NIKEGRL688's SparkPeople Blog NIKEGRL688's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Oct 14- Day 1 Ugh, It kills me to type day 1.... AGAIN <BR> <BR> After a 30 pound loss for the wedding, I am finding it so hard to get back on track and really find a true motivation. I do not have a motivation. I have gained 20 back of the 30 lost... <BR> <BR> I am getting back to the gym to find that happy feeling of losing weight again. Even if it is .1 pound per week, I miss the scale going down. I miss the feeling of my clothes not being tight, I miss the feeling of "Wow, I see a difference in you"... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 10:28:24 EST Update Today is day one of the restart! <BR> <BR> I lost 30 pounds before my wedding and in 8 weeks, gained 10 to 12 pounds back by eating everything and anything I wanted plus I didn't formally workout. <BR> <BR> I was married a month and a half ago! I love my hubby and I am loving our new life though nothing changed but my last name... Which is a hell of a process to get legally changed. <BR> <BR> I was promoted at work and I love the new job but I am 10 times busier than I ever was which is ... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 12:50:25 EST I feel lost and alone. I have been getting really sick after only 30 minutes at the gym of cardio or lifting. I tried cardio only and it was still happening, I tried lifting only and it still happened... I tried changing my snacks before and after and still happening. I get to the point where I am sick to my stomach and light headed... and it lasts for HOURS. I thought it was a good thing to prove I was pushing myself... I was making changes and my body would get used to it. I thought I needed to up my pre workout... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 12:59:39 EST July 21st So, I am looking forward to a lot of things coming up in my life... <BR> <BR> --The wedding will be here before we know it... <BR> --Work is getting more busy which we need and I love... <BR> --I am more excited about Europe then I am my wedding (Shh...) I've never been out of the country besides on a cruise and I am looking forward to it. <BR> --I am exicted to marry my best friend. I love him so much! <BR> --I am excited to try new food and be with him for two weeks exploring some pl... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:28:15 EST Runner--- This months seems to be a roller coaster ride for me... <BR> <BR> Early in the week, I was in a mad dash of stress... Food sucked, working out sucks, life was getting me down and wedding planning was driving me nuts but now <BR> <BR> NOW--- <BR> <BR> I feel amazing. I worked out yesterday. I am getting stronger with the running and following the C25K program. My final dress fitting did not stress me like I thought it would. My food is on track and work is busy but not so busy I cannot m... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 12:44:21 EST Stress I never imagined being this stressed out so close to the wedding... <BR> We jinxed ourselves with how easy it was in the beginning; even with it being destination. Everything seemed to fall into place for us. We were lucky! <BR> <BR> NOW--- <BR> <BR> It is chaos. It is hectic and I am losing my mind. Prices keep changing from original contracts, expectations are going down and my insanity level going through the roof. <BR> <BR> The only positive I have is through the stress of work an... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 15:22:45 EST Mistakes but feeling good I made a few mistakes yesterday after writing my blog... <BR> <BR> I went out to lunch after I said I was proud I didn't do it the day before. My lunch was amazing... but not good for me. I had a better meal for dinner but still not great. I did workout after wanting to not all afternoon. I did it though and I felt good about it. <BR> <BR> I went on a date last night with FI and he said how amazing I am looking and he loves everything I am doing. He knows my dress fitting is coming up and... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 13:08:02 EST Random-ness I had a few non scale victories this week.. <BR> My "skinny" jeans fit. They are not my skinny jeans from like high school but I bought them in 2012 and could never button them... never thought to get rid of them. They fit... Almost too loose but they look better than my other jeans. <BR> I bought a large shirt instead of extra large and it fits well. <BR> <BR> I have been drinking my 4 bottles of water everyday. This is day 5 of my water intake being where it needs to be. <BR> I skipped... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 10:06:24 EST 7 days. ONLY 7 days My final dress fitting is in 7 days... What am I going to do? I have to maintain from there on. I am hoping it will be okay if I lose a few more but not go overboard. 7 days... That snuck up fast. I am nervous... 7 days! <BR> <BR> We ordered the last of what we needed yesterday. The wedding is finally one hundred percent done and once everything is received, we are good to go. We will just need to pack. <BR> <BR> Today was my first day back from my long weekend and taking a break. My lifes... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 13:25:33 EST Anxiety My anxiety has been out of control the last few days... Almost a week so I am really trying to just maintain and not over eat. My emotions get the best of me and I eat. A lot. <BR> <BR> I have been careful to watch how much I eat and been trying to workout but I need to take care of myself right now. Food yesterday was good besides bread and butter (1 slice) and 2 bites of mac and cheese. Today is good besides the one twix bar I had... Workout did not exist yesterday but my bag is packed to... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 13:30:30 EST 6/26- New mind set So, I was talking to my wonderful Fi last night and he was curious about my FB post. I have a new mind set and I use FB to keep me motivated. I check in on there for the gym, I post quotes and I love the support I have as a lot of my friends are on a weight loss journey as well. <BR> <BR> My new mind set... <BR> <BR> 1. STOP negative self talk. I have lost almost 30 pounds and have made huge changes in my life. Stop with the "you are too fat", "that dress makes you look huge", "you will n... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 09:16:26 EST 6/25/14 With the wedding being 45 days out, I am getting excited. <BR> <BR> Work is being super awesome knowing I am leaving. I feel good knowing I can take two weeks off and they are excited for me... Not worried I am leaving! <BR> <BR> We ordered more wedding stuff and have a little more to go but I need to focus on packing for two weeks in one suit case. That worries me! Different climates, foreign countries and lots of fun ahead... <BR> <BR> A lot of people say "you worry to much about your... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 10:16:30 EST 6/24/14 So I have been starving all day. My food I planned out is not filling me up or coming close! I have been careful to make sure I have water before I eat anything to off set any cravings but I am still hungry. <BR> I have been filling the extra hunger with fruits and veggies but I think I need to add some protein in there to get me where I need to be and over this hump. I am so glad I pack extra food to bring to work otherwise I would be in the work candy stash. <BR> <BR> I am trying to lis... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 14:09:50 EST Catch up So, last week was a bust with traveling and being away. I binge ate Tuesday, Sick all day Wednesday with a stomach bug, Thursday, I took it easy and Friday was good until dinner but I did workout. Saturday was good until dinner but I worked out. Sunday was a total bust. <BR> <BR> I meal prepped the whole week Sunday. I have dinners planned around my gym time so I should be good to go for the week. No excuses! <BR> <BR> I am getting nervous about the bach / ette parties. Fi and his friends... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 10:39:51 EST Daily So sorry for the daily blogs... I find it is helping me a lot more than I thought it would. <BR> <BR> Food prepping is awesome. I love having containers full of healthy ready to eat food because I took a half an hour out of my Sunday to prep my food. I love not having to think about my lunch because I have it planned and prepped. I love having fresh fruit and veggies. <BR> <BR> I love that my fiancé is going shopping with me and is okay with eating healthy food for dinner. We plan the mea... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 11:16:25 EST Nervous and scared So, my title says it all. <BR> <BR> I am nervous I am off the wagon because yesterday I had a honey bun and ice cream. Once I allow the massive sweets overload in, I have a EXTREMELY hard time kicking it again I am trying to not let it derail me and chalk it up to a bad day but I have been craving sweets for days now... After cake Sunday, honey bun, ice cream and a bagel yesterday and half a bagel today. I cannot start over again... I have come too far. <BR> <BR> I am nervous for the wed... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 15:30:29 EST Birthday So, I had an amazing weekend and I will sound selfish for a bit but it is times like these when I remember how blessed and lucky I am. <BR> <BR> I have a family who gave up a Sunday afternoon and had dinner with me. I had a tiara, necklaces, balloons and such an amazing time on top of gifts. I thought the gift was us all getting to be together and they went over the top for me. Words can not describe how amazing it is to have family support you and come together to celebrate you. <BR> <BR... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 14:12:25 EST Proud Today I am proud of myself... <BR> <BR> I am proud of the fact I have not had alcohol in over 2 weeks. Alcohol is empty calories, carbs and sugar I do not need. I can have fun with my friends and not drink. <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself for knowing I needed a rest day yesterday and actual took one. I walked the dog and played with him but I knew enough to relax and take it easy. <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself for managing to be under calories since Saturday night. I am making healthy c... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 08:17:18 EST Hellllllo June! Oh, June, How I love thee! It is birthday month and I kick off birthday season! From here, everyone else in the family (all 9) have birthdays till Sept. Then we have a break till Nov. where we have two more and we start again next June! <BR> <BR> June 9th which happens to be my birthday marks 2 months to the day till the wedding and we have so much to do and accomplish! My next dress fitting is July and I need to lose 15 pounds (not actual need but a want) and I desperately need to tone up.... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 12:56:27 EST Need to vent So, I had my first dress alteration appointment yesterday... I cannot believe I am two and a half months from the wedding! SCARY but it really disappointed me. <BR> <BR> I knew getting a strapless would cause me more stress than I need or want. I am concerned with how my arms and back look and from the pictures I looked at, it does not look good. I cannot work out my arms and back too much and risk hurting myself. I hope I can get over this ridiculousness and embrace the dress and love the ... Thu, 29 May 2014 08:35:17 EST 5/20/14 With May fast approaching an end, I feel like I am doing pretty well. <BR> <BR> I have been working out 4 to 5 days per week, I have been indulging one time per week and limiting how much I indulge in and I am finding daily motivation. Today I found out my belt goes to the last hole and it is still loose... Small non scale victories are a fantastic thing! <BR> <BR> My first dress alteration appointment for the wedding is next Wednesday and I am nervous. I have lost 22 pounds since I bough... Tue, 20 May 2014 08:47:54 EST May 14th Goals update for me... <BR> <BR> 1. Hit the gym 4 times per week <BR> 2. Be under on calories 6 times per week <BR> 3. Portion cheat meals <BR> 4. Find daily motivation... Read it all day long. <BR> <BR> So far, I have hit the gym, harder than ever. <BR> I am under on calories. 5 days, not 6 like I want but I am working towards that <BR> I portion my cheat meals... Now If I could lay off the alcohol, I would be set. <BR> I love my daily motivation... Makes me feel amazing. <BR> ... Wed, 14 May 2014 13:14:50 EST Ney month, new goals So April was a bust for me... I am moving on and realizing I made the choices and I have to blame myself. <BR> <BR> May is starting out a lot better and I feel great about it. I have been to the gym everyday, even with the added stresses on me and I have been eating and tracking all my food. I am limiting all crap I eat and maintaining the healthy lifestyle I want. <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Hit the gym 4 times per week <BR> 2. Be under on calories 6 times per week <BR> 3. Portion c... Mon, 5 May 2014 09:23:30 EST April Revised So I had a giant (not too giant) meltdown on Facebook last night because I needed to do something and Fiancé was not helping me... <BR> <BR> I posted I was a loser and frustrated because I am wishing and hoping for losing weight and not doing anything about it. I will eat great all day and have cake or ice cream so I finally made a commit to myself and FB that I would work out for 21 days. 21 days makes something a habit... For 21 days, I will post my workout and they will hold me accountab... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 09:54:01 EST Judgement Day I am not one to compare myself to others because I do not like how it makes me feel.. You do not know what these people go through and it causes a lot of self doubt in myself. That being said, Over the weekend, I went to the pool with my fiancé and a few friends. I have a two piece tankini so it covers my stomach... My problem area. I live in South Florida so it is ALWAYS hot...I was having a good time and not letting my issues get to me when a few girls come over in a group who have tube to... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 15:28:36 EST April / Catch up Hey all-- <BR> <BR> Work has been insane for me so I have not been on but I have been tracking food on MPF as well as working out. I was sick for the last two weeks so I have not been pushing too hard but I have been getting stuff in. <BR> <BR> Excuses are over, I am better and I have April goals. <BR> <BR> Goal 1: Squat and Plank challenge. I will post if you want to see them <BR> Goal 2: Sign up for 5K. (DONE) --May 10th - Color run <BR> Goal 3: C25K 4 times per week <BR> Goal 4: ... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 10:51:42 EST Wierd So, I think my subconscious is trying to tell me something. This is the first time in over a month since we got the new bed, I have been having weird dreams. I cannot tell what they are as I do not remember them when I wake up. I am tired at work, more than usual. Nothing out of the ordinary is going on that I can think of... Super strange. I wish I could get some answers and go back to sleeping soundly. <BR> <BR> Workouts are good... I am feeling good. Staying off the scale is hard work bu... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 08:29:10 EST Motivated To keep with my March goal, I need to confess and move on. <BR> <BR> I had Chinese food for lunch yesterday, I had cookies with buttercream frosting and I had 3 cups of coffee with delicious creamer yesterday. I came in slightly under calories for the day because I did 70 minutes of cardio and weight lifting at the gym last night... <BR> <BR> I am not beating myself up. I owned the food, logged it and went to the gym to make up for it. I feel like I did an amazing job yesterday and I feel... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 09:27:11 EST March 4th So, I am four days late to the March Party but I am here and ready. I managed to clean my house yesterday, go to the gym and blow it on a horribly bad for you but fun dinner with my fiancé... <BR> <BR> Today and the month of March is about seeing changes in my body. I plan to weigh myself on Friday only... Before work. So I do not let the weekends affect my scale. I will go to the gym 5 times per week which I LOVE doing now and I will now stress when I mess up. I will acknowledge it and do ... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 09:13:29 EST Confusion... No rhyme or reason. This is my confusion blog... I have so much on my mind, I am a jumbled mess. <BR> <BR> My dress... I love my dress and I cannot wait to get into it. I want to be in May and see the progress I've made and see how the alterations will look... Why is it not May yet? <BR> <BR> 5K.... I am signing up for the Color run in May. I do not run so I am starting to practice now... C25K is going to be fast tracked on this. I have always wanted to do it and why not do it now?!? Motivation. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 15:31:11 EST Challenges When life is not going your way... How do you handle it? I used to run to food... I would comfort every emotion with food. Mac and cheese when I'm upset, Cake and ice cream when I am sad or celebrating for that fact... Fried food when I am out with family. Bread all times of the day! <BR> <BR> Today has been a rough one for me... It has been a emotional rollercoaster of a day. So what do I do? I had oatmeal for breakfast like everyday, I had my snack like I do everyday, I skipped the coffee... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 09:27:58 EST Taking a toll So the scale is taking a toll on my mood... Fi keeps losing and losing and I feel like I am doing more then he is and the scale has not moved except up in pounds in ten days. <BR> <BR> The scale not moving is effecting my mood. I am short tempered, I am moody and I am not catching what is leaving my mouth until its too late. I know the scale just has a number on it and it should not matter but this is month two and I expected to lose more when I monitor every single thing I eat and gave up ... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 09:54:07 EST Tired So my brothers girlfriend went to the doctor for being so tired all the time and he said she had vitamin deficiency and now I am thinking I have it. She received a B12 shot and have more energy then she knows what to do with. I know that sounds crazy but since I have been working out and eating right plus getting my normal amount of sleep but I have been tired. Normally, tired would not bother me but I am "cannot" keep my eyes open tired. I am not sure what's up with me. <BR> <BR> I need ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 13:41:29 EST Anniversary So, Friday Feb 14th, 2014, Fi and I will be together for 6 years... Valentines day is out anniversary and I love it. It makes the day that more amazing. <BR> I bought him something awesome this year and we are having our traditional dinner... I have a bunch of surprises for him and I cannot wait. <BR> <BR> Goals for this month- Lose ten pounds <BR> Food prep every week all month <BR> Celebrate 6 years with Fi <B... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 11:15:54 EST 10 pounds lighter After a battle with the scale all week, I stepped up the cardio and officially dropped 10 pounds. I am super happy and excited! <BR> <BR> I am celebrating the small stuff... I also beat my personal record at the gym. I have never been able to go over 20 minutes on the Stairmaster (MY favorite equipment) and I went for 30 minutes yesterday... I could have done more but I needed to lift. <BR> <BR> WOOHOO Fri, 31 Jan 2014 14:01:09 EST Stalled out Day 22 is frustrating... I have only lost 8.6 pounds but since Thursday of last week, the scale has stalled out. I miss seeing the number going down. I blame myself for not going to the gym Friday, crappy meal on Saturday and not pushing hard enough in the gym Sunday. I have hit the gym for 6 days a week in the last three weeks. <BR> <BR> I know all of this is a factor but I am being too hard on myself. I lost two inches in my chest, hips and waist in three weeks but I feel like it should b... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 08:51:29 EST Down and out I am feeling pretty down in the dumps today. I am trying to snap out of it as I have so much to be happy and thankful for. I am letting something so small that means nothing eat at me but what if it is nothing?! <BR> <BR> Fi and I worked out together and it was amazing... He lost weight, I am losing weight. We have never supported each other like this before on this goal. It is amazing! <BR> <BR> I should be happy... Maybe tomorrow will be better. <BR> Tomorrow is a new day, new light. J... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:51:37 EST Back to the beginning So I started back on the right healthy path the 2nd of this month. I have lost 5 pounds in 13 days so I am excited about that. <BR> I am using my fitness pal daily, exercising at the gym 3 to 4 days a week and getting minimum of walking in everyday. <BR> <BR> I am mostly watching my sugar intake which I love and it easy to do! <BR> <BR> Wedding plans are coming along. Venue, reception, are booked and a lot of included. Cake is picked out... Flowers are good. I just need to find the right... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 13:35:06 EST I said yes TO THE DRESS Hey all... <BR> <BR> I found my wedding dress last night and put a deposit down on It... I have until Jan to lose some weight and they will order from those measurements. <BR> <BR> SO EXCITED <BR> <BR> Come on Aug 9th Tue, 8 Oct 2013 13:06:05 EST Who what where Some days I wonder who I am, where I am supposed to be verse where I am and what I want. This is a daily struggle for me and its so hard to keep this at bay. <BR> <BR> I do not know what I want out of life or where I will end up but I know I want to lose weight. That is difficult and honestly, a struggle every day, every hour, every minute. Small changes make big results that I do not see yet. <BR> <BR> I wish there was a magic eight ball where I could see the future and see what happens ... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 07:15:20 EST FINALLY So, for one whole month (this is week five) I have been logging all my food on My Fitness Pal and working out a minimum of four times week.... All because we set a date for our wedding and I have a contest at work. <BR> <BR> Wedding is set for VEGAS in Aug 2014. Date is undisclosed until save the dates get mailed next week. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Work contest is not going as well as I want it. I started at 218... if I lose 10% by Sept 16, I get an extra 100 in my paycheck. But I have on... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 09:12:49 EST Week two... So I have made big changes in my life. Trying to eat better.... Not clean eating yet but making progress towards it. Chicken, rice, small amounts of cheese, wheat tortillas, so on and so forth. I have found a love for fish... White fish, cod, snapper... those are the ones I like so far. All baked, never fried. All water... 