NICKLESPICKLES's SparkPeople Blog NICKLESPICKLES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community March 15, 2017 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just be kind and brave. I turned 44 yesterday. My 9 year old son woke me up with two hand-drawn pictures and said Happy Birthday Mom. While getting my free starbucks birthday coffee he told me to take the first sip before he drank his smoothie. My 21 year old daughter had lovely flowers in a vase on the dining room table. My husband (as the divorce never did go through) went to a restau... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 15:24:17 EST March 10, 2017 <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> ~The little things? The little moments? They aren't little. <BR> *John Kabat-Zinn <BR> <BR> I am on the last day of my stay-cation. This year I have chosen to take my vacations...I need them. Usually I am doing 12.5 hour shifts every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Today is a Friday and I a... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 12:57:06 EST February 14th, 2017 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Love this quote. I had an eye-opening weigh-in yesterday at the doctor's office...along with my blood pressure reading. <BR> <BR> What it did for me was to wake me up a bit. I will be 44 in March. I have struggled with disordered eating since high school. I have been anorexic, bulimic, a compulsive overeater, and underweight, overweight, and now obese. <BR> <BR> I have also strug... Tue, 14 Feb 2017 15:02:22 EST February 9th, 2017 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Progress not perfection is what I remember from my 12-step meetings back 20 years ago. Spark People is helping me achieve progress on a daily basis. Little things I can do to be healthier: physically, emotionally, spiritually. <BR> <BR> Logging into the website daily is something I can stay on top of. I remember years ago when that may have been the only good thing I did for myself on a ... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 17:14:03 EST February 8, 2017 One of my goals is to journal 3 times a week. Sticking with that frequency should be do-able. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is pretty outside today. The rain has passed, however I am grateful that it this state has been in a drought for many a moon. I am listening to my amazon echo playing a speech by Neale Donald Walsch. <BR> <BR> I ate a salad for breakfast and continue on with black coffe... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 14:07:45 EST February 2nd, 2017 Just finished watching the annual Groundhog's Day flick with Bill Murray. Had a few giggles for my morning. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Finding humor in a difficult situation...currently my difficult situation is my level of fitness. I am hoping to be a great inspiration at some point in time, but today my lack of fitness is a hard one for me. <BR> <BR> Both my fitbit and my apple watch are in need of rep... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 14:37:31 EST February 1st, 2017 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So, I am in two challenges to recommit to me: the find 10 challenge and the small changes challenge. Wow: yesterday kicked my backside with the exercise portion. I went onto you-tube to try some exercise videos. I would so appreciate if someone would make a few and post them for those of us who are really out of shape <em>198</em> . <BR> <BR> I persisted and got through close to an hou... Wed, 1 Feb 2017 18:47:51 EST January 31, 2017 "Failure is the condiment that gives success its flavor." <BR> ~Truman Capote <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> "I've failed over and over and over again in my life...that's why I succeed." <BR> ~Michael Jordan <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Tue, 31 Jan 2017 14:30:24 EST January 30, 2017 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is Monday...I am sitting on my couch next to one of my rescue dogs sipping black coffee and listening to my wind-chimes making music outside. It is quiet right now in this place I have dwelled in for 16 years of my life. Many things both good and bad have occurred here in this house of mine. <BR> <BR> It is a beautiful day and there are blue skies with wispy white clouds in the sky ... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 13:16:05 EST Reaching for a goal You know it's been awhile since I desired to actually set a goal and whole heartedly work toward it... <BR> <BR> I think as I've gotten older I just fell by the wayside and real life took precedence. <BR> <BR> First it was get Cassidy taken care of, then Carleigh, and now Noah. Make sure they have the tools and support they need to survive adulthood. <BR> <BR> In the years since I've been doing that Nicole didn't get what she needed. <BR> <BR> I have done some things in the past two ... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 09:20:05 EST ❤️ June 29, 2016 Re-committed to the journey. Small changes...tracking, a weekly coaching session with a weight watchers coach, a weekly weight watchers meeting and weigh-in, tracking in ww app & spark people app, hydration app, meditation time... <BR> <BR> Needing to just commit to small changes with moving and fitness now. <BR> <BR> Blessings💕 Wed, 29 Jun 2016 12:42:16 EST Spark coach 9.1.15 Glass half full or half empty: I admit it I was an all or nothing thinker...but that sabatoged any efforts I was making to change my life. With the help of spark people I can now acknowledge the positive lifestyle changes I am making and each effort no matter how big or small is pushing forward on my path😉 Tue, 1 Sep 2015 09:44:42 EST Spark coach I know when I have had a good workout when I break a sweat😉 Sun, 30 Aug 2015 08:54:33 EST Spark coach When it comes to exercise I am really good at walking but could become better at strengthening my core😜 Fri, 28 Aug 2015 15:45:44 EST Fitbit Love the Fitbit... It motivates me to move and keep up with my cousins and friends in steps. Just putting it out there if you are needing a little something to kick your behind into gear😉 Thu, 27 Aug 2015 11:58:29 EST 8.26.15 'You is beautiful. You is smart. You is kind.' ~*~ The Help Wed, 26 Aug 2015 10:15:24 EST 8.25.15 To me health means balance in all things😘 Tue, 25 Aug 2015 13:38:31 EST Spark Coach 8.20.15 I am grateful for a house because I almost did not have one seven years ago. Iam grateful that my ex-husband is able to now live his life vs living in courtrooms as he had to do since 2010. I am grateful for a career that I enjoy and pays my bills. I am grateful for healthy, kind children. I am grateful that my elderly animals have crossed over to the rainbow bridge. Thu, 20 Aug 2015 10:48:28 EST Spark coach blog 8.19.15 Go to meals that work for me...fruits, veggies, salads, meat and cheese, Lara bars...I find I can carry on better by eating whole foods versus highly processed items. I released cream in my coffee and artificial sweeteners and my sugar free gum habit...those things have helped my gut and reduced my cravings😘 Wed, 19 Aug 2015 19:12:54 EST August 18 Utilizing my Fitbit and Amazon exercise videos has motivated me to exercise for the past two days... CompetIng with old schoolmates and my cousin... My son even did a video with me tonight. Blessings😘 Wed, 19 Aug 2015 01:00:55 EST Healthy Changes I found spark people many moons ago. Many moons ago the only thing I allowed into my awareness was weight and exercise. I have accomplished many things other than that in the time that has passed. I have stopped drinking alcohol, stopped drinking diet coke, I have learned to take better care of myself by taking my vitamins, drinking my water, getting a weekly massage, resting when I need to rest, taking time for me and my Maker. I want to encourage all of you out there that a certain numb... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 10:31:10 EST We were born to be real, not to be perfect..." I am enjoying a day off at home today...I got cancelled from my regular 12-hour shift and I was happy to get the call. I am an emotional eater. Some days I do great feeling my emotions, other days I use food to not have to feel. <BR> <BR> I received a text message from one of my friends on Thursday regarding a patient we had three weeks ago that was back in the hospital. Three weeks prior my patient had a uterine and placental abruption thirty minutes into me assessing her from the moment... Sat, 2 May 2015 11:23:25 EST March 10, 2015 <em>214</em> <BR> To thine own self be true...~William Shakespeare & my grandfather <BR> <BR> I have been seeing an eating disorder therapist since October of 2014. I also see a nutritionist at the same time. I don't know about everybody else...but I do know about myself...and I am slowly learning new things every week. I am an all or nothing thinker. I did not want to accept that was true for me but it is. I look to the latest diet and exercise plan for help even though I know bette... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 23:37:54 EST Spark coach favorite inspirational saying for me is from Barbara Deangelis during a recent I Can Do It conference..."what is the highest choice I can make in this moment." Thu, 13 Nov 2014 19:29:34 EST Spark coach activity what is most difficult to stick to... For me it is being consistent... And I concur with today's reading about all or nothing thinking... Even the tiniest pebble of effort on a daily basis will result in I choose to make the effort and focus on the question "what is the Highest or best choice I can make in this moment." Tue, 11 Nov 2014 10:48:19 EST Spark coach Fitness goals: for this week it will be exercising twice at the gym, a yoga day DVDs at home, and my treadmill atleat once... Consistency is my goal this week. Mon, 10 Nov 2014 13:37:52 EST Spark coach task list one thing you would like to accomplish this week: three to four days of exercise, two at gym. Sat, 8 Nov 2014 13:49:42 EST Spark coach assignment I am grateful for: the struggle with my food and weight because it has brought me to my path of self discovery and compassion for all of us struggling with addictions. Fri, 7 Nov 2014 12:52:05 EST July 8, 2014 <em>334</em> <BR> "I lovingly do everything I can to assist my body in maintaining perfect health." ~Louise Hay <BR> <BR> You ever get life, by an injury, by illness, by old habits? I sure have. It is July 8th. Lots of great things have happened. My second daughter graduated from high school, my mom's cancer is showing no growth, one of my financial issues came to a resolution. ...I have not had a sip of alcohol since October 8th, 2013...I attended an Al-Anon meeting.... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 15:13:16 EST June 6, 2014 <em>67</em> <BR> *You never find yourself until you face the truth. ~*~Pearl Bailey <BR> <BR> I prayed for willingness two days ago to change my life. I had time yesterday to utilize some tools and went to my first al-anon meeting since 2006. I had been attending a weekly CODA therapy group but found that it resembled the stuff I had in al-anon years ago and I would rather become active in that community again. I am scheduled for individual therapy to address my binge eating issues in ... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 17:50:15 EST June 4th, 2015 <em>87</em> ~If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be willing...AA page 76 <BR> <BR> Praying for willingness today...Willingness to change a pattern of comforting myself that in the beginning helped me survive what was going on in my life but over time took over my life. <BR> As a child I did not overeat. I had issues with digestion and when I got full you could not make me put another bite down the hatch. <BR> <BR> I used to toss stuff to my dog und... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 14:18:40 EST May 10, 2014 All I can say is life will always have its ups and its downs...that is a reminder to myself to remember this is a journey and not a destination. My mom was diagnosed with cancer this spring; my younger sister is currently on a 72-hour hold at a psychiatric facility that my siblings and I worked very hard to get her into. Strangely enough...I had recommitted to the nutrition portion of my journey on May have been going to CODA group meetings weekly and our task was to pick a long te... Sat, 10 May 2014 15:23:28 EST February 5th, 2014 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Have been utilizing spark coach for a's workbook activity was to blog on how this journey has been. My dream is to not be remotely concerned with what I weigh for the rest of my life. Around the time I was in my early 20's I chose to partake in disordered eating. I went to therapy for better...and then proceeded to disregard all I learned and went back to survival mode. I am going to be 41... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 09:39:32 EST January 9, 2014 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Love the above quote...and that is what 2014 will be for me...doing those things I have always wanted to my life. I have utilized food as something to numb myself with since I was in my late teens. I have a great amount of OA support located all around me and am committing to going to a meeting today. I had to be willing to let things fall by the wayside in order to be ready to get back to the place... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 12:47:46 EST November 5th, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> All things splendid... <BR> Celebrating the little achievements is the journey itself. I feel a lot healthier than I did one month ago. I feel like I am finally awakening back to what life was meant to be. My eldest daughter even informed me last evening that it was nice to speak to me after 5 pm and not have me in bed. Depression sucks the life out of folks...I turned to everything else to medicate it instead of jus... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 12:48:33 EST October 30, 2013 <img src=""> My son fell asleep last evening as I was reading a Dr. Seuss book...thought it fitting to add a little Seuss to my morning post. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Found this quote kind of soothing this morning. I am proceeding down a path of great change today. I am a potluck of spirituality...I was raised lutheran, I attended 12-step meetings, I enjoy most of the new-age autho... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 12:11:28 EST October 10, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> A picture of my six year old son and myself back in the day...just trying at times to be a single mom. My eldest daughter reminded me that I will have a college graduate in December, a high school graduate in June, and a little man in elementary school...things will get easier <em>211</em> I needed that. I chose this past week to stop drinking diet soda and my nightly is an expensive habit and I want ... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 12:09:28 EST October 8, 2013 <em>334</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ~Always loved the movie "The Wizard Of Oz"...thought it fitting to have a little picture of those ruby red slippers on one of my blogs. We all have had the power all along. It remains a daily choice...some days are easier than others...but one day at a time becomes one week, one month, one year... <BR> ~Small changes over time. As Joyce Meyer says, " I may not be where I want to be, but than... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 16:00:44 EST October 7, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Haven't blogged lately...but liked this quote. Happy Monday <em>334</em> Mon, 7 Oct 2013 16:00:44 EST Don't Wait... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> September 18th, 2013 <BR> <BR> Don't wait... <BR> <BR> With all the lovely quotes I come across and the beautiful books I have read the common thread is that all we ever truly have is right now. One of my cousins was struggling with feeling happy today. I, too, have that struggle. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I instructed her to utilize the gratitude list. Lis... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 19:51:53 EST Believe... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think one of the quotes I like best from Albert Einstein was (paraphrased by myself) you can live your life as if everything is a miracle...or you can live your life as if miracles do not exist. <BR> <BR> That choice is mine...daily. Some days I do better than others. Some days bring more "opportunities" than I have prepared myself to deal with. <BR> <BR> I can feel the fear and do it anyway as Joyce Meyer... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 22:08:28 EST September 13, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Morning All:) <BR> It has been awhile...sorry. My house is in order...which is awesome after spending the past two months in a little bit of chaos. I am ready to get back on with it now. Which for me means taking care of Nicole. I reconnected with an old friend on facebook (from my old neighborhood where I grew up)...I thought we were going to chat about the stuff I believed we both enjoyed...spiritual stuff...b... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 12:35:33 EST August 22, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> This is a new day:) Let us rejoice and be is a new day. My 40 year old body wakes me up at 4 am on my non-work days too:) Utilized the early wake up call...watched a little of my lady Joyce Meyer, brewed some coffee, logged onto spark. <BR> <BR> I am thankful for a day to exercise, care for my kids, clean my house, organize things, a loving extended family, my crazy animals... <BR> <BR> And now I will s... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 09:05:21 EST August 21, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ~My eldest child is on her way back to her last semester of college, my middle child is now a senior in high school, and my baby is enrolled in a new school as a first grader. <BR> ~This house feels kind of empty with all the changes that have taken place over the past couple of months. <BR> ~ My ex-husband is serving time in a state prison up north...I had allowed him to stay in my office for the past 3.5 years... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 19:49:22 EST August 6th, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> Processing life as it is...Acceptance...Peace. I am a single mom of three healthy children. I have a job with health insurance. I have a roof over my head. I have a reliable car to drive. I have a nice warm cup of coffee in my hand. I can enjoy my life as it is right now in this moment...I love Paul's words in the bible...that he learned to be content in whatever situation he found himself in. I, too, can do so..... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 11:21:59 EST August 3, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just a short reminder that the only way out is through...and love is all there is. Goodnight and blessings. <em>334</em> Sat, 3 Aug 2013 23:50:31 EST Awesome August 1st, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ~Made a turn my life and my will over to a god of my understanding... <BR> <BR> Quick one...woke up, made the joe, turned on the tunes...logged onto the website. I will be consistent with my decision to become a healthier person physically, emotionally, and moment at a time. Blessings <em>213</em> Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:14:56 EST July 31, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Trust the process <em>134</em> <BR> Hold the vision... <BR> <BR> There exists a pattern in my life...or there has been a pattern that until today existed in my up on my vision & not trusting the process. <BR> <BR> And as Dr. Phil always says, "how is that working for you?" <BR> <BR> It is not working for me. I want to be a healthy weight and in decent physical and spiritual shape. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 20:09:41 EST July 30, 2013 <img src=""> <em>58</em> <em>125</em> <BR> <BR> Focusing on the kindnesses... <BR> ~there was someone at home at all times when Carleigh or Noah got home from school <BR> ~he fixed stuff in the house and I did not have to hire a contractor to do it. <BR> ~my dogs were exercised daily on the long runs he would take them on. <BR> ~my garbage cans were taken out every Sunday night. <BR> ~he taught Noah to swim and ride a bike <BR> <... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 19:03:17 EST July 25th, 2013 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am going to treat it as if it is a gift. I believe that these experiences are brought to me in order to get me to grow. I can stay stuck in the negative emotions I naturally want to gravitate toward when I am in the stuff...or I can take a step back and evaluate the situation. What is this experience trying to teach me? A couple of things...forgiveness helps me move on with my life...and if it walks like a du... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 10:57:34 EST