NOREGRET2010's SparkPeople Blog NOREGRET2010's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Redefining Success My first walk post injury seemed....wimpy. I met a friend who is also trying to recover from an injury and had to walk much slower than I typically would, and about half the distance I typically would like to complete. <BR> <BR> Part of me felt like I should go to do more, that it wasn't enough. The reality? It was probably perfect for me - enough that I noticed a little muscle use, but I didn't over train and re-injure myself which is frankly more how I roll, sigh. <BR> <BR> So, today I w... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 08:37:55 EST Back from ...injury About three weeks ago, I injured myself. Bad bout of plantar fasciitis/inflamed Achilles tendon . Boy did it hurt! <BR> <BR> Much better after a lot of rest. Which is not really what I wanted - rest. I wanted ACTIVITY. <BR> <BR> Today after work I'm going to take a stab at starting to walk for fitness again. <BR> <BR> Still off grains - eczema is slowly healing. Being grain free certainly has not been easy or hiccup free....I've fallen into a bag of gluten-free corn chips a couple of ti... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 08:40:39 EST How much suffering is enough? You often hear the saying "no food tastes as good as thin feels". I have a different one this morning: <BR> <BR> No food tastes as good as NOT wanting to rip the skin off your body. <BR> <BR> My eczema is OFF. THE. HOOK. BAD. A 6x 4 burning patch of hell on my arm. It's in my ears, the corner of one eye, starting around my neck. Last night the burning pain and intense itch....well, I thought I might lose my mind. Woke myself up clawing at my arm <BR> <BR> What does this mean for me? Cutti... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 08:48:14 EST Tuesday Check In Made it through another Monday of trials and tribulations with computer issues at work. Wheeeeee! <BR> <BR> Tracked:100% - did end up going over around 150 calories but at least I know that because I tracked it! <BR> 10 min Exercised: 100% <BR> CPAP: 100% <BR> 10 min Organization: uh..oh yeah. that needs to be picked back up. <BR> <BR> Adding a new category - going to call it "self care" for lack of a better name. I'm really good at putting off What I need to do to be healthy and s... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 08:25:52 EST Back on Track The last two weeks were....ugly. Work got crazy - we were finalizing a software upgrade that required a lot of extra hours....and when it went live the 14th...pretty much broke everything. Horrible, horrible week followed with crazy hours, super busy with extra work load AND dealing with more business...and when someone I supervise got hauled into HR for a little "come to Jesus" discussion...tried to throw me under the bus and back over me a few times.. <BR> <BR> Grateful to say, HR knows m... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 08:25:16 EST The good, the bad, and the ugly The good: <BR> CPAP 100% <BR> Exercise 10 min 100% <BR> I lost 1 pound last week and am right on target for my weight loss goal <BR> <BR> The bad: <BR> A sort of ex-sister-in-law (long story) was hit by a car, has horrific injuries, and is barely clinging to life. She was not nice to me and I disliked her, but I wouldn't wish that on anyone. <BR> A friend is in the hospital, quite ill. <BR> I'm on the team at work to upgrade the computer system and my stress load at work is about doubled. <B... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 07:41:45 EST Friday Check In I found myself beating myself up with negative thoughts today. Thoughts like: <BR> <BR> "No wonder you're fat - you have no self discipline!" <BR> <BR> "You can't control yourself. You don't deserve to have a loss this week". <BR> <BR> Not good. Unhealthy thinking. So I'm going to list what I've done well this week: <BR> <BR> 1) When I was sick, I stayed home instead of dragging myself to work and making it worse. <BR> 2) I tracked every bite (got to catch up on last night's dinner tra... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 15:52:52 EST Thursday Check In Out sick yesterday, slept the majority of the day. Better today, still feeling congested but at least no pounding headache! <BR> <BR> I've noticed I run an average of 2200 calories a day. SP would like me to eat 1920 or less. At 1920....I'm hungry. There are some work arounds here - adding more bulk with things that are low cal (like lettuce etc). There is learning to eat less and be happier with less. <BR> <BR> As I'm trying to increase my movement every day, staying under 1920 is proving... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 11:34:46 EST Tuesday Check In Well, I overate yesterday. By about 475 calories. Fresh french bread at dinner and a half a cup of ice cream pretty much did me in. <BR> <BR> The bread....I warred with myself at the grocery store. It was fresh and smelled sooooo gooooood. We were having my daughter over for dinner. I told myself, now you can only have one piece.... <BR> <BR> There was a definite lack of self discipline once it came home with me though. Once I had that, a better choice would not to have eaten any ice crea... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 08:02:37 EST Monday Check In Yesterday's weigh in showed a 3 pound loss! I'm happy, but you know i've lost that same three pounds several times in the last year. <BR> <BR> I do feel that it was from watching what I ate and moving more, as opposed to the dumb luck it was likely before. <BR> <BR> Puts me spot on goal too! That was a pleasant surprise. <BR> <BR> CPAP: 100% <BR> 10 min exercise: 100% <BR> 10 min organizing: little shaky, need to firm up this to a HABIT this week. <BR> Mood: 8 <BR> <BR> I also have l... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 08:07:22 EST I'm proud of me! I tracked every bite and every sip all week long. This is the first time I've consistently tracked in.....years. Yes, years. I tracked when I was in line with my calorie goals, and more importantly, I tracked when I ate over my calorie allowance. In the past, if I went over, I stopped tracking. I didn't want to see it. it made me feel guilty and unhappy. <BR> <BR> This week, my goal was to make my Fitbit happy. If the fitbit said I was "in the zone" I was golden. If it was in the red "over"... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 08:36:55 EST Friday Woo Hoo! Tracking - 100% <BR> CPAP - yep <BR> 10 min exercise - 100% <BR> Calories - I have two words for you: Red Robin. <BR> <BR> I tracked it tho, painful as it was. It ended up putting me about 800 calories over. But, you know, it was a one-off thing. I ate it, I enjoyed every bite, I tracked it. Today, I'm back to everyday food. See, that's the deal. Learning not to eat like that EVERY day. So, i'm not going to feel bad about it, I'm going to remember I enjoyed it and today eat the way I've b... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 09:03:46 EST Thursday Check In Everything continues. CPAPing, tracking, moving when I'm in the red zone. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was hard because I didn't eat enough at lunch. So when I got off work at 4 pm? I was STARVING. I ran to Costco for chicken and salad mix, and it was all I could do in the car, smelling the chicken, to not pull over and dig in right there. i got too hungry, and then I overate by about 200 calories by the end of the day. <BR> <BR> Is 200 calories the end of the world? Nope. At least I KNOW what I a... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 08:48:35 EST Wednesday Check In 2 days tracking every bite, every sip: 100% <BR> 10 min exercise: 100% <BR> Increase steps to 6K : Blown out of the water both days around 8K <BR> CPAP: 100% <BR> Mood: 8 on scale of 1-10. <BR> <BR> So, yesterday, I got hungry. And I got a little anxious. See, this tracking every sip thing? Yeah. In the past, I didn't track my coffee. I knew it was bad, since I like it full of french vanilla creamer, and lots of it. I like my coffee strong...sooooo I have to have a lot of creamer to make ... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 08:32:18 EST Tuesday Check In So, yesterday was a pretty big deal for me. Why? Because I tracked every bit of food/beverage that went into my mouth. This is not something I'm great at, and to do it for the entire day was a big deal for me. <BR> <BR> If my Fitbit said I was in the red (too many calories in for output of calories), I got up and walked until it went back into the green zone. I did end the day 250 calories over, but it was Chinese food for dinner and yowza if you've ever tracked Chinese food you know how hi... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 08:19:17 EST Getting serious here! Woke up feeling great this a.m. <BR> <BR> That is fabulous, let me tell you, after several months of NOT feeling fabulous, well rested, happy, motivated....feels good to feel good! <BR> <BR> Facing this encroaching gain-instead-of-loss thing, I began tracking every bite and every sip this a.m. I watch my Fitbit app carefully, and make sure I am "in the zone" appropriate to my calorie intake. In the red (too many calories for what I've expended)? I get up and walk until it goes to the green... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 13:31:33 EST Thursday Check In CPAP: 100% <BR> Mood: Much improved <BR> Fatigue: Still causing problems, but slowly getting better with CPAP use, I think? <BR> Organization goal: Missed yesterday, but otherwise good <BR> 10 Min exercise: Missed yesterday <BR> <BR> The good sleep, mood improvement and less fatigue are pretty much vital to the other things getting done, so yay they seem to be getting better. <BR> <BR> Today is my first "free" day with no after-work meeting, responsibility, appointment, etc and I'm ju... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 07:41:57 EST Tuesday Check In Well, here we are....Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Yesterday step goal was 7K, didn't make it. This is a bit deceiving. I danced about 1.5-2 hours yesterday and I sweated my butt off.. The nature of belly dance is to dance with bent knees, the feet glide. So steps don't register the same. I'm happy with my exercise even if the fitbit didn't pick up every step. So there. <BR> <BR> Food - Good overall - One cookie at lunch, LOL, not two. <BR> <BR> 10 min exercise goal - 100% this week. <BR> 10 min or... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 08:38:37 EST And here it is Monday again... So, yesterday's weigh in had me up 1 pound. This is okay, because the week before I'd lost 3. So I am exactly on track for my 1 pound a week goal. <BR> <BR> Thinking about that one pound, I know the culprit. Safeway oatmeal craisin cookies. They come in packs of two and are delicious. Really delicious. Typically, if I go there and get my soup/bagel for lunch, I will pick up a two-pack of these cookies, and one is for that day and the other is saved for another day. <BR> <BR> last week, th... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 10:23:02 EST Saturday Check In 6K step a day goal: Floundering. I think I need to revise it. Rather than "rise to 6K steps a day in two weeks" Perhaps "Increase step count by 10% each week". Thinking on it <BR> <BR> 10 Min organization goal: Hit and miss, but more hit than miss. <BR> <BR> CPAP: 100% - though I have played a bit with taking Benadryl rather than my prescribed sleep aid (I'm out and have been too lazy to fill) and that's not going well. Only getting 4-5 hours and that's not enough. Filling RX today. <BR> ... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 08:05:29 EST Wednesday Check In 6K step a day goal: Up and down, hit and miss. <BR> <BR> CPAP goal: 100% <BR> <BR> 10 min organizing goal: Little hit and miss <BR> <BR> 10 min exercise goal: 75% <BR> <BR> Depression - better, slow climb out of the tar pits of blackness. <BR> <BR> Stress: This continues to be an issue. Work stress is high. Supervising folks is just no fun. Really. It's not. The whispering/gossip crap just puts me over the edge. Petty, childish behavior - really, how old ARE you again? Because you... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 08:37:16 EST Monday, Monday I've been doing the 1 pound a week loss challenge over at 50 somethings with 50-99 team (or something like that anyway!) and so far, so good - 3 pounds last week. <BR> <BR> This is, however, recycled weight. I keep losing and gaining the same 10 pounds since fall. I'm hoping with the challenge I can get past that 10 pound mark and keep on going down! <BR> <BR> My medium length goal for weight: Lose 1 pound a week until my birthday in March. That would be roughly a 29 pound loss - way more... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 07:55:27 EST The light at the end of the tunnel i don't think I realized how depressed I really was until a friend was over yesterday and for no real reason at all I wanted to bawl my eyes out. I'm not a fact, I think it might be helpful for me if I COULD release some of my stress etc in tears. So to just well up with tears out of nowhere? I realized.... <BR> <BR> It's probably hormones. <BR> <BR> I'm 50...I have a predisposition to depression anyway....and the last 6 months were nothing but one problem after another, heck on... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 08:55:37 EST Last day of 2014 Goodbye 2014, and good riddance! Welcome 2015, please be kind! <BR> <BR> Goals: So far so good! <BR> <BR> CPAP: 13 out of 14 days. Yesterday, I noticed changes. I've come home from work the last couple of days and made dinner. Typically I would come home and take a nap. Then around 6 I'd say to Jodie what do you want for dinner? and she'd say she didn't know, etc til we didn't eat until 7 and then we'd leave the kitchen in a mess when we went to bed (don't judge us, LOL. Both of us strugg... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 07:07:47 EST Goal tracking Still continuing the goal setting process. This is harder than making resolutions, at least for me! <BR> <BR> So far: <BR> Working up to 6K steps/day in the next two weeks - check for Monday. Actually hit 7K yesterday by adding a walk around the downstairs of my building during my breaks (snowing hard and I don't like to walk in it - so I just did laps on the lower floor). This also meant I got in my goal of exercise 10 min a day - twice! <BR> Wear CPAP - Only missed one day in almost 2 week... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 07:51:14 EST Ho ho ho into oh oh oh... Christmas - mixed emotions. Family "stuff" came up, some sharp words, hurt feelings...sigh. It wasn't horrible, it was just....human. Been a long stretch of two months of stress culminating in the holidays - oh the joy. <BR> <BR> as heck this a.m. but trying to pull myself out. <BR> <BR> Continuing into the goal setting for 2015 three concrete goals: <BR> 1) Really work on a 10 min daily exercise streak - I want this! I want a loooong streak of this! <BR> 2) Adding to the ... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 11:39:06 EST Ready to kick 2014 to the Curb! In preparing goals for 2015, I've spent this morning reviewing 2014. <BR> <BR> Frankly, what a crappy year! A few "highlights" of what went badly this year would include: <BR> 1) Forced to move by landlord selling house out from under us, into a location where the vacancy rate for rentals was literally 1% and so rents are astronomical, went from a 3 bdrm stand alone house to a 2 bedroom townhouse and pay $450 a month more in rent. The expenses of the move, the increase in rent - pretty much... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 11:53:57 EST The coming year.... A few years ago, I was talking with a coaching client (I coach bellydancers! I coach them to prepare for competitions, round out their training, etc) sometime close to the end of the year. I'd asked her, as I'd asked all my clients, to give me three goals dance-wise for the coming year. She showed up with a spreadsheet of goals for her entire life - goals which were phrased in meaningful ways to her life. She shared the year before's spreadsheet and how well she'd done (remarkably well when y... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 07:30:23 EST wow. really? Had one 15 minute discussion with my boss about some problems in the department I supervise. Mind you, I am not in his office often, and extremely rarely do I complain - EVER. There are other supervisors who are in his office several times a week complaining. <BR> <BR> I thought the discussion went well, I left feeling better, I had some ideas to cope with the issues..... <BR> <BR> Today he takes me aside and says he's noticed I'm really starting to depress him with "all of these problems"... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 18:19:00 EST Hello, it's me again... Five months since I posted? wow, time flies. We won't say when you're having fun tho. Been a stressful first half of the year. <BR> <BR> But then what's new? <BR> <BR> Well, one thing is new...I started going to a personal trainer/training studio last week. Yesterday was my first class - 45 min circuit training class. The first 20 min, no problem. I was working, I could feel my muscles waking up (you want us to do what after ignoring us all this time?). Then came the last 15 min of active t... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 09:45:12 EST Grrrrrrrrrrr 7 days of prednisone....and I'm so crabby today I can barely stand myself. Weight loss has, as expected on steroids, completely stopped and in fact I regained 2 pounds even tho being pretty much on plan. <BR> <BR> Today is allergy testing, and while I'm abjectly sure they will say I may now have water and toothpicks for the remainder of my life, I'm just going to be so glad to get off the prednisone I don't care. <BR> <BR> Still not eating grains, overall not missing it. What I'm really m... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:54:40 EST Week one - Done What an interesting week! <BR> <BR> No sugar/dairy/grain for a week was an adventure...but then the cheat day came and that was really an adventure! The nutritionist built in a cheat day - and I'm so glad she did. Said this is the day to eat whatever you want. You may notice you don't feel very well when you eat some of the things you've been cutting out. <BR> <BR> Ahem. Try a full blown allergy attack to the point I almost thought I was going to have to go the ER. All this after eating a... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 17:03:09 EST Day 3 I can honestly say, this is the longest I can remember sticking to a plan and not cheating. Seriously. While that's sad on one level, it's very motivating on many others. <BR> <BR> Interesting things (to me at least) are: <BR> With the removal of constant grazing, or popping candy into my mouth, or drinking sugar-laden coffee - I'm noticing what I think of as low blood sugar episodes. That sudden, I'm hungry and if I don't eat now my body might just fall over on me feeling. Not as bad as my ... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:25:18 EST Day 2 2+ days sugar free. I have been hit with a virus, so have slept a good portion of the day away - keeping cravings to a minimum. <BR> <BR> On track - even tho I feel like crap. go me! Kids brought home a pizza and I have to admit, I looked at the lone piece when I went in to fix myself something to eat. I thought about how I would have grabbed it and ate it without a thought 3 days ago. it smelled good, but not so good as staying on task. <BR> <BR> That's sort of a first for me folks! <BR... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 20:47:13 EST Day 1 I wonder how many Day 1's I've had? <BR> <BR> I suspect it doesn't bear too much thinking about. <BR> <BR> What I'm doing differently? I got a coach. A friend did a nutrition certification program at the local college and I thought, "hmm. I coach dancers who need accountability, someone to vent to or lean on, to help them reach their goals. Maybe I should take my own advice and find an accountability partner". My friend is kind, healthy, fit, and funny. So I did it. <BR> <BR> To start wi... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 10:19:08 EST Day in Day out I may be quiet lately, but I'm doing it. <BR> <BR> Wearing my CPAP. <BR> Taking my meds/supplements. <BR> Eating more veggies. <BR> <BR> Workouts have gone from nothing for too long to hardcore dance/drill workouts 3 x a week that encompass a 45 minute 'warm up' (including sit ups, push ups, plank, etc) followed by another 45 minutes of dance training. AND, now I'm teaching 2.5 hours of dance class a week on top of it! I notice I don't get a lot of steps in with it even tho I'm working my... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 13:10:09 EST Back in the Saddle Saturday I was able to do the 5K at Sunriver Marathon for a Cause. I was signed up for the 10K, but after the back spasm it just wasn't to be. I'm glad I made it through the 5K and - after over a week of being out with my back - pleased to say I was only 6 min off my time! <BR> <BR> Great race, beautiful walk, totally plan on signing up for the 10K next year! <BR> <BR> As of yesterday, back to Zumba and working on 10K steps a day. <BR> <BR> That's it, back in the saddle and moving forwar... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 12:12:37 EST Getting back to normal Been a week since my back muscle spasm. Back is much better, tho not completely healed. <BR> <BR> pretty sure I'm not going to be able to do the 10K Sunday, tho I haven't completely given up. I might be able to make one loop (5k or about 3 miles)...or I may have to step out completely. It's not worth reinjuring my back, that's for sure. <BR> <BR> Made it up to around 7000 steps yesterday, which made me feel better after a week of 2000 or so! It's just a long road to recovery. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 08:27:40 EST Learning self care Things were going along. My walking was lagging a bit due to some commitments, but this weekend I was going to be back on it. Notice the use of the past tense, was. <BR> <BR> Then last night I pulled my back. I had the audacity to try something as risky as.....getting out of the car. Sigh. I got out of the car, stood up and....felt it pull. <BR> <BR> It's not the worst spasm I've had, not by a long shot, but it's painful. Sitting is the worst. I can lay down or stand up, but sitting? ouc... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 09:08:49 EST Day in, and Day out Here we are, another week on the way. <BR> <BR> The scale is back down to 245. That sticky point. <BR> <BR> I work on 10K steps a day, and most days I've exceeded it, and some I haven't. It would be easy to fall into the self critical mode of thinking - that whatever I'm doing it's not enough, not good enough, and I need to try HARDER. <BR> <BR> For now, I seem to be able to put that kind of thinking aside. <BR> <BR> Maybe it's working on myself in Al-Anon. <BR> <BR> For example, on... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 10:05:37 EST What's more important here? Far too often, I am ruled by the numbers on the scale. Too many times, I've given the numbers the power to choose my mood, my feelings about myself. For months, I did not weigh at ALL...but there also was no success in that for me because without weighing it was easy to "forget" I weighed 250 pounds. <BR> <BR> So, for awhile now, I have been following the ritual of getting on the scale every morning, just to remember what I weigh and to start my day with the motivation to remove some of tha... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 10:29:43 EST Back to where I was... Before the Unfortunate Chinese at Lunch Incident/McDonald's Breakfast Snafu of last week: 245. <BR> <BR> The next drop is going to be the test. I have been able to get to 244, and stay there for oh, a day. That's been going on for well about a year. No joke. So getting under 244? I'm excited and anxious all at the same time. I'm going to keep on doin' what I'm doin', and see what happens in the next couple weeks. <BR> <BR> I managed at least 20 min of zumba every weekday last week and wa... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 10:26:51 EST Roller coaster.... Roller coaster on the scale and roller coaster emotions. <BR> <BR> Scale is up 3 pounds, but let's review last week: Chinese food for lunch put me wayyyyy over limit, ate at McDonald's for breakfast 2 x over the weekend before I looked it up....Ahem. Yes, That would be why the scale is up 3 pounds I'm pretty sure. A week of being either even with my calorie burn or above it. On that Chinese food day? WAY above what I burned. <BR> <BR> So, I'm just figuring it was a week of lessons on calor... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:31:41 EST I may not know much, but what I do know is this.... I so appreciate all the great comments on my eating at McDonald's post! <BR> <BR> Yes, it's true, there are less-terrible choices and if one is can eat ANYWHERE, can't we? <BR> <BR> Um, except perhaps for me. <BR> <BR> LOL. <BR> <BR> I know myself. I am not capable of going into McDonald's and having a low-cal option. I've tried them and found them lacking and at this point in my journey, walking in there would be like walking into my favorite chocolate shop for a piece of... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 18:24:46 EST No wonder I'm obese!!! My partner has a McDonald's addiction. Every morning that it's remotely possible, she has breakfast there. She doesn't like anything else on the menu, only breakfast. On the weekends, she enjoys me going with her. We sit and read the Sunday paper and eat breakfast. <BR> <BR> So this weekend, I went with her. <BR> <BR> In my efforts to better track my food on the weekends (which has been non-existent), I tried to log it this a.m., thinking better late than never, right? <BR> <BR> I almo... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 12:21:43 EST And pride goeth before the fall..... Well, I had a cosmic reminder that this journey is one day at a time. That stuff happens, bad choices are made and we have to just learn from it and move on. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I ended up at a chinese restaurant for lunch. This was completely unplanned and pretty unavoidable, circumstances combined and there I was. Now, there still could have been decent choices made there. <BR> <BR> Of course, I didn't make a reasonable choice. I was having high anxiety and I went for comfort. <BR> <... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 08:36:40 EST Doing it differently My family has often enjoyed going to Shari's restaurant on Wednesday nights, because that's "free pie night". Buy a meal, and get a free slice of their amazing pie. We've cut it way, way back and go maybe once a month. <BR> <BR> My daughter recently got a job and last night she said, I want to pay for us to go to Shari's! I hesitated and said, "um, I really can't go there. I have been working really hard on controlling my food and I just don't know I can be in the "pie house" and not eat pi... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 10:14:32 EST Down 8 pounds! I'm down 8 pounds in the last 3-4 weeks. Yes, tracking food seems to be the key <BR> <BR> Who knew? *snark* <BR> <BR> I am still not doing well tracking on the weekend, and that just may be the way it is. For today I'm happy. <BR> <BR> I note that I am still 3 pounds heavier than my "goal line" - but that's all good. 8 pounds is 8 pounds, plain and simple. Tue, 23 Jul 2013 11:15:57 EST 65 days Yesterday was a success. It wasn't the easiest day ever - I wanted to eat. I felt obsessed with "when can I eat again?" but I tracked every single bite or sip and at the end of the day, I had a 594 calorie defecit per my Fitbit. Really, really striving for portion control so I'm measuring and weighing food as well as making sure I have plenty of options at work, where I spend the majority of my day. It's easier to avoid the crap that gets brought in if I have choices. <BR> <BR> Took a 20 mi... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 10:30:18 EST 66 days In 66 days, my oldest daughter is getting married. I'm using this event as a short term goal to get my sh*t together diet/exercise wise and really REALLY focus on my health. <BR> <BR> Life continues to be stressful while we wait for Jodie's first paycheck due August 5th. Stuff has come up, things happen...and stress is not my friend. <BR> <BR> Here's to really putting myself first the next 66 days and caring for my health. It will be worth it. Wed, 17 Jul 2013 10:31:35 EST