NINALEE35's SparkPeople Blog NINALEE35's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Life Is a Journey I look back over my life and find it incredible how my likes, dislikes, philosophy, wants, needsÑwell, everything has changed over the years. It reminds me so much of taking a trip. <BR> <BR> As you travel (on a trip) you have good roads with smooth sailing. You have hills to climb and vales to rest in. You pass through many communities and see many people busy about their activities. Sometimes you have a direction to go and feel an urgency to get there; other times you slow down, loiter, an... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 07:12:23 EST Once In A Row Well, I made it yesterday! I was successful once in a row. Today I didn't do so well. I didn't post my food and therefore wasn't nearly aware of what I put in my mouth. <BR> <BR> But think about it: yesterday I met my goals. I was successful once in a row. Today I aimed for my goals and missed some of them, but I think I was still successful. Maybe I'm straining at gnats, but I try to separate myself from my goal so that when I miss the goal, I don't think I'm a failure, just that I failed t... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 00:41:10 EST I Lie No, not to you. Not to my family. I lie to myself. You know, I tell myself that I didn't really overfill the 1/2 cup mark, I really drank a cup of water (even if the glass was only half full), I didn't really eat 7 saltinesÑthey must have fallen off the table (and no, I don't admit it was the recliner where I was eating. Of course it was at the table.) I doubt that I'm the exception. I expect we all play games with our own minds (well, at least most of us.) The truth hurts, but only admitting... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 05:24:29 EST I Lie No, not to you. Not to my family. I lie to myself. You know, I tell myself that I didn't really overfill the 1/2 cup mark, I really drank a cup of water (even if the glass was only half full), I didn't really eat 7 saltinesÑthey must have fallen off the table (and no, I don't admit it was the recliner where I was eating. Of course it was at the table.) I doubt that I'm the exception. I expect we all play games with our own minds (well, at least most of us.) The truth hurts, but only admitting... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 18:23:08 EST Thank You For Being a Friend Friendship isn't just for todayÑfriendship can last a lifetime. Friends can be someone you've never met (like all of you, my SparkFriends) or they can be family (my daughter is my bestest friend ever!) or a neighbor, a fellow church member, or, well, anyone. <BR> <BR> Friends can keep your life on an even keel, they can cheer you up when no-one else can, touch your heart with kind words and deeds, humble you in a loving way when you need it but are always there to build you up again. Friends... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 14:51:04 EST I Choose to Refuse to Give Up! I haven't been on the SparkPeople site for some time. I blame it on health issues, recent widow-hood, too much to do and too little time, too much depression. Well, you get the picture. But in spite of all my excuses, I know I have no valid reason. <BR> <BR> Nobody tied my hands so I couldn't type. No-one force-fed me. No one wouldn't let me exercise. They were all my personal choices. But I can choose to change all that. I can choose to get better, healthier, slimmer. I can choose to get my... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 01:22:06 EST Closing a Chapter of My Life I have been married 39 years as of last Christmas Day. My dear husband told people he married me on December 25th so he could remember when Christmas was! He was a wonderful man. I lost him on January 12, 2012. His funeral was yesterday, January 16th. <BR> <BR> He is no longer in pain, no longer suffering, as he has for three long years. He is okay nowÑwhole, not hurting, embraced by the arms of God. I don't begrudge for a minute that he has gone on ahead of me. <BR> <BR> Yes, I'll miss him... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 12:50:24 EST Why I Am Lucky Well, really I'm not lucky—that denotes that some mysterious something blesses me whether I deserve it or not. I am, however, extremely fortunate and am blessed with more things than I can count. Let's see. How about nature: the colors splashed and blended by God's paintbrush; the beautiful sunrises and sunsets with their kaleidoscope of yellow, red, scarlet, and eventually fading into darkness; family—life—the sweet responsibility of holding and teaching a tiny new person as he/she grows int... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 12:21:20 EST Back on Track I've been really discouraged this past week, both with personal issues and my weight loss program. I had decided I was going to quit taking my meds (including my insulin), quit going to doctors, and just let my life run its course. It didn't seem worth the effort to do otherwise. But with the counsel of SparkFriends and encouraging words of other friends, I realize that life is worth living and that I need to start getting back on track. <BR> <BR> My emotions are still really raw, but I jus... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 13:34:52 EST My Figure is 36-24-36 Oh, did I mention it's buried under about 100 pounds of fat? But it's there! My goal is to get to where it shows to the rest of the world! It is encouraging to me to know it is there, and by following SparkPeople's encouragement, posting to my Teams, and recording everything I eat (Oh, bummer! I'd really rather not know, but that's what got me where I am!), oh yes, and drinking my water instead of the sodas I'm hooked on, I can reach my goal. Maybe not in 2011 (that's an average of 2 pounds a... Thu, 30 Dec 2010 20:08:10 EST New Beginnings I, like lots of others, look forward to the new year, new beginnings. It feels like a magic date, one that will let us start over. But then I remember that EVERY day is a new beginning. I don't have to wait for that one magical date to "start over" and get healthier. I've got today! Actually, that's the only day I've got—today. I can't change yesterday, and I have no promise of tomorrow, but I have today. What a wonderful gift! Tue, 28 Dec 2010 06:14:40 EST They All Need Love Today I read a blog by BILLPHIL, and it brought to mind that I have a similar problem, but not so close to home. <BR> I have become "Grandma Nina" to a 10-year-old girl from a similar situation. She's not adopted, but living with another disfunctional family with two girls to whom I've become "Grandma Nina." She has such a wall built up around her, and her behavior is atrocious as a result of her upbringing, that I think only love will help her to realize that she is an okay person. She has m... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 11:09:51 EST You Haven't Failed! One of our Over 70 Team wrote a blog and seemed quite discouraged—but she's keeping on working towards her goal! I'm really proud of her. I wanted to share what I wrote to her in a comment to her blog, because it applies to so very many of us. Here it is: <BR> <BR> "I imagine we've all been there, done that. I know that at least I have. But you haven't failed. "Diets" have failed you. They shouldn't put such restrictions on us that it sets us up to fail..... Break your [goals] into small pi... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 15:13:51 EST Happy Halloween??? I have not liked Halloween for many years and here's why. I'm not a grinch who stole Halloween. I just think it's not a good idea to teach kids to beg and then put anything in their mouths that strangers give them. I know parents often accompany the children, but in today's world that might not be a total deterrent. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I'm not against kids wearing costumes and having a great time! I'm 75 years old and I still wear a costume to a "Fall Festival" for the children at our ... Sat, 30 Oct 2010 03:45:51 EST Am I A Judge? I took the Spark quick poll today "Be honest: Do you secretly (or openly) judge people based on their weight?" As I contemplated my answer, I was ashamed to admit I'm guilty of judging people for various reasons, and I know that is wrong. "Judge not that ye be not judged." <BR> <BR> I don't judge a person because of her (or his) size as much as I do on what appears to be their attitude -- slovenly or well kempt, walking (I admire!), or slumped in a booth stuffing their faces with junk food ... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 15:23:17 EST I Hurried Too Much! I found myself just rushing through the daily Spark emails, just to get the "point." Then I realized the REAL "Point" was in the contents of the emails. As I read them, I get new ideas, new encouragement, new information, well, you get the point. (Pun intended!) <BR> <em>100</em> <em>211</em> <BR> Well, I've been dieting for the past 25 years. Yo-yo-ing I should say. I start a diet and then can hardly wait to get off it so I can have -- well, you can fill in the blank. I wasn't ever ... Thu, 30 Sep 2010 13:41:54 EST Wake-up Call! This morning I reviewed my SparkPage and noticed I joined on September 22, 2008 -- two years ago last week. Then I looked at my weight then and now -- and in two years I've gained 10 pounds. That's not where I needed to go! Now I'm 69 pounds too heavy for my height, I have diabetes with a lot of neuropathy and NEED to lose weight. I am a product of bad choices. But when I looked back and discovered what I've been doing to myself, it really was a wake-up call. I'll start this morning with a mo... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 05:30:42 EST Wish I'd Learned When I Was Young! I'm 75. I'm just now learning several life truths that I wish I'd learned when I was young. Things like: <BR> <BR> Nobody will take care of your weight but you. Nobody else CAN! So do it -- stay healthy! <BR> <BR> Nobody makes you angry or sad or depressed. Your reaction is what causes these emotions, and other emotions as well. So choose ahead of time how you're going to react in different situations and live by those choices. <BR> <BR> Time frittered away can never be regained. Once it's... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 11:20:25 EST Excuses, Excuses.... I've made every excuse in the book -- most of them in the past three months. "I'm too busy." "I'm taking care of my ill husband." "I'm too stressed out." "I've just moved." "I just had knee surgery." "I have diabetes and I'm on insulin." Well, you get the picture. <BR> <BR> I haven't said "Nobody has forced you to put a single bite in your mouth, or to stuff it full when you're out and about so no-one will see you eat." I forgot I'm totally responsible for my condition -- good, bad, or indi... Sat, 17 Jul 2010 16:18:34 EST I'm Doing It For Me! I have so many reasons for losing weight -- I have a daughter who is overweight and I would like to be a good example. I have children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, and each one of them gives me incentive to be as healthy as I can for as long as I can. <BR> <BR> Oh, I've got other reasons. I'm 75 years old, have had diabetes for 19 years, and am limping around (figuratively speaking) on arthritic knees and hips. <BR> <BR> But those aren't the reasons I'm losing weight. Oh, they count... Sat, 10 Apr 2010 17:02:26 EST Act As If.... How many times have you said—or thought— "When I lose weight I can/will ...." You can fill in the rest of the sentence. For example, "When I lose weight I will feel more confident." or "... I will eat less." or "... I will be friendlier" or "... I will take better care of my hair." or—well, you get the idea. I would venture to guess it is a theme for most of us who need to lose weight. <BR> <BR> But I suggest a new approach, which I have incorporated into many areas of my life, including wei... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 11:14:22 EST Thoughts of a Caregiver I've been very fortunate. My husband had a stroke last week and lost quite a bit of brain function (speech, reading, writing, etc.) but he didn't suffer physically. He is still capable of caring for himself, and those things are so ingrained that he can do them without thinking. He is mobile and doesn't need physical care. <BR> <BR> I think of those whose spouses have alzheimers or some other debilitating disease, and my heart goes out to them. How much more difficult they have it! They are ... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 15:49:57 EST Are You Ready? After reading a post on a Team I'm on, it triggered a thought I'd like to share more publicly. <BR> <BR> A person would be SO SMART to be stocking up on the necessities of life. I fear we are in for some rough times, and when the world wakes up, shelves will be emptied in a big hurry. I have really stocked up on things like rice, dried beans, oatmeal, wheat, dried corn, garden seeds, and things like that, that can go a long, long ways if need be. And another thing to think about is water -- ... Tue, 3 Mar 2009 02:26:49 EST If You Bite It, Write It I have wondered why I don't lose more weight. Well, I joined TOPS this past Tuesday, and among other things, we agreed to record everything we put in our mouths. I did, and I did great on Wednesday -- 1346 calorires; Thursday -- 1885 calories (Oops!!!) and on Friday <em>46</em> <em>198</em> 3493 calories, which included 327 carbos, exclusive of fiber carbos. (How's THAT for a diabetic???) NOW I think I'm beginning to get the idea."If you bite it, write it!" <BR> <BR> I've been half-hear... Sat, 7 Feb 2009 21:01:40 EST Will You Dance With Me? My daughter sent this to me and it made me think SO MUCH of my life that I want to share it with you. <BR> <BR> Will You Dance With Me? <BR> <BR> Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine. <BR> I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort t... Wed, 21 Jan 2009 11:09:03 EST Do I Love Myself? I've been trying to lose weight for -- oh, about 36 years now. That's when I met and married my wonderful husband. <BR> Before that I had an exceptionally great figure -- and I flaunted it. I had lost respect for men in general, because it seemed no matter who they were, they'd stop and stare. And I enjoyed it! <BR> Then I met my dear husband, and I realized that men can be wonderful and trustworthy and kind and good. And I was ashamed of who I had been previously. <BR> I started putting on ... Mon, 19 Jan 2009 00:02:17 EST I Can't Rest On My Laurels On January 1st, I weighed 205 pounds. On January 12 I weigh 198.6 — down 6.4 lbs. I've done that before. Then I go eat to celebrate. And I un-do everything I had accomplished. I'm not going to do that this time! Food has served as a "reward" for me all my life. Well, this time weight loss is my reward. And I want more and more of that reward. I think I'm finally starting to figure out how that is done — and it is NOT by eating to celebrate. This time I'll celebrate by spending a little more t... Mon, 12 Jan 2009 13:08:07 EST New Year's Resolutions You know what? I've made a New Year's resolution for several years now that I would "lose weight this year," and I usually put a number of pounds I wanted to lose. But I'm not going to do that this year. You know why? It's too vague and too easy to procrastinate. So-o--o-o my resolution this year is to learn to eat correctly: amount of food; type or food; time of day to eat; portion control; well, you get the picture. I am also going to resolve to start exercising regularly. I'll not put down... Fri, 2 Jan 2009 19:59:16 EST What I Saw in the Mirror Today As I stepped out of the shower this morning, I glanced in the mirror. There, hanging out in front of me was this big body with folds of skin in the front beneath a large abdomen and hips sticking out in the rear. My first reaction? "I hate this body!" <BR> <BR> But you know what? I really love this body. It isn't a food magnet. It didn't scarf up a single bite against my will. Whatever its problems, I caused it—it didn't do a thing by itself. And this body walks wherever I ask it to, thinks... Mon, 24 Nov 2008 12:19:40 EST Be What You Want To Be Hi Everyone. I've not been around for a few days, but I've gone back and read a lot of the posts. You know, we're all really in the same boat. We all respond to stressful issues by wanting to eat. And why not? We were programmed from birth. If we cried, we got a bottle. If we fussed, we got a bottle. If we had a bellyache, we got a bottle. As we got a little older, we got a sucker if we were a good girl (or boy) at the doctor's, the dentist's, or even at a friends house. Or a snack after scho... Tue, 18 Nov 2008 02:04:28 EST