NJJ-EXERCISE30's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NJJ%2DEXERCISE30 NJJ-EXERCISE30's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Low key day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840023 Good Morning; I went to gym this morning, but doing chores that need to be done. <BR> DH is watching DVDs and lie on couch. His most favorite thing to do. I have given him <BR> chores to do. Over all a very low key day. Not taking down decorations yet. Have a good day!! Sun, 28 Dec 2014 17:30:21 EST When your DH wants to keep spending http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838759 Good Morning; my Dh is seeing all these sales - he tells me he wants this electronics and that. He wants to upgrade our electronics. He wants a DVD/VHS combo. I ask him when have we last watched a VHS. We have all these VHSs. I once again say to him when do you watch them. He got a receiver and speakers for Christmas. I say to him lets get them on father's Day or your birthday. He always forgets what he got for a gift and I have to remind him. <em>234</em> I am not letting this get... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 11:03:47 EST Merry Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838272 Good Morning; I have so much to be grateful. This week DH is home and what a change of my time. I had to be careful with food. I have exercised daily but some times I think I need to do it 3 or 4 times a day. The stress of seeing someone eating constantly. I exercised this morning and will do it again in my home. <em>446</em> Dh just wants to lie on couch and watch DVDs. That is his version of relaxation. No Grand kids here- not our turn. Christmas is for kids. I miss not <BR>... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 08:39:00 EST DS came back positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835850 Good Morning; DH and I did not know what to expect about how DS would come back after a visit to see his daughter. What I found out is that DS is positive and ready to go aback and see his daughter. We do have some more fears for his daughter. She is being watched by an environment which is not good for a 2 year or any child. Ex was confiding with his Fiancée. Ex's mom is a felon and is watching the daughter regularly. Too many adults around the child. There was so many times Ex was say... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 11:16:15 EST Another day of seeing his DD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834302 Good morning; My DS is so into his daughter. <BR> Two times a day he visits with his daughter. His ex has been extremely cooperative. His daughter calls him daddy and tells him that she loves him. DS and fiancée <BR> hit a bump in the road. She turns to her mother and mother is one of these overprotective mothers. Oh well, I am staying out of it. DS has become happy again b/c of his DD. It is hard for someone to deal with a kid from another relationship and PTSD issues. She is you... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 08:25:20 EST Wonderful news - there is hope! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833774 Good Morning: DS went to visit DD yesterday 2x. Ex was very cooperative. At the second visit, DD actually hugged DS. I was sent a photo. He called last night. He was 10 ft high. He says now I can be a real father. But the most surprising thing is that he asked if ex and DD could go and see his lawyer, just to tell the lawyer things were going good. Ex agreed! So maybe all the prayers everyone was sending including me lighting candles in every church I saw in Italy was the charm... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 08:42:33 EST talked to DH about yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833344 Good Morning; DH is so tired of the problems with DS and his adjusting to his disability. DS was doing fine, but now this legal case. He knows from the past DS's ex is a real crazy person. So he expects much drama this week and he is so tired of <BR> it. Now all these visits to see his daughter when we both know DS can not afford it. <BR> He signs a legal decree stating he can visit monthly. DS wants to see his daughter badly but now realizing what he signed up for. We could not convi... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 10:54:01 EST DS is off to see his DD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832748 Good Morning: took DS and GF to airport. I thought we would have a problem with DS - no it was DH. He wanted to argue about anything and be stubborn out of the earshot of DS. I told him what the hell is wrong with you. He used to get like this when the kids are around. It is not helpful at all. At the airport, my DS is in his wheelchair and we are about to cross the street. DH is wheeling my son. All of a sudden my DS flies out of his wheelchair and onto the street. My DH had got... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 09:20:03 EST A rough night yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831860 Good Morning. DS is going to see his daughter. He has not been on pain medication for quite a while - not b/c he has not pain, but b/c doctors are not prescribing them. <BR> I do not know how DS does it. But yesterday he goes to doctor thinking b/c of his trip he will get some. He hasn't been on a plane for 3 years due to this back. The compression on his back is really bad. The doctor refuses to give him pain meds. DS and I developed a plan to get off the plane and go to ER for pain re... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 09:51:12 EST woke up with an achy upper arm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831266 Good Morning; I think I must have bruised my arm during strength training. I am taking the day off from the gym. The cold weather here does not help an injury. Now I know how my son feels. I bought for my DS a throw with a heating element in it. I gave it to him early. He says that it is wonderful for him. <em>446</em> I have told my neighbor who is very needy and lonely that I am really busy until the new year. She says she understands. She doesn't help herself at all. I did not... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 08:52:43 EST spring cleaning in December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829673 Good Morning; Woke up and really wanted to sort and get rid of stuff. DH has a hard time sorting. I just took 3 boxes down which we have not seen in 2 decades. I threw out everything. I have decided to do a little at a time. DH will not even notice. I could not believe the stuff we had in there and do not need. Over in the last 2 weeks I have gotten rid of 9 boxes. <em>243</em> I have to stop on that and do some other cleaning. I finished my Christmas cards. I feel vitalized. ... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 12:09:32 EST Just got back from the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829072 Good Morning; I got up still angry at DH. He woke up all sparkly and wanted to do this and that with me. I told him that sounds good go do it. I am going to the gym. He decided to go for a walk. some days, I think being by myself is really what I need. I expected at my age to have a partner who is a real partner. I will not tolerate having another adult child as my partner into my golden years. It is not enjoyable and so stressful. I think DH had some very deep seated resentment to... Sun, 7 Dec 2014 11:31:02 EST Here we go another http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828712 Good afternoon- DS called and needed to borrow some luggage. We decided to drive them up. DH starts pouting. Last night it was ok. He does not talk to me all the way up - does not talk much during lunch. Pouts on the way home. I said to him I love it my 60 year old is acting like a child. I did not want to go - it was very obvious I said. I just decided to man up and go and give our son some luggage. He has only <BR> Army duffel bags which he can not carry now. We are home, but ... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 17:10:12 EST This season is supposed to be full of joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827435 Good Morning: My DS is taking a trip to see his daughter. The ex has once again caused all sorts of trouble. They have a legal decree, but she is making wild comments, etc. She has called him cripple which sets him off. DS calls me I just want to see my daughter why does she has to be like this. <em>198</em> He is still going with his GF for support. I gave him all my Christmas presents to take on the plane for my grand daughter. We do not know what the plane trip will do to his back... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 09:14:02 EST Got my DH back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5824636 Good Morning; My DH has been in a mood ever since his birthday. He says he is now old. But this morning, we had a talk which has not been our first. But today he listened and it sunk in. I told him we have so much to be grateful. We have our health and we have very similar likes, etc. We need to stay positive and live each day. Do not dwell on the future - but make positive choices and enjoy life now. He went into the attic brought down 6 boxes of old big clothes which I have been ... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 10:03:49 EST Happy Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823805 Good Morning; Not having a big dinner. Kids all going some where else. I truly do not mind. I have made peace long ago with this fact. Adult children have their own lives. DH is in pig heaven putting out lights. He was restless until it got light, a normal time to go out and get started on his project. <em>213</em> I will be going to the gym in a little. I feel very positive this morning. I am having a wonderful meal today. <em>243</em> <em>521</em> <em>306</em> <em>38... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 10:21:58 EST Happy thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823257 Good Morning- already went to gym. DD has been calling and facetime me. She is not coming this thanksgiving - need to share her with her inlaws. I have learned to share so it does not bother me. DH & I will have a very healthy meal. <em>213</em> DS legal results are very complicated. Not sure if he will get all done before he gets to visit daughter in December. January seems more realistic. <BR> I am just staying out of the situation as much as possible. Hope you have wonderfu... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 09:27:44 EST I am trying to teach my DS a lesson http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822147 Good Morning; DD called me last night. DS has now by court order visits his DD <BR> monthly 1200 miles away. AS you all know, DS has a disability from Iraq has PTSD. <BR> He has come a long way but still has much to go. These conditions make everything harder to manage. <BR> My daughter told me that we need to give DS money for Christmas. That is what he needs now. Instead of giving her dad and I a gift-she is applying it to DS's gift in money. I told her ok but DS can not depend on us ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 09:37:09 EST Another needy person http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820544 Good Morning; yesterday I had my regular tea with my neighbor. she is getting very needy. she wants more attention from me. Her husband and her do nothing except go out for a meal each day. They both look like they are 15 years older than they are. Yesterday, she was really emotional - which wears me out. I need balanced relationships which she is not. B/C she is so lonely I spend time with her out of charity, but she is so draining. She needs to exercise and get out of the house. Me... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 08:24:41 EST been to the gym already http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819999 Good Morning; DS says he won the court case. Not sure what winning means. He has to go to the city where his child is monthly for a year. Nor sure his disability will allow this. I think the win- has major stumbling blocks to over come. DS is positive and if his upbeat attitude will get him there, then it will be a success. I just think he is unrealistic. He is afraid his ex will start neglecting his daughter b/c she is pregnant with her BF's baby. She is pulling another trapping a ... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 09:42:19 EST Oh brother - it is never ending http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819384 Good Morning- DS called me yesterday evening. He is supposed to have a court day today. His lawyer told him that she can not represent him b/c she got elected to family court judge. His ex also caused more problems. Not sure of all the details- DS was so upset that he started arguing with me. I told him if you calm down I will be glad to talk with you. He hangs up. <em>198</em> Not sure what the issues are, but his ex is a nightmare. His child is used as a weapon against him. <... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 08:50:29 EST Saw grand children this past weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818857 Good Morning; <BR> Need to get back on program. Today is the day. It has been hectic. My GS is now 15 lbs and 26 inches tall. He is a big baby, but a nice baby. GD is a real pistol. She is so smart. She has be quite a talker. She sometimes gets jealous of her brother, but she loves the baby I sent her. She walks with her baby next to her in a carrier. It is really cute to see how she comforts her baby. DD is really a busy mom. <em>243</em> I worry that she is doing too much. S... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 10:17:47 EST Veterans Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815002 Blessing to all who have served. When I was on vacation in Italy, I prayed in every church I found on my path. I actually came back with seeing a change in my DS. I see small steps, but I know his counselor has helped him greatly. Getting to see his daughter more has helped him greatly. He finally has a relationship with a quality woman. She is graduating from college soon. <em>213</em> <em>104</em> I went to the gym this morning. I feel great!! Have a wonderful day. <BR> Tue, 11 Nov 2014 15:22:56 EST As the world turns with mom's estate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814210 Good Morning; got an email from sister - mom is still not cremated. I thought oh brother. I got a FAX this morning for me to sigh, but then I called to funeral home to make sure they received paper work. Mom died over 6 weeks ago. Siblings were fighting over arrangements. <em>198</em> I finally got the date she died. I never knew. Oh well- hopefully things will return to normal on my end. I feel better just sending the paperwork. I will exercise soon. I have spent the morning... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 11:53:38 EST went to gym this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813657 Good afternoon; Had a wonderful workout this morning. DH is in a restless mood. <BR> Asked me why dont you start putting up Christmas ornaments. I said I want to wait awhile. I had stuff to do on my list, but he kept interrupting me. <BR> So I decided to get on my computer while we put on a DVD, he settled down. Thank goodness, he was driving me crazy. I sent him for a walk; that helped some, but not all. Not sure what is going on, he has settled down. <em>213</em> <em>243</em> ... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 14:40:54 EST spending the day with DS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813056 Good Morning; celebrating DS for Veterans day. He got a court order for Ex to have his daughter 3x a week skype with him. He is also getting photos on a regular basis. <BR> Having a wonderful meal and nice conversations. Have a good day. <em>243</em> <em>521</em> <em>381</em> Starting back to exercising tomorrow. Back feels so much better. <em>213</em> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> Sat, 8 Nov 2014 11:24:54 EST having some lower back pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811882 Good Morning; It is not bad, but I need to stop exercising some of the ways I have been since I have been back from vacation. I think I need to listen to my body. I just seem tired lately. Maybe it is being back from vacation and life is not as interesting or fun as it was a short time ago. Talked with GFs about trip and brought back such great memories. I had put together packets of photos and mementos for my GFs. One of my friends has gone through a health battle for 20 years of hep ... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 09:45:24 EST gone to gym already this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810628 Good Morning; Planning a head. DH is off today. He is home and watching war movies. It is so noisy. He has been moody, but is enjoying himself now. I am doing computer work. Now going to take a nice hot bath and relax. DH has a tendency to narrate movies. I just told him that he does not have to narrate the movie- if I do not know something I will ask questions. I have seen these movies many times over the years. DS can not watch these types of movies b/c he was actually in a war. ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 10:44:09 EST Went to gym this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809461 Good Morning; I had a talk with DH. I think he is settling down. He got insecure from thinking that he is getting old. Running out of time. I told him to stay in the here and now. I am always surprised when things like this happen. <em>247</em> I am doing good and staying in the here and now. <em>243</em> <em>521</em> <em>306</em> <em>381</em> Sun, 2 Nov 2014 16:46:35 EST TG Halloween is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808596 Good Morning; DH wanted to hand out candy. He went out and bought over 300 junior candy bars. We do not get that many kids. I told him to start handing out 3-4 at a time. He got tired of giving out candy and started giving out much more. <BR> He has been driving me crazy with his spending. At work they had blind bidding for baskets for charity. He is bidding on food baskets. I told him you keep spending like this and you will be 75 before you retire. <em>198</em> He told last nigh... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 10:34:58 EST Went to gym this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808043 Good Morning; got a tune up at my counselor's. She said it was very normal to have memories come up after a death of a parent. She told me to embrace it and vision my mom as an old woman who does not have any power over me any more. Forgive her and move on. She said that I was handling it very well. <em>243</em> Heard from DS- he is handling things well. Counselor knew that DS would just start doing things on his own once he made up his mind and I was not longer in the picture. Ou... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 10:00:46 EST Spending - DH still on vacation mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807455 Good Morning; My Dh had "fun" spending during vacation. I told him why do we need this stuff. He says he is buying for himself. His whole family are collectors of stuff. He has gotten worse lately- ever since his last birthday. The Age has really effected him. Oh dear! The older he gets the more emotional he is getting. It is really strange. I expected to have for my retirement life with my partner being an adult with mature issues. I am going to the counselor about my mom's deat... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 09:50:45 EST went to gym this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806222 Good Morning; I am getting back into exercising daily again. My sister sent me an email and had a phone call- this one is the younger one that mom lived with b/4 she died since 2003. Mom had dementia. she was on bio-polar medicine. She would have screaming and crying tantrums. I guess before I came home from vacation my mother called my brother and told him that my sister was torturing her and locking her in a room. <em>198</em> My brother went to the house and took my mother out. ... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 09:23:41 EST I am back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805571 Good Morning - went on vacation. My Mom died -siblings fighting over will. <BR> I made it clear that I did not want any part of the will or anything. Mom was not a very good mom. I have not talked to her for many years. She was abusive in many ways. I wish her peace, but I am so very glad she threw me out of the house when I was in my teens. It made me the person I am today. I am strong and have known for long time that I can make it on my own. But I want to report that I only gaine... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 09:47:15 EST Feeling good today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780821 Good Morning; Dh is in a better mood. We talked and I expressed that he has these moods that he can work himself out. He says he knows, but he rarely gets himself out unless I bring it up. <em>220</em> Been going to gym daily and it helps me greatly. Have not heard from DS for a few days. I have let go. He is an adult. My program is much better when I let him go. <em>247</em> DD is doing well. I have been getting some photos. When I get a chance, I will download some. Have a... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 08:19:56 EST Boy did I learn a lesson http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780233 Good Morning; DH had a colonoscopy and we got a bill from the hospital. I tried calling and finding how much we owed after insurance. DH did not have time to do it. Hospital would not tell me b/c it was under DH name. I paid a portion and heard nothing. We finally heard from insurance and they paid for everything. We argued about this. I told him that you need to call and get us a refund. I told Dh to call today b/4 he forgets. I get this mouth - it is always something. I told h... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 10:33:47 EST DD is home now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777918 Good Day; Just got an update from DD. GD loves her new baby- the doll I bought for her b/c DD wanted her to have a baby to come home from the hospital. <em>251</em> MIL is supposed to still be there helping. I had a long talk with DD. My DD is very sore b/c the baby was so big. She did not get too much rest in the hospital. I am hoping she is getting some now. SIL is going back to school in a week. <em>224</em> GD loves her brother, but loves him better since she has a baby, too. <BR... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 11:56:18 EST NEW GS 9 lbs+ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775865 Update: I just got word that DD had a baby boy. Over 9 lbs - SIL says they are both resting. She can forget those newborn clothes sizes. It sure has got me feeling great. I have not been able to talk with DD. I will wait <em>251</em> until she calls me. <em>176</em> Mon, 8 Sep 2014 12:36:47 EST DD's water broke early this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775731 Good Morning; I got the text early this morning. I send my prayers that everything will go positively and DD will have a better experience than last time. <em>247</em> <em>79</em> <em>104</em> I decided to go to the gym earlier than usual. I am going to keep busy until I heard more details. MIL is supposed to be there helping with GD or on her way. Have a good day!! <em>104</em> <em>224</em> Mon, 8 Sep 2014 09:27:34 EST going to gym - day not so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774637 Good afternoon; DH has a bean up his you know what today. It has to do with too much kids contact. DD may be having a baby this weekend or induced next week. <BR> DS is having problems with his back. I know the signs when DH gets in these moods. <BR> He does not mind him and I talking, but he gets quiet when the kids are brought up. <BR> Oh well, I have decided to go to gym. Maybe he will come out of his mood or not. I have things to do. I can look forward to "Outlander" tonight. Hop... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 14:42:12 EST DD called this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774107 Good afternoon, Her pre-eclampsia has come back. She has an evaluation this afternoon and a decision will be made when to induce labor. Because of her history, they want a conservative approach. Baby is 40 weeks in 2 weeks. DD is calm. I am calm, but just waiting for word of the decision. Went to gym this morning! Fri, 5 Sep 2014 16:55:21 EST Just got a call from DD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773348 Good afternoon- She says no I am still pregnant, but have you ever had hemorrhoids. I told her yes. She did not have them with the first pregnancy. I told her preparation H suppositories work great -warm baths is what my mother did. She had hemorrhoids for every pregnancy. She sounded great but really wants to deliver this baby. GD is already calling her doll a boy. She also told me that her MIL is coming this time to help her with GD. I am so glad that she is getting support from ... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 12:40:52 EST day going good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772586 Good Morning- I have already burned 300 calories doing cardio at gym. I then went home and did some work in my flower garden - just taking dead leaves and such out of the garden. I feel great, but I wish I was sleeping better. I have too much on my mind. I am thinking of doing therapy yoga. There is a studio near my home, but it is full until January. With DS having deep depression problems, DD about to deliver and other stuff coming up, I think too much. I have to gets back on medit... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:15:06 EST good news! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771623 Good Morning; I had a hard time sleeping. I am going to be going to gym soon. <BR> Got a call from DD. She is ready to delivery any time. She is on leave now and it is just a waiting game. Since she is able to rest more, she is in a much better mood. <BR> <em>79</em> During a skype, GD is telling us about what she has been doing. DD also told me that GD is now in pull-ups. I think they have come to the realization that GD was under stress from potty training and all the stress in h... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 06:14:59 EST Having a good day !! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770577 Good afternoon; Having a peaceful day - went to gym this morning. <BR> DS lost a person in his squad to suicide two days ago. the guy had 3 kids. I told my son you do not know what was going on in his home. The guy was in his 30's. <BR> <em>28</em> DS said this is number 6 from his company. The Army should be more engaged with these guys to track them with such a terrible history of suicide. <BR> We have decided to go see DS in the future at his house. Dh is going to help him put a ... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 16:22:05 EST yesterday was emotional with DS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769303 Good Morning; DS had a terrible episode with new meds Wednesday. He had a change in his meds. I never understand that. DS has such bad side effects. <BR> This medicine is bringing back the horrors of war. He is remembering more and more. He has tried to stuff it down b/4. I talked with him over an hour on the phone. DH birthday is this weekend - his desire is a calm weekend. DS just drains me emotionally. I am eating well, tracking food and exercising daily. I have chosen not to g... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 10:17:56 EST Got lost on Spark with new-design- blinking -ads- what next http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766722 Good Morning; I am back home. I felt the earthquake only slightly where I was staying. I was awake and in bed. It felt like a mild shake. I just froze than it dawned on me what it was. I got up and turned on TV. I got ready and just left the airport early. All elevators and escalators in my path were down. I inquired and they said it was because of the quake. <em>213</em> I am really wondering about all this advertising on Spark. Now I have them blinking. What next? I saw a seg... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 12:21:01 EST flying out soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765699 Good evening; End of my mission. I feel good about me helping my daughter. SIL is an immature jerk at times. GD was throwing so many tantrums. SIL was always around and GD would act up. When GD was with me alone - no tantrums. I do not wish to come back for a week at all. I might come back for a weekend. Found out today In-laws are coming in to help her in 2 weeks. Yea!!!! I know they will not clean house, do laundry and do dishes like I do. I do not care to compare. SIL h... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 21:39:30 EST I am positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764825 Good Morning; <BR> Yesterday we went to SF Zoo. GD just loved the animals. It was a great day. <BR> The bear exhibit where they feed the grizzlies was fabulous. Left before GD had a melt down from need of a nap. She made it home. baby took a long nap. DD and SIL had an appt for a massage which I did not know. They came home later than expected - said they would get dinner going. I just decided at this point to go back to hotel. SIL procrastinates. I knew it would become an 8 pm mea... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 10:02:55 EST Well good times have come to the end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764146 Good Morning; DD started the criticism of me most of the day. I know things have changed with GD. She was throwing tantrums yesterday. DD had the nerve to tell me that GD is throwing tantrum b/c I was there. I told DD then she is a very exceptional child since she waits until I come. 2 year olds have tantrums anyway no matter who is around. But I also know there is anxiety in the house due to new baby coming. DD is trying to potty training and GD is not making much progress by choice. ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 09:38:51 EST