NOREGRET2010's SparkPeople Blog NOREGRET2010's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ready to kick 2014 to the Curb! In preparing goals for 2015, I've spent this morning reviewing 2014. <BR> <BR> Frankly, what a crappy year! A few "highlights" of what went badly this year would include: <BR> 1) Forced to move by landlord selling house out from under us, into a location where the vacancy rate for rentals was literally 1% and so rents are astronomical, went from a 3 bdrm stand alone house to a 2 bedroom townhouse and pay $450 a month more in rent. The expenses of the move, the increase in rent - pretty much... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 11:53:57 EST The coming year.... A few years ago, I was talking with a coaching client (I coach bellydancers! I coach them to prepare for competitions, round out their training, etc) sometime close to the end of the year. I'd asked her, as I'd asked all my clients, to give me three goals dance-wise for the coming year. She showed up with a spreadsheet of goals for her entire life - goals which were phrased in meaningful ways to her life. She shared the year before's spreadsheet and how well she'd done (remarkably well when y... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 07:30:23 EST wow. really? Had one 15 minute discussion with my boss about some problems in the department I supervise. Mind you, I am not in his office often, and extremely rarely do I complain - EVER. There are other supervisors who are in his office several times a week complaining. <BR> <BR> I thought the discussion went well, I left feeling better, I had some ideas to cope with the issues..... <BR> <BR> Today he takes me aside and says he's noticed I'm really starting to depress him with "all of these problems"... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 18:19:00 EST Hello, it's me again... Five months since I posted? wow, time flies. We won't say when you're having fun tho. Been a stressful first half of the year. <BR> <BR> But then what's new? <BR> <BR> Well, one thing is new...I started going to a personal trainer/training studio last week. Yesterday was my first class - 45 min circuit training class. The first 20 min, no problem. I was working, I could feel my muscles waking up (you want us to do what after ignoring us all this time?). Then came the last 15 min of active t... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 09:45:12 EST Grrrrrrrrrrr 7 days of prednisone....and I'm so crabby today I can barely stand myself. Weight loss has, as expected on steroids, completely stopped and in fact I regained 2 pounds even tho being pretty much on plan. <BR> <BR> Today is allergy testing, and while I'm abjectly sure they will say I may now have water and toothpicks for the remainder of my life, I'm just going to be so glad to get off the prednisone I don't care. <BR> <BR> Still not eating grains, overall not missing it. What I'm really m... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:54:40 EST Week one - Done What an interesting week! <BR> <BR> No sugar/dairy/grain for a week was an adventure...but then the cheat day came and that was really an adventure! The nutritionist built in a cheat day - and I'm so glad she did. Said this is the day to eat whatever you want. You may notice you don't feel very well when you eat some of the things you've been cutting out. <BR> <BR> Ahem. Try a full blown allergy attack to the point I almost thought I was going to have to go the ER. All this after eating a... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 17:03:09 EST Day 3 I can honestly say, this is the longest I can remember sticking to a plan and not cheating. Seriously. While that's sad on one level, it's very motivating on many others. <BR> <BR> Interesting things (to me at least) are: <BR> With the removal of constant grazing, or popping candy into my mouth, or drinking sugar-laden coffee - I'm noticing what I think of as low blood sugar episodes. That sudden, I'm hungry and if I don't eat now my body might just fall over on me feeling. Not as bad as my ... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:25:18 EST Day 2 2+ days sugar free. I have been hit with a virus, so have slept a good portion of the day away - keeping cravings to a minimum. <BR> <BR> On track - even tho I feel like crap. go me! Kids brought home a pizza and I have to admit, I looked at the lone piece when I went in to fix myself something to eat. I thought about how I would have grabbed it and ate it without a thought 3 days ago. it smelled good, but not so good as staying on task. <BR> <BR> That's sort of a first for me folks! <BR... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 20:47:13 EST Day 1 I wonder how many Day 1's I've had? <BR> <BR> I suspect it doesn't bear too much thinking about. <BR> <BR> What I'm doing differently? I got a coach. A friend did a nutrition certification program at the local college and I thought, "hmm. I coach dancers who need accountability, someone to vent to or lean on, to help them reach their goals. Maybe I should take my own advice and find an accountability partner". My friend is kind, healthy, fit, and funny. So I did it. <BR> <BR> To start wi... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 10:19:08 EST Day in Day out I may be quiet lately, but I'm doing it. <BR> <BR> Wearing my CPAP. <BR> Taking my meds/supplements. <BR> Eating more veggies. <BR> <BR> Workouts have gone from nothing for too long to hardcore dance/drill workouts 3 x a week that encompass a 45 minute 'warm up' (including sit ups, push ups, plank, etc) followed by another 45 minutes of dance training. AND, now I'm teaching 2.5 hours of dance class a week on top of it! I notice I don't get a lot of steps in with it even tho I'm working my... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 13:10:09 EST Back in the Saddle Saturday I was able to do the 5K at Sunriver Marathon for a Cause. I was signed up for the 10K, but after the back spasm it just wasn't to be. I'm glad I made it through the 5K and - after over a week of being out with my back - pleased to say I was only 6 min off my time! <BR> <BR> Great race, beautiful walk, totally plan on signing up for the 10K next year! <BR> <BR> As of yesterday, back to Zumba and working on 10K steps a day. <BR> <BR> That's it, back in the saddle and moving forwar... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:12:37 EST Getting back to normal Been a week since my back muscle spasm. Back is much better, tho not completely healed. <BR> <BR> pretty sure I'm not going to be able to do the 10K Sunday, tho I haven't completely given up. I might be able to make one loop (5k or about 3 miles)...or I may have to step out completely. It's not worth reinjuring my back, that's for sure. <BR> <BR> Made it up to around 7000 steps yesterday, which made me feel better after a week of 2000 or so! It's just a long road to recovery. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 08:27:40 EST Learning self care Things were going along. My walking was lagging a bit due to some commitments, but this weekend I was going to be back on it. Notice the use of the past tense, was. <BR> <BR> Then last night I pulled my back. I had the audacity to try something as risky as.....getting out of the car. Sigh. I got out of the car, stood up and....felt it pull. <BR> <BR> It's not the worst spasm I've had, not by a long shot, but it's painful. Sitting is the worst. I can lay down or stand up, but sitting? ouc... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 09:08:49 EST Day in, and Day out Here we are, another week on the way. <BR> <BR> The scale is back down to 245. That sticky point. <BR> <BR> I work on 10K steps a day, and most days I've exceeded it, and some I haven't. It would be easy to fall into the self critical mode of thinking - that whatever I'm doing it's not enough, not good enough, and I need to try HARDER. <BR> <BR> For now, I seem to be able to put that kind of thinking aside. <BR> <BR> Maybe it's working on myself in Al-Anon. <BR> <BR> For example, on... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 10:05:37 EST What's more important here? Far too often, I am ruled by the numbers on the scale. Too many times, I've given the numbers the power to choose my mood, my feelings about myself. For months, I did not weigh at ALL...but there also was no success in that for me because without weighing it was easy to "forget" I weighed 250 pounds. <BR> <BR> So, for awhile now, I have been following the ritual of getting on the scale every morning, just to remember what I weigh and to start my day with the motivation to remove some of tha... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 10:29:43 EST Back to where I was... Before the Unfortunate Chinese at Lunch Incident/McDonald's Breakfast Snafu of last week: 245. <BR> <BR> The next drop is going to be the test. I have been able to get to 244, and stay there for oh, a day. That's been going on for well about a year. No joke. So getting under 244? I'm excited and anxious all at the same time. I'm going to keep on doin' what I'm doin', and see what happens in the next couple weeks. <BR> <BR> I managed at least 20 min of zumba every weekday last week and wa... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 10:26:51 EST Roller coaster.... Roller coaster on the scale and roller coaster emotions. <BR> <BR> Scale is up 3 pounds, but let's review last week: Chinese food for lunch put me wayyyyy over limit, ate at McDonald's for breakfast 2 x over the weekend before I looked it up....Ahem. Yes, That would be why the scale is up 3 pounds I'm pretty sure. A week of being either even with my calorie burn or above it. On that Chinese food day? WAY above what I burned. <BR> <BR> So, I'm just figuring it was a week of lessons on calor... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:31:41 EST I may not know much, but what I do know is this.... I so appreciate all the great comments on my eating at McDonald's post! <BR> <BR> Yes, it's true, there are less-terrible choices and if one is can eat ANYWHERE, can't we? <BR> <BR> Um, except perhaps for me. <BR> <BR> LOL. <BR> <BR> I know myself. I am not capable of going into McDonald's and having a low-cal option. I've tried them and found them lacking and at this point in my journey, walking in there would be like walking into my favorite chocolate shop for a piece of... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 18:24:46 EST No wonder I'm obese!!! My partner has a McDonald's addiction. Every morning that it's remotely possible, she has breakfast there. She doesn't like anything else on the menu, only breakfast. On the weekends, she enjoys me going with her. We sit and read the Sunday paper and eat breakfast. <BR> <BR> So this weekend, I went with her. <BR> <BR> In my efforts to better track my food on the weekends (which has been non-existent), I tried to log it this a.m., thinking better late than never, right? <BR> <BR> I almo... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 12:21:43 EST And pride goeth before the fall..... Well, I had a cosmic reminder that this journey is one day at a time. That stuff happens, bad choices are made and we have to just learn from it and move on. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I ended up at a chinese restaurant for lunch. This was completely unplanned and pretty unavoidable, circumstances combined and there I was. Now, there still could have been decent choices made there. <BR> <BR> Of course, I didn't make a reasonable choice. I was having high anxiety and I went for comfort. <BR> <... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 08:36:40 EST Doing it differently My family has often enjoyed going to Shari's restaurant on Wednesday nights, because that's "free pie night". Buy a meal, and get a free slice of their amazing pie. We've cut it way, way back and go maybe once a month. <BR> <BR> My daughter recently got a job and last night she said, I want to pay for us to go to Shari's! I hesitated and said, "um, I really can't go there. I have been working really hard on controlling my food and I just don't know I can be in the "pie house" and not eat pi... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 10:14:32 EST Down 8 pounds! I'm down 8 pounds in the last 3-4 weeks. Yes, tracking food seems to be the key <BR> <BR> Who knew? *snark* <BR> <BR> I am still not doing well tracking on the weekend, and that just may be the way it is. For today I'm happy. <BR> <BR> I note that I am still 3 pounds heavier than my "goal line" - but that's all good. 8 pounds is 8 pounds, plain and simple. Tue, 23 Jul 2013 11:15:57 EST 65 days Yesterday was a success. It wasn't the easiest day ever - I wanted to eat. I felt obsessed with "when can I eat again?" but I tracked every single bite or sip and at the end of the day, I had a 594 calorie defecit per my Fitbit. Really, really striving for portion control so I'm measuring and weighing food as well as making sure I have plenty of options at work, where I spend the majority of my day. It's easier to avoid the crap that gets brought in if I have choices. <BR> <BR> Took a 20 mi... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 10:30:18 EST 66 days In 66 days, my oldest daughter is getting married. I'm using this event as a short term goal to get my sh*t together diet/exercise wise and really REALLY focus on my health. <BR> <BR> Life continues to be stressful while we wait for Jodie's first paycheck due August 5th. Stuff has come up, things happen...and stress is not my friend. <BR> <BR> Here's to really putting myself first the next 66 days and caring for my health. It will be worth it. Wed, 17 Jul 2013 10:31:35 EST Really? Two weeks of tracking food, slow steady loss happening and...boom <BR> <BR> Diverticulitis flare. <BR> <BR> Really?? Miserable since the 4th, doc appointment today. Half pound re-gain, but I'm well aware that would because much activity at all and I'm in pain - ergo, not much movement. Food has been good overall. <BR> <BR> Once this clears up I'm sure I'll be back on the road but....really? <BR> <BR> Argh. Tue, 9 Jul 2013 10:30:15 EST Fourteen cubes of butter That's my visual to myself: Last week, I lost weight equivalent to 14 cubes of butter or 3.5 pounds. <BR> <BR> The weekend - much much harder to track and eat right. I didn't gorge myself, binge or even really overeat - more I had problems remembering to eat, getting too tired and waiting too long to eat, etc. We did eat at Outback for our anniversary (first time we've had money to do so). Did great until we decided, what the heck, we will split a dessert and ordered the Chocolate Thunder ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 10:23:04 EST Fourteen cubes of butter That's my visual to myself: Last week, I lost weight equivalent to 14 cubes of butter or 3.5 pounds. <BR> <BR> The weekend - much much harder to track and eat right. I didn't gorge myself, binge or even really overeat - more I had problems remembering to eat, getting too tired and waiting too long to eat, etc. We did eat at Outback for our anniversary (first time we've had money to do so). Did great until we decided, what the heck, we will split a dessert and ordered the Chocolate Thunder ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 10:23:04 EST Thursday - Reality Check I've had them before, you know. Like when at a restaurant I got sort of wedged into a booth and had a very hard time getting out...while college kids snickered at me across the aisle. Yeah, that was a fun reality check, sigh. <BR> <BR> Yesterday's was from looking at my Fitbit dashboard more. Typically, you know I just looked at my steps and my sedentary time. Since I've bee logging my food since Sunday, I started looking at that on the dashboard. <BR> <BR> Ouch. Big ol' ouch. Somehow, se... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 08:31:05 EST Tuesday - Finding fiber.... Well, my effort to track all my food is continuing. Third day of measuring/weighing and tracking. So far, so good. Not perfect eating, but just doing it is the point right now. <BR> <BR> Remembering that when I cut wheat out, I have a much harder time making my fiber goals for the day. Eating a ton of veggies would be enough, you would think, but apparently not. So that will be a continuing experiment to get it right. <BR> <BR> In other news, I'm realizing things are different. If I don't... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 15:32:18 EST Monday Check In - Measuring food I've been "eyeballing" my food portions. Yes, I admit it. For...too long. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I weighed or measured my food. Startling reminder of why that's important. <BR> <BR> I know what to do. I've been on SP since, ahem, 2006. I just....didn't wanna do it. Or, I'd do it a little while and then fall away. But after all that time, all those articles, doing spark coach for awhile, believe me, it's not that I don't know HOW to do this. <BR> <BR> It's the actual, uh, DOING. You know? Th... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 08:27:20 EST Time to admit it, my food is out of control I ran into an acquaintance yesterday and was flabbergasted at her weight loss. She said 51 pounds, it looked more like 80 to me. Seriously. I said so how'd you do it? She said...medifast. <BR> <BR> I've spent a lot of time thinking about this since I ran into her. The various "well, I could..." to "you have done a supervised fast before, it was horribly expensive and hard, do you really wanna do that again?". <BR> <BR> I've doubled my activity. Easily. I may not always make 10K a day, but... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 10:02:43 EST Oh happy day!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday, my partner graduated with her Associate's Degree in Criminal Justice. <BR> <BR> Friday, she got a job (after literally years of no job/under employed). <BR> <BR> I feel like a 1000 pound weight has been lifted off my shoulders of being the sole support for our family for so long. I feel hope. <BR> <BR> Jodie will likely continue on to get her bachelor's in CJ online, which is wonderful but the job... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 08:56:25 EST Back in the saddle again.... Got the steps going again last night, but didn't quite hit 10K even though I went for an hour walk last night. <BR> <BR> When I got home from the walk and realized I still hadn't made my steps for the day, I decided that starting this a.m., I have to do a little something extra in the a.m. An hour walk in the evening is about my limit with other things I need to this a.m. if nothing else I'll walk around the block or do a little bit of Zumba for Wii. <BR> <BR> I have a 4 day week... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 08:13:31 EST Post-event let down You know when you work so hard for an event, planning, details etc and then it's over and you feel sort of lost and maybe a little blue? <BR> <BR> That's how I feel today. <BR> <BR> But I'm reminding myself exactly what it is - I worked really hard last week on getting prepped for daughter's graduation, now it's over and it's time to refocus. <BR> <BR> I finally figured out what I need to refocus on this morning. There are a lot of options, not the smallest of which could be my partner's ... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 08:47:57 EST Check that off... Third child successfully graduated from high school, check! One more...just one more...whew. <BR> <BR> Tonight is her graduation party and Saturday....back to real life and getting 10K a day in! <BR> <BR> All my kids in one spot yesterday was really nice! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 7 Jun 2013 08:12:53 EST Gone sideways... Was doing well with my 10K a day until I had to start prepping a zillion cupcakes and a birthday cake for today's graduation, tomorrow's party, etc. <BR> <BR> Hours in the kitchen and felt wiped...but didn't add up to much in terms of steps. <BR> <BR> Oh well. Sometimes ya just can't do it all. Back on it Saturday. :) <BR> <BR> Thu, 6 Jun 2013 10:32:11 EST Monday Check In Yesterday's 5K was great - My goal was to do it in an hour and that's exactly what it was, 60 min on the dot! Pretty freakin' jazzed! The last half mile I had to pour it on, I was almost running - but I did it! Overall, I think it was the easiest one I've done - except for the hills. I generally walk on only flat ground on purpose because of my knees. Doc said with my weight and the lack of cartilage left in my knees, I shouldn't be doing hills if I can avoid them. So I do. Yesterday's 5K inc... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 08:40:43 EST 5K today Today is my first event of the year, a 5K charity walk for breast cancer. I've done it several years - but I think this year is the most I've trained for it. I walked 20 miles last week and was half a mile short of 25 this week. <BR> <BR> Last week, 10K a day 3x, this week 4 x. Go me. That's a personal best! This week I'm aiming for 5x. <BR> <BR> Time continues to be a problem. Too much going on...and getting that much walking in a day takes...time. <BR> <BR> No weight change. Interesti... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 09:30:47 EST Tuesday check in.... I had three days of 10K steps under my belt and then the weekend hit. Saturday I worked and...forgot to put on my fitbit til almost 10 a.m., when I'd been up at 5. no good. The rest of the weekend was lazy and I got sucked into the amazing world of ancestry dot com and....that was that. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, back at it with a vengence, 11k+. <BR> <BR> More learned on getting 10K a day: <BR> If I don't get a morning workout (zumba), I have to walk on both my breaks and take a 45 min to an h... Wed, 29 May 2013 08:10:39 EST Turning lemons into lemonade... or, trying to. <BR> <BR> I was so excited about the three-day weekend! Then.....I found out at 3 pm yesterday I have to work today because I wasn't notified of someone's vacation request and they have family coming into town and.... <BR> <BR> No three-day for me. I tried to be gracious, but I was really disappointed. Last night, I had a really bad attitude about it. A lot of work stuff has been building up and this was sort of the straw that made me fall apart (when I got home). <BR> <BR... Sat, 25 May 2013 08:22:37 EST Keepin' on 10,000 steps a day streak: 2 days. <BR> <BR> Due to appointments and work meetings, getting 10K steps yesterday required about 45 minutes of walking at 7:00 pm again. But I did it. I also did a conditioning video with a dance friend that drilled some dance technique but was mostly yoga/pilates-based stuff and....ow. A reminder of the muscle I've lost for sure. I was feeling pretty stoved up last night after all that even after a long hot soak and this morning....well, ow. <BR> <BR> But, ... Fri, 24 May 2013 07:26:40 EST I did it! I made 10,000+ steps yesterday. <BR> <BR> During the day I got up and walked, a lot. I tried marching in place when I had to wait (though I discovered the Fitbit doesn't really seem to pick up my marching in place steps, more like half). At 7 pm last night I had 6500. So, I put my shoes back on and walked the dog. Not far enough. Another walk around the block. Almost. 