIGH IN = 180.6 <BR> <BR> Point of no return! Allowed the climb up to high maintenance range but have now gone over the top. It must stop here. Officially back to being overweight. I am in control. July was celebratory I might say. Free and independent summer month. Hmmm, what is it that I preached to my children - (with freedom comes responsibility!) Enjoyed but it is over. August brings a new routine. Back to work at school and embracing structure and scheduling. Hard to admit but ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 09:56:14 EST Maintenance Insights...coming to terms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750450 While I am still within 5 pounds of my maintenance range I am struggling internally. I thought my summer(off from my teaching job) would at least bring maintenance, but it looks like a trend totaling a +5 lb gain...I think I could have been happy with even that, but I am unhappy about my inconstancies of splurges, treats, binges, emotional eating episodes... If I had been consistent within range or even used well-planned, off-regimen ideas I would be happy with myself teetering from the low e... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 14:31:12 EST Instilling Core Beliefs for Maintenance...positive self talk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714211 Instilling Core Beliefs for Maintenance <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Hi there! Felt inclined to share a few more ideas/tips... <BR> The slogan/mantra I mentioned about controlling emotional eating with logical thinking, I think comes from Steve Seibold's Fatloser free ebook. These are a few core beliefs that I use on my Spark goal board on the Start page. I really like that new feature to help prepare myself for the day and instill the positive self talk. <BR> <BR> Here's a few I got from Spar... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 12:45:48 EST It's Summertime...! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708812 Summer is usually a good healthy season for me. I am a school teacher/librarian so am off of work for 10 weeks. WOOHOO! <BR> <BR> I use my summers to rest and rejuvenate MYSELF. I still wake pretty early and just sit with my coffee, my thoughts & prayers, and my iPad after DH goes off to work. I like exercising at a reasonable 8:30 am with my retired (so jealous of her) sister. <BR> <BR> The low stress level amazingly changes my eating habits. However, daylight hours are so long I have to ... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:27:49 EST I won this battle...today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690094 Fighting, Fighting, Fighting! Hungry all afternoon. Moody! Emotional! Not feeling full at all. Top range and maybe...over...later...I did it! Or should I say I didn't! I didn't eat anything else and stayed in range. Tomorrow is another day! And I can eat again...now was that sooo bad? <BR> <BR> Hunger is a means to weightloss not a punishment or deprivation. Wed, 7 May 2014 21:55:03 EST Happy ending of 12 Week Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657397 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1762600209.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I took on a 12 week weightloss challenge at my local ladies fitness club and WON! ...in more ways than one. <BR> <BR> It all started so simply with 5 bucks and set your own goal which I did at losing 15 lbs in 12 weeks. Thought okay so I get my $5 back if I meet my goal so how big could the overall pot be without knowing how many girls would join??? Pay $1 for each pound gained per week and $5 if you miss a weigh... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 22:47:56 EST Sweet emptiness...and cheesecake fiasco... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655771 As I was running errands after work today I noticed a "sweet emptiness" in my tummy. It was the feeling of just a little hunger possibly and/or maybe that little emotional hunger of the end of a stressful day at work that I chose not to immediately satisfy. It was a pleasant feeling! <BR> <BR> I am going for my final weigh in of my 12 week challenge this week so that extra motivation to keep things in check is a motivator. <BR> <BR> I don't like to exercise with food in my stomach so I hav... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 22:48:56 EST NSV...with an SV...update week 11... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651944 <em>9</em> <BR> I am on a "new year" roll. Week 11 I have a -1.5 lb loss = 14 lbs for 2014. That's a scale victory! <BR> <BR> But the real victory...the NSV is that looking back at diary entries shows that this is the first time in almost three years that I am at this "place," showing a losing trend in the early months of the year. I am usually battling during this season fighting off till I have more time during the late spring and summer to plan, track, exercise more. I get very stresse... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 22:08:42 EST Update for week #10 of new year challenge... