NOTTHATSKINNY's SparkPeople Blog NOTTHATSKINNY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Major set backs I have been on a binge for the last four months. Its not good. I have set my self back health wise very far. I haven't gained weight. But my eating habits are terrible. I feel gross and my doctor is very concerened. Im on more medicine for my diabetes, when my goal was to get off them all together. Im feeling very discouraged and sad right now. I wish I had a walking, or helping buddy. Wed, 2 Apr 2014 06:37:43 EST Ten years ago... My high school reunion is in nine months. I have always fantasized about how I would be so sexy and thinner and beautiful by this time and that I could come back and show the bullies how wrong they were. I have always wanted to come back thinner and show all the guys who teased me about wait or wouldn't go out with me because of my size... and show them "look at me now". <BR> <BR> I feel like this is a really strong motivator for me. I need to feel succesfull and in a weird way how I look a... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 08:08:26 EST Little black (and white polka dot) dress My oldest daughter will be seven in February. I gained seventy pounds with that pregnancy. After I had her I bought this beautiful classic black and white polka dotted dress with red piping. Its strapless and feminine and I am in love. It was purchased in the size i was before I was pregnant. To motivate weight loss. The thing is the motivation was there but it wasn't enough. I have never in seven years been able to wear this dress. <BR> <BR> Each time I clean out my closet, I never get rid... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 05:25:27 EST A stair well at a time My job has me sit, all night and do nothing. I work at computers or I answer phones. I could walk around but I don't usually. I stay close to the desk. <BR> <BR> Three nights ago I decided to break away for a moment and had a friend watch the front desk (I work at a hotel). I walked up the four fights of stairs, across the top floor and then I walked down four flights of stairs. It hurt. my legs hurt and quite frankly I almost threw up! Then the next night I walked about two miles with my ki... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 08:57:54 EST housework out... and adios Soda. My house is super clean now that I clean a lot more. I have been using cleaning as an opportunity to move more. Standing when I fold laundry, Washing dishes by hand and even vacuuming and dusting more than most people i would think! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> also I have given up soda. I miss her already but soda is my weakness. Its just a seven day goal for now. I want to show myself I can give up soda for seven days. Sun, 13 Oct 2013 20:46:36 EST I walked! So I have been moving a lot more lately, since well before I wasn't moving at all. It was simple really. I just did more house work and pushed through the desire to sit down. I made small changes... folded the laundry standing instead of on the couch. I swept and mopped while the dishes dried instead of sitting and waiting. Needless to say my house is totally clean! It feels good. It feels really good. <BR> <BR> <BR> Something happened today. I went to spend time with my friend and our kid... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 20:43:20 EST Dear exercise, ..its been a while Dear Exercise, <BR> <BR> Its been a while since we last got together. I think about you often and actually plan to get back together with you almost daily. Each night at work I make a plan for you and I to meet up and take a simple walk. By the time I get home though, my love is stronger for other things and you are tossed to the way side (that bed, couch and tv are far more seductive at times )... I can meet you tomorrow I think. <BR> <BR> Our relationship is such work and I am so damn laz... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 07:12:04 EST Learning to love new things I have been a member for a while now, but I am just now using the page as its intended and actually working on improving and loosing! <BR> <BR> One thing I have learned is I am going to have to learn to love new things. Just like blue cheese is an acquired taste, well for me that's sweet potatoes, oatmeal and exercise! These are things I don't particularly like and avoid. However they are good for my health and I need to love them. <BR> <BR> I will never be a marathon runner (I suspect, as... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 06:45:29 EST