NIKKICOLE83's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NIKKICOLE83 NIKKICOLE83's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Rating my VivoFit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839252 I know it has only been two days with my vivofit but I felt it necessary to share with anyone who may be thinking about getting one of these gadgets. I absolutely love this one. First of all, the display keeps me motivated. I can see at all times how many steps I've accumulated, how many calories I have burned,the time, the date, and my percentage to step goal. it also tracks my sleeping patterns. Did I mention that it is cheaper than the Fitbit? Still not sold? My vivofit never has to be cha... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 10:33:26 EST I got a VivoFit for Christmas and cake pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5838740 A VivoFit is basically a FitBit, it is just made by Garmin. It looks the exact same and does the exact same thing. I am uncertain yet of whether I can add FitBit users to my program; I am still learning. But I am super excited that i have it. I am such a competitive person that I am instantly walking more and moving more because I am watching the numbers on my band go up. Now that I know there is a leaders board, IT IS ON! <BR> <BR> Santa Derrell also got me Just Dance 2015 as a gift. ... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 10:39:40 EST That annoying feeling when you lose a blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837989 Have you ever been in the middle of writing a blog post, better yet, NEARLY FINISHED with writing a blog post and then it just disappears??? Maybe disappears is the wrong word. My internet just freezes in the middle, I get the message box that the internet has stopped working and that tabs will be restored and when it's restored, my blog is gone. Perhaps it was divine intervention. <BR> <BR> I am not going to re-write everything so here is an abridged version of my lost blog: <BR> <BR> 1. ... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 13:19:01 EST Zumba just isn't the same anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837549 When did I become the stiff, old, off-beat lady in Zumba? I was always the 1 or 2 Black girls in class that rode the beat and shook it like a salt shaker with no problem. I was the rhythm and the blues. Last night I was more blues than rythym. Carrying around this extra weight in combination with just getting a little older, I looked a hot, lumpy mess. I was behind the beat most of the class and when I caught myself in the mirror swiveling my hips, I nearly choked when I realized I looke... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 14:49:51 EST ***What's Up with Nikki? Updates and PICS*** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836870 Hey gorgeous Sparklers! So much has happened recently with my health and family and I am happy to stop back in and catch up. <BR> <BR> Just as I was re-dedicating myself to my health and weight loss, I found out my husband and I were expecting! It was so exciting! We got pregnant sometime around our first year wedding anniversary. Early on we the doctor's had some concerns because my HcG levels were increasing, but they were not doubling every 24-36 hours as recommended. I wasn't nearly... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 14:01:20 EST starting to see changes!!! *** PROGRESS PICS *** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794732 It has been two weeks since I seen the infamous pictures taken of me that made me realize that I was quickly returning to my former, obese and unhappy self. The day that I got those pictures in my email was the day I reclaimed my health. These are the pics that broke my heart but also woke me up: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1327630886.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1484104990.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 14:43:00 EST my butt just might fall off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794187 My lovely lady lumps are sore!!! I am pretty sure my a$$ is trying to detach from my hamstrings. I have been working my bum off these past two weeks and now my cheeks feel like concrete. I would ask my hubby for a butt massage, but he is a man, and he reads "butt massage" as an invitation to get down. No, I need these bootay cramps rubbed out. <BR> <BR> Sunday I made up my own little master mix to get me warmed up before I did strength training. I did 5 sets of the series: 15 squats,... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 17:15:23 EST *** what keeps you on this path??? *** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791085 This is a fairly simple question and there are two ways you could answer it. One, is you could identify the "WHY" behind your health journey. For some it may be diabetes, for others it could be dreams of motherhood, and then there are those who want to be amazing athletes. We all have to have a "WHY" and I want to know what yours is. <BR> <BR> The second way to answer that question is what are those things you have learned along the way that help you maintain or kickstart a weightloss? ... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 11:31:30 EST MOTIVATOR OF THE DAY??!!! Which of my friends rigged the vote??