NIKONDEMON's SparkPeople Blog NIKONDEMON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Revelations of my 30th year. Ok yea I have only been 30 for a few months but I feel like I have made the most progress in my journey in those last few months. But first a few updates since they dear with my mental journey: <BR> <BR> In the family realm, things are finally getting better. For the last six months or so (to be fair to all parties involved) the most important male figure in my life struggled with alcohol problems. His excuse was all the pain he was in or my mother’s health. So for the last few months I... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 12:55:55 EST As if life wasn't chaotic enough... In family news my father goes in for his 10th heart cath on Monday...I won't even begin to explain the chaos that involves. Just lots of my father apologizing for feeling bad which really didn't think he needed to be sorry for... <BR> <BR> So now I finally get to throw my own wench in. Finally made it to the doctor's office for my physical exam. From the results from my bloodwork I have nothing to worry about far as cholestrol, blood pressure and my heart. My blood sugar on the tests tu... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 20:32:07 EST If you never fall, you'll never know what it's like to get back up again. So for the past few months/days/years etc. I've been tee-totering in the mid to upper 140s. Considering I started my journey January 2011 at 162, 140s even upper end should be amazing. However, I was at my lowest by December 2011 at 137. Seeing the 130s, it kinda sucks being stuck in the 140s for so long...2011? wow. Silly holidays, I watched points and how much I ate but I got back to lazy habits. But today is a new day and I vowed to myself I'd NEVER see 160s again. Even 150 is unacce... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 11:21:58 EST A week from the darkest abyss. I've been a little too quiet lately. Usually I post a lot more but I've been absent for the past month. <BR> <BR> For once its me thats has had the problems. Two weeks ago I got blood drawn for my yearly physical. Everything was going well enough, my veins hate needles so they had to take it out of my hand. Nothing new there, I'm tiny and I've always had problems getting blood drawn. Well I get back into the car with my dad and we chit chat as we go up the road. All of the sudden I s... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 19:34:30 EST Its funny how the little things... So this evening I was handed a dime. In fact about 20 minutes ago. Right now that dime means more than the ten cents the federal reserve has placed on it. <BR> <BR> For some backstory: <BR> In 2000, my dad's health began to decline. In 2004 he had a quadruple bypass. The surgeon actually destroyed part of his heart, not being able to reconnect an artery. In 2007 he had gastric bypass surgery to save his life. If he hadn't had that done he wouldn't have made it a year. His kidneys had ... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 22:48:12 EST June Goals Well here I am back from vacation. I'm so proud that I only gained like two pounds back. Those are gone already but I still feel ick from being back home. I was mindful while on vacation about what I was eatting. I also had multiple photo shoots so the blood got pumping :) Vacation was so relaxing and it felt AMAZING to create art again. Soon as I got off the plane in Baltimore though the stress returned. I started work on my comic/novel again just to try and deal with the usual stuff. ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 00:49:04 EST Who are we in our heads? So I let a number bother me. 150. That is the weight I was about three years ago when I was 7 months into my journey. I backtracked. I am not happy that this happened but I will not let it get me down (ok well anymore than it already has). I’m stubborn, hard-headed and determined. Therefore I will be getting up early in the morning and going for a walk. I have broken down my weight goals into smaller more achievable goals. My first goal is to get back down to 143. I was pretty proud ... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 01:27:33 EST Labels and Numbers (edited) One thing I've learned since starting my journey is how engrained we are as a society with labels. Even as lifestyle changers i.e. dieters we stick with certain labels. Thankfully better ones but still. We even push ourselves to read other labels. With the exception of nutritional labels, do these labels even mean the same to everyone? The ones that always boggle my mind were pretty, beautiful, attractive, etc...Lately with the lose of inches I've noticed I'm getting hit on a lot more. ... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 22:34:02 EST 1-6 to 1-12 So last week wasn't the exact success I had expected but oh well. Did not get my videos or DVDs in BUT I did get in a lot of solid housecleaning in. There was some real calorie burn reorganizing the kitchen and putting Christmas stuff almost away. Each night that week I also went through 1-2 boxes of stuff and files or got rid of it. The fireplace has been my best friend :) <BR> <BR> I'm also a little bit closer to getting that license. My car, Jose as I named him, went to the mechanic... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 13:58:00 EST Goals for January 2013 and new year Very simply the things I will be working on this month and possibly the coming months depending on how successful I am. The idea was originally posted in the SparkTeam Inner Journey, there are many avenues in my life I need to work on simutanously so I amended the exercise a bit. <BR> <BR> Goals pertaining to Weight/Health: <BR> - Track all food on SP (even my bites and snacks) <BR> - Do one Spark Video A week <BR> - Do a DVD two times a week <BR> - Eat 1 veggie per meal <BR> - Find healt... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 21:58:56 EST The Journey of Me thus far.... Funny thing is I keep telling myself I'm going to blog more but it seems its one more goal I just don't do. Oh well, I've made bigger achievements this year so I'll let the less blogging thing slide for now. January 1 began year two of my journey, even though I'm stuck in the mid-140s I'm proud of myself. I finally found something I can stick to, me. Then again it is my life so I'm sorta stuck with it :) I like the sound of that...My Life. Which is a good way to put my lessons for this... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 23:29:55 EST I feel like I've accomplished the impossible As I write this entry I realize that nothing is really impossible when you put your mind to it. Going into the Thanksgiving holiday I was worried about a repeat of last year's holiday weight gain. Just before Thanksgiving 2011 I was down to 136ish lbs, enter the holidays and I entered the 140s (again sigh) and stayed. So this year I was bound and determined not to go up in weight again. Just before the holiday I was weighed myself at 148 (yikes!), well here it is Black Friday and this mor... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 14:43:44 EST Well here it is....year 29.... I may stop celebrating birthdays, last year there was a mini blizzard the day before my birthday and this year there was a hurricane...yep definitely going to stop celebrate. Or at least I will ignore the day before my birthday. So how have I done as far as my weight loss journey and other goals for life? Heh...I've maintained the same weight since this time last year. Course I was thinking I'd be much much closer to my goal weight if not at it. But in this last year I've concentrated mor... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 13:29:42 EST A new beginning? So I've been on SP for almost two months now. I didn't get into the site too much because I was a "faithful" follower of another well-known program. I found myself tired of figuring out points when it would be so much easier just to track things like carbs, fat, protein and fiber without having to configure them into other units. A co-worker showed me SP and I was hooked. Also I like saving money with a free program :) I lost 20ish lbs on the former program so I should have no problem los... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:18:31 EST