OFGREENGABLES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OFGREENGABLES OFGREENGABLES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ i think this was my come to jesus moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411762 finally! Fri, 5 Jul 2013 18:41:23 EST is this my come to Jesus moment? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361501 For the first time in a long time, I was honest about my food. Wow. no wonder I'm gaining. Sun, 19 May 2013 20:48:40 EST ack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336282 i don't think i've had the necessary come to Jesus moment but i keep. eating. too. much. and. drinking. beer. this. needs. to. stop. also I should sleep more. Fri, 26 Apr 2013 11:03:54 EST hmmm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266370 so I'm trying to keep on tracking. and planning out where I'm going to run tomorrow if it's still gross out. that's basically it! Wed, 27 Feb 2013 18:56:57 EST keeping at it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262243 This morning I went for a run, ate after, but still felt a bit wonky. I need to figure out how to deal with that because it is my nemesis. If I don't deal with it right away, I feel off for the rest of the day and then eat mindlessly in the evening, which is basically the opposite of what I want, and is probably a stumbling block in my weight loss. Tonight I am going to deal with that. I'm going out in the evening, and when I come back I have a snack waiting. If I end up eating when I'm out, ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 15:18:44 EST scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261239 lately I've been struggling to stay in my range because of late night midnless eating, because I don't eat enough, especially enough protein, during the day, or enough after a workout to properly recover. so I've been working with that. <BR> I weighed myself yesterday, and was more or less what I had guessed (to keep my calorie range on track with my weight loss, and also so as to not report too many burned during activity). I was 1 lb heavier, but, to be fair, when I weighed myself regularl... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 16:07:16 EST keeping on keeping on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248263 seems to be having a positive effect. I still haven't reached the pant size I want, but my existing pants are feeling looser. (I refuse to go on the scale. The pant size number messes with me enough as it is!) Tue, 12 Feb 2013 21:10:01 EST sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242005 I've been feeling off for a while now. Tonight I made a delicious vegetable soup with a potato, and I am starting to feel better. Hopefully tomorrow I can go for the run I meant to go on today!! Thu, 7 Feb 2013 19:36:00 EST stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228331 right now I feel fine, but that's because the day hasn't started yet. I have food in the fridge to eat, and other things as well. Tue, 29 Jan 2013 08:15:57 EST doing this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227719 I think this is a bit of a repetitive theme here: either I'm on or I'm off, but when I'm off, lately I seem to be coming back to SP for inspiration. I think this is a step in the right direction. Mon, 28 Jan 2013 20:15:40 EST totally went over yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214112 I had planned to drink, and then drank more than planned. I think I need to plan to drink less - because apparently 3 beers is my tipping point between sticking to decisions I had made and keeping on drinking. Sat, 19 Jan 2013 10:12:46 EST mostly on track this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204026 today I am going to go over, and that's fine, but I was on track every weekday! Sunday I wasn't either. But I also ended up doing waaaay more exercise than I had planned, so hopefully the midweek days with lower eating balance out the today of more eating. I will plan tomorrow better! Sat, 12 Jan 2013 19:01:56 EST ok. doing it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199369 mostly on track. lowered my fitness minutes because this week it's just not happening. Wed, 9 Jan 2013 19:49:23 EST plateaus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194437 I am doing the free Spark Coach trial and I'm supposed to write about plateaus. I don't know if I have a plateau or not, because I don't weight myself anymore, but I am in a bit of a rut, and just getting back my love of tracking, so I think all the motivational videos should help. Mon, 7 Jan 2013 07:59:30 EST job interviews http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189570 I have a few interviews in the coming week. Slight problem - the pants I bought pre xmas are a bit loose - they never fit perfectly, but I thought I might gain over xmas (which I did) but then have lost a bit since then, or toned up, and now i feel like I really should have gone to the tailor. Will do when I go home! <BR> other small note - this whole weight loss thing has helped me put myself as a priority which is enormously helpful when looking for a job. I have a friend going up against ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 08:11:02 EST really back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188847 have had good days this week in terms of limits, and am in a new city for a conference - went for a walk, ate as healthy as i could, and even did my bootcamp video, in spite of feeling foolish in front of my friend I'm staying with. But I did it anyway, because fitness and health need to be a priority, and