NRHEALTHY2DAY's SparkPeople Blog NRHEALTHY2DAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 6.5 pounds down! I've been doing so good these past few weeks, have been feeling more alive. My dad came into town recently and we've been going out to eat. Despite me losing 6.5 pounds, I actually feel bad. Less energy. I can't believe how bad I feel, just by going out a few times. Never knew restaurant food was so bad! I get a side salad and a weight watchers meal, and I still go over the amount of calories I was supposed to have. -- However, I realized this and this morning my family ate really good. Now t... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 12:47:27 EST Doing great and starting to feel better!!! So far I've eaten on the sp diet plan consistently now for couple days. After only a short amount of time, I am already feeling better! I am so excited, because mentally I am getting there. I take one day at a time. <em>386</em> <em>252</em> Wed, 28 Nov 2012 00:34:03 EST need to get my mind in the game! ok. I guess I'm going to get a little sappy this time. I've been sitting here thinking all about my poor choices. Guess maybe I shouldn't start out negative like this. But, I'm kinda kicking myself right now, because I know I can do better. I've been purely lazy. That's it. But the reasoning for that is my poor diet. I am tired all the time, shaky, feel bloated and sick. Yes, there are days when I don't even want to leave my house because I'm so ashamed of my body. My lack of sticking to a he... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 00:50:47 EST Tired of being fat, tired of being sad Today I weighed in at 230.5 pounds. I am 1 pound heavier this week. While I know I should not be critical of myself...I have to be. If I'm not, I will remain severly over weight, and probobly get diabetes and sick. After tens of maybe even hundreds of times at trying to lose weight, I continue to fail. Why is this? Is it because I don't love my body? Is it because I am lazy? Is it because I don't love myself? Whyyy? Why am I like this? On the inside lies a sexy woman, but on the outside is a ... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 23:01:29 EST 1st 5k 11/10/12: I ran my first 5 k today!! It was tough, but I did it and crossed the finish line. finished in 55 min and did 3.1 miles! <em>386</em> <em>380</em> <em>364</em> <em>363</em> Sat, 10 Nov 2012 21:33:54 EST