NOEL_76's SparkPeople Blog

balancing my life again

Sat, 9 Mar 2013 00:05:02 EST

I steer off my balanced life course sometimes and then it takes me about a week to get back on track again. My house has been a mess, I was behind at work, my kitchen was oozing with dishes to wash, and I had 19 voicemail messages waiting for me :) I don't like getting off track like this but I guess because I already have the tools in place in my life, it is easier for me to get my life back on track.

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wow 80 pounds after long spiritual fast! (about 6 weeks of not eating)

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 23:21:13 EST

Wow... when I got on the scale a couple of weeks ago, I couldn't believe the number.... 237!! Amazing! I was on a long spiritual fast where I ate hardly anything for about 6 weeks. Only the fear of God and other things kept me not eating as I LOVE TO EAT!!!

I'm eating again and hopefully the weight won't come back on. I love being thinner. It's strange that get treated differently. People talk less stupid to...

down to 289 from top weight of 345!!

Mon, 8 Oct 2012 01:45:01 EST

Wow! Never thought this would happen that I lost 56 pounds in so short a time. Again, like the last post, I've not been eating because of a spiritual fast. I can tell you now that it's over though.... I didn't eat for 7 days straight!!! I almost went bazerk last night though but waited until after church today to eat something finally. LOVE food. LOVE to eat. GLAD that I lost weight though! I also did a partial (ve...

i lost 25 pounds!!

Mon, 17 Sep 2012 01:02:43 EST

Woohoo! I lost 25 pounds! I'm now down to 305 pounds :) I can't wait to be below 300 again :) My pants fit a lot better to the point of some of them drooping off of my hips. My double chin went away a lot too. I'm so happy! I wish I could say I lost weight because I was trying to lose weight but really the reason is that I have been eating a lot less because I have been fasting for spiritual warfare reasons. I'm a ...

i love nature + taekwondo

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 23:25:57 EST

No people.
No yelling.
No noise except birds and water and breeze.
I LOVE NATURE.

I took a 50 minute walk next to the river near my house. I wish it was as peaceful as I hoped for but other people were taking advantage of the nice weather and the time of day. I have not been going to the gym because it stressed me out a lot lately so I've been trying to get out to do independent exercise a...

my arms are super flabby

Thu, 17 May 2012 02:40:25 EST

I love ice cream!

Wow... It's been over a month since I posted in here and I feel like I have changed for the better in some ways but in other ways slid downhill. I havent been doing that well on my exercise routine which is a bummer. I've been drinking more mochas and eating ice cream and generally not watching what I eat. I HAVE been having more salads though and I can DEFINITLEY say that vegetables ar...

getting on track again w/ balanced thinking

Fri, 6 Apr 2012 14:26:57 EST

I have been feeling so low lately and so I had to switch gears and get back on track in my life and get out of my funk. I feel better already! I'm really into thinking of my life in terms of balance because when I encorporate all the areas of my life that make me feel healthy and fulfilled, then I have energy to continue forward as well as make times for fun, friends, etc.

This week I did well with two k...

step class and my week's goals

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 14:34:24 EST

I went to step aerobics class today and I'm so happy I did. I really enjoy steps but I havent been going for quite a while because people started annoying me by putting their steps too close to me plus I've just been busy. I usually do kickboxing but I need a change of pace b/c I don't want to get tired of kickboxing and plus step class actually helps strengthen other area of my body that don't get used that much s...

eating healthier and consistant exercise

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 23:48:35 EST

Well.. just felt like updating my exercise in here reflecting last Fridays awesome kickboxing class and the Wii Zumba workout I had with my sister yesterday. I am used to kickboxing so Zumba is quite the workout! We did 20 minutes and I could feel my hips and my arms yesterday as opposed to kickboxing where I can do 45 minutes.. be sweating.. but not really feel any new muscle aches. I'm aiming for two exercise cla...

338... better than 345!

Sun, 4 Mar 2012 01:16:45 EST

Wow, it's been about 2 months since I poseted in here. I've had some strange things happening to me so I've been staying away from normal activities. I'm trying to get back on track again and out of my emotional slump and back into life.

This week I went to two kickboxing classes... yay! If I can do two a week, I'm happy with myself. I think I walked only one day at work but I've been doing at least one ...

merry christmas + update!