this is how it's going to happen. Thu, 3 Jan 2013 20:12:23 EST back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182808 I've been really trying to be honest with myself. I think I am finally back on the straight and narrow. tonight I know I will go over, but I also know that it's because I want to drink beer to ring in the new year, and I'm ok with that. I'll try to be on track other days. Yesterday was a win, and tomorrow might be too. I feel really good that this isn't about new year's, that it's about a turn that I've been working towards half-way for a while, and am ready to get on with all the way. Mon, 31 Dec 2012 20:57:51 EST goal for the next week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180308 try and stay in my range. on sunday, and monday. then I will re-evaluate. Sat, 29 Dec 2012 22:11:27 EST egads http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172773 I will never make my cardio goal this week. At home, I walk or bike everywhere. I don't count the first 20-30 min, or going around the grocery store, but when I walk around 2 hours in one day, I definitely count part of it! This "passive cardio" contributes to my overall burn number. Now that I'm visiting family, and they have a car, and it's snowing heavily, it's a lot harder to get things done! Fri, 21 Dec 2012 09:59:57 EST vegetables http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172068 I went grocery shopping yesterday: I am at my parents' house, so I decided to take the reins, so to speak, so that I could get the food I wanted. And talked to my dad about what we would have for supper today and tomorrow, so that I know what I'm going to be eating. This is such a breakthrough for me - part of it is working towards weight loss (hopefully) or weight maintenance (more likely) throughout the holiday season - the other part is being able to say what I want, and then get it - whic... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 13:14:12 EST oh life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171361 i think I know why this isn't working. I expect to eat whatever I want and still lose weight. If only that were the case! Wed, 19 Dec 2012 19:10:01 EST planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169563 So this week I've committed to tracking what I actually eat, not what I wish I were eating. I know I'm still lying to myself a bit, but honestly? I had no idea it had gotten this out of hand. I said to myself, if I want to lose weight, and have this be a time that sticks, a time for me to say that I am more important than others in my life, that I need to look inwards in order to look outwards, that I need to be a bit selfish, then I need to look hard at what I am doing. And it is not what I'... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 22:08:34 EST ok. Sunday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098888 I am so tired. Too distracted to focus on anything but too distracted to rest. <BR> I think this is what we can call stress. And I know that stress is bad for weight loss, but that just makes me more stressed. It is a vicious cycle. Sun, 14 Oct 2012 17:17:22 EST hilarious binge eat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093317 I was still hungry at 9.15 pm so I opened the fridge and ate some eggplant-cheese things I made on the weekend: I thought to myself, oh no, I just ate three, I'd better eat some protein (spoon of beans) and cabbage to balance out. Without oil they are like 10 cals each! I think this is a win - I reached for healthy food and felt much, much better than I would have had I reached for the chips I'm saving for a rainy day. Tue, 9 Oct 2012 22:22:04 EST some more thoughts about the weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5085898 and a loss of a scale - I feel much better. I look at myself and mostly try and love myself. I think this is progress. Today, the first day at a new gym, I didn't weight myself. But, I am keeping to my calorie ranges pretty religiously - October challenge - keep within range for every day of my age. Wed, 3 Oct 2012 22:55:25 EST activity on holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081123 I am at the beach this weekend, and although my eating has been a bit off (although actually better than when I was at home, I'm actually eating because I'm hungry) I have done so many things. 7 years ago I never would have pictured an ideal holiday involving walking, biking, swimming and snorkelling. And now that sounds ideal! It was! I have also been able to sleep well, probably because of less stress! Sun, 30 Sep 2012 20:29:59 EST Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5076094 It's working out - I still have trouble falling asleep, but I'm more awake during the day and get up before my alarm clock! SP ftw. Wed, 26 Sep 2012 17:29:02 EST no more scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067500 I'm travelling at the moment and have not bothered to weigh myself in three weeks. It feels amazing. I can see that I'm losing but without the numerical confirmation, and that feels good for now. But how do I modify my calorie ranges without the numbers to guide me? Thu, 20 Sep 2012 08:49:12 EST No run today :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064037 I really like running, particularly the endorphins, but my knees are soooo sore. The reading I've done suggests its because of weak hips. So I'm going to work on strength training, yoga, and cross-training for the time being. Until I can do stairs without pain. Mon, 17 Sep 2012 22:15:10 EST Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5060498 today I was