OCTAVIAGNOSTICA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OCTAVIAGNOSTICA OCTAVIAGNOSTICA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Vegetable Quest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247635 Feeling normal these past couple of days. Yipeee! <BR> <BR> As I pack my lunch today, I am wondering how I can get more vegetables into my work day without too much effort. I regularly pack some fruit, a banana or something. Then my main course, which is usually rice or a noodle with steamed veggies and a sauce of some sort. This is pretty big in the world of plastic containers, so I am happy to have big bike panniers. But, then I need another snack. And on days I work out, I need at least 2... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 10:51:03 EST The day after http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243925 Yesterday was such a completely fantastic day. It was great in the morning, great when we went diving, and great after. It was the first fully completely fun day I'd had in a long time. Diving was amazing, it was still scary, but it felt so much better to be outside and be in real water and I got to see an amazing amount of littler critters! Who would have thought! The areas looks totally dead from the outside. You wouldn't believe how much is crawling around on the floor of the water when ju... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 12:12:30 EST Loosening the rope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242890 When I sit here in the mornings with my cup of tea and delectable sprouted English muffin, the cat runs like a bat out of hell, skidding around corners, surfing on the scratching board and stopping only to stare outside or be trapped by a box (I like to keep a cat trap around only to marvel at how effective they are). This is all normal. This is what the cat does morning, noon, and night. She is quite possibly the most self-entertaining cat I have ever laid eyes on. But lately, during these r... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 13:15:00 EST privacy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241604 Slept fantastic last night. Yesterday: Had a great Zumba class. The boy made lentil soup. It didn't rain. Everything else sucked. I had a horrible day at work, horrible commute. It was nothing that I was subjected to, nothing bad happened, it was all my reaction to experiences. Everything bad was entirely in my head, my chosen state, but, it was still bad. <BR> <BR> Really concerned about privacy. I am whining on this site like there's no tomorrow and my name is right there, and it's open to... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 13:03:20 EST Yipee! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240099 Slept well last night! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Feeling good! <BR> <BR> Hawaii is coming fast. Wishing more and more I was a little more toned, there will surely be a lot of photographs. Also wishing I had a haircut, but I'm too worried to try some random place. But, new outfits are coming together. <BR> <BR> Had an awful day at work. Was in another training, and felt very out-of-place. It was all the educated sassy-dressed people, and my and my cohort who barely speaks english. Our ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 11:18:08 EST Body Maintenance Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238672 I am averaging 5 hours of "movement" a week (I am still not convinced I can count all of it exercise, but, really it is). I am glad I am getting 5 hours in. I don't know how many more is realistic considering that I have a very physically active job, and when I am done I crave mental stimulation a lot more than physical stimulation. The work drains my body entirely. I want to focus more on making my few work out hours quality hours versus getting more hours. <BR> <BR> I am averaging bike rid... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 11:53:19 EST foggy groggy Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234399 Diving class was much better yesterday. There were still many mistakes and opportunities for me to be hard on myself, but, all in all, it was better than last week. There were even some moments of fun and chuckling. I at least think I can get to next week's class without being full of dread. <BR> <BR> There are other thoughts, disrupting my focus and motivation, slept poorly, but, at it were, I don't feel much like writing this morning. It should be a good day, though. Sat, 2 Feb 2013 11:21:05 EST digressions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233179 Woke up with a raging headache, but quickly got up and I'm all better now. Had a breakfast of poached eggs, chicken apple sausage, toast, and mate tea. Did the dishes and provoked the cat (doesn't take much). Need to finish my dive class tests. Contemplating finishing my taxes (they are all done, I just wanted to wait a few days before sending them off, in case I remembered some huge deduction I could claim, "damn I forgot I adopted that kid last year!" lol). Contemplating making naan bread t... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:12:09 EST play that funky music http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231526 Want to get out of this funk. I thought I was out of it when I increased my vitamin D a couple of weeks ago, but it only lasted a week. Just gotta keep destructive thoughts out of my head, occupy my head with constructive thoughts. Make it habit. <BR> <BR> On a similar note, I signed up for classes at coursera. I thought it I occupied my brain with interesting learning things, well, that's fun. All the classes I like started in the spring...or so I thought. It appears that one class started ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 10:37:50 EST fill in the blank http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230141 I had such a hard week, good thing I get to ______ this weekend. <BR> <BR> So, I've been raking up the overtime hours since Christmas and had some weekends where I worked straight through them. Last weekend was a regular weekend, but it wasn't restorative at all because the dive class was way more work than fun. Usually when I work overtime, there is something redeeming about the work I do. Even last year, there were aspects of the job that were fun; the marketing parts, namely. I have dive ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 11:20:11 EST Writing just to write http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228611 I don't have much to say today. I am trying to get in the habit of writing every day, though, so I'm going to say something. <BR> I am tired. Yesterday, after I had been working for about 11 hours, my body got very physically tired. My arms and legs were moving as though they were swimming in jello. My back, elbows, thighs, and hips ached. At the time, it seemed weird. I couldn't figure out how I could be so tired. Now, it seems obvious that I was tired because I was working so much. It's bee... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 11:14:19 EST smiles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226401 Mah belly is happy. I went to a delightful sushi place for happy hour and had a lemongrass collins with infused vodka. Smarvalous! And sushi! And squid! YUMMMMM. <BR> <BR> Work was busy and crappy. And I got to read a lot of scuba book, so feeling better about that. Oh, mah belly! Such happy belly! Sun, 27 Jan 2013 23:50:35 EST Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224852 Saturday is dominated by anxiety. There are many good things, fire in the fireplace, cozy cat, nice boy, , mocha, rainy weather, leftovers of word's best pizza (from last night), red wine, a day off. I have quite an ideal life. But I am challenging myself, putting myself to the test. This takes me out of my comfort zone. All I want to do is go back into it, and I don't know how. Not many of the things I have available to me at the moment bring me back to my comfort zone, even if they are inh... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 21:04:07 EST Cause a horse is not a home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223042 This song came up on my pandora this morning. Cracking me up! I also sorta like the song, but don't tell anyone. Overstuffed myself with a mushroom spinach cilantro double roasted salsa breakfast burrito this morning. It would have been plenty filling with just one egg. But I added three! I think I've been feeling malnourished because I've been working such long hours. But, really that's a lie. Last night's events were catered and I got sprite, sandwiches, cookies, and tuna tar tar appetize... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:33:11 EST laptop battery is about to die... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221614 and I need to leave for work 5 minutes ago. Feeling stressed because I worked 3 hours overtime last night and feel like I made things worse than before I started. Just feeling generally half-assed. Didn't meet my studying goals. Am way behind on those and sleep. Feeling stressed. BUT. Zumba yesterday at new club rocked. Was all young artist girls and flaming gay men. LOVED it! Thu, 24 Jan 2013 12:29:27 EST all is well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218632 I went to the club on Saturday. I paid the fee and joined. THe club was crazy, there were people everywhere and I got that awful hamspters-in-a-wheel feeling I get when I am surrounded by lots of people staring into space like minions. Zumba was less than fun, too. THe instructor was too skinny to be inspiring, and the crowd was msotly ancient people who really shouldn't be in a high-impact aerobics class. Weird to me that the retirement village decides to work out on a Saturday, when they ha... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:46:57 EST Looking ahead at 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213124 Things already on the board to look forward to in 2013: <BR> -learning how to SCUBA dive, getting dive certified <BR> -going to Maui <BR> -MS 150/camp out in Oregon <BR> -some cool bike rides, TBD, MS 150 in Arizona? <BR> -COMICON <BR> -SteamCon <BR> <BR> Achievement Goals for 2013: <BR> -taking at least one web design class <BR> -taking online classes via Coursera <BR> -taking at least one artistic type class, creating some art <BR> -learn how to skate ski (could be 2014) <BR> -XC ski at le... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 13:54:22 EST Great Things About 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213074 Great Things About 2012: <BR> -greatly improved relationship with my dad, got to connect with him and spend time with him in a way I never imagined I would as adults. Got him a new guitar. <BR> -maintained healthy relationship with my mom; she calls me appropriately and is not interacting with me in a manipulative/codependent fashion, and she maintained good finances, and home safety for the whole year <BR> -highly valued and respected in job <BR> -built new friendships with Kris and Adam <B... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 13:30:07 EST more procrastination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213017 Yesterday, I made the decision to just do it and join the club. The thought made me infinitely happy, and I was able to get through my whole work day without having 7 mental breakdowns of mediocrity detachment and anguish. Who cares if it costs lots of money and I'm already overspending? <BR> <BR> But, here I am. It's 9:42 and Zumba started at 9:30. I was so excited about going. I knew it would perk me up the way I needed to withstand an evening of shopping (the boy loves shopping, so I thou... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 12:49:43 EST Setting up a training program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211582 I've been wanting to join a gym since I moved 6 months ago. I think with a gym, I'd get to where I want to be fittness-wise, but the cost is so high. The gym that has what I want is $42/month, and while that's a lot less than the going rate for most gyms in the area, and way less than the uber-trendy cross-fit, it's still more than my budget wants. $20-$30 would be so much more pleasant. <BR> <BR> I have a physical enough job to tire me out and make me sore, but it's not physical enough to b... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 13:14:33 EST Question of the Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4578924 If I want something, and I want it with all my heart and soul, but will give it up at the drop of a hat for another want, and don't put a whole lot effort into getting it back, without putting effort into putting effort, do I really actually want it? <BR> <BR> Either I am misguided and I don't, or I have unhealthy mental influences and I do. <BR> <BR> And what is it about wanting, anyway? Without desire, how can one have any direction in life? How can one make choices? But most spiritual/r... Fri, 11 Nov 2011 02:00:58 EST What to do? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4524571 It's beautiful and sunny outside, but so windy that bike riding on the hwy can be dangerous. Been there, got blown into the road, no urge to do it again. I could go hiking around the area, but hiking alone seems so borrrring, and like I'd get lost, too. So, what does that leave? <BR> I'm feeling so bloated and hungry and fat from all the cheap food I'm eating, I have to do some sort of exersize or something to feel better. <BR> I could do a free work out video online. If I had working int... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 18:13:48 EST Update on all the inner stuff I'm afraid to share with anyone. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4523018 Just 3 weeks ago I moved to Colorado, signifying yet another dramatic new chapter in the book of Amanda. <BR> <BR> Prior to the move, I noted how much progress I've made from a wellness perspective. I used to be plagued by constant headaches, not any more. I used to be overweight, not any more. I used to be depressed, not any more. I used to be anxious, now only predictably so. I used to be dominated by the inescapable need to sleep, not any more. I'm not even fatigued any more. I used ... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 18:40:08 EST Life Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3836844 I suddenly lost even more weight and I am just tickled about it. I am really happy with how my body feels, and looks right now. I am trying to enjoy that as much as possible and avoid focusing on all the little flaws. I want to flaunt the sexy while I can. Which is funny, because this life-long boy-crazy girl suddenly couldn't care less about men. <BR> I got a new medication for my moods, and it seems to finally be helping. I'm still riddled with anxiety, but it's easy for me to look at ... Fri, 10 Dec 2010 18:19:29 EST A place to log details on all my medical conditions: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2771819 Syncope (not managed) <BR> <BR> Syncope (pronounced /&#712;s&#618;&#331;k&#601;pi/) is the medical term for fainting, a sudden, usually temporary, loss ofconsciousness generally caused by insufficient oxygen in the brain either through cerebral hypoxia or through hypotension, but possibly for other reasons. Typical symptoms progress through dizziness, clamminess of the skin, a dimming of vision or brownout, possibly tinnitus, complete loss of vision, weakness of limbs to physical collapse. T... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 11:25:26 EST Joining a Gym? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2768124 So, kind of on a whim, the whim of "I NEEEED TO GET IN SHAPE NOW!!!!" I joined a gym. <BR> I don't know if it was the best idea. I've been heckling back and fourth with the roommates trying to get a "family" membership at some of the community centers nearby, and the conflicting information coming from the centers has frustrated us. I've been threatening to go to this one that's 3 miles away now since...last May. THere are 2 within 3 miles. <BR> This one is 10 miles away, which is essentia... Tue, 19 Jan 2010 16:20:23 EST FOCUS POINT: acknowledging obstacles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2734366 These things may make my fitness goals more challenging: <BR> <BR> ~financial- income less than 12k/yr. <BR> ~medical-medicated for hypertension-I do not notice any affects, but this alerts professionals as something to be cautious about <BR> ~medical-prone to fainting when exerting myself <BR> ~medical-idiopathic hypersomnia and recurring major depression-it is difficult to stay on a routine for long periods of time as overwhelming bouts of sleepiness may impact me on a daily basis or a sev... Tue, 12 Jan 2010 12:09:09 EST My Heart Rate Training Zones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2710894 LESS 113 = RECOVERY <BR> 113-122 = ZONE 1 <BR> 122-141 = ZONE 2 <BR> 141-154 = ZONE 3 <BR> 154-168 = ZONE 4 <BR> 168-177 = ZONE 5 <BR> 177-189 = ZONE 6 <BR> 177-189 = ZONE 5 <BR> <BR> <BR> More detail for cycling: <BR> <BR> Recovery Short rides (non-training) for recovery <BR> <BR> Zone 1 <BR> 60-65% <BR> Development of economy and efficiency with very high volume, low stress work. Very long sessions improve the combustion and storage of fats. Combine with Zone 2 for practica... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 17:26:43 EST FOCUS POINT: Activities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2710788 Cycling: <BR> Improve overall hill climbing power <BR> Ready for multi-week touring averaging 50-100 miles/day <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Improve overall speed (average 19mph on flats over current 17mph on flats) <BR> =Ride with 19mph group in PortlandVelo!! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> XC Skiing: <BR> Improve overall skill/technique <em>100</em> Thu, 7 Jan 2010 16:58:05 EST FOCUS POINT: body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2710767 Increase lean muscle mass 7 pounds. <BR> current: 103 lbs/goal 110lbs <BR> <BR> Decrease fat mass 22 lbs. <BR> current: 57lbs./goal 35 lbs. <BR> <BR> Byproducts of focus points: <BR> <BR> Decreased body fat percentage by 11.8% <BR> current: 36%/ goal 24% <BR> <BR> Decreased total weight by 15 pounds <BR> current: 160 lbs./goal 145 lbs. <BR> <BR> Thu, 7 Jan 2010 16:53:37 EST CURRENT STATUS and personal history. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2710705 I grew up sedentary and marshmallow like. At age 12 I started walking and low-impact aerobics 20 mins a day. By age 16 I was fit as a fiddle, doing high-intensity exercise over 10 hours a week. Kept this up until age 23. 3rd major depressive episode resulted in 65 pound-weight gain in less than 4 months. On lifetime maintenance meds for hypertension and depression. Kept physical activity high somewhat inconsistently. Fell in love with xc skiing. Fell in love with cycling at age 25, bu... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 16:38:09 EST