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 00:42:39 EST

Wow, it's been about a month since I've posted anything in sparkpeople. I've been kind of out of commission for the last few weeks but getting on track again with life. Weight is still an issues although I feel good about all the cooking I've been doing and my portion sizes. I'm surprised I havent lost anything but I know the small things add up in my life such as a mocha here or a danish there for try a mocha and ...

ben and jerrys is kinda gross actually

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 00:57:07 EST

I never thought I would say this, but I don't really like Ben and Jerrys ice cream anymore.. weird huh? I just ate a pint of it, so maybe that's why I say that but ice cream hasn't really been on my mind for the last couple of weeks which is really nice!! praise God! I have been eating Breyers natural ice cream so now that I want to buy something of a smaller quantity, Ben and Jerrys just tastes to fake or rich or ...

homemade "bullet" salsa and burrito

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 03:55:13 EST

Yum, I didn't take pictures but I made some really yummy salsa just now! I'm such a big fan of using my magic bullet blender for anything I can... I use it to grind coffee beans, almonds to put on pastries, and today for the salsa.

MAGIC BULLET SALSA
Put in blender:
2 tomoatoes
1 half of large onion
4 garlic cloves
1/4 cup of cilantro

Blend until puree formed.

i love thin bellies!

Mon, 31 Oct 2011 23:46:57 EST

I love the way that thin bellies look. Always have. I actually have a nice figure under all this fat and the thing I probably miss the most, besides the ease of bodily use, is my sexy thin belly and curves! I have a huge lump of fat right now and I can't wait for it to go away.

I have been doing better lately and I'm really happy. Today I had oatmeal for breakfast and lima beans with dumplings for lunch....

turkey burgers and hobbies

Sun, 16 Oct 2011 03:43:43 EST

This is a picture of me holding a painting I did in our area. Fun class and cool painting.

You know, I get really needy for food. I love it and for so long it's filled my void where love and friendship and self-acceptance should go. I was so ashamed when I first realized that I use food to fill these needs, but through that knowledge, I can make changes so that I can start filling those areas with health...

zucchini pancakes

Fri, 7 Oct 2011 00:51:23 EST

(not my picture, found on google)

I made some VERY yummy Zucchini pancakes for dinner!!! http://allrecipes.com/recipe/zucchini-panc
akes/detail.aspx Yum! I didn't add as much oil nor any sugar and they turned out great anyways. I cook my pancakes in butter to give them flavor, but I didn't add any extra ones.

I've been eating more veggies this week and I'm proud of myself! I had a salad yesterda...

kicking the devils butt

Wed, 28 Sep 2011 23:26:37 EST

Here is a metaphorical picture of me kicking the devil in the face... he has messed with me long enough and when the wicked advance against me, my foest will stumble and fall.

Yes, I'm a little angry.. and also making a lot of progress in my life lately. I feel more loved, cared about, and noticed more than I have been in the past. God is doing a miraclce in my life and I can't help be share it... it's ...

so far so good! :)

Sat, 24 Sep 2011 03:23:26 EST

So far so good! I just ate a plum, a handful of grapes and a mini bag of 100 calories popcorn! I have to eat when I stay up past midnight or when I'm watching TV lately and these are great choices for me.

I chose a sm. dr. pepper over a sm. chocolate milkshake today and the calories difference, after looking, was 390 calories!! WOAH.. I knew I was saving calories, but not that many! I can see why eating ...

BALANCE and how it's going

Wed, 21 Sep 2011 12:32:05 EST

I've been working on balance for over a year and now I'm to the point where I'm getting more precise and organized in my life in regards to balance. Here is a look at balance.

SPIRITUAL - going to church, reading the Bible, giving back
FINANCIAL- bills, budgets, investing etc
EMOTIONAL - processing, reading self-help books, sleep well, stress less
MENTAL - reading books, doing puzzles, goi...

Zumba and 6 days into September

Wed, 7 Sep 2011 01:44:27 EST

Well, I should write in here. I am not feeling motivated to read other peoples stuff right now but doesn't mean that I need to neglect myself. I do that sometimes.

I'm really glad that my apartment is organized! I havent felt this organized in months and months. I hate disorganization and it stressed me out so it's a nice change. Even my schedule is organized including what days I'm supposed to do my hom...

September 1st - starting afresh

Thu, 1 Sep 2011 11:26:01 EST

Actually, I've been working on getting on track for probably over a month now. I've been gradualy moving out of a depression that I went through for a month or so and getting physically active again which feels really nice. I want to make this weight loss plan more concrete but also I want to continue taking things a step at a time.

