ODINRMC's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ODINRMC ODINRMC's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Ashamed to crawl back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301639 So it's been a while. I was still sparking when I started adding the lbs then I eventually stopped. I don't know what happened, or why, but I've been adding to the weight consistently for a little over a year now. I could call it the stress of life. The looming job loss, recently family losses, or the big event that landed me in a hospital for 3 days, but I'm not sure its any of those. I just don't have it anymore. I lost the structure to my every day life and it is literally killing me... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 07:19:35 EST I slipped, but its ok http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5170046 I wont mention how awful last week was for me and spark. I had an out of town friend come in. We ate and drank like college kids. I wont lament the time spent, its just time to get back to the grind this week. <BR> <BR> The slip up from last night was that I ate 2 sourdough pretzels. I don't know how many calories they had in them. I had about 300 left to give for my daily calorie intake, but I didnt need them and I only at them b/c they were next to me by my computer. Begging me to be... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 10:50:37 EST oh High School, the "thin" days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163129 I recently saw a HS picture of myself. Aside from the fact that I knew I was awesome, I never really thought about how much smaller I was. I get it everyone is smaller in HS and such. You're preoccupied with classes, and sports, and girls (or guys) and you eat at lunch because you have a break from classes and then you eat dinner after practice. You are slammed busy, too young to really get a healthy beer gut, and your metabolism is at an all time high. <BR> <BR> The funny thing is, I wa... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 10:49:29 EST Helpful tip...maybe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5158039 so I apparently am a binge eater. I eat food really fast with a fervor that is almost unequaled. I get something in my head and then there is nothing that is going to stop me from eating that exact item. I am reading a book about cognitive changes and how they relate to weight loss. I found one tip in there that is interesting and that I am going to use. Write down 5 reasons why you want to lose weight on a flash card and stick it in your pocket. When you are then at the office or where... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 09:59:14 EST after T-giving rush to Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5154750 The past 2.5 weeks have been spent out of town. As Such I've eaten out every day, and only went to the gym twice. Kinda depressing of think of the time lost. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm just trying to forget the past mistakes, and simply stay in line for the nest 2-2.5 weeks before family and the holidays come around. <BR> <BR> I have gained a bunch, but hopefully can help put a dent in that if I really push these next two weeks. <BR> <BR> Track eating and track exercise....thats the pl... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 13:02:49 EST Think about it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5124953 I recently had some things happen in my life. I am not ready to share them here, but it was significant, life altering, and has had such a cascading effect on my life that it's unbelievable. Anyway, as a result of that I've been asked to look at my situation try to think of reasons why things went down the way they did. I think I figured it out <BR> <BR> I'm disgusted with myself. I hate how I look, I hate how I feel. I hate how hard things that were once going so smoothly have become i... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 13:48:42 EST Dr.'s suck (rant) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094032 Not all of them, but this one in particular. <BR> <BR> I have an 11:40 appointment. This particular place will charge you the full 300 visit if you have to cancel and its within 48 hrs. If you are not 5 minutes early to your appointment they will cancel and still charge you. So I get to my 11:40 apt. at 11:25. I sit there, sit there, and sit there. at 11:56 the dr. rolls in with a sandwich, looks around and says, "wow there are a lot of people." <BR> <BR> I wait another 10 minutes,... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 13:06:36 EST Run Fat boy Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086439 I used to run as part of my weekly cardio. It was MUCH harder than the elliptical for me, and I sweated my butt off. But I did it b/c it was a change up and it was different. <BR> <BR> Then I bought new running shoes from VArunner. Very expensive brooks that were for my medium gait and were neutral. I ran in them 4 times and my knee hurt so badly I couldn't walk. I hadn't really run since. <BR> <BR> Last week I ran 2 miles for the first time (new, new shoes with a Dr. shoals $50 in... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 10:49:29 EST Broken Spirit in the form of a wooden bench? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075366 I'm a big guy. I always will be. I will never be a model, I will never be a size 32 Levi commercial wearing hipster. But to be honest, I don't really want to be <BR> <BR> That being said I weigh more now than I did, and It's a fact of life that is true no matter how much I want to deny or avoid it. These past 2 months have been hard. I have a week of loss followed by 2 weeks of gain (with the gain slightly overshadowing the loss). It sucks and Ive been down about it in the past (read... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 07:47:00 EST Down Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5054244 I'm having a down day <BR> <BR> Nothing really overbearing one way or another, but I just don't feel happy. It's a beautiful day, but I cant seem to really motivated to do anything. <BR> I am going to the gym after work, but that's because I know I have to, not because I want to. I hope I get a good lift in, I hate wasting time at the gym. <BR> <BR> I'm 20 lbs heavier than I was at this time last year, I'm FREAKING starving right now, and I'm fighting the desire to get some fried food f... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 10:59:35 EST Stand up kinda courage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035616 I once defined Courage as being impervious. Standing up to all challenges. Needing no help, asking for none, expecting none. I would take on the world and never let anyone know that there was any weakness inside. I was the man on the hill holding the line. <BR> <BR> My definition has changed a bit recently. To me, now, you can still be that man standing on the hill. The unmovable object that braves the storm. But I think it is far more courageous to stand tall with the knowledge of yo... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 07:15:06 EST CONGRATS!! youve gained 15 lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5006516 I get updates that person X or Y has lost 2 or 3 lbs. I wonder why I didnt get one for the 15 that I have added over the past month and a half. <BR> <BR> I've simply lost it. whatever the it was that I had, "it" is gone. I am disgusted with myself, with the fact my two "tight work pants" that BARELY fit when I was at my lowest no longer fit. I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I hate sitting here and thinking only of my next meal when I just are. <BR> <BR> Maybe I'm in a bad mo... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 11:29:29 EST Knees Suck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963412 Went to gym yesterday against my cautious nature with this knee issue. Lifted as usual, and then attempted cardio. The knee felt a little shaky and I set the precor hybrid thing I use to half of the resistance I normally do. The knee got into the swing of things and only really bothered me if I fully extended the knee. <BR> <BR> I was able to ramp up a bit, but I'm still hesitant to "go full tilt" like I normally do. I am concerned this will totally screw up my plan to get back the two... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 07:39:18 EST 2 weeks away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4962102 2 weeks "not at it" and its time to get back to it. I ate too much, drank too much, exercised too little, and now it's time to but the steel back to the stone. <BR> <BR> I hurt my knee significantly sprinting on concrete (trying to race a friend). It hurts to press down on my knee cap. I am going to the gym today for the first time in a while. I'm going to lift like crazy and see what my knee can handle on some low impact cardio (as low as my weight will allow!!). Here's to hoping I ca... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 11:54:42 EST How many Cals am I burning? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924375 So I hear over and over that the calorie counters on the exercise equipment is flawed. I can agree to this to a certain extent. I tend to think that the ones you add in weight and age for are more accurate, but they still cant compensate for everything. I put in 230-240 lbs on the machine depending on the day and my weight. Now this doesn't know if I am 20% body fat vs 45%. So I get that there is a disparity there simply in muscle vs fat content. <BR> <BR> So I went and bought a heart r... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 08:14:39 EST Hiding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921691 We all hide behind something. Some people hide behind money, nice things, big house, fantastically overpriced cars. The truth of the matter is there are very few of us that stand tall, stand out, and take the brunt of the world. The fact of the matter is, the world can throw so much at you that it is nearly impossible to be in the front line. If its not one thing that is attacking you its another. The finances of keeping up with the Jonses, the depression of being hurt by a loved one. T... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 13:11:22 EST You might as well live http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4916102 Razors pain you; <BR> Rivers are damp; <BR> Acids stain you; <BR> And drugs cause cramp; <BR> Guns aren't lawful; <BR> Nooses give; <BR> Gas smells awful; <BR> You might as well live. <BR> <BR> Dorothy Parker Thu, 7 Jun 2012 10:43:29 EST That Guy 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915808 Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #6": the I know better than the gym staff about ev... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 07:15:06 EST That Guy 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4913067 Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #5": the mirror Hawk <BR> <BR> Everyone likes v... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 11:16:47 EST That Guy 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4913066 Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #5": the mirror Hawk <BR> <BR> Everyone likes v... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 11:16:43 EST Pre-diabetes???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905435 This is a brief quote from a spark article: <BR> <BR> "But pre-diabetes is a condition without symptoms, meaning that many people can have it without even knowing it." <BR> <BR> I would argue that is there is a disease without any symptoms..EVERYONE has it.....That is all <BR> <BR> Good Hunting Thu, 31 May 2012 08:21:03 EST That guy 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4904268 Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #4": The shirt-too tight guy <BR> <BR> We all h... Wed, 30 May 2012 12:22:49 EST That Guy 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902727 Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #3" The Belt Wearer <BR> <BR> There are a number ... Tue, 29 May 2012 12:41:36 EST THAT guy2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4896004 Same intro: <BR> <BR> Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #2" The Boyfriend <BR> <B... Thu, 24 May 2012 11:01:58 EST THAT guy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4894212 Yesterday in the gym I saw no less than 10 common "that guy" moments while lifting and doing cardio. It actually made me so concerned about the degradation of our gym that I decided to begin a series of posts that are dedicated to "that guy". Disclaimer: Everyone has been "that guy" at some point of their workout career, and I am no exception. Just try to limit it to far and few in between and you wont make this series!!! <BR> <BR> "That Guy #1" The Rubber weights slammer <BR> <BR> W... Wed, 23 May 2012 08:43:24 EST Angry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892759 The day is dreary. The dogs peed and pooped the floor (bc they refuse to go out int eh rain and I dont have a fenced in back yard yet). I got caught in terrible traffic because of an accident, then got caught again in 95N traffic hell b/c of rubberneckers. I'm starving, my orange was unfulfilling, I have to go to the gym uber quick so I can eat with my parents tonight (something BOUND to be terrible for me and WAY over my calorie limit). <BR> <BR> I'm hungry, I'm tired, I'm pissed. NOT ... Tue, 22 May 2012 10:26:39 EST "Best wife/husband ever" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884128 I read people's info pages quite often. There are so many different stories for the people on here. Reasons to lose, reasons to gain, reasons to lean up or get big. All are unique, and interesting, hence my reads. There is one thing, however, that is mostly a common thread among all the people in relationships. This idea of the "best" significant other. <BR> <BR> Everyone claims to be married or dating the best guy or girl out there. I think this term is bogus. If Sally had the best... Wed, 16 May 2012 12:15:55 EST Termites...those little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4880921 Sorry for the title.... <BR> <BR> <BR> I have a tree in my front yard that has termites. I found this out as I was mowing the grass, I changed directions really quickly, and cracked my head on a branch. After a much needed swear-fest I was able to calmly and rationally pay the tree back for its attack by kicking the limb. I heard a huge crack and the branch snapped. I Thought it odd and went to look, sure enough, termites had weakened the branch and it was dead/dying. <BR> <BR> That ... Mon, 14 May 2012 13:07:27 EST Trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4871896 At church on Sunday our pastor talked about your "Want to". Your Want to has to outweigh the issue or you will never succeed. He talked about this in the context of marriage relations and such, but it applies to us here on spark. I've been having issued staying consistently on track. I think the reason is my "want to" is not what it was. After talking it over with my wife, I think my "want to" was based on other peoples perception of me, and not based on me. I had become vain and was lo... Tue, 8 May 2012 09:08:48 EST Bad weekend of Binging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4839029 I try to keep calorie count during the week to under 1800 a day. On the weekend I normally let go a little bit. This weekend however was TERRIBLE. I ate everything I saw (which with Easter candy on sale and laying around was FAR too much). I haven't gotten back on the scale for fear I've undone a months worth of hard work. I guess its good that I recognized the over eating, unfortunately I wasn't able to stop! Good hunting today Tue, 17 Apr 2012 09:45:24 EST Gym rant and inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4819225 At the Gym on the elliptical. I've already run a mile and its time for 60 min of butt kicking. In front of me on the treadmill are a couple (no not on the same one, but their own). They have a incline number of 2. I don't know what this means aside from it is a slight incline. That being said they are both holding onto the front bar of the treadmill and leaning so far back that if they were to let go there is no WAY they wouldn't fall. Their pace (as I can see the values) is 2.5 mph. ... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 20:50:44 EST I'm at war with the world... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4810352 Every now an again lyrics truly hit me. It's no surprised I've been in a funk recently. The glass is half empty, the sun doesn't shine, etc. This morning started out no differently. However, I heard the lyrics of a song that I have listened to countless times, and I actually listened to the words this morning. Maybe I'm just more receptive to them in my current mood, but it's as if the lyrics were written for me. The song is "awake and alive" by Skillet. <BR> <BR> I'm at war with the... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 09:32:27 EST Spark Favorites http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4808884 Its funny to me that every time I add food to my nutrition tracker i can add them from my "favorite" list. Let me make something very clear. A Cafe Steamer is NOT MY FAVORITE. I can't really stress that enough. <BR> <BR> Sure I eat it, and I eat it almost every day for lunch. But that doesn't make it my favorite. That is like saying that work is my favorite thing to do b/c I go to it every day for 8 hrs. It's a misnomer. Its a LIE!!! <BR> <BR> I hate Cafe Steamers (and coincidentall... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 11:48:26 EST Motivate!!...wait? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4806787 Every time I drive home from work I run through all the things I will do at the gym (I hit the gym before I get home). I think, I'm going to push through 5 circuits on the two body parts I am working that day, I'm going to do at least 20 minutes of ab work, I'm going to hit up 20 min of elliptical then 1 hr of racquetball. I'm pumped, ready, and rearing to go. <BR> <BR> Then I see the gym as I pull into my parking spot. The feeling is somewhat diminished as now I'm close to home and I sta... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 07:54:31 EST Bad Foood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4805096 I like bad food. Obviously it is a struggle or realistically I wouldn't need spark so much! <BR> <BR> But in this case I'm not talking about eating bad food in a pinch (ie fast food etc). I mean I honestly prefer processed food over normal good food. I'd rather have McDonalds than a burger grilled out back. I'd rather have American cheese or Velveeta over a cheddar or provolone. I'd rather have papa johns than a brick oven pizza. None of these choices are really "healthy", but why do... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 08:07:07 EST Dear Mr. Wonka http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4801164 I would first like to thank you. <BR> <BR> Thank you for making your sweat tart jelly beans taste so incredibly nasty that they are not an issue for me to eat and continue to eat until I've overblown my calorie intake limit for the day. The flavor is alright, but the consistency? Vile. Seriously, fantastic move for all us fatties out there. They are a non issue! <BR> <BR> HOWEVER <BR> <BR> Please stop making all of your other candies (gobstoppers, nerds, etc) so freaking delicious.... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 10:30:28 EST Where has everyone gone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4761507 I dont know if this is a trend on Spark with just my spark friends, or if its all over the place. But recently Ive seen some of the most active sparkers go completely awol. Its been months since they were on and 6 months ago they were on every hr. I hope they haven't given up. I hope they aren't staying away b/c of failures. I hope they have left because they have so radically changed their life that they have met their goals. I just wish they realized that others still need their supp... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 11:59:55 EST Working hard at the wrong direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752705 I weighed myself yesterday, which was odd as I normally just weigh on Fridays, but I had to get an idea of just how much I have allowed back on. It was astounding. I have gained 26lbs back of the original 70 I have lost. Wow. Simply wow. I'm not sure what it is, although I did have family in town for the past 4 days and ate/drank everything and anything, but that much weight back is still staggering. I have been hovering around the same weight (240) for a while now. I was down some day... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 07:56:50 EST Another defeat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726757 Another day (yesterday) where I held off bad habits all day, and then was unable to go to the gym and then ate like RUBBISH for dinner. 450 calories over my daily goal and It's days like that when you look in the mirror, forget all the progress you've made and focus only on how far you have been slipping recently. It's UBER depressing. I''m almost oat a whats the point. I'm so much happier eating what I want to and not having to watch it and work out. Sighs Tue, 7 Feb 2012 09:52:12 EST Realizing my issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700650 I stay under 1800 cals/ day Monday - Thursday. Friday (night) , Sat, and Sunday I eat whatever I want without thinking about it. It has worked for me in recent past, but in the immediate past it has been failing. <BR> <BR> As I was watching the G-men finish of the 49er's (Go G-men!!!) I looked at my plate for dinner / game food and saw 2 hotdogs (which I ate), fries (which I ate some of) and about 10 mozzarella sticks. I wasn't hungry after the hotdogs and some fries, but I found myself... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 09:14:18 EST TGI Fridays sucks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4675512 Every Day I eat the same lunches. Healthy Choice, Cafe Steamer. I eat the same two flavors as they are the cheapest at BJ's. Those two flavors are Chicken Marinara, and Chicken Margaretta. All day, every week...the same two flavors <BR> <BR> So I ate really light all day b/c I knew I was going out with friends at TGI Fridays. I looked up their nutrition ahead of time, was getting excited as I was only somewhat limited to what I could have and stay within my calorie intake. Well I orde... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 07:57:53 EST Antoher week gone, no pounds lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4673693 Interesting little happening. I didn't lose anything last week. I ALWAYS lose at least something when I put my mind to it. I guess I need to run faster, workout more, and eat less....Sighs. I AM hungry..... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 11:41:15 EST Bored http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4670655 I'm Bored with my workout and it's killing my productivity. I'm trying to change my exercises, but I still find myself doing the same old crap. I superset two body parts for a set, rest 30 seconds then repeat (ex. flat bench coupled with preacher curls). It's just boring. <BR> <BR> The worst is my cardio. I hit cardio 5 times a week for an hour. Running BORES me (not to mention it sucks real bad) and I can typically only do 2 miles on the treadmill before I want to put a drill bit thr... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 08:00:03 EST Thanks, I needed that..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667901 I was at work. I went past our receptionist. She (as most do) has a candy bowl. A Candy bowl that I have not eaten from in 8 months. Here is the convo: <BR> <BR> Receptionist: Looking for some candy? <BR> Me: (jokingly) Nah, this fatty doesn't need any of that <BR> Receptionist: Oh? You gain a little over Christmas? <BR> Me: Yeah, a bit <BR> Receptionist: Yeah, you can tell <BR> <BR> At this time a few Choice words flew through my head. Indignation, anger, rage, but in the end... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 07:31:18 EST Another gym rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4659285 To everyone who has decided to make this year the year of change, congrats! We all started somewhere, it wasn't easy for us and it probably wont be easy for you. Stick to it and you can truly change. <BR> <BR> Now that the disclaimer is over, here is my gripe. I watch people workout. I learn new exercises that way, its a great way to learn. But let me give you some free advice now. When someone has their water bottle, their towel, and the weights they are using on a bench, it is NOT ... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 11:00:18 EST Pity Party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4632486 In the past 5 weeks I've gained ~13 lbs. I have been traveling almost non stop, had Thanksgiving, Had a week in the woods, and upcoming is a week with the family and tons of bad food and drink (bad in a health way, awesome in a delicious way). I've lost my want to fight the fight. Sure I want to weigh 220 again, but the desire to fight daily is gone. I will exercise as much as I can over Christmas but I know I will only get frustrated and angry and depressed with myself for eating what I... Tue, 20 Dec 2011 08:51:58 EST Justification http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4585191 Last night I found myself justifying eating too much when I knew I was eating too much. Hwere is the justification: <BR> <BR> Last week I had friends up Thursday, Friday and Saturday. I ate like crap, didn't exercise, drank many calories, and was a lazy BUM. <BR> <BR> This upcoming week I will be in the mountains at cabin. I will eat like crap, drink too many calories, and not be able to hit up the gym (aside from the walking around I plan). <BR> <BR> So last night when I was eating far... Tue, 15 Nov 2011 10:32:06 EST More Gym rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4561196 In my last rant I told you to sweat. I still say you should. In fact it should be required. There is, however, a courtesy when sweating. which I would like to enlighten some of you on (however the people I am about to talk about are probably not on spark) <BR> <BR> I sweat more than normal, more than anyone else I know (with 1 exception of a tie). It can be gross, but as with all things in life, it is manageable. When at the gym I always wear a shirt with sleeves and I bring a towel for... Mon, 31 Oct 2011 10:45:51 EST Gym Talkers Rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4554231 Here is the deal. When I get on a cardio machine, I am there to get my butt kicked, burn calories, and get out. I am not there to talk, or have a leisure time, or meander down my life's path. So I have a rant to all you obnoxiously loud talkers. This rant is not for the occasional conversation holders, but the non-stop 30 minute talkers who are screaming and laughing over the background gym music, and through my headphones penetrating into my skull with your blather <BR> <BR> At the gym ... Wed, 26 Oct 2011 12:40:34 EST Music...ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4544679 I listen to music constantly. If I'm walking the dogs for just 15 minutes, I have my ipod on. If I'm just running to the store, I have the ipod on. If I'm at work where my ipod isn't allowed I stream pandora...music is a necessity to me. Its funny how my music is a direct reflection of my mood. There are often times that I've heard how music dictates behavior (People blaming violent behavior on violent music) but for me its the opposite. When I'm down, I want to hear "I'm a loser". Whe... Thu, 20 Oct 2011 09:57:23 EST