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790344 What in the sam hell is going on? How did yo-yo dieting, back-sliding, Spanx-wearing, little (figuratively) old me get voted Motivator of the Day???? I thought you had to CRUSH IT consistently, and run half-marathons, and track your food to be one of those people. Turns out, you just have to be honest about the fact that you have been struggling desperately to get back to the SHERO that ran races twice a month, and who hungered for the most intense workout, and who had COLLAR BONES!! Who ... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 10:48:32 EST ***i was hypnotized LITERALLY, became a yogi, and changed perspective*** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754382 So much has happened in the four months since I last blogged! Actually, there has been no major THING that pulled me out of the Spark stratosphere, my heart just wasn't in it. My heart actually wasn't in a lot of things. My life felt BLAH. Of course we all know that when life starts to feel that way, we tend to pacify our feelings with food. I did that, a little, I guess. I never had a binge in those 4 months, I wasn't sneaking cookies or cakes. Honestly, my food habits weren't as bad ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 12:41:12 EST I know its about the food!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678723 I am stubborn. Not about everything, but the things I am passionate about, I would fight tooth and nail for. I am PASSIONATE about food. I am sure some of my fat may be due to deep-rooted psychological issues, but MOST of it is because FOOD IS <em>345</em> Everyone who has ever been on a diet has heard the addage that weight loss is 20% SWEAT and 80% NUTRITION. That sucks. Why can't I just eat my coffee cake and dance later???!!! <em>46</em> I am telling you, if weight loss was dete... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 13:24:53 EST Was it this hard last time? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677128 I don't remember it being this hard to lose a few pounds! When I started my weight loss journey nearly two years ago, I had the eye of the tiger. Everything was about healthy living. I lost 2 lbs a week consistently for 16 weeks and then it would hit or miss but I managed to get off 55 lbs. This past week I had a MINISCULE goal. A goal so small, it shouldn't even be called a goal. I just wanted to lose 0.2 lbs. I gained 0.6. What in the SAM HELL? I worked out 4 days last week and ate... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 13:51:04 EST Lipstick on the dance floor and fish for breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674462 Am I the only person that has to have on lipstick to REALLY dance??? About once a week I go to this Hip-Hop dance class with my brother's girlfriend. She always makes fun of me because before every class, I whip out my cosmetic bag and choose a color for the night. And not just any color. I go LOUD, SASSY, PREVOCATIVE. I wear hot pink, magenta, plum, midnight red. It's like I am putting on confidence with every swipe of the lipstick. Tameica will say, "Oh no. It's Beyonce!" Our dance... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 14:57:43 EST It's smoke! It's mirrors! It's Spanx! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673646 I had no clue I was getting fat again. Well, no, I KNEW I was gaining a few pounds when my inventory of Spanx increased from two pair of control top undies to a spandex wardrobe of tanks, body shapers and bras. It wasn't until my jawline got soft and I got cellulite on my upper arm, did I realize that I was disillusioned. <BR> <BR> The beauty of Spanx and other control garments is that they are a master at compressing loose skin. That is why I initially bout them. I was loosing weight pr... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 14:22:45 EST I missed you too!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672825 Oh how I love my Spark Friends, let me count the ways: 1.) You all are always checking in 2.) You genuinely care 3.) You haunt my dreams and thoughts 4.) You are sticking to your goals. <BR> <BR> Having friends like you all are necessary. I have been enjoying my husband, enjoying home, eating, drinking and being merry to the tune of 12 additional pounds. It was fun while it lasted but the truth is, your body knows what you need and I was genuinely happier and had more energy when my ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 12:42:27 EST when your mother doesn't like you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5567411 I know many women have stressed relationships with their moms. Part of me thinks it may just be part of nature. However, I am reaching a point in my life where I must either decide to confront my mother or choose to walk away from her. If I had to qualify my reasons in the simplest terms, they would be: <BR> <BR> 1:) She is mean. <BR> 2.) She is rude. <BR> 3.) She says hurtful things to me, about me, and to others. <BR> 4.) She is competitive. <BR> 5.) She does not show love or affectio... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 16:03:35 EST a tummy bug, bingeing on Christmas goodies and a fun Girl's Night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565893 I have been feeling like crap the past two days. I don't think its the flu because there isn't the vomitting and diarrhea but I definitely feel less than myself. Nonetheless, I moved ahead with my Girl's Christmas Potluck Party. There was ABSOLUTELY NOTHING healthy at this party. I ate nachos, chicken wings and red velvet cheesecake swirl brownies. I didn't eat a ton of it and didn't eat much else due to my tummy issues but this morning, was a different story. BINGE, BINGE, BINGE. Bad i... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 17:56:58 EST Lo Siento Mis Amigos!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562891 HELLLLOOO!!! I must apologize for my Spark Sabbatical. There were many reasons for it: <BR> 1.) Got married, got happy, got lazy <BR> 2.) Gym dates with the hubby became newlywed cuddle sessions on the couch <BR> 3.) Work has gotten busier on both jobs <BR> 4.) I was too ashamed <BR> 5.) I began a different journey: becoming one with my natural hair without weaves. <BR> <BR> Let's begin with #1. MARRIED LIFE IS AWESOME. . . .when you marry the right person. I have been married befo... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 12:37:05 EST The 21-day Lie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519467 Finding your focus after being on this journey for 17 months can be difficult. There is a saying that anything you do for 21 days becomes habit. I would like to be the first one to dispute that finding. While some things are truly second nature, I have to remind myself every other second to do what I KNOW I should be doing because everything in my being is telling me to rebel against it. 21 days cannot undo 28 years of unhealthy. 17 months can't either. What it CAN do is make me much mo... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 13:59:28 EST hamburger helper????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509112 Last night I had the most fabulously healthy and scrumptious dinner. I had fresh salmon (beautifully pink and marbled, thick cuts) roasted in a bag. I sliced yellow squash, zucchini, red potatoes and red peppers, tossed them with olive oil, garlic, salt and pepper and placed the salmon on top. I seasoned the fish and put sliced lemons on top. I sealed the parchment paper bag and let it roast for 30 minutes. IT WAS EUPHORIA. There is something about eating fresh, clean, simply prepared fo... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 15:58:51 EST Post-It notes work!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508236 If you don't own any Post-it notes or can't steal any from work, get up off your toosh and go to the store and grab some now. Those little pieces of paper saved my week! Last Thursday, a young lady who had lost 125 lbs told me to write down my goal on notecards or sticky pads and post it somewhere that I would be forced to face my goal often. So I wrote 219.8 on a Post-it in big, bold numbers along with "3,000 CALORIES TO BURN TODAY" and I hung them around my cube at work and right on the ... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 18:21:40 EST enjoying the married life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506777 You can cancel the Search Parties and Amber Alerts; I am still here. I have had every intention of Sparking but every time I prepared to log on, I saw my handsome husband and said "SCREW THAT! I HAVE A HOT HUNK OF MAN RIGHT HERE!" There was also the time spent putting away wedding gifts, writing thank you notes, and oh yeah, going back to work. In the midst of all of that I have managed to MAINTAIN my weight but I am ready to start losing again. <BR> <BR> And here is where Weight Watche... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 09:27:19 EST had a honeymoon, met a Spark Friend and joined Weight Watchers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490491 So much has happened over the past two weeks. Of course with a wedding comes a honeymoon. Derrell and I went on a cruise <em>340</em> . The cruise was okay. I think the best thing was just being alone together. One of my Spark Friends, CARAFAE37, actually got married the day before us and was going to be on the same cruise ship. She and I made plans to meet. It was great meeting her and her husband, Ethan. We actually had to pull our husband away from each other; they wouldn't stop ... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 19:14:06 EST WEDDING PICS!!!! YAAAYYY!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489377 MRS. BROWN IN DA HOUSE!!! WHOOP! WHOOP!!! I am sooo excited to share my Big Day with you all, mostly because you all have been there every step of the way, from joining Spark to engagement to dress fittings and everything else under the sun. I know you all just want to get to the goodies but I must say that marrying my husband has been THE MOST JOYOUS thing that has ever happened to me. My spirit is happy. It is wonderful. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l67... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 14:32:00 EST Bachelorette Bash and some quickee updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475157 This weekend was my bachelorette party <em>408</em> . I had a pretty good time though there was supposed to be twice as many girls celebrating with us. I wouldn't too much of cared if the ones who were there had a little more life in them. I looove to dance. Four or five us would hit the dance floor while the other five watched. But all in all, we had fun. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1909043082.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 23:03:11 EST I had Endless Shrimp AND I inspired someone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459793 My weekend waspretty boring. I spent most of it taking down the micro braids I had in my hair. That was a process! But anywho, Derrell had to work Sunday and then had Guys Night with friends afterwards so I hit the gym. I was NOT in the mood. It was one of those workouts where you tell yourself, "Self, just GO to the gym. Do SOMETHING for 30 minutes and you can leave." I was counting down the minutes until I hit 30 when an old childhood friend, Kizzie, walked up to me. She and I have ... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 10:52:11 EST this can get nasty . . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455338 What I am about to share is not for everyone. This would be a perfect time to make your exit <em>253</em> . Yesterday I decided to have colon hydrotherapy, or a colonic. Why? With the stress of this last month ( <em>336</em> ) I have been snacking on some pretty non-nutricious items. Those little packaged, sweet, seemingly harmless delectibles that sit in the grocery aisle between chips and cereal. Those items have no nutritional value. They are full of carbs, sugar and sodium, and ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 18:08:29 EST soggy skin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449265 While in the midst of a perfect plank, with my hot pink running shorts on and as my purple t-shirt slowly crept up my belly, I noticed something in the gym mirror. My skin looked soggy. Cornflakes in day old milk kind of soggy. It's not like I didn't know that i had some loose skin; I know. However I typicall only worry myself with my bat wings and lady lumps in my inner thighs. My tummy is a lost cause so I barely pay that any attention but in that plank, in that moment, I noticed the lo... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 21:19:50 EST I've been hacked!!! and other updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442303 Hey everyone! I miss you all so much. I have been in Drama City the past several days and I am finally up and running again. I have so many things to update you all on, the biggest thing probably being my computer being hijacked, me being scammed, and the cost of stupidity. <BR> <BR> Over a month ago I came home to find my personal laptop blinking a message that my cable provider had suspended my internet service due to copyright infringement. I was floored. I called Cox Cable and they ... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 12:58:11 EST my legs will fall off in the morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432470 Tonight Derrell and I took to the football stadium and sprinted up stadium steps and the hills surrounding the stadium and we jogged the football track. It was an hour of high-intensity, heavy breathing, leg-killing cardio. I need it. Right before taking to the stadium I stole a glimpse of myself in my wedding dress from my phone's gallery. That pic was taken at my first fitting nearly 8 weeks ago and I honestly looked thinner and more toned and fit. My wedding is in 6 weeks and my next ... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 22:50:15 EST busy, busy, busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425911 I am just 49 days from <em>336</em> ! It is coming so fast. I felt so out of control. It was beginning to feel like this wedding experience was happening TO me. After spending the entire day prioritizing, buying, organizing, planning and connecting with my future husband, it is like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Woooo!! Speaking of weight, I haven't checked my weight in almost two weeks. I haven't exercised as much or tracked food but I also feel more comfortabl... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 23:55:27 EST seeing myself through the Zumba mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416109 I am suffering through my 2nd sinus infection in 3 weeks but today I managed to make it to Zumba. I haven't been to Zumba in just under a month. By the way, I am medicated and not contagious. I went to a different gym than usual and had a crazy out-of-body like experience. I didn't recognize my body. I knew my eyes. I am familiar with my jaw-line now. I was completely caught off guard by my body. For a moment I thought they had a funny mirror. I assumed the mirror was making me look ... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 23:09:27 EST i'm in the 30's Club!!!!! ***Tons of pics*** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411591 Yesterday I officially became a member of the 30's Club! That's right. The Fourth of July is my birthday <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>383</em> <em>410</em> ! When I was 27 I told myself that I had until I was 30 to get my weight under control. At that birthday I begin my first stint with SparkPeople. I was gung ho and gave it my all. My "all" lasted 10 months. I was able to lose 47 lbs and successfully gained 52 back. Even still, I kept reminding myself of the promise I... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 14:16:29 EST stripping is a workout, isn't it???