OCCOOPERS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OCCOOPERS OCCOOPERS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Little Victories Win the War! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202015 Yesterday I talked about being honest with myself. I kept thinking about that all afternoon and into the evening. I think I am still struggling with the fact that I DO have an eating disorder. I keep fighting with my inner self that tells me that I just don't have any willpower. It is bigger than not having willpower. I realized this when I started to think about not only my childhood but my adult life. <BR> <BR> In my first appt. with my nutritionist/dietitian she gave me a questioner fo... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:17:36 EST And the Truth Shall Set You Free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201024 Honesty. Such a simple word isn't it? I consider myself to be honest in almost every area of my life. If I do lie... people see right through me and know I am telling a lie. If they don't see right through me; the guilt ends up eating me so bad that I will apologize and tell you that I lied. <BR> <BR> Thinking about honesty today I realized that the one person I lie to all the time is ME. I tell myself and convince myself that just eating one of something is no big deal. But that ONE lead... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 19:09:06 EST Diagnosis does not = Reason or License to Eat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196829 On Friday I started to wake up to what an eating disorder really means. Somewhere between Friday and Saturday Morning I woke up from like a food coma! I realized that I have put blame on everyone else for my choices. Nobody has FORCE fed me. Nobody gets mad if I don't eat a particular food. <BR> <BR> Saturday morning I went to an OA meeting and further confirmed I am one of them. I said for the first time out loud that I am a Compulsive Over Eater. But now... it is almost as though it has g... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 11:26:11 EST STEP 1: Admitting you have a problem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190454 So... I used to think that the only eating disorders were to be anorexic or bulimic. Well, I was wrong. My Dr. diagnosed me with an eating disorder Nov. 2012. My therapist urged me to go to a support group. Well, the only support group I could find was Over-eaters Anonymous. It is like AA for people who can not stop eating. I really did not think I was one of "THOSE" people. But I was wrong again! My Dr. sent me to a dietitian. In our first appt. she asked me what percentage of the time I ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 18:17:04 EST Office Holiday Food = Holiday weight gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169376 It all looks so yummy! I wouldn't want to hurt feelings by not eating something they worked so hard to make! Yep... those are statements I hear myself say in my head! <BR> <BR> I worked so hard to lose that weight and now I am playing with fire at the 200 pound mark again. I eat because I feel bad I have gained weight back. I eat because I just can't NOT eat. :( I have come to the realization that I am powerless over that four letter word.. F-O-O-D. What do you do if your powerless? Turn t... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 18:17:15 EST 9 months - and got baby fat w/out a baby! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5137758 HA! <BR> I read the last blog entry from Feb. 2012. I stated that I hope to go back and read that blog in 6 months and be at a better weight and better state of mind. Well... so much for that idea! I have gained 30 pounds and feel like poo. In the last 9 months I gained almost what I did in my second pregnancy. I have no excuses for the weight gain (such as expecting a baby!). I have no reason. Just the fact that I run to food for comfort, frustration... whatever. <BR> <BR> When I was fir... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 19:04:25 EST Pressure... To lose and stay a looser http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4737312 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l669224415.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Pressure. I keep racking my brain trying to figure out why I just can't get myself excited about weight loss again. I keep setting little goals for myself and then not even give 100% to attain them. I think I am full of excuses. Sabotaging my success with self-doubt and negative self-talk. I tell myself these crazy stories in my head that I will never be a size 6. But the truth is... I don't even think I want... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 18:40:42 EST Post Superbowl Carb Coma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4725047 I don't know about you... but I ate one too many carbs at a super bowl party yesterday. It is so not worth it. I feel like dog doo doo and just wanted to stay in bed today. Feel like I am totally in a carb coma! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l344597346.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am thinking that a new medication has something to do with my recent "MUNCHIE" feeling. But now I have a cold and am just that much worse. <BR> <BR> All of this has me thinking abou... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 11:23:38 EST Must change habits for Children http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4716448 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l241441088.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I read an article from my Personal Trainer today about 5 things to NEVER EAT. I realized that a few of the items while I may not eat them... I feed them to my kids. It made me think about what habits am I laying down for them to have to fight in the future. <BR> <BR> White Rice was one that stuck out. It has no nutritional value - other than the calories. Fiber & vitamins have been removed and the glycemic load... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 12:27:16 EST Pretending the Beginning again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685200 I don't know about you... but I tend to eat my stress and feelings away. Even though I have been on TSFL for what seems like forever, I have realized that I have been doing it all really half A**ed. Therefore, not losing hardly anything else. <BR> <BR> My husband and I went to Puerto Vallarta in Sept. 2011 and I was down almost 75 pounds and in fact by the time we got back I was down 75 pounds! But... the stress of life set in and I went back to old habits and kept starting my plan and sto... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 19:22:15 EST There is always going to be something... start NOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3538151 Oh my goodness. I knew I was going to start Medifast today 2 weeks ago. I gained seriously 7 pounds with the mind set that I wouldn't be able to eat real food for at least 6 months. I think that just kind of screwed myself. <BR> <BR> Today there was a family reunion. I started today anyway. Ya know, nobody noticed that I was shaking my meal and eating a shake. Then, had a 1/2 cup of Salad later in the day. <BR> <BR> There is always going to be something. A b-day party, a wedding, f... Sun, 15 Aug 2010 01:23:44 EST Bad days, bad attitude, bad food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3247122 I hate bad days. You end up grouchy. Nothing will cheer you up. Then it rains. <BR> <BR> I guess this is just one bad day in a series this week. I need to get my crap together. I thought about it the other night that I either need to be Happy the way I am and eat whatever I want and be OK with being unhealthy and fat. OR I need to quit my bitching and get up off my butt and move more and eat less and eat BETTER. It is hard. I feel like the climb is too high. <BR> <BR> I am stressed due... Wed, 19 May 2010 15:16:21 EST Grace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3105943 If you look up the definition of Grace in the dictionary you will find a couple definitions. 1. elegance or beauty of form, manner, motion or action. 2. a manifestation of favor. <BR> <BR> Last night, I was at church and they talked about grace. How even though we don't deserve it, God gives it to us. We all fall so short of perfection. Sometimes I think that I am not good enough. Not good enough or worthy enough to have it all. <BR> <BR> But God's grace is for me. God is big enough to ... Sun, 11 Apr 2010 13:10:00 EST Hanging in there... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3048097 Isn't it frustrating when you don't want to eat a salad... but you know you should? Went out to lunch today with my friends and ate Mexican food. I guess it isn't too bad, but I still feel guilty. Should have only ate 1/2 of what I did. <BR> <BR> I did make up for the HUGE lunch (and did I mention drive through for breakfast?) I had a big Salad for dinner, only ONE piece of bread (and it was SMALL!) and the smallest serving of Lasagna. (even smaller than my 6 year old daughter!) <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 26 Mar 2010 23:41:15 EST I am such a dork... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3040697 I had to try the video blog thing. OMG... I am such a dork! Thu, 25 Mar 2010 01:31:51 EST MOTIVATED! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3040662 There is nothing more motivating than the start of success! So, I have been at this a little over a week and I am down 5 pounds already! My son is down 3 pounds! Not to mention we both were not exactly "PERFECT" during the weekend. <BR> <BR> I have a good feeling about things this time. Thu, 25 Mar 2010 01:12:56 EST Out to eat - Made pretty good choices! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3015925 Went out to eat tonight for St. Patricks day. (well... really it was just an excuse to get some alone time with my hubby!) I really wanted Chinese food, but thought that would take all my calaries for the day... maybe even a couple of days! So, we went to Changs. (they stir fry everything) <BR> <BR> I was proud of myself. I only had a few noodles and a little rice... all the rest was meat (shrimp & chicken) and veggies. <BR> <BR> It feels good to know that I am doing the right thing. :... Thu, 18 Mar 2010 15:59:10 EST Bonding with my teenager http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3009196 so, tonight I knew that we were going to have to eat fast food for dinner. Since my 14 year old is doing this with me we both went online and did research before going to Tacobell. He never realized how many calories were in the things he was eating! He changed what he was going to have and stayed within his calories for the day. SO DID I! We had a great talk about making good choices. We talked about how even if we do bad one day... we need to be honest on our logs about what we eat. Th... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 23:32:53 EST Day one is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3004493 Holy Cow! I made it! No cheating at all. I am proud of myself! I love this sparkle site too! I have kept it as my "HOME PAGE" at home and at work... keeps me honest! <BR> <BR> One day down... 365 to go! Mon, 15 Mar 2010 22:54:16 EST And so it begins! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3000379 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l847702102.jpg" <BR> <BR> Due to a pact with my oldest son, I am grounded from facebook until I lose 20 pounds. He is grounded from Video games. <BR> <BR> We took about a half an hour today to set our goals for the week. I think this will be a good bonding experience for us. Now that he is 14 he is starting to drift away into a young adult. It is cool that we can do this together. I am excited to reach our goals together. <BR> <BR> I a... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 01:48:52 EST