just not in the mood for running. I will try and do it tomorrow, but there's a big parade on the street where I usually run so I'm not sure it will work. I did a kickboxing video, and my bootcamp video. Maybe later I'll go for a long walk. Sat, 15 Sep 2012 14:39:01 EST I woke up too late http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057470 Not actually too late in terms of sleeping (9 hours ftw! - also I like sleeping more than the average person so 9 hours is probably my ideal. more than that, I'm definitely sick). <BR> But, the city where I live has more traffic than I've ever seen anywhere on earth, so, I'm struggling with the idea of running today. There are places I could go I guess, but I'd have to bike to them. Oh life. I guess I can get up and stop working and go outside! Thu, 13 Sep 2012 11:04:49 EST Today is a good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056805 I went to yoga today! It was a great new studio and I really loved the teacher. THIS is the kind of exercise I am willing to pay money for. It totally makes a difference, and helps me keep at it with the boot camp videos, and trying to sleep more. I am a bit worried since I did it at night, but let's hope for the best. Wed, 12 Sep 2012 21:57:36 EST and a third sleep installment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5053308 to complete the first week of the challenge! I slept lots. By lots I mean approx 8.5 to 9 hours. Maybe because I had enough exercise? Or maybe because I am getting used to the mosquitoes. I looked for a citronella candle yesterday but I just couldn't find one! I am setting my alarm for the same time every day now. That should help, I hope. Mon, 10 Sep 2012 20:36:26 EST more about sleeping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050782 because I said I'd try. Yesterday: 11 pm, wake up at 4.30. Checked clock. This was a mistake. I need to do something about those fing mosquitoes. Watched tv. again, should work on that. then I woke up at 8. Hurray! Sun, 9 Sep 2012 10:06:24 EST Sleeping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049858 I joined the sleep challenge because I want to sleep better! <BR> Yesterday, I wasn't feeling well. I went to bed at around 9, woke up at 10.30 thinking it was morning and then had fitful, mosquito infested sleep for the rest of the night. <BR> Sat, 8 Sep 2012 14:45:34 EST calorie range http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5032041 so it turns out I've been doing this all wrong, but I can't quite figure it out. my weight fluctuates way too much, and i have a lot more passive fitness than I think SP counts on, but I don't want to hedge my bets anymore. I'm in it to win it. By that I mean, become healthy. Sun, 26 Aug 2012 18:20:04 EST goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5016202 what are they? lose weight. I feel like on the fitness front I'm doing well. <BR> -eat food in the kitchen (away from computer) so that I can ENJOY IT!!! <BR> try doing this 3 nights a week. or eat with people. that's good too. <BR> Wed, 15 Aug 2012 07:59:24 EST and more amazing runs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013268 I should have started an sp running program a long time ago! Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:48:05 EST went for an amazing run today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5009912 It was soooo good. I came back super sweaty but felt great. Fri, 10 Aug 2012 15:16:57 EST weight loss is so confusing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005117 i weighed myself when I got up, was up a bit, then after breakfast, I had somehow lost 5 pounds. What? So weird. So, I wrote down a weight in between. Tue, 7 Aug 2012 13:22:16 EST mmm... food! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5003597 is delicious. except when it isn't: cf. bulgur pilaf that was a disaster. Mon, 6 Aug 2012 14:00:24 EST New thinking for the upcoming week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000059 Gah. I need to start planning my food. That will be helpful. Fri, 3 Aug 2012 21:36:35 EST New thinking for the upcoming week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000058 Gah. I need to start planning my food. That will be helpful. Fri, 3 Aug 2012 21:36:28 EST one day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4998300 even when I'm insanely hungry and can't figure out why! Thu, 2 Aug 2012 16:33:27 EST yesterday was not the best. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4995294 it ended with me emotionally eating in front of the pantry. Tue, 31 Jul 2012 20:03:58 EST I woke up too early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4992586 But can't go back to bed. Goal for today - drink less coffee. Mon, 30 Jul 2012 06:30:06 EST I woke up too early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4992585 But can't go back to bed. Goal for today - drink less coffee. Mon, 30 Jul 2012 06:30:01 EST a new week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4991317 a chance to start over, a chance for something fresh. That is what I am looking forward to. Sun, 29 Jul 2012 07:36:29 EST mid afternoon sugar low http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989653 I reached that point this afternoon where I needed to eat, had no food, and refused to buy more. So, I waited til I got home. But now I want to eat all the things. I had dinner and am going out soon. I want to have my blood sugar stabilized by then! Fri, 27 Jul 2012 17:56:41 EST due south http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988569 is awesome. that is all. Thu, 26 Jul 2012 22:49:35 EST