NOLABUG79's SparkPeople Blog NOLABUG79's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Checking in I have been MIA for a little while. <BR> <BR> I have been in and out of the hospital and seen more doctors in the past 4 months than in my 36 years of life. I keep getting blood clots in my lungs and every time that happens they admit me into the hospital. <BR> <BR> So this is what we know/not know so far. They are pretty sure that I have a blood clotting disorder but they cant get a definitive test result because I am on blood thinners and they cant take me off the blood thinners becau... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 08:39:30 EST Curve balls Life has decided to me a curve ball. <BR> <BR> I had not been feeling well. I was having a hard time breathing and really tired. We had just torn out 20 year old carpeting from our basement so I just assumed that I was having a bad allergic reaction. My husband finally got me to go to the doctor. They did a chest x-ray, the doctor looked at the x-ray then looked at me and asked how I was still breathing. The x-ray was was nothing but clouds in my lungs. She told me that I had pneumon... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 08:55:48 EST Feeling better all ready I am already starting to feel better about myself. I am trying to be realistic about my wants and goals this time around. I have broad goals that I want to reach but I am creating smaller, realistic goals to meet on my way to that broad goal. <BR> <BR> This is a work in progress but I am one step closer. Mon, 22 Dec 2014 08:57:11 EST I gave up on myself I have not been around much lately. I would check in here and there but that was about it. I don’t have a reason other than I gave up on myself. I made excuses and it snowballed from there until I was buried and didn’t have the drive or energy to dig myself out. <BR> <BR> Feeling so far gone that you don’t think there is any way to return is a horrible feeling. That is what I have been feeling lately. I was so far off my goals that I just gave up. I don’t want to feel like this anymo... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 00:06:40 EST Last night my life took a turn Last night my life took a turn I did not think it would take. <BR> <BR> Before my husband and I got married we talked about kids. We were not ready at the time or after we got married. My husband had been out of work for about 3 years after we got married and I did not want to have kids until he had a job and we were in a better financial place. <BR> <BR> He found a job but we were still playing catch up with finances, so we put kids on hold again. We have been married for 9 years now ... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 16:58:36 EST Lost track of weeks So I have been MIA for the last few weeks. <BR> <BR> We had a family tragedy that made national news a few weeks ago. <BR> <BR> We also had the water heater in our house rust out. When we bought the house we knew that the water heater was on its last leg and asked the seller to replace it. They refused but purchased a home warranty for us so if it did break we could get a tankless water heater for $75. We jumped at the opportunity, tankless for $75! Well, home warranties are the devil... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 15:17:41 EST Week 2 I have been taking Huck for a 2 mile walk every morning for 6 days straight. The exercise feels good and it is giving Huck a release for some of his energy. While I do feel good, my legs are killing me. I am not used to walking that far every day. I was taking Huck on shorter walks before but they were not long enough to get rid of his energy. I am just going to have to deal with icing my knee at work and soaking in epsom salts at night. <BR> <BR> We have a packed weekend planned. We h... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 15:45:31 EST Week 1 Huck and I had an interesting walk this morning. It is still dark when we start our walk in the morning so I couldnt see the storm clouds I heard the distant rumbles of thunder. I decided that we would take a shorter walk this morning so we didnt get caught in a thunder storm. About half way through our walk the thunder started to get louder and then the lightening started. Huck is normally fine with storms but I think since we were outside he started to get a little antsy. All of a sudd... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:06:49 EST New goals I was kicking some major weight butt for awhile but then it all fell apart. I have only gained back 10-13 pounds but I have still gained. I looked back at what I was doing and how I did it. I think what I did, which I have done in the past with the same results is, I changed everything all at the same time. Making all of those major life changes all at the same time is ok for a couple of months but then you become overwhelmed and it all falls apart. <BR> <BR> So what I am doing now is se... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 09:30:34 EST I need a slap in the face Recently my breathing issues have been getting bad again. Making it hard for to walk up my stairs at home, working out even harder. Instead of dealing with it, slowing down and letting my symptoms settle down. What do I do? <BR> <BR> I stop completely and feel sorry for myself. You would think by now I would know that feeling sorry for myself is not going to change anything. Well, it will change something...I now feel even worse about myself. <BR> <BR> I stopped watching what I eat, s... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 10:13:14 EST Morning walk turned it morning nightmare Here is the story of why my morning walk turned into a nightmare. <BR> <BR> I normally take Huck and Luna on a long walk then drop them off and take Gatsby on a short walk because he cant handle the long distance. Anytime I leave with Gatsby, Huck starts to freak out and jumps on my husband and wakes him up and just generally wreaks havoc. Today I decided to try taking Huck on the short walk with Gatsby. <BR> <BR> BAD IDEA!!! <BR> <BR> Huck was so excited to be walking with Gatsby that h... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:19:27 EST Technical difficulties So for those of you who read my post from yesterday. Here is an update. <BR> <BR> My cousin emailed me later in the day saying "I have not heard back from you about possible dates to reschedule Book Club". WAIT WHAT!!! 3 days ago there was an email chain about rescheduling because things were coming up for people and they would not be able to make it. Well this is news to me. I didnt get any of these emails. So I looked in my email trash, and what do you know. The emails were delivere... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:50:43 EST Why it's hard to like myself I am going to worn you ahead of time. This is going to be a depressing post. But I need to talk about it or my head might explode or my tear ducts. Am I being over dramatic, maybe but this is how I feel right now. <BR> <BR> My issue with self esteem started in 5th grade. I was home schooled up to that point and really only spent time with my mom, brother and 1 of the neighborhood kids. So I was not equip with the social skills needed to make friends and be part of a group. This has las... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 15:05:44 EST Life is getting in the way For the past 3 weeks life has been getting in the way. You know all of those little things that pop up that are so important you don't have time for yourself. I have had a lot of those recently. <BR> <BR> About 2 months ago I chose to get SERIOUS about a life style change for the better. I told myself that I would make the time to work on myself. For the first month that worked out great. I tracked everything I ate and was very active on Sparkpeople. Then things started to pile up in... Mon, 19 May 2014 15:53:27 EST Returning to normal We brought Huck home a week ago and our lives have been pretty crazy. <BR> <BR> Luna was very upset at first and was growling, barking and fighting with Huck. In the back of my mind I knew that it would take a little time for her to warm up to him, but I was getting stressed out that it would never happen. 4 days later and they are running around the backyard together and playing with the tennis ball. She still will not come and cuddle if Huck is there but she is getting much better. ... Tue, 6 May 2014 13:06:34 EST Drum roll please... I would like to welcome Huckleberry Schmaranzer (Huck for short) to the family! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The second I saw him last night I knew that he was going to join the family. He is 5 months old, weighs 40 pounds and is about the size of a pony. Ok maybe not a pony, but he is really big. He has spent his whole life so far on farm so he smelled like a horse (maybe thats why I compared him to a pony! hehehe). He h... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 10:01:10 EST Possible new fur baby I posted the other day that we were thinking about getting another dog. We have been looking for a while now and we might have a winner. <BR> <BR> He is a 5 month old Labradoodle. He is Dark Chocolate/Black with curly hair. I think he has the cutest face. We have not meet him yet but we are told that he is very sweet and loves to play. If we do end up adopting him we are sticking with the literary names for our dogs and naming him Huck. He will join Gatsby and Luna. <BR> <BR> Here are... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 10:43:30 EST Day 2 Day 2 has been a little easier than yesterday. I have been really busy at work so I have not been thinking about food or being hungry. I just need to keep myself busy. Tue, 1 Apr 2014 18:22:42 EST Day 1 Today is the first day of my new start. <BR> <BR> At the beginning of the year we moved our office. I wasnt feeling 100%. I felt like I had some really bad allergies that were affecting my breathing. We bought a house and my breathing started to get worse. It got to the point that I could not pick up my dog without becoming out of breath. <BR> <BR> I went to the doctor and they started giving my different things to try. I have slowly been getting better. I have been to the doctor ab... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 17:25:30 EST Finding my motivation On December 30th we are moving our office closer to my house. Originally I was going to get a scooter because I would be so close to work. I was using that as my motivation. I am no longer getting a scooter. We are buying a HOUSE in the spring!!! I am extremely excited about this. I have wanted a place that I could make my own, someplace where I didnt have to ask someone else if it was ok to paint a wall. <BR> <BR> The only problem is I had to quit the gym and have not gone to kickboxi... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 12:22:12 EST Putting aside my fears I have been a member on SparkPeople for some time, but have never really used the site to its fullest potential. Sure I have joined some groups and dabble a little here and there, but I would probably have to be categorized as a "lurker". I am not the type of person that opens up or shares easily (even to my own husband). <BR> <BR> I read the blogs and spark pages that say it was all of the support and friends on SparkPeople that has helped them on their journey. I think, that is great f... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 11:51:04 EST Bye Bye Scale So this morning I noticed that our scale is broken. It took me 3 weeks to notice (opps). I dont know if this is a good or a bad thing. Without the scale I am not going to be weighing myself everyday and always worrying about my weight. On the other hand I wont be able to track my weight/progress. Maybe I should switch to tracking my measurement instead of my weight. Something to think on. <BR> <BR> A week has passed since I got the wonderful news that we are moving the office closer to... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 12:28:27 EST GREAT DAY!!!!!! For the past 3 years my commute to work has been an hour one way. It has really taken a toll on me physically and mentally. The lease on our office will expire at the end of the year. My manager asked me to find a new office. I told them that they only way to find cheaper rent would be to move south. Yes I do live south of the office but I was not lying when said that I could find cheaper rent out there. I showed my manager the 3 options I had found. He told me this morning that we ar... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 14:21:10 EST Pampering myself Over the weekend I got my hair cut, colored and deep conditioned. What a difference a little change can make. I feel good and motivated and ready to take on the world. Who know going from Bozo hair to soft chocolate curls could make such a difference in my attitude. <BR> <BR> I also went back to kickboxing this weekend. It wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be to get back into the swing of things. I only had to rest twice which is great for an hour long class. I did kinda tweak ... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 10:06:27 EST Starting again My fur baby had his surgery. They had to amputate his tail because there was not enough skin to close it up. They were afraid if they tried they would cut off the blood supply to his tail. <BR> <BR> His tail has healed but he still wont/cant put weight on his back leg. It is killing me to see him like this. It takes him 3 tries to jump onto the couch and we built him stairs to get up onto the bed. <BR> <BR> I then got really sick. The cold stuck around for over 2 weeks. I know that ... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 15:01:33 EST Where is the wagon? My fur baby Gatsby has not been feeling well the past week. He has been limping and has a big bump on his tail that he has been licking which caused the skin to break. When we got him groomed on Friday we could see his tail better and we immediately took him to the vet. <BR> <BR> The bump on his tail is infected and he has to have surgery to have it removed. They are not sure what the bump is yet. We thought that his limping had something to do with his tail. Alas, we were wrong. He ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 12:23:02 EST Feeling Great I went to my first yoga class last night. I feel fantastic and energized and just seem to have a better outlook on things today. Hopefully they will be able to work with me on the prices because I am can only go on Wednesday nights. If they can then I am totally going to start going to yoga. I dont think that I can add anything else to my "active" lifestyle. <BR> <BR> I go to the gym every morning during the week and kickboxing on Saturday mornings. I am also hopefully adding yoga to W... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 09:57:32 EST Something I have noticed Before I started my journey to a healthier lifestyle I was having a problem with my anger. The smallest thing would set me off. I started going to the gym and kickboxing and started eating better/healther foods. <BR> <BR> Recently because of some health issues I have not been able to go to the gym and I kinda gave up on eating health foods. I have noticed that I have been getting very angry again at the littlest things. <BR> <BR> I have put two and two together, the light has dawned, I... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 10:02:15 EST What else can happen What else can happen to me? <BR> <BR> Two weeks ago I found out I had ulnar tendonitis. Which is doing a bit better, still get some shooting pains up my arm. <BR> <BR> So yesterday, a filling popped out and got lodged sideways in one of my molars. Went to the dentist and happy day my tooth is broken all the way to the bone. So on Thursday I have to have a dental implant installed. I have been told to prepare for some major pain. <BR> <BR> I guess this means more missed gym time. I a... Tue, 21 May 2013 17:39:36 EST Tough time at work I have been having a tough time at work recently. We hired a new person for a management position that has no experience in our field. <BR> <BR> I am the only woman in the office and he has been very rude and sexist. My title may only be Admin. Asst. but I run the office. If I wasnt here this place would probably explode. I can normally combat guys who try to cop an attitude but this guy is oblivious. <BR> <BR> I have been trying to not let this guy get to me, but he just grates on my n... Fri, 3 May 2013 10:01:46 EST Feeling good I have been using the BodyMedia Fit armband all day, recording everything I eat and working out. I am feeling really good. I am going to go back to kickboxing this weekend. I quit before because of my knee (replaced ACL) and I didn't want someone stuck being the partner of someone that couldn't do all of the moves. <BR> <BR> The teachers are friends of my and they talked me into going back. One of them said that they will partner with and adjust the routines so they are easy on my knee. ... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 10:36:11 EST Day 1 Today is the first day of me wearing my BodyMedia Fit Armband and recording my food together. I have only been using the armband for a couple of days, but so far I am liking it. It is interesting to see how many calories you burn not only while working out but also when I am sitting at my desk at work or walking to my car or doing laundry. <BR> <BR> I really think this is the thing that is going to help me get moving and stick with it. <BR> <BR> I also really like that you can sync th... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 18:00:08 EST Wake up call My husband had a doctors appointment yesterday. The doctor is worried about his weight and wants to do a physical and tests. <BR> <BR> I think this is the wake up call that he needed to get moving. He has asked me if I will go with him to the gym after he gets home from work. This a huge step for him. Normally I like to workout in the mornings but he likes to workout after work. The only problem with this is he doesnt get home until 8:30pm. I think I will just have to suck it up and go... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 10:17:14 EST Motivational picture of the day This is my motivational picture of the day. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Words to live by. Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:35:13 EST I am back I am back. I had some things going on. I didnt handle things that well and ended up eating horrible things and stopped working out. I failed when I hit my first hurdle, but hopefully this experience will help me when the next hurdle appears. <BR> <BR> I have vowed to workout at least 30 minutes per day 6 days a week and drink 8 cups of water each day. This is what I am working on right now. Looking back I think I tried to change too many things in my life at once. I am going to try to ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 12:13:46 EST Back on track It is time to get back on track. We were hit hard this cold season. I have had a lung infection for a little over two weeks now and my husband has had the stomach flu for about a week. I could not go to gym with this lung infection and then having to take care of the husband has been tough. <BR> <BR> I am ready to get back on track now. I am feeling much better now and will start going to the gym every day again. I am also going to start to get more diligent about what I eat. I want ... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 22:42:04 EST Tracking food When I started my journey I told myself that I would not track my food. I was of the opinion that if I did that it would feel like a diet and I didnt want that. I thought it would make me want to cheat more. Now I am wondering if I should start. <BR> <BR> It has been 2 months and I have lost 16 pounds so I am doing good so far, but I am wondering if I could be doing better. <BR> <BR> I just dont want to get myself in the mindset of DIET. This is a change in eating habits for me, not a d... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 09:43:48 EST Personal trainer So I have recently joined a gym and have been good about going almost everyday. <BR> <BR> They have a personal trainer at the gym and are offering a discounted rate for the first 30 days of your membership. I am not sure if I should try it or not. <BR> <BR> Should I spend the money to have someone tell me what exercises I should do? Or should I do some research on my own? <BR> <BR> I am set for the cardio portion of my schedule. On Monday, Wednesday and Fridays I will either use th... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 11:16:18 EST Found a gym It didn't take as long as I thought to find a gym. We have 4 people joining the gym so I thought it would take a lot longer for all of us to agree. Tonight we are going to sign up and do our orientation. I am really excited about this. This is going to give us more options to explore besides just walking. <BR> <BR> I am really looking forward to this. I really feel like I am in a good place right now. <BR> <BR> <em>316</em> Tue, 16 Oct 2012 10:16:36 EST Colder weather It is starting to get pretty cold in the mornings and a little uncomfortable to walk. So my friend and I are shopping for a gym to join. Some of the places are just horrible, mean people, crowded and just not the kind of place I would want to be. Plus they are pretty pricey also. <BR> <BR> It is also a little hard to pick a place when there are two people who have to agree on one place. Hopefully we will have a place picked out by tomorrow. <BR> Sun, 14 Oct 2012 23:02:46 EST Fell off the hayride To celebrate the fall season, instead of falling off the wagon, I have fallen off the hayride. I didn't go all out pig out, but I have been eating more than I should and some things that I shouldnt be eating at all. For the first 3 weeks of this journey I was so focused, this week I don't know what is going on. I can't seem to get myself out of this little funk i am in. Heres to hoping I can turn things around today. <BR> <BR> <em>419</em> Thu, 4 Oct 2012 09:34:17 EST Feeling good I am over the shoe debacle. The shoes that I got are fantastic. I have lost 9 pounds so far. I am feeling really good about that. A friend and I walk on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. This week I am going to start to use the kinect on Tuesday and Thursdays also. I have the your shape game for the kinect. I figured that will be a good way to introduce 5 days a week excercising. <BR> <BR> <em>333</em> <em>419</em> <em>420</em> Mon, 24 Sep 2012 10:41:25 EST Feeling depressed I had my weigh in this morning. I lost 5 pounds. I felt great for most of the day. I went shoe shopping tonight for a new pair of gym shoes. I could not fit into a woman's size 11. I had to buy guys shoes, they were the only ones that would fit. I am now depressed. I couldnt fit into the biggest pair of woman's shoes they had. My triumph with the weight loss now feels like nothing. I need to get out of this funk now! Fri, 14 Sep 2012 22:31:55 EST Measurements My friend and I took our measurements today for our kickstart tomorrow morning. That was extremely depressing. But it did get me sufficiently embarrassed. We are going to take measurement twice a month a weigh ourselves once a month. Previously when I tried to lose weigh I would rely solely on the scale, which was always bad for me. If I didn't see the weight coming off I would just chuck the whole thing. I am hoping that with the measurements if I do have a time that the scale is not n... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 22:02:17 EST Finally ready I believe that I am finally ready to begin my journey. I have found a friend that is in the same boat as me. We are going to help each other through this. I am going to rely on her and on this website. I have to start being honest with myself and her about what I am eating and she is going to do the same with me. I also have to start working out on regular basis. I have the stationary bike and the kinect. I need to use them. I need to start to teach myself how to eat correctly. I nee... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 00:22:33 EST