NYMERIAV's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NYMERIAV NYMERIAV's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dora is My Homegirl! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461226 My almost 5 year old daughter is sometimes a nightmare when it comes to picky eating. Slap a piece of Meat Lovers Pizza in front of her, and she's good to go. Veggies? Prepare for a long, bloody battle. <BR> <BR> Sadly, this is the story for too many kids these days, and I will admit that there is no one to blame in this particular situation other than myself. Before I started eating so much more healthfully, I was one of those tired moms that microwaved Chef Boyardee or threw some boxed mac... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 17:09:06 EST Best... Anniversary... EVER!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458585 First off, thank you so much to everyone that had such kind words to say on my last blog- I knew I was getting myself all atwitter over nothing, but it's my norm. Eventually, I was able to put my fears in perspective and get over myself. <BR> <BR> Anyhoodle, on to the good stuff! <BR> <BR> Tuesday afternoon, we took the spawn up to my parents house (about 2 hours from us) and visited for a bit before leaving Wednesday. I had a much harder time leaving the kids than I thought I would- I'm no... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 02:42:38 EST Celebrating Without Regret... Hopefully????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447677 Next week is my 12 year wedding anniversary, and for the first time EVER, we won't have our kiddos for a whole four days. My husband and I cashed in our vacation time, so we're taking a week off, and plan to do up San Diego for our first time as "grown ups". We've been together since we were 17, and immediately had kids after marriage, so we've never had the chance to really see the non-family oriented side of our city. <BR> <BR> I'm very, VERY excited, and very, VERY nervous. <BR> <BR> My... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 12:52:12 EST New Guidelines for a Happy Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441055 While I've been without my computer, I've failed pretty significantly at keeping to my routine and working on my goals, which has led to an almost 25 lb weight gain. <BR> <BR> Ouch. Seeing it in black in white hurts! <BR> <BR> Anyhoodle, although I've gained that weight back, it hasn't come without positives. I've been much more social than I used to be, with REAL, LIVE PEOPLE! Anyone who knows about my issues with social anxiety will understand what a big deal that is to me. I went to a co... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:35:35 EST SparkPeople, How I've Missed You... Let Me Count The Ways... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440337 For almost a year, my laptop was out of commission, and it killed me as far as weight loss went. I guess SparkPeople was so much more important to achieving my goals than I thought! Not being able to check in every day, or even every WEEK, well and truly sucked. Not having my trackers or being able to talk to my SP friends really hurt, too. <BR> <BR> I know it sounds like SP is a crutch for me, and maybe it is, but I missed it so much, and hey, if it works and doesn't hurt anyone, I'm comple... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 22:03:11 EST Square One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359416 Where do I even begin? <BR> <BR> As I've said before, depression is an issue I struggle with, and of course, some times are harder than others to pull myself out of it. When I'm depressed, I don't want to exercise, and when I don't exercise, I get depressed... Sounds familiar? Anyhoodle, is been like that for more than a month, and I'm finally snapping out of it. I won't go into the events that triggered the latest episode, but I will say that it really kicked my butt. Fortunately, I have a... Fri, 17 May 2013 14:27:00 EST Run or Dye 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314890 Yesterday was my 5k, and it was a blast! <BR> <BR> My team was The Walking Dead, and my team mates (my husband and two friends) dressed up as Walkers, while I was the only survivor. There were some other crazy getups there, but we were the only ones in actual costumes, which was disappointing, but fun anyway. By the end of the event, we were so covered in dye you couldn't tell we were wearing anything special anyway! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1980735751.... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 17:34:28 EST Blah, Grr, and Ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309155 The past couple of days have been a bit difficult for me- It's my most favorite time of the month to be a woman (enter eyeroll here) and it's been owning my happy butt. I've had zero energy, and the food cravings have been pretty strong. Enter in the horrible cramps, and it's good times all around. <BR> <BR> I think I'll be good to exercise by tomorrow, but even standing in the shower has been draining. I'm anemic, so you can imagine how tired I get. My husband gets freaked out sometimes bec... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 17:00:07 EST Adventures in Cooking: Whole Wheat Penne Veggie Salad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297856 When I go to my local market, they always have awesome prices on produce, and I tend to go a bit overboard. Then a week later, I'm looking in my fridge and saying, "Oh, crap! The tomatoes/spinach/green beans/etc, are about to spoil!" <BR> <BR> I had quite a few items like that tonight, and about a third a box of whole wheat penne left, so I tossed it all together, threw in a little bit of fat-free Italian dressing and parm, and got this: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 02:33:14 EST Adventures in Cooking: Green Thai Curry w/ Chicken http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294496 Tonight's dinner was inspired by a restaurant my husband visited a few nights ago, called Memela's. It's a Mexican/Thai fusion joint, which I found on Yelp. Almost all of the reviews were exceptional, and as I found out, well deserved. Let's just say, I'll be going back, soon. <BR> <BR> Anyhoodle, tonight I attempted to do curry on my own, and although it was still better at the restaurant, I ended up being pretty pleased with it. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 01:59:28 EST Another Reason Public Libraries Rock My Socks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276857 My local library is itsy bitsy, but I always seem to find exactly what I need, exactly when I need it. <BR> <BR> I get bored easily, especially when it comes to food. I get stuck in a rut with recipes, and that often sets me off on binges, especially when emotional crap gets mixed in. I've been fighting this particular battle this week, so imagine how psyched I was when the feature wall at the library today was all about healthy eating! <BR> <BR> I picked up two books: <BR> <BR> 1. The 1... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 02:43:59 EST 9 Weeks to Glory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264215 So, here's the situation- <BR> <BR> My friend's 25th birthday party is in a little over 9 weeks, and it's a pretty big deal. Her parents have rented out a hall, the dress code is semi-formal, and there will be dancing. About 150 guests have RSVP'd. <BR> <BR> As you may know, I have pretty extreme social anxiety issues. The more people around, the more I spiral downward. It has gotten easier to deal with over the past five years, but I still have problems with large crowds of people I don't ... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 03:23:33 EST Lack of Motivation, or As I Like to Call It, The Victoria Saga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258816 Before I start, let me say that I do know that there will be some eye rolling and scoffing. If I think about all of this from a different point of view, I get it. I really do. Some of this will seem completely ridiculous, but I want to be honest about what's been going on with me. <BR> <BR> A lot of little hardships have been going on this past year, and I've become bogged down. We live pretty much paycheck to paycheck, so when financial issues come up, it's pretty scary for us. If a luxury ... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 13:38:35 EST For The Love of Kittens! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221899 (Which is what I say when I'm becoming overwhelmed.) <BR> <BR> Where do I even start? A you all know, I'm married and have three children. Usually, things in our household are nuts, but not unmanageable. We take things as they come and tackle hardships as a team. Well, the entire team has, until recently, been taken out. <BR> <BR> With two boys in public school, as well as my husband and I both in retail jobs where we deal with the public daily, we're used to colds and short lived illnesses... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 16:12:00 EST Trading Fat for Goodies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205289 My session with Sparkcoach today made a fantastic point- I don't reward myself for a job well done. I used to reward myself with pasta or ice cream, but we see where that got me. As I've been having issues of a motivational nature lately, I've decided to make a list of rewards to before upon myself when I hit my goals. <BR> <BR> 5 lbs- Get more work done on my Nightmare sleeve. <BR> 10 lbs- Get my hair done (cut and highlights). <BR> 15 lbs- New workout clothes. <BR> 20 lbs- New clothes! <BR... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 16:18:48 EST All I Have Is NOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165982 Until a couple of days ago, I hadn't had a haircut in two years. I wasn't particularly attached to my hair, but for some reason, I kept telling myself to wait. Wait until I'd lost enough weight. Wait until my face thinned out. Wait until I could buy pretty new clothes to compliment new hair. <BR> <BR> Wait until I felt like I was worth the trouble. <BR> <BR> A friend very kindly, but firmly, told me to get the hell over myself. She said I needed to stop and really think about who I am. Am I... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 23:25:58 EST Not Entirely Unfortunate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151145 The only large mirror I have access to is at work. It only hits from about waist up, and it's always filthy, but hey, beggars can't be choosers, right? <BR> <BR> While on my break today, I decided to strip down to my camisole and take a good, long look at my body. Surprisingly, I didn't completely hate what I saw! Granted, I have more work to do, but I'm really seeing some changes. My stomach is significantly smaller, and my arms are less like the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man's. I'm even seeing... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 23:23:32 EST Truly, A Day To Be Thankful! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144308 My Thanksgiving was horrible and wonderful, frustrating and eye opening. <BR> <BR> Let me explain. <BR> <BR> I had to work yesterday, starting at 6 p.m. I normally work the holiday, but in the morning, so I at least get the evening with my family. This year, I was stuck closing the store, so my family left me around 11 a.m. I spent the time alone, feeling sad, maybe shedding a tear or two. I worked out, took a loooooong shower without interruptions (not going to lie, I did enjoy the privacy... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 14:13:46 EST 30 Will Be The Year, D@mn It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5136960 I've been doing better with dealing with my depressive tendencies, so I'm calling it a win. However, I've still been struggling with my diet and nutrition. As of two days ago, I made a significant decision regarding my health, and without going into detail, it is something that will greatly impact my health in only positive ways. <BR> <BR> And no- there's no surgery involved! <BR> <BR> I'm determined that 30 will be the year of positive, permanent change for myself and my family. There are... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 00:09:05 EST Sigh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098752 I love my friends dearly, but sometimes, I want to throttle them. They mean well, they really do, but... <BR> <BR> Please stop offering me the cookies you bring to work. I really am happy with my granola bar. <BR> <BR> I'll pass on the pizza- Believe it or not, I'm fine with my soup and whole wheat toast. <BR> <BR> Yes, your chocolate pumpkin muffin looks tasty, but the fat and calorie content ruin it for me. I'd rather have a full meal later, thanks! <BR> <BR> It's so difficult, especial... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 15:16:50 EST Birthday Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096880 My 30th birthday is coming up in less than a month, and I'm going to do it up right! In this vein, I'm doing a challenge for myself. <BR> <BR> - Stay within my nutritional guidelines each day. <BR> - Do some form of exercise each day, even if it's only for 15 minutes. <BR> - Remind myself of one of my positive attributes out loud every morning. <BR> - Start each morning with Spark and a glass of water. <BR> - Eat small meals/snacks every few hours to keep myself from "freak out" binge eating... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 20:24:04 EST Who Isn't Ready to Fly Solo? This Girl! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067776 The past few weeks have been quite the humbling experience for me. I've had to face some unwelcome, but ultimately needed, facts about myself. <BR> <BR> I NEED SP. <BR> <BR> My computer has conked out on me, and at first, I was still good about using my IPod Touch to check in and track myself; to read my emails and stay motivated. After a bit, all the extra work started irritating me- I'm not a mobile device savvy person. I love my computer. I started Sparking less, and then just dropped i... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 11:49:28 EST 10 Minute Pity Party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013965 I was changing into my jammies last night, in my parent's bathroom, and got a good look at myself in their VERY large mirror. Although I could see the positive changes in my body, what I couldn't stop seeing were the negatives. It's been bothering me all morning, so I'm putting my issues here, and then it's time to move on. <BR> <BR> My stomach grosses me out. I try looking at it as this amazing spot where I've grown and nutured my children, and all that jazz, but it's not really flying with... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 17:31:06 EST Perils of Partying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4976264 Sunday was my son's birthday party, and I went into it with the purest of intentions, really. I prepped numerous healthy, yummy food choices ahead of time- chicken and pork kebobs, a fruit plate, a veggie platter... My husband even got turkey hot dogs instead of beef, so I could have one! <BR> <BR> Things were okay until cupcake time rolled around. My son had decided he wanted to do the create-your-own-flavor icing, and I lost my d@mn mind and tried all four flavors of cupcake. Then we got h... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 14:04:09 EST W.U.B 6/18~6/24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4940375 I've hit the 50 lb mark. <BR> <BR> I'VE HIT THE 50 LB MARK!!!!!! <BR> <BR> (Sorry, I just felt the need to "yell" that.) <BR> <BR> So, needless to say, awesome week for me. Physically, I feel a little worn out, because I've really been pushing myself, but I rested yesterday, and might again today. <BR> <BR> I had a rough time even hitting my minimum calories a couple days... I've just been so busy with work and the kids, that it was easier to grab fruit or veggies than have a whole meal.... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 16:43:32 EST W.U.B 6/10- 6/16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929072 I've had a stupendous week! I'm not going to lie; there were some points where I got really frustrated and wanted to drink a cold beer or have a glass of wine, but I didn't. <BR> <BR> And I lost 7 lbs. <BR> <BR> Thus proving to me, that yes, the alcohol was having a MAJOR impact on my weight. Total "Duh!" kind of situation, but there you go. <BR> <BR> I feel fantastic. My energy levels have been through the roof, and my kids are so happy about that. Instead of wanting to collapse on the c... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 14:19:52 EST I'm Bright RED, But Laughing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4926415 So, this morning as I'm getting dressed, I was standing in front of the bathroom mirror eyeballing my stomach. Now, as I'm sure a lot of my fellow lady Sparkers know, having kids does some interesting things to your body, along with excessive weight gain. On top of that, add in LOSING a lot of that weight later in life. <BR> <BR> My oldest son, who's ten, saw me poking at my stomach, and this is the resulting conversation. <BR> <BR> Joey: Why are you poking yourself? <BR> <BR> Me: I was ... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 13:50:38 EST B.F.W Weekly Update Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4920171 Well, I didn't do horribly, but I did have a couple of setbacks, to be honest. It's the week before my girly time, which for me, means salt and vinegar kettle chip cravings that drive me insane. Between two days, I ate an entire bag. <BR> <BR> I feel like @$$ about it. I know it's not good for me. I know I should eat it in moderation. <BR> <BR> I didn't. Not even a little bit. <BR> <BR> And then there were the cheese enchiladas the hubs brought home as a surprise, because he knew I wasn't ... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 13:35:35 EST Battle for Winterfell~ Monthly Goal Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4913861 My goals for the month of June! <BR> <BR> 1~ To work out 5 to 6 days a week, for at least 30 minutes each day. <BR> <BR> 2~ To snack healthily through out the day, so I don't go on a crazy junk food binge at night. <BR> <BR> 3~ Drink my 64 oz. of water for the day BEFORE I grab for the diet soda. <BR> <BR> 4~ Do more stretching- I always forget to do it, and then I hate myself later. <BR> <BR> 5~ Make sure I don't slack on my strength training just because I already did cardio for the d... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 21:23:55 EST I Kicked So Much @$$ Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895534 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l406148136.jpg">When I woke up this morning, I had no idea today was going to be so huge for me. We had planned to go hiking at Iron Mountain, which round trip is only about 7 miles, but they're pretty tough miles, a lot of rocky incline. Every time we've done a new mountain so far, it's taken me at least two separate tries to get to the peak... <BR> <BR> Today, I was able to do the entire trip in ONE GO! <BR> <BR> I'm disgustingly proud of... Thu, 24 May 2012 01:56:46 EST The Fettuccine Killer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887272 I poisoned my friends this weekend. <BR> <BR> Sort of. <BR> <BR> A few weeks back, I was really ill with a flu-like sickness, and had to call in to work two days in a row. A couple of friends, girls with very busy schedules, stepped in to cover for me. As a thank you, I decided to make my famous homemade fettuccine alfredo. This meal is requested by damn near everyone I know for birthdays, anniversaries, and every other celebration. It's my signature dish. <BR> <BR> I gathered the ingredie... Fri, 18 May 2012 13:01:52 EST This Week in One Word: Ugh. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4857834 Weight loss, as awesome as it is, is a fickle wench. My hormones are all nutso, because my body is realigning itself, or some such blather. My circulation is doing the same; it's the end of April, and I'm wearing socks. I hate socks. They're just scratchy little mummy wrappings for your feet. <BR> <BR> My times of the month are funky and sporadic. I'm PMS-ing like a mother, and I swear my husband is just WAITING for my head to start spinning around on my shoulders. <BR> <BR> To top it off... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 16:00:52 EST Slurpees Are People Too! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4841110 Yesterday, I happened to meet up with an old friend (I'll call her Kris) while picking my boys up from school. Kris and I used to work together, and I was always in awe of her beauty. She's tiny, only 5 feet tall, and looks like a faerie princess or something (I know how dorky I sound, but she does.) She just had a baby boy about six months ago, and has gained a little weight. While I think she's still stunning, she's having a hard time dealing. <BR> <BR> We spent some time chatting about m... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 14:10:32 EST Hiking- America's Newest Catwalk? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809970 We're bopping along the Mt. Woodson Trail, sweaty and gloriously grimy, when I look up to see a couple of women passing us in the other direction. This isn't unusual, as it's a popular trail, but they caught my attention anyway. <BR> <BR> They were both in FULL MAKEUP and wearing fancy, rhinestone encrusted "PINK" sweatsuits from Victoria's Secret... ?! <BR> <BR> Please explain this to me, because it's just not computing. Who gets glammed up to go get sweaty and stinky? The only products I ... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 00:40:56 EST Ain't No Jiggle Like a Big Girl Jiggle! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4772003 Today is laundry day for me, and on the way to load my laundry card, three joggers passed me by. We live just down the street from a military base, so I'm quite used to seeing eye candy jogging down my street. However, the site that really caught my eye this morning was something quite different. <BR> <BR> A heavy woman was slowly making her way down the street, dressed in sweats, her face sweaty and bright red. She was huffing and puffing, and obviously pushing hard for each next step. I kn... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 14:01:53 EST Sealy Posturepedic's My New Love... (It's Okay! My Husband's Willing To Share!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4745554 For the past seven years or so, I've been sleeping on a bed that, to be honest, was old and dead before we got it. Some dear friends needed to make room for their new bed, and being short on finances, we took it. <BR> <BR> Finally, we're in a position to remedy that situation, and oh boy! Am I a crazily happy woman! <BR> <BR> Yesterday we purchased a Sealy Posturepedic European Pillow Top, and if I wasn't already madly in love with my husband, I might be one of those nutso people you read a... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 02:09:09 EST Granny Panties! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4742830 When it comes to clothing, I'm usually a pretty simple girl. Solid colors, simple patterns, loose fit... But I LOVE pretty underwear. As a big girl, it can be hard to find, at least inexpensively. I happily admit I'm cheap- I have three kiddos. Paying ten bucks for one pair of panties honestly makes me cringe. <BR> <BR> So you can imagine how happy I get when Torrid has one of their big lingerie sales. Last week, I ordered 10 pairs of super cute underoos for about $50... Yay me! <BR> <BR> I... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 04:30:35 EST Return To Factory Settings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4725917 I'm doing my best not to throw a temper tantrum right now, in reaction to the shock I've just received. <BR> <BR> My scale was WRONG. This entire time, I've been working with incorrect information, and I want to kick and scream and call for my mommy. <BR> <BR> My old scale shorted out, so I did my research, found one with fantastic reviews, and ordered it through Amazon. I was excited, because I've had my old scale since forever, and who doesn't like new stuff? <BR> <BR> Well, this scale ... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 20:04:43 EST ****Rant Blog, Be Warned!**** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4714707 I love watching VHI reality shows. It's one of my silly little secrets, and over the past few months, I've incorporated it into my healthier lifestyle by only allowing myself to watch it while I'm working out. <BR> <BR> Today's viewing pleasure was "The 40 Most Slimmed-Down Celebs" which, for the most part, was fun to watch. It's all about how Janet Jackson, Kelli Osbourne, and so on and so forth have struggled with weight, and how they got over the hurdle. Towards the middle of the show, I ... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 16:31:06 EST That Butt's Getting High and Tight! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4709639 Tonight we were taking my son out to celebrate his 10th birthday, and I had NOTHING to wear... All of my jeans are saggy in the butt, which is just not cute. I'm happy about the extra fabric, don't get me wrong, but it wasn't exactly the look I was shooting for, you know? <BR> <BR> I have multiple pairs of jeans hanging in the back of my closet that I haven't been able to fit in for YEARS, but I can't quite bring myself to get rid of them. I figured "What the hell" and grabbed a pair a coupl... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 01:24:29 EST My Baby Girl, A.K.A Spawn of Satan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4699056 Last night, my husband and I are cuddling on the couch, watching a show and enjoying the peace after our three sweet darlings are in bed. <BR> <BR> Suddenly, we hear numerous crashes and bangs coming from the kids room, and I jump to see what's happening. I throw the door open, somewhat expecting to find a small bear or or something similar causing all the commotion (Don't ask, that's just how my imagination rolls.) <BR> <BR> What I did NOT expect was to find my three year old little angel ... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 13:28:42 EST At What Point... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4692591 Do you start enjoying getting your picture taken? I keep telling myself that I'll have my husband take a recent photo of me, but when it comes down to it, I keep finding reasons to put it off. I know that no one here will judge me- That's not an issue for me. I think I'm most worried about judging myself. <BR> <BR> Progress has been made in the weight loss battle, but I'm scared that when the photo's in front of me, I'll be too disappointed. What if I can't tell a difference? What if my fac... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 02:31:26 EST Heaven, Thy Name Is Chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4684779 I abhor most of the "diet" sweets out there, especially the chocolate stuff. They always have that fake, chemically sweet aftertaste that lingers forever, so just... Yuck. I stay away. <BR> <BR> However, my sweetie pie of a spouse was grocery shopping, and happened upon these individually packaged snacks that he thought I'd like, and boy, do I! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l748280193.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> These things are delicious, and at only ... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 15:42:16 EST Thank God For Small Blessings... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4669148 I'm happy to say that although I gained weight over my little funk period, it wasn't nearly as much as I'd feared, so yay for that. The flip side though, is that my stamina and flexibility have taken a hit, so in a lot of ways, it's kind of like I'm starting over again. <BR> <BR> Hey, you play, you pay, right? <BR> <BR> How do you motivate yourself? Especially on the days when you can barely crawl out of bed? Mon, 9 Jan 2012 15:39:28 EST Reality Check, or, My 2012 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4658420 When I started SP, I was 110% raring to go, ready to kick butt and take names. I worked out every single morning, without fail, eye balled my food intake down to the last calorie, and guilted myself if I even THOUGHT about Ben and Jerry's... <BR> <BR> So of course, by the time 2 months went by, I had dropped 20 pounds, but I was also burnt out. I woke up one morning, stressed out by life, craving anything with butter, and aching all over from another strenuous workout from the night before. ... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 23:27:54 EST Hey Strangers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4649614 I'm officially back at it today, and a last little kick I needed to get here was some love I received from a couple of you. Thank you so much for that! <BR> <BR> I've been throwing a little pity party for myself over the holidays, letting stress and busy-ness drown me, and I'm ready to shake it off. I'm back to tracking my nutrition and fitness, and reading my motivational bits and pieces. <BR> <BR> The tools are there, I just have to commit to using them. <BR> <BR> So, tell me! What have... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 21:14:36 EST Missing My Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4635258 I know it seems like I've disappeared, but I promise I haven't. I'm just having a hard time right now, but I'm working on it. Hopefully after the holidays things'll even out a little... I miss you all desperately. Thu, 22 Dec 2011 13:31:11 EST My Own Worst Enemy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4613555 Today, I stepped on the scale, and wanted to bawl my eyes out. <BR> <BR> I've gained back 3 POUNDS. <BR> <BR> I'm not surprised... I knew it was coming... But it still felt like I'd been punched in the stomach. My very round, very jiggly stomach. <BR> <BR> As you all know, a few things have been going on that have caused some stress for me, but that's no excuse. Honestly, I'd made the choice to be lazy. My eating habits have still remained healthy (with a few exceptions), but I've cut back... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 15:48:24 EST What Do I Do Now? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4600287 Do you ever just feel sad and pathetic, and utterly sick of hearing your own thoughts? That would be me for the past couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> Ever since my birthday, I've been in this crazy funk that I just can't seem to shake off, and it's making me feel all stressed out and spastic. Each time I think I'm climbing out of it, I get sucked right back in. <BR> <BR> I know this time of year is difficult for many, so I'm trying not to get dramatic and all despairing about it. I know I'll pu... Sat, 26 Nov 2011 17:45:21 EST Stress Kicks My Round Butt.... Again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4587824 The past week has been so stressful for myself and my husband, and I haven't been dealing with it well, to be honest. I've kind of been eating what I want since last Thursday, and I definitely feel a difference inside, a sluggishness and general sense of "blah" that I'm not loving. <BR> <BR> Last Thursday was my birthday, and without details, let's just say it wasn't awesome. There was a lot going on that couldn't be helped, which I understood, but it didn't take the suck out of it. I ate ca... Wed, 16 Nov 2011 22:06:47 EST