NURSESROCK3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NURSESROCK3 NURSESROCK3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ mini triathalon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886022 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l829527869.jpg"> I signed up to do a mini tri at my gym...I'm excited and nervous at the same time! I have to bike 3 miles, run/walk 2 miles, and swim .25 miles 20 laps. We practiced it on Fri and monday, and we are going to do it one more time Thursday night before the big day on Saturday. I'm very proud of both of us! I don't even think we would have considered it 3 months ago. I'm seeing a lot of positive changes in my body and mind.... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 07:13:13 EST I feel wonderful! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871417 I'm getting there...slowly but surely! I can feel and notice changes in my body and clothes. My cravings are gone, my mind feels sharper, and I am happy again. I notice myself getting full and not wanting that stuffed feeling. I'm working hard and I'm very proud of myself! I have a long road ahead of me, but all I have to do is keep putting one foot in front of the other and I WILL get there. I'm making healthy choices, and I'm not depriving myself! GO ME! <img src="http://photos-ak.... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 19:18:58 EST letting go of exuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861136 The weekends I sometimes struggle with eating too many calories. Tonight I enjoyed eating out at a Mexican restaurant- yes I am over my calories for the day but I've already planned to be active enough to burn 1000 calories tomorrow. We stopped after dinner to get our usual Friday night sweet before bed treat, but I put my over 300 choice back and grabbed my go to 60 calorie sweet fix of tootsie pops. I know I don't want those extra calories. Tomorrow we have a shopping trip to a big mal... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 18:29:01 EST Positive Observations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858158 After many months cough cough years of stuffing myself when I wasn't even hungry, food has begun to taste so good to me again! Even a yogurt- it's so savory and yummy. I feel better inside, especially energy wise. I think the almost daily exercise has improved my mood, and I don't feel so anxious all the time. I have noticed that my tight work scrubs are comfortable and today when I put my suit on for water aerobics it wasn't as tight. These little things are amazing!!! I have such a l... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 18:37:32 EST Eyes on the prize http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856073 I lost half a pound- disappointment was my first reaction! But, I was away from home and still had a little loss! AND its a loss! NOT a gain! Or a stay the same! The last time I went to see the fam I ate nonstop, I felt gross and tired, and I sat and laid around. This visit I made better choices food wise, I exercised every day, and I felt so much better! So I'm proud of myself. ..did I eat perfectly NO, but I stayed on track. I made a delicious lasagna out of whole wheat noodles, gr... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 21:48:49 EST Preparing for a trip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851644 I work tomorrow, then I am off for 3 days to have a late Christmas in the mountains. I have taken some steps to make sure that I stay on track while I'm away from home. <BR> <BR> 1. Taking my Kindle so I can track what I eat. <BR> <BR> 2. I will be able to access YouTube on my Kindle, so I have access to exercise videos <BR> <BR> 3. We went shopping yesterday and bought some fruits, yogurt, tuna- things to ensure we are eating healthy breakfasts and lunches. <BR> <BR> 4. Our main Chri... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 09:32:33 EST Why I Love Water Aerobics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846814 Water aerobics was wonderful this morning...The water was warm on this cold frigid day. I'm so glad I discovered water aerobics. It is the most painless way to exercise, since there is no stress on my joints. I also notice that it has improved my flexibility, because I am able to reach to areas that I can't out of water. I think it is great for people who are intimidated by exercise classes-granted you are in a swimming suit, but I put men's trunks and a t-shirt over mine. I feel like... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 15:51:56 EST 7 days strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845984 BAD, busy day at work ended in me eating too many calories after work- on the upside I'm not angry or hating myself for it I'm proud: <BR> <BR> 1. I felt very hungry at the time of my eating <BR> <BR> 2. I ate all healthy things ( whole wheat toast with almond butter, cottage cheese, Turkey and Swiss, and a bowl of special k) and I tracked everything I ate <BR> <BR> 3. I did not throw in the towel and go out to dinner I ate the healthy dinner I had shopped for <BR> <BR> 4. I exercised ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 20:00:31 EST The future is so bright i have to wear shades! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845110 One more day of work, and I get a day off! <em>244</em> Looking forward to water aerobics Monday am- the water makes my joints feel great! Also excited to try buffalo chicken Mac and cheese recipe for dinner- a new spark recipe! Tried creamy garlic spaghetti squash and it was sooo yum! Looking forward to some time off the following week to visit family- Will have to find ways to stay on track on the road. Sat, 3 Jan 2015 20:45:25 EST 5 days in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844224 Feeling pretty good! 3 lbs gone don't want to ruin it. Friday nights and weekends usually mean eating out smorgasbord. Played it safe with panera and tracked every bite- stayed in my calorie range for the day yippee! 