I really think that a big problem right now is going to bed on time and ...

i love water... plus weekend wrapup

Mon, 29 Aug 2011 04:10:16 EST

There is my thinspiration. A great picture of Misty May (gold medalist volleyball player). She is playing in the 2012 Olympics and I hope her and Kerri Walsh kick butt!

I thought I'd do a quick weekend wrap up. I feel stuff out of my gourd tonight and in retrospect, I knew I was struggling with some issues and so I backed some cookies to ease my pain. I think I ate about 4 or 6 of them. Small but still ...

i love fruit smoothies! (and my magic bullet)

Thu, 25 Aug 2011 03:20:09 EST

Yuuummm. I just made the most yummy little smoothie for my late night snack. Unfortunately I had spaghetti about 10pm but totally regretted it practically the whole time I was eating. I have been having fruit smoothies every couple of days instead of my "second dinner" which I have about 11pm or midnight because I've been saying up until 2am a lot.

FRUIT SMOOTHIE
2 freshly squeezed oranges
5 st...

mexican cruise 2012! = 94.6 pounds to lose

Sat, 20 Aug 2011 15:16:16 EST

It's official! At least somewhat so until we buy the tickets. I just got back from vacation with my family and we are planning a cruise to Mexico next year in 2012 and I REFUSE!!!!!!!!!!!! to be obese by that time! Embarassing!! My poor cousins were shocked, I could tell. The lectures from my 100 pound mother are old.

Sexy Noel in sexy bathing suit... even if it means I'm 200 pouds. 344 is NOT sexy bath...

my diet so far

Thu, 4 Aug 2011 02:06:46 EST

I wrote a blog entry about doing things NO MATTER WHAT about a week ago but it didn't pan out too well. I did start changing my attitude though and telling myself I CAN DO IT instead of I don't want to do it or I can't do it. I've stretche twice this week and today did 1/2 a kickboxing class with some more stretching and abs. Hrmm.. this week I just have a better attitude. I feel like I've been eating better and lo...

my diet name = NO MATTER WHAT!

Tue, 26 Jul 2011 14:38:43 EST

I printed the previous entries picture of Misty May and Kerri Walsh and I'm going to post it to my fridge!

Okay, I was in the shower telling myself that this is ridiuclous that at 35 I'm all humped over with a hurt hip and a hurt back. It's sad that I can't play tennis very long because I'm too fat to get across the court THEREFORE.. I've made a new diet for myself it's the.....

NO MATTER WHAT...

misty may has a rockin body!

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 02:09:13 EST

Misty May and Kerri Walsh (volleyball players for USA) have totally awesoem bodies, don't they? I'm sure they work out all the time but WOW... I would feel so good about myself if I had this body!

I havent been doing well but I havent been doing terrible. I went shopping today to get some good food and I bought a bunch of candy too. I really need to focus on eating fruits in order to curb my sweet tooth ...

todays mess.. i mean.. today in all it's glory

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 23:01:59 EST

I wanted to write yesterday beacuse I was pretty proud of myself for riding my bike but I decided I'd wait. I got my bike fixed and riding my bike at 343 pounds sure isnt like riding my bike at 200 pounds! My boobs are practically hit by my knees and ooowee... quite the workout! I was proud of myself nonethless though because I got to ride it down to the tennis courts. My plan is to ride it more often so my butt ca...

ummmm..... self-sabotage?

Wed, 20 Jul 2011 12:16:51 EST

I don't know what the heck happened. I don't feel inclined almost whatsoever to purposely eat a salad or piece of fruit. Ugh. What happened? I wonder if self-sabotage is at work.

I went to a kickboxing class yesterday and it felt really good to do but I felt so fat and so unhealthy! I really felt depressed about it because I should not be going up and down healthy wise but I should be improving daily! It...

processing is half the battle

Sun, 17 Jul 2011 03:19:18 EST

I think this weight loss journey is kind of like a bike ride or bike race... although I'm not in a race right now, possibly later I'll feel more competative about it but right now I'm taking an "easy does it" kind of approach.

