NOTLIKEMCLOVIN's SparkPeople Blog NOTLIKEMCLOVIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 290.2 So, that was a reality check. Not that I really needed one; my weight isn't any more surprising to me than it would be to anyone that's been following me around for the last five months (don't think I haven't seen you hiding in the bushes). But it's still sobering. <BR> <BR> May 8th, I weighed 239.4 pounds. It was my first, and last, day in the 'Overweight' range. Then I just stopped...everything, really. I had some things happening in my personal life, but even when I got my life back on t... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 12:28:52 EST I'm back, etc. This won't be an exceedingly long blog entry, but I just wanted to kind of announce my return and talk about where I've been. <BR> <BR> The last few months have been kind of a lost summer for me. I stopped eating right - in fact, I started actively eating wrong - I stopped exercising and, SURPRISE!, I gained weight. A lot of weight. 35 pounds, in fact. I've got a pretty amazing ability to gain and lose weight really quickly. Usually, that's been a bad thing, because most of my life has been... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 15:14:55 EST Gaming the system. So after much deliberation (all right, a little deliberation), I’ve decided to go back to daily weigh-ins. The last month has not been particularly kind to me, weight-loss-wise. I think that I just have a personality that wants to game the system. In other words, I like to take the easy way out. When I only weigh in on Wednesdays, I have a habit of overdoing things on, say, Wednesdays and Thursdays, and occasionally Fridays and Saturdays and Sundays, because I have time to “make it up.” Then... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 13:48:43 EST Not up to task. I think I won the Super Bowl of eating yesterday. <BR> <BR> All joking aside, yesterday was not a good day, eating-wise, for me. I went to a Super Bowl party, and this party included a Super Bowl cookoff. And people cooked it off, that’s for sure. There was a ton of amazing food, and I ate all of it. Maybe not all of it, but my share and your share and a few other people’s shares too. And there was no good reason for it. Not that the food wasn’t good; there were some amazing things th... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 14:44:01 EST Message to a sixteen-year-old me. What would I tell my 16-year-old self? See, that’s tough, because I didn’t have the stereotypical high school fat kid experience. I always was fighting with my weight, but I wasn’t teased much, I was fairly popular, and I was a successful athlete. That’s not to toot my own horn, just that I don’t so much need to give myself a pep talk as tough love: <BR> <BR> So, 16-year-old me, I know you think you have this thing down. You pig out all spring and summer, sitting on your ass, and then you ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 17:26:23 EST Walls. Loyal readers, you may have noticed something amiss. Something askew. Basically, I’ve been slacking about as hard as I’m capable. Really, I’ve wasted the entire last month and it’s time to stop. <BR> <BR> It started around Christmas. I didn’t have a great Christmas, diet and exercise-wise, which by itself is not a particularly big deal. I lost the weight I had gained fairly quickly, and in the week after the new year I was back on track. Then last weekend happened. I went down to Anaheim... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 17:32:31 EST Bad, no and further. Another holiday season has come to an end, and the question that a large number of people ask (or at least ask themselves) is, how did you do? Did you make healthy choices? Are you closer to or further (farther? I never know) from your weight-loss goals? <BR> <BR> The answer: Bad, no, and further (farther? Damn!). <BR> <BR> I didn’t go off the deep end or anything, and I have some things that I can point to as successes, but by and large, I failed this holiday season. Over the last se... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 17:47:42 EST Goods not as advertised. At what point did running become somewhat easy? Three weeks ago, if you asked me if I could run a mile, I’d tell you that it’s like walking down a dark alley in a bad neighborhood at night: I’d probably survive, but it wouldn’t be a pretty thing to see and it’s best left avoided. Somehow, in less than three weeks, I’ve run two separate 5Ks, I’ve run a 5K on the dreaded demon treadmill, and last weekend, a 4.3-mile run. In under 10-minute pace, no less. I still haven’t figured out this run... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 18:46:55 EST Self-doubt. I made the most awesome pulled pork yesterday. Seriously you guys, just amazing. Also, I’m fairly sure that North Carolina barbecue might be the best. It’s the vinegar, I think. <BR> <BR> So far, so good for my holiday plan. I’m actually making myself eat 1500 calories a day, which sounds silly, I know. In fact, yesterday after dinner I had to have a banana with two tablespoons of peanut butter (note: peanut butter and banana sandwich? Best sandwich in existence), and then I still ha... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 18:45:20 EST I can run. I think it’s good to plan ahead for things when you’re trying to lose weight. Holidays aren’t a huge trigger for me, but I do love me some baked goods. So I might as well have some semblance of a plan, even if I don’t carry a one-sheet around with me everywhere. <BR> <BR> <BR> My holiday plan? Do what I’ve been doing. I have a cheat day planned for my birthday, and that will be awesome…for one day. Then it’s back on. I’ve been taking it a little easy the last week because I was going ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 15:06:12 EST Six months. Today is officially six months of the “new me” if you want to say it all weird. I suppose it’s a good time to reflect a little and see what’s changed. <BR> <BR> When I started, I weighed in at 403 pounds. Today, I weighed in at 295 pounds. <BR> <BR> When I started, I was stretching out size 52 pants and shirts anywhere from 4XL to 5XL. Today I’m wearing 42 jeans, a 2XL shirt and sweater, and they fit me comfortably. <BR> <BR> When I started, I’d had facial hair constantly since May of 2... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 18:06:17 EST Hipster doofus. I think that for every person who loses a significant amount of weight, there comes a time when you see the first dividends that really mean something. For me, I think that time came this weekend in the form of Old Navy. <BR> <BR> Now I’ve always given Old Navy kind of a bad rap, and I think that it’s because it really was entirely useless to me up until a couple of weeks ago. I couldn’t wear any of their clothes, and trust me, having to go into a store where literally nothing is of an... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 18:48:53 EST The libertarian diet. Someone asked me how I stay motivated and keep going. I think it’s a good question, especially a couple of weeks ago when my weight has been stubbornly refusing to go down. And the answer is partially that I just don’t know. Why is weight loss working for me this time when it’s failed so many times before? <BR> <BR> I’m one tiny pound away from 100, and I have no real idea what’s making me succeed this time. Maybe it’s the ego boost when people notice? I don’t think so; I got plenty o... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 14:14:45 EST Tell me what to do! Yesterday was a rough eating day. For some reason, I just did not want a healthy meal. Now, I know that this is a lifestyle change, and it’s going to require eating normally for, you know, ever. But part of eating normally is digging into a burger and fries or a really unhealthy pizza and, yes, eating more than is a healthy amount for one person. <BR> <BR> I’ve built myself into a mini-complex lately, mostly because I have these numbers that I want to hit in a certain amount of time. I... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 15:08:18 EST BLC20 Goal Progress Update 1. I will join the gym - Done and quickly making myself a regular. <BR> <BR> 2. I will diversify my routine - Done, with some frustration. Don't get me wrong, I know that changing my routine is going to do a lot of long-term good. There's no question that strength training is going to have all kinds of positive effects, and I'm definitely not going to stop, but to this point is has slowed my weight loss and I haven't been strength training long enough to see visible effects. Nevertheles... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 19:26:14 EST Winning and losing. And gaining. Sunday: 311.6 pounds <BR> <BR> Monday: 314.2 pounds <BR> <BR> Tuesday: 315.0 pounds <BR> <BR> Wednesday: 316.8 pounds <BR> <BR> Thursday: 317.4 pounds <BR> <BR> Not cool, body. Not cool. It’s certainly frustrating. I’ve had periods where I’ve gained a good amount of weight in a short time, but they’ve always coincided with a period of bad eating or inactivity, neither of which is a problem for me. I had a great, ass-kicking spin class on Tuesday, and yesterday was my first real, hone... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 15:22:24 EST Clichés. It’s getting harder to think of things to write about. What do I write about when things are going well and there’s no horrible temptation or depression or negativity to talk about? <BR> <BR> One of the things I do like to do with this blog is to counteract all the clichés that surround weight loss. And they come from everywhere. There’s the fat people saying “fat people don’t eat any more than skinny people”. Now, this may be true for some, but if that’s a hard-and-fast rule, then it’s ... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 18:55:00 EST That's how it's done, son. My body is weird. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today I lost 4.6 pounds. Tomorrow I’m sure to gain some of it back, but for today, I’m over 80 and I’ll take it! It’s like my body just holds and holds weight and then lets it go all at once. <BR> <BR> <BR> Also, today I want to talk about things that are not great about losing weight quickly. The first one is clothes. Today I’m wearing a shirt that was too small when I bought it. Come to think of it, a lot of my clothes were purchased when they ... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 17:01:33 EST Weight limit. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today, for the first time in many years, I weighed under 330 pounds. This is a surprisingly significant number for me. <BR> <BR> First, as you can see above, for the first time in a long time, my driver’s license is actually accurate. In Oregon, I was actually registered with the state at 340 pounds, and when I got the Washington license, I for some reason decided that License Me had lost ten pounds, even thou... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 16:45:08 EST BLC20 Goals 1. I will join the gym. It seems like such a small thing, but I keep putting it off for some reason. This week, it's happening. <BR> <BR> 2. I will diversify my routine. Yes, I've lost almost 70 pounds thus far on mostly walking and running on the path near my apartment, but there's so much more I need to do! There's strength training, and swimming, and yoga, and so much more. How can I do all these things? See #1. <BR> <BR> 3. I will track all my food. This is something I've been do... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 12:43:04 EST BLC20 Before Pictures (Now scantily clad!) You wanted it, SparkPeople, you got it! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 15 Sep 2012 12:06:25 EST Even Batman needs help sometimes. Me before Warrior Dash: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Me after Warrior Dash: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In between I found out that I’m pretty good at most of the obstacles. I also found out that I am not good at climbing walls. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I came through nearly the first mile doing quite well. I was running most all of it, my breath was good, I wasn’t getting wi... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 18:58:40 EST Giddy with anticipation. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/09/giddy-with-anticipation.html </link> <BR> <BR> --------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Today is my third straight day without a workout, and it feels weird. Normally, I work out about 5-6 times per week, I rarely take consecutive days off, and three in a row is nearly unheard of. But I’m taking it easy for a few days. I’ve had some knee pain in the last week and with Warrior Dash tomorrow, I need to ... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 17:28:46 EST Serenity now! Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/09/serenity-now.html </link> <BR> <BR> ----------------------------------- <BR> <BR> You know that AA serenity prayer thing? It goes kind of like this: <BR> <BR> God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, <BR> The courage to change the things I can, <BR> And the wisdom to know the difference. <BR> <BR> Now, this is not to disparage Alcoholics Anonymous (I have other reasons for that, but tha... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 15:57:04 EST Working for the weekend. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/working-for-weekend.html </link> <BR> <BR> ------------------------------------ <BR> <BR> Finally, another blog! I’m finding it harder and harder to write blogs on here. Now there’s nothing wrong with this blog becoming a daily update of my weight, but I’m sure that’s boring to you as readers, and if people aren’t coming to check out the blog because there are no updates, then it doesn’t have much purpose as a... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 15:57:48 EST Check it out. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This guy just walked 13.1 miles. Fri, 24 Aug 2012 15:51:44 EST PR. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/pr.html </link> <BR> <BR> ------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> 39:42, bitches! <BR> <BR> OK, so it’s not exactly a 5K world record. But it is a new PR by 3 minutes and 48 seconds, and it’s my first ever 5K under 40 minutes, so yeah, 39:42 bitches. Technically the course was 3.08 miles, not the 3.106 that entails a true 5K, but considering I overshot the turnaround by a good ten seconds, I’m going to c... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 00:54:45 EST Recommitting. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/recommitting.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> On July 31st, I weighed 355.4 pounds. This morning, I weighed 353.4 pounds. <BR> <BR> That, in a nutshell, describes my August. It can’t be called bad, because I’ve lost two pounds, and every pound lost is a good thing. But it’s been slow going and wildly erratic. I was 347.8 on August 9th, 356.2 on August 13th, 347.6 on Augu... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 18:38:16 EST Back in the saddle again. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/back-in-saddle-again.html </link> <BR> <BR> ------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> I think I may have misled you, the reading public. Well, not so much misread as misspoke (or mistyped, if you want to look at it that way). I greatly appreciate all the kind words and the encouragement to stick with it. However, I think it came across that I was depressed because of my weight gain at Mancave. That’s not r... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 11:01:23 EST Setback. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/setback.html </link> <BR> <BR> -------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Mancave has come to a close, but the effects are still here. You’ll notice I haven’t posted a weigh-in in some time now. Partially that’s because I forgot my scale at home, and partially that’s because I didn’t exactly keep to healthy eating while at Mancave. <BR> <BR> I wouldn’t say that I ate horribly at Mancave, but I drank. A lo... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 19:38:37 EST MUB/WUB OK, I should update on my last MUB and put up some new goals. <BR> <BR> July's Monthly Goals: <BR> <BR> 1. No smoking. I've been doing well! I had a couple of cigarettes at the bachelor party and immediately regretted them the next time I ran. I put them away and they won't make another appearance until Mancave. I know, I know, it would really make more sense to just not smoke, but if I'm being quite honest, I like smoking and if I smoke for four days a year while bettering my health 365 ... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 23:01:04 EST This counts as a good day. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/this-counts-as-good-day.html </link> <BR> <BR> --------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Holy sh*t, I ran a mile. The last time I did that was 2001. <BR> <BR> I’m not sure what prompted it, but yesterday I just had this wild hair that I was going to go out and run a mile. So I got up today, went to my usual running place, walked a quarter mile to warm up and I was off! And it was actually not terrible... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 18:15:48 EST Mancave is my favorite time of the year. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/08/mancave-is-my-favorite-time-of-yea<BR>r.html </link> <BR> <BR> -------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Oh Mancave, you crafty bitch. <BR> <BR> So Mancave commences eight days from today. I’m under no illusion that I’m going to somehow lose weight on this trip. I think of it as a trip to the casino (which I’ll likely be making while on the trip): you know it’s not going to go your way, so take steps to... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 14:21:20 EST Ambitious Me is a jerk. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/ambitious-me-is-jerk.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> For the first time since I started living like a normal person a little over two months ago, my body failed me last night. If I was religious, I’d totally think a god was smiting me for getting cocky. As it is, though, I think it’s more likely that it was just overuse. Yay science! <BR> <BR> I did my six miles yest... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 13:34:53 EST I got chafin' on me nipples! Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/i-got-chafin-on-me-nipples.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> I chafed my nipples on Monday night. <BR> <BR> I know that for most people, chafed nipples would be a negative thing. But I consider it a milestone! I’ve never run enough to chafe my nipples, or else I was never running in the right conditions. Sure, it means I have to start Band-Aiding up when I run, but ever... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 15:02:59 EST Come get your rewards! Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/come-get-your-rewards.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Being fat and working out creates all kinds of challenges that normals don’t face in everyday life. Weighing 360+pounds makes working out a whole raft of issues. Like running. You’d think that the hard part of running would be trying to huff and puff along without dying in a heaving lump on the side of the path. In ... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 18:06:27 EST I'm so vain. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/im-so-vain.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> You may have noticed that there was no weigh-in posted yesterday. This was partially a nod to pragmatism, but it was mostly an attack of vanity. It’s true that having gone to my brother’s bachelor party last night, getting intoxicated and consuming a relatively large amount of salty treats (as well as way too much delicious spic... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 18:10:54 EST I'm back! Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/im-back.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Okay, I’m back over 40 pounds lost again! Hooray! <BR> <BR> It’s not really a biggie. I’ve been posting big losses for a while now and it has to even out sometime. I had a bigger problem yesterday with my mindset. I got this really awful feeling, like a guilty feeling, about not working out. I don’t have any reason to feel that way... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 18:20:57 EST Milestone. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/milestone.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> I hit 40 pounds lost today, in 58 days. It’s definitely a good thing, but it’s certainly going to be a drag when I start losing a normal amount of weight. Until then, I’ve got to enjoy it! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a rough workout, but it was an extremely satisfying one. Somehow I got the great idea to do a six-miler by alternating... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 16:05:15 EST Lyle is my homeboy. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/lyle-is-my-homeboy.html </link> <BR> <BR> --------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Yes, this happened. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know, it’s fabulous. The Lyle’s Myles walk was a success. Not only did we raise over $200 for AIDS charities, we won the costume contest, which means we get to have a pizza party, with Lyle, who is awesome. <BR>... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 19:39:09 EST Eight miles is a lot. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/eight-miles-is-lot.html </link> <BR> <BR> ------------------------------------ <BR> <BR> So maybe August is a little early to walk 13 miles. <BR> <BR> I did a little over eight miles this morning and holy sh*t, my body is flat-out pissed at me. Really, I’m feeling pretty good now, but today’s walk was rough. It seemed like I never was able to get into a good groove. I was already feeling out of my element at the... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 19:51:24 EST Fabulous! Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/fabulous.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Not a bad run yesterday. It was a three-miler and not a 5K, so beating my PR wasn’t as much of an option. I finished in 42:30, which was a little slower than 43:30 pace, but I’m pretty happy with it. The course is more difficult than the ones I’ve been doing lately. Pretty much three miles of little hills. Plus, I did the same cour... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 15:40:10 EST BLC #15 - Weekly Update Blog As far as being awesome goes, you'd best believe I've got that on lockdown. <BR> <BR> 1. No smoking. One exception: my brother's bachelor party involves cigars and I'll be damned if I miss those - Ugh. I haven't had a cigarette since Friday and, well, the simple fact is that I like smoking. Let me tell you, that makes it a lot harder to quit. But I've got these days under my belt and I think I can keep it up. <BR> <BR> 2. At least 12 miles a week. I usually get at least 6 but I want to sh... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 15:03:10 EST Cigarettes are awesome and make you look cool. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/cigarettes-are-awesome-and-make-yo<BR>u.html </link> <BR> <BR> -------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> I’d really like to smoke right now. <BR> <BR> I last had a cigarette on Friday, I believe. It’s not so much that I feel a need to smoke, it’s just that I’m used to it. So in other words, it’s more habit than addiction. But it's pretty stupid to smoke when I'm trying to, you know, get in shape. <BR>... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 14:21:25 EST ZONK! Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/zonk.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> What would be more satisfying: Losing the same amount of weight, every day, or having three days of stagnation or gain followed by four days of higher weight loss? This is assuming both add up to the same loss each week. Wednesday through Saturday each week are great, but these Sunday-Monday-Tuesdays are pretty much bullsh*t. Obviously... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 16:52:58 EST I beat the weekend. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/i-beat-weekend.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Weekends are the enemy of weight loss. It’s been seven weeks now since I started managing my weight like a normal person. I weigh myself every day and yesterday was the first time in seven weeks that my Sunday weight was less than my Saturday weight. I’ve gained 5.8 pounds on Sundays, and lost 39.8 on every other day. But yes... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 12:35:25 EST Of cabbages and kings. Cross-posted from my blog: <link><BR>/07/of-cabbages-and-kings.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> Today I’m headed down to Salem to hang out with my buddy Josh again. As you recall, the last time this happened I careened into a 5000-calorie day. So today is a good test of my willpower, which is usually good, but I just can’t help myself around him. And yes, my friends would laugh heartily at that sentence. We are i... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 13:26:04 EST In which I win at burgers. Fourth of July pitfall avoided! I knew dinner was going to be a hefty calorie load so I worked that into my calculations for the day. Luckily, I had to swing by the Urgent Care for my back at 4:00 in the morning, so after I got home I crashed until 11:00, then I grabbed some bread and hummus. Along with a light sushi lunch, I was ready to go. <BR> <BR> First let me say this: I made some amazing burgers last night. Holy sh*t were these things delicious. There was also some healthy broccoli s... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 14:14:43 EST The most bastardly muscle redux. Um, ow. <BR> <BR> Remember that horrible horrible pain I had yesterday? Holy sh*t, it got worse this morning. I was dumb enough to forget to turn off my alarm today and I woke up at 4:00 again, unable to breath or move really. So I made the trip down to the trusty urgent care. Then by the time I got there, I was feeling mostly okay. Anyway, I got myself a prescription for muscle relaxers and Vicodin. <BR> <BR> So, it is ridiculously easy to get pain pills! I have actual pain, but reall... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 09:53:17 EST The most bastardly muscle. Copied from my blog: <link><BR>t-bastardly-muscle.html </link> <BR> <BR> ---------------------------------------- <BR> <BR> I pulled a muscle in my ribcage yesterday, along my back. The ribcage seems to be the most bastardly part of the body to injure. I hiccupped this morning and I almost pissed myself. <BR> <BR> So I got home yesterday and was thinking about possibly doing six miles with the dog. The problem is that the park I walk in closes at that... Tue, 3 Jul 2012 12:38:58 EST