NJJ-EXERCISE30's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NJJ%2DEXERCISE30 NJJ-EXERCISE30's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987892 Good Morning; spent the weekend in Minnesota for DS HB. We had no real plans except a Twins ball game. DS was extremely moody. He gets that way when we go back to Minnesota- his memories flood back. I think this weighs on him. I had to scold him to enjoy the day. He snapped out of it. We went to this place where we took our kids when we lived there that had train layouts. That was great. the State Fair was going on and there was so much traffic in places. the weather was great and w... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 08:13:58 EST Heard from DS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986897 It have been 2 weeks - my son said fiancée threw him out of house where he is paying rent. Fiancée sent me a text that she is calling police. Fiancée says she is going back to mothers until DS leaves. He says he is leaving & heading to Mexico - goodbye mom. - I am in Minneapolis getting ready to see twins for dh hb. I get a text. Mil stepped in & told daughter I like DS better than you - you are spoiled & he pays rent. In the mean time. We had not heard from either party before this t... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 14:40:24 EST yesterday went to new medical office http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986210 Good Morning; I had requested a nurse practitioner at this holistic clinic to work with me for my health. I am a non-conformist and say no to traditional medicines. I am using Armour for my thyroid and many doctors will not even take you as a patient on Armour. I read and use supplements on issues with success. I walk in and handed this person a medical history with the list of supplements. We talk about past medical care and why I changed. She told me the doctor told me to go to the... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 08:42:25 EST does your program handle your life's stress well? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985617 Good Morning; My life is not boring to say the least, but does my program fall apart under stress. In other words do I go to food - overeating when stress comes. <BR> Today, I woke up very anxious. My BP is up. I did not sleep well. Waiting for daughter to bring GD over - she has strep throat. My DH and I are tag teaming watching GD. I have a new doctor appt this morning for my thyroid. I am not having any problems with thyroid, but I wanted to change to another more informed doctor. Ha... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 08:31:42 EST Now GD sick spending day with Nana http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985013 This is going to be fast - I lost blog that I had written. I think something must be happening with Sparks. Maybe some of the entries need to be deleted. Does any one delete their entries or does SPARKS take care of that. GD is coming to stay with me <BR> b/c she has a low grade fever. Have a good day!!! Wed, 26 Aug 2015 09:03:07 EST Just got back from the gym - doing good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5984382 Good Morning; I feel great after coming back from the gym. Last night, I have been getting into buckets of clothes that I have stored and now sorting to give to charity. <BR> I started trying on 9/10 size and they fit. Now if I got on the scale- I would expect to be lower in weight. With all my exercise, my body has been reshaped. this means my weight is muscle and muscle is good. I do not set goals for weight loss- I just do. <BR> There is a simple formula that I go by: if you exerci... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 09:05:33 EST Yesterday was a lovely day with DH - still no DS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983678 Good Morning; I am grateful that I have support from this blog. I got some super support comments. Losing weight is the least important part of my program. My task of major importance is to not binge or overeat over stress in my life. I have made so much progress in this area. That is why my program has gotten stronger. My program have never been about the scale or how much weight I can lose. My program is about eating quality food, exercise 5-7 days a week, remain confident, positi... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 08:53:34 EST I spoke too soon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983156 Good Morning; DS and his fiancée' broke up. They had an argument and she threw him out of the house. He calls me up and is very belligerent and say I have no place to go. You do not like my dog. I have my hands full with GS who is over at our house due to their A/C being broken. GS is fussy due to his ear infection. DS is telling me that his dad and I never cared for him and that you are better without him. I speak to him calmly and tell him to come down here. He says he does not ... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 12:07:07 EST Oh Brother- can anything else happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5982569 Good Morning; Yesterday, I watched GS all day. My Daughter's family had dinner with us. Last night- their air conditioning broke. So I am watching GS again today b/c DD has to work again to make up time. SIL has to go shopping for food. I get GS - he is still not feeling well so he can't go to the grocery store. I overslept I think I needed it. I just got up 30 minutes ago and they are on their way all ready. DH is at weight watchers. DH invites them for dinner tonight but DD has... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 10:15:06 EST up early GS coming has double ear infections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5981913 Good Morning; GS coming today for me to babysit. DD just got back to work and now baby sick. She called me yesterday. We went over to watch baby so she could go and get GD from daycare. She asked if I was available to watch baby. I said no problem. I have a handy man coming today. When SIL came home from work, she told him this is why we moved back. DH and I said to ourselves how did we do it- we had nobody expect the two of us. We are glad that we got to know our grandkids more. <BR>... Fri, 21 Aug 2015 07:04:33 EST Had great workout this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5981379 Good Morning; DS going to his first group counselor appt with other combat vets. <BR> I talked with him yesterday. He is not fighting this appt like others. I told him that seeing and talking with other VETS from combat will be a relief for him. The group is with any vets from any combat missions from any war. <em>247</em> I pray things go well. I had quite a workout this morning. I love it when I have the energy to feel my body working hard. I feel so successful afterwards. I have... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 09:14:35 EST Had a good sleep and feel great! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980758 Good Morning; I have not been sleeping well. DH came home from work like a bear. <BR> At work, he works with some yoyos that are not too bright. These people wait until the last hour of the day to give him something that needs to be done by a deadline. But the item is done so poorly, he has to send it back. The deadline looms. <em>198</em> He was so frustrated and he came in and was just angry. I decided not to talk with him until he calms down. I went and read a book. I told him t... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 09:21:37 EST Been to gym already and ready to go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980107 Good morning; I was in the gym this morning. there was a new person who was having a hard time with her exercises. We got talking. She asked about me. How I was able to do my exercises. I told her you have to start small and work up so you do not injury yourself. I told her I have been strength training for nearly 3 years. I came out of the gym energized and ready for the day. I am eating healthy. I have learned to listen to my body so I do not injury my body. have a good day and... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 09:18:40 EST Had dinner with DD's family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5979376 Good Morning; boy do I like DD. She knows her dad and I are watching what we eat. <BR> they had grilled chicken, salad and a vegetable. My DD is looking good. She is finally losing her baby weight. She is 10 lbs away from her goal. She had gained 60lbs during her pregnancy. <em>220</em> GS is taking more risks in getting confidence to walk. From the wall to his bed he took some steps. GD has such a vocabulary that I sometimes just am so amazed what she says. I played stickers with... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 07:52:18 EST Spend time with DD and GS yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978805 Good Morning; DD facetimed with me to show me that GS is waving and blowing kisses. During the session, he learned to making kissing sounds from me. SIL with GD went out for a day so we invited her to go to Whole Foods with us. GS loves seeing all the people and different foods. We had him feel different textures and told him the names. DD wants her kids to know all kinds of food. My GD is such a good vegetable eater. GS is into raspberries now. He is nearly a year. I am about to... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 09:01:06 EST keeping stress at bay so I do not lose the joy of the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978370 Good Morning; My life is not smooth sailing to say the least. DD called and says what is happening to DS's wedding plans. they are not getting along. She shelled out quite abit for down payment to cake. I say we give them two weeks if they do not get their act together we need to pull the plug. this is called damaged control. <em>198</em> DS and fiancee just two weeks ago were going good. What do we do? <BR> My DH says we just can't pull out. Any suggestions out there? Any way, ... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 11:31:37 EST I can not seem to get my emotions working - (tab) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977802 Good Morning; When I comment sometimes, I have to choose another emotion. <BR> I have been just trying all sorts of them and they do not add to the comment. <BR> I am feeling great even though I have gotten shots this morning for travel later this year. I will have sore arms later. DS & fiancée fighting. They were both texting me- I turned off phone. I did talk to both for a short time. I told them they need to communicate with each other and not me. I am not in your relationship. ... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 10:57:10 EST So glad that I went to the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977109 Good Morning; did not sleep good, but got up b/4 the sun to go to the gym. My body just relaxed and I thoroughly enjoyed the workout. I was the kid that was so uncoordinated in school no one wanted me on their team. Because of this experience I thought I would or could not enjoy exercise. I get pleasure and enjoyment when I have a good workout. I consider it a treat for my body. It helps my mind and starts the day with a good tone. I just simply love exercising now. I am honoring ... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 08:54:42 EST having a positive day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976499 Good Morning; I am enjoying my morning with a cup of coffee and just being present. I have put my DS on my prayer list b/c he might have second thoughts or even be overwhelmed at the prospect of what will happen to him later this year. <em>247</em> I am working my program. The hardest part of the program is to deal with stress and stay on the program. I used to use food for a temporary fix but not any more. I do not look to food when a crisis hits. It does not help the situation, bu... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 09:25:23 EST thank you for your prayers - successful day!