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406862 I sure hope so because this weekend has been chock full of unconventional workouts, one of which had me getting lessons from a 52 year old former stripper with the body of a 27 year old. I was invited as part of a mutual friend's birthday party. I like to think I am sexy and can even be flat out raunchy . . .when I am with my future husband. Otherwise, I am pretty conservative. Well this instructor was anything but! She dropped the f-bomb approximately 30 times in the first 10 minutes. ... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 23:32:15 EST I know why I'm screwed up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404562 Just got off the phone with my dad and my insides hurt. It is more than my heart. My stomach is unsettled. My chest is heavy and everything surrounding it feels hollow. I had to work my part-time job on Father's Day. I wait tables. I typically don't wish my dad a Happy Father's Day. I save that sentiment for my mom or brother. This year I felt compelled. These are the exact words from my text: <BR> <BR> "Hey dad. I am at work all day so I can't call but I wanted you to know that I ... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 11:40:42 EST I Wanted to Quit a Thousand Times but Refused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399177 I ran my first 10k today. With bronchitis. Alone. It was a virtual 10k and along the route there were multiple opportunities to quit. To fudge the numbers. To cheat the system. To cheat myself. No one would know. I would know. I would know that this run was just a small portion of my day - the equivalent of a Lifetime movie - and I chose to bail out rather than buckle down and accept the joy and fulfillment of finishing even if I didn't finish with the time I had originally envision... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 13:53:04 EST a carb addict's cry for help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397915 I knew I had a thing for pastries and cakes, but I didn't know that I am completely and absolutely addicted to carbohydrates. Even when I am not eating sweets, the foods I gravitate to are carb heavy. I know that is the reason my belly is so big. It has nothing to do with shape and everything to do with diet. I recently converted my old BodyBugg account to the new, more efficient Body Media software. After logging my meals today, I graphed out at 55% Carb content. That is ridiculous! I... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 01:02:04 EST creepy berry and legs for days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392009 This grape freaked me out! The picture doesn't do it any justice but this thing was so creepy, it brought a tingle down my spine. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2000605958.jpg"> <BR> The underbelly was worse. It wasn't like it was a siamese grape. When you looked at it closely, it looked like several disfigured grapes got fused together. I told Derrell to eat it and he took off running! The good news is that we finally had the chance and the finances to do some ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:35:28 EST Zumba in the Mile High City and skin suggestions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387558 Whenever possible, I try to find a local 24 Hr Fitness when I am on the road. Many times I am in Iowa and the 24 Hr Fitness is the hotel gym. This week I am in Thornton, CO, a suburb north of Denver and I have the pleasure of being within 25 minutes of SEVEN different locations, one of which was just 5 minutes down the road from my hotel. I looked online and thankfully they were having a Zumba class tonight. <BR> <BR> The last time I was in the heart of Denver and while the Zumba class I ... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 00:52:49 EST i don't know how much I weigh . . . and I kinda don't care http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386260 I haven't stepped on a scale in weeks and while I should be pretty concerned with how close I am to Onederland, I am no longer consumed about it. I would definitely love to be under 200 lbs. On the flip side, the past few days I have begun to notice changes in my body that I had not noticed before. I have noticed my clothes fitting differently. I have noticed that I don't eat as clean as I used to but I also notice that I am naturally cutting myself off when I am satisfied. This morning ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 21:01:06 EST hey girl!!! where you been???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381662 It has been a good minute since I wrote a blog or participated in Spark in general. The past two weeks have been crazy busy for me and I found that at the end of the day, I just didn't have the energy to log on and engage the way I would like to. In the two weeks since my last blog, I have managed my weight within a 2-3 lb swing. My eating can always stand to improve and that hasn't changed since February. But nonetheless, exercise and activity in general is a part of my life so I haven't... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 16:23:02 EST The Year of No Quit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366924 I can hardly believe it; I have made it one year on this crazy ride called Weight Loss! I can't say I am TOTALLY suprised becuase this time around, everything was so different. It is kind of like being in an abusive or bad relationship. Your friends and family can tell you for years that the relationship is bad for you, but until you are ready to leave, all those words are in one ear and out the other. I always tell ladies that you know you are over a guy when you don't care one way or th... Fri, 24 May 2013 17:25:23 EST i'm a raging PMS machine!! AAAHHHHH!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362083 I could have bit a pit bull yesterday I was so mean. Not only was it the day after my race and I was sore and tired, but I had to work at RL and awoke to my TOM. Typically, I don't experience PMS symptoms. Even if I have cramps, I am typically a little slower to the punch but I am not bitchy. I am actually more quiet and to myself. I have noticed that during this time, I am a clean freak and get very picky about mundane things. Well yesterday I was in rare form. One of the sweetest gir... Mon, 20 May 2013 10:11:27 EST the 7k terrain run that nearly killed me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361018 Don't say I haven't warned you. IF any so-called-friend like ME tries to convince you to do a terrain run, DON"T DO IT!! If they somehow lead you to believe that "it will be fun", know that they are lying to you and that they are a sick individual who craves pain. The terrain run that I ignorantly signed me and my friend Ashton up for was disguised as a "fun run" under the title Mud, Sweat and Beers. They tell you it is going to be a little messy and a lot of excitement, and oh yeah, the... Sun, 19 May 2013 11:19:40 EST feeling victorious!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359374 This blog was intended for yesterday but because of technical difficulties, the blog was lost and/or just didn't post. So although today I don't feel as victorious as I did yesterday, mostly because I didn't work out yesterday, I still had a few victories over the past few days that really made me feel good about where I am at in my journey. <BR> <BR> The other day I went to the mall in dire need of more work clothes. Mine were much too big. I wasn't convinced that I was in a regular size... Fri, 17 May 2013 13:45:54 EST Color Me Rad 5k 10 months later (Tons of pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5353554 Color Me Rad was the first 5k of my weight loss journey, last year, July 8th. I had been at this healthy living thing for 6 weeks at that point but I was determined to do well. Considering this race isn't a timed one, I timed myself. I finished in an impressive 37 minutes. It may not seem that great to most, but to me, at 259 lbs, I thought it was magnificent. This year I had a lot to prove to myself. May 21st marks my Sparkanniversary and I am super excited. But enough small talk, let... Sat, 11 May 2013 23:13:17 EST Top 10 List of the Day: My most important NSV's along the way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352406 10. Sitting comfortably in an airplane seat. I travel for my job. I remember on April 10th of last year our team flying out to California. I recall having to take a window seat next to a random guy. My hips and thighs were so big that no matter how hard I tried to avoid it, my thighs were touching his legs the entire flight. I tried to turn a little in my seat so that I wouldn't make him uncomfortable and I remember the feeling of my belly fat pinching into the band of my jeans. I usual... Fri, 10 May 2013 17:31:24 EST yaaayy!!! it is working!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350193 That excitement is manifesting itself in a couple of ways recently. First of all, I had allowed myself to gain 5 pounds in the past several weeks. This past week I put a hard <em>227</em> to that trend. I did that by reducing my caloric intake, increasing my water, and increasing my workout intensity and commitment. I started a BGR! (Black Girls Run!) group. Today I weighed in and I am officially 4.8 pounds down! Only 0.2 lbs up from my lowest adult weight ever! That tells me that I... Wed, 8 May 2013 19:14:24 EST BGR! and paying it forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348435 Recently I decided that I was going to start a Black Girls Run! group in Omaha. Actually RESTORED_ME encouraged me to do it some time ago and I put it to the back burner. BGR! was founded by two lovely ladies in 2009 as a way to inspire African-American women to take control of their health. At the time, 80% of black women were overweight or obese. 80%!!! That is crazy. In our culture, skinny is seen as a sign of poor health. Girls are encourage to be "thick". So many times along my ... Tue, 7 May 2013 09:55:05 EST Top 10 List of the Day: You know you've changed when . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347492 10. You consider a "cocktail" ice water with cucumber and berries and any other random piece of produce you have in the fridge floating around in it. If you can pull out a fork and have lunch with the contents of your water bottle, you are doing too much. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l153038813.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 9. You talk about your weight loss journey like new mothers talk about their toddlers. <BR> Innocent bystander: "So how long have you bee... Mon, 6 May 2013 14:03:45 EST