OAKBORN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=OAKBORN OAKBORN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Keeping up the daily blogging. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319626 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f5123864-b51f-4e4e-b1c1-ce906f81503f.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I met all my 4 goals today. I'm really happy about that and that included my getting onto the treadmill. I have been faithfully tracking. Drawing in my calendar actually really helps. Gives me the mental space and time to slow down at the end of a busy day. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having their own successes, big and small! Wed, 22 Feb 2017 01:46:55 EST Today's calendarizing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319150 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a9794160-6ce4-4d84-a438-7c3a0de883f8.jpg"> <BR> I managed to hot on all cylinders! Tue, 21 Feb 2017 01:55:43 EST Kind of a day off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318597 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2a709ea7-0bad-4772-9537-30d2ca196016.jpg"> <BR> I got busy with art and making stuff. Mon, 20 Feb 2017 00:39:52 EST Illustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318163 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/bc354d3e-85ec-4dc9-b737-773a1aafc5eb.jpg"> <BR> This is relaxing and helps me focus. Sun, 19 Feb 2017 02:07:21 EST So Far, Mostly Good x 3 days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318129 So here are my goals for the rest of the week (I'm doing Monday to Sunday weeks)... <BR> 1) 8000 daily steps <BR> 2) 1800 max calories <BR> 3) 8+ glasses of water <BR> 4) 10" daily activity <BR> <BR> I didn't blog yesterday... so this will be for the 2 days. <BR> Friday (the 17th) <BR> 1) Fitbit: 8184, Garmin: 8736 <BR> 2) 1834 calories (just a touch over) <BR> 3) 10+ water <BR> 4) about 30" in pieces... walking to & from the train station, plus walking to lunch with my friend <BR> <B... Sat, 18 Feb 2017 23:59:57 EST A day of resolve... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6317234 Okay, time to buckle down. I know what to do. I have the tools. <BR> <BR> So, it was 190.8 this morning. EEEP! <BR> <BR> My overall weight loss goal is to get down to 150, a total of 40.8 to lose.I'm going to try 10% chunks, which is 4.08 lbs. So I will round that up to 4.1#... so goal #1 is to get down to 186.7. Completely doable... small steps... <BR> <BR> My goals for this week are: <BR> 1) 8000 daily steps <BR> 2) 1800 max calories <BR> 3) 8+ glasses of water <BR> 4) 10" daily activi... Fri, 17 Feb 2017 00:28:59 EST Too much. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316969 I was doing well up until the election. I have gained 15#. I weighed in today @ 190.8. I have got to get it together or I won't be alive to be part of the fight. Thu, 16 Feb 2017 11:37:20 EST A couple of resting days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247088 I really needed a good day or two to rest... My right hip and knee got twisted in my sleep, rather like when you sleep funny on your neck... so I took last night off.. it was apparently the right decision since everything was pretty much back to normal today. Today I just used my walk to work and a walk all the way through IKEA to get my steps in... again a good idea. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I plan to pick up the pace tomorrow with Week 5 Day 1 of my 10K training program. Which has the usual 5 m... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 00:43:04 EST Getting better everyday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246023 This morning I was down to 176.8#, it's a small bump from last week, but the needle is moving. I have dropped my calorie goal to 1600 this week, I was successful yesterday and only over by 100 today. <BR> <BR> I have also (as of tonight) completed a full 4 weeks of my 10K trainer. I completed my 3 & 5 minute run intervals at 5.5 mph. This is really good. My stamina is improving and my achilles tendons are handling it okay. <BR> <BR> Tue, 4 Oct 2016 00:57:48 EST I'm going down down down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6242916 I was down to 177# today! It's a slow but steady decline and it feels great. I think I have found my old mojo from 2008. I'm doing lots of journaling and tracking things here and in my bullet journals... yes I have two, one for the focus on what I need to do for losing weight and a more everyday one. I love using my artistic abilities to help keep interested and re-establish my good habits. <BR> <BR> I have also been keeping up with my 10K trainer and really enjoying it. I am currently in w... Wed, 28 Sep 2016 00:20:38 EST Successful week overall! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6241051 The scale is my friend this week, but there was been (mostly) consistent work to make it that way as well. I'm down to 177.2, after that crazy bump last week to over 180 (EEP!!). So I'm feeling confident. <BR> <BR> My water intake is good, I'm tracking all the foods, even last night's "night off"... I have otherwise been in my chosen range all this week. My mantras have been "I am so worth this!" and (regarding things and persons past) "Not worth my time." Getting that footing back has be... Sat, 24 Sep 2016 10:29:11 EST Finding my footing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239950 Despite last week and the setbacks I had, I am getting back on it this week and everything seems to be going well. I have managed to do 3 more days on my 10K training program and I have definitely determined that by keeping moving, I hurt less. I hope to be able to at least run a portion of next month's 5K. Thu, 22 Sep 2016 01:09:12 EST Well that wasn't such a great week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238834 I had the super weekend with my friend, but last week was not good for calories (though I DID count everyday but one), exercise, or just feeling that good. I was tired and in pain pretty much all week, between my left knee and achilles tendon, I felt like a cripple... so I didn't do much at all. <BR> <BR> This week is off to a much better start. I have gotten my steps everyday and gotten on the treadmill 2 days and picked up on my 10K training program where I left off before my weekend with ... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 00:42:42 EST Weekend getaway!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235475 I went to Walla Walla, WA to spend a long weekend with my good friend Susan, we ate too much and had a great time, we tasted wine too. It was fun. We got lots of steps in on Saturday wandering in the downtown area, there was a cool car show and we both wanted to drive off in one of the VW minibuses. <BR> <BR> I'm getting everything back in line after getting a little off track over the weekend. However, though I was over calories and under steps a few days, I have tracked everything as hones... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 23:57:07 EST Official weigh in = GREAT results!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233157 Feeling pretty <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> Since I reached my first goal last Friday, I changed my weigh in day to Friday until the next 3# goal is reached. <BR> <BR> So today, the <em>192</em> put me at 177.8#! That is down 5.2# since I really began working seriously at losing weight again in mid August, and down 2.2# since the beginning of the week. It may not hold that low, I know, but it still feels pretty super to have things going in the right direction and seeing my work paying... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 00:13:12 EST Scouring the soul... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6232597 We really have to be learn to be gentle with ourselves. We make mistakes and we will never be perfect. We can try really really hard to always be in control and work to understand what makes us do the things we do, but sometimes we just won't understand. <BR> <BR> I read a really good blog along these lines all day and it really spoke to me. <BR> <BR> I am getting back on track of so many years sputtered away and so many pounds put on. I let them get into my head and beat me down for 2 1... Fri, 9 Sep 2016 00:30:03 EST What you feel... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6232055 180.2, a number that bugged me for several weeks as I begin the work to lose the weight (mostly) regained over the last 3 1/2 really hard years. Even 2 days after breaking that barrier, my scale gave me that number again, TWICE. I think I have broken through once and for all, but it seems destined to haunt me. <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> Despite my fight with the scale and the dreaded 180.2, I could feel some trimming up of my body. I have less handfuls of fat and my buddy at work said she c... Thu, 8 Sep 2016 01:18:46 EST Trying to keep up the blogging and accountability. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6230824 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ef50fb64-8c4c-4b77-96b6-d49edb4cff43.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is along a path at Powell Butte Nature Park in Portland, Oregon. I took several hours to go hiking today, and it was a great choice. I got in 3.6 miles, my fitbit says I climbed the equivalent of 49 stories. There is a lookout in the park from which you can see several mountains, it is gorgeous. I also got all of my steps on both of my activity counters today!! <BR> <BR> I love my Vi... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 00:22:24 EST Well, wouldn't you know it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6229250 My weight dropped this morning to 180, with clothes on, so it's probably a bit lower than that. So after 2.5 weeks, I have hit goal one officially for me, which was 3#. I am figuring 3# bites will be doable. So Fridays will be my weigh in days until I lose another 3 lbs, I will give myself 4 weeks to hit that goal. Trying to lose that stubborn 0.2 lbs was annoying though, to be sure. It took me 1.5 weeks to get the scale to budge. <BR> <BR> I managed to get on the treadmill tonight too and ... Sat, 3 Sep 2016 00:37:14 EST A couple of not so great days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6228708 But I honestly recorded the calories and lack of steps. I did hop on the treadmill for a mile this evening, I would've done more, but my left knee was not happy. I am going to work on the theory of keeping moving to avoid rusting into place. The cool weather and nice grey raininess has descended on Portland, I love it. It'll be easier and much more pleasant to get out. I love the weather here. I was pretty disappointed this week, I'm still stuck at 180.2, meh. Just means I've gotta shake ... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 00:34:19 EST 14 days... and counting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226840 I have counted calories for 2 solid weeks now. I am working to stay under 1700 calories daily, and even when I haven't, I have logged it. My movement and exercise have been pretty limited by simply being tired at night lately, esp since it's been kind of stressy lately. We have had 2 folks quit and they are adding new things they want us to do when we can't even keep up with what our base tasks are. <BR> <BR> So, I am moving, I'm even counting my walks to and from the train station, althoug... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 00:25:30 EST 8 days straight of tracking... and almost to my first goal in a week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6223419 Well, I have tracked for 8 straight days. I have lost 2.8 lbs. My first goal is 3 lbs, and I have myself 3 weeks to lose it. I figure 33 lbs to lose, I'll take it in 3# chunks and allow 3 weeks for each 3 lbs. This is, of course, adjustable based on how fast I actually lose 3 lbs. <BR> <BR> The journal I have created is fun, it actually makes me want to track my goals, calories, steps, and water. And it acts like a coloring book, so it's relaxing to create too. <BR> <BR> Two of my fitness ... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 22:51:47 EST Back at it again... eep! back up to 183?! OH NO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6222861 <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> It has been a hard few years, trying to get myself back in gear... especially since I moved out to the Pacific NW.... The stress of losing the job and just generally getting settled has taken a toll on the fitness and good eating habits that I'd worked so hard to establish in 2008 and the success that I'd maintained for nearly 5 years. <BR> <BR> When I came out here, I was full of hope and confidence, only to go to the MOST TOXIC job I have ever worked in, bar none... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 00:20:19 EST Black holes and falling into them. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087319 I had some really great mojo started up in November, then holidays and a huge case of I'mnotsurewhathappenedthere... weight back up... etc etc etc. No good reasons, just excuses... and I let myself slide back into the Idon'tgiveaflyingfart mode again... <BR> <BR> So Saturday, had an Army function and had to squeeze into my dress uniform that was fitted when I weighed 25 lbs less. What it took is almost horrific, but luckily I managed to carry it off without anyone knowing... that I was wear... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 01:01:05 EST No exercise on drill weekend, whiskey tango foxtrot?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6030731 I was actually going strong up until Wednesday of last week... but then came everything related to drill weekend... <BR> <BR> Thursday >>> packing for drill weekend + being really wiped out = no exercise, food okay <BR> <BR> Friday >>> driving 2.5 hours to the base after work + really wiped out + nowhere to work out = no exercise, food still okay <BR> <BR> Saturday >>> sitting around all day doing drill things + evening meeting = no exercise, way over on calories <BR> <BR> Sunday >>> mor... Thu, 12 Nov 2015 00:59:32 EST Nice few days off... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025722 I have been working so much since September of last year, I have hardly had more than 3 days at a stretch off. I had about 5 days off in April and a week in March. So when my mom in law came to visit I took some time off, especially because my previous job wouldn't let me off when she was last here in June... and I only asked for 2 days off. (Yes, they were jerks.) So basically, I'm super tired and have needed a real rest for awhile. But now that I have the time off, I hardly now what to do... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 23:51:05 EST The official "2 weeks in" blog and weigh in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023241 <em>234</em> I had a beautiful, thoughtful, long blog post just about completed on my tablet and tapped *something* and it was gone... couldn't find it. ARGH!! So now I will try to recreate it. <BR> <BR> First, my official weigh-in this morning!! I am down to 171.8#, a loss of 3.8 lbs (14.8%) in 2 weeks, and average of 1.8 lbs each week so far. Super exciting having steady progress for 2 weeks so far. I weighed on the 25th and was at the 172.6, then weighed a couple more times only to fi... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 15:09:47 EST It's a Monday... still hanging in there. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021784 I came home and got myself on the treadmill and didn't quite hit my goal of 2 miles in 20 minutes, but I did manage 1.81 miles in the 20 minutes. I did 5 minutes at 3.8 miles to warm up and then ran for 20 straight minutes! I started at 5.1 mph, and then increased the speed every 2 minutes until I got up to 5.7 mph... that seemed like enough, so I stepped it back down to 5.4 mph every 2 minutes.Still had a great workout. So far, so good this week. I'm pretty much on track as far as workin... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 00:18:27 EST Run Like Hell Portland 2015 10K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021167 Well the run didn't go as well as I would have liked, but you know, I showed up and finished. I finished in 1:25:23 per Garmin and it said I went a distance of 6.47 miles... no terrible and again, I showed up and finished. <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/328fb062-fab9-442e-98d2-72f45f43355d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> According to my Garmin and my fitness calculator website, <link>nutritionfirstfitness.com/tools.php?<BR>tool=running </link> , I burned at a minimum 900+calories and pro... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 22:28:27 EST Another great week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020656 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3c382c8d-f211-45ea-b1f7-f46f28955aca.png"> <BR> This is from the treadmill tonight. <BR> <BR> GOAL REPORT: <BR> WORKOUTS: GOAL 4 workouts: completed 5 (2 on Sunday, 1 ea on Mon, Thurs, Sat) <BR> CALORIES: GOAL less than 1800 calories daily, 7/7 <BR> DAILY STEPS: GOAL, 9000+ daily, 6/7, all days over 10K except the one that I fell short. <BR> <BR> NEXT WEEK'S GOALS: <BR> WORKOUTS: 5 <BR> CALORIES: less than 1700 <BR> DAILY STEPS:10,000 <BR>... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 00:20:46 EST 7.03% of my total goal lost in one week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6019634 My first official weigh in was today... and I'm down 1.8 lbs. This is super exciting for me, it just reinforces everything that I'm doing. It's pretty exciting considering the fact that I'm approaching this weight loss with baby steps. Just like they tell you in nursing school, you have to set goals... Measurable & time-delineated & achievable. I think the problem with my previous attempts to get back on track (over and over and over and over again) during the last couple of years has a gr... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 00:28:07 EST Still batting 1.000 on Tuesday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018484 I'm super happy, my body is adjusting the lowered amount of calories really well. The gradual stepdown is working well, and it has really helped me to fight my nemesis of the evening snackies. I am getting better at reminding myself that I'm not hungry and to not eat. I'm also taking one peanut butter cup or one piece of cheese when I do feel hungry or want a nibble of something sweet. Today at lunch there was a pumpkin muffin and other baked goods in the breakroom, and a package of cookie... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 23:29:22 EST 2 great days... My old MOJO is coming back... woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017945 It's Monday and I'm really batting 1.000! This is so super exciting for me. This is really the best I have done for this long in ages. <BR> <BR> So, yesterday, I dusted off my one of my favorite old Kathy Smith videos... so 80's but still a super workout... unfortunately my home recording borked and I only got 35ish minutes of the 45 done. And I got out for 4.25 miles... my calorie burn was 754. I got 14, 271 steps and ate 1867 calories. That was technically over my limit by 67, but with... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 01:16:04 EST REBOOT: Week 2's results... and looking to next week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017040 I knew it wasn't going to be perfect, but it was acceptable and much better than the previous week. I was batting better than .500 in all categories. <BR> <BR> My goals and results for 11-17 October: <BR> Weight 175.6 (first official one in this reboot) <BR> Day of reaching 8K + steps: 6/7 (Total steps: 69,431 of 56,000) <BR> Days of exercise: 3/3 (I actually did move at least a little everyday, but intentionally I hit goal) <BR> Days below 1900 calories: 4/7 (I was close last night, but I... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 14:19:54 EST Better day today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6016326 I got over 10,000 steps today... and I stayed under 1700 calories today. I walked home from the train station instead of driving, which certainly helped my step count. I also did a little bit of exercise with weights while marching and lunging and stuff. So I can say that I am at 100% for my steps, actually well over and above. I am hoping that I make it to a full 71% on my calorie goals, which is 5 of 7 days. I have run 2 days so far this week and actually moved pretty much everyday this we... Sat, 17 Oct 2015 00:36:06 EST Off track with the food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015687 Okay, so lost track of my food tracking today... Not going to sweat it. I'll just get in a good treadmill run tonight. So it won't be a complete loss. I can do this and one imperfect day doesn't negate a week and a half of progress. Last week was much less perfect than this week. So I've made good progress. As long as I don't drop the ball on both of my goals, it's still progress. Also, the way I feel after having eaten as much as I did is a perfect reminder of one "why" I'm doing this.... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 21:18:53 EST I vs. You Can Do This/Honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015414 I had an interesting insight on I vs. You in my recycled mantra. For some reason, telling myself "You can do this" has more power than "I can do this." I wonder why that is. Somehow externalities the words and redirecting them AT my own self has more "oomph". I also realized in the shower this morning that even though I lost 60 lbs in 2008... Talking about it now while having regained over half of that weight is just an excuse, sort of like an addict saying, " I was clean once, I know what t... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 10:46:15 EST I may be blogging a lot... if I'm not journalling. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015197 I didn't run tonight... but I did some movement stuff and a little bit of weight stuff in the living room. The point right now isn't burning a ton of calories... it's about re-establishing the exercise habit. The healthy baby steps will lead to healthy normal steps which will lead to healthy leaps. <BR> <BR> The good news is that the healthy eating is falling back into place. I take lowfat cheese and about 3 oz each of grape tomatoes and carrots as a snack. I have 100 calorie granola ba... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 23:06:18 EST You can do this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014949 I am working hard at establishing little goals to get this 30 lbs back off. I am in the mid 170s and all my cute clothes are tight. I hate this. I hate that I let those terrible people own my thoughts and tell me I wasn't the rock star that everyone else tell me that I am. I hate how my body feels when I'm not moving. I hate how I feel when I know I've gone hundreds of calories over where I should be. I have a lot of self hate going on because of events that reawakened my old self esteem iss... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 13:27:38 EST I'm in training... and choosing to move my life forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934290 I really want to run a half marathon... it really is a goal. I got really pumped running the whole first mile of the Rock N Roll 10K, as a matter of fact I'm still pumped. So I am starting to earnestly train. I am just at the beginning of this journey... just lengthening my run today to 3.2 miles and my beginning run distance to 1.1 miles. <BR> <BR> So this week, I walk the .75 miles to the trail that I run on as a warm up. Then run out 1.6 miles and back for a total of 3.2. Then walk the .... Tue, 26 May 2015 00:24:16 EST Long Weeks at work lead to too much snacking and not enough moving. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5933239 Honestly, I love my job. I am treated well and I couldn't ask for a better group of people to work with. The problem is that there is just to much work for the staff that we don't have. So I am feeling compelled to look for another job. If I try to keep up the pace I've been doing lately, I will crack. Point blank. <BR> <BR> So I have 12 jobs bookmarked that I plan to get applied to in the next couple of days, today was a decompress day. <BR> <BR> I did get out and run a 5K on my own toda... Sat, 23 May 2015 22:46:15 EST Up Late, but feeling pumped. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930541 I ran my 2nd 10K (the Portland Rock N Roll 10K & Half Marathon) yesterday and had my best time ever... despite a stiff knee and not training as hard as I'd planned or wanted... I ran it in 1 hour 16 minutes and 57 seconds, a full 5:30 less than my previous official 10K back in September, the Bridge of the Goddesses. I looked back at some training run and this time was better by 2-3 minutes than those. This was wonderfully affirming. I even ran the entire first mile! <BR> <BR> So, many than... Tue, 19 May 2015 02:04:30 EST Back into the 160s! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923607 I'm at 169 this morning. I am finally heading in the right direction and continuing. It's been over a year of trying to turn it around and I'm finally keeping myself going and motivated. Keeping up the momentum is really motivating. Besides, I have a 10K in just 11 days. <BR> Wed, 6 May 2015 10:20:29 EST Pits of Insecurity and Climbing out of them... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922538 I so very much hate when the insecurity and negative tape loops start playing in my head... and trying to find the source is like being in a creepy haunted house with cobwebs and shadows and peeling paint... hearing the creepy laugh of an equally creepy little ghost girl... trying to find her behind all the myriad doors... it takes a lot of time... to follow the laugh and the strains of the old victrola scratching repeatedly, *POP* "you're not good enough, you do everything wrong, you can't l... Mon, 4 May 2015 16:09:00 EST Breaking the day 3 curse... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919424 I wrote my little blog entry the other day... and I come back to find all kinds of super cool replies.... it became a featured blog post. A bit overwhelmed and definitely surprised by that... but that is what makes SP so special... something you say just might be the inspiration another person needs when you least expect it. <BR> <BR> But anyway... I didn't exercise a great deal on Saturday, mostly walking around downtown and at the Art Museum, then Lloyd Center and then riding my bike home... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 00:43:23 EST What a whirlwind! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918265 It's been a couple of weeks since I last blogged, but life has been busy being LIFE... and pretty exciting and wonderful at that. <BR> <BR> Last weekend I went to Boston, MA to run the BAA 5K (the Saturday BEFORE the Marathon) with ANNIONLI, my long term SparkBuddy. I flew into Boston and Anne picked me up... we were both pretty much "I can't believe we are doing this!!". It was super exciting and fun to get to know this person that I've known for so long online. I'm happy to report that s... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 01:08:57 EST Trying again... and again... and again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910900 I guess I should just call it the three day curse, it seems like I can exercise and eat right for about 3 days ina row and then I fall off the hourse for another two weeks. This doesn't help me lose weight, it achieves exactly the opposite. <BR> <BR> Too many days I do great all day and then I come home and snack in the evenings. This has been my nemesis for too many many nights over the last few years and the weight has been creeping up... and up and up. <BR> <BR> I am now out of Army r... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 00:57:39 EST Better week continues. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895815 I went a little over on calories, but I recorded them honestly yesterday. Good news is that I had a good amount of leeway... and I had a good 360ish calorie burn on the treadmill last night. <BR> <BR> No matter, I have reached 4 days of careful eating... and 3 straight days of exercise. Tonight is something in the living room with strength as the main focus. <BR> <BR> Okay, I have made it to lunch and I'm at 984 calories. I did have a pixie stick as a treat, but that is 8 calories and... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 10:16:03 EST Don't eat someone else's bitter... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895622 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l427583696.jpg"> Thu, 19 Mar 2015 00:49:25 EST That Frickin' Wagon is So Slippery! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895334 Help! I feel like I've fallen and I can't get up! <BR> <BR> It's crunch time now. I have my weigh in coming up on the 11th of April for the Army and I'm honestly not sure I can lose enough weight to pass, but I'm trying. I kept starting, restarting, and saying "just today I'll eat whatever I want"... I'll get back on the wagon tomorrow, or next Sunday ('cause you know it's easier to have a benchmark like the beginning of a week.). <BR> <BR> So this week is getting better. I am on day #3 ... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 15:07:27 EST