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5975859 Good Morning; I came back yesterday emotionally exhausted. But I am so glad that I drove over 160 miles yesterday to be at the appt for my DS. He was being interviewed for an inpatient facility for Combat Veterans with PTSD. He was so nervous and afraid- he did not know what to expect. He thought they would just haul him away and throw away the key. <em>198</em> DS had to wait and fill out all this paperwork. I had to build up his confidence which I succeeded. His fiancée was the... Tue, 11 Aug 2015 10:11:11 EST High stress day - need prayers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5975069 Good Morning; DS is going to an very intensive evaluation by VA. I have been invited by DS. I will drive over 80 miles one way. The complex is huge and trying to find the location and the room will be a challenge. Some of the anxiety that was going on yesterday with him was b/c of this appointment today. I pray that the VA helps him. He has been overlooked b/c of the volume of VETS that need help. Another member of his unit committed suicide and that bothers my DS greatly. <BR> <em>1... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 06:13:57 EST what a morning!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5974683 Good Morning; DS's GF calls I can't do this anymore. My DS is raging b/c she was leaving to see my DD for wedding cake plans. His pitbull -165 lbs got out and runs away. DS is so upset - his GF and he start fighting with verbal nasty remarks. <BR> After having a conversation with her, I find out that DS has an appt from a rehab clinic tomorrow. He is already upset about this b/c he has been trying to get some mental health treatment through his benefits about his PTSD and other stuff. ... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 12:38:28 EST Went to dinner at DD house last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5974079 Good Morning; Living by your choices. DD called and asked us to dinner Friday or Saturday evening. I asked DH b/c he weighs in on Saturday mornings. He chose Friday. DD grilled buffalo, salad and fruit. DH approved the menu, but when he socializes he forgets. <BR> The steaks were large. I cut my into 1/3 and ate that. DH ate his and then mine other parts. He knows he weighs in. He woke up angry and impatient. I have learned to live my choices and accept the consequences. DH is a s... Sat, 8 Aug 2015 09:44:44 EST I am waiting for Habitat for Humanity truck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973574 Good Morning, I have some remodeling stuff that are in very good shape and can be resold in their store. I give to this charity so I have to wait all day maybe for the truck to pick up what we are giving. <em>220</em> DH had to go to work early so just received a call from him wishing me a good morning. I had my hair trimmed yesterday and my hairdresser noticed that I am losing more hair. She cuts my hair very well and my hair looks thicker today. I have to keep taking my supplements... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 08:48:05 EST I am very positive today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973032 Good Morning; Funny I did a blog entry yesterday but it is not listed. I wanted to check to make sure I did not say the same thing today. Oh well, GD called and wanted to talk with me. She wanted to come over, but DD said they had to go home and will see us Friday for dinner. DD invited also us to GS 1st birthday and Korean celebration next month. I am bringing an step stool made especially for him with his name on it. Also a piggy bank b/c I want my grand kids to start saving as soo... Thu, 6 Aug 2015 09:22:02 EST went to gym this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971995 Good Morning -almost afternoon here. I am downsizing. I am doing it not fast b/c I have other stuff to do. I am beginning to feel lighter from giving away, throwing out and giving their stuff to my kids. My DH is letting go of some of his "stuff". He is the closest to a hoarder that I know. He loves his stuff from decades, but he is letting some of it go. He is seeing that I am letting go of stuff. <em>104</em> i know it is not body weight but it still weighs on ones spirit. I giv... Tue, 4 Aug 2015 12:33:02 EST We took 8 boxes of stuff to DS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971268 Good Morning; I never know what happens to my DH. He wanted to get the stuff out of the garage, but got so fussy on the way up to DS house and back. I think he did not want to go but he had told DS that we were bringing the stuff up. 75 miles one way. <BR> I drove on the way back but he was still fussy. He got better the closer we got to our house. DS was so excited to see his stuff that he has not seen for years. <em>224</em> DD took my GD for a ride on a horse. GD is really into ... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 09:02:29 EST Just got back from gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970726 Good Morning; I did a great strength training workout and then did my treadmill session. Came home really satisfied. I have much to be grateful. When things in my life are going well, I stop and list how I am grateful. I try to stay in the present and let go of tomorrow. <BR> I am a planner, but this task can go over board with worry. I have found that I can not enjoy today when I am worrying about tomorrow. DH has been in a wonderful mood - much has been from his weight loss. I have c... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 10:46:10 EST babysat my grand kids last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970376 Good evening; getting much done - a relaxing day. talked with DD - she is going to organize the rehearsal dinner for me. She has been to many weddings & can do it better than me. I gave her a budget that is reasonable. DH & I are paying for my DS best man for his suit he is too rent and a hotel b/c he has PTSD and has no money. <BR> All of my DS's groomsmen are VETS that served with him in Iraq. My DD was talking to the bride and came back - boy is she disorganized. DD is buying t... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 17:18:45 EST good news on two fronts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969656 Good Morning; My DH just called me and asked me - did you buy me new jeans? <BR> I asked what does the label say by the belt. He told me- Dear you are wearing size 34 waist jeans. He is just over the moon!!!! I went through his drawers and got his big clothes out and put his new size in. <em>250</em> He has gone back and forth for many years like we all have. My program is much better when he is on his <BR> program. <em>521</em> <em>306</em> <em>381</em> The other good news- m... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 09:22:26 EST Feeling great - just got back from gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969080 Good Morning; I feel great this morning. I was having cravings yesterday about food. It always surprises me when it happens. It is usually something bothering me. It is my son. I have not heard from him in nearly a month. He has occasionally answered a text -very sharply. I truly want him to live his own life, but I would like to know how he is doing. I sent him a text this morning. Just to touch base. He might not respond. It is his GF birthday sometimes this month - I wanted t... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 09:03:19 EST Slept well and am energized http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968513 Good Morning; I am doing Sparks while I am watching a recorded version of American Greatest Talent show. I feel great today. I worked out hard yesterday. <BR> Did many chores and slept well. I have gone through my DH clothes and have removed the "big" clothes b/c he has lost 65 lbs. He has been wearing the smaller clothes- he looks so much better. DH thanked me b/c he said he had a hard time letting go of them. What I saw yesterday in his face -a proud and happier man. I told him th... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 09:23:24 EST Just came from gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967866 Good Morning; I did not sleep well so I got up and went to the gym. I feel better because I went to the gym. Getting my exercise early in the morning, sets a good tone for my day. <em>386</em> My Dh has been having trouble focusing lately. <BR> I talked to him last night. He has been busy at work. I am encouraging him to go to the gym, but he has not done much exercising in the last week. I see a difference. <em>521</em> <em>306</em> Exercising makes my brain work better, my sleep... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 08:52:48 EST Dinner went well and DH calmed down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967349 Good Morning; DD had called and said they would be late. GS had gone down for a nap he needed. GD was so happy to see her grandparents. She is very at home in our house. We played with kids. I got a good chat with DD. Even DH had a good talk with SIL. SIL seemed more mature than we have seen him. DD is in a good place in her life. <em>244</em> Meal went off very well. DH usually has a tendency to burn the food on the grill. But all the food came out well grilled to everyone's liki... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 10:48:16 EST Dh is going over board on this dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966900 Good afternoon; I am going to try again and see if I lose this too. <BR> DH is now making appetizers and a cheese tray with steaks as the main course. <BR> I have told him this is your daughter and SIL not the Queen of England. He says I never let him just do. He can not see that this is all unnecessary. Even my daughter says not to make a fuss. This is a casual dinner with my DD and SIL. My son is not coming; he says he has other plans. I am not sure what is going on there. <BR> Hop... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 13:40:11 EST Just got back from gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966824 Lost blog entry again. Sun, 26 Jul 2015 11:05:13 EST DH has been tense due to weigh in today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966385 Good Morning; Dh goes to Weight Watchers and they weigh in weekly. He has not lost weight for 2 weeks and is so anxious. He went on a walk this morning Very early to see if he could lose weight on the scale. I have chosen to stop this merry-go-round of the cycle of weighing on the scale on a schedule. I do not go to WW due to the weekly weigh ins. I had actually got my DH into WW so he could lose his weight which he needed. Part of my program is to try to tap down anxiety when losing ... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 10:59:48 EST contractors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965901 Good Morning; a couple weeks ago- we got new hot water heaters. Our city has a rebate program. With program, the city inspector has to come out. Well, both hot water heaters did not pass inspection. One is leaking carbon monoxide. We have carbon monoxide detectors. TG. I was so calm this morning, but I did not expect this. This is the strength of ones's program. I am great when everything is going smooth. But when life throws you a curve ball, does your program remain strong and sec... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 10:04:39 EST just dragging today - got phone call at midnight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965324 Good Morning; I was sound asleep when my phone rang. It was DS's GF. DS was having a bad night and she said that he wanted to come home. He was not in a rage, but just upset. GF was calm. I told her to give him the phone. He would not come to the phone. So I thought, well I am going to try to go back to bed. He told me about 3 weeks ago that He is going to live my life with his GF. He rarely calls any more. I feel that is good. He is growing up and bonding with GF. They are supp... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 08:35:43 EST Been up early and getting chores done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964869 Good morning; I have much to do. I have company coming. I am still downsizing. <BR> I have gotten half of the attic done. My garage is full. I am getting rid of these cardboard boxes from one of 5 moves. My DH had just begun to sort and get rid of stuff. He is beginning to see the value of this exercise. It will make it easier on me when he sees something and says - you are getting rid of this? <em>234</em> Much of the stuff that is left is from the kids. When we go to babysit my ... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 11:22:25 EST Been to gym and have done many errands http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964295 Good Morning; I was having stinky thoughts for the past two days. It was a mood I was in. The old me would have overeaten and then felt sorry for myself for over eating. But I started reading on web and books that I have, I know that moods are human that everyone has and they pass. I have to remember that perfection is not a goal of mine. I strive to live in the present - not to worry about the scale or what that person thinks of me. Sometimes I have to turn off the old tapes in my h... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 10:45:34 EST You are going along just fine and you get hit on the side of the head http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963858 Good afternoon; Thank Goodness for the support of friends that I met on Sparks. <BR> I found out some concerning information that blind sided me. I had to really think about this. One has to forgive! Someone stole a precious item from another family member. It was done when the person was young and really acting out. I have to let go and Let G. People change and we have to forgive. I did not overeat over it. I have let go, but when I see this person sometime. How will I act? I w... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 16:08:40 EST just lost my blog entry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963122 good Morning; I just got back from the gym. I had written quite an entry, but it did not get to Sparks when I tried to add it. I hate this when the webpage doesn't work. <BR> have a good day!! <BR> Sun, 19 Jul 2015 09:16:11 EST just lost my blog entry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963121 good Morning; I just got back from the gym. I had written quite an entry, but it did not get to Sparks when I tried to add it. I hate this when the webpage doesn't work. <BR> have a good day!! <BR> Sun, 19 Jul 2015 09:16:10 EST I decided to weigh myself and I lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962782 Good afternoon; I do not weigh daily or even weekly. I weigh when I can objectively look at the results and have no side effects like slipping. I have learned that the scale is not the tool I need for my program. I go by my clothes and a tape measure. <em>220</em> For today, I am focused and am tracking my food. I am taking today off from exercise. I do this weekly so to give my muscles some reprieve. I am in a good place and I feel good about myself. I live one day at a time. ha... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 13:51:38 EST I have been getting rid of my stressors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962223 Good Morning; I am slowly getting rid of my chronic stressors. The latest is my doctor with her family as her staff. She was a nice person, but her staff were not professional. I worried what they were doing with my medical records. <em>198</em> I lined up another doctor that was recommended to me by different sources. I slept very well. I am amazed when I have a good night sleep. DD has been in a great mood. She is coming for dinner on a weekend with kids. We are going to grill. ... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 11:13:26 EST got a surprise yesterday evening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961725 Good Morning; my DD called and she was close to the house. she said do you want to see your grand kids. We said sure!! they came over and we played for 2 hours. Then they left, my GD cried and did not want to leave. I gave her a book for her to read in the car so she stopped crying. I miss having a conversation with my DD when I am playing with the kids. It was so much fun. My GS is standing up by himself sometimes. He is getting ready to walk. DH is still in a great mood. Have a ... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 12:06:18 EST Having a wonderful day!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961293 Good afternoon; <BR> Went to the movies and saw the newest minion movie. I now know where my granddaughter gets some of her lingo. It is a movie for 8 and above. there is much humor which our generation can understand. <em>334</em> Last night my DH brought home roses for me. I asked him what was the occasion- he says he just wanted to do it. I think I am going to look for another ball game for next month!! <BR> Only a joke!! I am getting much done and also reading the new harper L... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 16:03:55 EST what a change in DH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5960585 Good Morning; I had to figure out what was bothering him. He does not talk about his emotions, but just makes it very obvious that something is going on. I usually have to play 1000 questions. But as I have gotten older, I observe, think about what events that has happened in the last week. Now I do not have to do the 1000 questions which he usually denies. <em>213</em> My DD had a birthday and it made DH feel old. But I decided to make a special HB for him in the future. We are go... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 09:41:59 EST DH was in such a mood this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959972 Good Morning; It was not always easy to enjoy this weekend. We have gotten much chores done. Dh was not in a great mood. When he gets like this he blames me for this or that. I think it has to do with age. He gets so insecure about this time of year. I have to do something to get him over this anxiety which he never acknowledges. He thinks it is me. <em>198</em> For today, I am positive and confident. I have to let go of DH's moods b/c he can take me down with them. Have a good... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 08:55:10 EST