2 healthy meals planned for sat/sun dinner and 4 healthy meals for next week planned with groceries bought. Trying some new spark people recipes. I'm really focusing on not buying foods that I will loose control on and if I need a treat getting it in single serve. Tonight... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 20:34:02 EST Loving myself 10 minutes at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843249 It is January 1st and I am already working hard on day 4 to a healthier, happier me. Let's face it folks, <BR> Exercise is not something we love to do. I'm sure there are some freaks out there that love it, but I'm <BR> Just not one of them! I look forward to my water aerobics, and I love the way I feel after I exercise <BR> (Once I talk myself into it!) 10 minutes is not much time at all! I can do anything for 10 minutes even when I'm discouraged and hurting. Sometimes the thoughts... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 20:24:17 EST Embarassed but hopeful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842223 This afternoon I did a stability ball workout and an 11 min HIIT workout. I must confess I'm embarrassed at the physical shape I'm in. I've been doing water aerobics for atleast the last six months, but exercising on land is a very different experience. I used to work out on the stability ball quite frequently, but have not been on one in quite awhile. I could not believe the difficulty I had with doing the exercises. I could let this experience get me down, but I have chosen not too. I... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 19:14:05 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841556 Loving myself is essential to my success. I have spent many years hating myself, not feeling like I have any self worth, and not liking ME. I've been hard on myself, not a good friend to ME. I haven't supported myself and taken care of ME. I have repeatedly put others needs before my own. I'm a loving, caring, compassionate person and that's a great quality to have. BUT, I need to care about ME for awhile. I deserve that. I deserve to be happy and to like ME. So for once, I'm going t... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 21:44:46 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840703 I'm off to a good start today! Headed to water aerobics tonight...ahhh! I love the pool and feel so good after. Tracking my food and weighed in- I've got this! Took some pics of a couple outfits I want to fit in- one is my scrubs- more of a short term goal the other outfit is more of a long term goal. Trying to figure out what to have for dinner. One day down to a better me! Mon, 29 Dec 2014 16:05:18 EST I've hit my rock bottom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840054 I went to the cheap movie theater last night with my girlfriend and couldn't fit in the seat. I fit but it was painful, and we had to search for a bigger seat. I can rationalize this by saying the seats here have always been snug, but I know in my heart they have never been this bad. I'm tipping the scales at over 300lbs. I'm too scared to weigh myself. I've had several things occur in my life that I can blame this on but the truth remains I only have myself to blame. It's time to get s... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 18:28:06 EST Blog 18 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924028 Took my 11 year old fishing today...what a great time we had! I caught the first bass, then he caught a 15 inch bass. He was so excited! And he has the best fish stories, he is a true bs king! He wanted to clean them and eat them. I was a little scared letting him do it himself! I could see a trip to the ER and stitches. He helped me. I had trouble remembering how to do it, but a quick refresher on the internet and I did pretty good! I was very proud of myself! <BR> <BR> The autism ... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 22:35:36 EST Blog 17 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917381 I had to adjust my original goal of 30 days of blogging. Nine days ago our internet got shut off as well as our tv and home phone. Apparently someone forgot to pay the bill?? Oh well it's back on now. I can't make up 9 blogs, so I'm just going to shoot for 30 blogs. I must finish this. Going cold turkey with no spark in my life for 9 days was rough. I have eaten terribly, overeaten, gone out to eat like 3 times this week?, and only exercised once. Sparkpeople helps keep me motivated a... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 08:37:37 EST Day 16 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903550 I ate way too much for our memorial day picnic! I enjoyed it, but yuck I felt crappy afterwards! Barb ribs ( I highly recommend marinating in cola overnight- i tried this for the first time...yummo!), broccoli salad, beans, and carrot cake. Today was a new day, did great had my third run at the bike trail and it was nice (a little hot out). I must say I am quite sore and tired today...don't know if it's the heat or what. My back and knees are killing me! Have a wonderful week! Tue, 29 May 2012 23:12:18 EST Day 15 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903548 Yipee! I'm half way through my 30 days of blog! What a day I had at work on Sunday: The moral of the story is: Trust your instincts! <BR> <BR> I came onto shift and got report on our lockdown unit. I noticed that the french doors were propped open off of the tv lounge. Some of the aides had taken some patients in wheelchairs outside for activity. I thought to myself those doors should not be open, because we do have patients that can and will escape. The full time dayturn nurse was t... Tue, 29 May 2012 23:08:44 EST Day 14 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903539 What a hot weekend we had! Goodness! Our room is like an oven..I'm seriously thinking of an air conditioner for the summer. If it's only May are we going to have a hot summer? Stay cool! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l273979677.jpg"> Tue, 29 May 2012 23:01:32 EST Day 13 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4899091 I'm just getting ready to get myself ready for work...two days and my work week is over! I'm very excited about the picnic food we have planned for Monday! I think it will be so yummy! I love recipies and recipe magazines! I was a good girl today and logged my food. It helps so much even though I detest doing it. It's so time consuming. My girlfriend has something on her phone where she can just scan the bar code of whatever she eats. How nice is that? Planted some more in the garden... Sat, 26 May 2012 16:56:14 EST Day 12 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898168 I weighed myself when I picked up my paycheck and my sparkpeople weight tracker is finally going to go down! There was a gain about a month ago, and while I was very active on my sparkpage I couldn't bring myself to post the gain. I think it's really hard when you gain and lose weight a lot. You remember when you were at a lower weight and it is so discouraging when you gain and have to work to get back to it. If you add together all the weight I have lost over my life so far, I would be... Fri, 25 May 2012 21:19:20 EST Day 11 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4896648 What a fabulous bike ride we had today!! The weather was beautiful, all the smells of spring blooms were in the air, and we saw lots of wild life (chippies, ground hogs, and a deer crossed the bike path ahead). The second go at the path went much better than the first. I didn't throw a temper tantrum this time. I took water and a snack that made it much more pleasant! Each time it gets a little easier! <BR> <BR> <BR> Never Give Up! Yesterday's impossibilities are today's possibilities... Thu, 24 May 2012 20:04:02 EST Day 10 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895288 Celebrate! I am back to my weight on my sparkpage tracker! Woo-Hoo! Maybe in the near future it will go down a little!? I'm trying not to focus so much on the number so much! I am proud of myself. I have been on track the last two weeks! I want results. Well, tomorrow I do the 12 mile bike trail for the second time. I hope it's a little better than the first (I know it will be!) Have a great day! Wed, 23 May 2012 21:50:30 EST Day 9 of 30: Garden bliss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895281 My girlfriend and I found the best little spot by the garage that is going to make the perfect little garden. We are so excited! We worked for awhile in the evening digging it all up (it must have been some sort of flower bed at one point). Her son even got into the digging (he kind of took over). So, we all took turns with the shovel! We found seashells, glass, plastic, an old glove, and assorted dog bones on our dig. This Fri/Sat we will be picking up plants and getting them in. We a... Wed, 23 May 2012 21:46:58 EST Day 9 of 30: Garden bliss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895280 My girlfriend and I found the best little spot by the garage that is going to make the perfect little garden. We are so excited! We worked for awhile in the evening digging it all up (it must have been some sort of flower bed at one point). Her son even got into the digging (he kind of took over). So, we all took turns with the shovel! We found seashells, glass, plastic, an old glove, and assorted dog bones on our dig. This Fri/Sat we will be picking up plants and getting them in. We a... Wed, 23 May 2012 21:46:56 EST Day 8 of 30: SIMPLIFY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892270 SIMPLIFY: <BR> <BR> S- Slow Down <BR> <BR> I- Imagine doing less <BR> <BR> M- Make time for loved ones <BR> <BR> P- Practice patience <BR> <BR> L- Learn to gently say no <BR> <BR> I - Increase your quiet time <BR> <BR> F- Follow your HEART <BR> <BR> Y- Yield to LIFE <BR> Yield to PEACE <BR> Yield to JOY <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l410571694.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 21 May 2012 23:59:49 EST Day 7 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892254 "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger." -Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l940559811.jpg"> Mon, 21 May 2012 23:42:10 EST Day 6 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892247 I'm kind of cheating by going back to Day 6 when it's Day 8, but my thoughts are atleast I'm doing it. I work doubles on Sat and Sun, then I'm off Mon-Fri so it's kind of hard to blog on the weekend, but I'm trying. <BR> <BR> The therapeutic horse fair and rodeo for children with special needs that I attended was fabulous!! After my poo week it was just what I needed to make me smile. I'm sure there are parents out there with children who have special needs that can understand this! Some... Mon, 21 May 2012 23:38:48 EST Day 5 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887982 Just to update you: Day 4 of 30 stunk <BR> <BR> Had to take doggie to be put to sleep, and I found out that they are closing my son's special ed classroom that he has made so much progress in this year! I'm not sure where he will end up now...have to fight with the school and go to meetings and make my stomach have ulcers. I just have to trust that everything happens for a reason! I just thought we would have a couple years of peace before he had to go elsewhere. This will be his fourth... Fri, 18 May 2012 23:17:02 EST Day 3 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884770 Sad day...I think we are going to have to put our outside dog down tomorrow. He is older, 14...the nicest sweetest dog. Our backyard won't be the same without him. I feel so bad for the kids. Oh well, he is suffering and we can't stand to see him in pain. It's been a steady decline for the past week, quit eating. My girlfriend and I have cried off and on all day. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l428027747.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We all love you Scooter! Wed, 16 May 2012 21:04:02 EST Day 2 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4883306 I was very active today, so I'm beat but feeling good! The beech tree at my parents fell down...it was enormous and hollow in the inside. It made quite a mess it their yard. It made me sad in a way, such a big beautiful tree gone! So many bats, ground hogs, chippies, and squirrels made their homes in it. I had picnics under it as a kid. I biked over to their house then spent over an hour picking up wood from small to big to be hauled away, then biked home. It felt good to do some physi... Tue, 15 May 2012 22:11:09 EST Day One of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881804 I am committing to tracking food and nutrition and blogging daily for the next 30 days. I want to see some results, not the scale go up and down. I've been kind of wishy washy with my efforts..no doubt I feel better and have made some def healthy life style changes, but it's time to focus...Eyes on the prize! My eleven year old caught the ball in the outfield tonight and got the hitter out! I was so proud and happy, it didn't even matter that they lost! My seven year old is the star of t... Mon, 14 May 2012 23:35:21 EST My New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872318 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l654040908.jpg"> <BR> <BR> " We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit." <BR> Aristotle <BR> <BR> Well it's the first day post birthday! My goal for this year is to get on it! I've played around with adapting a healthy lifestyly, made some improvements, had some small triumphs. But, my fellow sparkers....It's time to get on it! I'm ready! Tue, 8 May 2012 13:00:03 EST Walk for AutismSpeaks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863949 I am very proud of my wonderful girlfriend and myself! Not only have we committed to being more healthy together we decided to find a walk that would be meaningful for us to do together. On June 9 we head to Pittsburgh we to participate in the AutismSpeaks walk. My seven year old son was diagnosed with a mild form of autism when he was four. Although I adopted my son when he was three and without my girlfriend, we are very much raising him together. She is my rock, the one who goes with... Wed, 2 May 2012 23:30:30 EST A New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862295 My birthday is six days a way. I kind of look like it as more of a new year's day...a fresh year. I love spring...the green, the flowers blooming, planting, and summer coming. I just planted parley on the porch with my son tonight. I started reading a book called "The Happiness Project" a couple of weeks ago. I like the idea of it, but I need to create my own. It's basically about a woman who decides to dedicate a year focusing on being happy. This month the one idea that I am trying ... Wed, 2 May 2012 00:18:52 EST Loved This and Wanted to Share http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4839310 We all need a boost, something to make us feel good, uplift us to keep that motivation going!! I found this and loved it: <BR> <BR> For every negative that consumes your happiness, affirm two positives that sustain you. <BR> <BR> For every "should've" you wish you'd done, acknowledge something you're glad you did. <BR> <BR> For every loss that has altered your world, count from it something you gained. <BR> <BR> You can't always change the way things are, but you can change the way you... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 12:38:43 EST A Little Bit Disappointed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833982 I thought for sure I would see weight loss this week! Not a single pound! So, when I look back at what I could have done differently there are a few things. It was Easter and I didn't gain so that is a positive!! I did exercise every day (except Sunday I think) which is wonderful. Now confessions: I did dip into the Easter candy a couple of times. Not all out binges but wasn't as careful as I could have been. I did eat quite a few marshmallow peeps, rationalizing that they are only ca... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 21:02:29 EST Forming New Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827808 I must say that I am very proud of myself. I managed Easter very nicely...I had normal servings of the foods I like. I did have seconds later of mac and cheese and rolls, but I did not stuff myself and overeat. I exercised on a Sunday and a holiday!! We tend to get ourselves into these huge workouts and then I start to dread them. I've decided that even if I squeeze in ten minute section of sparkpeople cardioblast that's better than doing nothing. And while it's great to focus on a big ... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 21:52:38 EST So glad the weekend is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818577 I worked 8 hours Friday followed by two 12 hour shifts on Sat and Sun. Then, last night I had to take my son to have a sleep study done. I'm so thankful to be home today. I caught up on some sleep and now I'm going to go for a walk/jog. Have you ever struggled with things that happen in your life? I'm sure everyone has...I mean it's a part of life. It could be divorce, death, or any of the million things that can happen to a person. I've had my own share of life experiences...some of t... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 13:00:42 EST Back In The Saddle Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809932 I'm three weeks into a healthy lifestyle. I have all the keys and tools right in front of me. It's up to me to not get discouraged and keep pushing forward. I have lost 30-40lbs at least three times in the last five years if not more. So, I'm def capable of meeting my goal. It just frustrated me to have 25-30lbs to loose before I get back to where I was. If I could just hang on through the rough spots and maintain what I have lost. I'm just trying to remember moderation and not deprive... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 23:54:29 EST Sunny Happy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4797546 Oh I am loving this early spring...It's almost like summer. We are increasing our activity slowly-have walked every night so far. I feel better already. Trying to eat in moderation-I know that's what I have to do. Do I lose my spark trophies since I have gained weight? Hopefully it will fall off fast and they will be mine again!! Tue, 20 Mar 2012 22:05:05 EST This is for me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4547523 Nothing motivates you like your son's pediatrician telling you that he has gained 14lbs in the last six months. Now, my son is not with me all the time but who do you think they are looking at? The skinny dad or the big ol momma?! No I am not placing blame, because where will that get us? So, three weeks ago we tweaked our meals a bit to get everybody eating healthy and trying to exercise together a bit more. Week 1 was rough: my son is just like me: Mom, can't we start this whole heal... Sat, 22 Oct 2011 08:43:01 EST Day 1: This will be a good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4463871 This is not really day one for me. I just feel like I need a fresh start and the next week is going to be rough. I get into that habit of stuffing food in my face and it goes on for weeks and weeks, then it is kind of hard to break. I did OK with breakfast, now I am going to go for a walk. I am back to baby steps, but I guess thats what I need. I get sick of tracking and logging, but truth is I need it. I will probably need it for a very long time, but I get cocky. I think I am a diet ... Sat, 3 Sep 2011 09:40:18 EST Over the hump day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4459573 I had a lovely day today. My biggest problem was the I went to back to bed with my honey after putting the kids on the bus. I fell asleep and when I looked at the clock it was noon! Oh the horror, no cleaning was accomplished. I will give myself a free pass from summer exhaustion and try again tomorrow! I had a very nice therapy session today. Both me and my girlfriend took tests that rate our values and strengths and we got the results. It turns out I am a rule follower. If that is t... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 22:43:36 EST Off Track: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4457544 How do I get back on track when I have been off? I must track my food, eat in moderation, and exercise. It sounds so blissfully easy, but it seems to have escaped me. The positive things about exercising and eating well, is that I feel so healthy and great. I have more self confidence, and I start to love my body. I have all day now the kids are gone. Before when I struggled I constantly asked myself: Does the food make me happy? The answer is no, it doesn't. It doesn't fill up the e... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 23:31:20 EST Summer's end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4449969 Well, the kids will be heading back to school on Monday. I thought summer would be easy to maintain and progress on my weight loss journey. It turned out to be stressful, with not a whole lot of time to focus on me. And that was ok, the kids needed me and I loved my time with them. Also summer seems to be an exuse for me to eat ice cream atleast daily! And I also discovered that I don't like exercising in the 90 degree weather. But, Monday marks the beginning of school for them and the... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 15:53:44 EST Last Day of School http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4275794 Last day of school for all three kids! Yeah! I'm happy! Remind me of this come the middle of July when they are all driving me nuts! No, seriously I'm looking forward to relaxing and having fun with them. We just need to spend some time together and be a family. My goal for tomorrow is to exercise and to stay in my calorie range. Have a great weekend! It's off to work Sat and Sunday! Fri, 3 Jun 2011 22:29:30 EST A Better Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273001 I am having a much better day today! I walked four miles and have eaten healthy so far. My son came home from his last day of school with his container of reward m and m's. I wanted to stuff them in my face, but I didn't. I know it's just going to take some time before I don't want to stuff my face. Once I get off track, I have such a hard time getting back on. It takes a few days of healthy eating for me to quit longing to stuff my face. I just have to hang in there! Thu, 2 Jun 2011 16:08:32 EST Why? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4270662 Why do I stuff myself with food? Every day I have the best of intentions and I fail. Why? Why? Why? Do I hate myself that much. I logged everything today, the spaghetti dinner I ate at a restaurant that I didn't need is making me feel so bad. I'm only a little over my calories if my restaurant meal estimation is correct. But, I am pissed at myself! These exuses, these stuff sessions must stop. I know how to portion my food!! I don't need to eat a whole big hog plate of spaghetti! I ... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 17:40:36 EST