NURSESROCK3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NURSESROCK3 NURSESROCK3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Blog 18 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924028 Took my 11 year old fishing today...what a great time we had! I caught the first bass, then he caught a 15 inch bass. He was so excited! And he has the best fish stories, he is a true bs king! He wanted to clean them and eat them. I was a little scared letting him do it himself! I could see a trip to the ER and stitches. He helped me. I had trouble remembering how to do it, but a quick refresher on the internet and I did pretty good! I was very proud of myself! <BR> <BR> The autism ... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 22:35:36 EST Blog 17 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917381 I had to adjust my original goal of 30 days of blogging. Nine days ago our internet got shut off as well as our tv and home phone. Apparently someone forgot to pay the bill?? Oh well it's back on now. I can't make up 9 blogs, so I'm just going to shoot for 30 blogs. I must finish this. Going cold turkey with no spark in my life for 9 days was rough. I have eaten terribly, overeaten, gone out to eat like 3 times this week?, and only exercised once. Sparkpeople helps keep me motivated a... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 08:37:37 EST Day 16 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903550 I ate way too much for our memorial day picnic! I enjoyed it, but yuck I felt crappy afterwards! Barb ribs ( I highly recommend marinating in cola overnight- i tried this for the first time...yummo!), broccoli salad, beans, and carrot cake. Today was a new day, did great had my third run at the bike trail and it was nice (a little hot out). I must say I am quite sore and tired today...don't know if it's the heat or what. My back and knees are killing me! Have a wonderful week! Tue, 29 May 2012 23:12:18 EST Day 15 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903548 Yipee! I'm half way through my 30 days of blog! What a day I had at work on Sunday: The moral of the story is: Trust your instincts! <BR> <BR> I came onto shift and got report on our lockdown unit. I noticed that the french doors were propped open off of the tv lounge. Some of the aides had taken some patients in wheelchairs outside for activity. I thought to myself those doors should not be open, because we do have patients that can and will escape. The full time dayturn nurse was t... Tue, 29 May 2012 23:08:44 EST Day 14 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903539 What a hot weekend we had! Goodness! Our room is like an oven..I'm seriously thinking of an air conditioner for the summer. If it's only May are we going to have a hot summer? Stay cool! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l273979677.jpg"> Tue, 29 May 2012 23:01:32 EST Day 13 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4899091 I'm just getting ready to get myself ready for work...two days and my work week is over! I'm very excited about the picnic food we have planned for Monday! I think it will be so yummy! I love recipies and recipe magazines! I was a good girl today and logged my food. It helps so much even though I detest doing it. It's so time consuming. My girlfriend has something on her phone where she can just scan the bar code of whatever she eats. How nice is that? Planted some more in the garden... Sat, 26 May 2012 16:56:14 EST Day 12 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898168 I weighed myself when I picked up my paycheck and my sparkpeople weight tracker is finally going to go down! There was a gain about a month ago, and while I was very active on my sparkpage I couldn't bring myself to post the gain. I think it's really hard when you gain and lose weight a lot. You remember when you were at a lower weight and it is so discouraging when you gain and have to work to get back to it. If you add together all the weight I have lost over my life so far, I would be... Fri, 25 May 2012 21:19:20 EST Day 11 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4896648 What a fabulous bike ride we had today!! The weather was beautiful, all the smells of spring blooms were in the air, and we saw lots of wild life (chippies, ground hogs, and a deer crossed the bike path ahead). The second go at the path went much better than the first. I didn't throw a temper tantrum this time. I took water and a snack that made it much more pleasant! Each time it gets a little easier! <BR> <BR> <BR> Never Give Up! Yesterday's impossibilities are today's possibilities... Thu, 24 May 2012 20:04:02 EST Day 10 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895288 Celebrate! I am back to my weight on my sparkpage tracker! Woo-Hoo! Maybe in the near future it will go down a little!? I'm trying not to focus so much on the number so much! I am proud of myself. I have been on track the last two weeks! I want results. Well, tomorrow I do the 12 mile bike trail for the second time. I hope it's a little better than the first (I know it will be!) Have a great day! Wed, 23 May 2012 21:50:30 EST Day 9 of 30: Garden bliss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895281 My girlfriend and I found the best little spot by the garage that is going to make the perfect little garden. We are so excited! We worked for awhile in the evening digging it all up (it must have been some sort of flower bed at one point). Her son even got into the digging (he kind of took over). So, we all took turns with the shovel! We found seashells, glass, plastic, an old glove, and assorted dog bones on our dig. This Fri/Sat we will be picking up plants and getting them in. We a... Wed, 23 May 2012 21:46:58 EST Day 9 of 30: Garden bliss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895280 My girlfriend and I found the best little spot by the