2 sodas a week max. I only had one last week. I had half a margarita. Not worth it anymore to me. <BR> <BR> Gym is going great! I find myself doing 20 minutes of cardio, ... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 12:41:53 EST Its been awhile Good morning all! <BR> <BR> I know its been awhile but I am pleased to say I joined the gym last week on Tuesday. We had a trainer Wed, Thurs and Sat. HE KICKED MY BUTT. When I say we, Its been my mom and I. Joey will not go to the gym. <BR> <BR> We did three days last week, doing four this week and next week 5. We will alternate between 4 days and 5 days a week. <BR> <BR> I am eating healthy! The nutritionist said eat 5 small meals a day so I am doing that and tracking it on My fitness... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 08:51:28 EST ADVICE PLEASE I have no idea what I am thinking... what HE is thinking. Joey decided he wants to juice... I like juice. I'm cool.... This man has never ate a veggie a day in his life so what does he do?? <BR> <BR> HE GOES TO THE EXTREME... He is doing a 5 day juice cleanse. No food... 6 juice meals a day... Water and coco water. That's it. INSANITY if you ask me. <BR> I'm glad he's getting healthy stuff in him and he says he is liking it but OMG... this cannot be healthy. <BR> <BR> I replaced dinner wi... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:05:25 EST Negative I have ben in such a negative mood and I am not sure how to kick it. I work out, I am eating decent, I am reading motivational stuff and trying to stay positive but everything in my life I am spinning to make negative and I hate it. I am not sure how I kick this... <BR> <BR> I miss being fun and loving stuff. Fri, 14 Jun 2013 12:46:13 EST June so far So I was depressed about turning 25 and I actually had a good time. Fiancee treated me too well and I was with great friends. <BR> <BR> Work is starting a weight loss challenge and over the course of one year, if I lose 20% of my body weight, I will get 400 bucks total. I am on board and ready to kick this into high gear!! I have a plan and I ready to get this going on July 1st when it starts. <BR> <BR> I love my Knottie team... It has been so awesome having a place to check in and people... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 12:46:18 EST Sick So I woke up yesterday with this weird feeling in my throat and it continued to get worse and worse all day to the point when I would inhale, it was horrid pain. I went to the walk in after work because m primary was closed and she said I was negative for strep but there was major inflammation so I am on drugs. <BR> <BR> I have been trying to walk and monitor what I eat but I also do not want to deprive my body of the nutrients it needs to heal so I am doing what feels right. <BR> <BR> I k... Fri, 31 May 2013 12:21:36 EST Day one again! Hey all... Today was day one again. <BR> <BR> I tracked all my food before I ate so everything is planned out for me and I have 23 calories left for the day. Super happy... I did some cardio at work and walked on lunch. I will do another walk as long as the rain is not coming back when I get home. <BR> I will get some arms in as well today when I get home. I have two pound weights which is better than nothing. I love jump roping too so If it is raining, I will jump. <BR> <BR> I cannot wa... Wed, 29 May 2013 15:52:08 EST Hate "Starting over" I feel like I am always starting over instead of saying "I made a bad choice. Accept it and move on and make the rest of the day better" <BR> <BR> I am moving on today and working towards finishing the day off right. I cannot wait to go shopping this weekend and getting fruits and veggies and kicking this into high gear. If I would have continued from Jan when I started, lord only knows where I would be today and how much different I would feel. I am ready to go this going... I know this is... Tue, 28 May 2013 14:09:57 EST Day 8 and the Doc So I went and did two doc appointments yesterday and a dentist appointment! Overly busy day full of anxiety. I love the docs but I am always fearful of bad news... But I am healthy and have no bad news to report. The doc said I am over weight and need to lose ... (OBVIOUSLY) but he was proud of me that I have not gained in two years. He can see I am trying to lose because I have not gained but he wants to lose and wants to see me down 5 pounds in the next six months. He gave me a lot more id... Wed, 8 May 2013 09:29:14 EST