NYHARDHAT_1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NYHARDHAT%5F1 NYHARDHAT_1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Today is the day............. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530729 I set my weekly goal of: <BR> counting calories and measuring portions <BR> moving. I don't know what that will be yet but as long as it's active and moving I am counting it as a success. I will define it more later. <BR> Lots of soul searching this week. I can do this. <BR> <BR> Sun, 3 Nov 2013 08:39:22 EST Who was that naked lady in the mirror???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524588 Omg.....who was that naked lady in the mirror?? Where the he** did she come from? Is that what my easy choices have done to me???? I have to get one of those and put on my bathroom door so I can see her everyday. That was scary as he**. I mean really!!! That is what taking the easy road has done to me. It was not a costume. I can't take this off at the end of the day. I am stuck with who I see in that mirror. I can't let this continue. No one can do it for me. Obviously the ... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 11:52:05 EST March goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266852 I can't beleive we have finished February already. It will be Christmas next week at this rate. <BR> As I close out February with an 8 pound loss and some milestones hit I have been thinking about the changes/additions I want to add to March. Healthy eating is becoming the norm for the most part. Thinking is starting become a normal thing too. <BR> <BR> I still haven't done any consistent exercise . I need to look really deep inside and see what is hindering my progress here. ... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 07:07:57 EST back in sync....duct tape in hand. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260041 Today starts day 2 of a 28 day streak I have started with a Spark friend. She held my hand and walked me thru the rough spot. I have looked back and see where my downfalls have been. I see what I have been doing right and I feel so much better. I am still eating in the high range of my calories and unless I get off my tush and start moving this weight will come off ounces at a time. <BR> <BR> I know I stumble, sway back and forth and even fall to my knees but by golly I refuse to giv... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 13:03:12 EST brownie 1 Cyn 0 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248651 I have been wobbling for the past 2 weeks. I know it is because of this inspection today and having a new boss for the past 2 months. <BR> My husband, being the kind and sensetive man that he is bought me a box of 90 calorie fiber one chocolate chip brownies thinking he was doing a good thing since he knows how I am with chocolate (I eat until it's gone). Yes, that is what I have been doing for the past 3 days. A box of 21 now has 3 left. <BR> I know I cannot have chocolate of any... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 06:57:04 EST play that funky music white boy... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239184 no...I am not crazy. well...maybe. sometimes. It has been a crazy week and it's only Tuesday. The rest of the week on into the 13th will be just as crazy. We are preparing for inspection and the woman who usually does the procedure for our department has put it off until the very end. Now we are scrambling to get the records and documentation together and into the charts when it could of been done all thru out the year and we would of been done. I don't know how many times I have a... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 19:23:36 EST February 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235339 It's day 3 of February. Jan was a good month. I lost 6 pounds. I didn't excerices as much as I should have. I made some 1/2 a**ed attempts but didn't follow thru. I joined the 10 minute fitness challege and did day 1. <BR> <BR> I know I have to push myslef to excerise. I am still looking for something to do that I enjoy when it comes to excerise. I do walk 3 days a week with my husband but that is only 15 minutes each time for him. It is really good for him but not anywhere near e... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 07:42:00 EST a light bulb moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230787 My coworker asked me today why I had not taken a supervior role. I told her I had done that in NY for many a year but did not want the responsibility any longer. I liked being the wing man and all the things that went with the positon I am in now. <BR> <BR> I pondered that all day and tossed it around as how I could apply those supervior skills that are so ingrained in me into my life and this weight loss journey. I was a by the book supervior. Itr was always by the rules and regs. ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 20:37:00 EST an end to the evening grazing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225346 it's kept me on the high side of my alloted calories. I know it's mindless and done out of boredom. So....as of today I will use the time more wisely. I will take my shower in the evening and pamper myself everday with all those new body lotions I bought, give myself a pedicure and manicure and spend the time taking care of me. Maybe some nites it will be a long soak in the tub since I am not a bath person this will not happen often but it will be about pampering me. Getting rid of the ... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 09:23:53 EST rough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222649 Been a rough week. <BR> have battled IBS symptoms all week. It's my weigh day but the constipation has been so bad I will wait until tomorrow morning. I am not expecting a loss this week since it has been so bad. <BR> 4 day work weeks are so long for me. I don't know why but they always have. I do have non weight victories this week. Stayed within calorie range all week, even with that pizza this week. I avoided the glazed doughnuts in the break room yesterday!! That is a hug... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 08:01:25 EST bump goes that pizza http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219086 Pizza for supper. What the heck was my husband thinking? I knew when I was eating it it was going to cost me. I made that decision to eat it. I didn't lay anything out for supper yesterday and I never did make it to the store yesterday. I will have to eat at the lowest end of my calories the rest of the week and walk every day to counteract this. <BR> <BR> Was it worth it? No. Did I enjoy it? Yes and no. I'm not a big pizza fan unless it is a bacon one (anything with bacon on it ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 19:27:56 EST I don't wanna..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216878 go to the store. I don't wanna finish the laundry. I don't wanna clean the car. I don't wanna balance the checkbook. I don't wanna tacke the game room. I just don't wanna. I will though. Right after Obama takes his oath. Oh pooh. I know I can't just watch tv or read today. I will be food grazing and can't have that. Mon, 21 Jan 2013 11:02:49 EST today I am going to...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215326 count all my blessings as there are many. Today I am going to take a long walk while the weagther is warm. Today I am going to get those west facing windows washed and the back porch washed and cleaned. Today I am going to give thanks for all I have. Today I am going to be proud of me and the small steps I accomplish in this journey of redefining me. Today I am going to print off those pictures I have been meaning to do for the last couple weeks. Today I am going to take my measuremen... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 09:38:39 EST learning more about me.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212586 It's been a good week. I have ate on the high side of my calorie alotment. I have fallen off once and binged. I have excerised although not with any consistency. I need to work on that. I need to work on a lot of things but like anything else I do I am taking them one at a time and priortizing putting the most important at the top and working my way down the list. <BR> <BR> I am learning that I need more structure in my home life. I have a 3 day weekend coming and need to figure out ... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 07:59:06 EST zumba...and self discovery again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209478 I started. Can only do 5 minutes for now but it's a start and I can probablly get that much in a couple more times today. I so looked like a fish flopping on dry land but I did it. I am going to like this short 30 minute video. I am not the only fat person doing it. /there are several in the video. If they can I can. COPD will slow me down some and it make take me longer to build the stamnia but I will. My lungs are wondering what the heck just happened. lol. It was a hard climb ... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 06:49:27 EST cardio time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208828 Since it is so cold out and I haven't been getting any cardio I have been looking at some zumba videos. I did a google search and found some pretty good ones on community central tv that range from anywhere to 10-30 minutes. I can handle that in the mornings, afternoons, evenings. I can take the laptop to the bedroom, shut the door and do my thing. The hubby can sit and watch tv. <BR> <BR> I know it is going to take me awhile to learn the moves, it did with sweatin' to the oldies back ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 18:20:25 EST ramblings... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204829 This calorie counting is getting easier. I am much more aware of what I am putting in my mouth and decidiing if the calories are worth it. I also discovered dippin dots single serving for 160 claories yesterday. At 1.00 each I bought a few. Glad I did. It will be a change of pace but I am not giving up my popsicles for 50 calories each. They are an easy sweet treat even in the winter. I have decided for my chocolate moments I am going to buy those tootsie roll minis and portion con... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 10:36:38 EST bite by bite is my digits. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201667 Down another pound this morning. That's 5. Feels wonderful to see that scales finally going the other direction. With each pound I lose I am becoming more empowered in taking back my life. One step at a time is stil my motto. I am still learning to say "no thank you" to the food offered, learning to tell myself, "you really don't want that". I am learning that I need to keep a stash of emergency sweets for those moments at work when temptation occurs. I also know that that will need t... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 07:13:13 EST this too shall pass. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199952 I am up and moving slow today. I still don't feel good. Have fought whatever this is all week and still feel like poo. I have stuggled all week with my food too. I have done well until the evening and have went over my calories every day this week. I know what I am doing. I don't know if it's because I just don't feel good or if there is something eating at me. Honestly I haven't had the umph to dig deep to see. I have remained consistent with food tracking and water consumption so t... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 06:49:14 EST getting sick...I think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196388 Not feeling well this morning. achey. Came home like that yesterday. Had a headache and the yblahs. Flu and the stomach virus is all over work. I ate way over my calories last nite. Didnt take enough for lunch yesterday and paid the price last nite. I also didn't get any excerise in yesterday. I just didn't have the umph. I know this is a stumbling block and how I handle it will go very far in my road to accomplishment. I know that I don't have the energy to excerise right now so it... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 07:01:01 EST whew....that's over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194332 I mad it thru the weekend. Wasn't as successful as I would of like to be but I now know what not to do again. Weekends have always been hard for me as I am an emotional eater. So I learned something. That's always a positive thing. I still have lost 4 pounds for the week and that a really good thing. I have been excerising daily and thats a big big positive. Since my husband is walking with me we are not going as far as I would like but it is so good for him. I will take what he can ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 06:43:59 EST It's gonna be a good day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192771 Yes it is. My self esteem is higher today than it's been in a while. ThisSP plan isn't so hard to do. Iike all the tools there are. It realy helps keep me accountable. I have been totally honest with myself in the food I am eating. I am leaning not to beat myself up or give up when it doesn't go as it's suppose to. I still don't know why I do that. I am one of those from the school of hard knocks. I have always just got back up, brushed myself off and kept going. Alter the course as ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 09:32:33 EST my first weekend on SP... a little nervous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191382 Well, I made it thru the week and did really good especially since I wasn't 100% on plan. The good part about that is I didn't beat myself up over it. Just kept putting one foot in front of the other. <BR> <BR> I have done my strength training and stretching this morning and will be putting together a shopping list for the week. I am ok with that. I just need to work on increase the protien in my diet. I am a carb junkie. I know that, have finally admitted it. It's mainly sweets. I... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 10:47:44 EST It's Friday...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190059 it means I won't get paid for the work I do around the house the weekend. It means It will be my first weekend on this Sparks Plan. It means grocery shopping, laundry, cleaning my house. It means listening to my husbands chatter which is all the time. It means more football for him, compter or kindle time for me. Stop right there! It can now include more excerising, more walking, more me time. I have felt better, especially yesterday with the am excerising and the pm walk. It made a... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 12:59:54 EST proud of myslef. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188694 I did a quick 1o minutes of excerise this morning. Worked my butt off at work. Got in a 10 minute walk with my husband this evening. That is a major big deal for me. I am so good at blowing excerise of any kind off because "I don't want to". After thinking about it today I have come to the conclusion it is more work, as to why I don't want to. I have also come to realize that I am worth that work and so much more. My husband has seen my determination on this this time and has bee... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 18:28:11 EST no more free lunches at work for me...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186804 after counting all those calories AFTER I ate them I was shocked. I don't know why because I knew they were pretty up there. I had just gotten lazy and frankly didn't give a sh**. I cared today. It matters that my protien is low and my carbs and fat grams are too high. It matters that I don't get enough excerise. I haven't been able to say that in several years. I felt good about myself today and my esteem was higher than it has been in quite awhile. <BR> <BR> I know I have a lo... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:14:54 EST and off we go.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183451 I have attempted this so many times only to find that I have once again failed. I stood naked in front of the mirror last nite looking at what I had let myself become. It was hard. The depression deepened and I realized only I could change what I have done to myself. <BR> <BR> I am this strong independent woman at work. I am the "go to" girl for everything and can solve all the problems. Why is it so hard for me to do this? Where is that button that I can push and put me on the succe... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 09:54:54 EST