garage that is going to make the perfect little garden. We are so excited! We worked for awhile in the evening digging it all up (it must have been some sort of flower bed at one point). Her son even got into the digging (he kind of took over). So, we all took turns with the shovel! We found seashells, glass, plastic, an old glove, and assorted dog bones on our dig. This Fri/Sat we will be picking up plants and getting them in. We a... Wed, 23 May 2012 21:46:56 EST Day 8 of 30: SIMPLIFY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892270 SIMPLIFY: <BR> <BR> S- Slow Down <BR> <BR> I- Imagine doing less <BR> <BR> M- Make time for loved ones <BR> <BR> P- Practice patience <BR> <BR> L- Learn to gently say no <BR> <BR> I - Increase your quiet time <BR> <BR> F- Follow your HEART <BR> <BR> Y- Yield to LIFE <BR> Yield to PEACE <BR> Yield to JOY <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l410571694.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 21 May 2012 23:59:49 EST Day 7 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892254 "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger." -Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l940559811.jpg"> Mon, 21 May 2012 23:42:10 EST Day 6 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892247 I'm kind of cheating by going back to Day 6 when it's Day 8, but my thoughts are atleast I'm doing it. I work doubles on Sat and Sun, then I'm off Mon-Fri so it's kind of hard to blog on the weekend, but I'm trying. <BR> <BR> The therapeutic horse fair and rodeo for children with special needs that I attended was fabulous!! After my poo week it was just what I needed to make me smile. I'm sure there are parents out there with children who have special needs that can understand this! Some... Mon, 21 May 2012 23:38:48 EST Day 5 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887982 Just to update you: Day 4 of 30 stunk <BR> <BR> Had to take doggie to be put to sleep, and I found out that they are closing my son's special ed classroom that he has made so much progress in this year! I'm not sure where he will end up now...have to fight with the school and go to meetings and make my stomach have ulcers. I just have to trust that everything happens for a reason! I just thought we would have a couple years of peace before he had to go elsewhere. This will be his fourth... Fri, 18 May 2012 23:17:02 EST Day 3 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884770 Sad day...I think we are going to have to put our outside dog down tomorrow. He is older, 14...the nicest sweetest dog. Our backyard won't be the same without him. I feel so bad for the kids. Oh well, he is suffering and we can't stand to see him in pain. It's been a steady decline for the past week, quit eating. My girlfriend and I have cried off and on all day. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l428027747.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We all love you Scooter! Wed, 16 May 2012 21:04:02 EST Day 2 of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4883306 I was very active today, so I'm beat but feeling good! The beech tree at my parents fell down...it was enormous and hollow in the inside. It made quite a mess it their yard. It made me sad in a way, such a big beautiful tree gone! So many bats, ground hogs, chippies, and squirrels made their homes in it. I had picnics under it as a kid. I biked over to their house then spent over an hour picking up wood from small to big to be hauled away, then biked home. It felt good to do some physi... Tue, 15 May 2012 22:11:09 EST Day One of 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881804 I am committing to tracking food and nutrition and blogging daily for the next 30 days. I want to see some results, not the scale go up and down. I've been kind of wishy washy with my efforts..no doubt I feel better and have made some def healthy life style changes, but it's time to focus...Eyes on the prize! My eleven year old caught the ball in the outfield tonight and got the hitter out! I was so proud and happy, it didn't even matter that they lost! My seven year old is the star of t... Mon, 14 May 2012 23:35:21 EST My New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872318 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l654040908.jpg"> <BR> <BR> " We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit." <BR> Aristotle <BR> <BR> Well it's the first day post birthday! My goal for this year is to get on it! I've played around with adapting a healthy lifestyly, made some improvements, had some small triumphs. But, my fellow sparkers....It's time to get on it! I'm ready! Tue, 8 May 2012 13:00:03 EST Walk for AutismSpeaks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863949 I am very proud of my wonderful girlfriend and myself! Not only have we committed to being more healthy together we decided to find a walk that would be meaningful for us to do together. On June 9 we head to Pittsburgh we to participate in the AutismSpeaks walk. My seven year old son was diagnosed with a mild form of autism when he was four. Although I adopted my son when he was three and without my girlfriend, we are very much raising him together. She is my rock, the one who goes with... Wed, 2 May 2012 23:30:30 EST A New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862295 My birthday is six days a way. I kind of look like it as more of a new year's day...a fresh year. I love spring...the green, the flowers blooming, planting, and summer coming. I just planted parley on the porch with my son tonight. I started reading a book called "The Happiness Project" a couple of weeks ago. I like the idea of it, but I need to create my own. It's basically about a woman who decides to dedicate a year focusing on being happy. This month the one idea that I am trying ... Wed, 2 May 2012 00:18:52 EST Loved This and Wanted to Share http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4839310 We all need a boost, something to make us feel good, uplift us to keep that motivation going!! I found this and loved it: <BR> <BR> For every negative that consumes your happiness, affirm two positives that sustain you. <BR> <BR> For every "should've" you wish you'd done, acknowledge something you're glad you did. <BR> <BR> For every loss that has altered your world, count from it something you gained. <BR> <BR> You can't always change the way things are, but you can change the way you... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 12:38:43 EST A Little Bit Disappointed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833982 I thought for sure I would see weight loss this week! Not a single pound! So, when I look back at what I could have done differently there are a few things. It was Easter and I didn't gain so that is a positive!! I did exercise every day (except Sunday I think) which is wonderful. Now confessions: I did dip into the Easter candy a couple of times. Not all out binges but wasn't as careful as I could have been. I did eat quite a few marshmallow peeps, rationalizing that they are only ca... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 21:02:29 EST Forming New Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827808 I must say that I am very proud of myself. I managed Easter very nicely...I had normal servings of the foods I like. I did have seconds later of mac and cheese and rolls, but I did not stuff myself and overeat. I exercised on a Sunday and a holiday!! We tend to get ourselves into these huge workouts and then I start to dread them. I've decided that even if I squeeze in ten minute section of sparkpeople cardioblast that's better than doing nothing. And while it's great to focus on a big ... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 21:52:38 EST So glad the weekend is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818577 I worked 8 hours Friday followed by two 12 hour shifts on Sat and Sun. Then, last night I had to take my son to have a sleep study done. I'm so thankful to be home today. I caught up on some sleep and now I'm going to go for a walk/jog. Have you ever struggled with things that happen in your life? I'm sure everyone has...I mean it's a part of life. It could be divorce, death, or any of the million things that can happen to a person. I've had my own share of life experiences...some of t... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 13:00:42 EST Back In The Saddle Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809932 I'm three weeks into a healthy lifestyle. I have all the keys and tools right in front of me. It's up to me to not get discouraged and keep pushing forward. I have lost 30-40lbs at least three times in the last five years if not more. So, I'm def capable of meeting my goal. It just frustrated me to have 25-30lbs to loose before I get back to where I was. If I could just hang on through the rough spots and maintain what I have lost. I'm just trying to remember moderation and not deprive... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 23:54:29 EST Sunny Happy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4797546 Oh I am loving this early spring...It's almost like summer. We are increasing our activity slowly-have walked every night so far. I feel better already. Trying to eat in moderation-I know that's what I have to do. Do I lose my spark trophies since I have gained weight? Hopefully it will fall off fast and they will be mine again!! Tue, 20 Mar 2012 22:05:05 EST This is for me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4547523 Nothing motivates you like your son's pediatrician telling you that he has gained 14lbs in the last six months. Now, my son is not with me all the time but who do you think they are looking at? The skinny dad or the big ol momma?! No I am not placing blame, because where will that get us? So, three weeks ago we tweaked our meals a bit to get everybody eating healthy and trying to exercise together a bit more. Week 1 was rough: my son is just like me: Mom, can't we start this whole heal... Sat, 22 Oct 2011 08:43:01 EST Day 1: This will be a good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4463871 This is not really day one for me. I just feel like I need a fresh start and the next week is going to be rough. I get into that habit of stuffing food in my face and it goes on for weeks and weeks, then it is kind of hard to break. I did OK with breakfast, now I am going to go for a walk. I am back to baby steps, but I guess thats what I need. I get sick of tracking and logging, but truth is I need it. I will probably need it for a very long time, but I get cocky. I think I am a diet ... Sat, 3 Sep 2011 09:40:18 EST Over the hump day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4459573 I had a lovely day today. My biggest problem was the I went to back to bed with my honey after putting the kids on the bus. I fell asleep and when I looked at the clock it was noon! Oh the horror, no cleaning was accomplished. I will give myself a free pass from summer exhaustion and try again tomorrow! I had a very nice therapy session today. Both me and my girlfriend took tests that rate our values and strengths and we got the results. It turns out I am a rule follower. If that is t... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 22:43:36 EST Off Track: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4457544 How do I get back on track when I have been off? I must track my food, eat in moderation, and exercise. It sounds so blissfully easy, but it seems to have escaped me. The positive things about exercising and eating well, is that I feel so healthy and great. I have more self confidence, and I start to love my body. I have all day now the kids are gone. Before when I struggled I constantly asked myself: Does the food make me happy? The answer is no, it doesn't. It doesn't fill up the e... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 23:31:20 EST Summer's end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4449969 Well, the kids will be heading back to school on Monday. I thought summer would be easy to maintain and progress on my weight loss journey. It turned out to be stressful, with not a whole lot of time to focus on me. And that was ok, the kids needed me and I loved my time with them. Also summer seems to be an exuse for me to eat ice cream atleast daily! And I also discovered that I don't like exercising in the 90 degree weather. But, Monday marks the beginning of school for them and the... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 15:53:44 EST Last Day of School http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4275794 Last day of school for all three kids! Yeah! I'm happy! Remind me of this come the middle of July when they are all driving me nuts! No, seriously I'm looking forward to relaxing and having fun with them. We just need to spend some time together and be a family. My goal for tomorrow is to exercise and to stay in my calorie range. Have a great weekend! It's off to work Sat and Sunday! Fri, 3 Jun 2011 22:29:30 EST A Better Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273001 I am having a much better day today! I walked four miles and have eaten healthy so far. My son came home from his last day of school with his container of reward m and m's. I wanted to stuff them in my face, but I didn't. I know it's just going to take some time before I don't want to stuff my face. Once I get off track, I have such a hard time getting back on. It takes a few days of healthy eating for me to quit longing to stuff my face. I just have to hang in there! Thu, 2 Jun 2011 16:08:32 EST Why? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4270662 Why do I stuff myself with food? Every day I have the best of intentions and I fail. Why? Why? Why? Do I hate myself that much. I logged everything today, the spaghetti dinner I ate at a restaurant that I didn't need is making me feel so bad. I'm only a little over my calories if my restaurant meal estimation is correct. But, I am pissed at myself! These exuses, these stuff sessions must stop. I know how to portion my food!! I don't need to eat a whole big hog plate of spaghetti! I ... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 17:40:36 EST Happy memorial day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4265782 I started my journey in January, not really a new year's resolution. I just was ready to change my life. So, I'm making a memorial day's resolution! Let's face it, it's the official kick off of summer. This summer my goal is to eat healthy and be as active as I can. Winter is tough in this area, it's hard to stay motivated with all the cold and being stuck in the house. Summer is going to be my time to shine and get out there! It just seems easier to be active is summer. Today I start... Mon, 30 May 2011 20:23:48 EST Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4263255 Yesterday I had my first on trac k day in awhile. Just that one little day, and I am already feeling back in control. I have been reading the sparkpeople book everyday when I get up...a nice little motivational boost. I'm not back on track exercise wise, but two days off healthy eating! Monday will be my day to start back in with the exercise. Ate a bunch of fried stuff the last few weeks and have been having major stomach problems, plus a lot of life stress. My tummy already feels bette... Sun, 29 May 2011 13:59:56 EST I need a seven day stretch. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4227622 I need seven days to be on track. Let's face it gang, I'm doing OK. Just OK, not great. I'm not tracking my food. Now I'm doing much better than the unhealthy me did, but I know I'm eating too much. The only way to keep from doing this is to track. Like yesterday, not a bad eating day by far and I walked for one hundred and fifty minutes. I know I ate too much! I just need to make some small alterations and tracking will help so much. Why does it feel like such a chore? Maybe becaus... Thu, 12 May 2011 10:06:14 EST The sun is shining! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4200427 It's time for another work weekend. I'm going to have a positive attitude that it will be a good one! I love the new me. Ok I'm trying to love the new me! I have bad self esteem issues, especially body image issues. Yes, I have lost weight! I feel so much better, but I still have these unrealistic expectations for my self. Isn't being healthy more important? I notice less fat on my body, but lots of jello jiggle. I do notice muscles where I didn't have them before. It's just hard. ... Sat, 30 Apr 2011 13:26:25 EST Anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4182711 Tomorrow is Easter at my mom and dad's...a little anxiety producing. My neice and nephew are there and they tend to say bad things in front of my parents that I would never have said to my parents at that age. It's not their fault...there parents have not instilled the best values in them and they do it for attendtion, because they don't get any. I tried to give a little lets talk about appropriate things and pretend to be a nice normal family for 24 hours, I'm not sure if it will stick. ... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 22:24:09 EST That Darn Easter Bunny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4177834 Well, I nibbled a little too much on the Easter candy i bought for the easter egg hunt on Friday. Now, I feel totally crummy! I have five kids and the bags of candy didn't divide evenly into the five. So, it started out I was just going to have a mini twix...which led to two mini twix and three reese's cups followed by some starburst and atleast ten little chocolate eggs. Goodness! Chocolate is the enemy! Our dog dutchie was scared by the storm! We just got her in December, so this is ... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 21:13:35 EST Back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4175805 I have had three wonderful healthy eating days, and I got exercise in on Sat. I def feel back on track and in control. Weekends are kind of weird eating days, because I work midnights. I managed to squeeze in three great meals both days. Third shift is a tad bit boring at times, plus you are sleepy so snacking seems to be a way to stay awake. I took healthy things like popcorn and string cheese and turned down the cheesie poofs and m and m's they all offered me! I got the kids turkey d... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 00:22:55 EST Light my fire! and rambling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4168808 I am in this scary spot that I have been in a dozen times before. It's like I get the three month itch or something. I cannot turn back though, from this point on I am moving forward. The doctor put me on birth control pills, because she thinks my back pain is my ovary. These pills make me very bitchy and anxious. I know I need to give them a few months to straighten things out, but I don't want to take them. No severe back pain, but who wants to be a bitch! And I have no sex drive (so... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 22:04:41 EST A Triumph! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4145477 I went to Applebee's today, and you all will never guess what happened! I got my steak/shrimp meal with the under 550 calories. I couldn't believe it, but I couldn't eat it all and had to ask for a to go box. I don't think this has ever happened before!! It was such a nice feeling that I was able to stop. I have had a really great week so far. I kind of was in a rut for a few weeks, but I feel like I'm back on track. Plus my jeans that were very tight are now very loose! That was anot... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 22:17:09 EST honeymoon is over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4133057 Well, I officially have the three month diet blahs. I know, I know this isn't a diet it's a new way of life. I always start my new way of life in full force: tracking, logging, and exercising. A model new way of life person. Then, the three month itch sets in and the honeymoon is over. I confess, I have not tracked my food most of the week or last week either. I walked once early in the week and didn't log it, then tonight was the first night I have exercised since then. I can blame t... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 22:52:39 EST I want to eat bad things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4119763 I want to eat bad things, not because I'm hungry either. I didn't have the greatest week, not a total mess up-but, I feel like I did a lot of snacking. I ate out last night, which always causes all this weird guilt. Really I didn't do so bad, I got a turkey wedgie instead of the italian with all the salami and fatty meats. I got mayo and italian dressing on the side and used it sparingly. Then we went to DQ, even though I was full, but I just got a small sundae. I fought the urge to stu... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 14:32:03 EST swim suits! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4114573 I bit the bullet and decided to go swim suit shopping! I huge disappointment. I decided that I have hid behind a t-shirt since I was 12 and that is long enough. This year I am buying a suit and taking the plunge. My other suit is atleast five years old and about to fall apart. I only tried at Walmart, so I'm thinking I need to keep looking. It may be an impossible mission. I am rather busty, so a top without straps is a no go. That seems to be the popular thing this year (atleast at w... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 08:26:05 EST 38lbs lighter! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4102907 I can't believe I have lost 38lbs! Two more and I will be at 40lbs! I have never lost 40lbs before. I think the most I have ever lost is around 35. Thank you sparkpeople and sparkfriends. I feel like I will make it this time! The weight is coming off, I just need to keep doing what I am doing: exercising, tracking my food, and not beating myself up if I get off track. I get so scared when I have a day when I eat out and order something higher in fat or calories. I'm just afraid that ... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 12:20:10 EST spring cleaning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4101521 Well the sun is actually bright enough coming in the windows that I can see all the filth! So I started a little spring cleaning...the hall is so clean its like no one lives here! I keep waking by and admiring it. Sadly, I don't think some of the places had been cleaned in quite awhile. Hey, life is busy and who wants to be a clean freak?? Not me, that's for sure. Plus with three boys, three cats, and one dog things get dirty pretty quick. I always tell Heather that someday the boys wi... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 17:32:42 EST Beautiful day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4099696 We had the nicest weather today...spring is coming! I saw the spring bulbs pushing up their green stems and a couple early ones is bloom. Winter stinks here, but I think it makes us appreciate the other seasons so much more. It also makes me feel good that I have done so well in the winter months, that is when I struggle most with eating and activity. I went on two walks today and even jogged a little. My back didn't start bothering me until after dinner, so I took advantage of the brea... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 22:05:13 EST