I have been putting off processing my emotions in my offline journal all week. I don' t know why I do that! I would like to check out the pattern so here goes.. this is personal, b...

tennis and truth for today :)

Thu, 14 Jul 2011 03:48:00 EST

There is a reason that tennis players look so fit! They need to be in order to run back and forth across the court! My GOSH it's a lot of work. I am way to heavy to be playing to much tennis at my weight. I had fun with a few rallys today with a friend but I certainly can not win anything if I don't lose some weight. I could feel how hard it was on my hips and legs and when I came home, my knee was hurting bad. BLE...

ice cream is my drug of choice

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 19:28:26 EST

I did really great last week with the 2 pounds loss! I'm telling everyone and I was feeling really good! More energy, my comlextion was looking better and I was feeling healthier in my mind and body and soul already!

but.... then hit the weekend. Saturday was okay and then Sunday I was big time craving ice cream. I didn't even really care that I was going to buy a galloon of my favorite ice cream and I w...

2 pounds lost!!! yay me! + U-Jam

Sat, 9 Jul 2011 16:13:09 EST

Yay! I was so looking forward to weighing myself today... I weigh myself on Saturdays... because I've been eating less and going to exercise classes all week and sure enough, down 2 pounds from last Saturday! yaaaay me! Good job Noel! (haha.. learnign to pat myself on the back more).

I really resisted eating each and every night. I didn't pass up too many bad things during the day but I really like to m...

it's Friday! identity includes weight and other things

Fri, 8 Jul 2011 20:20:46 EST

I'm going through recovery for substance abuse (almost 4 years clean) and also some mental health healing. So I'm taking a lot of classes and also in a recovery program at my church called Celebrate Recovery. I'm learning a lot of new concepts and putting words to things that I already have been learning in my day to day life.

Today we talked about identity. We were discussing how important it is to hav...

today - blogging blogging blogging!

Thu, 7 Jul 2011 02:00:56 EST

oh my gosh... I'm trying not to eat but it's hard! I like to EAT! I wanted to eat tonight and I just had some crackers and turkey and cheese which was tasty and now a small glass of wine. It coudl have been worse I guess.

TODAYS EATING

BREAKFAST: I woke up at 11am so I didn't eat breakfast. My plan is to go to bed before midnight tonight and wake up on time tomorrow to make my Zumba class.

my weight loss and my today

Wed, 6 Jul 2011 03:11:11 EST

I did really well on my eating yesterday but today wasnt so good. I could feel my belly shrinking when I got up today but I let emotional, boredom, lonely eating get to me tonight.

BREAKFAST: 1 cookie and a cup of coffee (was late again waking up and going to church)
LUNCH: KFC - 1 medium cherry pepsi (I love this stuff but I need to drink water), 1 s. potatoe wedges, and one buffallo bbq sandwhich ...

half my meal veggies

Sun, 3 Jul 2011 22:45:24 EST

The above picture is my dinner. I did really well! I made half my meal veggies which consisted of stir friend spinach with garlic. Yum! It's a great way to get in a lot of nutrients and vitmains. I am trying to make half my plate either fruit or veggies in the evening time so that I don't eat so much of the main dish or go back for seconds because I'll be to full! I stopped at one serving tonight which has been un...

345..... 200 pounds overweight :( ...... 1, 2, 3, 4.. get my booty out the door!

Sat, 2 Jul 2011 16:50:14 EST

I just got back from my 2nd kickboxing class for this week. I wanted to do exercise every single day but depression has really been hindering me for the past 1 or 2 months. I'm trying to kick it now and now that I'm off the couch, I think I gained 15 pounds in about 2 months!! I can't believe it! I weighed myself today and I weight 345 pounds... I am 200 pounds overweight! I'm having trouble coming up my stairs and ...

i'm really fat!

Tue, 28 Jun 2011 21:05:48 EST

oh my gosh.. I've gotten REALLY fat. I keep saying that I'm going to lose weight so why isn't it happening? I don't think I've ever really committed to it yet. For the past few weeks I've been practiving being aware of calories, eating more fruits, veggies, and salads, and trying to exercise but I havent lost anything for sure and I'm still as fat as ever. I am SO heavy! My mom said something kind of hurtful the ot...

two kickboxing classes in a row!

Sat, 4 Jun 2011 18:47:24 EST

I'm always really proud of myself when I do two exercise classes in a week. I used to them a lot more, but I've been pretty consistant with one a week as of the past year or so. This week I did two in a row and I feel fabulous! My body is pretty accustomed to aerobic kickboxing by now but the first class was I was feeling pretty sluggy. The second class I had today I felt great and I kept up with the whole class ve...

healthy salad and how i've been

Wed, 25 May 2011 22:15:38 EST

I just got done with dinner and I had a salad with some chicken I cooked. The chickenw as quite tasty with a mix of mexican spices, cilantro, onion, and bell pepper in it. Yum! I didn't even use dressing for my salad, I used salsa that further made the whole thing healthy.