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648094 <em>9</em> things are going very well. I just logged in a -1.5 lbs for week ten of my twelve week challenge at my fitness club. That's -12 lbs for my new year 2014. I am really excited about the consistent loss. Only had a gain one week. Like week 3 or 4. My mini goal is 3lbs away = 177 for the final weigh in that happens in two weeks. <BR> <BR> But the journey doesn't end there...I still want to finally achieve my original goal of 175 that I set nearly 3 years ago. I have come so close p... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 23:58:54 EST Moving forward... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641677 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1967450247.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I maintain my weight with healthy food choices and portions. <BR> <BR> I track my food to check appropriate calories for maintaining my weight. <BR> <BR> <BR> I hold off on instant satisfaction for gratification of savoring my next meal. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l937453112.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am grateful than I now have 10 lbs to lose rather than 50! <BR> <BR> I want to f... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 21:24:43 EST I will do this...! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628932 <em>104</em> I feel like I am so doing this! <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> Eating logically and strategically. <BR> Delaying instant satisfaction and thinking through it for later gratification. <BR> Using the emotions for motivation. <BR> Diligently planning and tracking. <BR> Getting in some treats without overindulging...staying near top of range. <BR> Getting a little hungry but holding at top of range?!?! <BR> Using my daily motivation board for mantras that instill core beliefs a... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 07:14:42 EST On a roll...NSV AND SV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623487 The new year is going good for healthy eating, regular exercise, weightloss, and mental toughness about all of it. It feels good to make wise choices. I feel in control and confident. I am not richer, more famous, younger, nor do I look much different but I FEEL so much better about it all. <BR> <BR> I weighed in today for a little challange at a local ladies fitness club and have lost 8 lbs this new year. We have 6 more weeks to go and I hope to drop another 5. That'll take off all of the ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 21:43:41 EST Snow in Louisiana is no excuse...Week 3 update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610203 Snow in Louisiana is no excuse... <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1001891893.jpg"> <BR> Off of school (3days)again due to weather (ice and snow in Louisiana!) but the sun is shining and ice is melting. <BR> <BR> Week 3 of new beginning is feeling bleak. <BR> Snowed in for two days...and busted on day 2 on choc popcorn and just too much food. Managed to control it day one but...angry, disappointed, but moving on. <BR> <BR> I must remember if there is a gain then I must su... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 12:17:37 EST Fat Loser... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604478 Reflecting on tough lessons learned from fatloser.com free ebook... <BR> <BR> Being an emotional eater the "critical thinking" component sounds like a useful tool. <BR> <BR> Seibold analyzes positive, negative, and critical thinking strategies. <BR> He says that both positive and negative thinking can serve us positively and not. <BR> I tend to be a positive thinker and therefore, mostly guided by emotion. That is supportive of relationships and overall positive well being, but it also l... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 14:15:15 EST NSV Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591661 My post holiday reboot is going really good. I call this first week back on track an NSV because I stayed within my limits while still enjoying "social eating." Thursday sushi night with coworkers, Friday night out to eat with out of town relatives and Sat date night with movie and restaurant with DH! I also squeezed in two weekend walks in addition to my regular exercise days! It feels so good to know that I CAN DO THIS! And not only do it but be happy and confident that I made wise choices,... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 21:11:24 EST Gotta want it...(before & after pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583610 Asking myself how bad I really want this??? Meeting my goal? Maintaining? <BR> <BR> I've been at this for 2 1/2 yrs now, keeping off 35-40 lbs of the 50 I've lost but I still have not ever reached my goal weight which is very reasonable even almost too high. But worse than not reaching goal is the inconsistency of the last year...as stated by Tinajane76 <BR> "Although I was more or less maintaining, I was basically still overdoing it at certain times of the year (vacations and holida... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 21:55:45 EST A new year, a new decade for ME @ 50! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579347 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1012421428.jpg"> <BR> This is me now! <BR> <BR> My birthday, Dec 22nd (I hit the big 50!),so starting a new year has triple meaning for me! I am glad to say that this year, along with the last 2 yrs, has been an inner celebration because of my weightloss and maintenance. I still don't consider myself a maintainer quite yet because I have not hit my initial goal, and I battle everyday to lose a few pounds I put back on. But, I have kept most... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 11:55:58 EST Emotional eating... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454022 Back to school eating was as emotional as predicted and beyond...so off kilter...hungry ALL morning and starving even with morning snack! I ate a good breakfast of egg and whole wheat toast. i brought a protein meal bar for a late morning snack and had it by 9 a.m. watching the clock at 10:30 waiting for a chance to eat again! All summer long i had to make myself eat something before 11 so i could call it breakfast. So at 11:25 i Wolfed down prepared salad while driving around deciding if I c... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 13:22:52 EST Two years later... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447027 Today I did my official weigh in for the week/month. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> lost 3.5 lbs = 179.5 lbs August 2013 <BR> <BR> <em>100</em> one year ago August 2012 185lbs <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> two years ago August 2011 213.5 <BR> <BR> I have kept track of my weigh-ins on my Spark and continually go back to see the trends... <BR> <BR> It has been a bumpy road and I am still navigating some dangerous territories but can say that my journey has been successful! <em>224</em> <B... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 23:00:35 EST Approaching Two-Year Sparkversary.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400275 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l625975623.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This Spark motivation slogan sums it up pretty good! <BR> 2 years of Sparking and now calling my own success because though I have not yet fully attained my original goal, I have maintained a 40 lb weight loss for over a year. I still Spark, track nutrition, blog, read up and check in with Spark friends and teams because this journey is not over. I work to continue making healthy choices that promote weightloss, ma... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 13:41:46 EST New pic I can post with self acceptance... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354505 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l489389773.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I can finally take a pic and feel comfortable sharing. This is me on the left with my daughter, Michelle, May 2013 graduating college with a doctorate in pharmacy. I am so very proud of her! <BR> <BR> I have been on this weight-loss, maintenance, gain a few/lose a few for almost two years now. I am now 6lbs from my goal weight. I am planning and working on making this a lifetime commitment to a heathy lifestyle t... Sun, 12 May 2013 22:54:52 EST Positive weeks ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329613 I have been working out a few kinks with my plan...let me see if I kind find a few words to focus on: reboot, re-establish, reset, renew, re-apply. I guess those will work. I am staying away from back-sliding, starting over, rebounding, yo-yoing. Those are kinda negative and when I think clearly and optimistically they really don't describe the place I am in. In the past they most certainly did, but this time I just never quit or gave up. I took breaks, rested, refocused, reassessed.... And s... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 11:52:18 EST Thinking out loud... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325739 Looking back at tracking nutrition notes on thoughts and feelings about eating identifying patterns by the month and PMS cycling. Sooo....ok....I feel a little bloated, sleepy...but have been in control for two weeks losing 2.5 lbs. as I look back at my log this is the exact time that I fell to the binge and stopped tracking for two weeks. Coincidence? PMS? Excuses? <BR> <BR> I am trying so hard to drop my 10lb winter coat! I look back at tracking on my Sparkpage and stand in awe of myself.... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 21:56:06 EST Trying to regain momentum... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284515 The struggle continues. The difference is I know I can do it. I believe! <BR> <BR> I am recognizing why I slip up and sometimes fall. I wish I could wish away the extra pounds put on the last few months but know that's not possible. Sooo...I keep tracking and making healthy choices more often than not. I look back at logs and blogs and read about successes and struggles of others to keep myself from denial, traps, hard times. I do still get really discouraged and frustrated that the weight ... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 22:04:19 EST Monthly weigh in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265279 This was a roller coaster month with the scale! The more I tried to focus, regroup, rededicate, hit it hard, etc...including weighing weekly the crazier it got. 184, 188, 192, 188, 185. But today was the official for the month - 185lbs. No gain...ahhhh. Not sure of the plan for next month?!?! Hopefully just being reasonable. I do know that emotional eating is the biggest culprit and as hard as I try and as much as I have learned and even succeeded, I DO NOT HAVE THIS MASTERED! BUT, I am stil... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 21:38:17 EST Making it real... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258044 Sharing entries from my personal notes to myself on my food tracker for anyone who happens by and needs to see real struggles BUT still say, hell yes, I am successful. When I get discouraged I check back on my Sparkpage to see the ups and downs I've been through for the last year and a half then OWN the lbs I have kept off and refute the ones I gain by starting over again and again. <BR> Date & Calories <BR> My Nutrition Notes <BR> 1/21/13 <BR> 1,252 Calories Binge is over! Started period Sa... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 21:56:25 EST Monthly weigh-in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229421 Up a pound from Jan 1. Up too many pounds for comfort. Hate moving the ticker in the wrong direction. Hard weightloss lessons still to learn. Tue, 29 Jan 2013 21:54:40 EST Recognizing old patterns... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217664 It happens every now and again. Allowing the free for all eat whatever. Plunging into the binge of more, more, more. Anger, guilt, shame, blame! PMS emotional eating... <BR> <BR> What have I learned? Maybe to recognize what is happening. Acknowledging that it is my problem. <BR> <BR> And I so do not want to slip back to the old ways because with it comes more depression and weight gain. Or is it weight gain then depression? I admit to myself that I am have some very personal internal strug... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:12:28 EST Aha...yada yada yada...venting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199505 I guess this is more of a journal entry than a blog...need to put my thoughts down... <BR> <BR> "Aha" I am doing yoga because it is what I LIKE and feels sooo good. I have not quite convinced myself that it is "real" exercise but I am coming around somewhat since I asked my instructor to give me a little bit more. But the part of the aha is that today I turned into McDonalds for an afternoon mocha latte because I was out and about and felt "deserving" after all this is just for me. But I sto... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 21:18:51 EST Pat on the back... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195862 Okay so I am feeling some guilt of unhealthy choices the last few days! <BR> <BR> BUT you know what? 99% of the time I choose unsweetened tea over diet soda even when I give myself permission to choose. I just don't like the way the diet soda makes me feel anymore. Now don't get me wrong there is that 1% on occasion that I want it and only it and I drink it. But it has been a year and a half that I have broken the diet drink habit! <BR> <BR> I was hungry today after my walk and was having a... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:36:14 EST Self check... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187835 I MADE myself get on the scale for the post holiday pig out! Well, up 6 lbs. <BR> <BR> As with most, the new year brings the need for self reflection so I have gone back to my weigh in posts on my Sparkpage and my old blogs from a year ago. I still feel and remember the sentiments but also realize the difference I have made in my body. SUCCESS!?!? Yes, I am 6 lbs up from the holidays but still 5 lbs less than this same time last year! How? I feel the year has been such a roller coaster of h... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 09:50:47 EST Making it public for myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178619 Goal setting has not been one of my strengths and feels pressured and unnatural to me so I am moving out of my comfort zone with this post. Lol <BR> <BR> I have been working at this consistently for 19 months. I have written a few things down, many of which I have done consistently and others have not. I still carry some fear of failure if I don't meet those goals so I am constantly battling the "perfectionism" syndrome or maybe it's that old record of "if you don't try, you won't fail" thin... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 10:10:30 EST Monthly weigh in and other stuff... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157482 Did lose 1 more lb this month which is still my goal....maintain or slow loss. Deep down I wish it would be more but I am trying to stay real...my clothes feel great...but I know I could be just a little lighter...Again trying to live life so that I can manage and MAINTAIN what I have achieved. I do not want to ever go back to being that fat and unhappy person. Life circumstances may make me unhappy but I can control how fat I am. I am scared to death to gain but I know that I must find the r... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 20:15:57 EST Planning for maintainance ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130330 I am getting close to goal. When I started this journey a year and a half ago, I intended it to be different this time. Well it has been different and has not always, rather hardly ever gone according to plan. BUT that does not mean that making or having a plan has not been successful - oxymoron. So the same with maintainance... I have been searching and studying all the info I can get on this topic and found some inspiring, motivating, and some discouraging info...but all to be considered. T... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 08:51:46 EST Monthly weigh-in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5118342 <em>224</em> Down 2 lbs this month and hit the 170's. 179lbs that is 50 lbs down. Better than that...I have been at this for a year and a half with soooo many ups and downs and all arounds but I AM DOING THIS! I am now only 4 lbs from original goal. Thinking about how I will get there and what strategies and goals to set for the holidays???? I just so do not want to backslide and live in that constant fear. So I guess I really need to focus on conquering that fear and weightloss and mainta... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 20:27:29 EST October's weigh-in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5085493 1 pound gone in October! I so dreaded this weigh in because the two weeks prior were just not good for me. I also knew that last year September was a bad month stress, scale and weightwise. BUT...despite those facts, i managed to lose a pound. I have not owned it just yet because I still feel bloated and stressed BUT... When I looked back at my log on my Sparkpage I found that I am 18lbs less than the same time last year. WHAT!?!? Oh the mind can be so cruel sometimes. Why do we allow these t... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 16:58:28 EST Losing steam but not heart... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080071 I knew that going back to work teaching anew school year would bring added stress which for me means emotional eating. Big changes in my job have just compounded that problem. As much as I tried to prepare myself I am still overwhelmed. Looking back to last year, September was not a good time with the scales. I do my monthly weigh in in a few days and am dreading it. I Tell myself I will be happy with any loss and even content with maintenance but when I think about how hard I have struggled ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 00:17:54 EST Did it, done, movin on... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5060321 Saw it coming and tried to be reasonable but fell somewhat. But not all out! I will mark that as success and move on... Ate the leftover stew within SOME reason for lunch. Revisited the afternoon candy bar and chose Route 44 diet DP. Broke at 5 fudge round, corn chips, choc chips with almonds, more corn chips. Out to eat eggplant pirogue. Restaurant did me a favor with portion size. Full out fat and serving of blue cheese dressing. Put off dessert at home and had Andes choc mint. Okay I am do... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 11:50:08 EST Monthly weigh-in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5044605 A scale victory! Down 3 lbs from last month. Of course, I wanted a loss but had resigned myself to accepting just maintainance. I have been steadily tracking my nutrition and exercising consistently. However, most days I was at the top end of calorie range and often times a little over. But I have learned that about my body and my "self." I must have a pretty good metabolism because I require and demand high volume when I eat, even when it's not emotional eating. I thought I was interested in... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 21:06:27 EST Back to work anxieties ... As predicted... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5017282 Okay. So I am back to work two days. So far so good but boy am I anxious. Just teacher meetings all week so it's a good way to start. But sitting in a desk and having little control of a schedule and free time and deciding to eat when you feel the need or should I say desire is a feeling that is HARD to fight. I am reminding myself that it's the need to feel in control and the need to be pacified by food that I am fighting and not true hunger. I didn't get hungry much over the summer and did ... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:54:18 EST Summer Goal Achieved... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5007274 <em>104</em> Yeah! I did it! <BR> <BR> My official end-of-summer weigh-in was today. 185lbs which is a 19 lb loss for the summer. I had gained 14 lbs in the spring and my goal was to take them off. And I did +. I feel great about my accomplishment and will continue to work towards goal...ten more pounds. So far 44lbs in one year. <BR> <BR> To anyone who happens along here. Let me tell you...It is possible to live a healthier lifestyle without dieting and still lose weight. Search out S... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 20:39:24 EST Preparing for back to work/ school... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005236 Spoiled rotten....that's me. Had the whole summer to exercise whenever however I wanted to and shop and cook and prepare all kinds of seasonal goodies and now I have to give up my fun and squeeze it into a work schedule. It's not just the time because I still have plenty but to regroup and make it work! I will say it again to anyone who works full time....SPOILED ROTTEN TEACHER, that's me. Planning and packing food to go, YUCK! Working out very early or after long hard day, YUCK, YUCK! <BR> ... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 14:36:57 EST Enjoying NSVs... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4990981 I decided at the beginning of summer to weigh in once a month because the my weekly weighing had become so radical with of course my radical eating the last few months. I was becoming very discouraged. That's when I refocused on clean eating and continued exercise. <BR> <BR> NSV #1 I mentioned a while back about little indentions in the belly fat, well there is definately a change in the waist and belly. I wish I had beginning measures but don't. Guess it was shame and fear of failure. Mu... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 21:42:33 EST One Year Sparkvesary...this is how the story goes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4967336 <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> It's been a year now that I've been Sparking. I started out with the big idea of just getting the weight off but also in the back of my mind I kept telling myself that I wanted it to be different this time. I wanted the weight off as soon as possible but also wanted to learn more about maintainance. Well, it's like all those other big plans of our own with preconceived notions; it didn't turn out as I thought or thought I planned. LOL <BR> <BR> I did lose 40 lbs i... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 14:32:00 EST Taking My Own Advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934676 I'm going to try something new here. <BR> <BR> I sometimes visit someone's page and read a comment that inspires me and then realize that it was MY comment to them! <BR> <BR> So I am going to try copying and pasting whatever I advise to others and maybe heed my own advice and motivate and inspire myself <BR> <BR> .Please do not doubt the sincerity of my messages because I am deciding to do this because every comment I make on Spark is heartfelt. <BR> I hope that others can be inspired by... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 12:01:44 EST One of those http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4933922 Amazing how some days healthy eating and living can happen so naturally! I don't get many of those but when the hormones and everyday life are harmonious it just happens. If most of my days could feel like this, I would be one healthy, fit individual. It's funny how on days like my day today I envision that person I really want to be. <BR> <BR> The hungries did not visit me today. Yay! <BR> I actually craved fruit and yogurt and cottage cheese and cabbage and water( not all together)....? I... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 22:25:22 EST Not so sure... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924610 Reflecting on my goals and intentions and trying to balance commitment and failures of perfectionism. Pondering, Okay I am somewhat noncommittal for fear of failure. I am realizing that I have perfectionist tendencies because if I don't think I can really do it then maybe I shouldn't do it at all. Hence - diet and exercise - all or nothing. Exercise like hell and binge eat! That's what I've done this last 3 months. Committed to regular exercise but ate way too much. Now I want to exercise eve... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 10:40:53 EST A few days at a time... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4920671 Good start to recommitting to healthy eating! Increased fruits and veggies. Ate yogurt and cottage cheese. Got most of my water done. Kept my senses at special occasion. Tracked it all. Amazing how much better the food and sticking to summer goals feels. Tomorrow I try out Insanity! On my way to a healthy summer.... <BR> <BR> To anyone out there who needs to hear it with me...just keep starting again and again and again. Don't let setbacks sabotage what could could be. Today is the day to ma... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 21:16:15 EST Mindless Eating... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4877163 Or should I call it a BINGE. Excuses, blame, blame, excuses, pity party, justification...PMS. 9 days of mindless, emotional eating. Stuffed, bloated, disgusted, busted... <BR> <BR> I think of how I busted my A$$ for 8 weeks doing step aerobics faithfully 4 days a week of 3 1hr sessions and one 1/2 hr session. My body is changing in ways I never imagined because I've been so concerned with scale/lbs and all the overeating. How STUPID is it to do all this work and then just self-sabotage!?!? <... Fri, 11 May 2012 13:56:15 EST Just Keep On ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862743 These days are the reasons I did my Positive Blogs...the mind games have begun. Just last week I was so positive about how I look and feel and how far I have come in the past year. <BR> <BR> Today I am fretting because I saw pics from the weekend and they do not match how I was feeling!?!?! <BR> <BR> Last week I was happy with my exercise efforts and acknowledge that I went over cals many days but ate within reason without binging or emotional eating. Last week I accepted that the scale h... 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