250 steps of walking around the house and I was done. <BR> <BR> Now to do Thu, 23 May 2013 11:37:29 EST The Path of Least Resistance Been awhile since I posted. I lurk on SP a lot, takes time and energy to commit to teams/participate and I haven't had either. <BR> <BR> I've been amazed at how darn hard it's been to increase my steps. It's really easy to sit at my desk during work for a good 2 hours without getting up once. Even with walks on breaks, my step count has been sinking rather than rising. <BR> <BR> I want to fix this. I want to fix it badly. How am I going to do it? Well... <BR> <BR> I'm back at do... Wed, 22 May 2013 08:15:34 EST Check in - Finally... Whew. Life's been a whirlwind. Good things, hard things, sucky things, you know, things. <BR> <BR> Still grappling with trying to get to 10K steps a day. Grrr. Averages around 7K-ish... So, for now, the goal: Get to 7500 steps a day CONSISTENTLY. Then we'll worry about 10K. <BR> <BR> Food: I've been consistently (there's that word again!) whittling down my carb intake. The goal? around 100 carbs a day from fruits and veggies, not from grains. Again, I'm about 70% successful. What am I s... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 15:18:10 EST So Far, So Good Strength training 2x this week: Check <BR> Walking: Check <BR> Lower back spasm: Check. <BR> <BR> Sigh. The back thing...ugh. I knew the week we went to tacoma I was in mild pain. The week before I'd sat on my keister beading, beading and beading. Then we had a 6 hour car trip, followed by two days of sitting and judging categories, followed by the 6 hour car trip home - back to my job where I... sit. What's the worst thing for a chronic back injury? Sitting. So Monday I was really feeling ... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 08:35:35 EST A Year Til 50 Yesterday was my 49th birthday. I woke up with a fire in my heart that in a year, when I turn 50....I want to have changed my body. <BR> <BR> I'm still stuck at 244. <BR> <BR> I had weeks I was well on track. 244. <BR> I had weeks I was so tired and stressed I ate what I wanted. 244 <BR> I skipped weighing all together for two weeks and after that? 244. <BR> <BR> I look a little different - some measurements have shifted. But I'm still definitely morbidly obese and still physically mise... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 07:58:21 EST See that smile on my face? This is my dance partner and I performing this weekend at a bellydance competition in the troupe/duet category: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is me on the far right with a big smile, because we WON! 1st place out of five groups! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This competition has been my major focus for three months, and the last three weeks I have done nothing but work and be... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 22:59:17 EST MIA I've been MIA....beading, beading and more beading. Costume is finally done, aside of a bit of finishing work. I'll try to post pics of the complete costume soon, but below are some in progress pics from last week. I spent literally 18 hours last weekend, and up to 3 hours a day on weekdays the last two weeks. <BR> <BR> Cardio, steps, exercise, all have suffered. I tell people - you can do everything you want, just not at the same time. In this case, the exercise had to take a back seat to... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 10:32:46 EST Monday Check In This weekend was devoted mainly to one thing - beading the costume I'm wearing at a dance competition the first weekend in March. <BR> <BR> Yes, in two weeks. It's not done. Every bead and sequin is sewn on by hand and it's a huge task and one I'm behind in. My goal was to have it complete by 14 days out from the event. <BR> <BR> No go. I did get a long way on it this weekend, but that meant several hours of sitting on my butt to do it, so my fitbit stats are very, very sad. <BR> <BR> I'... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 08:24:50 EST "Busy" does not equal "Active" That's been my big lesson with the Fitbit. Yes, I am crazy busy..and I fall into bed exhausted every night. For years, I have equated that with being active. <BR> <BR> Nope. The Fitbit has shown me that despite all that "busy-ness" - I am typically fairly active about 2 hours a day. I am slightly active about an hour a day. And very active? once or twice a day - typically zumba and walks. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was another 10K+ day, and again, it was noteworthy to me that to get over 10K requ... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 08:11:26 EST