I've been trying to get on track b/c I've been feeling really low emotionally and physically. I think they are related and I know tha...

health smoothie diet.... or at least, snacks

Thu, 5 May 2011 00:37:44 EST

Okie dokie.... I've decided. Again. I'm gonna lose this stuff!

I bought a generic "magic bullet" blender the other day from JcPenneys (in picture) because I've decided to make smoothies for breakfast. Today I finally got some ice to make my smoothies and when I got home, I made two of them. YUM! and healthy!!!

The smoothie above is b/c I want some ice cream. I'm surprised that cocoa worked wit...

i need to be serious about this already!

Wed, 20 Apr 2011 01:45:57 EST

I...do....not........feelllll good :( blek. I've been sick for the past 3 days and I feel like a major slug! I've been eating like I'm not sick and not exercising at all so that all adds up to me feeling like crud. I'm stressed and as I sit here at my desk, the rolls of fat on my belly are cutting off my circulation..... i hate this! Why can't I stop eating so much!

I need to get serious about this. All ...

i'd rather eat sushi then these chocolate chip cookies!

Mon, 4 Apr 2011 17:12:21 EST

I have been eating a lot healthier lately and it's amazing how much more attractive healthy food looks to me instead of unhealthy! I made some chocolate chip cookies the other day and although good, I would rather eat something better for me. I know that each cookies has about a Tablespoon of butter in it so I feel kinda guilty eating them! I feel better knowing that there is oatmeal and peanut butter in them but n...

one pounds loss, salad, and stress

Sun, 27 Mar 2011 23:08:09 EST

CHEF SALAD
1 serving of salad
handful of baby carrots
1/2 cucumber
1 serving ham
1 serving cheese
1/2 chopped tomatoe
some sliced red onion
2 T 1000 island dressing (150 calories)

soooooooo good! I just had this with my dinner. It could have been a dinner within itself but I had a peice of chicken with some rice too. I thought of adding the ham later on and wow, wh...

my week so fat... beans beans and more beans

Fri, 25 Mar 2011 00:37:01 EST

I was kinda broke this week and I needed to use up some Lima Beans so I made a pot yesterday with bisquick dumplings.. an old favorite of my days growing up in a low income family. YUM! They are actually really really good. I ate them all day long and had the rest today. I didn't know Lima Beans were so good for a person. I guess they have trace minerals that are very healthy along with lots of protein. I felt pret...

yummy salad w/ sesame ginger dressing

Fri, 18 Mar 2011 22:02:27 EST

(It's my 35th birthday today... wow! times flies)

I just had a very yummy salad! I've been eating more of them lately to try to get more vegetables into my diet. I'm really bad about not eating any vegetables or fruits and instead rely on taking my multi-vitamin. My brother has been encouraging me to eat more raw veggies and fruits so that's help too. Also, I went to a friends house the other day and we had a ...

M.I.A. and I have a sweet addiction... or more accurately an addiction to sweets

Mon, 14 Mar 2011 03:12:45 EST

can't.....stop.........eating...........
.want............ more........now..........food..........foo
d............foooooodddd....

I'm getting to the point where I feel ridiculous about my eating habits. I'm just over 330 pounds now... WAY more than I ever expected to be. I can hardly get off the couch these days. RIDICULOUS... this MUST stop now.

I am fully aware that I'm filling my emp...

fast food withdrawals!!!

Thu, 17 Feb 2011 01:01:17 EST

On the way home from church I had a major fast food withdrawal attack! I have been eating a lot of fast food recently at work b/c it gets me out of the building but b/c I've been off of work for almost 2 weeks now and I'm broke so I havent been eating a lot of fast food. There is something about premade food with lots of salt that just tastes GOOD sometimes, ya know! I ordered the mcchicken mini meal with small fri...

people pleasing and ice cream eating

Fri, 21 Jan 2011 02:20:52 EST

You might wonder why I posted a picture of this big creature. Well, me and a co-worker who I was trying to befriend, were emailing about these things today. I realize that I try realy really hard to get people to like me and I try to force relationships when they will never thrive under pressure. I know a big reason I'm overweight is b/c a lack of good friendships with others and a lack of love. I'm working on this...